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[02:17 am]

I woke up suddenly, I looked at my other side but you weren't there. I went to the balcony and looked at the sky. The black clouds were moving and the moon was looking them. It looked mesmerizing. I was staring at the sky and suddenly your hands were wrapped around my waist. Your hands were securely holding me.

"Baby did I wake you up?" He asked keeping his head on my shoulder

"Changbin, thankyou for being by my side"

"I love you. You know that right?" He turned me to face him and pecked my lips. His soft lips touched mine, that was just for a fraction of seconds but I felt my world in that.

"Let's go inside and cuddle." He said

"Binnie the bed is cold without you, I need warm cuddles" and Changbin lifted me and walked towards the bed

[1:30 am]

You screamed “No!” suddenly. You woke up, you had nightmare. You sat on your bed and tears were falling down your cheeks.  Jisung woke up and switched on the lamp on the night table, he looked at you. You looked devastated, “baby what happened? Why are you crying?” he was worried.

“Jisung, just… just don’t leave me.” He pulled you in his embrace. Your cries were louder and you couldn’t help, that nightmare left you devastated. You were holding his shirt tightly and crying, Jisung was trying to clam you down. He was patting your back; you were constantly saying him “Please don’t leave me”

“Shh, I am here”

“Jisung, just-

“I will never ever leave you alone.”

“Jisung.” Your sobs were louder.

“Shh, don’t cry. I am here just by your side.”

After you stopped crying, you looked at Jisung, “You had nightmare?” he asked you sweetly still holding you carefully in his embrace. You nodded and buried your head on his chest and held him tight.  “I promise I will never ever leave you alone in this cruel and beautiful world.”

“Jisung, I am… just afraid. Nothing else.” Jisung held your fingers and looked at you.

“I will never leave you, so don’t be afraid.” He said softly.

“Jisung, I am just being unreasonable, I too know that. I’m so-

Jisung stopped you by keeping his lips on you, you were surprised.

“I love you, you know that very well baby” he said and kissed you softly.

“I love you too Jisung.” And you kissed back.

[10:15 pm]

“Jaehyun, stop throwing things!” you screamed, he wasn’t listening to you and threw a vase towards you in anger.

“Why do you always shout at me?” he shouted, you were scared

“Jaehyun stop! I don’t want to fight with you anymore.” you broke down in tears.

“Baby” his voice came out more like a whisper.

“Jaehyun, I really don’t want to fight with you like this, everything scares me in a way it should.” Looking at you like this, Jaehyun came to you and hugged you tight.

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry baby” you cried more, holding him tight.

“I’m sorry Jaehyun, you have to go through this.” You said in between your cries.

“Shh, don’t say like that and I won’t shout at you again, I’m sorry.” He hugged you tighter

airport farewell

“Minho one shot”

Pairing: Lee Minho x female reader

Genre: Angst,

Warnings: If you can’t deal with angst please don’t read

Word count: 1.1 K

[3:13 am]

You suddenly woke up; you didn’t know why. You looked at your side, Minho wasn’t there. You looked at the time, it was 3:13 am. You saw his phone wasn’t on the side table. You went downstairs in the hope that he must be in the kitchen, you hurried down but he wasn’t there. You went to check the rooftop but he wasn’t there too. You were scared, you tired calling him. You thought maybe he went to dorm but why now? He could’ve told you once that he was going. He wasn’t picking up the call, you texted him but he wasn’t replying. You tried calling him again and again.

“Darn it. Why isn’t Minho picking up” you were getting worried. You weren’t sure if you should call Jisung or not because it’s very late.

Notifications made it’s way to your phone, your eyes widen. You looked at the date, you cursed yourself for forgetting to check the date; Minho was supposed to leave Korea today for concerts. You called Minho again in a hope that he will pick up. You went to your bedroom and changed into white tee and black jeans, fast. You took your car keys and went out of your house.

You didn’t realize at what speed you were driving your car, there was just one thought inside your head and that was, you need to meet Minho anyhow. You were still calling Minho but he wasn’t picking up.

For a second you thought you should call Jisung and tell him to give the phone to Minho, you tried calling him but his phone was unreachable. You gave it few tries but it wasn’t working at all. You tried calling Minho again but still no response.

It usually takes 45 minutes to reach airport but luckily you made it in 30 minutes, and those 30 minutes were hell to you. You parked your car quickly.

[Airport]

You were trying to call Minho; he wasn’t picking up. You were trying to find Minho in between their fans, media and staffs. After running for 20 minutes, you were devastated. How much you wanted to ask him, why didn’t he let you know he was leaving? why didn’t Minho let you know the flight timing? Why wasn’t he picking up his phone? Why didn’t he tell you anything? You found it in news.

Your tears making ways to fall, you couldn’t think straight; the thought of you won’t be able to see him for months was killing. You were trying to call him continuously; he wasn’t picking up in purpose, you were sure of it now. He never does this unless he is dead busy and right now, he is in airport.

You were worried that you won’t be able to see him and say goodbye, you looked at the call log, you called Minho for 30 times but he didn’t pick up. You started running to check people who are checking in, you were running carelessly, you tripped on your shoelace; you fell and your phone too.

“Shit, why now?” you cursed.

You quickly picked up your phone, you thought of calling Minho but then you spotted them, you could recognize him from his back. He was talking to Jisung. You were facing their back. You ran towards them, in a hope that Minho will notice you and maybe talk to you. You tried calling him again just in hope that he might pick because you know you can’t just go and drag him from them here, that would cause a mess. You saw, him looking at his phone, you tried your best to make him see you. You texted him, that you are here.

He turned to you and he was taken aback, he looked at you and your tears coming out, you were relieved that you saw him. You were wiping your tears but they were unstoppable. You saw him coming, towards you; you were smiling but tears were telling you to cry. He held your arm and dragged to a corner, looking at his adorable face you hugged him tight. You couldn’t care less even if his shirt was getting wet.

“how- how could you?” only you know how tight you were holding him. He hugged you back, you felt warm.

“How could I possibly tell you? That I’ll be leaving for few months? And you won’t be able to see me.” He spoke, his voice was soft as usual. His voice was always calming.

“Minho, why were you picking up my call? Tell me, do you hate me that much?” your cries were louder and your grip was tighter on his shirt; you didn’t want to look at him.

“I was scared to say goodbye to you” he replied caressing my hair, “I was scared to make you cry. I hate to make you cry. This is my first time leaving you for few months like this. I was scared to hurt you but you found me before I left.” He continued.

“You could’ve told me, but this isn’t fair. I will surely miss you but leaving without a goodbye is absurd Minho. Do you know how worried I was, I felt helpless; I was worried what if I won’t be able to make it on time or because I have no idea when is your flight. I… I even tried calling Jisung but his phone was unreachable. I- I was just scared of losing you Minho, you know that.”

“Now look at me and stop crying, okay?” he said, you weren’t ready to look at him because you know once you do, you will cry again, he slowly lifted your chin and wiped your tears with his thumb.

“My baby, shh. Don’t cry, I’ll be back soon” he said and pecked your lips. You weren’t ready to let go his warmth but you have to.

“Minho, I will miss you. Do well in your concert.” You said him and tried to smile. He hugged you one more time and let you go.

“Don’t stress too much while I’m away, be safe and take care. Okay?” you nodded, he came and kissed you softly, you didn’t hold back and kissed him back. Your tears started falling again, making your lips wet. This was a come back soon kiss, you wanted to give him all of you. After you parted, he looked at you.

“I’ll be back, goodbye. I love you.” He said

“I’ll wait for you to return; I can hold myself well. I love you Minho” you said and he left. You saw him walking away, your tears couldn’t stop and you cried your heart out. You walked out of airport.

Missed him on his birthday \\

“Seungmin one shot”

Pairing: Kim Seungmin x female reader

Genre: Angst and a bit of fluff in the end.

Word count: 1.1 K

A/N: I wanted to post this on his birthday but due to some reasons I couldn’t but I am happy that I am posting this finally

[11:23 pm]

You were in balcony, looking at the moon. You were missing Seungmin, all the memories you made together reminded you how happy you were with him. You always wanted to be with him, by his side. You looked at you room, all the memories you made here, this house was lively with Seungmin but it looks empty now. Everything looks sad, empty and the darkness was killing you. Unknowingly, your tears started falling. “I miss you” you mumbled to yourself. You couldn’t control yourself anymore, you sat on the floor and cried. You remember the last words from Seungmin.

[Few months ago]

“baby, don’t cry” he said.

“Seungmin, you know I can’t stop crying, I know you were waiting for this and you’ll be so happy but I will miss you.” You said between your cries

“Baby I won’t make you wait too long. I promise, I’ll back in your arms.”

“Seungmin, you need to keep the promise. I’ll wait for you. I will always wait for you until you return. Seungmin, I’ll miss you” you were trying hard to not to cry

“I’ll miss you more, now don’t cry. Looking at you like this breaks my heart.”

“I’m sorry Seungmin, I’m so sorry. I’ll be waiting here ‘til you return.”

“I’m not saying goodbye, I’ll be back. I love you”

“Seungmin I love you more than myself” you tip-toed and kissed him softly and soon Seungmin started kissing you back. He pulled you closer and let go of you when both of you were out of breath.

“Now, go Seungmin, I’ll be waiting for you.” You said him and he left. You saw him leaving, you started crying again. This is first time; he is leaving for more than five months after you and Seungmin started dating. He was the only person on whom you could lean and you know it very well that his career is important for him and you weren’t going to hold him back, never. His happiness is your happiness always.

[11:45 pm]

You looked at your phone, all the pictures you had with him, looked beautiful. He is a beautiful soul and your happiness is with him, that’s the reason you miss him. His birthday is in few minutes. You wanted to call him and wish him but you are afraid to disturb him. You wanted to show him the cake you baked for him. You just missed him nothing else. Missing someone who is special to you can make you feel crazy like something you haven’t experienced yet.

During his overseas concerts you always watched him how happy he looked on stage, his smile and happiness is very precious for you. You are sure, his hyungs will make his day one of his happiest day in his life.

You held your phone tight, and hugged your knees and cried. Your knees were wet because of your tears. You couldn’t stop missing him and you can’t stop crying. You thought you won’t cry but it was getting hard.

“Seungmin let’s meet soon, once you comeback, I will run to you.” You mumbled and lifted your head and tried wiping tears. You were a crying mess; you were afraid now. You loved him and that’s why you were crying like this. you closed your eyes, only to imagine him smiling infront of you, last year you were together on his birthday. Everyone had so much fun, you missed his puppy smile; which always made your heart flutter.

You looked at the time, it was 11:58 pm. You were sad, you missed him like a fool, who misses her love. You wished if only you could stop your tears and talk to him, you mustered up courage and unlocked your phone. You wanted to call him. You missed his voice, which called your name.

[11:59pm]

“Baby” you heard his voice; not sure if you were hallucinating, you looked the door; there he was standing for you. You got up and ran to him. He took you in your arms.

“Seungmin I missed you.” You mumbled.

“Aigoo, are you crying?” you nodded in his embrace.

“I thought to give you a surprise on my birthday, you must have missed me a lot; that’s why you were crying sitting in that corner.” He was caressing your hair. You heard the clock.

“Happy birthday Seungmin” you looked at him and smiled.

“Awww come on, aren’t you going to stop crying and give me a present. I’m finally back to Seoul.” He looked at you playfully and wiped your tears.

“I baked cake, I thought I would send you a picture but you are here; so, let’s celebrate.” You were about to let go him and go downstairs to kitchen but he held you.

“This is not how you welcome me baby. I missed you so much” he looked playful. He was looking at you and his gaze went to your lips. He pecked your lips; you were taken aback for a while. You looked at him, you missed this feeling. You didn’t want to hold back yourself anymore, he pulled you closer and your hands went to his shoulders as a reflex action. He kissed and your kissed him back, he was pushing you towards the wall, you were holding him as your support; your back hit the wall. You kissed him passionately, you were lost in him. His soft touches, were the most sensitive things for you and his touch on your lips is the most sensitive touch for you.

Suddenly lights were on and you heard “Happy birthday Seungmin- We thought, we will celebrate his birthday together but you guys-

You slightly pushed Seungmin, out of embarrassment because you saw others were standing and Seungmin was scratching his bare neck, “Ah~”

You saw Chan, he was about to say something but you spoke, “I missed you all so much, I was thinking to call you all anyways, and it’s good that you all came here. I’m so happy. I bet you’re tired, make yourself home. And it’s not like you all visited me for the first time. Come down in few minutes, cake is waiting for you.” You were embarrassed enough, you were about to leave the room, Seungmin held your wrist suddenly and looked at you like a puppy.

“Seungmin, later.” And you left the room.

Malibu Nights

“Hyunjin one shot”

Pairing: Hwang Hyunjin x female reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: If you can’t deal with angst please don’t read, mention of alcohol.

Word count: 1.8 K

A/N: Idk why I had mental breakdown while writing this, I hope angst lovers like this.

[7:27 pm]

You lazily got up from your bed and went to your closet. You looked at the clothes, you decided to go to a bar. You took out a sleeveless black dress. You took out a black see-through cardigan, you changed into it, fast. You let your hair down and took your wallet, phone and car keys. You wore high heels and went out of the house. You walked down the streets. You looked at the night sky, it looked pretty and the busy streets. You looked at the people walking in the streets, you spotted a couple, they were walking and the girl was holding the guy’s arms; it reminded you of Hyunjin. It was a long time since you went out with him like this casually, you started missing him. You wanted to go to him. You shrugged up the thoughts as soon as you remember his words ‘You are just a mistake to me, all these years. I just don’t know why, why we are together’

You reached the nearby bar, went inside. You looked at people drinking, chilling, dancing with eachother and some were making out. You went to the bar counter, took a seat there. You looked at people, you started craving for company, specially Hyunjin. You ordered drinks, the bartender looked at you, “do you want a company? People usually don’t come here alone.” You looked at him with a smirk. You knew what he was trying to do, “Don’t mind me. I don’t want any company; I love drinking alone because no one will bother me.”

“Sorry.” He said and served your drink.

One shot, two shot and it continued. You had a good alcohol tolerance; alcohol wasn’t bothering you. After sometime you felt a bit tipsy and looked at people enjoying with eachother. You looked at the time, it was 9:15 pm. You paid and came out of the bar. Drinking in a bar was just an excuse to forget about Hyunjin’s words but no matter how much you tried you just couldn’t forget what he said that night.

 “Ahh, I always thought that I loved you more than myself but now I see, I started loving you as much as you can ruin me in few seconds with your words.” You said to yourself, your tears started falling down.

 It suddenly started raining, it was like, your tears were falling now in the form of rain. You were not totally drunk; you were a bit tipsy. You were heartbroken today. After that fight with Hyunjin, you left home. It was yesterday when you last saw him, you drank yourself to sleep yesterday. Today you took a day off from your work and were crying till the evening. You were soaked in the rain by now, and your phone was probably dead now.

{Flashback}

[7:11 pm]

“You just don’t understand me and you can’t” he was clearly frustrated.

“How can you say that Hyunjin?” you asked him. He was breaking you slowly but today, he just broke you in one go.

“You know what? You are just a mistake to me, all these years. I just don’t know why, why we are together. I just don’t understand” he let out a sigh.

“You just…” you wanted to say him a lot of things, you wanted to show your anger, tears, you wanted to breakdown right now but you just couldn’t bring yourself to show any emotion. Your heart dropped when he said all the words you never wished to hear all these 4 years. All these years you lived with him, all the happy moments, sometimes conversations about jealousy, dealing with problems together, sometimes small arguments, sometimes cuddling all day on both of your day off, morning and coffees, waking up everyday in his embrace, dancing under the rain and those dates, everything you cherish everyday just disappeared with just one statement from him. You couldn’t understand him, he was shouting at you earlier but he ended up stating and he sighed. You couldn’t understand how to react, even though you were clearly breaking inside.

“Thankyou for telling, Hyunjin.” You got up from the couch. “Take care.” You took you phone, wallet, car keys and went out of your house.

“Y/N listen” he tried to say something but you tried to ignore it because, you knew if you look back at him now, you’ll break down in tears and you didn’t want to show him your weakness right now.

As soon as you closed the door, you broke down. Your tears falling down your cheeks, you went to your car, at very least you hoped and wished that Hyunjin will come out and stop you, hug you and say sorry for being harsh and he didn’t mean what he said to you. But he never came. You started driving, your tears making your sight blurry. You were wiping your tears every then and now. You stopped the car near a cliff. You got out of your car and sat on the cliff, your legs hanging down. You were crying, your tears didn’t stop. You were hurt, it was paining. You had few arguments with Hyunjin sometimes but never had this kind of argument, you don’t remember how the shouting and the anger turned into calm and heartbreaking statements. You remember Hyunjin holding you tightly and you trying to calm him down.

You closed your eyes, thinking what actually happened, where did it went wrong? What was your mistake? Weren’t you good enough? Was everything a lie? You were a mess. Your sobs were getting louder. After good two hours, you decided to go. You got into your car; a bit stable. You weren’t crying anymore; you stopped your car infront of a bar and brought soju.

[10:32 pm]

After that you, stopped your car infront of your old house, the house you used to live before moving out with Hyunjin. You took out the key, unlocked the door and went inside. Everything looked the same. You went straight to your bedroom and switched on the night light. It was already 10:30 pm, you kept your coat on the bed and kept the car keys, your phone, wallet and soju bottles on the night stand. You went to your closet and saw your old clothes; you saw few hoodies and spotted Hyunjin’s hoodie. You took it out and it smelled like him; without thinking twice, you changed your clothes and wore his hoodie and shorts.

You sat near the bed, and opened Soju bottles one by one. That night you started drinking until you felt sleepy at dawn. You were drunk crying that night, because of Hyunjin. It wasn’t just a heartbreak to you, you wanted explanation from him and what was your fault? You wanted to know where did it all go wrong and was it a lie all these years?

The bed felt cold, you missed his warmth. You wanted him by your side, you were dealing with your broken heart alone. You wanted to stop crying and hold on but nothing was working for you. The main purpose of drinking was to forget that everything happened with you but instead you were missing him and it was getting worse for you. What could you do with a broken heart?

[9:00 am]

The sunlight hitting your face, you looked at the clock and you realized you have to go for work. Your headache didn’t help you with anything so it made you call it as your sick day. You looked at your bedroom, it looked like a mess, you dragged yourself lazily out from the bed, missing Hyunjin’s warmth. You cleaned the mess slowly. You cleaned your house just to distract yourself from thinking about Hyunjin. You wanted to forget everything, sometimes you just wanted to run to him and ask him, sometimes you just wanted to hold him. It was not even 24 hours and you were missing him like a crazy.

You cooked something and had lunch. You thought how to spend your evening, time went by, you ended up watching Netflix all the time. You didn’t bother to look at your phone.

{Present}

[9:17 pm]

Rain made you feel better but definitely your mind wasn’t working because you felt suffocated. You had to cross the road to go home, you were waiting for the signal, you looked at the cars, you thought the cars will stop when you will walk on the zebra crossing. You couldn’t think straight for some unknown reasons maybe the alcohol was working on your mind, confusing you with everything. You took one step, two step, three step and you saw a car coming towards you. You closed your eyes shut afraid it will hit you before you could cross the road, but instead your felt an arm pulling you and you felt the warm embrace. You looked at the person, it was Hyunjin.

He was soaked in rain too; he was holding you tight; “Are you crazy?”

“You want to kill yourself?” he shouted

You saw him, you missed him, missed his warmth, how badly you wanted to hug him tight and your tears started falling more.

“Leave me alone Hyunjin.” And removed his hands from your arms.

“So that you will go and kill yourself?” he shouted.

“Why do you care? I’m a mistake. Leave me Hyunjin. Stop faking.” you were crying and shouting at him, it was a mess.

“Y/N stop, I am sorry. I didn’t mean it” you looked at him, his eyes looked teary. You can’t stand his tears; you can bear anything but you can never bear him crying in front of him.

“You didn’t mean it but you said? You supposed I’ll believe that? After you hurt me like this, made me a mess. Tell me Hyunjin, TELL ME” you shouted back

“No, it’s not like that. Please don’t leave me, I realized my mistake; I can’t let you go after people left me like this, please stay with me. I am sorry, please. I am so sorry baby please, just one more last chance. I tried to stop you that day when I realized what bullshit I spoke but I was late, I tried calling you but you didn’t pick up, I tried to find you but when I went to your house, but you weren’t in your home either; I thought you’ll comeback but you didn’t. Till today afternoon, I was hoping you’ll come back but when you didn’t I came out to find you this evening until now.” He was crying more; you can never see him cry. You took a step towards him, trying to speak

“Hyun- Hyunjin don’t cry-

“I am sorry, do whatever you want but don’t leave me please. I can’t live without you.” His cries were breaking you.

“Hyunjin don’t- you took your hands to wipe his tears.

But he pulled you into a kiss, you missed his touch, you missed his kisses. He pulled you by your waist and you wrapped your arms around his neck and gave him all of it. It was a longing kiss.

“I’ll never ever let you go. I promise.”

“why?”

“Because I love you. And I realized I love you more than myself”

[08:25 pm]

“Hyunjin, I will sit near the window! don’t you dare to sit” you told him, after you saw people getting down.

“Okay, okay. Sit, near the window.” He smiled at you.

There were no seats earlier, but now people started getting down and you finally sat beside Hyunjin. You looked outside, it looked pretty. The chilly winds hitting your face and you enjoyed it. Hyunjin held your hands, all of a sudden. You looked at him.

“What?” I can’t even hold your hand now?” he asked.

“It’s not like that- you were flustered.

“I won't do anything unless you are ready. I will do what you want”

“Hyunjin-

“I am ready to wait, for you to open.”

You looked outside and realized you have to get down soon, you stood up, ready to get off.

“You are really going?”

‘Hyunjin, I need to go”

“You can’t stay with me, tonight?”

“I wish I could, but I can’t I’m sorry.” you replied him

“You can stay with me, I want to stay with you“ he looked at you, you could feel the sadness in his words.

You wanted to stay with him too, but if you don’t go home tonight; you will be questioned and lot of things can happen because, today you managed to come out because you literally begged your mom to have dinner outside, that’s the reason you can’t stay outside. You didn’t tell Hyunjin about it, he will be worried.

You don’t know what you felt at that time, you went to him. Bent over to his height and placed your lips on his, you closed your eyes and felt his soft lips. You hit realization, you opened your eyes, totally flustered because of what you did. He held your hands, “You really want to leave me now? This was our first kiss.” You were getting more flustered. He was a tease, and that was working on you.

“I am going, bye.”

“Bye baby” and you got off the bus. You saw him through the windows, he waved at you and he smiled. You were happy, this was your first kiss. Your phone started ringing, it was Hyunjin. “Go home safely, take care. I love you”

“I love you too Hyunjin” right now you were the happiest person alive on the earth right now.

I’m missing you //

Pairing: Bang Chan x female reader

Genre: Fluff and maybe a bit of angst

Warnings: No warnings <3

Word count: 2K

Tags: @stayhavens

A/N: This is my first time taking part in a writing event, hopefully this is not boring

{04:45 pm}

I tried to focus, on making new music beats; since I decided to complete it by tomorrow, I have to do this because I know if I don’t then I will miss him like crazy and my overthinking will kill me. While making music, I was occupied by Chan’s thoughts

 {6 days ago}

08:01 pm

I opened the door and saw Chan standing, he was holding rose bouquet. “this is for you” he gave it to me, I took it and hugged him tight, he lifted me up, and brought me inside. “I missed you so much, so so much that I my mind couldn’t stop thinking about you.” I told him

He put me down and we settled on the couch, I looked at him, he looked adorable. He suddenly pinched my cheeks, “Awwww I missed you too baby”

 “Chan I wanted to ask you something” he nodded “You didn’t forget about our date right? I wanted to take you out… I just… wanted to spend time with you… you told me you’re free” he looked at me with his loving eyes.

“How can I forget Y/N? It’s been three years we are dating but till now we couldn’t spend our Valentine's Day because of my schedules and this time I got chance and how am I supposed to forget? Of course, I remember. I can’t wait” and pecked me on my lips, I looked at him, he leaned closer and kissed me. My hands were securely wrapped on his neck, he pulled me closer and my breath hitched but he didn’t stop kissing me. We met after two weeks and he is on a break now, it’s very difficult to meet him because of his schedules; and I missed his touch, I missed him.

He let me go after he was out of breath; our breathing was uneven. He was about to kiss me again, but I stopped him and he pouted; I gave him a peck since he was cute.

“Wanna go out for dinner?” he asked me and I nodded,

“Let me go and get changed, give me 10 minutes” I told him and went back to my room.

I got changed into peach colour dress and wore black cardigan, applied very light make up. Took my sling bag and went downstairs, Chan was playing with his phone.

“Baby” I called him.

“huh?” his eyes diverted towards me. I walked towards him and he was coming towards me, soon he was standing infront of me. He pulled me closer by my waist; he was leaning to kiss me again, “Not now, or else we might get late Chan. Let’s go” he pouted again and his hands left my waist and held my hands.

“As you wish madam” he said cutely and I smiled at him.

I locked my house, and we went towards his car, I sat inside. He got seated and was about to start driving but his phone started ringing, it was Hyunjin. I don’t know why but he was staring at the caller ID for too long instead of picking it up, “Chan, Hyunjin is calling pick it up” I told him and he snapped out from his thoughts. “Huh? Huh hmm” he said and was about to pick up the call ended. Hyunjin called again, he picked it up.

“Something happened? Jinnie?”

……………….

“Now?”

………………

“Okay, I am coming” he looked at me while talking.

“Yes, I am going there straightaway, don’t worry. It won’t take long for me to reach. Bye” I had a hunch that he is going back to his company.

“I’m sorry.” Chan looked down, I didn’t want to make me feel bad or apologetic, “It’s okay Chan, go and we can meet later.”

“I’m really so-

I cut him off by pecking his lips, being with Chan for 3 years; I know him how he always feels sorry for me when our plans get cancelled but I always understand him because his work is important and dating an idol isn’t easy, I trust him with everything and I don’t want to make his life harder; I am here for him as his support and love; I will never ever come between his work.

“Now go and let me know later, okay? Take care” he nodded and I got off his car and waved at him. I saw his car going and I went back home; I changed into comfy clothes and cooked something for myself, I wondered if he ate something or not. I miss him.

 {1:00 am}

 I was battling with myself should I text him or not, I wanted to ask him if he ate or not but I didn’t want to bother him. I was about to text him and a text popped up from him.

‘Y/N but I am going to Australia for work, I am on the way to airport right now. I really wanted to spend my whole week with you but I am sorry, I am really sorry. Sometimes I wish I could love you more than you love me.’ I closed his text and without thinking twice I grabbed my jacket, phone, car keys and wallet. I went running downstairs. My head couldn’t think straight, he was leaving and he doesn’t know when he will come back. He is on his way to airport right now and how am I supposed to stay calm knowing that?

I was driving my car, my tears started falling, I don’t know why it started hurting me a lot. I know he was feeling sorry but I can’t leave him like this. I had no idea then when did he left his dorm and I had no idea when will he be reaching airport and when is his flight. I tried calling him but being Chan, he won’t pick up. I was going crazy, how can he leave like this without a goodbye,

“Chan, Chan, CHAN, are you thinking you’ll leave me without a goodbye right now? I am not letting that happen when you always inform me about your schedules and always tell me to wait so why now? I am not letting that happen” I was talking to myself and crying. It took me 40 minutes to reach airport and I had no idea about him. I wanted to call everyone else but I had no guts inside myself to talk to anyone. I parked my car and went inside, I was running and searching for him. I tried calling him again, but he didn’t pick up. I went towards the “check in” area with hope, I was running and my eyes were searching him. I went around the airport for good 15 minutes, I tried calling him again, “Chan pick up, Chan please, uh please pick up” I was murmuring.

“Y/N”

“Chan” I broke down, I missed his voice.

“Y/N” I looked back and saw him standing. Without thinking twice I went and hugged him tight. “Y/N don’t cry” his words made me cry more, for some unknown reason I didn’t wanted to let go of his warmth right now, everytime he went out of country, I felt sad but this time I don’t know why I felt worst. I wanted to hug him because I was sad.

“baby, I am here. Don’t cry.” I looked at him.

“I’m so-

“Stop saying sorry, it’s not your fault. I missed you and how can you leave without a goodbye. How can you? Tell me” I started crying again.

“I felt sorry, I know how much you wanted to spend these days with me but because of my schedules-

“Chan don’t be sorry, I am proud of you. Schedules can’t be helped and I can only wish you all the best and take care of yourself. And it’s okay, and don’t feel sorry, ok? It’s not your fault and I love you” he wiped my tears away.

He hugged me, “I love you too and thankyou for being so supportive and understanding me always”

I looked at him and smiled.

“Hyung, we need to go and do our check in right now, others are waiting.” I heard Jisung say, he came towards us.

“Y/N, you’re here?” he looked confused but understood. “This time too, Chan hyung is going with us, don’t worry we will try to complete our work and will try to be back as soon as possible. And don’t cry too much for him, do you know how sad he was while informing you and he kept ignoring your calls because he didn’t want to make you sad and it was Hyunjin who saw you and told him to find you.”

“Yah, why are you telling her everything like this- Stop Jisung” Chan shut him up.

“Chan, don’t be sad and I am really okay. Just be ok and take care of yourself. And Jisung take care of yourself and be safe.” I let him go, my heart wanted to cry out again but I stopped myself and held my emotions from an outburst.

“Chan go, it’s time. And have a safe flight, I love you” I told him. He pecked my lips, “Love you too and don’t miss me too much” I waved at him. He was smiling and how could I cry. I turned back as soon as he was out of my sight and my tears started falling.

 {Present}

{06:00 pm}

I sighed and kept my headphones on the table. I wanted to make this song for Chan and wanted to give him today as a gift. I miss him again. We talked 4 days ago and till now there’s no update of him. I miss him and I really want to meet him, it’s not even possible. He’s not here.

My phone started ringing, I went to pick up in a hope it can be Chan. I looked at the caller id it’s my bestfriend.

“Tina”

‘Y/N you’re free right now?” she asked

“Yes I am”

‘Let’s go out for dinner and have some fun.’

“Huh? Now? Suddenly?” I asked. I wanted to turn her offer down but then I thought it’s better to go out somewhere rather than staying at home and missing Chan and crying over him.

“I am coming, send me the address” I got excited

‘Wear something pretty, I’ll be waiting there. Be there in 30 minutes. Bye’ she hung up.

I went back to my room and started choosing one outfit. Something told me to wear white and red. I took out white dress and red sweater. I put on light makeup and didn’t forget to wear my favorite pendant and the couple ring with Chan. Somewhere deep in my heart, it told me to wear the ring because it’s a symbol that I am taken by him. I took my sling bag, my car keys, wallet and my phone and went downstairs. I wore white heels and went out.

 I started driving to the address, Tina texted me. It took 20 minutes to reach there. I went there, it was a beautiful place. I looked at the view and it was decorated with red roses and different flowers, because it’s 14th February.

I started missing Chan, I wanted to meet him and started craving for his warmth. I went inside and sat on the vacant table. I called Tina but she didn’t pick up my call. I was waiting for her and then something caught my eyes. I was looking for Tina but I saw Chan coming with a bouquet of red roses; I thought I am day dreaming and I stood up because my eyes can always betray me. I could hear his footsteps and he was getting closer and closer.

“Happy Valentine’s Day baby”

He said, I blinked few times, my eyes started getting teary. I don’t know but it was teary. He gave me the bouquet, I took it.

“Awwww baby don’t cry. I am glad I made it here and how’s the surprise?”  he looked at me and I was still amazed. I hugged him tight and he hugged me back.

“I missed you Chan and thankyou for everything. For everything” I could feel he was smiling. I was just holding him too tight, “I missed you too” he said.

“I love you Chan” I looked at him.

“I love you too” he was smiling.

I tiptoed and kissed him

Still with you ~

“Jungkook one shot”

Pairing: Jeon Jungkook x female reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: mention of accident

Word count: 786 words

A/N:  song recommendations to listen while reading listen to 🎶 Still with you by Jungkook 🎶 

We can’t hold people, forever, they are meant to leave us alone one day and that was the fear growing inside me, ever since I realized I am already in love with him. I always wanted to hold him close, and always prayed that he would never leave me. I never realized that I already loved him more than myself, and to the point where his absence will destroy me. The promises we made with eachother, were meant to be broken at a time, yet we thought we would keep the promises alive.

 Someone told me once

 “Promises are always meant to be broken”

  I was still looking out of my window, everything reminded me of him even rain. I got out of my room and walked towards the rooftop, as soon I stepped, the rain drops started touching my body slowly.

It felt so nice, the water droplets touching my skin tenderly, it felt as if it will take away all my pain, it felt nice. As if something was holding me till now. With my wet feet I was standing under the rain reminiscing our memories.

He would always dance with me under the rain and I would always walk to him, with my wet clothes and he would hug me tight, under the rain. Those three words which always felt like magic spell to me, he would whisper it to me whenever he hugged me, “I missed you”. These three words were no less than a healing to me.

He would always know if I ever cried under rain, it was just me who loved to cry under rain when I am in pain because you can't see my tears because of raindrops and he would always catch me, “I always said, don’t cry, let’s cry together and let’s go through the pain, together.” And would hold me tight, his grip on me would be tighter after that and he would always make me feel comforted, as if those words which he always told me were real.

Everytime I would reply “Jungkook, thankyou” and he would hold me tight and kiss me softy on my lips.

If only those words were real, maybe I wouldn’t have been crying right now, with immense pain, which feels like my heart is ripping apart.

There was this time, when he and rain were my comfort but it feels so surreal that once my comfort turned into my painful memories with endless pain now. It’s the pain, that can’t be spoken or described in words but heart can only feel and the tears won’t stop falling down.

Even now, I am getting wet under rain but I don’t feel good and my mind can’t stop playing our memories, as if I am watching us right now, both of us looked so happy under rain, running, laughing, dancing together. My tears can’t stop falling, the feeling of losing someone who meant you everything, he left me leaving me in despair,

“What am I supposed to do now Jungkook? What am I supposed to do now?” these questions can never be answered, never because he is not here anymore

Everything hurts more now, now that he is not with me, it feels I am still holding him every second and refusing to let him go. This is how someone feels when you know you can never see the person anymore, who was your everything and will be everything till the end.

I can never forget the day, we met into an accident, just to save me, he came and I was saved but he, he left me.

If only I didn’t receive the call and ran towards him, he would’ve been with me right. Why did even my body freeze there, why couldn’t I move from middle of the road, if only I did that he wouldn’t have run toward me. “If you never ran towards me and wrapped me in your arms securely that day, you would’ve been by my side right now.” He would’ve been smiling right now, under the rain with me. I can never forget it and forgive myself, it’s been 3 years already.

 It would’ve been better if it was me instead of him, that day. How can he leave here alone to suffer? Everyday, “Why didn’t you take me along when you left?”

 How am I supposed to live like this, when that person came me to me as my happiest memory and I ended up hurting him like no one else can ever do.

"I wish this rain could take away all my pain like it did always"

“I miss you Jungkook and I still love you. Can you hear me from there?”

[8:08 pm]

“Seungcheol one shot”

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol x female reader

Genre: Angst,

Warnings: mention of blood and self harm

Word count: 1.3 K

A/N: i want to say, don't hurt yourself no matter what, things will get better, just don't hurt yourself, you are really precious to some people out there. If things get hard, hang on there, things will get better

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[8:08 pm]

I shut the door, infront of her face, she can’t make me feel shit like this, she can’t, not after I wanted to be happy for once. She didn’t have to come to me just to make me feel miserable.

Even I have no idea how devastated I was, everything just hurts at this point. I wanted to get rid of all the thoughts, I was helpless, her guilt tripping worked on me, and I am really feeling like a mistake.

‘You are the worst child ever’

‘You don’t deserve to be here’

‘Hope no one ever gets a child like you’

‘I wish I never had you’

‘You are of no use, why are you still here’

‘You are such a rebel who never does anything I want and never listens to me. You will be alone, forever. Everyone will leave you’

‘You can never survive, no one needs you here’

These words hurts me, everytime I hear from her, but today it did something more to me, which I never wanted myself to feel, she told me everything I was feeling the same. Her words worked on me; I wanted to do something for once and finally I did but she can’t see my happiness and she cares about her reputation and everything? Is it this hard for her to accept me the way I am.

Am I really a mistake?

Will I be alone? Forever? Everyone will leave me one day? These thoughts scare me everytime, and this is scaring me, this is my biggest fear. I can’t stop crying, my heart hurts, I am alone, I miss warmth, am I really alone?

I want someone to hug me tight, I want someone by my side, because I can’t do this anymore, I want to end this suffering, I was few steps away from self-harming, I stopped it but why am I looking for ways to do this? just because it’s my coping mechanism? i can’t do this to myself not after he saved me. He always told me he will there be by my side, whenever I feel alone.

The room is filled with my crying noises only, “No, I can’t do this” this was the only thing I was saying to myself just to calm down and stop whatever I am doing but it wasn’t helping, my mind wasn’t listening to me.

I was holding phone in one hand, I went through the contacts and called him right away, I can’t do this anymore, I need to hear his voice. My tears were blurring my vision, I tried calling him once, twice, thrice, but my call was never answered, my phone fell from my hand. My legs went weak, I couldn’t think straight, is this everyone wants? Am I really a mistake? Should I leave? No one needs me here, everyone left me alone already, what am I waiting for?

“one more step and suffering will end here only.” The devastation in me was clearly visible, which couldn’t take it anymore.

Tears started falling more, I couldn’t stop crying, the feeling of being alone was eating me, my comfort person is not here, why can’t I deal with myself alone?

‘If you are depressed, you have to get help from people around you. Don't do it on your own’ his words were ringing in my ears, but my mind wasn’t listening to it at all.

I am just alone after all, I wish I was bit stronger to handle this, her arguments make me hurt more than anything else, it was not the first time I am like this, she was the reason I started self-harm, she never knew, she can never, I was losing myself everyday but there was this one person who helped me to get back at myself, I thought I was getting better but I don’t see myself doing better, she can break me into pieces. The power her words hold that she can make feel shit, unloved, alone, miserable and I can’t help but to absorb it instead of ignoring.

What can I do she is my mother after all?

I was holding the blade, so tight, that my other palm was already bleeding, “one more step” and everything ends.

That’s when I thought everything is over, there I saw him running, he came running towards me, and hugged me tight, the blade fell on the floor.

Blood already started flowing through my hand and leaving the stains on the floor, my legs went weak, I fell, he was still holding me tight in his embrace.

“Erica!”

There I broke down, my cries got louder, how he comes and saves me everytime?

“what were you trying to do just now?” he shook me hard, looked at me and then hugged me again

“You are not this weak Erica, you are not this weak, how many time I have told you, I am here for you, I can’t lose you Erica not you”

“I can’t do this anymore Seungcheol, I can’t do this anymore” I was holding him tight, my bloody hands were holding his shirt tight, making his white shirt go red. He was caressing my back, he was trying to calm me but I wanted to let it out, I just couldn’t stop crying. My cries got louder and louder; I just couldn’t think straight. What was I trying to do just now, I was trying to end everything? What about my loved ones?

“Please stay Seungcheol, please stay.” I was sounding so desperate; I just couldn’t think of anything else but him and his warmth.

“I am here love, I will never leave you, so stop hurting yourself.”

“This hurts, she hurts me everytime cheol, this is so sick.” My cries were never ending.

He lifts me up, and made me sit on the bed, he was about to go, I held the hem of his shirt, “I am not going anywhere. I am here” he removed my grip and went to bring the first aid box. He came back, he was sitting on the floor, he took my hand, he was cleaning the blood

“don’t give the power to anyone to ruin you and make you feel like this, that you want to end everything” his words making my body numb, I couldn’t help but to cry harder. “always remember you are someone’s pride, happiness and source of strength”

“I’m sorry” that was all I could utter, even I don’t know myself what was I doing back then, how come he always makes me feel better whenever I feel like everything’s over.

He cleaned the blood carefully and applied ointment; he was dressing it carefully. I couldn’t help but to cry more. He always takes care of me.

“Is it hurting a lot?” he asked softly, I shook my head.

“Cheol?”

“Hmm” he hummed

“Can I please cuddle with you? Please?” my voice broke while speaking.

“Let me keep this first aid box” he was so tender with his words, his voice is my comfort, I just can’t help it but to love him more, how come I was thinking of leaving everything behind and put everything to and end. The way his love made me stronger, I don’t want to leave him, he is my everything, my pride, my happiness and my strength.

He kept the first aid box and came towards me, he was cuddling with me and pulled the blanket and covered me, I hugged him tight and I felt safe. He was caressing my hair, “love” his voice was nearly a whisper

“hmm?”

“don’t care too much about other, love and trust yourself more and I am here for you, forever. So never do it again please, it scares me. I don’t want you to do something like this because of someone who never cared for you.”

“I’m sorry”

“I love you, I can’t lose you, you are so precious to me and to everyone” he kissed my forehead.

“I love you, thankyou so much for everything Seungcheol” I said and closed my eyes.

It's his birthday ~

Seungcheol one shot

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol × Female reader 

Genre: Fluff

Word count: 1.4 K

A/N: It’s cheol’s birthday, i just thought how it would've been if we celebrated his birthday like this? seungcheol, deserves all the love in this world, he deserves the whole universe, he is just so lovely. 

[11:45 pm]

I looked at the clock and him, simultaneously, he looked so adorable when he sleeps, I was admiring his face, he looks like a fallen angel, I just love him, how did we become like this? looking back to our days, I fell for him at the very first sight, I didn’t realize how he became so important for me, I started caring about him and started liking him until I realized I am already in love with him and today I am here, by his side. My fingers went to his bangs and I started admiring it, his bangs looks so pretty on him. his hair always wants me to run my fingers through his hair, only I know how much I resist it, because they are just soft. Like his boy who is sleeping peacefully infront of me, is just perfect, and I am madly in love with him, more like totally smitten by him. I looked at the time, the clock shower 11:50pm.

I went down to my kitchen, I didn’t want to wake him up now or else my surprise will be ruined, I had to tip top because of him, although this big baby is sleeping but he will find out that I am not by his side and will start searching. I went down hurriedly.

I went to check the cake, it looked perfectly baked, I took it out carefully, it was hot. I took out the cream and cherries, cheol loves cherries. I started decorating it slowly and carefully, my patience will help me today, I have to hurry but I can’t mess this cake. After I was done with cream, I started placing cherries, and once I am done, I looked at the clock, it showed 11:56pm.

I still have 4 minutes, I took out the candles, and placed it carefully on cake, and switched off all the lights except the lights I used for decorations. One good thing that happened, I managed to do this with Jeonghan and Joshua. I looked at the time once more, they should’ve been here by now, I went to the door, and opened it, in a hope maybe they will arrive soon. I was getting impatient, I wished they didn’t call me on my phone because it’s not with me right now, I left it on my bedroom. I just closed the door, without locking it so that they can get access to it when they arrive and they don’t need to ring the doorbell. I looked at the clock and it showed 11:59pm.

I sighed because of Hannie and Shua, I went running to the bedroom.

There he was sleeping peacefully and looked so comfortable and ethereal while sleeping. I went near him and tried waking him up.

“Love, wake up.” I tried waking him up, I was so desperate to wish him at 12:00 because I know he will get sulky if I miss 12:00 am after few attempts he woke up, he rubbed his eyes sweetly, he smiled and looked confused, “What’s wrong baby? Why are you awake?” he looked so adorable and confused. Before he could speak another word, I wished him

[12:00 am]

“Happy Birthday baby” and hugged him tight.

I could feel he was taken aback for a second and smiled, I could feel his smile, he hugged me back.

“Thankyou so much princess”

“It’s your birthday today, did you forget?” I asked him, still not leaving him.

“Yes, I forgot but now I remember”

“You were so sulky last time when hannie didn’t wish you at 12:00 am and now look at you, forgetting your own birthday” I told him, he pulled back from the hug.

“But now I have you, who will remind me everytime if I forget something” before I could say him something, he pulled me into a kiss, he pulled me closer and my hands went to his neck, I just couldn’t help myself, I missed his soft tender lips on me, before he could kiss me deeper I pulled back. He pouted, very obviously he didn’t want to stop.

“Don’t pout now let’s go downstairs” I held his hand,

“Close your eyes before we go downstairs and no cheating and also don’t open until I tell you to.” he closed his eyes, and he didn’t cheat like last time, Jeonghan gives him so many ideas, I just can’t believe him, like he got an amazing brain, well he is Yoon Jeonghan for a reason.

I held his hand and took him to the table where I kept the cake, and lit up the candles first, I tried looking for Jeonghan and Joshua, they were still not here and the clock was ticking, it was 12:10 am already, I wonder what re they upto. I wanted to wait for them, they are his bestfriends, how can I celebrate seungcheol’s birthday without them? We can wait for them. Once they come, they need a good lecture from me.

“Can I open now princess?” here he is being way to cute, how to resist his cuteness, I always melt because of that. “You can open your eyes cheol” I replied him with a smile.

“You did this?” he gasped, I mean it was not a grand decoration but it was just perfect, soft, sweet, cozy.

“Yes but Jeonghan and Shua helped me too, when you were out today. Three of us did this together, I wanted to do something special for you and asked them for a little help so we did it.”

“Awwww, my princess, thankyou so much”

“Seungcheol will you stop teasing me? You know it very well whenever you call me princess my heart can’t take it.”

“That’s why I love it, I love calling you princess”

“Cheol stop I swear-

And there he kissed me again, I was speechless, his fingers went to my cheeks, caressing it, his touch was working on me again. he knows my weakness to well, this is our fourth year together and fourth year celebrating his birthday, but I am still not used to “princess” it just makes my heart skip a beat, it gives me butterflies and he knows it too well, being the biggest flirt, he knows everything, how to deal with me, make me blush, make my cheeks go hot, give me butterflies, he knows it all and I'm still not over his tactics.

I couldn’t resist again and put my hands around his neck, he pulled me closer, my eyes were closed but I could feel his stares on me, he just knows how to make things go his way, if he needs a kiss, he would kiss me and if it’s a no from me he would get sulky and I would give in.

“Thankyou so much for everything you’ve done for me love, I love you so much” he whispered

“I love you too cheol, love you a lot” I said he was about to kiss me once again but voices made him stop.

“Coups, that candle will melt anytime soon and then what? She made the cake for you, don’t let it get wasted because of wax”

“Joshua?” I asked

“Yes” it was Jeonghan who replied

“Jeonghan?”

I went to them and gave a good smack on their head, they were holding gifts, “when did u come?” I asked them, very well aware they both of us didn’t notice them coming.

“Just before you confessed eachother” I was embarrassed at this point. Jeonghan is a very big teaser, I don’t want him to tease me till my last day in earth before he could speak something, I spoke “Since both of you are here, let’s celebrate this big baby’s birthday and thanks for finally coming and you are LATE”

Seungcheol was watching everything and just smiling, I looked at him, even his smile is adorable, god this boy, he is just way to adorable.

We all gathered around the table, and Seungcheol, closed his eyes before blowing up the candle, he made a wish and blew the candles.

“Happy Birthday Seungcheol” three of us wished him

“Happy birthday love, I love you” even if I tell him” I love you for the nth time it still feels that’s it’s still less, my love for him is something else “thankyou for being born, love and bringing happiness to my life. You have no idea how much special you’re to me, you are my home, my comfort, my happiness and my everything. Being with you made me realize that I love you more than myself and there you stand, I will love you till the last, so be happy, you mean a lot to me.”

Before I could tell him more, that how much I appreciate him, he sealed me with a kiss, “I know and I love you more”

my dreamland :)

nihyun aka purple~

22. she/her

writing is my escape from reality~ everything seems so beautiful here

seventeen

straykids

bts

nct

i write on webnovels too : @/ Nihyun17

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my masterlist: my world :)

Few things about me uwu:

writing is just an escape for me, it’s a place where i can be myself.

i am mainly an angst lover, i write angst mainly but i do write fluff too.

i write about Straykids, Seventeen and BTS, i occasionally write about NCT and Monsta X.

My ults are Scoups, Hyunjin and Jungkook, bang chan always have a special place in my heart.

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Lee Jihoon one shot

Pairing: Lee Jihoon × Female reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: mention of pregnancy.

Word count: 1.5 K

[10:10 pm]

“SEVENTEEN’s Woozi announces marriage and Fiancée’s Pregnancy”

The first thing, I saw after opening tv, first I couldn't believe what I just saw and a sharp pain hit my chest, I was in unexplainable shock, unable to process anything, unable to process a single word that came out in news, my boyfriend, is about to get married with someone else, the man I love is going to get married, the man who never revealed our relationship to anyone because of our sake and now is announcing his marriage plans? How am I supposed to understand him? how? And the girl is pregnant with his child? How am I supposed to ask for an explanation from him?

Tears couldn’t stop falling, it was hurting, everything was a lie, everything, I believed was a lie, everything’s over, I was trying to hold him, trying to believe he is not doing anything behind me, it was a lie, everything was a lie, he was lie to me, he lied everything to me. How could he do this? I am afraid of everything, he is not here for me anymore, he is not mine, I am no one to him.

I turned off tv, I went back to out room, the bedroom we shared, together, the room I shared my everything with him, days like this he would come to me, hug me tight, comfort me, love me more, and sometimes I would just hug him tight when I am happy and we would have Friday movie nights.

Everything looked so dark, the night looked so dark there was no moonlight, everything looked so dark here, my tears didn’t want to stop any soon, everything felt so wrong, so empty and everything was hurting, I was being lied and I didn’t catch, he broke my trust, all the trust I put on him with my everything.

I told myself so many times to ask him, try to think maybe there’s really something wrong but one smile, one kiss and one ‘I am okay, there’s nothing wrong, love’, ‘I love you, love’ was enough to make me believe him everytime i thought there's something wrong. everything we spend with eachother was all a lie, it was just a house of cards build with lies.

Ever since we started dating, I knew it was house of cards but never thought it would turn into house of lies, everything was a lie, where did everything go so wrong that I am suffering like this. why can’t he come and say “This is all a lie, Alex. Don’t believe in anything but just me”

I tried standing up, I looked at the room; full of our pictures, I went to near my study table and picked my favorite photo frame, it was clicked on our 2nd anniversary, he wanted to click pictures to save it as a memory, I was holding it tight and threw it with all my force. The glass broke and scattered on the floor, even this couldn’t explain how devastated I was and what are my emotions right now. I threw all the things which were kept near the table, there was only one voice audible in this whole house, that was mine saying “This can’t be happening, tell me everything is a lie right now.”

I can’t accept this, I can’t accept this from him, how could he when I gave him all of me? When I loved him so much and I still love him, but his love ruined me, I can’t think straight and accept the fact he is not mine anymore, how can he do this with, not him out of all the people in this whole world. His love made me weak, his lies work on me and they still will, if he says it’s a lie I will believe him, that’s how I ruined myself with his love. Everything’s over for us, and I can’t stop blaming myself for everything, why Woozi why, tell me why?!

I broke all the photo frames we had in our room, everything was just a lie, I meant nothing to him, never meant anything to him. he didn’t had to hit and run on me like this, he didn’t had to do this to me. I hate everything, I hate him.

I fell on floor, near the window, everything looked like a mess, I am a mess, how did things turn like this, since when? How did everything turn into this big mess and I can’t fix it anymore. I brought knees together and buried my head, my heart was still aching.

I don’t know how much time passed when I heard his voice “Alex~” calling my name. I still long for his voice which calls my name. it made me cry more, I couldn’t hold my silent cries anymore, I can’t lie myself that everything will be okay soon.

“Alex why is everything so dar-

He switched on the light, his sentence stopped midway, I was unable to look at him, not after all this.

“Love are you okay? What’s all this?” how brave of him to ask me, if I am okay or not and what’s all this, how can he hurt me like this? how? I tried lifting up my head to face him, he was still wearing the same what he wore in the morning, the white tee and black pants, he looked worried, why? He was still standing at the door.

“when was it over?” I was trembling, I was not okay, I was crying and shouting, only I know how much it hurts, he have no idea because I am the one who is hurting.

“what are you saying Alex?” he was coming towards me, I know he will make me go weak, his voice will again lie to me and I will accept that lie knowing it was  my weakness, he was my weakness.

“When was it over Woozi?! Reply me” I couldn’t help but to scream, my screams made him pause there.

“I am done with your lies, I can’t keep on building this with your lies anymore. I can’t, I am a human, I have feelings too! and they are all for you” I broke down again I was trying not to cry but how am I supposed to not feel hurt and miserable?

“5 months ago” he heaved a sign, his voice was nearly inaudible. Deep down I was hoping that he would tell me, he lied and all of this was lie and he loves me only and no one else.

I tried standing up, walked towards him, glass was scattered all over the floor, I tried looking at him, I wanted to hug him, feel his warmth, want him to tell me that’s it’s a lie, want to kiss him forever but how can I? he belongs to someone else now.

“Do you love her?” I gathered up courage to ask him,

“Yes.” That was my limit, my everything, he proved me that everything was a lie.

I crossed the ocean of my mind, but in the end; I drown, you push me down

I felt pain, when you came today. I can’t start again, I can’t try to hold you back again, I will put an end to everything right now because we are over.

“Woozi”

“Alex, I can-

Before he could continue, I shut him with a kiss, my tears started falling down, I was being selfish right now, but how could I stop myself, my hands went to his neck, I couldn’t think straight, it felt like my world was collapsing. I let him go, and removed my hands.

“this is our goodbye kiss Woozi, please be happy with her”

“Alex-”

“I saw everything Woozi, you have to take her of her and your child which is with her. Everything was a lie woozi, the house of card I made, collapsed, I can’t fake try to build it anymore. I am tried woozi, I am tired”

“Please go because if you don’t, I don’t think I can let you go anymore. You didn’t had to lie to me, you could’ve just left me, was I that easy for you? Tell me? That you had to disclose it infront of everyone that you are getting married with someone else when you couldn't say a single thing about me to anyone?”

“How could I hurt you, I loved you”

“You loved me, you don’t love me anymore woozi, LEAVE ME, PLEASE GO AWAY, YOU LEFT ME, YOU LIED TO ME EVERYTHING WAS A LIE” I pushed him out of the room, I stepped on a piece of glass, the pain hit me hard, I screamed in pain,

“AHH”

“Alex”

“Don’t touch me, go away, you lied, you cheated me, go away woozi please, leave me, and don’t ever come see me again. We weren’t meant for eachother anyway, go woozi go to the love of your life.”

“Nothing hurts me anymore, let’s not meet ever again, you and me are over” I was crying, I knew how much courage I had to gather up to say this to him, he started stepping back, I saw him leaving our house, which was our happy home once.

“I loved you woozi and will love you till the end”

thankyou for being born~

Jeon Jungkook one shot

Pairing: Jeon Jungkook × Female reader

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: no warning, since it’s fluff.

Word count: 1 K

Author's Note: please play this song and read, it feels so good and nice. I wanted to post it in my timezone, i just miss him a lot, it's his birthday~ happy reading~

[11:11 pm]

“These stars look so pretty here and the waves look so calm today.”

“Yes, they look extra pretty today, or is it because you are with me kookie?” he is my star, the bright star in my life, who brought light to my life.

“No, it’s because you are with me love”

“Oh please Kookie, stop.”

He removed his hand which was resting on my hand, I looked at him, as soon as I realized the warmth was taken off from my hand, next thing I realized he pulled me closer, he pulled me into his embrace. I looked at him, he was smiling.

“Why are you staring?” he caught me again.

“Nothing”

“Where you thinking, I would leave your hand?” I nodded as the response to his question.

“I would never, rather I would pull you closer like this.” his smile was everything to me, his smile holds my small universe.

I wrapped my hands around his waist and hugged him, and snuggled closer to him, he is my comfort, my home and my everything.

“you don’t know how thankful I am, to you, for being with me, being my happiness. It’s like for everyday, I need you, I miss you, want you more”

“I am here for you baby~” he cupped my face, his face was shining under the moonlight, he looked like a fallen angel, he looked just perfect. He is a blessing in my life.

“Thankyou” as soon as I finished the word, he pecked my lips, I was taken aback by this sudden move, it was a quick peck. He removed his lips from mine, I was still looking at him with my surprise face, he was smiling, more.

“Why do you look so shocked?” there he starts with his teasing.

“What do u think how should I react to your sudden moves?”

“Aren’t you already used to it yet?” he was teasing me again, he is such a teaser.

“There you go”

“My baby is still a baby” he literally pinched my cheeks, this guy never lets go of any chance where he can tease me.

“will you stop and admire the stars, they look so pretty, just like you. Let me tell you something, these stars shine brightly, they make the night sky look so pretty and give best companion to the moon, and that’s how they light up the night sky. Just like you did to me, you are my star in this dark sky, you lit up my world so beautifully, everything looks so pretty and alive after you came to me. I can never be more thankful to you. Your happy smile is my day”

“Love, never forget, you are precious to me in the same way, I love you so much Nishi.” He pulled me closer and closer, it’s like I could hear his heart beat now. It was beating fast.

“Are you nervous Kookie?”

“It’s because of you Nishi” he was smiling at me again.

I stayed with him like this, for few minutes and then checked my phone, it was already 11:56pm

Where did the time go? How could time pass this fast, whenever I am with him? this happens everytime, whenever I am with him, I never realize that time flies so fast, making every moment so short for us, I wish to spend my life like this with him, I can love him endlessly.

I got up, he looked at me, with his beautiful innocent doe eyes. “where are you going?”

“give me a minute, I am coming” he nodded and started looking at the waves, which looked beautiful today.

I went to our car, brought the cake and held the gift box, I was walking towards him carefully, he looked immense into the waves, the sound of waves were unknowingly calming, it felt so peaceful.

I was walking slowly, he still didn’t notice me, I went near him “Kookie!” he was taken aback and looked at me with a surprised face, I sat on sand and took out the cake.

“Don’t say anything” he was about to say something, but I stopped him. I kept the gift box away from him, thankfully he didn’t notice, he was looking at the cake; I placed the candles and lit it up. I looked at my phone to know the time and it hit 12 am.

“Happy  birthday Jungkook. Happy Birthday, you are my happiness. Thankyou for being born. Your happy smile is my day, sometimes its exhausting and difficult, and during those days I will be with you always. I love you. Thankyou for being born, really thankyou for being born. You are my happiness, happy birthday”

I was really happy, he was smiling, his smile is my everything, I was smiling because of him now. He looked happy, I can never ask for anything more, his happiness and his smile holds my life. “Now close your eyes, wish and blow the candles” he closed his eyes, and blew the candles.

“Thankyou so much love.” His happiness was visible on his face. I was just happy.

“Thankyou for making my birthday special, thankyou for everything, i can never ask for anything more, you are with me and you are mine, I am blessed to have you.”  His smile is the most precious thing in this whole world, when I say it I really mean it.

I picked my gift box, and made him stand. I held his hand and took him near the sea shore, “show me your hand” and the waves were hitting our feet, slowly, it felt nice.

I gave him the gift box, he was amazed, his eyes showed how excited he was, “Open it, it’s your birthday gift. Happy birthday Kookie.”

He opened it, with a big smile, it was a couple ring, “Really?” he sounded so happy. I took out the ring and made him wear and he did the same.

“You have no idea how thankful and happy I am because of you Nishi, you are one of the best thing that happened to me.” he suddenly pulled me by my waist. I was embarrassed, so I was looking down at our feet which was soaked in water. He lifted my chin and made me face him.

“you have no idea how much I love you, I love you, my love. Thankyou for making my birthday so special with this beach date and with a best gift ever.” He kissed me softly, he is my everything.

“thankyou for being born kookie.”

fireworks are best 🌙

Lee Seokmin one shot

Pairing: Lee Seokmin × Female reader

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: no warning, since it’s fluff.

Word count: 1.2 K

Author's Note: please play this song and read, it feels so good and nice. I just hope this makes you smile, and i am missing kyeom right now a lot, hope you feel good after reading this, i hope its cute. happy reading~

“Love, are you ready?” I heard his voice; I was tried to wear the pendant, somehow I just couldn’t. I wanted to call him, but then he needs to come upstairs, I was looking down at my feet, thinking what to do. Should I call him or not?

I felt fingers touching my fingers, the sudden touch, made me so surprised “Let me do that for you” I looked at the mirror, I looked at him, and I was holding my hair. His fingers brushed through my bare neck, his touches still do something to me, after so many years, I am still not used to his touches. “Done” I let my hair down. He held my shoulders, he was standing just at my back, “you look so pretty”. Smile formed on my face, looking at him makes me happy, “I am going downstairs, come down, once you’re done” and kissed my cheeks and went down.

I was still looking at the mirror, it felt so dreamy, one second ago, he was here, helped me and kissed my cheeks and disappeared. Unknowingly smile formed on my face. I checked myself for the last time, took my phone and sling bag and went downstairs.

“I am here” I looked at him, he looked so beautiful is casuals, his eyes; his doe eyes, his smile, his everything just makes me happy, makes me feel so better. He is just too precious for me.

Ever since I met him, he just made me feel loved, he never made me feel unwanted, thanks to him I realized, I can be more confident in myself in everything, he just added love and happiness in my life when I was about to fall. He held me tight and pulled me closer to a beautiful world, world full of love, happiness and no pain and darkness and that’s how I left my dark world which was full of toxicity, I am so happy with him. I am just so in love with him.

“You look so pretty baby~” his voice is honey to my ears, his voice is my favorite song which I can never get tired of.

“You just always say that, even when I cry” I fought back, he always says and makes my heart flutter, I walked towards him, he suddenly held my waist and pulled me closer, “because you do” and pecked my lips quickly.

“kyeom”

“Anya~”

“You always do this and you win over me” I complained, he was smiling so sweetly, how am I not supposed to melt under his stares and utter a single word, it’s been 3 years already and we are still the same, I still melt under his stares, fall for his silly things and can’t speak whenever he pecks or kisses me. what has love done to me, I am so weak for him and he knows it so well.

“You really look so pretty, I always wonder what if someone tries to steal my love” he faked his anger, his cute fake angry face, always makes me smile more.

“fight for me and what if someone tries to steal you dokyeom?” it was finally my turn to say, I smiled at him, I was lost in his eyes, those cute doe eyes can make you lose your way, and all you will know is him.

“I’ll be your and only yours till the end Anya~”

“no one can steal me from you, because I belong to you, and my heart belongs to you only, my everything so don’t worry” he pecked me again

“there, there you go again DOKYEOM!” even if I would say this to him for nth time still he would peck me and catch me off guard.

I stepped back, his hands were still on my waist, looks like he doesn’t want to let it go. I wrapped my hands around his arm, “Do you want to be late for our date lover boy Dokyeom?” I gave him a sweet smile.

He pinched my cheeks “you’re just way too cute my baby, how come you’re so cute and I still have you as mine”

“Because my heart belongs to you, now will you stop with this and can we go? Or else we will be late for real” I gave him a look.

“Okay okay ma’am, let’s go” he smiled sweetly at me. we went out and I locked the door of our apartment.

He opened the door of the car for me, I sat and he went to the driver’s seat. “So let’s go my love” he said and started driving. He chose a playlist to play, and “Constant by Jasse Barera, Jeremy Passion” started playing, he was driving so smoothly, I looked at his side profile, he just looks perfect; like how can someone be so perfect in everything, anyone can say-

“You look so whipped for me, you know that?” he snapped me out of my thoughts and completed my thought, what I was thinking.

“Stop staring, will you?” he always catches me, am I that obvious to him? I turned my head to look outside the window, the night city looked so busy yet to calm.

“When did I stare at you? You need to focus on driving Kyeom” I told him confidently, I at least need to save myself from his teasing later, he teases a lot. Dokyeom is such a teaser, I can never win over him in teasing.

“I caught you staring at me”

“No, you didn’t”

He was bickering with me all the way, I know I can’t win over him, but I can try, he always teases me, like this.

We reached, he parked the car and we went out of the car, he held my hands. His hands always fit perfectly with my hands; his warm hands just give warmth to me.

“I am actually very excited for the fireworks, it’s been a year since we last saw fireworks” I was excited, so much, even I didn’t know how much.

“I wish they had more fireworks but we only get it twice a year, that’s so sad” he sounded sad, I wish we had more fireworks here. We went to the river side, and saw lots of people were standing. Fireworks started, everything looked so pretty, his smile was looking so pretty under this moonlight.

“You know, you shine so beautifully under the moonlight, you never realize it but you look so pretty, under this moonlight. You don’t know how precious you are to me, you really mean everything to me, Kyeom, you made me believe I can be confident in my own way, you held my hand tightly so I could walk again but together with you and not alone, you always cheer me up, you are my support system, my home my comfort, my everything. You are just my everything, if I have you, what else can I ask for? I just need you and that’s enough. I love you so much Dokyeom. You’re just full of love, my love” I finally told him which I wanted to tell him.

He was smiling at me, whole time, as if he wanted to tease me again, he held my chin, “You know what?”

“What?” I asked and he kissed me, his soft lips landed on mine, he was kissing me softly, and I gave in, my hands went to wrap around his neck, he stopped kissing me, I looked at him, “I love you more Anya~” and kissed me again.

You are back~

Xu Minghao one shot

Pairing: Xu Minghao × Female reader

Genre: Slice of life, a bit of fluff

Warnings: no warning, since it’s fluff.

Word count: 3.8 K

Author's note: i was supposed to publish this one the day they left Korea, but i got busy, I'm glad i can post it, hope they will enjoy, and i played this song while writing, hopefully you'll get the vibe when you listen and read~ and i just wanted to share that shà shà means falling rain in and Yueling means moonlight in Chinese, these names are so pretty~ anyway happy reading~

Song: Hometown smile

[11:35 am]

You were working, you had a meeting in few minutes, your colleagues, were setting up all the documents. You stared at your phone, for some unknown reason, you were waiting for a text from Minghao, it was 2 days ago he last contacted you, both of you were excited to since he will be coming home, after years. You couldn’t wait to know when he will be coming back, since he didn’t mention anything about his flight details, you wanted to ask Junhui or Mingyu or Dokyeom but you decided not to because Minghao will inform you anyway, you deiced to wait for his text.

“shà shà” you looked at your friend Yueling, she was looking at you with a smile.

“Yes?”

“Are you ready for the meeting, we need to go in 15 minutes.” you nodded.

“Are you waiting for him to text?” you nodded, “He didn’t text me, it’s fine, he must be busy, since he would be coming here soon, I really understand that” you couldn’t just tell your bestfriend that you were missing him so badly, and couldn’t wait to see him. It was 3 years ago, you last saw him and everyday you miss him just more and now since he is coming you couldn’t wait to meet him, you even decided to go to the airport to give him a surprise, but he didn’t mention anything, ‘when are you coming?’ that text was left unseen in your WeChat. You sighed and tried to smile.

Yueling was smiling, as if she wanted to tell you something, you were curious. “why are you smiling like this?” you couldn’t help but to ask her and she was still smiling like a fool? “will you tell me Yueling?”

“You need to wait.” She was still smiling.

“let’s go, take your documents and go attend the meeting and we will have lunch after that.” you nodded and looked at her, you took the documents and went to the meeting room with her.

You went to the elevator, you got in with Yueling, you decided to ask her again, “Yueling, what’s wrong?”

“Nothing, after meeting, eat well who knows when will you get to eat next after lunch” she was behaving weird now. You couldn’t understand a single thing, you just couldn’t; you eyed her strangely. “what do you mean?”

“nothing”

You got off the elevator and went towards the meeting room with her. You went to the meeting, soon your meeting started, you were trying to pay attention to the meeting, since it is important. After your department head completed, you had to present something, you did well with it. After your presentation, you were looking at everyone, talking about the project but there you were, your mind was stuck with particular someone, he wasn’t leaving your mind. You were peaking at your phone’s wallpaper just as an excuse to check the time, although you were wearing a wristwatch.

After good one and half an hour, your department head wrapped up the meeting, you were really thankful to god, you had no energy to sit there anymore.

You came out of the meeting room totally exhausted, meetings before lunch are always exhausting, if luck isn’t in your favor, then half of the lunch time is spent in meetings.

“Yueling, I am hungry. I can’t wait for lunch time.” She nodded and smiled sweetly at you.  

Both of you started working again, you had to arrange a lot of things for the project you got, you needed to sort things out before you leave today. You looked at your phone again, to check the time, it was 1:20pm already, you had 10 minutes more for break. You were just staring at your lockscreen, it was Minghao’s picture, he was kissing your cheeks and you had the biggest smile on your face. It was taken 3 years ago, when you went on a trip with him.

Meeting him was just a mere coincident, you never ever thought you would be his girlfriend, and you would fall in love with him like this, earlier you had no idea he was an idol but later, when you saw him performing on stage that’s when you got to know, before knowing he was an idol, you thought he was just a normal guy who loved reading; whom you met when you went to solo trip, to a different city after your graduation. It was totally a coincidence meeting him on flight, he was sitting beside you, both of you stayed in the same hotel, that was a coincidence too, who would know both of you would start talking, be friends, go around the same city, have fun together, get in touch. You never regretted those 2 weeks with him, you would tell him your silly things, your late-night conversations. You just loved it, you just didn’t realize you already caught feelings for him until you parted your ways after 2 weeks from airport.

You felt safe, happy, comfort with him, little did you know, both of you were from same city but the distance between both of your places was 1 hour; how much you wanted to meet him after that. He informed you, he lives in Seoul, and soon he will go back and you remember insisting on him to meet you before he leaves, that was on your birthday, he didn’t know, until you shared a moment stating it’s your birthday in the morning. You met him, in evening, on your birthday. It was your best birthday ever, you spend your evening with him, you confessed him, about what you felt. He said he will tell you on the day he leaves, that evening, was best evening of your life, you felt happy, and you were also ready if he rejects your confession and decides to stay as your friend, you wouldn’t want to lose a friend like him.  

You couldn’t go to drop him off the airport, the day he left but you met him before that, you went to meet him before he leaves for airport and he confessed you, he told you he wanted to be sure about his feelings and not hurt you. You were happy, after 2 years he came back to China, for few days, that was 3 years ago from present day; coincidently you saw him as a judge in “Youth With You” when Yueling showed him, she wanted to watch this reality show, you were busy and never watched survival shows, at first you couldn't believe it’s him then when you tried searching about him, it was really him, Xu Minghao. At first you refused to believe, and waited for him to be free and meet you. He asked you for a date, you went to the river side date, late night. You were scared at first, whether you should ask him or not and why he never told you about this. You wanted to ask him, but before you could, he told you who he is. After his confession, he told you everything and why he couldn't tell you at first because being with an idol, and a long distance relationship, it’s hard because you don’t know when you will meet and when you will fall out of love, yet both of you wanted to give it a try because of mutual feelings. That night, you shared your first kiss under the sky full of stars.

You always tried to be careful with him, from that day only, only Yueling knew about both of you and his members. You met Junhui, because Minghao insisted, and you remember how once you and Minghao were on date, and Dokyeom and Mingyu called him and asked about you, that’s how you came to know about them too. For once you went to their concert but couldn't meet Minghao because of tight schedule and you were crying very badly, he could just hear your sobs through the call.

The memories were still fresh, it was very obvious you were missing him and were excited for him to comeback but there was no text from him.

Someone shook your shoulders, you looked at the person, it was Yueling, “What are you thinking? I already called you like for 10 times, where are you lost?”

“You called me?” you were confused, were you thinking about him too deeply? Was it that obvious? “I did, and it’s already time for lunch, look at the time, it’s 1:35 pm. Let’s go” she held your wrist and dragged you, you managed to take your phone.

“Yueling, slow down and why are you so excited since morning?? Will you tell me?” you were curious since morning, the way she was behaving. You reached the cafeteria and as usual both of you decided to sit in the corner.

Before you could start eating using the spoon you were holding, Yueling stopped you. “Look at this” and there was a video of two boys in airport, it took you a second to recognize who they were, you were in shock, it was Minghao and Junhui. You were in the state of shock unable to say a single thing, he didn’t even say you anything yet, you looked at your phone again, no texts and no call from him, why would he not tell you anything, are you supposed to find out like this?

“When did you see this Yueling and why are you telling me this?” you just don’t know you were just too happy that he is coming today or sad that he didn’t tell you anything. “This is from Incheon Airport, they arrived there around 11:30 am because this was released at 11:30 am. I think they already boarded, what if he is trying to surprise you shà shà?”

“Yueling, he should know I will find out eventually, he is an idol Yueling, why would he…… do this?”

“You think too much, you miss him this much that you just can’t wait to see him, so after work just go to airport to surprise him, okay?” you definitely wanted to go to airport and see him, surprise him, you just wanted to be with him. “How will I know when he will arrive Yueling? I want to go and see him. I miss him so much”

“Ask his friends? Maybe? they can give you his flight details.” You unlocked you phone and searched for mingyu’s contact, you remember he gave you his contact back that day. You opened his dm, you saw you exchanged texts with eachother 3 days ago, he told you that there would be a surprise soon, for you and next day it was announced that Minghao and Junhui would be coming home; you wrote ‘mingyu, can I get the flight details of minghao? He didn’t mention me anything and I want to go to airport, can you help me mingyu?’ you were fiddling with your fingers now, unsure to send it or not, you wanted Mingyu’s help but were way too embarrassed to ask him something like this, even you don’t know why. Before you could do anything, Yueling snatched your phone and sent the text.

“YUELING! WHAT DID YOU DO?” you screamed so loud, all the eyes were on you now, the whole cafeteria was looking at you with a very obvious look ‘stare’ you bowed down and said sorry to them.

“something you couldn’t do” Yueling was so bold and here you were way too dumb to react and think straight because this involves Minghao, the boy who makes you go dumb.

Your phone vibrated, you received a text from mingyu, ‘he didn’t tell you anything? I'm not supposed to say, what if he planned something but I’ think they will be reaching Qingdao by 3:35 pm kst probably and then he will go home, I don’t know how much time he will take to reach Anshan, so that would be your work to find out, hopefully I could help you; he missed you a lot shà shà, go give him a surprise, he would be so happy and would be fully red.’ A smile crept your face, you forgot for a second that your bestfriend is sitting infront of you and you are at your workplace. You sent ‘thankyou so much mingyu’ as a response.

“you look totally whipped for him” you heard Yueling say. You would lie, if you denied her words, you were so in love with him and you couldn’t wait for him to come; so, you just smiled at her as a response

“Now eat, you need to go to airport after work today.” You nodded and something hit your mind, you remember Minghao once mentioning you how he will go to Anshan, from Qingdao. You looked at the time, it was 2:00 pm here, and after calculating, you realized he will land on Qingdao by 2:30 pm and then he would probably reach Anshan by 8:00 pm or 8:30 pm. You had a whole set plan to meet him.

“Will you eat shà shà ? You still need to complete today’s work and we have few minutes left for lunch.” Yueling was reminding you again and again but here you were busy thinking about him. you nodded and started eating, you just couldn’t stop playing scenarios on your mind, about meeting him and hugging him tight then and there.

After finishing lunch, you were trying to complete the dies of today and wanted to leave early, you usually leave by 7pm or 7:30 pm on Friday because you get meetings and briefing sessions but today you had to complete your work by 5:00 pm or 5:30pm, because you didn’t know when Minghao would be reaching Anshan and you didn’t want to be late, even if it means 3 to 4 hours of waiting in airport for him.

You didn’t realize how time passed, so fast. You looked at your watch and it was 4pm already. Your excitement was just high, you had no idea, how to control yourself, clock ticking off and your excitement getting higher every minute. You went to your head’s chamber; fully prepared to tell him, you need to leave today by 5:00 pm. You went to your department head’s chamber, it was written Wang Lei, you took a deep breath, your head is very kind yet you were nervous because you have no idea how to tell him if he asks you the reason you’re leaving early. You took a deep breath and knocked.

“come in”

You heard him say and went inside, you saw his fingers on keyboard, typing something and really fast.

“Sir”

“oh, shà shà? What’s wrong?”

“Sir, I need to go home early, today by 5pm or 5:30pm, is it possible for me?”

“Is it something important? Because you are really not the type to take leave like this?”

“Umm, yes sir, it’s important, actually very important and I completed all the things I had to do today, and meeting’s done in the first half so is it possible for me to take a leave early today?”

He looked up at you, “If you say it’s important, then it must be, you can leave early today since you’re done. Be safe while going home.”

“Really sir?!”

“yes you can go home, you can leave now too, it’s already 4pm”

“No, sir I will leave at 5pm only. Thankyou so much sir!!”

“You look so happy, I feel something good will happen tonight” and he smiled, you almost thought he can sense something but didn’t ask since it’s your personal reasons.

“Thankyou again sir” and you left his chamber, once you got out, you had no idea how happy you were. You went to Yueling, you couldn't help but to go and hug her tight. “I got the permission to leave early!!”

“Congratulations shà shà, you deserve it, you always work so hard and your performance is also just perfect so, you deserve it. Just one more hour and you will go home, get ready.” You smiled at your bestfriend’s words and went back to your seat; you completed your leftover work.

You couldn’t wait till the clock strikes 5pm, you started arranging the last documents, reviewing them for the last time.

[5pm]

You looked at your wristwatch for the nth time, unable to wait anymore. You saw clock hit 5pm and you turned off the computer, and arranged your things and picked up your bag. Ready to leave, your coworkers saw you, you smiled at them, you went to Yueling; “I'm leaving, get home safe, bye”

“Have fun and tell him how much you missed him, drive safely, okay?” you nodded, hugged your bestfriend and left. You didn’t forget to inform your department head and went out of your office building. You went to your car and started driving back to your house.

After you got home, you took a shower and changed into your comfy clothes, soon you went to your night stand near your bed, you wanted to wrap up the gift you brought for Minghao yesterday, you wanted to give him something, once he returns.

You didn’t realize how the clock hit, 6:30 pm, you looked at the time and got ready, you had no idea how much time it will take for him to reach airport, you were prepared to wait for him. you went to pick up your outfit, you decided to wear black top, black skirt and a black coat, you just love black and your 70% wardrobe is black. Your fixed your bangs, let your hair down and applied very light makeup and peach lip tint. You looked at the mirror for the last time and grabbed your car keys, kept the gift box inside your sling bag and phone.

After locking up your apartment, you went down to drive your car, while driving, all you had in your mind was Minghao, you couldn’t believe he is really coming today and you will meet him. meeting him after 3 years, you still can’t believe it because it’s been so long you met him in person. You remember that time when both of you confessed and your told him it’s going to be difficult but you trust him a lot so they can make it work, he even told you how busy he will be and he doesn’t want to hurt you, he told you he can’t be a normal boyfriend who would at least talk to his girlfriend at least once a day either by a single text or call. You assured him with your everything, and everything between you and minghao was normal, even if he didn’t text you made sure to text him at least once a day telling him to take care of himself, sometimes you would call him when you missed him a lot. He would be very patience to you, always listen to you whenever you had bad days, he was always worried that he won’t be able to comfort you when you will cry and be a very bad boyfriend but he is one of the best boyfriend ever, his words always gave you comfort, he is doing his best. Looking back at those days, how much you wanted to be in arms and would end up hugging him for a long time, and he would always tell you, he can’t give you hugs anytime. But you accepted everything, you just love him a lot so that you can’t lose him.

You were reminiscing all your memories, and you realized you reached airport, you parked your car and went out of the car. You took a deep breath before entering the airport. You were nervous, excited, happy and many emotions running inside you, you still couldn’t think straight, how you will behave sanely infront of him. you looked at your watch, it was 7:40 pm already, you took a seat and were looking at the flight schedule, you didn’t from where he will take the flight. You plugged in your airpods and played songs while waiting for him, you were looking at people trying not to miss him. you were looking at your wristwatch every 20 to 25 minutes.

You took off your airpods and kept it inside your airpod and focused on people again, something in your was telling you he will be here anytime soon, you looked at your watch it was 8:50 pm. You then noticed a boy dressed in black with white undershirt and he was wearing glasses, talking on phone and wearing a black mask, you saw he hung up and kept the phone inside his pocket, you got up, you walked towards him, somehow sure he was minghao, you just were sure, your heart was sure.

you started running, you don’t care what they do, you just wanted to be with him, you just wanted to be in his arms. He was walking towards you and you just went and hugged him there. He froze, you closed your eyes, you inhaled his scent, it was him, it was Minghao. You could feel his heartbeat, you hugged him tight, you didn’t want to let go, both of you were standing there, as if time stopped, you wanted everything to stop right now. You missed him like crazy, now that he is here, it feels like a dream, your tears were threatening to fall, you wanted to hear his voice call your name, you missed him so much.

“Shà shà?”

“I missed you” as soon as you said, your tears started falling, his voice, his scent, him, you missed him so much, he hugged you back, embracing you in his arms totally, he was caressing your hair, slowly, it made you cry more, everything you felt till now, you can finally tell him.

He pulled you apart, and wiped your tears, “how did you know?”

“my boyfriend will come and he won’t inform me doesn’t mean I can’t meet him. Why didn’t you tell me?” you hit him on his chest lightly, you were mad at him, still didn’t change the fact you missed him more.

“I was thinking to give you a surprise shà shà, but looks like you gave me a surprise instead” he smiled, his smiles and make everything better, his smiles are your healings, ever since you met.

“Do you know how much I missed you, you really wanted to be a bad boyfriend to me so bad, you just didn’t inform me, go away”

“shà shà I just came back, is this a ways you welcome your boyfriend? Fine, I am leaving then” he was really about to leave, you grabbed his arm,

“Minghao, I was joking, okay? I missed you really” your tears started falling, again.

“Awwww don’t cry my love, I am back now. I missed you too” he pulled you in a hug again, you really looked crybae, you couldn't help, “Minghao”

“umm?”

“I love you”

“I love you too” he lifted your chin and kissed you sweetly, that held all the longing and all the emotions that he missed

“more than myself” he said and kissed you again.

my birthday with her~

Bang Chan one shot

Pairing: Bang Chan × Female reader

Genre: Fluff with a bit of angst

Warnings: no warnings as far as I know

Word count: 1.9 K

Author’s Note: It’s his birthday, one of the best leader, best human, I love him a lot and I have no words how much, i am just blessed to have him, I am just grateful.

“Chan, get ready we are going out for dinner tonight”

“okay”

“Chan, just listen to me, son it’s fine.” Mum left after this, I went to my closet and picked the black silk shirt, my favorite and wore black jeans, I was wearing all black, how can I not wear black on my birthday. We literally had a feast in lunch and now they are taking me out, I should be the one taking them out, this is my first time spending my birthday here after I debuted. And I hope… I hope I get to see her today…

“Come down in 20 minutes, everyone else is getting ready”

“Mum I am supposed to take you all out tonight”

[Flashbacks]

“This is my first time going back home in September, this is my very first time celebrating my birthday with my family after debuting. I just feel happy Lix”

“I am happy for you and I hope you meet her”

“Lix?”

“Yeah?”

“Meet whom?”

“What do you mean by whom?”

“I mean whom?”

“You know it very well, and all of us know but we don’t ask you anything because it should be you if you want to open up with us about something. I just hope you at least hug her; you seem to miss her and how can she not try to find you because we go to Australia for tours. This way or that way I just hope she finds you or you find her this time. I really want to ask her what did she do to you.”

“Lix, she didn’t do anything and she’s just a friend okay?”

“I can see how much this friend matters to you”

“Lix!”

“You are still not scary, now go see your parents are waiting and mine too, and let’s meet soon” Felix hugged me and I was still looking at his face, that silly and teasing smile didn’t leave his face. I spotted Felix’s dad, he waved at me and Felix left me there. I have no idea how this guy got to know, since I never told anyone and was it that obvious, last time we came to Australia and it was 2 years ago, and that’s where I felt I saw her but I couldn’t meet her because I was unsure since that day, she never left my mind. How can I not recognize my childhood bestfriend and how she never tried finding me, what was stopping her?

 [Present]

Felix’s words were not leaving my mind, everything he said on airport that day, I hope I meet her. It’s been more than 10 years, I saw her and I doubt she even remembers me, I wish she does.

After getting ready I went down and saw the lights were off, probably because everyone was outside already. I went to dining hall and I heard mum say “Channie” I turned back and I heard party popping sounds and saw a birthday cake,

“Happy Birthday Chan~” it was mum and then lights were on, oh my god.

Felix was there, few of my friends and ….she was there? If I am not wrong, if I am really not wrong, she was there standing between my friends, smiling cutely, her dimples looked cute on her and she was wearing a white floral print knee length dress, a daisy pendent, hair down and it looked perfect on her, her face didn’t change she still have that cute face. I was amazed, I just couldn’t understand what I was feeling, all the emotions, I was happy, overwhelmed and felt loved, as if all the love was making me feel these emotions.

“Chanie hyung come here make a wish and blow up these candles.” I went near the cake, I closed my eyes and made a wish; after opening my eyes I blew the candles and cut the cake.

I looked at the room, it was decorated so beautifully and they did it, everyone was smiling, everyone came and hugged me gave gifts, there I saw her talking with my mum.

Lix came and hugged me tight “Once again happy Birthday bro.”

I smiled at him “Thankyou Lix” we broke the hug, suddenly Lix came near my ear and whispered “She’s pretty” I was taken aback. I looked at him with disbelief on my face, “How are you sure, it’s her?”

“I have my ways and instincts”

“Lix”

“Go talk to her”

He left me there, I wanted to talk to her but I was way too shy to even ask her how she is, I am seeing her after nearly 12 to 13 years and I don’t know how would she even feel to talk to me, and all these years we never contacted eachother, it was just me who saw her two years ago when I came to Australia and that was also not face to face, I just happened to see her. I was about to take a step closer and then I saw her getting a call and going to upstairs.

I decided to follow her, I can gather some courage and even if I am nervous doesn’t change the fact, she was my bestfriend even though I don’t know what we are right now and why am I feeling like this; all these unknown feelings are keeping me awake and making me feel things I never felt. I pushed all my thoughts aside, and went to upstairs, and then I saw her going to the rooftop. I saw everyone going out because mum called everyone to the backyard and Felix just smiled at me, I went to the rooftop.

“I couldn’t give the flowers to him but don’t worry I will give him, now bye. I will call you later!”

I saw her hanging up and resting her hands on the railings, she sighed. I took steps towards her. She turned around definitely hearing my footsteps.

“Oh! Hey!”

“Hey…”

I went near her. She looked so beautiful under moonlight, she looked just like an angel. Her cheeks had a tint of pink, she looked beautiful when she smiled and her dimples were showing.

“How are you?” I asked her, I don’t even know how to start a conversation

“I am good… you?”

“Me too”

“Happy Birthday Chan”

I went closer to her, our hands touched… accidently and she pulled her hand, abruptly. I felt a bit sad but I held it inside me and when I looked at the beautiful her who stood under the moonlight. She was shining, she had a halo… I couldn’t believe that we were this close, but somehow… she felt so distant.

It was a spur of the moment thing, but I felt like this was my last chance.

I took a deep breath, got my emotions under control, at least tried to and whispered, “Maple… Do you remember me?”

It felt like the world went still… I could hear my heartbeats, I could feel my heart thrashing loud against my chest hard, really hard.

The silence went for too long and I thought I should break the ice but before I could--

“Chan… how can I even forget you” the air felt heavy, everything felt so heavy right now, there was no overwhelming feelings anymore, it was replaced with sad, disappointment, curiosity, longing, reminiscing and sighs.

“Then why did you never try to find me?”

“Chan…”

“Maple…”

“Why?” I asked her again

“Chan, you left me alone here, what was I supposed to do, I cried for years, I missed you. Nothing felt the same anymore, why was everything so hard. I waited for you all these years so you would come.”

“Maple…”

“Do you know how hard it was for me? and when I saw you here today, I was taken aback, I was surprised when your mom called me a week ago and told me you’re coming and she wants to throw a party and I’m invited since I am your bestfriend. I waited to meet you, and today we do, my emotions were a mess, Chan do you even have any idea how hard it was, to tell myself that one day I will meet you one day and I always thought you forgot about me since, you never contacted me, I don’t know why, I thought you made new friends, forgot about me, and that’s why I never contacted you, I was scared, scared of losing you and hearing ‘who are you?’ from you, that’s a simple rejection. You have no idea how it was for me. and since last 5 years, things were very downhill for me, I always wanted you by my side but I shut down myself from everywhere, I stopped meeting everyone I was just alone. Chan we were kids, when you left, I always thought you would be that friend who left me and both of us will forget eachother as we grow up, this is how it looked like, years passed, no calls no texts, leaving without a goodbye or see you again? but you left and how could I even believe the lie when you were my bestfriend, mine. I grew and all my emotions started becoming stronger, missing you? Feelings are a mess, emotions are a mess and I never knew looking at you like this right now, my heart would get anxious, beat so fast for you, which was very expected but unacceptable for me, I don’t even know what you are thinking right now. And you ask me why I never tried finding you? It’s because I shut myself off, these feelings were growing day by day and I was holding a hopeless thread and was scared, and didn’t even know if I will ever meet you or not and whatever I’m feeling is wrong, I can’t feel like this to my bestfriend, are we even friends now?”

“Maple…”

“What Chan? Just what?”

“I missed you”

“I missed you more-

I couldn’t hold back anymore; I took her into my arms, we both were a bit stiff, but with each passing breath, she relaxed. I felt her face against my chest, I was hoping that I didn’t make a fool out of myself as my heart had gone out of control… but I probably did cause I heard her chuckle.

Let’s just say the time and situation felt too unreal but surreal at the same time, I wanted to make this moment last a bit longer and asked her something, that my sane self would never.

I whispered into her ear, “Can I kiss you?”

‘ahhhhhhhhh… Bang Christopher Chan …did you JUST do That? Did you really ask her if you could…umm…her? On the first day?’

I felt like I couldn’t show my face to her… someone dig me a hole, I want to bury myself there for eternity.

Just when I was thinking of ways to go into the past and hit myself hard before I asked that to her, I felt some movement and looked down.

‘Did….Did she just nod?’

I pinched myself…’ah’ it hurts?

She looked up… It could be a filter of a guy in love, but her eyes really held all the stars in the world… they looked mesmerizing.

‘This is your chance… Be a man’, I told myself and pulled her closer and kissed her. First it was just me, then she gave in. She was holding the hem of my shirt and my hands were resting on her waist.

[11:30 pm]

“Seungcheol one shot”

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol x female reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: no warning as far as I know, it’s a sad one

Word count: 822 words

A/N: this was in my drafts, i dont know how's it, but hope you like this ; i actually wanted to write for people who feel they are not loved, we don't need any reason to be love 🥺💕

[11:30 pm]

Tears weren’t stopping, I wished I never went there to visit them; it hurts. Going back home, is it even my home? Is it called home? That’s absurd. Whenever I go back there; they just humiliate me for what I am doing and for not coming back home after I left it years ago. I go there for monthly visit and still get treated like shit; I can’t handle this. I apologize for things I haven’t done. I am not going there back again. every time this happens, they never appreciated my presence just comparing me with all the shit. I never asked for anything but still they keep on going on like I am the main problem in their life. Every time I say I won’t go but I always go back to them, why? Because they are my parents. I try not to care but I know myself well.

Tears were making my sight blurry; I was somehow driving. Keeping myself sane with music, it’s the only thing which can keep me sane and calm. I reached my apartment; it was still raining outside. I parked my car and went out of the car, rain made me wet. Rain pouring on me, just wanted me to cry harder, as if it’s telling me to cry. Slowly step after step, I reached the door and pressed the bell, trying to hold back tears.

He opened the door, he was shocked at first when he saw me and his eyes showed me how worried he was, “are you okay? Why are you soaked? Come inside? What happened?? Tell me”

All I could do was nod him, he held my hand tight and brought me inside. “remove your shoes and stay here” he went inside running and came back running to me, he brought towels with him. He covered me with one and another towel on my head; he brought me inside.

“Do you want to change first? You are totally soaked Min, you’ll catch a cold. I brought your clothes; do you want to change?” he was about to go to bedroom but I held his wrist.

“Seungcheol ah, why… why do you-love m-me?” I hardly managed to ask him, he looked at me with those worried eyes which can just tell you a story how much he is worried right now.

“Min, are you okay?”

“tell me first, why do you love me?” my cries got louder, everything was hurting as usual but this time it was hurting a lot, like it never did. I was breaking down into pieces, I wasn’t okay, it was paining and hurting.

“I asked you Min”

“Why do you love me when everyone hates me?!? I don’t understand, it feels like you are the only person who cares for me? Since childhood, I’ve lost friends, even my bestfriend left me and I till date I don’t know why, is it because of me? or was our bond that weak or did my parents do something? I never know. Every time it hurts, it still does but this time it’s hurting more, it shouldn’t hurt like this. I always think I am strong, and I shouldn’t get affected by all this but how can I fool myself? They hate me and say things like I shouldn’t have bo-

He sealed me with a kiss.

“Never say that, I love you and you should know that only, it doesn’t matter if someone hates you or not. You are the one whom I love, that’s it.”

“Seung-cheol” I couldn’t hold it anymore, he hugged me tight. “I’m sorry, I am sorry” I just think I should apologize for everything and for everyone.

“Don’t be sorry, don’t cry. You didn’t do anything and don’t cry”

I nodded and hugged me tight, “my baby” he smiled at me

He always cares for me, whenever I’m with him, I feel safe, just safe. I don’t know how he loves me because till now I never understood why he loves me. No one loves me till now, I was always that loner and I fell in love with this person. He was the only one who helped me, cared for me, walked me till the bus stop, waited for me outside after school and college hours. Just one incident in school, being partners for a project changed everything.

“I love you for who you are Min, you’re brave, you don’t fake anything, I’ve seen you since we were in high school and till now, I never regretted loving you. You are perfect the way you are, you are someone who was sent by heaven, and you need love and care; if someone or no one can give, I am here, to give you the love and care you need. I love you, more than you can imagine my love”

“thank you for loving me, thank you so much”

i missed you;

“Seungcheol one shot”

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol x female reader

Genre: Slice of life, a bit of angst

Warnings: mention of pregnancy

Word count: 2.1 K

A/N: Finally I am posting this, this was in my drafts since a long time; lemme know if you like this, I was wondering cheol would be the best dad for sure.

“Sehyun baby where are you?” I called her. I kept the bowl after washing; I rinsed my hands and took off the apron. I went to the living room searching for her “Sehyun, baby, Choi Sehyun where are you baby?”

“Mommy!!” I felt a back hug and I looked back and her. She was smiling sweetly at me; I bent to her level and ruffled her hair. “Baby where were you?”

“I miss daddy” she was looking down, I picked her up in my embrace; “Dad is coming today baby, we will go to airport soon. We need to get ready” she was holding something in her hands.

“What are you holding love?” I asked her, she smiled at me, “Chocolates!!! I want to give chocolates to daddy.”

“Awww, my baby” I kissed her and she hugged me tight. I miss him a lot but Sehyun must be, missing him more than me, she was just one and half years old when she hugged him last and felt his touches. I can’t imagine how Sehyun will react when she will see him. ‘Seungcheol, I want to see you, I miss you’. I am just happy he is finally coming back.

I looked at the time, it was 5 pm already, “baby we need to go change because we will go meet daddy soon, okay?” she nodded and smiled. I took her to our bedroom and changed her into a cream colour dress with cherry print on it. I combed her hair and made her sit on the bed. I went to my closet to choose something; I was going through my clothes and noticed the white dress I brought on my birthday last month; I took it out. I wanted to try it, I wore it once only, “Sehyun… should mommy wear this?”

“You will look pretty mommy!!!” she was smiling so wide; I love her so much. I went to her and kissed her on her cheeks. She got his eyes, her eyelashes are long just like him, her dimples remind me of him. All the beautiful features are from him, the way she resembles him the most; makes her look so lovely.

I changed into the white dress, and let my hair down. I combed my bangs and applied light makeup, and cherry lip tint. I looked at my wedding ring for the last time and smiled, it shined when I moved my finger; it reminded me how he put the wedding ring in my finger so carefully that day. I can’t believe we came this far together, from dating and being campus sweethearts to husband and wife, who have a little angel now. It’s been five years since we got married and Sehyun is three years, everything feels like a dream, a dream I would never want to wake up. I grabbed my car key, phone, my sling bag and picked up Sehyun in my arms. “baby let’s go”

I went down, wore my heels and helped Sehyun with her shoes. She looked adorable. “Mommy ready!!” she looked so excited; this is my first time taking Sehyun with me to the airport to pick Seungcheol alone. I locked the door and Sehyun ran to the car. “Sehyun don’t run, you will fall” I told her but she is just like him, she won’t listen and will do what she wants to do.

“Mommy open! I want to go inside” she was jumping near the car, she looked more excited from me; I walked to her and unlocked the car. I made her sit in the middle, of the back seat and put on the straps on her from both the side; making sure she is seated safely. I double checked on her and got into the car. “Love let’s go” and I started driving. I turned on soft music, “Mommy, I can’t wait.”

“Yes baby, I know. But let mommy drive now, or else if I get distracted, we will get into an accident.”

“Okay mommy, I will not call you while driving” I could see her soft small smile from the mirror, she is cute.

“Good girl” Sehyun is a three years old girl, but the way she always listens to me when she should and that always amaze me, she is growing up well.

There were times when she would cry and tell she is missing seungcheol; she would call him and cry all night. Some sleepless nights were just painful, she would just cry and looking at her would make me cry and hurt; even if I miss him, but looking at her makes my heart hurt. She’s too precious and the way she reminds me of him, I miss him more and more. I can’t forget those days when I was carrying Sehyun inside, he used to take care of me like I’m a fragile glass. He would always deal with my mood swings, take care of my weird cravings, always comfort me after my morning sickness, he wouldn’t let me do any work at all and what not, he used to take days off just to take care of me, it was very hard for him I could see that but he never told anything or complained me. I can never thank him enough for taking care of me like that, maybe that’s how someone feels they go through pregnancy. I never lived apart from Seungcheol till now, that’s why when he said he needs to go to a different country for a project and since he is the head of HR department, and he needs to go with his team, I was sad because Sehyun was just one and half years, and I can’t just go, stay with him there just because I would miss him. He wanted to take me there with him but I refused, I knew I won’t stop him because it’s his work and he doesn’t have a choice. So, I let him go, but who knew I would miss this terribly and it would be this hard to take care of Sehyun alone; I was working sometimes it would be really hard for me to manage everything, working from home was exhausting as well. I regretted staying apart from him, almost blaming myself for not saying yes to him when he asked me if I want to go with him, because it will be for two years. I remember calling and crying all night after Sehyun slept, I stayed with Seungcheol’s mom and dad for a year; she helped me with Sehyun a lot but they had to go back since they had some work there; and I didn’t stop mum since it would be a bit hard for dad to manage everything alone there along with work load. Everything was so hard until Sehyun turned 3 years old, she listens to me sometimes and I quit my job too, now I just want to spend my time with Seungcheol and Sehyun; I feel empty when Sehyun goes to playschool.

After an hour I reached airport, I looked for parking and parked my car. I got out and went to take out Sehyun, I picked her up and locked my car. “Mommy when will dad come?”

“Soon”

We went inside the airport, we were waiting for him to arrive, Sehyun was getting impatient, she is just like him. I saw his flight arrived and I was waiting patiently, Sehyun was on my lap holding chocolates, she wanted to give to Seungcheol. The clock was ticking, I was trying not to get impatient. I wanted to calm myself down but I know I can’t because I missed him so much that I can’t stop myself from being impatient, nervous, happy and tears almost coming out. Missing a person like this, never happened in my life.

I remember, when I came here with Sehyun last time; she was just one year old and he was leaving. I remember crying so much, Sehyun was crying; mum came with me to see him off. I remember not leaving him, and hugging him tight until he had to go inside for check in, he was just telling me to take care of myself and whipping my tears. I remember crying all night that day, I would just call him and cry, I would miss him so much and had to take care of Sehyun, it was exhausting thanks to Seungcheol’s mum, she helped me a lot. Every morning I would wake up with Sehyun but it would feel cold, because he wasn’t here with me to cuddle, I would miss his morning kiss and goodnight kiss; which made my day and end my day but without him everything felt so lonely and empty. I would never want to go back to those days.

I almost teared up thinking about those days because I know how hard it was for me. It felt like I wouldn’t survive a single day anymore but I did.

“Mommy let’s go stand there please, I want to see daddy first” Sehyun had that adorable face on her, which I can never resist. I nodded.

“Okay my baby let’s go” I got up and held her in my arms. She was smiling, her smile could heal me from anything.

I was standing then I saw him walking, he was wearing white t-shirt, his favorite denim jacket, black jeans and white specs. He was looking perfect as usual, his bangs were falling perfectly on his forehead, giving him the most adorable look ever.

“Don’t cry I am here~” my grip around his shirt was tight, I just couldn't let him go, “I missed you too love” he was caressing my hair, he always does this to me. My cries got louder, his voice was just comforting as always.

It felt like world stopped then and there, it looked like he was taking forever to come to me. “Mommy let me down!!!” I let Sehyun down first and saw her running to him; I saw him halting his steps and bending down. Sehyun got him and hugged him tight. Seungcheol took her in his arms, and picked her up. My tears started falling even though I wanted to stop them, they weren’t listening to me. Cheol kissed her and hugged her again, I was walking and then our eyes met. I smiled, trying to stop my tears, I wanted to walk slowly and not let him see that I am again crying for him, but my mind wasn’t listening to anything at all; all I wanted to do was run to him and hug him tight.

I saw him letting Sehyun down, I went to him and hugged him tight; he hugged me back. I couldn’t stop crying, it felt so good to be in his embrace again, all these days I craved his touches the most. I inhaled his green aromatic scent, which I missed the most, the safe and comfort feeling which I craved for the most is back.

“How are you love?” he kissed my cheeks.

“I… miss…ed you….” My voice cracked; I just couldn’t explain how much I missed him.

“mommy don’t cry please” she started crying, I looked at Seungcheol, his eyes soften he hugged both of us and pulled us closer. “Sehyun, daddy is sorry now don’t cry and mommy will not cry too.” Sehyun was sobbing lightly, I looked at both of them, they are my little universe, Seungcheol was trying to calm Sehyun and he eventually held her in his embrace and pulled me closer.

“Daddy!! Mommy is crying again, just like she does because of you, I hate it when mommy cries, daddy please stop her from crying.” I heard Sehyun’s voice, I let go of his shirt, wiped my tears and looked at Sehyun, she was tearing up. I picked her up and kissed her cheeks; “baby mommy won’t cry anymore because daddy is here now”

He placed a kiss on my forehead, “I love you, my love. Sorry for not being here but now I am back”

“I love you too” I smiled at him and he pulled me closer.    

Under the blanket~

Choi Seungcheol one shot

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol × Female reader

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: no warning, since it’s fluff.

Word count: 508 words

Author’s Note: this was in draft from a long time, I know I suck at writing fluffs but I just tried but I somehow I feel I did mess up the ending HELP 😭😭😭 but hopefully you enjoying reading~

11:17 pm

I was waiting for him to come home, I was craving for his warmth, I just wanted his hugs, I miss him. His schedule was hectic, he was getting so busy, we could even rarely text eachother, it’s been 4 days, I last talked with him. I miss him, and I wish he was here. I went to my bookshelf and took out a book “Of curses and kisses”

I lied down on the bed and started reading it, all I wished was him by my side and how much I miss the cuddles at night. At this point, I just hope he is taking care of himself and getting the minimum rest, because the choi seungcheol I know; doesn’t know how to rest.

I was so into the book, I suddenly felt tickles, I was surprised. I looked to my left side, he took the book I was holding and kept on the night table, I was about to take it from his hand, but his fast reflexes. He pulled the blanket and just in a blink of eye, we were under the blanket. His arm was under my head, and he pulled me closer, my heart started beating fast. I was unable to look at his eyes anymore, heat rushed through my cheeks making me feel hot.

He looked at me, I could feel his stares on me; he held my chin and made me look at him, he just knows what to do and when “I’m your favorite person, I know it” the confidence on his face told me something else, he was in a mood of teasing.

“Cheol-

Before I could even continue he pulled me closer again, my face was hot, I was sure. He was trying to lift the blanket with his toes, I was trying to hold it with my toe so that I would cover our feet again, he was loving the scene, he was giggling, and his dimples looked so adorable, he looked so beautiful. I was about to lift the blanket, which was above my head. He grabbed my hand, I was way too flustered, “what are you doing? Is this a way you treat your favorite person? Azalea?”

“Cheol-

“What baby?”

I wanted to tell him something but my mind went blank the moment I felt his lips on me, I saw him, his eyes were closed. I was still, he kept on kissing me and pulling me closer, I know if he wants something… he will get it and since I didn’t respond to his kiss on the very first time, he kept on kissing me until I give him. me being me, since I missed him and craved for his touches I gave in. I kissed him back and I could feel his smile and smirk at the same time. After he stopped kissing me, he pecked my forehead “I just love you so much, you should know that” and smiled at me. “I missed you” I told him and hugged him tight