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Ah, that first post depressive-episode hairbrush sesh. Because no guilt trip is complete without Physical Pain® and an overwhelming urge to shave yourself bald.

Hey, at least it's an improvement.

Feels like I'm getting better and getting worse at the same time. People look at me and are like, the roller coaster is only moving up and down 1-2 inches at a time. But please understand that I am only 1 millimeters tall and this is terrifying.

The pre-diagnosis PDD experience.

Mmm. Peanut butter. I guess.

Me when I stop taking my anti-sad pills and I'm sad

Being the mentally unstable one in the family is wild to me because like, I had an improbably unproblematic childhood. Like, zero complaints. I got that all-natural, organic, cruelty-free free-range madness. I would make Freud puff his cheeks, throw up his hands and convince himself that I'm just a lying liar who lies. IDK either bro. It is what it is, my guy.

I've always been a horror fan but being on SSRIs absolutely nuked my fear response and I consumed horror content at a RAPID pace without thinking anything of it.

Now I'm laddering down a bit, figured I'd partake in a little of my favorite genre and WHOAH I'm a wuss now. I'm a raw nerve. I'm jelly. I way overshot my old tolerances and totally wrecked my brain. I can’t even use my bathroom properly because I'm so dead paranoid about windows now.

I’ve been thinking about how to contribute more to the project. Raising more awareness is the first step, but there’s only so much I can do about that. There is power in numbers, but I’d have to first get the numbers. So yeah, I was actually considering the whole “I’ll stream the playlist as many times as the number of notes this post gets” thing, but I don’t think I can practically do that (life getting in the way and all). So, I’d love if someone with better ideas can let me know how I can make this project better. I will continue to actively spread the word of this on Tumblr, and perhaps a little later on get this to Twitter and YouTube comments. And I’ve made it a point to stream the playlist at least twice a day, once using my account, and another using incognito tab. Do contact me if anyone has more ideas! I’m always up for discussions.

(And, ya know, I just might be trying to stream as many times as the number of notes, as crazy as that is. Might as well get as many views in as possible while the number of notes is low, eh? :D)

Project RM, anyone?

Err, so……I know I don’t have much presence in the fandom (understatement of the decade, that), but I’m gonna give this a try anyway. I do hope word of this can be spread by reblogs? Please, those of you who read this and wanna show support; please reblog this post instead of liking. Much thanks

Okay, to keep this short, Project RM is basically a project to increase the views of (some of) Namjoon’s MVs, namely Do You, Joke, Awake, Change and P.D.D. There is no end date for this, and there is no occasion for this either (but I was hoping the spirit of BTS Festa can set us in the mood :)). I’ve created a public playlist of the official (non-1theK) MVs, link below:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFArWe1MLW8&index=1&list=PL6HCg9FSp87Anaab60Hg9DZVZoLe97_aM

All I’m asking is just to play this playlist, one loop only, every time you see this post. It really only takes less than 20 minutes, and you can do other things while you’re listening to great music. There is no need to stream as if this was a comeback MV or such (I don’t want anyone to lose sleep or whatever over this). I just want more awareness that these MVs exist. P.D.D. especially is so underrated it doesn’t even turn up on suggestions, and it’s actually a really amazing song that I love so much.

I’m not too sure if anyone else in the fandom has already done this? So far I haven’t stumbled upon any, but if there is, I hope whatever impact I can make with this post would help their movement too.

This is really my way to show love to Namjoon; god knows that boy needs to be reminded more that he is loved by ARMYs around the world. For those of you that have read thus far, thank you. And if you do decide to give the playlist a go, my sincerest thanks once more.

TL;DR: Just read the words in bold.