The Thought That Keeps Me Stuck In Place The Most Is That Ill Never Have The Means To Match The Lifestyle

The thought that keeps me stuck in place the most is that I’ll never have the means to match the lifestyle I feel comfortable enough in to stay alive. I’m paralyzed by it. I can’t picture a future where I’m not struggling, not in this world. So when people tell me the point of being alive is just to keep being alive, I don’t get it and I just wanna give up.

I figured out the actual worst part of BPD... constantly hurting your loved ones over and over. That's the real worst part.

ABC PLEASE

Use this guide to help you develop emotional resilience and decrease suffering from difficult emotions.

A - Accumulate Positive Emotions:

- Short Term: Be mindful of pleasant events such as listening to music, watching tv, drawing knitting, etc.

-Long Term: Avoid avoiding, identify values, take steps toward goals.

B - Build Mastery:

-Plan on doing something to build a sense of accomplishment.

-Plan for success rather than failure.

-Look for a challenge and gradually increase difficulty over time.

C - Cope Ahead:

-Describe possibly triggering situations.

-Plan coping or problem solving strategies.

-Practice coping effectively.

-Practice relaxation after coping practice.

P - Treat Physical Illness:

-Take care of your body.

-See a doctor when necessary

-Take prescribed medications as directed.

L - List Resources and Barriers:

-List tools and practices that will help with vulnerabilities.

-List issues and situations that will hinder healthy practices.

E - Balanced Eating:

-Don’t eat too much or too little.

-Eat regularly and mindfully throughout the day.

-Stay away from food that makes you feel overly emotional.

A - Avoid Mood-Altering Substances: Stay off drugs and alcohol.

S - Balanced Sleep:

-Try to get 8-9 hours of sleep daily.

-Keep a consistent bedtime and wake time.

E - Regular Exercise:

-Do some sort of exercise daily.

-Aim for 20-30 minutes of physical activity.

-Build flexibility and love your body.

*More DBT guides here*

I was healthy, working out, yoga daily, skincare routine, balanced diet, all for 3 months but I still wasn’t happy so now I’m depressed again and not sticking to any of those things that I know are good for me. It’s so hard living like everything is a phase and nothing fills the void.

I dunno if any of these pieces are actually me or if they’re just the personalities of the people around me or in a tv show or movie.

Not knowing who you truly are is one of the quiet killers of bpd. I always feel so broken and empty.

BPD is watching yourself destroy things, telling yourself you'll never do that again, and then doing it over and over again and the cycle continues for eternity.