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What in the 4am fridge light is going on with edibles munchies??? SMH nothing like smøking. Unhinged.
Can we drop our home workouts please 💜
Pinterest is such a little bitch, like I love it with my whole heart but then it goes and tells me to stop saving pins that are ‘promoting insert what we’re all doing here type behaviours and dr*g affected bodies’ will in fact get my account deleted. Um no thank you, anyway I now have so many photos downloaded that if anyone opens my gallery I’m getting locked up
Valentines Day is here 🩷,
Okay cuz I actually love it since I’m a hopeful romantic, also lowkey flexing this but it’s my second year in a row with a valentine lol. That being said uh I have very little other happy stuff going on rn so I’m making the most of today.
Also definitely about to try using it as motivation not to eat since I want him to think I’m hot
Valentine’s Day update; well I’ve gotten the crying done with for today, wasn’t over anything too serious so yeah
Part of being on edblr is accepting that I have the most thought provoking, sensational and well-written drafts ever; yet my poetry skills and deep reflections have to stay drafts otherwise I lose my account for “promoting unhealthy and unsafe behaviours”
Also my pjs now smell of cigs so that’s great. Words of wisdom from someone who’s been awake since 4pm.. it’s almost 5am
Main blog: @luxies-babydolls
I'll make this longer when I can but please, if you don't already have an ed or are trying to recover from one then please leave my blog. This is not the sort of thing I'd want anyone else to deal with, my life is no longer mine it sometimes feels and I've made peace with the fact that this is my struggle to survive. For anyone who’s just starting out, please try talking to someone or doing this the healthy way; this is coming from someone whose life has been somewhat ruined by the not-so-fun aspects of having severe body image issues and strong negative feelings towards food. Your want to lose weight and be healthier is okay, and can be done in a way that doesn’t sacrifice your very sense of self.
My blog is a space for me to talk about all the aspects of my ed; im not trying to tell anyone to do what I do, simply sharing my experiences with a restrictive ed and trying to find people who understand the complicated, crazy, addictive, controlling mess that this can be. Stay safe everyone 🩷
Lila xx
Basic info about me~
Age: 17
Fav colour: pink
Fav diet drink: ultra strawberry dreams (sugar-free monster)
Hobbies/interests: reading, exercise, fashion, writing, dancing, makeup, thrifting, calling my bf, hanging out with friends
Fav singers: Lana Del Rey, Britney Spears, ElysianSoul, Hole
MY SIBLING JUST SENT THIS TO ME HELP???
when did food stop being just food?
you guys i went to the mall today for fnaf and the place was packed with ppl my age and everyone was SO PRETTY AND SKINNY😭 literally irl thinspo all around me fr
like i wore a dress and makeup today and regretted it so bad cus i couldn't stop thinking of the "lipstick on a pig" quote...
also a group of ppl my age openly pointed at me and laughed as i walked by like help???
i would give up SO MUCH to have my little sister's metabolism
she can eat bread, pasta, rice in one sitting plus desset AND STILL be so skinny...
i obviously lost the genetic lottery💀
why is pretending to eat so damn exhausting 😩
am i the only one who has a full blown meltdown when i someone's meal is smaller than mine??
idc if it has way more calories than my meal or if i ate less than half their intake that day if their meal is significantly smaller i go crazy...
this is a reminder for myself that maintaining is better than gaining.
maintaining is better than gaining.
as someone with an ed i subconsciously became so aware of other people's eating habits
i notice when they just push around their food around their plate or when they eat smaller portions than normal and wonder are they a picky eater or have an ed?
or when they go to the bathroom soon after a meal and i wonder are they throwing up or just have to use the bathroom?
and when they eat so much food in one sitting and i wonder are they just hungry and have a fast metabolism or did they binge eat?
and i feel so guilty all the time because one of the first things that always pops into my mind is that...
"i can't let them be better/thinner than me."
as much as a love visiting my sister's house, it's always so horrible because they always try to feed me😭
like i know it's their love language but goddammit it's my hate language or whatever cus i keep thinking they're trying to get me fat or something💀
no kidding they pile food onto my plate and get kinda offended if i can't finish
idk why i try so hard to hide my ed at this point. i mean i still live with my family but im almost 20 and technically they can't force me into inpatient or smth.
the only thing stopping me is not wanting to further traumatise my younger siblings. they deserve a better sister than me.
does anyone have a decent excuse as to why i would be measuring my meals on a scale??
i don't want my fam to be suspicious or think i am obsessed with food/cals (i 100% am lmfao)