My Brain Has Been Programmed To Say Yes - Tumblr Posts
4 years ago
I wonder how I would handle the normal day to day stress of life he hadn't been manipulating me to distrust and hate myself in the formative years of my early adulthood.
Most people learn coping skills during those years; they figure out how to 'get on with it' in the face of challenges.
I don't have coping skills except for avoidance. Distraction. Or I sweat and visualize all the ways I'm going to screw this up or not have the skills to be successful.
I am defeated before I begin.
Was I always like this?
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