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Deep Summer Thoughts
A calling I cannot tone out
louder, bursts, unfolds, breaks up,
my legs, cold. The Light, it Speaks
to me, yet It won’t Shine in me.
Why won’t It look my way, have I
something done so cruel to drown It?
I look back, read the leaves of the
trees, each grain of sand. They shine,
like I used to. I go closer,
in longing, in desperation.
Yet they stab me, pierce my bones,
a cold, unspoken feeling.
I go deeper towards Him,
My Light. That warm feeling on
my skin, undressed. He kissed me
once, he’ll kiss me again.
As I touch him, and he me
they suck me in, obliviously.
I keep going deeper, thinking
that it is Him. Suddenly, no
warmth is felt on my bare
skin, no sweetness, it’s not fair.
They pull me in, drink me up.
Finally, they take my breath
Away. I no longer see the Light,
I no longer see My Sun. This
deep water that drowns love struck
souls, drowned me. Moonlight on
my skin, crazy whispers all come
in, I no longer have a purpose,
all I dream about is Him. Oh,
how oblivious I was! No wonder
they never let me in. I said
I’d be the last to pass, but
first I had to surrender, but
I couldn’t surrender Him.
patrick
what’s wrong with psychopaths
they’re people too
and although they’re sick
and probably want to kill you
or manipulate the shit out of you
why do i still love them so much
there’s something so attractive
about the seemingly lifeless
wanting to protect your life
am i wrong?
a lustful dose of aquamarine ketamine
white sage valley
where rams come to die and
goats become human
crystal anthems of chrysanthemums
cause shivers in my skin and goosebumps on my bones
pearly tears in the sink
twisted gears, i can’t think
through the years keep me weak
we cut ourselves on piles of ionian sea glass
your infra-red blood on my body paint
just hostility and futility embracing in a whisper
cover me in velvet bruises on my inner thigh
make me in your thyme less soul
opalescent adolescent violence
my wet nymphette scent
accompanying a lavenderection of a coleo rising
my own softness chokes me, a violin side me
lively nightshade in your hair
like nevergreen overgrowth on a grave
the tyrannical terrain decomposes the magnoliar tree
lilac tarmac scorching below you and me
you were sculpted not by the gods but by those who appreciate mortality
make me in your soul
peel away layers of plaster from my sun-kissed skin
and watch the jealousy crumble to the ground
i unfurl like petals when i’m with you
if you weren’t mine, the skin would fall on its own
unloved for eternity away from your gaze
give me
hibiscus kisses below
eucalyptus eclipses
instead
champagneful truths become the lie
candlet go of hoarse remorse
if with you i’ll never die
you broke inside of me and painted it all blue
now dance naked in the ocean of my body under the moon of my mind
i wish you could skinny dip in my lagoon empty of perfume
my soul, reborn in your eyes
a single moth attracted by a flicker
that never vanishes on time
hollow worry
hammer heart
worthless mercy
worlds apart