it's my drama. appreciate my flaws & learn from my mistakes. it's okay to cry your heart out but don't forget that there's always a second chance. be strong but don't forget to be yourself. you can be wild and carefree but don't forget to be serious at times. oh remember to laugh too! life is amazing and unfair at the same time... deal with it even if it's not the reality that you wanted!
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What?!
What?!
Sometimes i don't really know what i want. I would usually just go with the flow... Or follow whatever the people around me tell me to do. But sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if i decide on my own. What kind of person i would be like if i am in control of my life. How different the treatment i will get from the people around me... I must be crazy thinking things like this... I believe i need to sit down and have a serious talk with someone. Maybe i do need it so i'll be enlightened and get courage to face reality. Coz yknow what?? I am in the point of my life where running from reality is a bad idea. It just makes me weak and useless. Oh my! I definitely need to know what i really want now. And to focus on myself, work diligently towards my future and hopefully get that prize in the end of my journey... These challenges in the path i chose to travel in are killing me little by little but i hafta endure it. I have to! I can do this! FIGHTING!!!
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Crying at 4:30 in the morning.
I'm not sure why but somehow i felt good while crying. Maybe coz I can't see anything. Just the darkness filling the room. Or maybe cause i felt like the same person i was back then? I felt i was the old me. I felt like a human again that is allowed to cry and not told to not to be weak and small at any circumstances. Or perhaps because no one's around to hear my sobs and witness my weakness?... I am definitely feeling lonely and disappointed. Like no one cares about me and they just want to ignore me like i don't exist. I guess this is how my life is. I just hafta accept it. I just hope i'll be stronger so i can carry on & live my life the right way. I wasn't sad coz i cried or coz i was weak. I cried coz i was alone and no one cares to show how i am loved and how they appreciate my existence. Oh and wanna know another sad part of it? The after effect. I had a bad headache but it didn't last that long which is good. Aja! I need to start this day with a smile. It may be a forced one but i bet it's better than showing a frown and making other people show some pity at me...
running away...
I feel like running away from reality. Everything is too much. I am so done with it and I don't know if I can still continue... Life has been pretty hard and it keeps on beating me. I am so stressed out with all of these things happening around. What else should I give up to earn some luck?? I feel so empty and tired and useless. Is it still worth it?
Watching a documentary abt Suicide. God, this is so wrong. Suicide is not the answer to your problems. Don't even try or think abt doing it!
Be strong! Don't lose hope... Suicide will not solve your problems. Think about your family, friends and loved ones. Don't be selfish. Somebody cares & loves you... Talk to someone. Cheer up. Remember you are not alone.