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does it count as a relapse if you weren't trying to stay sober in the first place
every year I get a new mental illness. It's like when the writers keep introducing new characters every season to try to keep things interesting.
tfw you can see that everyone around you is slowly getting tired of you
Tfw you're peacefully grooving to some good old fashioned michigan funk while studying psychology and suddenly remember that nobody will ever love you.
i hate computer science so fucking much. Why did i have to be born transgender?
tried watching the new season of heartstopper and now I'm just sad that I'll never have a big muscly guy to hug me and give me kisses and tell me I'm pretty.
Born too early to explore the post-apocalyptic wasteland with an abandoned drug dog as my companion in search of weed,
Born too late to do a case study on Michael Jackson
kill me. Please kill me. I want to die right fucking now. Please kill me this instant. I long for the great release that death will bring. Please kill me. I desperately want to die. I literally can not stand being alive. Please just let me die. I want to get hit by a fucking truck. I want to die. Kill me. Kill me now. Kill me right now. Please kill me. Pretty please kill me. Pretty pretty please with a cherry on top, blow my fucking brains out. I should not be alive. I need to die. I will always be alone. I will die alone. I'm gonna kms. I need to die. Please kill me. I want to die as soon as possible. I hate being sober. I wish i was dead. Like, genuinely, i wish i was dead. I will jiggle a genie's balls and forfeit my other 2 wishes if it means i can die. Please kill me. I should cut off my fucking hands. I should set my skin on fire. I want to die. I am nothing. I am worth nothing. I should have died years ago. I want to cut until i bleed out. I want to cut my face. Please kill me. Kill me now.
Anyway, have a nice day/evening/night. I love you.
Feels like I'm getting better and getting worse at the same time. People look at me and are like, the roller coaster is only moving up and down 1-2 inches at a time. But please understand that I am only 1 millimeters tall and this is terrifying.
Being the mentally unstable one in the family is wild to me because like, I had an improbably unproblematic childhood. Like, zero complaints. I got that all-natural, organic, cruelty-free free-range madness. I would make Freud puff his cheeks, throw up his hands and convince himself that I'm just a lying liar who lies. IDK either bro. It is what it is, my guy.
depression tips™
shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.
moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over.
put on clean, comfortable clothes.
put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.
drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.
clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink.
blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.
make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something.
make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.
go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.
call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.
cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.