Before Reading This Isnt Normally The Kind Of Thing I Would Post On This Account, But Im In A Lot Of

before reading— this isn’t normally the kind of thing i would post on this account, but i’m in a lot of feels tonight and needed to write down all the thoughts in my head.

it’s kind of funny how much a fandom can simultaneously mean to you as well hurt you. i still cry every time i watch dobby die on the beach at shell cottage, and every time i watch the weasleys surround fred’s corpse. my heart still breaks when i watch harry reject draco’s handshake, and swells with warmth when the golden trio is together in the remains of the castle after the battle of hogwarts. my soul aches for 14 year old neville watching a spider writhe at the curse that destroyed his parents, and i wish i could reach out and hold the hand of teddy lupin as he grows up without his parents.

this fandom. this wonderful fandom. these books, amazing as they are, as well as their retelling in the form of movies. the world that it’s grown into on this website and on many other platforms. this universe created at the hands of an author i strive to write as well as, and the magic it brought to my life. it made me who i am, taught me the morals i hold, brought me closer to friends i likely wouldn’t have otherwise made. it made me and it still somehow breaks me. it will always mean so much to me, regardless of what my loved ones as well as strangers may think about my obsession.

harry potter, ronald weasley, molly weasley, neville longbottom, luna lovegood, albus dumbledore, minerva mcgonagall, remus lupin, james and lily potter, sirius black, dobby, and so many other incredible characters shaped who i’ve become and who i have yet to be. this world means everything to me, yet i hate that it holds this power over me.

Hermione: You know what strength is? It’s forgiving someone who wasn’t even sorry.

Harry: Not to be dramatic but I would literally rather die.

Harry: *unbuttoning shirt* God, it’s so hot in here.

Draco: I know that, but why are you unbuttoning my shirt?

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my patronus is a dolphin, i believe! 🐬

Young Tom: The moon controls the tides and the human psyche. Wolves know that, which is why they howl at it. It’s a tribute.

Therapist: Let’s talk about your father.

Tom: No.

I don’t dress to impress. I dress to depress. I look so good I make people hate themselves.

— Sirius Black