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ALL TOO WELL

~A fanfic in collaboration with @drarrywords

PART 1

PART 2

PART 3

PART 4

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MASTER LIST PART 2

(I can't believe myself that I had to create a second master list but oh where life takes you )

Requests accepted from

1. 300 followers appreciation dialogue Prompt

2. Angst Prompts

Collection from dialogue Prompts

1. When the Sun met the Moon

2. Mr. Obnoxious and Mr. Bossy

3. Rules in Archery

4. Twisted

7. Batteries

8. Bitter addictions

9. Shirts and hickeys

10. Let me take care of you

11. Allow me to be yours

12. Liars and lovers part 1 & part 2

13. 77 Tries

14. All the unicorn plushie's

15. Just petty things

16. Da Capo

17. Keys to a healthy relationship

18. It feels like rain

20. Just one eclipse

21. Wish I were Heather

22. Feeling without a name

23. Lover's dwellings

24. Half a heart

25. Better left unsaid

26. Your tiny safe box

27. In another life, in another time

28. End of the world

29. After the autumn part 1 & 2

30. Hearts in broken stars

31. The affair

5+6+19. The butterfly effect- Ongoing fic

Requested prompts/ microfics

Violinist in the rain

Paper hearts

Taste of heaven

Six sentence

1460 days

One where they died together

Fidus Amor

Cinnamon rolls was a date

3 minutes

Don't turn on the lights

Painted in green

Friend's don't kiss the way you do

You're mine : but a soft epilogue

7 stages of falling in love with Draco malfoy

7 stages of falling in love with Harry Potter

For he who found solace

Just another letter

Voldemort with a hat by Harry Potter

The Cards of Fate

Ghost man

Two ghosts - Halloween but Drarry

Another night at the Potter's

The kitten effect

Circles

Keep my heart

To the guy at the cafe

No strings attached

Salt

Picture in the wallet

Pottah

The predator wants the prey

Last Lines Challenge

Everything a lover does- valentine's edition

In the heart of the sea

HP DE-STRESS DECEMBER

Day 1 - The Decoration Disaster

Day 2 - Man in the sketch

Day 3 - All I Want For Christmas Is You

Day 4 - Coming home

Day 5 - Some unsaid love stories

Day 6 - In "that" phase

Day 7 - Wind in your hair

Day 8 - Crimson morning

Day 9 - Christmas Cabin

Day 10 - 4 circles

Day 11 - Lovers be damned

Day 12 - Palace Dè Elite

Day 13 - Trail to one day

Day 14 - You and Mine

Day 15 - Over the kitchen top

Day 16 - Daddy's boy

Day 17 - Lavender

Day 18 - Sunset and Pizza

Day 19 - Sweetest Memories

Day 20 - After a million dreams

Day 21 - A thousand times better

Day 22 - Family trip gone wrong

Day 23 - Pieces of a puzzle

Day 24 - Behind the bedroom doors

Day 25 - More than black boxes

Day 26 - 10 things I hate about you

Day 27 - The usual banters

Day 28 - Best Dad's In The World

MASTER LIST 1

( I have no idea why I've put so much efforts in the list )

Hi! Your writings are super amazing!

May I request Angst prompt 12 ?

Have a great day <3

Reality 304

Angst prompt no. 12- "I don't want us to be stranger's again" // thank you so much for saying that | TW- MILD ANGST| HURT/COMFORT |

We come in silence and we go in silence, we are born alone and we die alone, and we also love alone. Our hearts and our bodies are only given to us once and its on how we decide to abuse it. I would never call loving you an abuse, but i ripped out so much of myself to you just so i could love you that right now I remain with nothing but the flawless memories that stands with as a nightmare curling me into pain. I wanted to love you to the moon and back, i wanted to love till the sun died out but I think whoever wrote out stories had an effortless plan of keeping us apart but I think i would’ve loved you to the moon and back but I pondered over it so much that i realised that in the moon and back, I may go to the moon and never come back because my plane crashed, it doesn’t make sense but it makes in my head. I like to think that we never truly could love each other, we just loved the versions we spun out for each other but even if we wanted to stay till the original version, i think our mystery life writers thought otherwise, perhaps they knew better than we did. 

I think i would still be able to smell you in the rain because you always smelled so damp, it’s not particularly a smell that people adore, but i sort of liked it, i always thought it was earthly and reminded me of the greyish shade of the cloud i loved before the thunderstorm and the soft patting sound of the water dripping on the leaves, i think you always smelled so damp because you left your laundry wet for a little more longer than it was supposed to and I know i made fun of it, made limericks even but i hope you know that I wouldn’t trade it for the world. Do you know the colour of your eyes? There’s something intriguing in the way it only shines when you are smiling or you’re laughing because I have looked at your eyes in the sun but your loneliness was eating you alive, that your eyes never shone. I always liked the colour of your eyes. I always wonder if you thought about my eyes the way i do when we’re outside in the garden looking at each other. I wonder if you do it,or if you did it but i think it doesn’t matter any more now, our eyes doesn’t perceive each other the same way now. 

I always thought I’d ask you for a dance and we’d spin around the room and we’d laugh and we’d stare at the chandelier then we’d collapse on the ground because our head doesn’t stop spinning, i wonder if you’d take my hand if i asked you for a dance. I want us to grow old together and buy a house together and have a little dog and kitten but I think our holding hands together had sparked out infinities but it occurred to me one late night that our infinity is hollow, there’s nothing there, just you and me and I don’t want to think it’s boring, but isn’t it, just you and me? What if in a chaos one of us would wanted to go away for a while but we’re stuck in that infinity ring. But i think we found ways to escape anyways, It was after all you and I. 

I always liked to think that we’d have a name plate that would say “ Potter’s and Malfoy’s “ but now it leaves me empty to think about it, I think someone would paint over our nameplate and destroy it. I liked to imagine that we’d never end but even the empires who thought would live forever died. If we’re both the logs in a fire then i think we are the last one’s who kept the fire burning till the morning arrived and we died because of the air that poured in. I think somewhere our story writers are good and they’d let us end up together and in one time we’d talk with the painters about the exact shade of cream colour we want and the exact shade of blue we want for the kids, I think we exist somewhere, where we survive through it all and i still love you for you and you love me for me and we love each other to the moon and back, i think we love each forever somewhere even if forever doesn’t actually exist. I just like to think of our every possibility so at least in one of our realities or in one of our lives, we end up together with no complications, where our life have an happy ever after, i think somewhere we do, perhaps though not this life. 

“ I don’t want us to be strangers again “ I had spoken to you. You kissed the top of my head and you tell me we won’t be. 

But today as months have went by, you and I, we’re soulmates, just not the ones who end up together. 

You don’t speak to me anymore but you smile at me and somewhere it gives me hope, but where darkness inside me remains, it tells me you’re never coming back for me, never and I would die without your name to add to mine and i think one day i’d be okay with it, not today but one day. 

I don’t want to be strangers again, but i think we are, we’re just the one’s with bittersweet memories. 

Come back for me one day, Harry, come back for me, I don’t want to be strangers again, not with you because in one of our realities, my plane doesn't crash.

This is so short and I don't know why..

ANGST prompt requests open

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harry and draco living together + light angst + lots of pining + confessions 🤍

Friends don’t kiss the way you do [ The 100th ]

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KUDOS PEOPLE, JUST REALISED THIS IS MY 100TH PROMPT

Harry was illuminated in the bright yellow light as he fidgeted with things in the fridge when he heard

“ You finished your ice cream last night “ 

Harry banged his head against the refrigerator door, his heart beating louder in his chest than it was before “ you scared the shit out of me, why do you always have to come like a bloody ghost, can’t you just announce yourself as you walk in “ 

Draco’s lips turned into a little amused smirk “ now where would be the fun then“ 

Harry rolled his eyes as he flicked the lights on and looking for something to eat in the cabinets “ you’re back before 3 so i’m assuming your date wasn’t great or as you phrase it ‘fashionably bad’ “ 

“ interested much in my dating life now aren’t you “ Draco teased with a raised eyebrow and a quippy smirk 

“ Merely pitiful for your date “ Harry shrugged then grinning as soon as he found the last bag of chips 

“ You eat a lot of junk do you realize that, no wonder you look like a gym bag “ Draco shrugged following Harry into the living room 

“ Amusing you notice my body however to your displeasure i’d rather prefer to look however the way want rather than looking like a skinny twig like you who keeps working out because they like to flex their non existent muscles “ Harry said as he shoved chips into his mouth. 

“One this is called looking a size 4 and i do not have non existent muscles, i do have them, i just don’t flex them to you, why should I anyways “ Draco shrugged 

“ Right, I see a lot of arms when you come out of the shower. You don’t absolutely look like a twig, you look like a perfect model “ Harry rolled his eyes flipping the channels in the television only finding late night advertisements running on almost every channel

“At least I don’t look like you “ Draco rolled his eyes, raising his legs and crossing them over the table. 

“ You can never look like me even in your dreams Draco. You’re just jealous I look more better even after I eat all the junk and without working out, you just wish you looked like me” Harry faked a smile looking at Draco finally to notice he had been wearing his yellow jumper 

“ I look better than you Potter “ Draco scoffed taking his legs off the table 

“ Oh we’re back on potter, i bet i pinched a nerve there “ Harry elicited a small mockery laugh 

Draco scoffed at Harry with a little ‘ whatever ‘ tagged along with it. 

“You should do your laundry one of these days, I don’t want all my clothes smelling like you” harry added 

“ I’ll do it when I have the time and also this way I love to see you all annoyed because all your clothes smell like me, which by the way should smell like my expensive perfume “Draco replied with small victorious smile 

“ you might wear chanel or dior, I don’t care, just do your laundry soon” Harry said 

Draco rolled his eyes getting up to go to his room “Okay,Daddy “ 

Harry looked at Draco for way too long for him to correct himself when he realised Draco obviously didn’t get it. 

“ What ?” Draco asked with a raised eyebrow 

Harry pursed his lips controlling his laugh “Nothing” 

Draco narrowed his eyes at Harry suspiciously until he finally understood and did a big eye roll “ i seriously can’t believe you” 

Harry broke out laughing hearing Draco mutter some things as he walked into his room about how immature Harry was to laugh at something like that, he kept laughing obviously. 

The next morning before Harry left Draco had walked into the kitchen looking for milk and cereal to have his breakfast before he too left for work. Harry had only been eating a sandwich when he came and just then it clicked him

" How was your date last night,I never asked ?"

" the fact I didn't bring anyone home makes it pretty clear. He was looking for something serious, you know me " Draco scoffed.

Harry rolled his eyes getting up from the stool, washing his plate " yes, yes Draco malfoy doesn't do serious relationships. It's like you have an allergy "

" who knows I even might " Draco shrugged

" well anyways I'm out " Harry informed picking up his bags to go when he added " oh by the way I'll be late, you can make your own dinner "

" what ? So now you have a date ?" Draco comically scoffed, pouring milk into his bowl.

" Actually yeah, I do have a date " Harry replied with raised eyebrows.

Draco's milk almost spluttered upon hearing the news " you have a date ? You ?"

" yes, me..wish me luck " Harry grinned and left the apartment.

Draco only mumbled a bye in the air as he left, vaguely shocked by the news.

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Draco would like to honestly reply, his week wasn't great, not even a little bit. Working as a potions master who didn't necessarily like kids, it was a lot to ask for when the year had just begun and the kids kept messing every potion up and he would have to help clean most of them up. So to sum up the week wasn't great and unfortunately he didn't even had a date but he thought to himself that maybe he'd spend time with Harry who had been out almost all week, it would be a nice Saturday night, watching some cliche movies or talking about something or playing the boring scrabble when he opened the door and was immediately landed upon the sight of Harry making out with some girl right over the couch.

Draco unintentionally dropped his keys over to the ground in mild shock breaking him out of his trance to see that girl shoving her entire tongue down his throat, he finally came to his senses and clumsily picked up his keys.

" i- I- didn't know l- I'll just be in my room" Draco rambled

Harry and the girl got up fixing themselves up " no it's alright- we just- well got here "

" I'm nadia by the way "

" oh yeah, Draco, Nadia, Nadia, Draco "

Draco shook her hand firmly before he let go awkwardly.

" I should be going actually, I've got to watch over Nancy's kids " Nadia said.

" oh yeah, I'll see you soon then. I'll call you" Harry replied.

Draco watched from where he stood touching the oranges as if pretending to busy himself into something as Harry bid his bye to the girl who obviously wore a dress down to the cleavage that if it were any more exposing, her breasts would fall out. Just the thought of it made Draco almost puke in his mouth, he didn't however know why.

Harry returned grinning, his hands shoved in his pockets.

" looks like you've got a hanger in your mouth" Draco sarcastically said

" she- she just is so great you know, I mean did you look at her, she was going to watch over for her sister's kid. How great is that "

" big deal, I teach kids everyday " Draco never really knew why he said what he said but he knew he said it and practically ran into his bedroom, announcing he was too tired and would like to be left alone.

That particular night he had a dream about making out with Harry and just like that he had woken up startled, shocked and surprised to death and couldn't wait to forget the dream.

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" I'd wonder after getting a boyfriend, you'd actually wear his jumpers more than mine " Harry teased as he looked through CD's to find a movie to watch.

Draco was confused before he realised the debt he had to pay for lying that he had a boyfriend " oh-oh yeah- yours just fit better "

" they're basically falling off your shoulder, you 4 sized model " Harry chuckled. 

Draco secretly smiled rubbing the corner of his eyes “ laundry is a lot to do” 

“ Well if you’d keep procrastinating it, it would seem like a lot, why don’t you just go with someone- your date perhaps “ 

“ Yeah, I'm sure my date would be thrilled to go on a date at Laundromat “ Draco rolled his eyes, shutting off the kitchen cabinets and disposing of the bags he bought things into the drawer. 

They were silent for a little too long when Harry almost fell back, almost startled “ we should double date “ 

Draco stubbed his foot against the chair, groaning in pain “what?” 

“ you are dating someone, i’m dating someone, we should go on a double date” Harry suggested 

“ oh- i- i don’t know yet, i mean we just started out dating, I don’t want to scare him off you know” 

“ But I'm pretty sure he knows about me, right? You guys must’ve talked and everything or- you didn’t tell him you’re living with me ?” Harry asked quizzically 

Draco frowned, wondering why should he had told that to anyone he was ever dating but he couldn’t think of a reason why. 

“ Did you find something to watch or not ?” Draco interrupted 

“ How does Die hard sound?” 

Draco shook his head " too violent "

" How does Titanic sound ?" Harry asked showing him the CD

" Nah, too sad, the hot guy dies " Draco mumbled bringing the cold coffees he made in his hand and standing next to harry to see which movie CD's they had

" Cars ?" Harry asked looking up at Draco from where he was sat

" metal cars with faces and racing, I'm not 5"

" but you love cars " Harry countered

" well- I'm just not in that mood " Draco replied

" well then what kind of mood are you even in ?"harry asked

Draco thought for a moment staring at the wall at the opposite wall with a scrunched face and then replied" something- like uplifting "

"romantic comedy then. You're such a sap Draco " Harry chuckled, fetching 10 things I hate about you.

" I'm not a sap and you enjoy romantic comedies as much as I do, they're comforting " Draco bounced back on the couch with Pillow tucked over his lap.

" Not going to lie, they are, " Harry agreed, sitting down on the couch next to Draco and keeping his feet over the table, crossing them immediately.

" You ordered pizza right ?" Harry asked a while later

" I thought you did "

" Why would I do it ?" Harry countered back in pitchy tone

" because you said you would " Draco argued

" but-"

" just go and order for Merlin's sake, it'll only take 2 minutes " Draco rolled his eyes eating his popcorn

Harry groaned and got up mumbling to himself about how irresponsible Draco was making Draco laugh in himself.

It took Harry far too long when he finally returned after ordering the pizza to the point that he had called out Harry a lot of times telling him the good scene was up until Harry returned with a light jacket in his hand.

"Were you making the piz- are you going to get the pizza from the store or what ?" Draco questioned

" what- no- the pizza would be around in 5 minutes. I'm just going to Nadia's, she called and she asked if I was free and I told her I was so we're going to hang out " Harry shrugged his jacket on himself huffing when he accidentally hit his face with the chain.

“ So what, now you’re just going to cancel our movie day ?” Draco asked offended 

“Well Draco- you understand right, I mean this is the girl I’m dating-” 

“ And just because you’re dating we have to do everything according to her, I don’t get it. It’s our movie day and you’re going to cancel it for some girl” Draco raised his voice, almost hurt 

“ Its just a movie night Draco, we can do it anytime-” 

“ It isn’t about we can do it anytime, it’s about you committing to the plan and lately all you’ve been doing is making your plans according to her, I mean Harry there are other people in the world too- “ 

“ Oh I’m sorry for actually being considerate about my date and wanting to spend time with her and taking her somewhere nice but oh- i forgot that’s because i’m dating her and this is what dating is all about and it may seem offensive to you but i frankly don’t care about you and that stupid movie. And i’m going on whatever my date is as a nice guy because Unlike you Draco I don’t just sleep with people and leave them- i-i didn’t mean-” 

“ Yeah, sure, Whatever Harry “ Draco's voice broke as he shut off the TV and stormed back into his room, slamming his door loudly as he got in. 

Harry ran across the hall after Draco and loudly knocked on his door. 

“ Draco, please- you know I didn’t mean it- Draco-” 

“ Just go away Harry “ Draco called from the other side of the room and Harry could only sigh to himself. 

“ Draco I’m sorry, alright, I didn’t mean it “ Harry frowned when met with silence, resting his head against Draco’s door but the silence dragged on for too long and Harry turned to see the time, immediately realizing he was late. 

“Draco- i’m sorry alright, just know it okay, but i really need to go. Just- don’t be mad at me for too long “ But Draco didn’t reply and Harry left the apartment defeated. 

At night when Harry returned, he hadn't known that Draco was sitting in the corner of the kitchen counter silently eating his ice cream when he saw Harry walk past with a smile covering his face, he was humming to some song that he only sang when he was in a very good mood and it made Draco's heart clench to see how happy Harry seemed or how that girl made him so happy when Draco always thought that he could be the only to make him smile like that. Draco didn't want to hate Harry being in a good, Cherishing, uplifted mood but after the argument they had he couldn't bring himself to not be mad at him. Draco had sulked the entire day away, even regretting how he should've forgiven Harry because he knew he didn't mean it but after seeing him like that, he couldn't help it and above everything else, he didn't know who he was more mad at, himself for being petty or Harry who looked happy or the girl who made him so happy.

As Harry expected Draco remained mad at him for long and refused to even be in the same place or room as Harry and it was affecting him more than he even imagined. Half his mind was always involved into making plans to fix things with Draco even when he was on a date and it was unintentionally affecting his dating life with Nadia. 

“ Big deal Harry, he’ll forgive you at some point, don’t worry” Nadia comforted him 

“But that’s the point, he isn’t,I said some stupid things I should not have “ Harry almost wanted to take his hands away from Nadia’s grip because they didn't feel familiar but he reminded himself that she was only trying to comfort him.

“ He’ll come around Harry-” and just then his apartment door opened and Draco walked in with a bunch of laundry in his hands. 

“ You did the laundry?” Harry asked immediately, standing up unconsciously losing his hold with Nadia. 

“ I did since you were bothered that I wore your clothes  I’ll leave your clothes on your bed “ Draco dismissed Harry without looking at him and busying himself with keeping his keys on the counter. 

“ I mean I didn’t actually mind it besides now they all smell good because of you, you could’ve done them any day “ It was clear Harry was trying to mend things with Draco but he didn’t acknowledge it. 

He turned around to face Harry finally after days, his eyes even falling on Nadia but retracing back to Harry “ I also made sure your clothes doesn’t smell like my stupid expensive perfume or me, I washed them three times so now all it smells like is detergent “ 

Harry opened his mouth to say something but he couldn’t, he was just face planted with the idea of how much it actually hurt him right now to listen to him talking about not wanting to wear his clothes anymore. He always assumed that this was in fact what he wanted but the thought of Draco washing his clothes out of spite and the possibility of Draco never wearing his clothes again made his heart grow smaller in his chest. He thought he didn’t like his clothes smelling like Draco’s soap or perfume but to even think of his clothes smelling like just detergent made him want to make Draco wear all his clothes so they smelled like him again and never washing it again because he never wanted his clothes to smell of anything but Draco . Just laundry making his mind do circles made him feel like a lunatic but he hated to feel distant from Draco anymore. He hated what they had turned into but the more he hated was the fact that he didn't know how to fix it.

Harry and Draco would have stood there watching each other, hurt by each other but as if Nadia sensed it, she spoke up.

"Let's go out for coffee " and she said and practically dragged Harry out with her.

Harry didn't want to but he knew that if there was one thing that was true was the fact that Draco definitely didn't want to see Harry anymore. He watched Draco as he left with Nadia, a pang of guilt in his chest that grew stronger when Draco watched him watching him leave but he was sure at this point that he could do nothing.

It was less than a few minutes when Harry had found himself sitting in a cafe across the street but he was lost in his own thoughts.

" he'll forgive you "

He almost jumped up in his chair then realised Nadia bought them coffees.

" What's this ?"

" it's a chai tea,like a venti. It's really good "

Harry didn't wanna break her heart but he loathed chai tea, it tasted disgusting to him and the only time he actually even liked tea was the one's Draco prepared when he was ever sick and he couldn't help but remember the time when they had first taken chai tea as something new to try but ended up laughing all the way back home throwing it in the dumpster because of how awful it tasted to them.

Harry hesitantly took a sip of the chai tea and almost wanted to throw up but Nadia was looking at him so eagerly in hope that he drank a bit more and gave her a reluctant smile. He could imagine Draco Snickering in the back of his head but bringing Harry the special order that only Draco knew what it was, not even Harry knew himself. It was sort of a routine they had made, they both knew each other's favourite coffee order but none of them knew their own coffee and it was sort of appealing but at a moment like this when he had to gulp down the entire chai tea he wished Draco was here to order him his drink.

" You didn't like it, did you ?" Nadia asked empathetically.

" Was I that obvious ?" Harry scrunched his face trying to get rid of the after taste.

" It's not such a big deal Harry, you could've just said you didn't like it and I would've replaced it. What do you like, I'll order that for you ?" She asked

Harry could've said anything but how could he answer when he himself didn't know what he liked " I- I actually don't know "

" What do you mean you don't know ? You must like at least some sort of coffee ?" She asked frowning

" Well you see- Draco Knows my order. We just have this thing that we know each other's orders but don't know our own, it was just a stupid thing we tried out once but we couldn't get rid of the habit " harry explained

" So you guys don't know what kind of coffee you individually like ?" She asked, almost cutting off a laugh.

" nope " harry emphasised on the 'p'

" well- that's- something entirely your two's business and I can't possibly figure out your order on my own so looks like you're gonna need Draco for the rest of your life " she laughed but even if Harry laughed, he didn't find it humorous, In Fact the thought of having Draco being in his life for the rest of his life seemed very appealing and he didn't know why but after living with him for so long and knowing him for almost all his life, he couldn't imagine a place in his life where there isn't Draco.

He knew Nadia was talking about something or joking about something a but his heart and his mind was left somewhere else, maybe at the apartment where Draco was and even if he subconsciously felt like he knew the reason he didn't dwell on the thought of it, he just sat there as Nadia talk about a bunch of stuff and his mind thinking of Draco and how he had known him his almost entire life that the thought of Draco not being in his life somehow messed up with the functioning. He sat there thinking of who would wear his clothes if Draco's gone or who would order his coffee or who would buy the CD's to watch movie or who would he even have a movie night with or who would he take to the boring ministry party's he went as a guest to or who would he play quidditch with or who would take him on random adventures in the most chaotic of times or who would bring the flowers for the bowl in the kitchen or who would remind him that he ran out of his ice cream or who would tell him that he dumped his work clothes in the dumpster in the hallway or who would tell him that his glasses are at the top of his head and who would make him wear those glasses or who would randomly help Harry to tie his tie, not because he couldn't do it but because Draco enjoyed doing it or who would steal his wand for petty fights and hide it above the cabinet's in the kitchen that Harry pretends he doesn't know is his hiding spot or who would sit with a pillow while watching movie because Harry falls asleep on Draco's lap more than often or who would braid Harry's hair sometimes just because it's fun or who would clean the TV cabinet because he saw a tiny bit of dust or who would organise his closet or who would he rate people with in a bar based on their outfit or who would he rate house with for how good they looked or who would he ride a bus with or who would just go on a walk with, if not Draco then who, if he doesn’t share all f this with Draco then who ?

Harry doesn't remember much from after the cafe but he knew exactly when he got in the apartment and saw Draco sleeping on the couch and he covered him up with a soft couch blanket they had kept only because of this reason. He smiled at Draco when he saw his lips curl up a Little bit in his sleep and he almost wanted to brush off the hair off his face but Draco was a light sleeper and he didn't want to wake him up especially after realising that this was the most he'd seen him smile the entire week. He left him to be and swiftly took one of his jumpers and sneaked in Draco's closet and went inside his room.

As day's Turned into weeks, Draco started to realise the real reason he was mad at Harry. He was hurt. That was it, he was hurt that Harry was replacing Draco with someone who he had just met when he had known him for all his life, he was hurt because instead of going to the parks with Draco, Harry now was going with that girl, because it pained him to see that Harry returned smiling more than often. He was hurt because it was all happening in front his eyes and he couldn't do anything to prevent it, he remained there watching Harry making plans with the girl, cancelling the one's with Draco and he didn't even know why it made him mad, he certainly didn't own Harry or he wasn't his significant other but reality crushed him when he realised that this was probably what the rest of his life is going to look like, the one where Harry dates someone else and have his happy ever after while Draco sulk away, regretting everything and getting off who he was with. And he didn't like to admit it out loud but he was jealous. Jealousy bubbled inside him like a Lava as Harry and Nadia got deeper into the whole dating thing, he didn't quite know why or he did know why but he didn't want to admit but for just one day, Draco wished he could be with Harry without his date and everything else, just the two of them, they could do anything and everything and just for that one day Draco would like to prove to him that Draco was so much more better than she was. 

Harry and Draco had made some progress after almost 3 weeks when they accidentally got invested into a conversation about some stupid Mark at work and had ended up making a joke about it when they realised they weren't talking to each other and awkwardly went into their respective rooms, little did the two of them know they kept smiling the entire time behind their own doors, going to bed with a grin on their faces because they had finaly talked about something, even if for a little while,they enjoyed it. 

But that was all for the remainder of the week because they didn't interact for the rest and Harry kept venting out to Nadia about how immature it was at this point.

" harry- ha- harry- shut up " Nadia interjected loudly. He was taken aback by her tone but the reason became more clear when she spoke up.

" look- I-i just appreciate you venting out to me and everything and you talking about how it's been going on for so long and how immature it is and I appreciate how you're not keeping it in but Harry I'm dating- just you, not the two of you "

" What do you mean ?" Harry frowned.

" What I mean is Harry, I'm only dating you but I just always feel like I'm also dating Draco at the same time. It's always about Him, he likes this restaurant, he knows my orders, he likes this food, oh he said the food here isn't good, this sweater is a perfect fit on Draco, he likes the same Ice cream or no he doesn't like that. It's always he likes this or what he doesn’t like or it's always about how immature Draco is to keep this whole thing going on and how you want to fix things up but you're not, or how you had a wonderful conversation with him by accident but it was a progress. I like you Harry, I do, very much, you're a very considerate guy but It's always about him and it's a bit annoying " Nadia exhaustingly huffed as if she'd been keeping it in for a very long time.

" you- think I talk about him too much ?" Harry asked, almost shocked but also not.

" you do harry, you do too much and i know you like me but it's clear you're absolutely inevitably in love with Draco, I mean Jesus you're thinking off him half the time you're with me " she responded

Harry was suddenly taken aback " I am not in love with Draco- I mean that is just absurd beyond anything. Draco is good friend that is all, there's nothing like that about him and i am most definitely not attracted to him "

" the hell you're not harry '' she chuckled " you literally spend all your time thinking about him, you only like him wearing your clothes, I'm the one you're dating but you've never offered me one but you just happen to love him in your clothes even though they're very oversized, he's the only person who knows your goddamn coffee order, he's the only person you make any plans with, he's the Only one who allowed to touch your stuff, he's the only one allowed to eat you ice cream, I mean please Harry who are you kidding, you're so mind numbingly in love with Draco and it's so adorable how you don't even know about it. Just think of it this way, are you that sort of friend with anyone but Draco ? Can you imagine laying in your best friend's lap, Ron's lap for instance? Can you ?"

He must've gotten the point but he wasn't ready to give in, he could not love Draco, how could he, he was his flatmate, or could he ?

" I- I don't love him " he stammered

" Okay then maybe you like him a lot. You care for him too much harry and that's not how friends care for each other. You don’t search for just a friend in a room full of people or you don’t stare at your friend from across the room like they mean everything to you, you don’t do that if you’re just friends and its not just you but I know Draco liked you too and maybe that’s why he is giving you a hard time " she pointed out with a warm smile.

" but- no- I don't like him, we're just very comfortable friends " harry rambled.

Nadia shook her head smiling " alright, if you don't think that, then it's okay but I know you are definitely in love with him, so I'm gonna do you a favour and I'm going to break up whatever this is, alright. I don't want to spend the rest of my time waiting for some guy who I know is in love with his friend and I'm the reason he's not with him " she smiled.

Harry shook his head " that's not true-"

" It's okay Harry, it's what I believe. Let me do that. And I know you've been wanting to break up too but you're just too sweet to do that " she wasn't wrong and so he didn't counter back.

" Next time bring Draco on a coffee date alright " she chuckled, paying for her half of the bill.

" but-"

But she left, abandoning Harry in the cafe. He walked back home with no thought other than what she had said and the weird part was even though he was just broken off, he was still thinking about Draco and how he might possibly be in love with him or how at least others frame him to be in love with Draco even if he wasn't but somewhere Harry knew Nadia wasn't all wrong. Draco consumed a greater part of his mind and heart and he didn't mind it, not even a little bit. The more stranger part was he could imagine loving Draco, taking him out on a date, holding his hand,kissing his forehead, cuddling with him, watching movies with him, living with him, making breakfast for him, making dinner even, bringing him flowers, taking care of him when he’s sick because he already did all of them and he liked doing it for Draco, he liked being there with him with whatever it was. 

He entered the flat to Draco preparing dinner in the kitchen when he joined in and sat down in one of the kitchen stools watching Draco work.

Harry might've been too silent that Draco didn't notice his presence but he jumped up as soon as he did, making the hot bowl of soup fall all over Draco's hands.

" fuck- couldn't you had just announced yourself when you came in " Draco gritted as he shook his hands rapidly. Harry jumped up from his seat, getting hold of Draco's hands and putting them under cold water.

"Well now you know how it feels when you ghostly appear in the Middle of the night " Harry rolled his eyes, washing Draco's hands in his own.

" Does it hurt ?" He asked instantaneously

" Like a bitch, Harry" Draco scoffed but it was clear it pained him.

Harry immediately fetched a bag of pea from the refrigerator and applied it over his hand making draco relax under his touch.

" Better ?"

" loads " Draco responded with his eyes closed in relief.

Harry watched Draco as his eyes remained closed, the water kept running Between their hands still together and how he liked holding his hand right now and he couldn’t help but think about all that Nadia said and he wondered if it was all true. 

Draco opened his eyes as if he could feel he was being watched and turned his face to Harry, who still kept staring at him. Harry kept watching him how his face seemed so soft from the relief and just the way he was with his little dimpled smile and that mischevious smirk, those quirky sarcasm and his loud silence and he knew then that what Nadia said was true, he truly loved him, he loved him because who he was in Harry's life and how he filled every space remaining in his heart but romantically he knew he liked Draco a lot, he liked him too much that his heart was racing like it was trying to win a race with no cars around but just going on and on.

" what ?" He asked softly.

Harry gulped, Breaking out of his trance and closing the tap and taking his hands away from Draco's hand but the bag of pea immediately fell and Harry knew he couldn't leave his hand, not just yet.

" how does it feel ?" Harry asked, he didn't know what exactly he was asking for but he did.

" it- better- it'll be fine in a while, it was just soup " Draco replied looking away from Harry who was staring at him for far too Long that Draco almost felt embarrassed.

" wasn't it your date today ?" Draco asked

"We- we actually broke up " Harry replied

Draco grew confused suddenly asking him what happened.

" She thinks I love someone else " Harry's heart hammered loudly in his chest as he stared at their hands.

" oh " Draco's face immediately fell.

" she thinks I'm in love with you because all I do is talk about you all day long " Harry hesitantly added

Draco swallowed, his own heart beating rapidly " yo- you don't ?"

Harry wanted to look up at Draco but he didn't know how to face him right now, how could he look him in the eye and tell him the truth after everything they've been through. How could he and what if Draco didn't like him ?

" I- "

" Never mind " Draco interjected when Harry took too long to reply, taking the bag of pea from Harry and moving away from his hold.

" what- Draco-" but Draco was deciding to walk away and the only way to hold him back was to stop him from going by pulling him back from his waist and standing just before Draco, so he almost caged him.

" I- didn't say anything, " Harry said.

‘’But you obviously don't, " Draco said, looking at his feets.

Harry put his finger under Draco's chin making him look up in his eyes.

" Do you ?" Harry asked

Draco remained speechless for a long time, perhaps finding a better way to confess but didn't know without fearing a rejection.

" I- I don't know " Draco replied

" I don't know either," Harry added.

" what ?" Draco questioned frowning.

" it's true that I talk about you all day Long and it's true that I think about you way more than I should or that we're not friend friends but up until now I never really realised if I actually liked you or not, I maybe always knew I liked you somewhere but I'm refusing myself because i’m sort of afraid but I think I do but I also think- nmph" Harry arms immediately fell over Draco's waist as he felt his lips over his own and breaking away too soon.

" Did it help ?" Draco asked innocently.

" Maybe we should try again and then we might find out'' Harry whispered blushing and they kissed again and this time they kissed for longer than before and with no rush to separate. It wasn't perfect, there was a little bit of more tongue than the other was used to or there was less of tongue than other was used to and there was too much stumbling and there was even stepping on the others toes but everything became worth it when they finally found the rhythm and Harry had cupped Draco's back pulling him closer and Draco's wounded hands were in Harry's hair pulling him closer too. It took them a while to find a way to make their kiss perfect, their own perfect kiss with just the appropriate amount of tongue, appropriate amount of lip biting, the overflowing feelings included with a passion and a desire to find air in other's mouths. They didn't care after a point what they were breathing because in that moment all it mattered was that they were kissing each other, finally, after maybe putting their feelings in denials.

They only broke apart when Draco accidentally bumped his hands together and he immediately winced in pain and Harry instantly made some distance, taking Draco's hands in his own and applying a cold bag of pea again.

" Maybe we should save it for later, " Harry smiled.

Draco nodded, smiling.

They sat down after a while Harry was holding the bag of pea in his hand for him when Draco spoke up.

" What does this mean ? Like do you like me ?  Are we going to start dating ?"

Harry Chuckled " I think I've always liked you but I would like to figure out till what extent I am in love with you and it can mean whatever you want it to mean, it can Also be just 2 five year olds doing playdate '

Draco chuckled shaking his hand " you're daft "

Harry laughed a little before the laughter evaporated and he was left with a smile " I would like to take you out on a date If you'd like that ?"

Draco bit his lip softly, nodding " I'd love to "

Harry placed a soft chaste kiss over lips Before he broke away Just to ask a simple question " does this mean you like me ?"

Draco rolled his eyes big time " you really are an idiot,i had my tongue in your mouth not 5 seconds ago. Of course I like you, I’ve liked you for a while now "

Harry Chuckled and resumed kissing Draco softly.They finally were more than just friends and there was no one more happy about it than them.

Thank you so much @drarrywords for helping me out with this prompt a lot

This took me almost three days to write, i just hope people don’t hate this . Ps. On side note thank you so much for 500 followers despite my recent immense inactivity which i'm gravely sorry about.

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Da Capo - Part 11

Part 1-5 | Part 6 - 10

Coda (Italian: 'tail'). The tail end of a piece of music. Usually a section which indicates the end of the piece or section is approaching.

The wind howled where he sat, his back unsupported,his legs dangling off the roof and the smoke of one of the chimneys going off in the air, leaving grey clouds behind. He liked this peace, the silence, the scene in all because perhaps he was always looking for that void inside him to be filled and this helped him,the bizarre evening with one part of the sky already turning a darker shade of blue while the rest was painted in the pink orange sky, he liked it, he liked it all here, right where he was yet he felt himself to be in one of those moments where he’s diving in the ocean looking for something only he doesn’t know what it is, he’s just going deeper and deeper but he doesn’t even realise what it is. There were so many moments in his life that felt like blank canvas waited to be painted with or he felt as if he stood before a blank canvas with a brush in his hand, a stroke in position but he doesn’t know what to paint and it scares him that he doesn’t. He heard someone once say that he was the master of his own life, that his decisions, his choices, his life all lied in his own hands but he had often related himself to the animals left in the circus to perform, he knows what he needs to perform because he’s been trained to, he had rehearsed it but when the time comes when he’s on stage and it’s all real, he’s alone and he does as he had practiced and everyone in the audience thinks he came up with it, that he did it but that was the thing, he didn’t, he never did anything on his own,he was just a well trained circus animal ready to play fetch on stage. The silence grew louder in his chest and he stared longingly at the view reminiscing his conversations, the one with Draco which was more a dissolved argument than a conversation and the conversation with Ron 3 days ago . Reality crushed him like every other time and he fucked up once again, like he did several times in his life, like he did with everyone, like he fucked up at work today, he hated this him, the one who fucked up a lot, the one who let people down, the one who messed up relationships, the one where he remained alone bearing the consequences of fucking up, he wishes he didn’t fuck up but he felt all his life has been nothing but a fuck up and maybe that’s why he left everything behind so he could relearn life, so he could undo himself, be a new transformed Harry who didn’t fuck up and everyone would love him but it always felt impossible for him to not fuck up, it was as if it ran in his veins to mess it all up. 

He visions the look on Draco’s face the night he left, the night they fought recently, he can imagine that it was the same pained look he woke upto everyday after Harry left him. He thought he did good, leaving Draco, abandoning him so he could see clearly why being with Harry was only a ruin, a sort of abysmal curse but the day he held the phone to his hear to call him back, he knew somewhere deep inside him that Draco didn’t see Harry that way, not yet at least. He wanted him to hate Harry, to finally open his closed eyes and see why being with Harry was just a stupid mistake but in his moments of weaknesses, he seek his comfort, his touch, his soft eyes, his soft smile, his love for him that he knows still linger somewhere, behind all of it, there’s still love and Draco didn’t deny it the night Draco left, he didn’t run away like Harry did, he faced his love and he conquered it and he stood with love and he exposed his love for Harry like an open wound but instead of healing it, Harry digs the flesh a little deeper so he was hurt, more, but maybe Draco was a fool in love that Harry knew he’d wait. He said it so himself that night that he’d wait, it wasn’t in his words that gave him assurance, it was in his face, in his eyes, in his pain that he’d wait when Harry is ready but how long would he wait until he have to give up. Would he ever even give up ? If 10 years from now if Harry doesn’t return home or he doesn’t reply to his calls, would he give up ? Would he settle with a man who would love him and cherish him and promise to love him to his grave, would Draco go with the man or would he wait for Harry to run to the altar to stop his wedding or would he wait for Harry late at night in his marriage to pick up the undialled call or would he look at strangers in the store and mistake them to be Harry and accidentally wave at them, would he name his kid Harry because it reminded him of the early happiness in his life, would he wait or would he give up if Harry decides to never return ? 

Harry likes to imagine a life where Draco waits, a life where the fight over who tore the grocery bag or who’s turn is it to change the toothpaste or who forgot to put the milk in the fridge or a life where Draco have sweet nicknames for Harry each day, a life where they celebrate anniversaries with their loved on. A simpler life, the one where Harry doesn’t mess up but when an year ago when he used to see Draco stressed over things that Harry caused, he just wished to take his pain away, his sufferings away and that time the answer seemed to be leaving him and it maybe worked for a while, but then the void started to grow day by day as he walked the streets of Paris alone, as he visited all those famous places alone, as he started to shop alone, he felt the void growing and no air, no water, no sand, nothing extinguished it because it wasn’t a fire, it was in its own ‘matter’ that took up space, weight and mass, a weight that felt heavier day by day. He remembers one day when he woke up and he was in a good mood for once in a very long while and he remembered discussing with Draco about how Paris was a nice place to go for a trip and he booked the tickets as a surprise for their coming anniversary but that night when he had came from work, he saw Draco so much stressed from work, from things at home, from family, people that Harry tore those tickets apart without even thinking twice, now he likes to think that maybe taking Draco on that trip would’ve changed everything, for better or for worse, either on that trip Draco could’ve realised how Harry was a burden in his life or he could’ve realised that Harry was the one he wanted to spend the rest of his life with but he never waited to find out because he was  impulsive and he took a decision so fast that he never even fully thought of what would’ve happened and somewhere Harry pretends its alright because he could not have bore such a result, he could not have bared being the one in his life or the worse where Draco would’ve decided to leave Harry because it seemed better when he didn’t know the truth but he wishes a lot that he knew it, he wishes that he had taken him on that trip and found out the answers that beheld, but again that’s what his entire life was, looking for answers for questions he never asked. There are questions he had pinned in the last page of his journal he opens only when he have a new one and the most highlighted one was the one " why did I come to Paris ? Why did I run away ?"

Maybe Draco was a bait he fed the answer as to the question but it had always been bigger than that, he knew it, he knew when he felt it when he blamed draco most nights that he ran away, he can feel it stirring inside his bones like an earthquake ready to divide the earth in two, but he doesn't know, he doesn't know what the answer is, neither is he sure he would ever be ready to learn that answer. He liked to live in peace that he didn't know it, yet he spent most of his days wondering about the dangling question just like his feets right now. He knows the answer wouldn't make any difference but he likes to think it would, he likes to imagine that he knows the answer, he likes to imagine that the answer lies in his fist but he's just too afraid to let go.

He heard the screeching of the door open behind him of the roof and he turned around to see Thomas walking in with a ball in his hand.

" Que fais-tu ici ?" ( What are you doing here ?) Thomas asked walking towards Harry, his ball tucked under his arm

" La vie " ( life ) Harry Chuckled.

Thomas didn't say anything but sat down besides Harry, a little scared to keep his feet dangling so he held onto the wall too tight.

" won't fall " Harry assured

" Comment savez-vous ?" ( How do you know ) Thomas snapped lightly

" this wall beneath " Harry pointed at the wall beneath his dangling feet. Thomas relaxed a little but still held onto to the wall tightly.

" Et la vie alors ? " ( So what about life ) Thomas asked turning to face Harry a little.

Harry chuckled " Tout " ( everything )

" dis-moi tout alors " ( tell me all about it then ) Thomas said.

Harry confusedly frowned at Thomas, trying to reconnect in his head the meaning of the words.

" tell me about it?" Thomas said in his french accent.

" Ce n'est rien " ( it's nothing ) Harry shook his head

" tell me" Thomas egged.

Harry stared at Thomas, a little boy of 12 for longer than a few minutes then thought what harm could it do.

" Un garçon " Harry said with a smile ( a boy )

" Celui qui a visité ?" ( The one who visited ) Thomas asked curiously

Harry nodded " Utilisé pour sortir avec lui" ( used to date him )

" you don't say " Thomas chuckled.

Harry smiled at Thomas confused " Pourquoi ?" ( Why ?)

" ah, he love you- Beaucoup " ( very much ) Thomas chuckled.

" how do you- did he tell you ?" Harry asked curiously

" no, I just see " Thomas answered.

Harry wanted to Laugh, he was a mere boy of 12, how possibly could he had seen the love or anything that existed but Harry always knew Thomas has been far wiser for his age and had noticed thing's many failed to notice.

" Qu'as-tu vu ?" ( What did you see ?) Harry asked

" Amour " ( love ) Thomas smiled.

" what sort ?" Harry asked now genuinely being curious, as if it'd help find answers.

" you see- this " he picked up his ball and pointed at it. Harry nodded. " Je joue au foot tous les jours, j'adore ça. Comme si c'était mon oxygène. He love you like that " ( I play soccer every day, I love it. Like it's my oxygen)

Harry thinks he barely understood it, he thinks he doesn't understand his french but he did, he knew when he picked up his ball, he knew where he was going just when he pointed at it, he understood the end most of all.

" football- my life- he love you- like your his life " Thomas said.

Harry stared at Thomas with a ball in his hand for very long time, he could hear him breathing, the scratching of his elbow on the ball, the sound of the chimney blowing off, the sound of a pressure cooker giving a whistle, he could listen it all and yet he was stuck with his echoing words from Thomas "he love you- like your his life "

Draco loved harry like he was his life, was it true, he didn't know.

" Commentaire savez-vous ?" ( How do you know ) Harry finally asked.

" Vous pouviez le voir, à la façon dont il vous rendait visite, à la façon dont il vous achetait à manger, à la façon dont vous riiez ensemble quand vous montiez les escaliers, c'était un rire plutôt agaçant mais c'était un vrai rire, Vous pouviez le voir dans la façon dont il vous regardait, dans la façon dont il marchait avec vous, parlait avec vous, dans tout. Il t'aime, beaucoup, tellement" Thomas answered truthfully.

(You could see him, the way he visited you, the way he bought you food, the way you laughed together when you walked up the stairs, it was a pretty annoying laugh but it was a real one, the laugh,You could see it in the way he looked at you, in the way he walked with you, spoke with you, in everything. He loves you, a lot, so much)

Harry's French wasn't as strong as it should've been and he knew he didn't understood most of it but he could feel it when Thomas said everything, he meant Draco loved him in everything, In the way he laughed with him, in the way he talked with him, in the way he visited him, in the way he walked with him, he loved him in everything and a lot too.

" Comment en savez-vous autant ? " ( How you know so much ?) Harry asked after a while.

" watching " Thomas replied, then pointed at the dying sun and smiled " it's beautiful "

Harry smiled after a while too. It was beautiful. It was very much indeed.

" you love him too ?" Thomas asked.

Harry nodded " too much that it hurts "

Thomas understandably nodded.

" he loved you too much- must hurt him too "

Harry frowned, it was like it just hit him, it must hurt him too, not because Harry wasn't with him, it must because he had Harry and yet didn't, it must hurt him because Harry's hurting and he knew it, he knew it because he was waiting, because he said he would, because he knew harry was hurting. It occured to him then that Draco knew all of it, but was waiting for Harry to speak about it, that it was hurting him to remain in love with someone who was also in Love but was afraid of it, and he knew it, Draco knew all of it yet pretended he didn't.

Harry didn't say anything for a long while after that just thinking of Draco until it started getting darker and he realised they had been sitting here for a long time doing nothing.

" Je ne sais pas pourquoi je suis venu à Paris ? " ( I don't know why I came to Paris ) Harry abruptly said.

Thomas startled a bit until he relaxed then spoke up " Pourquoi veux-tu rester ?" ( why do you want to stay )

" Je ne sais pas " ( I don't know ) Harry honestly Answered.

Thomas shook his head then got off the fence wall and jumped behind to walk back towards the door but he he remained there for a moment only to say " Alors trouve une raison de revenir en arrière " ( then find reasons to go back )

Harry looked at Thomas for moment longer than one until Thomas nodded, bidding a bye and left and Harry remained there thinking about what Thomas had just said and why it suddenly hit him hard.

He realised he finally reached the bottom of the ocean, there was no beyond anymore, not anymore at least, just going back.

I added the translation of French portions so you people could understand. Thanks for the support so far.

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Keys to a healthy relationship

“ Psychology today’s mentions in the blog that keys to a healthy relationship are trust, honesty and interaction in both negative and positive ways to keep the fire in the relationship burning and to keep love alive. Hear that Ron, interaction and honesty are the keys to a healthy relationship” Hermione eyed Ron, lifting her eyes from the newspaper she was reading from, in a way that she was taunting him about something. 

Ron groaned and just then Harry tagged along on the table “ What are we talking about?” he asked as he gave Hermione her cup of cappuccino and Ron his cup of lemonade while he himself sat down with his cup of normal hot coffee. 

“ Keys to a healthy relationship apparently that Hermione assumes I don’t know of” Ron rolled his eyes 

“Why is that ?” Harry hummed 

“ Tell him, Ron” she narrowed her eyes in a normal way she used to do all those years ago when she was annoyed by Ron or he had done something wrong, Harry was very much familiar with the look. 

“ I lied to her about not wanting to go to the ministry party, I told her I had somethings to do Ginny for Mum and Dad’s anniversary when instead I was watching quidditch match at home” Ron recited monotonously. 

“ See that was lying to me and not communicating to me” Hermione commented 

“ Can you blame him though, I mean have you seen the ministry Party’s, they’re boring as hell, all old wizards and witches and old boring crap” Harry frowned 

“ Exactly, Thank you Harry” Ron exaggerated 

“ But that’s not the point-” 

“ I’m sure he just didn’t want to hurt your feelings by telling you how pathetic those Party’s are and sometimes he just doesn’t like going to them you know. When he’s lying for your benefit then I don’t think they should fundamentally harm your relationship, all technicality you know “ Harry explained as he gulped the remaining of his coffee. 

Ron gave him an impressed smile and looking at Hermione in ‘see he gets it’ 

Hermione rolled her eyes “Fine, I’ll just go by myself-” 

“ That’s not what I meant-” Ron interrupted 

“ Seemed like to me” Hermione lopsidedly replied taking her cup back to the counter suggesting that she was slightly pissed. 

“ Thanks mate “ Ron rolled his eyes and went after Hermione. 

Harry laughed as he watched Ron trying to make upto Hermione and soothing her with words like ‘we’ll go to your favourite orchestra show’ 

Harry shook his head, picking the newspaper from the coffee table and had only read the first few headline when he heard. 

“ Hey “ 

Harry’s face immediately grew into a smile “ Hi babe “ and he immediately got up and pecked his lips quickly in a sweet affection. 

“ What’s up with them ?” Draco asked as he sat down next to Harry on the chair after ordering one of the waiters his regular

“Ron lied to Hermione to avoid a ministry party and now he’s trying to make up to her” Harry chuckled 

“ Can you blame him, those Party’s are as boring as Hagrid’s classes “ Draco and Harry chuckled along. 

“ They weren’t so bad you know “ Harry teased after a while 

“ Please, he left buckbeak on me” Draco rolled his eyes 

“ If we clearly remember-” 

“ We don’t need to get into details. One shall not remain in the past” Draco said and immediately thanked the waiter for bringing his usual coffee. Harry chuckled. 

“We’re still up for tonight ?” Harry asked suddenly 

“ Tonight ?” Draco asked 

“Yeah, We’re visiting Teddy’s recital, I told you that” Harry frowned. 

Draco face immediately formed into a mild shock of how he had absolutely forgotten about that “I totally forgot about that, I- I have some left over work at school to finish, and I have to arrange the test for tomorrow morning, I’m sorry, He won’t be upset if don’t make it through would he ?” Draco asked apologetically

Harry nodded disappointingly “ He’ll understand I think, still try to make it through” 

Draco smiled at Harry before he placed a soft kiss on his forehead and told him he’ll try to make it. 

When a few minutes later Draco left in a hurry claiming he completely forgot about something at work, Harry felt something was off. He had been feeling the vibe and something being off for a while but had not raised any doubt, in himself or in Draco because he knew how much they loved each other and he knew Draco would never do anything to hurt Harry, not purposely anyway, and Harry knew that very well, after all they had been together for a very long time almost 4 years in a couple weeks. 

“ What’s up with you ?” Harry immediately looked up at the question and nodded instantly that everything was fine and he was just thinking about what to wear for Teddy’s recital tonight.

“ Don’t you think Draco had been cancelling a few more plans than usual lately, I mean I didn’t want to say anything but it seems like it doesn’t it ?” Hermione asked settling into the seat where Draco was formerly sitting. 

Harry dazed Turned to Hermione " I've been trying not to think of it but its evident right ?"

Hermione hesitantly nodded " I'm pretty sure it's nothing though. I mean he wouldn't ever hurt you "

" I know but it's just a bit suspicious. Anyways- where did Ron go ?" Harry asked interjecting himself

" oh- he left for some work at office "

Harry nodded despite of it seeming fishy too.

Harry pretended as the days went by that he wasn't bothered by Draco cancelling plans over and over again, he pretended that he was oblivious of the fact that Draco was cancelling most of plans on purpose and surprisingly enough for the first time Ron was calm about the whole situation and told Harry to just relax and maybe see it from a different perspective. Easier said than done, when your boyfriend of 3, almost 4 years cancel on a routine saturday dinner’s for the 3rd time in a month, something felt fishy and he couldn’t help but wonder the worst possible scenarios and even though he hated himself to think of them, he couldn’t help but think of them.

“ Maybe you’re just thinking about it a lot, Maybe he is in fact busy at school. I mean Harry you do know how hard things can be before christmas breaks right, the whole winding up of syllabus and giving off tests and assessing everything. Its not easy being a Professor Harry. I’m sure he’ll make it upto you somehow “ Ron advised and for some reason Harry didn’t feel as though his words were genuine but he did understand the point of it but it was suspicious of how calm he really was being, he was normally the paranoid one in the whole thing but ever since he became an auror and started living with Hermione, he had changed a lot. 

“ Maybe you’re right” Harry sighed. Ron nodded understandably. 

“ But I can’t help but wonder you know “ Harry interrupted 

“ wonder what ?” Ron asked curiously. 

“ That he might be you know “ Harry raised his eyebrows suggestively. 

“ Draco- What. No, It’s Draco we’re talking about, he’d never. He loves you too much to do anything like that. Have a little faith in your boyfriend Harry. This is the same Draco we’re talking about who walked with his hands in your backpocket so people would stop staring at your ass “ Ron chuckled. Harry smiled at the memory. Draco really used to do that and he very much liked putting hands in back pocket to label their relationship. When in the beginning Harry had doubts about the relationship and Draco, he had done that to prove Harry how much he meant to him and how much serious he was about that and that was only back when they were in 8th year and even though everyone knew Harry was taken, Draco used to tag along because he feared one day Harry might find someone better and he hated to think of those times. Their relationship hadn’t been the easiest one’s in any sort, the complications, the humiliations, the fight, the taunts, the hate, everything they had to face to finally reach here, Harry knew Draco wouldn’t trade it for the whole world but with everything, Harry couldn’t help but wonder each time Draco cancelled a plan whether something went wrong in all the time they’ve been together and if Draco is finally bored of Harry after all. 

“Mate, relax. He loves you, its very cheesy but he really does and he reminds you like everyday, if not you then no one “ Ron reassured when Harry remained lost in his thoughts. 

Harry looked at Ron for a few moments before he realised that maybe Ron was right and he was just being more paranoid and again he let it slide and everything turned out fine infact. The next day Draco took both of them out on a nice fancy date and spoiled Harry and apologized a lot for being a terrible boyfriend and for not making time for him and how his activities are inexcusable and Harry knew then in his heart that Draco would never find it in himself to ever think of cheating on Harry or even leaving him because clearly he loved him too much. 

It was a couple of days before Christmas when after a casual meet up after days Harry had stayed over at Draco’s place. There was unsettling odd feeling about everything, and just Draco in general because after the last date he had been pretty distant or somewhat weird and not in a “ i love you less “ way but in a he’s hiding something way and that terrified Harry more than “ i love you less now “, so he wandered off in the apartment after Draco had fallen alseep and was snuggled closely in the blankets. Harry had wandered off just walking in the apartment and ended up scurrying through cabinets to find something to eat when he finally found it. 

Harry gasped as soon as he opened a small blue tiffany box and in it rested a key. 

“ OH - That’s why “ Harry grinned to himself in relief when he realised what it was and kept it back where he found it, smiling to himself. That night Harry slept well for the first time in a long time. 

The next morning events were as delightful as Harry’s mood and had resulted in a morning shower sex and a sweet complimentary breakfast simply because he was too happy to have found that Draco wasn’t cheating on him or anything else but had been apartment hunting and even if he allowed himself to just assume everything, he didn’t refuse to believe that he might be incredibly wrong but it didn’t cause any hurdles in the morning activities. 

“ You’re in a rather good mood today” Draco grinned as he lingered on Harry’s lips after the makeout session in the kitchen. 

“ What can I say, you have this effect on me” Harry whispered with his eyes closed and the sweet taste of Draco’s lips still over his own. 

“ Wow Harry- you- I so want you again right now” Draco bit Harry’s lip pressing him against the counter 

“ Then fucking have me “ 

And they did it again and definitely ended up being late for their respective work places. 

" Draco's going to ask me to move on with him " he suddenly told Hermione, not being able to keep it in anymore.

She gasped " what ?" Then broke into a huge grin

" I was wandering off in his kitchen last night and found a tiffany box with a key in it, so i think but I can't be sure and I am excited but I don't want to get too excited because you know I might have got it all wrong-"

" screw it he's gonna ask you to move in with him " Hermione immediately jumped up and hugged Harry who returned the hug just as affectionately.

" it makes sense you know then, everything- him cancelling plans" Hermione grinned excitedly after breaking apart.

" but we can't be too sure. I mean it's a possibility but-'

" yeah. If he asks you, act surprised" and she she clapped her hand together in excitement again. Harry ended up laughing with her and discussed all the time they were at the coffee shop about when and how he might ask Harry.

Despite Hermione's strict warning to keep it a secret and act natural, Harry couldn't help but smile each time his eyes laid on Draco and would end imagining all the scenarios about how he might ask him, anytime.

" Oh- Harry I forgot to tell you, my Mom's birthday coming up so I am buying her an apartment in central London, what do you think about that ?"Draco asked suddenly as he placed the bowl of spaghetti over bigger coaster and plates by the side.

" an apartment- oh- OH-" Harry face turned into a shock then disappointment upon connecting the dots that the key in the Tiffany box was actually for Narcissa " I- I think it's a lovely present "instead he fake grinned.

" I thought so too, it's the perfect apartment with enough sun light and well ventilation- it's absolutely perfect " Draco grinned.

Harry nodded abruptly immediately taking the plate from the table and immediately taking some of spaghetti in his plate.

" I'm sure it's gonna be great after all it's your choice " Harry gave him a neat smile before he picked up the remote and Turned on the TV and started watching to avoid Draco and thinking of how stupid it was to believe Draco would ask Harry to move in with him.

For the next few days only a couple before Christmas, Harry had visited Hogwarts for some work when he decided to surprise visit to Draco's room, but upon arrival he only heard harsh Whispers.

" You should've seen his face- I mean please He looked to hurt. I don't know how much longer can I hold onto this "

Harry frowned to himself, placing his ear more closely to the door.

" just trust the process Draco, you want it to be special right, then just trust me. He's gonna love it and he'll never deny it alright. Besides it's only a couple days later, just hold on alright. You love him right " a pause " and you want to live with him right" A pause again " then just 2 more days and then you can ask him and it'll finally be over "

" I swear to fucking Merlin I never saw the day would come when I'd take advice from a Weasley " Draco groaned and Harry just knew him too well that he knew Draco must be rolling off his eyes right now.

" Just till Christmas then you can do whatever with him. I'm just making it memorable for him okay. He's gonna love it " He who Harry knew by now was Ron, said.

" I'm gonna wreck your apartment if he doesn't agree to live with me after having practically ignored him all month. You should've seen him Ron- he's- Merlin'- I Love him and I can see it you know that it's hurting him and-"

" I know I know but I made him believe that teachers live's are hard so you're good "

" it better be "

And then in rushed Whispers Ron left the room claiming he needed to get back to work. This explained Ron's absence too from work and his weird faithful behaviour towards Draco. Harry immediately ran for the hallways and hid in one of the broom closet until he was sure Ron left and then finally visited Draco.

After everything he heard, he knew he never wanted to be with anyone more than Draco and there will never be Anyone who would love Harry more him and the thought made Harry so happy that he kept smiling to himself all day and prepared Draco's favourite dinner.

" I- I'm sorry I'm a bit late- wow- Do I smell curry ?" Draco hastily entered the kitchen.

" your favourite " Harry grinned as he leaned up a little and placed an open kiss on Draco's lips.

" What's the occassion?" Draco asked holding onto Harry's waist and stroking his cheek affectionately.

" I just love you that's why. Go freshen up though- I'll place the dinner in 5 minutes " Harry hastily said as he stirred the curry again.

'”oh and by the way Mom invited us for her party on her birthday and we'll give her the key but I'd like if you'd see it before I gave it to her as a present "

" okay " Harry smiled and soon enough Draco left the kitchen.

Within the next 10 minutes Draco and Harry were already sat in the living room, their legs crossed and eating peacefully watching TV together until Draco noticed Harry had been staring at him more than usual.

" what's up with you ? You've been looking at me all night, is there something on my face ?" Draco asked as he wiped his hands in napkin and reached for his face to examine if there was anything on it.

" why do you keep lying to me ?" Harry asked with a smile.

" what ? What makes you think I'm lying ?" Draco asked almost shocked, his ears turning a funny shade of pink like it did when he was flustered.

Harry smiled softly at Draco before he put his plate on the table and wiped his own hands with the napkin and scooted closer to Draco so he was sitting before him, face to face.

" I heard you and Ron today at your office"

Draco didn't reply, still lying that it wasn't what Harry knew it was.

" can you stop pretending please, it's killing me- I already found the Tiffany box in your kitchen " Harry grinned.

Draco wanted to keep up the facade of not being dazed by Harry at all but with a smile like Harry gave one, Nobody stood a chance.

" did you like it ?" Draco asked, talking Harry's hands in his own and tracing soft circles.

" I didn't see the apartment, I want to see it with you " Harry smiled, kissing Draco's knuckles.

Draco blushed naturally, nodding and agreeing that they'll see it soon then.

'" I had this whole thing planned, you know asking at the burrow in front of everyone, down on one knee " Draco groaned as he wrapped his arm around Harry shoulder and leaning his head over it.

" I don't care how fancy it all have to be you know. I Never cared about extravaganza, all I care is that I get to live with you and that I can't wait but if it means so much to you, you do it your way I'll act surprised " Harry chuckled, kissing Draco's ear.

" one problem though " Draco said

Harry moved away so he could see Draco clearly " what is it ?"

'" you're shit at acting "

Harry whined playfully hitting Draco with a pillow and turning into laughter. Eventually the night turned into a pillow fight and a lot of laughter and bunch of make out on the ground but as long as they were together, there was nothing that didn't make sense.

So 2 days after, Draco did get down on one knee at the burrow and asked Harry to move in with him, Harry acted surprised in the most natural way and answered a yes, making everyone hoot and cheering them on with opening bottle of champagne.

" you already knew, didn't you ?" Hermione asked

" Don't tell anyone that " Harry nodded and soon the night turned into how it always did, in laughter and love.

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Just another letter

" hey, how are you ? I hope you're doing alright. I know you're mad at me right now for not showing up and for dodging you since a couple of weeks and not returning your calls and you deserve to be mad. I also know you're wondering why am I writing you this now, frankly I don't know, I'm drunk so voila. But what I do know is that I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything and everything that may happen and I understood if you'd be mad but I want you to know, no I need you to know that all I ever did was because I was hurt, you may think I'm crazy or I'm talking absurdly but that is the truth, I was and I am hurt, still. You remember the day when you gave me the news of your marriage, a part of me harry still remains in that moment like time never moved and we're locked in a loop of you telling me you're getting married and it keeps hurting me everytime you come around and tell me in thin air but I see it everyday and I haven't moved on since and I wish I could. I wish it were a choice to fall for you or not, but it wasn't a choice, unfortunately it wasn't. If it really were my choice I'd make myself find someone else or better yet I'd make you and I be together but the choices doesn't rely in my hands. I tried so hard to not have feelings for you but you tell me that when you spend every hour of everyday with the same person, you'd fall too but then again you didn't, that's the thing right, there's the trick. You spend every hour of everyday with me and yet you didn't fall, I was the Only one falling hoping that maybe you'd catch me but you know you were there just taking the catch of someone else, you were there hoping that they would fall for you in the same sanctifying way that you did. I wish I could change everything, I can't, this perhaps adds to list of things I can't change and would forever be bound to. What you've done to me will probably never change, the way you light my soul, the way you make me smile, the way you leave me breathless, that won't change and I'm grateful to you because you taught me things my heart didn't know or was afraid of but falling for you was so simple, so easy like I've been doing my whole life, but then perhaps I was doing it my whole life and you weren't. You see, I was yours from the moment I met you, the moment your eyes laid upon me, my soul, my eyes, my mouth, my words, my body, my thoughts, my ways, my hands, my arms, my legs, my finger's, my lips, my senses, my heart, and me, all became yours even when you didn't ask for it but I gave it all to you anyway. I held out my bleeding heart for you. I loved you and I never loved anyone else, yet...

We are soulmates Harry as I like to think, just not the ones who end up together.

I wish you all the goodluck in future with you and your marriage and I hope it's lasts.

Yours truly,

Draco Lucius malfoy "

prompt: panick attack!Draco and harry to the rescue

Circles

Harry hurriedly cut the phone call he was on, stuffing his phone back in his pocket and fetching his keys, cursing at the quarters that fell out when he took out the keys.

He kicked open the door with a light kick because of his hands full and walked into towards the living room and dropping all his files and bag over the piled-up things already there on the table and thereafter finally decided to go into the bedroom only he hadn't expected to walk into what he actually walked into. He walked rapidly towards the bed and hugged the shaking man.

" shush- Draco- love, I'm here- I'm here now " Harry rubbed his back while Draco still kept shaking under his hold.

Harry kissed the top of his head as he heard his whimpers and reassured Draco over and over again that he was finally here and everything is alright. This was his 5th panic attack after Harry had returned from St. Mungo's after a month of being in the facility due to the coma he was in. It was understandable how Draco was scared each time Harry would leave and sometimes without telling him so Draco wouldn't worry but it pained Harry each time he walked into a shaking Draco. He wasn't always like this, nor did he ever have frequent attacks but ever since the last case Harry did and almost died at the scene if it wasn't for the rest of the team and his remote chances of surviving back then had taken a toll on Draco. He was told too many times that Harry's chances of waking up from the coma were very slim and his injuries were rather deadly but it only hit Draco more during the time Harry was having fits while waking up from it and Draco assumed that he was never going to see him again and that was the first attack. Ever since Harry had returned Draco had been so much better but with quitting his job and giving out new applications, Harry had to leave Draco alone sometimes, and someday's Draco goes absolutely fine without it but someday's like today Draco winds himself up in too many worries and the deadliest possibilities that he ends up having another attack and while normally Harry always comes just in time and reassures him, Harry still remains afraid and worried of Draco a lot. He worries a lot if this was what the rest of the coming years would look like.

" Draco" Harry calls him, cupping his face to force him to look at Harry " babe, listen- look at me- I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere, alright" harry reassures. Draco tries to nod but he could still feel himself constricting too much.

" Look at me- just keep looking at me- I'm here and I'm never leaving you alright- ever, okay- Can you count for me, just till 5, can you do that ?" Harry asked.

Draco nodded and stuttered out the numbers yet Harry knew it didn't help.

" Love- okay Tell me your favorite colour" Harry asks again

" Emerald " Draco replied, his voice soothing by just a fraction.

" And where do you see them the most ?" Harry asks, his hands moving into intertwine with that of Draco to affirm him of a comforting physical touch.

" Your eyes" Draco replied. Harry felt it in his hands when Draco's shaking lessened little by little.

" You like my eyes ?" Harry asked

Draco nodded and Harry smiled " I love your eyes too- You know the clouds outside reminded me of your eyes today, then I thought about you and then I thought about how much I love you- do you know how much I love you? More stars love the moon, or the sun does the moon or more than infinity- I love you so much- much more than anything in the world, more than anything in the universe "

Draco tried to smile and Harry took it as a good sign and pressed his forehead against Draco's and with his intertwined fingers, he drew circles on his thighs to distract him.

" You like circles- right ?"

Harry could feel him nod.

" Draw circles with me," Harry asked, and then Draco too with his intertwined hands drew circles over his own thighs. A moment or two later, Harry's eyes danced over his exposed wrist and he pulled his sleeve getting an idea and exposed the tattoo he got of Draco's Patronus, a doe and with Draco's fingers and traced it and found instantly how his breathing turned normal moment by moment as they kept tracing the tattoo on his wrist and eventually with Harry's added assurances Draco's faltered breathing came to normal and Harry kissed his cheek when it did so.

" How do you feel now?"

"Better" Draco nodded but neither of them moved away, their foreheads still pressed together and hands still tracing over Harry's tattoo.

" I really love you Draco" Harry assured him once again.

" I know" Draco's voice broke as he said so and Harry immediately created space to look at Draco.

"I'm never leaving you alone" Harry confirmed

"I want you to- I can't spend the rest of my life having attacks every time you go out- I don't want you to be worried every single time you walk into the bedroom and find me like this- I wish you would stop worrying about me" Harry could see it in his face how hurt Draco was and it pained him to see Draco like this and he just wishes he could take his pain but he didn't know-how.

" But I worry about you, just like you do for me" Harry assured

"But you don't end up like me- I want to be fine-"

" You are fine, love, you are. You almost lost me and I would never know how it feels, okay- It's okay what you feel and how you feel and there's nothing wrong- stop worrying about how unnecessary you feel or how stupid it seems to you- If I had almost lost you- I can't even think of anything after that- I would've never been able to survive, but you did- You are so strong Draco- even when you think you're not, You are. You are strong, beautiful, and gorgeous and the fact that I put you through this hurts me so much but I can't take it back, I wish I could but I can't and I wish I could just do something to make it all go away but I can't except I can promise you that I will always love you, even in the afterlife " Harry painfully told him and it was true, Harry could never survive in a world without Draco, to even think of a life without Draco scared let alone see he almost dying, Harry would've lost his sanity but he knew it that there was nowhere he would ever rather be but with Draco.

Draco couldn't say anything even if he wanted to, he could have said so many things but nothing even made sense nor did he even know what to say except that he knew he was the luckiest man alive.

" I love you Harry- don't ever leave me" Draco pleaded.

Harry smiled at him and promised him " Never" and even if he worried someday's about Draco, he kept his promise.

This request is so old that I had even forgotten this existed. Nevertheless I hope you liked it 

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Keep my heart

I wondered if I shouldve told you all thatI I couldn't, the words that were on my lips but never dared to leave. I wondered if you'd had stayed to hold my hand a little longer if I had told you that you feel like the sun to me, if I had told you that you feel like my favourite sweater I don't ever want to throw, if I had told you that you felt like that first snitch I caught pasted in my memories so vividly, if I had told you that you feel like the river I had never been to but always felt like home, if I had told you that you felt like the track I'd listen to without ever getting bored or the music that I'd always dance to even when my legs stop working, if I had told you that being with you felt like going to the end of the world just to breath because you helped me breath when the rest of the world wouldn't let me breath, if I had told you that being with you felt like floating in a galaxy full of stars that Only I had known, if I had told you that being with you felt like the simplest of Infinities come true. I wondered if you'd had stayed if I had told you that your silver eyes shone brighter than the moon in the dark night, I wondered if you'd had stayed if I had given you my heart and never asked for it back, I wonder if you'd had stayed if I told you that I want to grow old with you, that I want to spend the rest of my life with you, that I want to share all the rest of my dances with you, that you can have my heart and keep it with yours so we're together forever.

I wonder if you'd had stayed if I had stopped you. I wondered if you'd had stayed.

I'm so sorry for running so short on updates, I've been working on something new and big, so my updates would remain microfics for a few more days despite the fact that I'm trying to work on a new chapter. I apologise for the less frequent updates from me, I'm sincerely sorry.

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