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Missed him on his birthday \\

“Seungmin one shot”

Pairing: Kim Seungmin x female reader

Genre: Angst and a bit of fluff in the end.

Word count: 1.1 K

A/N: I wanted to post this on his birthday but due to some reasons I couldn’t but I am happy that I am posting this finally

[11:23 pm]

You were in balcony, looking at the moon. You were missing Seungmin, all the memories you made together reminded you how happy you were with him. You always wanted to be with him, by his side. You looked at you room, all the memories you made here, this house was lively with Seungmin but it looks empty now. Everything looks sad, empty and the darkness was killing you. Unknowingly, your tears started falling. “I miss you” you mumbled to yourself. You couldn’t control yourself anymore, you sat on the floor and cried. You remember the last words from Seungmin.

[Few months ago]

“baby, don’t cry” he said.

“Seungmin, you know I can’t stop crying, I know you were waiting for this and you’ll be so happy but I will miss you.” You said between your cries

“Baby I won’t make you wait too long. I promise, I’ll back in your arms.”

“Seungmin, you need to keep the promise. I’ll wait for you. I will always wait for you until you return. Seungmin, I’ll miss you” you were trying hard to not to cry

“I’ll miss you more, now don’t cry. Looking at you like this breaks my heart.”

“I’m sorry Seungmin, I’m so sorry. I’ll be waiting here ‘til you return.”

“I’m not saying goodbye, I’ll be back. I love you”

“Seungmin I love you more than myself” you tip-toed and kissed him softly and soon Seungmin started kissing you back. He pulled you closer and let go of you when both of you were out of breath.

“Now, go Seungmin, I’ll be waiting for you.” You said him and he left. You saw him leaving, you started crying again. This is first time; he is leaving for more than five months after you and Seungmin started dating. He was the only person on whom you could lean and you know it very well that his career is important for him and you weren’t going to hold him back, never. His happiness is your happiness always.

[11:45 pm]

You looked at your phone, all the pictures you had with him, looked beautiful. He is a beautiful soul and your happiness is with him, that’s the reason you miss him. His birthday is in few minutes. You wanted to call him and wish him but you are afraid to disturb him. You wanted to show him the cake you baked for him. You just missed him nothing else. Missing someone who is special to you can make you feel crazy like something you haven’t experienced yet.

During his overseas concerts you always watched him how happy he looked on stage, his smile and happiness is very precious for you. You are sure, his hyungs will make his day one of his happiest day in his life.

You held your phone tight, and hugged your knees and cried. Your knees were wet because of your tears. You couldn’t stop missing him and you can’t stop crying. You thought you won’t cry but it was getting hard.

“Seungmin let’s meet soon, once you comeback, I will run to you.” You mumbled and lifted your head and tried wiping tears. You were a crying mess; you were afraid now. You loved him and that’s why you were crying like this. you closed your eyes, only to imagine him smiling infront of you, last year you were together on his birthday. Everyone had so much fun, you missed his puppy smile; which always made your heart flutter.

You looked at the time, it was 11:58 pm. You were sad, you missed him like a fool, who misses her love. You wished if only you could stop your tears and talk to him, you mustered up courage and unlocked your phone. You wanted to call him. You missed his voice, which called your name.

[11:59pm]

“Baby” you heard his voice; not sure if you were hallucinating, you looked the door; there he was standing for you. You got up and ran to him. He took you in your arms.

“Seungmin I missed you.” You mumbled.

“Aigoo, are you crying?” you nodded in his embrace.

“I thought to give you a surprise on my birthday, you must have missed me a lot; that’s why you were crying sitting in that corner.” He was caressing your hair. You heard the clock.

“Happy birthday Seungmin” you looked at him and smiled.

“Awww come on, aren’t you going to stop crying and give me a present. I’m finally back to Seoul.” He looked at you playfully and wiped your tears.

“I baked cake, I thought I would send you a picture but you are here; so, let’s celebrate.” You were about to let go him and go downstairs to kitchen but he held you.

“This is not how you welcome me baby. I missed you so much” he looked playful. He was looking at you and his gaze went to your lips. He pecked your lips; you were taken aback for a while. You looked at him, you missed this feeling. You didn’t want to hold back yourself anymore, he pulled you closer and your hands went to his shoulders as a reflex action. He kissed and your kissed him back, he was pushing you towards the wall, you were holding him as your support; your back hit the wall. You kissed him passionately, you were lost in him. His soft touches, were the most sensitive things for you and his touch on your lips is the most sensitive touch for you.

Suddenly lights were on and you heard “Happy birthday Seungmin- We thought, we will celebrate his birthday together but you guys-

You slightly pushed Seungmin, out of embarrassment because you saw others were standing and Seungmin was scratching his bare neck, “Ah~”

You saw Chan, he was about to say something but you spoke, “I missed you all so much, I was thinking to call you all anyways, and it’s good that you all came here. I’m so happy. I bet you’re tired, make yourself home. And it’s not like you all visited me for the first time. Come down in few minutes, cake is waiting for you.” You were embarrassed enough, you were about to leave the room, Seungmin held your wrist suddenly and looked at you like a puppy.

“Seungmin, later.” And you left the room.

Malibu Nights

“Hyunjin one shot”

Pairing: Hwang Hyunjin x female reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: If you can’t deal with angst please don’t read, mention of alcohol.

Word count: 1.8 K

A/N: Idk why I had mental breakdown while writing this, I hope angst lovers like this.

[7:27 pm]

You lazily got up from your bed and went to your closet. You looked at the clothes, you decided to go to a bar. You took out a sleeveless black dress. You took out a black see-through cardigan, you changed into it, fast. You let your hair down and took your wallet, phone and car keys. You wore high heels and went out of the house. You walked down the streets. You looked at the night sky, it looked pretty and the busy streets. You looked at the people walking in the streets, you spotted a couple, they were walking and the girl was holding the guy’s arms; it reminded you of Hyunjin. It was a long time since you went out with him like this casually, you started missing him. You wanted to go to him. You shrugged up the thoughts as soon as you remember his words ‘You are just a mistake to me, all these years. I just don’t know why, why we are together’

You reached the nearby bar, went inside. You looked at people drinking, chilling, dancing with eachother and some were making out. You went to the bar counter, took a seat there. You looked at people, you started craving for company, specially Hyunjin. You ordered drinks, the bartender looked at you, “do you want a company? People usually don’t come here alone.” You looked at him with a smirk. You knew what he was trying to do, “Don’t mind me. I don’t want any company; I love drinking alone because no one will bother me.”

“Sorry.” He said and served your drink.

One shot, two shot and it continued. You had a good alcohol tolerance; alcohol wasn’t bothering you. After sometime you felt a bit tipsy and looked at people enjoying with eachother. You looked at the time, it was 9:15 pm. You paid and came out of the bar. Drinking in a bar was just an excuse to forget about Hyunjin’s words but no matter how much you tried you just couldn’t forget what he said that night.

 “Ahh, I always thought that I loved you more than myself but now I see, I started loving you as much as you can ruin me in few seconds with your words.” You said to yourself, your tears started falling down.

 It suddenly started raining, it was like, your tears were falling now in the form of rain. You were not totally drunk; you were a bit tipsy. You were heartbroken today. After that fight with Hyunjin, you left home. It was yesterday when you last saw him, you drank yourself to sleep yesterday. Today you took a day off from your work and were crying till the evening. You were soaked in the rain by now, and your phone was probably dead now.

{Flashback}

[7:11 pm]

“You just don’t understand me and you can’t” he was clearly frustrated.

“How can you say that Hyunjin?” you asked him. He was breaking you slowly but today, he just broke you in one go.

“You know what? You are just a mistake to me, all these years. I just don’t know why, why we are together. I just don’t understand” he let out a sigh.

“You just…” you wanted to say him a lot of things, you wanted to show your anger, tears, you wanted to breakdown right now but you just couldn’t bring yourself to show any emotion. Your heart dropped when he said all the words you never wished to hear all these 4 years. All these years you lived with him, all the happy moments, sometimes conversations about jealousy, dealing with problems together, sometimes small arguments, sometimes cuddling all day on both of your day off, morning and coffees, waking up everyday in his embrace, dancing under the rain and those dates, everything you cherish everyday just disappeared with just one statement from him. You couldn’t understand him, he was shouting at you earlier but he ended up stating and he sighed. You couldn’t understand how to react, even though you were clearly breaking inside.

“Thankyou for telling, Hyunjin.” You got up from the couch. “Take care.” You took you phone, wallet, car keys and went out of your house.

“Y/N listen” he tried to say something but you tried to ignore it because, you knew if you look back at him now, you’ll break down in tears and you didn’t want to show him your weakness right now.

As soon as you closed the door, you broke down. Your tears falling down your cheeks, you went to your car, at very least you hoped and wished that Hyunjin will come out and stop you, hug you and say sorry for being harsh and he didn’t mean what he said to you. But he never came. You started driving, your tears making your sight blurry. You were wiping your tears every then and now. You stopped the car near a cliff. You got out of your car and sat on the cliff, your legs hanging down. You were crying, your tears didn’t stop. You were hurt, it was paining. You had few arguments with Hyunjin sometimes but never had this kind of argument, you don’t remember how the shouting and the anger turned into calm and heartbreaking statements. You remember Hyunjin holding you tightly and you trying to calm him down.

You closed your eyes, thinking what actually happened, where did it went wrong? What was your mistake? Weren’t you good enough? Was everything a lie? You were a mess. Your sobs were getting louder. After good two hours, you decided to go. You got into your car; a bit stable. You weren’t crying anymore; you stopped your car infront of a bar and brought soju.

[10:32 pm]

After that you, stopped your car infront of your old house, the house you used to live before moving out with Hyunjin. You took out the key, unlocked the door and went inside. Everything looked the same. You went straight to your bedroom and switched on the night light. It was already 10:30 pm, you kept your coat on the bed and kept the car keys, your phone, wallet and soju bottles on the night stand. You went to your closet and saw your old clothes; you saw few hoodies and spotted Hyunjin’s hoodie. You took it out and it smelled like him; without thinking twice, you changed your clothes and wore his hoodie and shorts.

You sat near the bed, and opened Soju bottles one by one. That night you started drinking until you felt sleepy at dawn. You were drunk crying that night, because of Hyunjin. It wasn’t just a heartbreak to you, you wanted explanation from him and what was your fault? You wanted to know where did it all go wrong and was it a lie all these years?

The bed felt cold, you missed his warmth. You wanted him by your side, you were dealing with your broken heart alone. You wanted to stop crying and hold on but nothing was working for you. The main purpose of drinking was to forget that everything happened with you but instead you were missing him and it was getting worse for you. What could you do with a broken heart?

[9:00 am]

The sunlight hitting your face, you looked at the clock and you realized you have to go for work. Your headache didn’t help you with anything so it made you call it as your sick day. You looked at your bedroom, it looked like a mess, you dragged yourself lazily out from the bed, missing Hyunjin’s warmth. You cleaned the mess slowly. You cleaned your house just to distract yourself from thinking about Hyunjin. You wanted to forget everything, sometimes you just wanted to run to him and ask him, sometimes you just wanted to hold him. It was not even 24 hours and you were missing him like a crazy.

You cooked something and had lunch. You thought how to spend your evening, time went by, you ended up watching Netflix all the time. You didn’t bother to look at your phone.

{Present}

[9:17 pm]

Rain made you feel better but definitely your mind wasn’t working because you felt suffocated. You had to cross the road to go home, you were waiting for the signal, you looked at the cars, you thought the cars will stop when you will walk on the zebra crossing. You couldn’t think straight for some unknown reasons maybe the alcohol was working on your mind, confusing you with everything. You took one step, two step, three step and you saw a car coming towards you. You closed your eyes shut afraid it will hit you before you could cross the road, but instead your felt an arm pulling you and you felt the warm embrace. You looked at the person, it was Hyunjin.

He was soaked in rain too; he was holding you tight; “Are you crazy?”

“You want to kill yourself?” he shouted

You saw him, you missed him, missed his warmth, how badly you wanted to hug him tight and your tears started falling more.

“Leave me alone Hyunjin.” And removed his hands from your arms.

“So that you will go and kill yourself?” he shouted.

“Why do you care? I’m a mistake. Leave me Hyunjin. Stop faking.” you were crying and shouting at him, it was a mess.

“Y/N stop, I am sorry. I didn’t mean it” you looked at him, his eyes looked teary. You can’t stand his tears; you can bear anything but you can never bear him crying in front of him.

“You didn’t mean it but you said? You supposed I’ll believe that? After you hurt me like this, made me a mess. Tell me Hyunjin, TELL ME” you shouted back

“No, it’s not like that. Please don’t leave me, I realized my mistake; I can’t let you go after people left me like this, please stay with me. I am sorry, please. I am so sorry baby please, just one more last chance. I tried to stop you that day when I realized what bullshit I spoke but I was late, I tried calling you but you didn’t pick up, I tried to find you but when I went to your house, but you weren’t in your home either; I thought you’ll comeback but you didn’t. Till today afternoon, I was hoping you’ll come back but when you didn’t I came out to find you this evening until now.” He was crying more; you can never see him cry. You took a step towards him, trying to speak

“Hyun- Hyunjin don’t cry-

“I am sorry, do whatever you want but don’t leave me please. I can’t live without you.” His cries were breaking you.

“Hyunjin don’t- you took your hands to wipe his tears.

But he pulled you into a kiss, you missed his touch, you missed his kisses. He pulled you by your waist and you wrapped your arms around his neck and gave him all of it. It was a longing kiss.

“I’ll never ever let you go. I promise.”

“why?”

“Because I love you. And I realized I love you more than myself”

[08:25 pm]

“Hyunjin, I will sit near the window! don’t you dare to sit” you told him, after you saw people getting down.

“Okay, okay. Sit, near the window.” He smiled at you.

There were no seats earlier, but now people started getting down and you finally sat beside Hyunjin. You looked outside, it looked pretty. The chilly winds hitting your face and you enjoyed it. Hyunjin held your hands, all of a sudden. You looked at him.

“What?” I can’t even hold your hand now?” he asked.

“It’s not like that- you were flustered.

“I won't do anything unless you are ready. I will do what you want”

“Hyunjin-

“I am ready to wait, for you to open.”

You looked outside and realized you have to get down soon, you stood up, ready to get off.

“You are really going?”

‘Hyunjin, I need to go”

“You can’t stay with me, tonight?”

“I wish I could, but I can’t I’m sorry.” you replied him

“You can stay with me, I want to stay with you“ he looked at you, you could feel the sadness in his words.

You wanted to stay with him too, but if you don’t go home tonight; you will be questioned and lot of things can happen because, today you managed to come out because you literally begged your mom to have dinner outside, that’s the reason you can’t stay outside. You didn’t tell Hyunjin about it, he will be worried.

You don’t know what you felt at that time, you went to him. Bent over to his height and placed your lips on his, you closed your eyes and felt his soft lips. You hit realization, you opened your eyes, totally flustered because of what you did. He held your hands, “You really want to leave me now? This was our first kiss.” You were getting more flustered. He was a tease, and that was working on you.

“I am going, bye.”

“Bye baby” and you got off the bus. You saw him through the windows, he waved at you and he smiled. You were happy, this was your first kiss. Your phone started ringing, it was Hyunjin. “Go home safely, take care. I love you”

“I love you too Hyunjin” right now you were the happiest person alive on the earth right now.

I’m missing you //

Pairing: Bang Chan x female reader

Genre: Fluff and maybe a bit of angst

Warnings: No warnings <3

Word count: 2K

Tags: @stayhavens

A/N: This is my first time taking part in a writing event, hopefully this is not boring

{04:45 pm}

I tried to focus, on making new music beats; since I decided to complete it by tomorrow, I have to do this because I know if I don’t then I will miss him like crazy and my overthinking will kill me. While making music, I was occupied by Chan’s thoughts

 {6 days ago}

08:01 pm

I opened the door and saw Chan standing, he was holding rose bouquet. “this is for you” he gave it to me, I took it and hugged him tight, he lifted me up, and brought me inside. “I missed you so much, so so much that I my mind couldn’t stop thinking about you.” I told him

He put me down and we settled on the couch, I looked at him, he looked adorable. He suddenly pinched my cheeks, “Awwww I missed you too baby”

 “Chan I wanted to ask you something” he nodded “You didn’t forget about our date right? I wanted to take you out… I just… wanted to spend time with you… you told me you’re free” he looked at me with his loving eyes.

“How can I forget Y/N? It’s been three years we are dating but till now we couldn’t spend our Valentine's Day because of my schedules and this time I got chance and how am I supposed to forget? Of course, I remember. I can’t wait” and pecked me on my lips, I looked at him, he leaned closer and kissed me. My hands were securely wrapped on his neck, he pulled me closer and my breath hitched but he didn’t stop kissing me. We met after two weeks and he is on a break now, it’s very difficult to meet him because of his schedules; and I missed his touch, I missed him.

He let me go after he was out of breath; our breathing was uneven. He was about to kiss me again, but I stopped him and he pouted; I gave him a peck since he was cute.

“Wanna go out for dinner?” he asked me and I nodded,

“Let me go and get changed, give me 10 minutes” I told him and went back to my room.

I got changed into peach colour dress and wore black cardigan, applied very light make up. Took my sling bag and went downstairs, Chan was playing with his phone.

“Baby” I called him.

“huh?” his eyes diverted towards me. I walked towards him and he was coming towards me, soon he was standing infront of me. He pulled me closer by my waist; he was leaning to kiss me again, “Not now, or else we might get late Chan. Let’s go” he pouted again and his hands left my waist and held my hands.

“As you wish madam” he said cutely and I smiled at him.

I locked my house, and we went towards his car, I sat inside. He got seated and was about to start driving but his phone started ringing, it was Hyunjin. I don’t know why but he was staring at the caller ID for too long instead of picking it up, “Chan, Hyunjin is calling pick it up” I told him and he snapped out from his thoughts. “Huh? Huh hmm” he said and was about to pick up the call ended. Hyunjin called again, he picked it up.

“Something happened? Jinnie?”

……………….

“Now?”

………………

“Okay, I am coming” he looked at me while talking.

“Yes, I am going there straightaway, don’t worry. It won’t take long for me to reach. Bye” I had a hunch that he is going back to his company.

“I’m sorry.” Chan looked down, I didn’t want to make me feel bad or apologetic, “It’s okay Chan, go and we can meet later.”

“I’m really so-

I cut him off by pecking his lips, being with Chan for 3 years; I know him how he always feels sorry for me when our plans get cancelled but I always understand him because his work is important and dating an idol isn’t easy, I trust him with everything and I don’t want to make his life harder; I am here for him as his support and love; I will never ever come between his work.

“Now go and let me know later, okay? Take care” he nodded and I got off his car and waved at him. I saw his car going and I went back home; I changed into comfy clothes and cooked something for myself, I wondered if he ate something or not. I miss him.

 {1:00 am}

 I was battling with myself should I text him or not, I wanted to ask him if he ate or not but I didn’t want to bother him. I was about to text him and a text popped up from him.

‘Y/N but I am going to Australia for work, I am on the way to airport right now. I really wanted to spend my whole week with you but I am sorry, I am really sorry. Sometimes I wish I could love you more than you love me.’ I closed his text and without thinking twice I grabbed my jacket, phone, car keys and wallet. I went running downstairs. My head couldn’t think straight, he was leaving and he doesn’t know when he will come back. He is on his way to airport right now and how am I supposed to stay calm knowing that?

I was driving my car, my tears started falling, I don’t know why it started hurting me a lot. I know he was feeling sorry but I can’t leave him like this. I had no idea then when did he left his dorm and I had no idea when will he be reaching airport and when is his flight. I tried calling him but being Chan, he won’t pick up. I was going crazy, how can he leave like this without a goodbye,

“Chan, Chan, CHAN, are you thinking you’ll leave me without a goodbye right now? I am not letting that happen when you always inform me about your schedules and always tell me to wait so why now? I am not letting that happen” I was talking to myself and crying. It took me 40 minutes to reach airport and I had no idea about him. I wanted to call everyone else but I had no guts inside myself to talk to anyone. I parked my car and went inside, I was running and searching for him. I tried calling him again, but he didn’t pick up. I went towards the “check in” area with hope, I was running and my eyes were searching him. I went around the airport for good 15 minutes, I tried calling him again, “Chan pick up, Chan please, uh please pick up” I was murmuring.

“Y/N”

“Chan” I broke down, I missed his voice.

“Y/N” I looked back and saw him standing. Without thinking twice I went and hugged him tight. “Y/N don’t cry” his words made me cry more, for some unknown reason I didn’t wanted to let go of his warmth right now, everytime he went out of country, I felt sad but this time I don’t know why I felt worst. I wanted to hug him because I was sad.

“baby, I am here. Don’t cry.” I looked at him.

“I’m so-

“Stop saying sorry, it’s not your fault. I missed you and how can you leave without a goodbye. How can you? Tell me” I started crying again.

“I felt sorry, I know how much you wanted to spend these days with me but because of my schedules-

“Chan don’t be sorry, I am proud of you. Schedules can’t be helped and I can only wish you all the best and take care of yourself. And it’s okay, and don’t feel sorry, ok? It’s not your fault and I love you” he wiped my tears away.

He hugged me, “I love you too and thankyou for being so supportive and understanding me always”

I looked at him and smiled.

“Hyung, we need to go and do our check in right now, others are waiting.” I heard Jisung say, he came towards us.

“Y/N, you’re here?” he looked confused but understood. “This time too, Chan hyung is going with us, don’t worry we will try to complete our work and will try to be back as soon as possible. And don’t cry too much for him, do you know how sad he was while informing you and he kept ignoring your calls because he didn’t want to make you sad and it was Hyunjin who saw you and told him to find you.”

“Yah, why are you telling her everything like this- Stop Jisung” Chan shut him up.

“Chan, don’t be sad and I am really okay. Just be ok and take care of yourself. And Jisung take care of yourself and be safe.” I let him go, my heart wanted to cry out again but I stopped myself and held my emotions from an outburst.

“Chan go, it’s time. And have a safe flight, I love you” I told him. He pecked my lips, “Love you too and don’t miss me too much” I waved at him. He was smiling and how could I cry. I turned back as soon as he was out of my sight and my tears started falling.

 {Present}

{06:00 pm}

I sighed and kept my headphones on the table. I wanted to make this song for Chan and wanted to give him today as a gift. I miss him again. We talked 4 days ago and till now there’s no update of him. I miss him and I really want to meet him, it’s not even possible. He’s not here.

My phone started ringing, I went to pick up in a hope it can be Chan. I looked at the caller id it’s my bestfriend.

“Tina”

‘Y/N you’re free right now?” she asked

“Yes I am”

‘Let’s go out for dinner and have some fun.’

“Huh? Now? Suddenly?” I asked. I wanted to turn her offer down but then I thought it’s better to go out somewhere rather than staying at home and missing Chan and crying over him.

“I am coming, send me the address” I got excited

‘Wear something pretty, I’ll be waiting there. Be there in 30 minutes. Bye’ she hung up.

I went back to my room and started choosing one outfit. Something told me to wear white and red. I took out white dress and red sweater. I put on light makeup and didn’t forget to wear my favorite pendant and the couple ring with Chan. Somewhere deep in my heart, it told me to wear the ring because it’s a symbol that I am taken by him. I took my sling bag, my car keys, wallet and my phone and went downstairs. I wore white heels and went out.

 I started driving to the address, Tina texted me. It took 20 minutes to reach there. I went there, it was a beautiful place. I looked at the view and it was decorated with red roses and different flowers, because it’s 14th February.

I started missing Chan, I wanted to meet him and started craving for his warmth. I went inside and sat on the vacant table. I called Tina but she didn’t pick up my call. I was waiting for her and then something caught my eyes. I was looking for Tina but I saw Chan coming with a bouquet of red roses; I thought I am day dreaming and I stood up because my eyes can always betray me. I could hear his footsteps and he was getting closer and closer.

“Happy Valentine’s Day baby”

He said, I blinked few times, my eyes started getting teary. I don’t know but it was teary. He gave me the bouquet, I took it.

“Awwww baby don’t cry. I am glad I made it here and how’s the surprise?”  he looked at me and I was still amazed. I hugged him tight and he hugged me back.

“I missed you Chan and thankyou for everything. For everything” I could feel he was smiling. I was just holding him too tight, “I missed you too” he said.

“I love you Chan” I looked at him.

“I love you too” he was smiling.

I tiptoed and kissed him

my dreamland :)

nihyun aka purple~

22. she/her

writing is my escape from reality~ everything seems so beautiful here

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Few things about me uwu:

writing is just an escape for me, it’s a place where i can be myself.

i am mainly an angst lover, i write angst mainly but i do write fluff too.

i write about Straykids, Seventeen and BTS, i occasionally write about NCT and Monsta X.

My ults are Scoups, Hyunjin and Jungkook, bang chan always have a special place in my heart.

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my birthday with her~

Bang Chan one shot

Pairing: Bang Chan × Female reader

Genre: Fluff with a bit of angst

Warnings: no warnings as far as I know

Word count: 1.9 K

Author’s Note: It’s his birthday, one of the best leader, best human, I love him a lot and I have no words how much, i am just blessed to have him, I am just grateful.

“Chan, get ready we are going out for dinner tonight”

“okay”

“Chan, just listen to me, son it’s fine.” Mum left after this, I went to my closet and picked the black silk shirt, my favorite and wore black jeans, I was wearing all black, how can I not wear black on my birthday. We literally had a feast in lunch and now they are taking me out, I should be the one taking them out, this is my first time spending my birthday here after I debuted. And I hope… I hope I get to see her today…

“Come down in 20 minutes, everyone else is getting ready”

“Mum I am supposed to take you all out tonight”

[Flashbacks]

“This is my first time going back home in September, this is my very first time celebrating my birthday with my family after debuting. I just feel happy Lix”

“I am happy for you and I hope you meet her”

“Lix?”

“Yeah?”

“Meet whom?”

“What do you mean by whom?”

“I mean whom?”

“You know it very well, and all of us know but we don’t ask you anything because it should be you if you want to open up with us about something. I just hope you at least hug her; you seem to miss her and how can she not try to find you because we go to Australia for tours. This way or that way I just hope she finds you or you find her this time. I really want to ask her what did she do to you.”

“Lix, she didn’t do anything and she’s just a friend okay?”

“I can see how much this friend matters to you”

“Lix!”

“You are still not scary, now go see your parents are waiting and mine too, and let’s meet soon” Felix hugged me and I was still looking at his face, that silly and teasing smile didn’t leave his face. I spotted Felix’s dad, he waved at me and Felix left me there. I have no idea how this guy got to know, since I never told anyone and was it that obvious, last time we came to Australia and it was 2 years ago, and that’s where I felt I saw her but I couldn’t meet her because I was unsure since that day, she never left my mind. How can I not recognize my childhood bestfriend and how she never tried finding me, what was stopping her?

 [Present]

Felix’s words were not leaving my mind, everything he said on airport that day, I hope I meet her. It’s been more than 10 years, I saw her and I doubt she even remembers me, I wish she does.

After getting ready I went down and saw the lights were off, probably because everyone was outside already. I went to dining hall and I heard mum say “Channie” I turned back and I heard party popping sounds and saw a birthday cake,

“Happy Birthday Chan~” it was mum and then lights were on, oh my god.

Felix was there, few of my friends and ….she was there? If I am not wrong, if I am really not wrong, she was there standing between my friends, smiling cutely, her dimples looked cute on her and she was wearing a white floral print knee length dress, a daisy pendent, hair down and it looked perfect on her, her face didn’t change she still have that cute face. I was amazed, I just couldn’t understand what I was feeling, all the emotions, I was happy, overwhelmed and felt loved, as if all the love was making me feel these emotions.

“Chanie hyung come here make a wish and blow up these candles.” I went near the cake, I closed my eyes and made a wish; after opening my eyes I blew the candles and cut the cake.

I looked at the room, it was decorated so beautifully and they did it, everyone was smiling, everyone came and hugged me gave gifts, there I saw her talking with my mum.

Lix came and hugged me tight “Once again happy Birthday bro.”

I smiled at him “Thankyou Lix” we broke the hug, suddenly Lix came near my ear and whispered “She’s pretty” I was taken aback. I looked at him with disbelief on my face, “How are you sure, it’s her?”

“I have my ways and instincts”

“Lix”

“Go talk to her”

He left me there, I wanted to talk to her but I was way too shy to even ask her how she is, I am seeing her after nearly 12 to 13 years and I don’t know how would she even feel to talk to me, and all these years we never contacted eachother, it was just me who saw her two years ago when I came to Australia and that was also not face to face, I just happened to see her. I was about to take a step closer and then I saw her getting a call and going to upstairs.

I decided to follow her, I can gather some courage and even if I am nervous doesn’t change the fact, she was my bestfriend even though I don’t know what we are right now and why am I feeling like this; all these unknown feelings are keeping me awake and making me feel things I never felt. I pushed all my thoughts aside, and went to upstairs, and then I saw her going to the rooftop. I saw everyone going out because mum called everyone to the backyard and Felix just smiled at me, I went to the rooftop.

“I couldn’t give the flowers to him but don’t worry I will give him, now bye. I will call you later!”

I saw her hanging up and resting her hands on the railings, she sighed. I took steps towards her. She turned around definitely hearing my footsteps.

“Oh! Hey!”

“Hey…”

I went near her. She looked so beautiful under moonlight, she looked just like an angel. Her cheeks had a tint of pink, she looked beautiful when she smiled and her dimples were showing.

“How are you?” I asked her, I don’t even know how to start a conversation

“I am good… you?”

“Me too”

“Happy Birthday Chan”

I went closer to her, our hands touched… accidently and she pulled her hand, abruptly. I felt a bit sad but I held it inside me and when I looked at the beautiful her who stood under the moonlight. She was shining, she had a halo… I couldn’t believe that we were this close, but somehow… she felt so distant.

It was a spur of the moment thing, but I felt like this was my last chance.

I took a deep breath, got my emotions under control, at least tried to and whispered, “Maple… Do you remember me?”

It felt like the world went still… I could hear my heartbeats, I could feel my heart thrashing loud against my chest hard, really hard.

The silence went for too long and I thought I should break the ice but before I could--

“Chan… how can I even forget you” the air felt heavy, everything felt so heavy right now, there was no overwhelming feelings anymore, it was replaced with sad, disappointment, curiosity, longing, reminiscing and sighs.

“Then why did you never try to find me?”

“Chan…”

“Maple…”

“Why?” I asked her again

“Chan, you left me alone here, what was I supposed to do, I cried for years, I missed you. Nothing felt the same anymore, why was everything so hard. I waited for you all these years so you would come.”

“Maple…”

“Do you know how hard it was for me? and when I saw you here today, I was taken aback, I was surprised when your mom called me a week ago and told me you’re coming and she wants to throw a party and I’m invited since I am your bestfriend. I waited to meet you, and today we do, my emotions were a mess, Chan do you even have any idea how hard it was, to tell myself that one day I will meet you one day and I always thought you forgot about me since, you never contacted me, I don’t know why, I thought you made new friends, forgot about me, and that’s why I never contacted you, I was scared, scared of losing you and hearing ‘who are you?’ from you, that’s a simple rejection. You have no idea how it was for me. and since last 5 years, things were very downhill for me, I always wanted you by my side but I shut down myself from everywhere, I stopped meeting everyone I was just alone. Chan we were kids, when you left, I always thought you would be that friend who left me and both of us will forget eachother as we grow up, this is how it looked like, years passed, no calls no texts, leaving without a goodbye or see you again? but you left and how could I even believe the lie when you were my bestfriend, mine. I grew and all my emotions started becoming stronger, missing you? Feelings are a mess, emotions are a mess and I never knew looking at you like this right now, my heart would get anxious, beat so fast for you, which was very expected but unacceptable for me, I don’t even know what you are thinking right now. And you ask me why I never tried finding you? It’s because I shut myself off, these feelings were growing day by day and I was holding a hopeless thread and was scared, and didn’t even know if I will ever meet you or not and whatever I’m feeling is wrong, I can’t feel like this to my bestfriend, are we even friends now?”

“Maple…”

“What Chan? Just what?”

“I missed you”

“I missed you more-

I couldn’t hold back anymore; I took her into my arms, we both were a bit stiff, but with each passing breath, she relaxed. I felt her face against my chest, I was hoping that I didn’t make a fool out of myself as my heart had gone out of control… but I probably did cause I heard her chuckle.

Let’s just say the time and situation felt too unreal but surreal at the same time, I wanted to make this moment last a bit longer and asked her something, that my sane self would never.

I whispered into her ear, “Can I kiss you?”

‘ahhhhhhhhh… Bang Christopher Chan …did you JUST do That? Did you really ask her if you could…umm…her? On the first day?’

I felt like I couldn’t show my face to her… someone dig me a hole, I want to bury myself there for eternity.

Just when I was thinking of ways to go into the past and hit myself hard before I asked that to her, I felt some movement and looked down.

‘Did….Did she just nod?’

I pinched myself…’ah’ it hurts?

She looked up… It could be a filter of a guy in love, but her eyes really held all the stars in the world… they looked mesmerizing.

‘This is your chance… Be a man’, I told myself and pulled her closer and kissed her. First it was just me, then she gave in. She was holding the hem of my shirt and my hands were resting on her waist.

24 to 25 ♡

“Felix one-shot”

Pairing: Lee Felix x female reader

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: no warning, it's a fluff

Word count: 1 K

A/N: I decided to write a fluff because of this song, this song is really close to me, I tried to write a cute and fluffy imagine, and Felix is a fluff since the beginning, hopefully, I did well in writing this imagine. happy reading~

Everything was so silent, only the slow music playing which is giving me the company to make the batter for cookies, I am sure she would love the cookies I will bake. I poured sift flour into the bowl, and somehow the flour got on my face, I wiped it off and started mixing the batter. After mixing sift flour, cake mix, salt, and baking soda together I let them set aside.

Using a hand mixer, I beat the softened butter and both sugars together on medium speed until creamy and smooth, about 1 minute. I added egg and mix on high until combined about for one minute. I scrape down the sides and bottom of the bowl as needed. I added the vanilla and beat it on high until combined, then I added the flour mixture to the wet ingredients and mix on low-medium speed until just combined. Since I wanted to make chocolate chip cookies, I added chocolate chips and sprinkles. I mixed it on low until the add-ins are evenly combined. I covered tightly with plastic wrap and refrigerated the dough for at least 2 hours. I set a timer and took off the apron.

I looked outside the window, it was snowing; I can’t believe it’s Christmas Eve already. I went to the living room and took out the mistletoe, it looked pretty. She would love it if she looks at it, I went outside to hang it on the door so that before entering she can see the mistletoe. The snow looked so pretty, today. Just a perfect white Christmas eve and Christmas, as snow piles up on the ground; I get more nervous.

I decorated the living room, to give Christmas comfort, I kept the snowball showpiece on the table. I arranged the living room with flowers, scented candles, festive ribbons, Christmas swags. I started decorating the Christmas tree with Christmas ornaments and holiday roping to make the Christmas tree look beautiful.

I was thinking about her and decorating, I didn’t notice the soft cozy songs changed to beautiful carols. The moment I realized I was smiling wide, my phone rang; the caller id showed a heart and our picture, I accepted the call.

“Lix, I’ll be there soon is it okay?”

“Sure, love take your time”

“I love you”

“I love you too” I smiled and hung up the call.

I heard my timer and went to take out the mix, I didn’t realize how did 2 hours pass so fast, I had no idea. I roll the cookie dough and went to preheat the oven to 350° C. I line two large cookie sheets with silicone baking mats; and shaped the cookie dough balls. They looked cute, I kept the cookies inside, and set the timer for 15 minutes. They would be perfect as soon as I kept inside, I heard the bell ring, I just knew who was it, I went to open the door.

There she was standing, wearing a white turtleneck, red trench coat and white woollen scarf, with white gloves and a gift in her hand.

‘as expected, the snowstorm hit.

I’ll brush away all of your piled fatigues days now

Lean on me today

In my warm arms, take a break’

Before I could speak, she pulled my hand brought me outside, snow was falling softly. She was smiling under the snow, she looked very pretty. “It’s so pretty Lix” her smile is precious, it means a lot to me, more than anything else.

“it’s cold outside, come to me Dahlia”

“a bit more please Lix”

“Dahlia…” I called out her name and ran my fingers through her bangs, she pouted cutely.

“Now let’s go inside, it’s cold outside” she nodded and we went near the door,

‘I wish she would see the mistletoe, its specially for her, I want her to see and smile at me’

“Lix…” I turned around when I heard my name, “over our head, there shines a mistletoe and it’s so beautiful. Thank you so much for hanging it here, you know how much I love mistletoes” she was smiling and without thinking twice I kissed her sweetly on her lips. She was surprised by the kiss.

“Now let’s go inside”

Once we entered, a sweet-scented atmosphere welcomed us, I’ll keep today’s memory with me. I went to check the cookies and she came after me, I took the cookies out, it was already 15 minutes, they look cute. The moment I took them out, I heard Dahlia’s squeal. I smiled at her, “Dahlia bring those sprinkles and choco chips, let’s add more when it’s warm.” She nodded and brought them, “Do it” she was so happy and she did it.

I was looking at her, resting my face on my palm, she looked so adorable, I couldn’t describe how much I love her. She’s just like a flower in my life, who brought a smile to my face, just like her name, she is Dahlia.

“I am done, see Lix” I nodded at her words.

“Also, I brought something for you, come with me” she took my hands and we went to the living room.

She gave me a gift box, “This is for you love” she pecked my lips.

“You know, love, this moment is the gift that I wanted

24 to 25 bae, just stay with me.”

We were standing near the Christmas Tree, I kissed her forehead and told her “Stay for Christmas, on this cozy night. Just stay with me in this special moment. With you, on December 25; it’s a precious moment. You’re my carol, love. I want you to stay for Christmas.”

She looked up to me, she tiptoed and kissed me. I pulled her closer and kissed her deeply. We shared our warmth and kiss under the mistletoe and decided to stay together from 24 to 25.

“I love you, Felix”

“I love You Dahlia”

And I kissed her again.

We can’t be together

Kim Seungmin one shot

Pairing: Kim Seungmin × Female reader

Genre: Angst, royal au

Warnings: mention of blood

Word count: 1.4 K

Author’s Note: I wanted to write this after I saw Seungmin in gayo daejun, he looked like a prince, then I saw an edit and couldn’t stop myself from writing. Also here's a playlist I actually made while writing this hehe

I saw her walking down the stairs, I could recognize her even in masquerade, her black masquerade mask perfectly hiding her, but her eyes were saying something to me. Her black eyes, which looked like they held my whole universe, her ruby lips, calling me over again. Her beautiful black-maroon gown with a boat neck, her collarbone looking the prettiest. Her red jewelry on her making her look more elegant, my forbidden fruit.

I started walking, and she was coming down, carefully. her black heels were visible. She just looked perfect. Everyone was looking at me, this masquerade ball party is for me. Today is the day I was waiting since the day I fell in love with her and promised her to make her mine. She looked at me and smiled gracefully.

She was finally standing in front of me, I asked for her hand, and she gave it to me, with her smile. I kissed her hand, took her to the center of the ballroom. The music started playing, I kept her hand on my shoulder and pulled her closer by her waist. She looked surprised, “You look so beautiful my love” I leaned to her and whispered at her.

She was looking down, I lifted her chin and made her look at me. She smiled at me, but her eyes searching for something inside me, as if she wanted to tell me something… something big but I was unable to understand her. She was being different, for the first time she didn’t tell me ‘she can’t be with me’ today instead she gave herself in.

We were swaying in the music of the piano, I wanted to enjoy all the moments while I am being her side, who know what will happen next, “thank you so much” she replied and looked at me with another smile, which looked pain...painful.

“Please let me enjoy today and you’re free to love me in your way today.” She said and spun her around. “You asked for it, love”

This time her smile was genuine as if she wanted to tell me, she’s accepting she will be with me. The lights dimmed all over the hall, and I looked at her. She was looking pretty even in the dim lights, it reminded me of how we met, she was practicing her dance for the lantern rite festival, and she was almost about to die by the hand’s soldiers of different kingdom. She was that one fierce lady out of the people who wanted to take those soldiers down, her bravery almost sent her to the heaven. She was saved after my soldiers came there for rescue, who knew we would meet in the market when I dressed as a commoner and sneaked out of the kingdom and almost got caught but she covered up for me.

After that we started meeting, who knew I would fall in love with a lady full of arts, she told me once, twice and then I shut her up everytime, she said she can’t fall in love but she fell, and we can’t be together.

I smiled at her reminiscing our memories, “why are you smiling?” she asked

“I was thinking about us, today you’re here dancing with me.” she looked down again,

“Seungmin…”

“Yes?”

“Kiss me.” she looked at me, “Kiss me, make me yours” she said it.

Her cold hands touched my cheeks, she tip toed and I leaned closer to her holding her cheeks, caressing her a bit and smashed my lips on her, that kiss said it all, how much I longed for it. Her hands resting on my shoulders, and I pulled her closer. Her hands went to rest on my shoulder, we were moving on sync because we were longing for eachother, I could taste her tears which were streaming down her cheeks, I was wiping them off with my thumb and telling her it’s okay. We pulled apart and smiled at each other.

“I love you”

“I love you too, more than you can imagine Seungmin, you mean more than my own life, I can give up on my own life because of you, because your existence and smile mean the whole world to me.” I smiled at her, she has no idea how much her words meant to me, I was waiting for this day when she would accept me and tell me that she loves me. Everything I wanted is happening today, I would tell the world she is mine and kiss her in front of everyone.

She turned around, hurriedly and held my shoulder tight, I looked at her and she tried smiling at me, very weakly. I felt my hand getting wet, the ones which were resting on her waist.

“Maria?”

She was holding my shoulder as if she will fall if she lets go of me, I looked at my hand, which was on her waist, it full of blood, red fluid flowing down her waist.

“MARIA?” I screamed, she was about to fall, I held her by her waist and we fell on the floor. I looked around there were many people who were dancing together with smiles.

“STOP THIS AND CLOSE ALL THE ENTRACES. NO ONE SHOULD GET OUT OF THIS CASTLE. THIS IS MY ORDER.” Everyone stopped whatever they were doing.

“YES YOUR HIGHNESS”

She was in my arms, “I told you, we can’t be together.”

“Stop, I won’t let you go anywhere, I will find whoever did this to you.” I was trying not to cry, never did I imagined this.

“I told you I can give up on my life for you, but you have to live. I am an assassin and the youngest princess of Marengo Kingdom Prince Seungmin and I was here to destroy your whole kingdom by killing you, but I couldn’t, I couldn’t because I fell in love with you and understood that whatever happened to our kingdom wasn’t your fault but they weren’t at fault as well. What happened in past, they were wronged and people died; how am I supposed to choose my own happiness when my own people who believed me; I will take the revenge one day? How am I supposed to be happy when I saw my people dying infront of me, crying in misery because they lost their family. How could I betray my own motherland and be happy here with you? I want peace, your highness. I never brought our ranks when we were together and accepted you just the way you accepted me but today, I request you to do justice and bring peace and I will be happy. Your highness please grant me my request.”

“How could you… do this? WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME?I loved you…. I still love you. Please stay with me. I will do everything for you, everything.”

“I love you, but my duty as a princess comes first… please understand” she brought her hand to trace my cheeks, she caressed my cheeks. “I loved you with all of me, thankyou for showing me happiness and a world I wished to live in. Please be happy” my tears started falling down, I can’t let her go, she’s my everything.

“I’m really very happy today, do you know why?” she was crying, she was in pain and I was unable to do anything. “I saved you, today is the day, everything was supposed to end but how am I supposed to sit still and watch you die infront of my eyes, I can’t do that. You know right? Love? Who in this world would see her lover die infornt of her, I knew they were here so… this is my answer to them.” her breathing became heavy.

“Did you think about me? how will I live without you?” I chocked on my own tears, this was paining, everything was painful.

“You can, because I love you…” those were the final words before her hand fell down.

“NO!!!”

“Maria, maria wake up please, talk to me.” I was shaking her body but she never responded to me. everything felt so cold, why am I alone freezing, I am just left alone to cry.

“YOUR HIGHNESS, MARENGO KINGDOM DECLARED A WAR.” I heard our General say.

“WE ARE GETTING READY FOR THE WAR TELL EVERYONE.” I declared, unable to forget Maria’s request. “AND WE WILL SAY GOODBYE TO PRINCESS MARIA WITH FULL RESPECT” if only she knew how much it was paining, how did my ending turn to this, how did she leave me alone like this.

“I loved you and will love you Maria, I won’t let our love go in vain like this.” I kissed her forehead…

“this is my birthday gift?”

Bang Chan one shot

Pairing: Bang Chan × Female reader

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: no warnings it’s just fluff

word count: 1.2K

Author’s Note: This was a very random idea for his birthday, and I wrote this in a rushed way, hope you still find it cute >< Happy Chan day 💗💗 love him so much and this is not proofread- still I hope you enjoy <3

Happy Reading :)

I was wondering, how to waste time till midnight, since our dinner was over and we were already on the way to his car. “It’s getting late Ava” I saw it was almost 11 pm.

“I will drive, tonight” he gave me a look, “What?”

“Why suddenly?”

“I just want to, no arguments Chan”

“Okay, okay” he nodded and laughed at me.

“Let’s get in” he got inside the car and so did I. I had this whole thing planned, it would barely take twenty minutes for me to reach my home, it’s not that far. I looked at my watch, I had almost forty-five minutes in total.

I started driving, Chan played some music “I am craving for ice cream Chan,” my eyes were still focused on the road, “but you said no when I asked if we should order there?”

“Having ice creams outside is fun”

“As you say Ava” I smiled at his defeat. Maybe he was busy with all the song recordings and work, I get it but I wanted to surprise him for his birthday. I wonder if he remembers if tonight, well practically tomorrow is his birthday.

Soon, I parked the car and went out to buy ice cream. Chan was smiling, “you look happy”

“Yes, because I am with you.” I turned to look at him, “This is why I tell you, we should go out often and you shouldn’t overwork always. I know work is important but at times you should take some days off and enjoy everything around you” he got closer and pinched my cheeks “yes ma’am” he always took me in surprise.

While pinching my cheeks, his face was very close to my face. Every time, he comes this close to me, the proximity kills me. Makes me wonder, how is this guy the most adorable guy I found in my life and we are dating; it’s been probably four months but I just want to kiss all over him whenever he is this close to me but I am just shy to even take a step.

Soon, we reached the ice cream stall and took our favorite flavors and since I wanted to use up all the time, I was eating slowly.

“So, how was your day?” he asked me, “It was good but dinner and now an unplanned ice cream date made it better.” He smiled at me. “that’s sweet”

“I know I am” I laughed it off and he was staring at me, “what happened?”

“You’re so pretty Ava” he smiled at me and the urge to kiss him was something I was resisting.

After finishing our ice creams, I went to drive again, I looked at the time, and I still had a lot of time. I had an idea, to drive away to another place. I was praying for him to not notice, so I kept him busy with conversations. “Ava”

“Yes?”

“Where are we going?”

“To my home? remember you told me it’s getting late and I don’t think you will like it if your girlfriend takes a cab home from your place?” I kept my eyes on the road and tried to steal a glance at his face, “Yes, but this is not the way to your home”

“And who do you think knows better?”

“Yes, but” I took a turn which was the way to my office, “Ava, are you sure?”

I stopped the car and looked at him, “Oh shit, this is the way to my office, guess we need to go back”

“Ava, how could you?” he looked at me in disbelief, “It’s night time Chan, it happens.”

“Gosh, next time I am driving you back home, you messy girl” he laughed and I started driving again.

And according to me, it took twenty minutes for us to reach. I pulled into my driveway, “we reached, see.”

“yeah.” He looked at me, I could say he didn’t want to let me go. There was something, between us, I could always read him like a book, I could tell when he wanted to be with me or he didn’t want to let me go, I could tell if he was holding back the urge to play with me or tease me.

“Come with me.” he looked confused, “I need to show you something, then you can go back home” he looked skeptical, “Come on, Chan. Let’s go.”

I pull him out of the car, successfully. I hold his hand and he follows me; I missed holding his hands.

I unlock the door of my house and switch on the lights first. I pull him and make him sit on the kitchen aisle, he looks at me. I was waiting for the clock to strike at 12 am. I went towards the fridge, “what are you searching for Ava?” I was about to take out the cake, I baked for him and felt his arms around my waist. “Chan?”

“Yes?” he rested his head on my shoulder, I took out the cake carefully, “A cake?” he lifted his face but his arms didn’t leave my waist, “Yes” I kept the cake on the kitchen aisle and took out the candles.

After lighting them up, I heard the clock. “Happy birthday Chan” he looked surprised, “you remembered?”

“How could I forget?” I smiled at him, he possibly didn’t think I would forget his birthday. “Now, make a wish and blow out the candles, I made this for you” he nodded, he closed his eyes and wished for something, he looked at me and smiled; the moment he opened his eyes. I gestured for him to blow out the candles and he did. “Happy Birthday love” he looked surprised because this was the first time I called him ‘love’ rather than ‘Chan’

“Thank you so much, my love” he smiled at me, I was about to say something but then he leaned in close, his breath was hitting my face, I was waiting for him to give him but he kissed my cheeks. “thankyou so much for this”

Once he pulled back, he looked at me, “Now where’s my gift? Baby?” I was wondering how to do, every time I think about kissing him, I just don’t get the courage. I took a deep breath, “Close your eyes, and I will give you your birthday gift.” He smiled at me and closed his eyes.

“Okay” he said and waited for me, I was preparing myself. I took a deep breath and leaned closer and just kissed him. Once I kissed him, I was about to pull back but his hand went to hold my neck and he pulled me closer. And kissed me better than I did “this is my birthday gift?” he asked me in between kisses and smiled.

“Yes” I said and kissed him again, his other hand was on my waist, “Then I want every day as my birthday if I get to kiss you as my birthday gift”

I pulled back and looked at him, “You need to eat this cake and go home” I stepped back, and he suddenly pulled me closer, “are you sure you want to let me go, after our first kiss” I was about to answer him but he kissed me again.

Okay but it’s 5am why am I crying?

This is so so so cute and I love it so much 🥺

Hey would you be willing to do prompt #40 with Jisung?? Merci!

40. “I wasn’t lying when I said that I loved you.”

pairing: Jisung x gn!reader wc: 832 genre: Fluff warnings: Mention of food, reader has insecurities about being poor, use of pet name (baby)

This was a risky trip. Not just because photographers could snap a picture of you two together in public, that was honestly the last concern on your mind right now as Jisung laced his fingers into yours, lifting your hand off the cold train seat. No, you were terrified of what he would think of your apartment. Small, cramped, nearly empty... the textbook definition of a broke art student struggling to make ends meet. It amazed you that anyone would fall for you like this, let alone an idol that was probably rich enough to buy your entire apartment complex and then some.

"What's wrong?" Jisung's voice was a quiet whisper in your ear, slightly muffled by a mask. His hood was pulled up around his face, head down, with small tufts of hair poking out every time he shifted his gaze from the floor to you. He was told to always keep his head down when he was out with you, lest someone recognize his barely visible facial features and force this relationship to go public. Despite multiple warnings, he couldn't help but sneak glances at you when he felt it was safe. You were arguably the most beautiful person he had ever met, not looking at you felt disrespectful at best, especially considering how little time he got to spend with you.

"It's nothing, I promise." But it wasn't nothing, and you would have to face his opinion on you soon enough as the train called out the next stop.

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As soon as you both stepped through the door, apologies were spilling from your lips like a waterfall. You couldn't help it, you knew he was used to a spoiled and lavish life. All you could offer was a beat up couch, a small TV, and some cheap ramen in a styrofoam cup. Not much of a date, especially considering some of the expensive restaurants he had taken you to the few times his manager had approved an outing together.

"I might have enough money to order food, I'm not sure. I know there's not much here... I'm really sorry..." Your voice trailed off as Jisung took in his surroundings, gravitating towards the canvas in the corner with a sheet thrown over it. The emptiness and hurried apologies didn't seem to register at all, his focus entirely on the covered painting. Once the words had finally gotten through to him, his face turned somber.

"Baby, you don't have to apologize. I'm spending time with you and that's all that matters." He reached out for you as you approached, quickly pulling you into a tight hug sealed off with a series of quick kisses on your cheek. "I wasn't lying when I said that I loved you. I mean it, I love you for you. Not your money, your clothes, or how many material things you have."

"Jisung-"

"No more apologies, okay?" A grin swept across his face as he looked at you, eyes bright with excitement as you nodded. "Can I see what you're working on?" He gestured towards the canvas as he loosened his grip enough to let you wiggle out of his hold.

"It's not finished." You replied quietly as you lifted the sheet up, revealing a nearly finished painting. A dark sky speckled with stars above a very familiar figure, pointing up at the glittering sky with wonder in his eyes. You had painted the scene entirely from memory, the first time he was able to sneak away to spend time alone with you. He couldn't stray too far from the dorm, but you agreed to meet him somewhere dark enough to provide cover. It just so happened to be a clear night, every constellation visible in the night sky as you pointed them all out. Jisung was in awe, tracing the stars with his finger as you explained how they fit into various ancient mythologies. The exact scene you chose was one that had stuck in your mind forever - the moment he told you that he loved you. You were mid sentence when he blurted it out, unable to contain the emotion he felt as he watched you passionately talk about the stars and how they inspired you to create. It had caught you off guard at the time, but you quickly reciprocated the feelings, the 'love' word getting thrown between you two multiple times a day ever since.

"It's beautiful. Did you take a picture of me that I don't know about?" He questioned, studying all the finer details of the painting.

"I wish, it would've made a cute lock screen." You joked, a smile tugging at your lips. "I'm just really good at remembering things that changed my life." You could feel the love radiating from him as he looked back at you, trying to mimic the expression on his face that you had painted. "I may not have much, but I have you, and that's more than enough for me. I love you."

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