Mental Health Month - Tumblr Posts
#Mentalillnessfeelslike your potential and possibilities being pulled out from under you.
“You don’t get better on the days when you feel like going. You get better on the days when you don’t want to go, but you go anyway. If you can overcome the negative energy coming from your tired body or unmotivated mind, you will grow and become better. It won’t be the best workout you have, you won’t accomplish as much as what you usually do when you actually feel good, but that doesn’t matter. Growth is a long term game, and the crappy days are more important.”
— Georges St. Pierre (via quotemadness)
The funny thing is, at that stage, I feel like I don’t want it to end, which might not sound rational. Ever since the lockdown started in my country, there’s been some constant (and triggering) hyping about how this was not going to last, about the fact they were ready to deal with this crisis (which they were not), that it was a matter of weeks (months now) and the anxiety it generates is unfathomable.
The introvert that I am has so far dealt pretty well with being confined, people telling us to do what I already knew how to do, somehow describing my symptoms and my coping mechanism lol. As long as I kept the news at bay, I was fine. Until they start talking about going back to work again, one way or another.
I’m panicking. I have to learn how to deal with people again: school my anxious face, keep my self-esteem issues in check again, shield myself against words that my wary brain could interpret wrong and at the same time make sure I rub nobody the wrong way. All that bearing in mind that they may have been in a bad place during this critical period (contrary to me), that they may be over the moon to come back and see humans (I freak out), that life may be different but we’re going to deal with it as best as we can (sure, well actually no, not sure).
People around me have no idea that every September when we all have to go back, I spend the previous week giving myself some due pep-talk. But it works, and once I’m started, I’m fine. The trick is: there’s a date, an immovable date, when I know I have to be ready, to go to a place that I know perfectly now, a place that’s ready too. At the moment, there’s no date and nothing is ready.
And it’s driving me crazy.
Just a reminder that whilst this may feel all-consuming right now, the lockdown is temporary and this challenging time will pass. Hang in there ❤️
10 Signs You're an Extroverted Introvert
Susan Cain : le pouvoir des introvertis
Her lecture is absolutely amazing! She’s amazing! Standing here in front of a crowd and talk about such a personal matter to many, but especially to her, and make it an enlightening presentation.
Self harm
What is self harm?
The act of injuring oneself, with the said intent.
Why do we do it?
Because sometimes there is so much pain, so much suffering, so much anger inside, that we need to get it out. We won’t take it out on those around us, we know how it feels and we wouldn’t put another person through the pain we felt.
So what do we do? We take it out on ourselves. We know we shouldn’t but sometimes we aren’t able to think.
I remember nights when I sobbed quietly when I wanted to wail, get it all out. I couldn’t. I took it out on me..
I scratched and I scratched till I bled. And then I did it again, and again, and again.
I’ve stopped now. I found friends with whom I could open up,Talk to about what goes on inside my head, cry as loud as I want and for as long as I need.
I’ve found my solace in other things. I write. I water color. I may not be that great but it’s something that keeps me sane.
If there are people out there, and I know there are because I was one of them, who hurt themselves to keep a sane mind, don’t. I know it sounds stupid when I say it. Find someone who’ll listen, pick up a hobby, find someone to talk to.
And if you don’t find anyone, talk to me. I’ll listen. I’ll be there for you like how my friends were there for me.
Love.
@goodoldlamp