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📂 Main role

⤷ Lee Chan (Dino) x reader

📂 Honorable mentions

⤷ Wonwoo (Seventeen)

📂 Genre

⤷ drunk!dino, angsty(?)

📂 Warnings

⤷ mentioned alcohol and its consumption, the reader is tired and annoyed (just slightly)

• If I miss something, let me know ♡ (p.s. English is NOT my first language, thank you)

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"Chan?" you raised your eyebrows in surprise when you saw your best friend behind a door he was impatiently knocking on. Soon, your expression went from surprised to annoyed, slightly angry too. "You were drinking again?"

"Wonwoo came back!" he said cheerfully and a big smile was seen on his face after mentioning his hyung he hasn't seen for a while. "He took me out."

"Of course, he did." you let out a small sigh and fight with your inner self to roll your eyes at him. "But why did you come here, Chan? It's 2.15 in the morning." as soon as you told him the time (which was probably pointless), your mouth let out a big yawn.

"Oooh, cute~" he cooed at your tiredness.

"Chan!" you crossed your arms over your chest and shook your head a little. You were truly tired from work the previous day and also were not feeling really good, so this was something you didn't want to deal with. Not now at this hour.

"What? I'm... I'm not at home?" he suddenly asked very confused and you just had to close your eyes and take a deep breath. "I thought I was going home..."

After his last sentence, you gave him a small smile and took him inside, closing the door right after him. "You are home." you tried to tell him with a sweet hint in your voice and pushed all the negative energy aside.

You took Chan to your room, which was quite a journey but luckily, he did not fall down the stairs and you managed to catch him all the time. In your room, you didn't even bother to do anything else and then just put the drunk boy to bed and lay down next to him. "Stop drinking so much, will you?" you mumbled to yourself and stroked his hair with a small sad smile.

In the morning it will be very awkward but that was expected. You just couldn't let your bestie wander around the town with alcohol in his system; not when you have special feelings for said bestie.

📂 Main characters

⤷ Yoon Jeonghan x reader

📂 Honorable mentions

⤷ Seungkwan (Seventeen)

📂 Genre

⤷ fluff

• English is NOT my first language, thank you ♡

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You knew that he is gonna come home with a surprise - he send a message. And of course, you expected some kind of food, maybe just your favorite drink but no. This was completely different.

"What do you think, hm?" Jeonghan gave you a small shy smile. "Seungkwan doesn't really like it," he added with a chuckle. He also shook his head which made his hair bounce a little.

"Oh my..." you squeak slightly at that sight and immediately went closer to your boyfriend to touch his new hair. But you stopped your hand from moving and looked at him. "Can I?" you asked.

Jeonghan laughed at your cute behavior and nodded. "Of course, you can." he smiled at you and you slowly, like it would be dangerous, placed your hand on his hair.

Your eyes widened and your face showed a very beautiful smile. His hair was actually very soft and.. fluffy. "This is amazing," you said in awe and went through his hair with your hand. "I love it."

"I'm glad you like it." he gave you a small kiss on the nose. "I was very nervous about how you would react," he admitted with a small smile. "But you like it so that's amazing."

You laughed and looked at his hair once again. It was true that you like it and it was just hypnotizing you; in a good way. Jeonghan on the other hand used this situation to wrap his arms around your waist and just admire you, his beautiful loved one.

📂 Main role

⤷ Jeon Wonwoo x reader

📂 Genre

⤷ fluff (?), supernatural

📂 Warnings

⤷ ghost

• If I miss something, let me know ♡ (p.s English is NOT my first language, thank you)

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You came home a little later at night 'cause you had a day off from work today and so you decided to go out with your friend, who kept asking you to do something fun for a long time.

You took off your shoes and jacket and went straight to your room. You already ate so there was no need to prepare something for a late-night snack, which you were secretly happy about because you did not want to do anything now; just lay in bed.

After arriving in your room, you sat on your bed and took out your phone to check social media and other stuff before going to sleep. Of course, your plan wasn't going the way you wanted.

"Oh, God! Wonwoo!" you screamed into nowhere in particular. The book you were currently reading was suddenly dropped on the floor and that startled you. "We already talked about this," you mumbled and grabbed your book from the floor.

When you wanted to place the book in its place, you felt something cold on your wrist. No, not something, a hand. You immediately know, what Wonwoo wants. "You want to read?" you asked knowing there is not gonna be an answer. You took a deep breath and closed your eyes for a second. "Fine but not for too long. I am tired," you told him and opened the book on the marked page.

You felt cold right next to your right side and knew that the ghost who loves to read is prepared for some reading session. And yes, you're gonna read with him because this book is very interesting and even if you are tired, you still want to read it.

You both were reading carefully until you felt coldness around your wrist once again. "Oh, sorry." you went back to the previous page and waited. When the cold feeling was gone, you could freely turn to the next page and continue to read.

Sometimes you forget that the ghost named Wonwoo (which you found out by hard work with lots of guesses), who lives with you, can't read as fast as you do and he needs to remind you that he is not done with the page. But in the end, you still can make it work out because this ghost really loves to read.

📂 Main characters

⤷ Yoon Jeonghan x fem!reader

📂 Honorable mentions

⤷ Lisa & Jennie (BlackPink)

📂 Genre

⤷ fluff, angsty, caregiver!jeonghan, strangers to friends, slice of life (?)

📂 Warnings

⤷ bad family relationship, mentioned human body fluids a few times, main character death, awkward situations, naked reader in NON-sexual way, age gap, reader being sick, mentioned/talking about reader's weight

📂 Authors note

⤷ Hi ♡, I'm just here to say that the end is... meh. I did not know how exactly to end it and I came up with this. Yeah...

• If I miss something, let me know ♡ (p.s English is NOT my first language, thank you)

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"Oh, I forgot to mention!" Lili suddenly said, grabbing your attention again after a few minutes of silence. The only thing that could be heard in the room was a TV show playing. "A new person is joining us." she gave you a small smile.

"Really?" you raised your eyebrows in surprise. It was quite rare to hear that they have a new worker that goes out; usually, it's someone who does all the paperwork and stuff like that, staying inside the building with not so much work. "But we both know how it will end." your lips shook slightly and your eyes once again focused on the phone you were holding.

"Hmm, yeah." she nodded. "But maybe he won't chicken out like the others. He will definitely come in handy with his strength," she said with hope, and now it was your turn to nod. But then you realized what she said...

"It's a boy?" you asked her a little anxiously. It's not common for boys to do this type of job and you weren't mad about it. You were glad, but... Allowing the boys to see you in this vulnerable state is terrifying and, let's face it, you were ashamed. You were ashamed of yourself, of your state, and everything that had to do with you and taking care of you.

"Yes," she said the word you didn't want to hear. "He's very nice, so there's no need to worry about anything." she tried to make it sound positive for you but this is something that just won't vanish with nice sweet words; it's a genuine fear that you'll have to face soon.

You faked a smile (maybe a little frightened) to her and then let out a small sigh. "Do you perhaps know when I'll meet him?" you asked her with not much desire to do anything anymore and took a glance at your phone in case you missed something in the game you were playing.

"I'm not sure, but I'll check if it's already there." she grabbed her phone and searched in the worker's schedule plan to see, firstly, if there is a schedule for the next week and secondly, when I'll be meeting this boy. "Haha, you'll be very happy." I knew it was bad when she looked at me.

"Just say it." you shook your head and waited for her reply. It was obvious now what her answer would be, and you had no choice but to accept it.

"Jennie will accompany him tomorrow to show him how things are going here." she put her phone back on the table and gave you a small smile. "Don't worry. I can tell him how you have it, Okay?" she raised one eyebrow in question.

"I guess." you shrugged your shoulders which probably wasn't noticeable for Lili. "I don't know... Just..." You were unable to come up with any words to express yourself. Yeah, Lili would tell him about your fear but it won't change anything.

"I will prepare him." you thanked her after receiving a small smile from her. From Lili, it's a really nice gesture, but it won't do anything, this is something that's inside you and all you can do is, suck it up and just pretend everything is fine. "Shall we go?" she suddenly asked with blue gloves in her hand.

"Of course." after you nodded and locked your phone, she grabbed it and placed it on the table to prevent it from falling and breaking. And after that, she did her job.

-🫧-

"Good morning, Y/N." you heard Jennie's voice, which means that he is here too. You didn't say anything or do anything. Jennie understands that this is normal and started preparing things for your morning hygiene while also talking to the boy.

On the other hand, it was the same as every morning (except for the weekends). One of the caregivers would come around 8.30, say good morning like you would be already awake, and then start to prepare warm water and some gel for your face to clean you up. When that is all done, they will properly wake you up.

"Wakey, wakey." Jennie gently shook your shoulder and removed a blanket from your face. "Well hello there, sleepy girl." she smiled at you when you finally opened your eyes. She laughed at your quiet greeting when you returned the smile; she always found it adorable. "How are you today?"

"Good." simple answer but you just woke up and you really don't have the energy to talk. That's the reason why you closed your eyes again for a few seconds. "How are you?" you asked in return. You always do that, so the girls who are taking care of you won't think you are rude or something. You have a rule, don't be rude to them because they are taking care of you! Your goal is to make them feel comfortable around you.

"Great." she laughed and that made you chuckle 'cause you know that it is not that great so far. "But now I am here, which is always a joy," she added and started to clean your face. "And we have some help here today. He is our new co-worker." and there goes the topic you didn't want to come, but couldn't run away from.

You opened your eyes and looked behind Jennie where you saw the boy, the new co-worker. "Hello." you smiled a little, just a tiny bit, at him. You were anxious and it was getting worse 'cause your time to go to the toilet was near.

"Hi," he answered and that was all. But you didn't mind that, you tried to trick yourself that he isn't here, so if he is not gonna talk, it will be better to imagine that.

Jennie proceeded to work without waiting any more minutes. For you, it's the same every day, so you shut your eyes again and let it all up to her. She removed the blanket completely from you and put it aside because it won't be needed for a while. She removed the long pillow from under your legs and began to take your panties off. You sucked a deep breath through your nose and tried not to think about the boy who was watching and learning how to deal with you.

Jennie dropped your panties and carefully placed your legs on the bed, so she could remove the bedpan from under your adjustable bed. She put the bedpan next to your legs, took away the lid, and moved you to your side, then back to your original position. The difference now was that you were on your toilet. Jennie placed the long pillow beside the left side of your legs and another, a small pillow, between your knees and also didn't forget to place a blanket over your legs to give you some privacy.

Although it was for your comfort, it wasn't about privacy since they had already seen everything on you, but it felt right to do it.

Everything went smoothly until the boy spoke. "Oh, now you'll brush her teeth?" he obviously asked Jennie but you were present too, and it made you feel embarrassed and you just wanted to dig yourself a hole. However, you maintain your composure to prevent this annoying feeling from arising.

"Not really, Y/N can brush it herself. You need to do the rest, which is normal," she answered him and gave you your toothbrush. You then started brushing your teeth. Although it took some time (and more head movement than hand movement), you still couldn't do it faster.

Once you've finished brushing your teeth and removing the bedpan from underneath you, it's time to wash yourself. This is followed by a terrible question. "Do you want to do it yourself?" the question came from Jennie and was meant for the boy who was now supposed to wash you. Awesome!

You inhaled deeply and waited for his reply. It was clear what the answer would be, but there was still a slight hope that he would say that it was okay and he would do it next time.

"Sure."

BAM! You have no luck. You nodded to yourself and mentally prepared yourself, or you tried. Were you being too exaggerated about this whole situation? Maybe... But you couldn't help feeling ashamed, embarrassed, and even scared. You're a girl and were taken care of your whole life by your mother, a girl. Yes, now it's your stepdad in that position, instead of your mother, but with him, it is a whole different story than with a random boy who you are seeing for the first time and so does he.

Your stepdad has essentially known you all of your life. You were eight years old when he and your mother started dating; today, you are nineteen. The only difference between him and a random boy who will likely only see you once before quitting this job is, that he went through everything with you in the same way that your mother did. Yes, it wasn't very comfortable at first when it was just your stepdad and you without your mother, but it was still better than this. Now that everything is fully normal, you two joke around with each other about this stuff.

"Okay." Jennie nodded her head and moved to the side so the boy could take her place. "Firstly, you'll wash her legs and butt and you'll put on her new clean socks and panties, which you can find right here." she pointed with her hand to a toilet chair which was most of the time used as your wardrobe.

The boy probably shook his head in agreement because you couldn't hear him talk. In a second, you heard how he dipped your sponge in the soap water and not long after that, he started to wash your right leg. It was fine until he had to open your leg to wash the inner side of it. You bit your cheeks and slightly scrunched your eyebrows. Oh, how embarrassing!

"You can scrub her with the harder side. It's better for her, right Y/N?" even with your eyes closed, you could tell Jennie was smiling while asking you.

You let your eyes open a little just to look at her. "Yeah, that's true." you nodded and closed your eyes once again. The boy just hummed and switched to the harder side of the sponge.

Soon, your legs and private parts of you were nice and clean and he started to put your panties on. Jennie of course told him how to do it (and that you can't be moved to your right side because it makes you nauseous) and he did as he was told. You had to admit, that he did a really good job. Socks were very easy to put on and he was done with your bottom.

"So, now for the top half," Jennie spoke once again. "You need to find your system of how to take her shirt on and then also put it back. But it works almost the same way as her panties, moving her on the side and back!" she said somehow with enthusiasm in her voice which surprised you but you didn't ask - maybe if you two were alone...

You enjoyed the little time you were clothed as much as you could but it still wasn't enough. He was now taking your shirt off and you could tell it was tricky for him but he managed to do so without causing you much trouble. He then washed your front and back and put the new shirt back on you. And of course, he did not forget to dry you with a towel before that.

Oh how much you tried not to think that he is washing your body and that you are naked in front of him. But the harder you tried not to think about it the more your mind was thinking exactly about that and it was annoying and you hated it. Still, you were glad he did not talk much and just did his job in silence. This way, it didn't feel that much real.

"Perfect," said Jennie. "Now it's time to brush her hair." she went from her spot and took your comb from your special corner of things that involve your hygiene. "Here." she handed it to him. "You will move her to her side and brush it. You don’t need to worry about knots, she can handle that." her lips let out a small chuckle, and that made you smile a little too.

Once again the boy did as he was told and brushed your hair. After that it was just a small things; your glasses, putting back the long pillow under your legs and slightly moving your butt into a more comfortable position. That, luckily, had to do Jennie to show him what you mean by that. The last thing was a blanket and a small adjustment of your left hand and ta-da! You were done.

"Now it's time to bring her something small to eat from the fridge." Jennie continued with the "education" of what to do with you in the morning. They both were back in just a second, Jennie placed a plate with your very small breakfast on your chest and you ate. When you were done, Jennie exchanged the plate for a bottle of coke and you took a few sips. "The last thing is to give her a phone and you can rest for the rest of the time. Another toilet time is before we have to leave," she told him and gave him a small smile while handing him her phone. "Everything good?" she asked you.

"Yes, everything is perfect. Thank you, Jennie." you smiled at her and started to do your things on your phone - that means, you will check up on your game cats and look on social media.

"Oh, I need to take that... But you two should talk more," said Jennie with a smile, and before you could say anything, she went to the next room to deal with her phone call.

You took a deep silent breath threw your nose and bit your lip. You didn't want to start first but at the same time, you thought you should. "Ehm.. hi, again." you laughed awkwardly and mentally slapped yourself. You moved your head so you could look at him sitting on a couch. On the very end of a couch far from your bed.

"Hey." he smiled at you. "My name is Jeonghan. Jennie and Lisa told me about you a lot. Actually, all the workers in the company told me about you." he chuckled. "You are their sweetheart, I heard only praises," he told you and you had to shake your head in disbelief.

"Oh god..." you mumbled. "It's... I think they overpraise me. I don't do anything at all, to be honest." you laughed. "But I am very happy, that the girls like to come here even tho, they need to deal with me." small smile crept on your lips.

You hear similar words to his a lot from new co-workers (who, in the end, didn't stay for more than a week at this job) and also from the others who are still working there. Apparently, by their words, you are nice, sweet, and polite. They always are happy when they have you that day and you make them happy too just by your presence. But you were never able to handle such nice words, so you just laughed and said, that it can't be true. The conversation about that ended with that.

"They say all of these nice things just because they need to deal with grumpy old people," you told him with a kind smile. Yes, you still did not fully accept him as your new caregiver but you are not a bad person to be angry with him just because of that - because he is a man. "That's it." you chuckled and looked at your phone to see your cats in the game you play more like a routine now.

"Hm, I don't think so," he said after a while. "I don't know you that much but just by the small talk a gestures you had with Jennie, I can tell that it's true." he gave you a big smile and you weren't sure how to react. You never were. The kind words towards you said by some other people never felt right in your brain.

"Well... I thank you?" you just smiled. "And how old are you, Jeonghan? You seem very young to be doing this job," you remarked and it was true. Usually, it's not that boys don't do this job but young people in general, so you were curious.

Jeonghan laughed. "You are welcome, Y/N. But you didn't have to thank me in the first place." he was still smiling at you. "I am almost thirty. Not that young anymore." he laughed once again.

"Okay okay." you laughed too. "But why this job? Boys don't do this and I know that. I can truly say I am lucky with my stepdad." now, you got away from the game and locked your phone, so you could give Jeonghan your full attention.

"I took care of others all the time, that's why." he simply answered. "I know, boring answer but there isn't anything special behind this." he nodded his head. "But I promise, I don't bite."

"Oh... Lisa talked to you?" you nervously laughed while he nodded his head in answer. "It’s nothing against you, Okay? It’s just..." you struggled with your words. There wasn't really a nice way to describe it, you just don't feel comfortable to be seen naked by a boy.. a man. But you can't do anything about it in your situation and that makes you angry about yourself even more.

"Hey, don't worry." he moved on the couch a little closer to you. "I get why you are feeling this way. I would too. And I promise to make you feel comfortable around me. If you don’t like anything, tell me and I figure something else." he gave you a reassuring smile.

"Thanks." you send a small sad smile to him and move your gaze to the TV that is playing some show you have probably seen dozens of times already.

It was nice of him that he understood what you were feeling but those words just won't make the weird feeling about him disappear; it will take time and knowing yourself, it will take a long way for you and your mind.

"I'm back." Jennie came back and sat on the couch next to Jeonghan. "And with some news," she added and you immediately looked at her with raised eyebrows. "Jeonghan will have just some of our clients and you're one of them, Y/N!" she smiled.

"Guess we will see each other often then." he looked at you with concern. He could sense that you don’t want him to be taking care of you, hence, you basically told him that, and now this. Life really is just a bad joke to you...

"Yeah..." you nodded and then smiled to not seem disappointed by this news. Once again, you took a deep breath and tried to find something positive about it - maybe you won't have the one girl anymore who is just complaining about everything and does her job poorly.

Luckily, the next day was already the weekend, which meant that your stepdad was free from work and was now taking care of you. And that also means that you have two days to convince yourself, that you'll be alright with Jeonghan. What a hard task...

-🫧-

Monday has come and with that also comes Jeonghan - of course, he had to come on the first day of the week, it's just how your life is. And thanks to Lisa, who writes you every Sunday and will come in the week to take care of you, you know that Jeonghan will come two more times, great.

Today, Jeonghan was already on his own which scared you more than you thought but you were quite good at not letting it show. And because it was only his second time (first time alone) here, you had to still help him. That also made things a little bit better, 'cause there was no time for stupid overthinking that Jeonghan is, in fact, a boy.

"Is it alright like this?" he asked you and looked at you when he put the bedpan under you. "I'm not sure if it sits right?" he let out an awkward laugh.

"It's perfect." you nodded your head and smiled a little. It was true, he placed it perfectly under you, and for his first time, it was impressive. Not everyone can master it on their first try; not even after many many other tries...

You have to say, Jeonghan does such a good job and he remembers most of the stuff he was told on Friday. He also uses his brain and does think logically, which you would think that everyone does, but no. Some caregivers just don't think during this job and make simple things somehow hard. Jeonghan also tried to conversate with you while he was washing you up.

"How was your weekend? Did you do something fun?" he asked while he put new and clean socks on you. Your bottom was already nicely washed, which you didn't even realize he was done with.

"It was good." simple answer. "If you consider listening to songs and watching YouTube videos to be fun, then yes, I did something fun," you said while a small chuckle escaped your lips. "You know, I'm always at home. I don't like going out."

"Well, it was fun for you. That's all that matters." he gave you a small smile and you smiled back. "Can I move to the top?" with this question, he hinted if he could take off your shirt and continue his job.

"Of course." you nodded. "And how was your weekend?" because you don’t want to be impolite, you asked him too, to keep the conversation going. And also because you didn't want to think about the washing up.

"I was just at home and relaxing. There wasn't much going on," he answered you while taking your shirt off. "Oh, sorry. Hope I didn't pull your hair?" he apologized almost immediately when his hand touched your head. He needed to lift you, just a little bit, and he was scared he grabbed you in the wrong spot.

"No, it's Okay. You did not pull my hair, don't worry," you assured him even with a small smile. "If you did pull my hair, I think I would scream," you said while laughing.

"Okay, I'll believe you." he nodded and threw your shirt on the ground to the rest of your laundry. "But please, if I ever grab you badly and it will hurt, tell me."

"I will."

Jeonghan once again nodded his head and without another word started to wash your top half. Everything went smoothly and soon enough you were lying comfortably in your bed nice and clean with new clothes. When you were done, Jeonghan cleaned up after himself.

"Now... Now you will have breakfast, right?" he asked you and when you gave him a green that he was right, he went to the kitchen to look inside the fridge. "What would you like to have?"

"There should be a plate with brownies, so if I can have that, please," you answered him. "Oh, and don't give me everything. I want just a small piece," you added kinda important information because you're not a breakfast person. You're not hungry in the morning but still take something small, just because.

You could hear how Jeonghan is looking for a plate and knife, perhaps a fork too. You also heard how is cutting a piece for you and then you realized he can have some too. "You can have a piece too if you want to."

"Thank you, it's nice of you but I have to decline," he said while putting the rest of the brownies back in the fridge. You just nodded to yourself and thanked him, when he gave you your plate with a fork, which you forgo to mention that you want. "Do you need help?" he looked at you.

"No, I should be able to do this by myself. Thank you." you smiled and started to eat the breakfast that was given to you by one of your stepdad's relatives.

Jeonghan sat on the couch next to you and grabbed papers that he needed to fill. The papers are from the company that you are under and all the caregivers need to fill them up with information about what they did that day with you. You know, wash you up, give you food, and so on. After he was done, you were done too, so he took your plate and went with it to the kitchen where he washed it and put it back in its place. Jeonghan also returned to his place and you were both silent. Luckily, there was a TV playing so it was not a complete silence.

"Can I.. ask what happened to you?" Jeonghan suddenly asked a question you expected him to ask. "You don’t need to answer if it’s uncomfortable for you."

"No no, I am fine. I never had a problem talking about this." you smiled at him. You weren't lying, you were absolutely okay with answering it. This has been part of you for some years now, of course, people will ask, they are curious. Everyone is. "Well... I have something that is called muscular dystrophy. In easy words, it means that muscles in my whole body are getting weaker and weaker with each day passing by. I was unfortunate enough that it started this quickly." you told him.

"When did it start?"

"I must had it already when I was born but it started around four. I wasn't walking well and physically I was horrible." you let out a small laugh. "I ended up in a wheelchair when I was nine and since that day, it went downhill."

"I'm sorry to hear that. It must have been hard." he gave you a small sad smile. "I can't imagine how hard everything was, and still is." he exhaled quite sharply.

"Yeah." you shrugged your shoulders. "But there is nothing I can do and pitying myself isn't an option for sure. That won't change anything." you chuckled.

"I heard there was a donation that our company made for you because of your story." he slightly changed the topic but you can't blame him. It is still awkward to hear something like this when you did not experience it yourself and you don’t know what to say to that or react.

"Oh, yeah." you laughed and looked away. "Something was going on... You can read about it. It's on that table, they wanted me to write my story so they can have it for the people who would want to donate." you moved your head to the table where was your story on a piece of paper.

"Can I?" slowly, he started to get up so he could take the paper. You gave him a positive answer and he grabbed the paper and started to read to himself.

'Hi, everyone,

My name is Y/N, I am 19 years old and today I will tell you about my life. I was born as a healthy girl, who wasn't really gifted in doing good in sports. Me and my mom didn't really think much about it because not everyone is a sporty person but later it turned out to be something much worse than me just being clumsy. I used to trip on air and fall and that was happening many times in a day. When I was seven, the doctor sent me to some surgery, where they had to take a small piece of my leg muscle to do tests on it. They found out I have something called muscular dystrophy, which makes the muscles in my whole body weaker and weaker. You can probably guess where is this going...

In third grade, I fell on stairs in school and broke my arm. The same year I broke my other arm. In sixth grade, I had to have back surgery because of scoliosis that was caused by sitting in a wheelchair. You would have thought that this surgery was a good idea but because of that, I stopped walking completely and I had to start using an electric wheelchair. After that, you could say my life was okay. I was visiting my grandma, and friends but... Then came another harsh part of my life.

Two years ago, they found out my mom had cancer. She had surgery and many chemo. Doctors told us she was doing great, that she was basically cancer-free and everyone was so happy. A few months later, she had another surgery which was a big mistake. Her condition got so much worse, that doctors let her go home with words, she didn't have much time. Because my mom was taking care of me 24/7, there was now no one. Her husband, my stepdad, had to go to work (he was the only one making money), and he found me a company that was, and still is, sending caregivers to our house.

We also were thinking, who will take care of me after my mom is gone? Everyone for sure things, that family would take care of me and we did too. Mom asked her sister who agreed but a few days later she said, she won't do it.

There comes my dad to the scene.

He still lives with his parents and he used to visit me once in two weeks when I was at my grandma's because he did not want to drive around twenty minutes to a different town. At first, he said that I was his daughter and he would never put me somewhere in the hospital or anything like that and Mom even told him that I might come to him very soon. When the time came, he turned his back on us, on me.

That is not all! In one of our family gatherings, they started to talk about mom's condition and stepdad said, to see how they would react, that I might have to be put in some place for disabled people. Everyone agreed without asking ME about MY opinion about it. They just decided on what was best for them, which was to get rid of me so they didn't have to take responsibility.

Not even my father talked about it with me, he just told me that he has his girlfriend, his life and he doesn't want to ruin this said life. He even dared to call social services on me that I lived in a household that was not suitable for me, even dangerous. What a lie... Three social workers came to visit me and asked me about my opinion on all of that and I told them, that I didn't wanna go away to some of those places and they agreed with me. They told me, that it's crazy to put someone who can think by themselves in those places and my stepdad told them, he would be keeping me. He just wanted to know, what my family would do.

Sadly, some days later, my mom passed away...

With that said, I live with my stepdad who is basically a stranger to me now. I also have a younger brother who is still too young to understand some of those adult things.

Thank you for your time ♡'

"I... I have no words. That is... That is absolutely horrible. How can a family treat you like this?" his voice got a little louder at the end with anger.

"I don't have an answer for that." you shook your head. "Or maybe I do." you looked at him. "They don't want to ruin their lives. They don't want to lose their freedom. That is the reason." you had a sad smile on your face. "I stopped talking to them after all of that."

"So they ruined yours instead." he scoffed. "Family shouldn't think like that. I think you did the right thing that you stopped talking to them."

"Yeah... At least I found out what they were as people and what they thought about me. They never liked me or my mom, we were some dirt to them." you took a deep breath and rolled your eyes.

"I'm very sorry for what happened and also for your loss," he told you after a few minutes of complete silence that started after you stopped talking.

"It's Okay, you did nothing wrong. You didn't do any of that." you shook your head and gave him a small smile.

-🫧-

The past few weeks went without anything interesting. In that time you had Jeonghan a few times, it still didn't feel really good but it was getting better which made you happy. You and Jeonghan always had something to talk about and he even showed interest in the stuff you like, so you were happy when he was with you. You became friends.

Today was Jeonghan supposed to come which he did and you were happy that it was him that day because you weren't feeling good in both ways, mentally and physically. You were sick and even tho today you were doing better, yesterday was absolutely horrible for you.

"Good morning, Y/N." Jeonghan smiled at you when you finally opened your eyes and looked at him. "How are you today?"

"Morning," you mumbled and looked away after he asked his question about, how you are doing. "I... I am sick, so it is not that great." you tried to chuckle a little bit.

"Oh, I'm sorry. Do you still want to wash up? I don't want you to be cold so you won't feel worse." he asked you and placed a hand on yours.

"No, that's.. that's..." you wanted to continue but your emotions overflowed inside you and you started to cry.

"Y/N? Hey, it's Okay." he moved his hand on yours up and down a few times. "What's wrong? You can tell me, I'm here for you."

You felt so many things at once but there was also embarrassment. You didn't want to cry in front of him, you never liked to cry when people were around. Usually, you could keep everything to yourself till you went to sleep and were alone, then you let it all out and still tried to be quiet about it.

"I a-am sorry..." you tried to take a deep breath but the crying was stranger than you. "My s-stepdad, he... H-he was so an-ngry with me for being s-sick. He..." you had to pause.

Yesterday, when you became sick, it was harsh. There was coming so much fluids from both of your ends and you couldn't stop it just by a whip of a finger. You were already feeling like shit but your stepdad made it much worse. Not that he was angry, but he told you, he won't take care of you anymore if you're sick and that you should tell the social worker that you need to go away.

"He t-told me, he can't d-do this an-nymore and I need-d to write a social w-worker to find me so-ome place." you once again tried to take a deep breath. "I get he is t-tired from w-work but it's not m-my fault for bei-ing sick. Like... I can't con-ntrol it."

"I am sure, he did not mean it." his face showed concern. "He was probably just stressed from work." he stroked your hair with a sad look on his face.

"If he didn't me-eant it, he wouldn't sa-ay it." you shook your head. There has been so much going on in your head since yesterday and so many negative thoughts.

"It's true that you are not the one to blame for being sick. It just happened. And let's be honest, it was probably one of us who brought something with us. We may not be sick but we still can make others sick." he told you and went away from you. He came back with a tissue and started to wipe your face.

You just nodded your head. You wanted to talk, you had so much to say but at the same time, you just wanted to be silent. Talking bad about your stepdad feels wrong because he took you under his roof but you're not the wrong here. You are sick, it's not the end of the fucking world so why he makes it seem like it?

Jeonghan could sense that you wanted to be silent for now, so he started doing his job without saying a word. He already knew what to do and didn't need your guidance anymore, which was perfect for a time like this. Soon enough, you were already done with hygiene; Jeonghan was such a great caregiver.

"Can I have my phone first?" you asked him when you saw him bringing you a plate with breakfast. "I... I want to deal with that situation first."

"Of course." he put the plate on a table and gave you your phone. Jeonghan then sat on the couch and was waiting for you to tell him, that you wanted your breakfast.

You took a shaky breath and opened a chat with your stepdad. You knew you were not strong enough to message the social worker so you asked your stepdad if he could do that for you. You even apologized for being sick, which is ridiculous. Why would you have to apologize for this normal thing that can happen to anyone? But you felt like it. He made you feel like it's your fault like everything is your fault.

A new wave of tears burned your eyes but you took a couple of small deep breaths to stop you from crying again; you need to be strong. After sending the message, you placed your phone on the bottom of your stomach and looked at Jeonghan. "Can I have it now, please?"

Jeonghan gave it to you. "Thank you," you told him and started slowly eating. You're not a breakfast person but this time you weren't hungry at all.

Somehow you managed to eat it all and after you were done, Jeonghan gave you your bottle of Coca-Cola; you are only living on that. It's not healthy but you told yourself you won't care about this.

A big problem (and not the only one, probably the least horrible one) with your condition is, that if you live only on water and apples, you would still gain weight very quickly so what is the point of not eating and drinking whatever you want when it will have the same result? With that said, that sometimes doesn't stop you thinking about yourself like a fat pig that should lose some weight.

Sometimes you think your mind is making big jokes on you with all of those thoughts that are one time nice and the other time bad.

"It will end up okay," said Jeonghan suddenly. You looked at him not very sure about that; he doesn't know your stepdad. "I know it will. He wouldn't keep you just to put you away because of something small like this." he sounded so sure about it.

"I hope so." you swallowed hard. Anxiety was building up in you and you were scared, really scared. The thoughts of what is going to possibly happen were still running and fresh in your mind. It was exhausting. "But it seemed like it isn't that small to him," you added and looked away from him.

After you were done talking, your phone vibrated which meant you received a message back from your stepdad. You grabbed your phone and with another deep breath opened the chat to read it.

"I'm staying here," you said out loud to inform Jeonghan. "But I can't get sick again," you said slightly annoyed. Easier said than done but for him everything is easy because he thinks like that.

"That is good news. Not the one about not being sick but that will change over time." he smiled at you. "It's gonna be good for some time again, don't worry." he tried so hard to be positive about it but you knew yours. Still, you just nodded and thanked him.

When Jeonghan left, you broke down crying again. You just needed to let everything out and clear your mind a little bit. It may have not helped your sickness but you couldn't hold your tears anymore and you also needed calm before your stepdad got back from work. Crying in front of him is forbidden, that is one of your rules (because he would just mock you a tell you, you have no reason to cry).

Luckily, your sickness went away throughout the day and you were calm enough to deal with any outburst your stepdad has prepared for you, which you wish he did not but you won't know until he returns home.

-🫧-

Jeonghan earned your trust very quickly. It might have helped the fact, that you cried in front of him but you'll never admit that. You were finally comfortable around him but there were times when you still felt a little awkward. Both of you shared stories from your life and talked about nothing and anything. It was more like a friend is helping a friend type of relationship than a caregiver to a patient. It was nice.

But everything good in your life must have an early end...

"Lisa?" Jeonghan sat down next to you on the couch. "I.. I don't know what to do so I called you," he told her.

"Jeonghan, what are you talking about?" Lisa was obviously confused about why is Jeonghan calling her and what even is he talking about.

"It's, Y/N, she..."

Saying that everything good in your life must have an early end was not the right thing, no. It should be, that you finally found your piece for once. And last...

"She is not breathing. She... She is dead."

📂 Main role

⤷ Lee Chan (Dino) x reader

📂 Genre

⤷ bartender!dino, fluff, strangers to?

📂 Warnings

⤷ alcohol (but it's only three drinks)

• If I miss something, let me know ♡ (p.s. English is NOT my first language, thank you)

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"The usual?" asked the young bartender who has been serving you drinks every Saturday after your failed date.

It has been just the fifth time but it was enough for him to remember your order and enough for you to actually, and for good, stop using the dating app which promised to find your perfect match; just not for you...

"Yeah..." you exhaled somehow exhausted by everything and everyone. "Thanks." you gave him a very small smile when he placed your drink before you.

"No problem." he returned your smile in a much bigger size and continued to serve other customers that were sitting at the bar, which wasn't that many.

You were then just sitting on a stool and sipping on your cocktail while staring at the wall full of different types of alcohol right in front of you. It seemed like you had a lot on your mind but you actually weren't thinking about anything; just staring and silently hoping for some kind of miracle.

Sadly, no miracle came.

Not even after your third drink that you took your time with. You were playing more with the straw rather than drinking the alcoholic drink you liked (but it now looks like you don’t really like it). You took a deep breath and fish out your wallet from your small handbag, so you could pay for your drinks. You left the money on the bar counter and were on your way out.

"Wait!" you heard behind you. You weren't so sure it was meant for you but you still turned around and to your surprise, you saw the bartender. "I believe this is yours?" he put his hand with your handbag up for you to see.

You look at your hands and you only hold your wallet but not your handbag. "Oh, yeah, it is." you nodded and took it from him. "Thank you so much, I... I can't believe I left it there." you sighed and gave him a small smile.

"Hey, that's okay." he once again gave you a much bigger smile which had its charm, you had to admit. "See you next Saturday?" for some reason, he asked with hope in his voice.

You shook your head. "No, not anymore. I gave up on failed dates," you told him, and could see that his eyes became a little sad.

"That is... That's a shame," he told you and was ready to go back to his place to continue with his work. "But what if I promised you a not-failed date?"

"Huh?"

"I-I... Ehm... How should I?" he suddenly became so nervous that you had to bite your lip to not start laughing at how adorable he was. "Can I take you on a date?" he said so fast you almost did not understand what he was saying.

"I would love to," you answered with an honest smile that must have surprised him 'cause he was only staring at you now.

Before you could say anything, there was heard a loud 'Chan' and the boy suddenly had a panicked expression on his face. He really should get going back to work; you don’t want to be the reason he gets fired.

"I put my number in your handbag. Hope to hear from you soon," he said quickly and disappeared behind the bar.

Who knows? Maybe the sixth time won't be that bad and maybe, just maybe, it will bloom into something beautiful.

📂 Main role

⤷ Choi Seungcheol x reader

📂 Genre

⤷ fluff

📂 Warnings

⤷ kinda mentioned reader's weight

📂 Authors note

⤷ Happy new year, everyone! ♡♡

• If I miss something, let me know ♡ (p.s English is NOT my first language, thank you)

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"Oh, the fireworks started," you said with a tired voice but still sounded cheerful. "It's a shame I can't see it." a sad smile found its way on your face.

You always loved fireworks since you were a baby in diapers (at least that's what your mom told you) and that never changed. You had to look out of the window when you heard the sound of fireworks no matter where you were and sometimes you even went outside, if it was possible, to enjoy it more. Sadly, after your condition got to the point where you weren't able to get out of bed, not even sit on your own, fireworks were long forgotten.

"Cheol?" you said very confused what is your boyfriend doing.

But he didn't say anything.

"Cheol?" you tried once again but still no answer from him. Instead, he was done putting away your blanket that he put over his shoulder and was ready to take you in his arms. "Cheol, don't," you mumbled when you realized what he is doing.

It wasn't like you did not want to see the fireworks, quite the opposite, but you felt bad for Seungcheol that he needed to carry you. Even tho he is a very strong man and is always assuring you that it is not hard for him to carry you, you know it's still not that easy on him.

Seungcheol, of course, did not listen to you and carefully took you in his arms. While you were in his arms, he went into the small garden you had behind your house. He slowly put you on the grass and then put your head on his lap for you to be a little more comfortable and also to have a better view of the sky. After that, he placed the blanket over you again for you to stay warm.

Still, without a single word, Seungcheol took your hand that was under the blanket into his and slowly caressed it with his thumb. You smiled a little and started to look at the sky, just like Seungcheol, where it was lightening with so many beautiful colors and you forgot that life hasn't been easy on you. You just enjoyed the beautiful show with your amazing boyfriend.

Slowly, your eyes moved to look at your boyfriend instead of the show. You kept the big smile on your face, which grew even bigger after seeing him and you thought how grateful you were for a man like him, for a man like Seungcheol.

📂 Main role

⤷ Choi Seungcheol x reader

📂 Genre

⤷ Fluff

• English is NOT my first language, thank you ♡

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"Cheolie?"

That was all you had to say for your boyfriend, Seungcheol, to get up from the couch and come to you. He didn't have to search for you too long 'cause he found you standing on the stairs.

"Everything okay, sweetie?" he asked you while slowly walking up the stairs until he was in front of you. You only shook your head in an answer.

"Come here." with a small smile, he embraced you in his strong arms.

Immediately, you felt much better and inhaled deeply. After a few seconds, you finally wrapped your arms around him too, and got closer to him.

"Wanna talk about it?" he started to stroke your back and once in a while a small kiss was placed in your hair.

"Later," you mumbled and Seungcheol nodded his head, continuing to hug you.

Was it weird that you were standing in the middle of a stairs? Maybe. But it was just the two of you in your small space and Seungcheol's bear hug, that you needed the most right now - and Seungcheol was very happy to give them to you.

📂 Main role

⤷ Yoon Jeonghan x reader

📂 Genre

⤷ fluff

• English is NOT my first language, thank you ♡

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"Let's go back inside, hm?" you heard your boyfriend's voice as he stood up from the small bench in the backyard.

"Just a little longer, please?" you looked up at him from your spot, giving him a small pout that you knew he couldn't resist.

Jeonghan, despite feeling the chill and knowing you did too, nodded in agreement with a faint smile. "Fine." he breathed out. "Just a little longer," he repeated your request.

Though he agreed with you, he still headed back inside the house. Truthfully, you were asking him if you could stay a little longer because you knew how easily he got cold, and you didn't want him to suffer out here with you. Yeah, you're no different from him, but you simply wanted to enjoy watching the rain fall a little while longer.

Today was actually supposed to be much different. You and Jeonghan had planned to go for a small walk around your quiet neighborhood and maybe get some ice cream because the lady on TV said the sun would be proudly shining in the sky; well... it was the complete opposite. Yet, you didn't mind. In reality, you loved rainy days, and your wish was always to be out in the rain, getting soaked and just enjoying the beautiful moment, with your boyfriend of course (who would simply call you a romantic fool, with a fond smile on his face, if he knew about this small wish of yours).

"Hm?" you looked around yourself, a little confused about what was happening. You soon found out it was only Jeonghan who had put a blanket around you to keep you nice and warm. "Thank you." you gave him a small smile filled with appreciation and snuggled more into the fluffy blanket.

"Anytime, my Y/N." he gave you a warm and loving kiss that felt nice on your cold cheek. "Guess I came just in time." he laughed a little with you.

Of course, Jeonghan didn't forget about himself and brought a blanket for himself too, so he could stay outside with you and watch the rain fall down on your garden. Slowly, he moved his arms around you to be much closer to you, which you both appreciated and loved.

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✼ Bangtan

→ Namjoon

→ Seokjin

→ Yoongi

→ Hoseok

→ Jimin

→ Taehyung

→ Jungkook

✧ Seventeen

→ Seungcheol

→ Jeonghan

→ Joshua

→ Junhui

→ Soonyoung

→ Wonwoo

→ Jihoon

→ Seokmin

→ Mingyu

→ Minghao

→ Seungkwan

→ Vernon

→ Chan

Non-requested info about me

nickname: Jiji

age: 22

zodiac sign: sagittarius sun, pisces rising (I'm a yoonjin's daughter)

bangtan biases: Yoongi, Seokjin

seventeen biases: Seungcheol,Seungkwan, Joshua,Wonwoo

ultimates: Yoongi, Wonwoo, Seungkwan

hobbies: music,reading,writing,playing games, photography

Particular traits: I scream when I play games, I'm weirdly funny, I sing for free (because I'm terrible at it), I collect books and photocards.

Hi everyone, and welcome to my blog!

I will principally write about bangtan and seventeen, but I'm willing to share what's on my mind since I'm a hopeless romantic and a wannabe writer!

Don't hesitate to text me if you want to make some requests about one shots or moodboard ✩

English is not my first language, so please understand me if I make some mistakes, and obviously, don't hesitate to tell me what's wrong!

I wish you all a great day.

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