Thought Of The Evening: I Would Never Have Chosen DID; And I Simply Don't Understand Anyone Who Wish

Thought of the evening: I would never have chosen DID; and I simply don't understand anyone who wish to have multiple personalities...

I haven't been aware of my life for the last few months, and I despise how out of control my life feels. I do not remember most of my life; those memories live with my alters but I (now) love them with my whole heart.

I would have rather I never ended up this way. We never wanted to be a system, and none of us would wish this on anyone.

However, I am glad I didn't have to go through those things alone. I'm grateful my mind put up barriers, so I don't have to live every day re-experiencing and remembering those things I've read of in my system's journal entries. I'm glad our mind kept us safe, I'm glad we did our best at the time.

I'm grateful that I had them when I did. I'm grateful I had someone watching out for us even when I didn't realise it. I'm grateful for the system who kept me as safe as they could. I'm glad I had them with me.

I love my brain for making me a family...

but I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

“I am the sum of my parts, and my parts are absolutely phenomenal.” - Jeni Haynes in her memoir The Girl in the Green Dress speaking on DID/MPD

~ host

what are your thoughts on scented candles and do you have a favourite scent??? Im trying to find fellow scented candle enjoyers here.

I cannot stand them most of the time (especially not the super cheap/fake ones.. I am so sorry. I do adore candles, but the majority of the time have to be unscented, or lightly scented with essential oils.

However

Scully's air light candles have my heart, especially the Bulgarian rose and lavender. In case anyone is curious: link here

The glowing bunnies

Redrew an old piece :)

if you’re offline or away and i message you something (like a link to a meme or a picture or w/e) honestly just assume that i’m just leaving it there for when you get back and not expecting you to answer straight away. i don’t need you to respond with “hey, sorry, i wasn’t at the computer!” or anything. i was leaving u a gift for later.

if he's waiting for me at the end of this, I'm greeting death as an old friend.

And maybe with an involuntary "awww there's a cute puppy!!"

.. probably shouldn't do that to Anubis or his jackals but.. what else am I do with a puppa 🥺🥺

A guide will be waiting for you.