I Dont Deserve To Die.

I don’t deserve to die.

Not because I deserve to live.

But because I don’t deserve the sweet release of death.

The other thing about depression is it kind of collapses time.

Suddenly, you find your whole days blending together to create one endless and suffocating loop. So you find yourself trying to remember the things that made you happy.

But slowly, your brain begins to erase every memory that ever brought you joy, and eventually, all you can think about is how life has always been this way.

And will only continue to be this way.

-Zendaya Coleman as Rue Bennett in Euphoria.

Sorry I was busy laying in bed and thinking of suicide attempts.

I can't feel anything except the crushing weight of emptiness pushing down on my chest like the world is desperately trying to fill the space but is only managing to kill me faster. I can't breathe, I can't think, I've been staring at my ceiling so long it's started to move like static.

sometimes i have too many emotions and sometimes i have none at all but i always always feel like i’m drowning