This Is How I Feel - Tumblr Posts
I don’t write to makie a point, or change the world. I don’t write to explain anything to anyone, or gain riches for myself.
I write, to put it in Tumblr terms, to give people feels. All I want to accomplish through my writing is the telling of a story and the emotional...
isn't the meaning of creation to be shared?
You Know What?
When another E3 Trailer for Fire Emblem: Three Houses came out, I was really hyped. Until I learned that Byleth is gonna be an avatar. Annnnnnnd all of my enthusiasm withered away. Godammit. I'm sick of avatars and self-insert characters that play a role in major storylines. They hold no personality for themselves, are always the center of attention, and eventually (bc I know how fandoms work) become dating sims. Granted, I did like Robin in Awakening at first, mostly because I took his default at face value and stuck with it, since I'm not interested in self-insertions. I sure miss the good old days when it wasn't like that in FE Games. Oh well, I'll still play it, just want to get that off my chest. By the way, I'm no elitist, this is my only dislike so don't you dare!
“How did you come to fall in love with Katsuki Bakugou?”
"I don't know, it just…happened.”
That’s the thing right? People will ask you “what made you fall in love with him?” Or “why do you love him?”
You always have trouble with it. Usually You default to “Because he’s intelligent, driven and hardworking.”
But… it’s not that is it? It’s not one specific thing and it’s not all the things.
It’s just a feeling. It’s something that’s meant to happen. It’s something that can’t be stopped or ignored.
It’s a tickle in the brain that makes you giggle and fizzle into a warmth that never stops just from looking at his name on a sheet of paper.
It’s just like…you see him and your brain decides “that one right there? I don’t mind him.” Or “I wanna see more of that one.” And why is that?
Who knows?
It isn’t love at first sight. It’s silent glances around the room, taking in your surroundings and scoping out places you can sit and be yourself when you have free time and your eyes falling on him doing whatever.
It’s like a tiny little itch in the back of your mind when you look at him for one second longer than usual and think “I wonder what’s his deal.” And then promptly never paying attention to him again.
It’s listening to everyone else in the room and trying to fade into the background and observe everyone and when the time comes to observe him, it’s another tiny pull of string that unravels a bunch of questions you have about him.
Yeah there are a few moments where he’s unbearable and unpleasant. And other moments where he shows he cares about his teammates and others in his weird little tender Katsuki way.
But falling for him is something so very simple and natural. It’s a pleasant little “Oh… I get it now. I enjoy him.”
And that enjoyment grows until it’s adoration. And suddenly it just seems so right to feel, hell anything for him. Love, hate, contempt, jealousy, admiration, all of it. Doesn’t matter what it is, just that you are feeling it for him.
So really it’s not a “what made you fall for him?” thing. Because there wasn’t just one thing that made you fall for him.
It was him in his entirety. It was natural, like breathing or blinking. Loving Katsuki Bakugou is now just second nature.
the ability to say "i dont have a tiktok" in social situations makes me feel so powerful. like the general reaction is "shock, confusion, then this weird 'thats probably a good thing' response" its so fun
I don’t really know what to say. This has been my fear since Seven and now it’s actualized. Jungkook said he wants to be an artist who can switch between k-pop and pop, and so I want to support him in that if that’s his dream. But at the same time, I can’t help but be disappointed knowing we’ll be getting an all-English album in which he had no part of the writing/producing process. I was disappointed Taehyung also had no part in the writing/producing of his album, but at least it was still Korean songs and they basically scream “Taehyung” even if he didn’t work on them. I don’t care about Jungkook’s songs so far having been about sex, and I don’t care about the contents of the upcoming songs. I have no problem with that. In fact, I have even loved the songs we got so far (Seven much more than 3D, but I digress). And I will probably love his album if we’re being honest. But even if I love GOLDEN, I don’t think it will erase my disappointment regarding the situation. Because Jungkook is the same person who made Still With You, Your Eyes Tell, Film Out, My You, and worked on so many other phenomenal songs that are some of my favorites in the BTS discography. As someone who listens to a lot of other pop artists, I can’t say that someone writing and producing their own songs is a dealbreaker for me because it isn’t, but BTS and it’s members have always been praised and set-apart because they do make their own songs. And it’s something I personally have always loved about them. I don’t want to call him lazy, or say he’s had plenty of time off to work on his own songs because he’s been working non-stop since he was 13 and I love that he got to take a break and do nothing. But, it is definitely a punch to the gut to see that track list. BTS has always made music because it’s what they love to do. And even though they always top the charts, that’s never the reason they make their music. But this album, and the singles so far, were clearly made to top the charts. And if that’s Jungkook’s dream then I will always support it, but I can support him and still feel disappointed and maybe a little heartbroken, too.
i love it when people come and just run through my blog liking all of my posts and reblogging a few because it makes me feel like an owner of a lil shop and someone has come in to compliment all of my wares and occasionally wants to buy a few things and it makes me very happy
i'm him, he's me.
I am so into cherik but also I am like 10+ years late to the party and I feel like I’m going insane
I can never get my portions right. I ate half a bowl of chicken garlic/basil pasta and I'm full.
I absolutely hate the feeling of being full. Not even overly full or anything. Just full. It's an awful feeling to me.... and I can never get my portions right. I just want to vom.
I know so many say "You should be thankful you have enough food to feel full because there are others who don't"
And while I get that..... I am thankful....
It just...doesnt help. At all. So then I feel physically horrendous AND guilty.