As Someone With An Ed I Subconsciously Became So Aware Of Other People's Eating Habits

as someone with an ed i subconsciously became so aware of other people's eating habits

i notice when they just push around their food around their plate or when they eat smaller portions than normal and wonder are they a picky eater or have an ed?

or when they go to the bathroom soon after a meal and i wonder are they throwing up or just have to use the bathroom?

and when they eat so much food in one sitting and i wonder are they just hungry and have a fast metabolism or did they binge eat?

and i feel so guilty all the time because one of the first things that always pops into my mind is that...

"i can't let them be better/thinner than me."

does anyone else get a headache after they vape?? if so any advice on how to stop it pls🙏🏻

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my sister keeps making backhanded comments about my eating habits and it's so annoying like bro it's not like i ever went "oh here comes our organic cutting board!!" everytime she enters a room🙄

im just trying to ignore her cus we'll see who's laughing when i get to my ugw...

some tips i’ve learned from having an ed for 3+ years

• chew each bite of food at least 20 times

• use smaller plates & bowls so you eat less

• if your family/friends insist on going out to eat order the smallest size of anything or kids size if you can (this one might be obvious but sometimes people forget you can ask for a kids size at any age)

• always ask for almond milk in your drink in place of cow’s milk if you can (if you’re not allergic obv)

• stop eating after 8pm

• peppermint tea helps w bloating

• don’t weigh yourself every single day - weighing once a week or so will allow you to see more progress

• listen to subliminals

• set multiple smaller goals for yourself instead of just one ugw

• find out what your bmr is & work w it

• make a schedule for your wl - map out how long it’ll take you to lose certain amounts of weight

• if you can’t stand the taste of black coffee use a sugar free creamer (nut pods makes rly good ones that are 5-10 cals/tbsp)

• do not tell irls ab your ed unless you’re ready to recover

• if you’ve never p*rged before, DON’T start (lax too)

• if you’re really craving something, eat a small amount of it that fits into ur cal limit or omad it - restricting yourself too much will lead to a binge eventually

• gum can make you bloated (this might just be my own experience but pay attention to your body & see if gum is making you bloat)

• make a mental note of what foods and drinks make you bloat & avoid them

• prioritize protein & fiber in your diet if you don’t want to be constipated all the time (ik it can be higher in cals but it’s definitely worth it)

• don’t eat anything at least 2 hours before you go to bed (it’s bad for digestion)

• drink at least 1 liter of water everyday (you should drink more but ik it can be hard - if you’re like me, having a cute water bottle will make you want to drink more water)

• if you live in a walkable area & feel a binge coming on, get dressed and walk somewhere (or drive if you can)

• always have excuses for not eating on hand (ex: i just ate, i feel nauseous, etc.)

• if you think you need lax try putting one tbsp of miralax in a cup of water daily instead

• develop a crush on someone (idk if this is just me but when i like someone i find it easier to restrict)

• take apple cider vinegar capsules (so much easier than taking a shot of acv liquid)

• try to get in at least a little bit of exercise everyday, even if it’s just walking your dog, doing yoga for 10 minutes or something like that

this list will probably be updated a lot as i think of more thing to add, feel free to comment some of your favorite tips for people to read as well 🫶

EATING DISORDER BOOKS MASTERLIST

A Dance of Sisters, by Tracey Porter

A Stranger in the Family

A Trick of the Light, by Lois Metzger

After the Strawberry, by Kathryn Pope

Almost Anorexic, by Jennifer J. Thomas

Anorexic Annie, by Sarah Burleton

Beautiful Me, by Natasha Jennings

Being Ana, by Shani Raviv

Between, Jessica Warman

Confessions of a Failed Anorexic

Confessions of a Teenage Ballerina

Diary of An Anorexic Girl, by Morgan Menzie

Diving in Deep, by Nora Ballew

Dying For the Part: A Novel, by Jessica Ehredt

Dying to be Perfect, by Susan Barry

Elena Vanishing, by Elena Dunkle

Eli’s Wings, by Elizabeth Best

Eve’s Apple: A Novel, by Jonathan Rosen

Fasting Girls, by Joan Brumberg

Fat Chance, by Leslea Newman

Feeling for Bones, by Bethany Pierce

Flowers in Bone Cages, by Sophie Glynn

Frio, by Laurie Halse Anderson

Girl in the Mirror (Carrie Years), by Janet Fiorentino

Girl Interrupted, by Susanna Kayson

Girl Over the Edge, by Amy Z Kinzler

Girls Under Pressure, by Jacqueline Wilson

Going Hungry, by 19 various authors giving accounts of their ED

Hollow: An Unpolished Tale, by Jenna Morrow

How To Disappear Completely, by Kelsey Ozgood

Hunger Point, by Jillian Medoff

Hunger, by Jackie Morse Kessler

Hungry for Change, by Amy Lewis

In Her Shadow, by August Mclaughlin

Insatiable: The Compelling Story of Four Teens, Food and Its Power, by Eve Eliot

Kessa, by Steven Levenkron

Kim: Empy Inside, by Beatrice Sparks

Letting Ana Go, by Anonymous

Life-Size, by Jenefer Shute

Losing It, by Jasmin Dalton

Loud in the House of Myself

Massive, by Julia Bell

My Perfect Little Secret, by Rebecca Coppage

My Sister’s Bones, by Cathi Hanauer

Never Enough, by Denise Jaden

One Wish, by Leigh Brescia

Paint Me Beautiful: a Tale of Anorexia, a Love Story, and the Rebirth of Claire Simone (A Duet), by C.M. Stunich

Paperweight, by Meg Haston

Perfect, Ellen Hopkins (one of four main characters is anorexic, but its revolving perspective so ¾ of the book isn’t, just a heads up)

Pretty Bones, by Aya Tsintziras

Purge, by Sarah Darer

Running Lean, by Diana Sharples

Running in Silence: My Drive for Perfection and the Eating Disorder that Fed it, by Rachael Rose Steil

Second Start to the Right, by Deborah Hautzig

Size Zero, by Victoire Dauxerre

Skin and Bones, by Sherry Shahan

Skin, by Adrienne Maria Vrettos

Skinny, by Ibi Kaslik

Skinny: A Novel, by Laura Smith

Slim to None, by Jennifer Hendricks

Spoon Fed - A year in the life of a teenage anorexic as seen through her eyes!, by Jake Jacobs

The Best Little Girle in the World, by Steven Levenkron

The Disappearing Girl, by Heather Topham Wood

The Hanged Man, by Francesca Lia Block

The Hunger Scream, by Ivy Ruckman

The Passion of Alice, by Stephanie Grant

The Secret Life of an Anorexic, by Kristen Noel

The Stone Girl, by Alyssa Sheinmel

The Year We Seized The Day, by Elizabeth Best and Colin Falconer

Thin, by Grace Bowmen

Thin, by Laura Greenfield

Thinspo, by Amy Ellis

Unbearable Lightness, by Portia de Rossi

Wasted, by Marya Hornbacher

Wintergirls, by Laurie Halse Anderson

Zoe Letting Go, by Nora Price

Feel free to add more~ ❤️❤️