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Disabled and chronically ill femmes? This one is for you.
If you can't put your makeup on today because of pain or fatigue, you're still femme
If you can't wear the clothes you want because they aren't adaptive for you, you're still femme
If you have bulky or clunky or unyieldy mobility aids, you're still femme
If you can't wear heels because you have ankle braces, you're still femme
If your illness keeps you from presenting the way that society expects a femme to present in any way, you're still femme
I love you femmes and you are still femme, even if your disability or chronic illness might make that look different sometimes <3
Signed,
A disabled butch
“look! a shooting star!” you exclaimed. “quick, make a wish!” you added, closing your eyes. when you opened them you turned to look at felix. “what did you wish for?” you asked him, curious what his wish would be. he smiled widely at the question. “why would i make a wish if you’re already here?”
I have a bad feeling abt how this will progress
My Biggest Regret
Part four:
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"Y/n pass me the tomatoes please,"
Chan's mum and Y/n had started cooking a big meal for the boys. It was currently 5 in the evening and Chan's dad had gone to pick up the boys from the airport leaving Hannah, Y/n and his mum cooking in a hot kitchen for 9 men. 9 grown men meant a lot of meat, a lot of bread and a lot of food in general.
"Here you go auntie," she passed the tomatoes and started on the dessert. Chan's favorite cheesecake. She hadn’t cooked it in a while but she knew she could, after all she made sure to in-grave the steps in her brain just incase Chan had ever asked her to make it for him.
"Mum I don't know why we're cooking so much for him!" This was the 50th time that evening that Hannah was complaining, "there just going to finish all this in 10 minutes!"
"Aish!" She smacked Hannah’s arm lightly causing Y/n to smile at the two and giggle, "all you've done is complain since morning! Be like Y/n and actually help," Hannah rolled her eyes and walked over to the oven to check on whatever was inside there.
"Y/nnie, my love, maybe go rest a little bit? You've been on your feet for a few hours,"
"It's okay auntie, we're almost done anyway so don't worry about it," Y/n assured Mama Bhang.
"Okay sweetie but aren't you so excited! Channie comes home!" She clapped her hands and spun a little.
"Yes I am excited, woah woah-" Y/n quickly grabbed the spoon that was about to hit the ground and handed it back to her.
"We must celebrate today don't you think?" The older lady stood by the stove and stirred one of the broths that were cooking, "how about some wine?"
"Mum, where shall I put this?" Hannah was holding a tray and it looked very hot. She was sweating a little too just like the rest of them.
"Just put it by the counter and start plating everything baby," she instructed the girl before turning back to a very concentrated Y/n, "so wine?"
"Yeah sure, I can go out and get some-"
"Oh! Don't be silly! You really thought I wouldn't have a stash of wine?" She teased and walked over to the caboards in the leaving room and walked back with two bottles in hand.
"Are we finishing both of them?" Y/n asked in shock looking at her elder grabbing three cups and setting them down.
"Oh sweetie! If we can, why not? We've been in the kitchen for hours! Don't we deserve this?" She poured and filled the glasses with wine and handed them out.
"Okay! I'm almost done with the sauce, I'm moving the hotpot onto the dining table, you two finish dishing up plates and start bringing them out,"
"Okay Mum, what about the ice cream? Should we put them in the coolers?"
"No, just feel the coolers with ice," she instructed Hannah before leaving the two in the kitchen.
"I've never seen her this happy before," Y/n giggled and started to stack the foods on the plates.
"Same to be honest, I don't think she was even this happy when I graduated," Hannah rolled her eyes and took a sip of her wine.
"Oh! Don't say that Hannah, you know we were all so excited," Y/n had attended the graduation and made sure to take a lot of pictures cause she was proud and she wanted to make an album of memories to give to Chan when he came back. She had stacked a lot of pictures of things he had missed including birthdays, graduations (including hers) and just casual dinners and parties. The book was thick and she couldn't wait to hand it to the boy.
"I just don't under why-"
"Hannah you can't have this grudge with your brother, I was also in pain and I was hurt but you can't keep holding onto the grudge, his on his way home right now, you should be celebrating. Don't ruin it by being angry! Let him get home and after dinner you can talk to him about it okay?"
"Ugh I hate it when you're right," Hannah rolled her eyes. They both took another sip from their glasses and finished up setting the dining table.
The balcony door was open revealing the hot grill outside waiting for Chan's dad to put the steak's on the grill.
It was around 6:30. The glasses of wine were empty and now filled again. They were all washing up the dishes and cleaning up the house because Mama Bhang had recieved a text saying they were pulling up in the drive way.
Y/n's stomach started to churn, she couldn't believe. Chan was here. Chan was finally here. The glass in her hand was suddenly empty again. She had chugged it down.
"Okay should we go take a shower now?" Hannah asked as she finished wiping the table. Her mum was laying blankets on the couch incase anyone was going to sleep on it and she put out a few snacks on the table for the boys.
"Yeah let's go," Y/n agreed and headed to Hannah's room. She closed the door behind them and Hannah poured another glass for Y/n.
"Are you trying to get me drunk?" Y/n asked already tipsy. They both giggled as Hannah nodded her head.
"If we're going to do this, let's atleast do it drunk?" She justified, well questioned.
"You're so silly!" Y/n chuckled and grabbed her towel to head into the bathroom.
Her head was spinning a little but she couldn't help but overthink everything. She couldn't contain her emotions. She couldn't explain how she felt. She could just simple day she was happy but that couldn't explain all of her emotions. She wanted answers from Chan. Why did he disappear? Did he still love her? Because she made sure to keep herself pure for him. She made sure to keep herself innocent for him because he had promised to be her first in everything.
"Y/n! Hurry up girl!" The knock on the door causes her to jump out of her trance and quickly get out of the bathroom. Hannah was sat on the bed scrolling through her socials.
“Okay I’m done,” she said while rolling her eyes playfully.
"Finally! I thought you passed out or something," Y/n put down her toilet bag and get dressed as Hannah was taking her shower.
She had decided to wear a cute blue body hugging dress that she had gotten from skims with a white and blue cardigan.
She then went on to put on some perfume and do a little bit of makeup. Her hair was then slicked back into a pony tail.
When Hannah was done she also wore something similar to Y/n's but hers was in red and she let her hair fall since it wasn't long enough to be put up.
They decided to take a few selfies and pictures since they both could agree they looked really cute and wifey material.
"Girls?! There here!" They hear Chan's mum yell throught he house. The two got up and finished the wine in their glasses and made their way downstairs.
"Oh my girls! You both look so beautiful," she cooed at the sight of both of them.
"Thank you mum! Now where are they?" Hannah was impatient, she wanted to see her brother and his friends.
The door handle wiggled and then opened revealing her dad and a bunch of people behind him.
"Geuss who's home," his voice boomed throughout the whole house.
"Move!" His mum run past his dad and jumped into Chan's arms. Her body trembled against his as she started to cry.
It was a beautiful sight and Hannah and Y/n couldn't help but tear up a little.
"Oh my baby Boy! I missed you so much. This can't be real," she cried in his arms as Chan allowed her too.
"Hey Mum, I missed you so much," he wouldn't admit it but tears dropped from his eyes aswell. He did miss his mum with everything in him.
"Well since those two are busy," Chan's dad cleared his throat while chuckling, "girls these are the guys, introduce yourselves," he encourages the two girls that stood behind the couches.
"Hey, I'm Hannah, Hannah Bhang. His little sister and this is Y/n, Y/n Y/l/n. She's a family friend." Hannah smiled and waved. Y/n waved too, since she wasn't used to being people around her age she looked terrified but in all honesty she was just shy.
"Nice to meet you finally! I'm leeknow," he walked over to them to shake their hand. "That's Changbin, Han, Felix, Hyunjin, Seungmin and I.N," he points at the different guys. They both smiled and waved at each of them. Y/n was trying so hard to remember all their names.
The blonde guy caught her eye though. Hyunjin was it? His was so pretty but what made her fall for him more was his soft plump lips.
"Welcome to Australia," Y/n finally said, "Make yourself at home." She smiled and lead them to sit down.
"Hey! hey! hey! I haven't met them yet!" Chan's mum said after she finally let go of Chan and dragged the boy into the house, they all chuckle and get up again to greet their elder. She made sure to give them hugs and kisses.
"Hannah!" A not so familiar voice called distracting them from the sight in-front of them. They both turn to Chan. "Are you not going to kiss your brother hello?" He chuckled and wrapped his arms around her. His eyes automatically falling on Y/n.
He gasps and analyzes her figure, she was even more beautiful than he could remember. She looked so innocent and so grown up now.
The guilt started to eat away at him. It started to slowly creep up and it made his body heat up.
"Okay okay you're squeezing me to death!" Hannah was panting and trying to wiggle out of his strong grip.
"Woah," was all he could say. He almost even dropped his travel bag. "Y/n?"
"Hey Channie!" She smiled and waved at the boy who quite literally looked like he was about to pass out.
"Long time no see ehhh?"
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! ༼;´༎ຶ ༎ຶ༽ this is soo.. F*cking beautiful... I can't
Thank you so F much!! 💖💖💖💖✨😭
You are so beautiful *crying*
Doodle for @juliatv !! ✨♥️
MAJOR NINJAGO DR SEASON 2 SPOILERS BELOW❗️❗️ DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVENT WATCHED ALL 10 EPISODES. (unless you want major spoilers, I guess??)
Just some notes and commentary about the new season!! (I will die because of this season.)
V V V V
When the group was in the cave facing their fears in the darkness, we were showed everyone's fears EXCEPT Kai's (and Wyldfyre's and Riyu's but Wyldfyre said something about, 'the wasting'??) Lloyd's was not being good enough to be a master, Sora's was being controlled by Imperium again, Arins was being afraid of not finding his parents and if they even still loved him, and lastly Nya's was Jay not knowing who she was. I was SO sad when she said "I know the real Jay could never forget me." BECAUSE HE DID, BUT NOT PURPOSEFULLY AAAAA I WILL PERISH.
But I really wanna know what Kai saw, he was the only one who's wasn't shown or even talked about, but after it happened he seemed to still be thinking about it, like, he was looking down into space or smth.
Also, that flashback Geo had when Cole was gone?? Kinda gay man ngl.. (but I live them so much)😂
I LOVED THE COLE AND ZANE DUO RECOGNITIONNN!!! I LOVE THAT DUOOO
When Jay was trying to capture Bonzle, Sprite (the weird yellow orb) showed him himself, what he was supposed to be, a ninja. And it revealed his lightning powers and he said something like "Thats MY secret that I have lightning powers!" I LOVED THAT BUT ALSO YOU DUMBASS YOU NEED TO REMEMBER😡😡
BRO. KAI IS IN THE FUCKING PORTAL. IT LOOKS LIKE A FUCKING BACKROOMS LEVEL😭😭 I think we know what Doc Wyatt meant about Kai now..😢 I NEED HIM BACK BRO. THE CLIFFHANGERRRRRR KMS RN. (/j)
IT WAS SO GOOD BUT.. AAAAAAA WHYYY *violent sobbing*
Honestly, it kinda felt like a whole different show! The lore seems pretty different. (Also what happened to Kai's hair in episode 9??? It looked a little wonky-)
I love how Kai was the first one to achieve the rising dragon form, then Nya, then Lloyd. Kai's encouragement was Nya, Nya's encouragement was Kai being taken, and Lloyd's encouragement was the visions and realizing he needed to connect with the motion. (And because their fate kinda depended on him to do it sooo.. pressure lol!!)
I love how (I need to stop starting every sentence with this) the thing that was holding Kai back was his anger and emotions. They've held him back a lot especially in the pre – s8 seasons.
That's it for now, if you aren't already bored of reading this. I might add more if I realize more. (Jebus this is long)
raine whispers, everybody!! ☁️💫
My sketches by creepypasta
no bcuz i actually love lore and art so much ik my followers just be seeing my reblogs abt my little rants in the tags...
ughhhh i wnna talk about my crp ver (au?) so bad but my friends don't listen... erm erm erm if u guys wanna hear abt my character versions or just entire lore about anything pls i will be so happy to answer if you send in an ask abt it
Can someone explain to me why on earth my brain made me do this, I didn't even like how it turned out in the end! (╥_╥)
You can still see the guidelines after i erased them....
15 minutes of my life wasted, thank you brain. T–T
