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made of love, yet fear of giving it away. fear of never being loved enough and fear of being broken after being loved. so much fear, how do i escape? i cannot recall the last time i felt courage. to yearn someone so much, that i break past my overwhelming fear and leap for love. no, i cannot remember any of those times.
i fear too many things and i fear this fear of mine will bring me to my inevitable end.
i yearn to be loved so bad.
i think even a thousand stars smiling down at you will not get you rid of the grief you've rubbed on me and i think inspite of pretending otherwise, you will incessantly be guilty of it. that's the thing about you. that is why i was drawn to you in the first place. maybe you're not inherently a bad person and maybe this shade of grief on you has emerged as a result of my shade of grief being rubbed on you. or maybe we are too similar than i'd like to admit. maybe you are my mirror. this insurmountable grief on you, is maybe just a reflection of mine.
Sometimes I love the scenes I write, other times I keep thinking I'm not a good enough writer, in all honesty I can't tell if my writing is pleasing or not, I do believe I can write quite well but there are times where I doubt myself very strongly
Finally started chapter II of my book today! So far so good
Started chapter II...
More writing because I find this scene to be entertaining
"The one who I adored so much!"
"A letter to Mikhail"
September 4th, 1870 I have lost count of how many letters I have written addressed to the same man, but as much as I write nothing seems to ever be enough to ease my anguish. My most adored, beloved Mikhail, why not embrace me in your arms and make me yours, and only yours? The love I feel for you dare not to be spoken of, for it is believed as abhorrent and uncivilised for me to do so. None ought to know about the nights I wished you would make love to me, about the nights I longed to hear your lovely voice that enunciates words with such delightful accent. My dearest, if only I could spend the rest of my days in your company, then I shall be the happiest man in all of England. You know of my loyalty to you, and I know of your loyalty to me, I do suspect you hold some sort of interest in me, and I hope I am right to suspect such things. My longing worsens day after day, the turmoil only grows stronger the more I remember your face, and your gentle laughter, and the ways in which you make me feel so treasured. You're a wonderful gentleman, Mikhail, and I daresay that you're an angel in disguise that descended upon this wretched world to bestow upon me the utmost demonstration of love and grace. I truly hope you do return my unspoken love one day. All yours, L.A.
A little scene of a book I'm writing. Laurence has a dream about his childhood...
Why theme is more important than plot
A super important lesson about writing that completely changed my mindset a few years ago, and I hope it helps you get there yourself if you’re stressing too much about the plot.
Worried about your plot not being good enough? It might be time to switch gears.
Any good story that stays with the reader will have compelling themes. You might not remember exactly what happens in the book, but you’ll remember how it made you feel. Wanna know why?
Because it had a strong theme, message or story question. So let’s break this down.
The theme → the true meaning of the story and its existence The plot → a device that delivers the theme in a digestible sequence of events
Do you know what your theme is? Do you know what question you’re asking with your project?
To figure this out, you need to understand why you chose this specific moment in this specific character’s life to tell the story.
What sort of change occurs in them?
What sort of message do they learn?
Why is this a pivotal moment in their life?
This is how you’ll learn what your story is truly about, underneath the plot. Think of your plot as the vehicle, and your story question/theme as the driver.
If your plot doesn’t carry the subtext of your theme, it’s going to have a hard time sticking in your reader’s head.
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Me when the “their grief and pain turned them into a monster” trope exists