Ok, I Honestly Want People Outside Of This Systems Opinions On This. If Any Other Fictives Have Any Input,

Ok, I honestly want people outside of this system’s opinions on this. If any other fictives have any input, I’d love to hear it.

Because I was thinking of changing my last name. I still like my first name of Simon, but it doesn’t feel like I can call myself “Simon Henriksson” anymore due to how different I am from my source. I still feel connected to my source, even though my memories are different in multiple ways as well since I’m technically a sort of “AU” version of Sick Simon I guess, but I don’t know. I’m just… really different from him. It really does feel like I can’t call myself by my own name anymore due to how different I’ve become.

I just don’t know…

Anyone got any advice?

Real Shit Said in Headspace (Jax🎳 posted edition!)

Caine🎪: We do the best thing! Get revenge in the best possible way!

Blue🍓: Live a happy and successful life?

Caine🎪: Murder

Adding on to my previous posts about setting boundaries, there’s something else that our ex-abuser did:

They set boundaries that we couldn’t cross (which some persecutors crossed due to lashing back towards the emotional abuse) and we were well aware of that and did our best to abide by those boundaries. Were some boundaries found out by simple accident? Yes. Because this person also never communicated with us. Whenever we accidentally crossed a boundary they never fucking mentioned, they’d threaten us with termination of the friendship (our only friendship that we admit to being dependent on due to our severe lack of proper social skills).

But then we set some boundaries. Such as: no religious talk, nothing about questioning reality, nothing related to x y or z because it’s a trigger for some of us.

And what did this person do? Promptly made us feel guilty for setting boundaries. Literally, after setting those boundaries, they went “Yeah. Listen, we can’t do the fun stuff anymore because of your boundaries. Yeah. Sorry.” This was bad enough i the point where Blue then immediately revoked those boundaries, despite how uncomfortable they were with the things we set boundaries on.

So seriously. Someone could claim to respect your boundaries, but if they’re making you feel guilty in any way for setting them (even if they’re not being forthright about it) cut them out of your life immediately. They’re emotionally abusing you.

And cut out the people who support your abusers too because they’ll either figure it out for themselves or stay out of your life forever. Focus on you. You’re the most important thing in your life. Don’t ever be ashamed of that.

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We’re getting ready to go on vacation, and I find myself cross with myself due to my carelessness when it comes to packing.

As the body is female, our mother has reminded us many times not to wear certain outfits in fear of some sort of assault. As I am a male, it was something that never occurred to me whilst we pack.

Some alters are expressing concern for the matter as well, especially since it appears such an event has happened to the body in the past but has yet to resurface due to trauma holders keeping those memories at bay.

This has truly given me a new outlook on things, as my fiancée reminds me that she too had a similar fear in our source memories. I am wondering if anyone else has had to deal with these revelations shortly after forming and fronting for the first time.

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I swear the show is trying to get us to actively hate André Glacier, like first he constantly harasses literal children for not dating the other children he thinks they should date and now he apparently doesn't even have a permit to sell his ice cream

The weird thing is that of all people, Marinette is the one to jump to his defense in "Revolution", even though all three times he was akumatized, it was because he wanted to kill her for doubting the gospel of his sacred ice cream (Glaciator, Glaciator 2, Elation).

Of all people, you would think Marinette would be the most against him, not Chloe.