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put a collar on me why don't ya. make me beg like a dog, sure. call me a good boy, even...
...But you will not take my dignity!!!
i’m crying i did not expect that
“Are you okay?” Levi asks you.
“No.”
“I know, you don’t look it. What’s wrong?”
“Everything is wrong, Levi. I’m exhausted…I wonder what it’s like to have a brain that functions the way it’s supposed to.”
His eyebrows furrow slightly. “Your brain is fine.”
“But that’s the thing, it’s not!” You say exasperatingly. “It’s wired differently and so it makes everything more difficult. I switch between three modes: Not wanting to exist, Surviving, and Beyond Surviving. Guess how much time I spend in each mode?”
Levi doesn’t say anything in response. His expression shows more concern than confusion this time.
“Fine, I’ll tell you. Most of my time is spent surviving. Some of my time is spent not wanting to exist. And just a little of my time is spent beyond suriving…what kind of life is that?”
Levi’s eyes look at you with sadness. “Not much of one, to be honest…but it’s yours and you only have one.” He counters.
“Well, I don’t even know if I want it half of the time. Y’know, someone told me that life is basically climbing mountains. You climb a mountain, which represents a challenge or obstacle, once you get to the top you enjoy the view for a moment…then you climb back down and do the same thing all over again. Rinse and repeat.”
Levi seems to identify with what you’re saying and he knows you’re frustrated right now but he needs to keep you from spiraling. He’s not letting you give up. That’s not the way. “It’s what we have to do, Y/N.” He says gently.
“And what if I don’t want to do anything? What if I don’t want to climb fucking mountains? What if I don’t want to constantly be challenged and given obstacles? What if I just want to sit at the top of the mountain and just be?”
Levi knows these feelings all too well…he’s wrestled with them a few times throughout his life but he’s continued to push through because that’s what you just do. And you’re going to do the same even if he has to do the pushing for you. You snap Levi out of his thoughts with your next statement.
“It would be so much easier if I just…”
“Stop.”
“But-“
“Stop.” He repeats sternly, his steel eyes boring into yours.
You grunt angrily. “You’re not even real, Levi!” You yell out at him. You’re not angry with him. You’re angry at the world, angry for the universe and your parents for putting you in this predicament, angry for placing you into a world that doesn’t accommodate you. “You are a 2-dimensional character I use to cope. There’s no way for you to actually soothe or help me. You. Are. Fictional.”
Your words don’t seem to phase him. He shrugs. I’m real enough.”
“What does that even mean?”
“I’m real enough to you. Y/N. You are the one who brings me to life. You are the one who decides how real I should be. What does it matter if I’m not a real person?”
“It’s silly.”
“Who says it’s silly?”
“I don’t know, a bunch of people.”
“Well, fuck all of those people then. Just fuck them.” He states as if it’s obvious.
You sigh. “It doesn’t work that way, Levi…”
“So make it work that way. No one else is keeping you alive but yourself.”
“And you…” You say softly.
Levi shakes his head. “I don’t do anything. Like I said before, you’re the one who does the all the heavy lifting. I exist because you want me to. I function the way I do because you want me to.”
“So I control you?”
Levi rolls his eyes at that. “Don’t be a brat. What I’m saying is I’m just an outlet for you.”
You pause, thinking of his words. He’s not wrong. He’s just a character but he’s also not just a character because of you. “I wish you were real.” You admit sadly.
“I wish I were real too…for you.” He sighs as he runs a hand through his raven hair. “But it doesn’t matter if I’m real or not. I still occupy your brain. I still make you happy, that’s all that matters. As long as you let me live in your mind, I’m always going to be here for you.
You nod, not saying anything further.
“Okay?” He asks.
“Okay.”
“Good.”
professor min🥺 ………professor min🥵
Nineteen. Eighty. Nine. OHH TAYLOR YOUUU
So everyone is making very valid points in pointing out that this thing should never had left the shore, much less go down to explore the Titanic especially since it had a history of getting lost but like…
One of the five passengers is a 19 year hold in that death trap and by now he has less than 24hours of oxygen left. This is horrible for him and the other passengers regardless of who they are, their money or questionable life choices.
Shot on Elon all you want, he deserves it and I hope he’ll pay dearly for this, but FUCKING HELL, 19! That poor boy isn’t old enough to be allowed to drink in some countries. That’s not a way to go for anyone.
Because apparently folks are confused and not looking shit up, this is the missing “sub”. It’s literally a metal tube.
It fits 5 people.
There’s no crew y’all. This isn’t Disney’s Atlantis. There’s one guy who presses a button on a Logitech controller to go up and down. Everyone else is whoever can afford a ticket.
Hope this helps cause I’m seeing some wild ass claims in the comments.
Katherine and Jack who spend hours sat up in his penthouse, overlooking the city. Talking for hours on end, interrupted with intermittent soft kisses as it reaches the early hours of the evening and the sunset turns the sky shades of pinks and oranges over the tops of the buildings
family gathering going great. my cousin told everyone im going to have a hoarding disorder if i dont throw away stuff and ill end up mentally ill.
what do you mean finale?
seriously if someone finds or writes any kind of the winter soldier x reader either angst or just reader helping him etc just for gods sake pls just pls i’m begging you tag me or let me know idk and idc how just pls do it. i need it like water 😭🙏🏻
