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I Cant Lose You
i can’t lose you
levi x reader
tags: canon universe // well established relationship // canon typical violence // swearing // sweet boy levi // sad boy levi // levi loves the shit out of you // star crossed lovers type beat
word count: 1.3k
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you and levi were drinking tea in his quarters when the news hit.
“wall rose has been breached!” a cadet yelled through the door.
levi was the first to his feet, stalking over to you grabbing your hands with a desperate look in his eyes.
“this is going to be bad okay” his grip tightened on your hands.
“no matter what, i need you to stay close. keeping you alive is my number one priority next to killing those giant fuckers where they stand.”
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shit
they were everywhere.
titans poured in through the gaping hole in wall rose.
all of levi squad watched the carnage taking place from a rooftop above the streets waiting on the captain's orders.
levi’s cloak flapped in the wind as he mentally strategized what to do next.
all you could do is watch the wheels turning in his head.
the captain finally turned to address you all, his face was unreadable as ever.
“eren i need you to use your titan’s hardening ability to plug that hole, just like the trost mission. the rest of us will make sure you make it there unscathed. this is your one job eren don’t fuck it up.”
eren nodded in response.
levi squad saluted their captain, “yes sir!”
the soldiers took to the streets below using their ODM gear, leaving you and levi standing alone on the rooftop.
your captain’s face grew softer now that it was just the two of you.
levi reached around you, grabbing you by the small of your back pulling you into his embrace.
“remember what i said” a concerned look fell upon his face as he looked into your eyes earnestly. “stay close no matter what. i can’t lose you.. not yet… not here”
levi didn’t allow you to respond, his grip tightened around your waist as the hook shot out of his gear propelling both of you through the street.
the two of you quickly separated, taking out the first titan you came into contact with.
your gear now being put to use, you sent your hook into the next titan’s shoulder blade as you flung by slicing its nape.
levi called to you from atop a nearby titans head,
“he’s on the move!” pointing to eren now in his titan form.
“let’s go!” he shouted as he initiated his gear.
you quickly followed suit and propelled yourself forward, falling in line next to levi.
from your birds eye view you both noticed the hoards of titans flowing in through the breached wall.
fuccccck this is all going to shit real quick
the whole first line of defense was taken out, eren was now going toe to toe with the swarm of titans.
“goddamn it” levi said as you both propelled through the air.
“we have to make sure eren makes it to the wall”
levi cocked his head in your direction, locking eyes with you, “remember what i said…you know what to do.”
you nodded. without a word you used your gear to skip from roof to roof in the direction of where the front line was just wiped out.
levi took the quicker route in the street below using the buildings stone walls to swing himself forward at a fierce speed.
levi made it to the pack of titans surrounding eren before you, slicing through nape after nape while you were not far behind.
you were one rooftop away from the carnage when the reinforcement team arrived.
thank the gods
you heard the whizzing noise of odm gear as you entered the fold with a flock of soldiers at your flank.
you quickly shot your spear grip through eren’s giant bicep, slicing through the muscle like a sword slicing through flesh.
using his massive form as leverage to fling yourself forward, flying feet first into a titans massive eyeball almost completely crippling its vision.
i’ll apologize to eren for that later. you thought laughing as you tried to pull your foot from the titans eye.
shit shit i’m in deep you quickly realized.
you hastily jabbed at the sludge beneath your feet with both swords not gaining an inch of leeway. you knew you were seconds away from the titan plucking you out of its eye.
sweat formed on your forehead as panic set in.
moments before the titan plucked you from its eye, memories you shared with levi started to flash before your eyes. you thought of all of the calm mornings you spent together, how the sun would pour through his window and how he would kiss your forehead when your eyes fluttered open, awakening from your blissful slumber.
“mmmm.. good morning sweet girl” he would say.
a single tear fell from your eye as the titan pulled you free from its eye. time moved so slow as it smashed your body under its fierce grip and lifted you high in the air.
you thought of levi’s words to you
“i can’t lose you.. not yet… not here”
not yet… not here… you thought as you became completely weightless.
the giant titan flung your lifeless bloodied form far and high like it was swatting a fly.
you didn’t feel the impact when your body landed on a nearby roof, your mind was already halfway to the other side, your soul was almost ready to cross over.
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after tearing down dozens of titans, levi and the reinforcements were able to give eren an opening to plug the hole in wall rose using his hardening ability.
everyone took an exhausted sigh of relief, at the end of the hard fought mission.
levi turned in circles in search of you. you were nowhere to be found.
bodies of steaming dead titans surrounded him
no, no where is she?! he thought in a panic.
without notifying anyone, levi quickly leaped into action initiating his ODM gear, launching himself upwards above the rooftops.
levi saw a body atop of a roof a single block away.
no it can’t be. please don’t be her. he thought as he neared the sight of your bloody body.
levi disengaged his gear landing hard on the roof; he had never ran faster in his life.
finally reaching your lifeless body levi sank to his knees next to you. in complete delirium levi grabbed at your limp body pulling your lifeless form too his chest.
“no no no please no” he chanted as his body shook against yours.
tears fell freely from levi’s eyes as he lifted your head up, placing a kiss to your lips.
this wasn’t supposed to happen. no. you were supposed to survive this together. you were supposed to tell your children and grandchildren all the stories about how the two of you survived a world full of shit and destruction together.
“i told you to stay close! you weren’t supposed to go yet!” he screamed.
“no..no.. not you. not you sweet girl” levi said as he wept into your neck.
you were nowhere, floating in the cold dark lifeless void when you saw a faint light.
well this must be it. i hope levi’s okay. you thought as warmth washed over you.
for a split second you thought you could hear levi’s voice calling out to you like a sweet siren song luring you to shore.
i hope he knows how much i loved him.
blinking away tears levi placed two fingers on your neck desperately feeling for a pulse.
eyes wide, levi shouted. “MEDIC MEDIC I NEED A MEDIC NOW!” he gripped your limp body tighter waiting for help.
you had a pulse, it was faint but it filled levi with hope nonetheless.
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levi held your hand the whole wagon ride back to the castle while you were unconscious, and sat by your bed for days waiting… hoping for you to wake.
it had been three days and you still hadn’t come conscious yet.
levi couldn’t sleep a wink as the days passed, he grew more and more worried as he held your hand waiting for you to show any sign of life.
your body felt so heavy as your eyes fluttered open instantly finding levi’s gaze.
tears welled in levi’s eyes once again as he cupped your cheek.
“hey sweet girl, i’ve been waiting for you”
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ice cream
hange x reader request
thank you for the request @addiesshrooms hope u enjoy x
tags: soft dom! hange // fwb relationship// some general car smutt
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you stared down at your cup of half melted ice cream, not knowing how to continue the already awkward conversation. you and hange were friends with benefits, nothing more nothing less. this is something you both knew but, when they offered to go on a ice cream date for a change you couldn’t say no.
the two of you would typically only hang out at hange’s place, though there wasn’t much ‘hanging out’ going on, unless being fucked raw by hange’s strap could be considered hanging out. having casual sex was the farthest your friendship reached, so you felt quite surprised when they brought up doing something that involved going out in public together.
internally, you began to question if this date was a good idea. the two of you knew each other's body all too well, but sitting in the ice cream shop you realized that neither one of you knew each other beyond the realm of physical intimacy.
hange tried to think of anything to say, feeling uncomfortable sitting in silence, “you know a lot of people think it’s not possible to split an atom! hah! but what they don’t know is that it is very possible. ya’ ever heard of nuclear fission?”
you shifted in your seat slightly, not understanding the question, “um.. no i don’t think i have.” you tried to shoot them an apologetic smile.
hange let out an exhausted breath, “fuck this, i give up.”
your eyes went wide at the change in their demeanor, not knowing what to say.
hange reached for your hand as they stood, “get up, i’m fucking you in the car.”
you felt excitement bubble in your stomach as they quickly guided you out of the shop.
hange quickly opened the back seat of their vehicle, shoving you inside. you squeaked as you landed on the soft seats. not wasting a moment, hange quickly moved between your legs working your pants off your body.
leaning down just inches away from your mouth hange smiled teasingly, “maybe we should have started with this and got the ice cream after.”
you laughed as you craned your head up to theirs, initiating the kiss you have been waiting for all evening. the kiss was softer than usual, hange took their time, savouring the taste of your mouth as they reached up palming your still clothed breast.
hange broke away from your mouth, your lips were already swollen from the tantalizing kiss.
“let’s get rid of this, yeah?” they said as they pulled your top over your head. you were so grateful that you decided to go braless today. your nipples immediately began to pebble when coming into contact with the cool air inside the vehicle.
“mmm.. yeah, we definitely should’ve started with this.” they said as they leaned over your body once more, immediately rolling one nipple between their fingers and taking the other into their mouth.
your back arched, as hange elicited pure pleasure from your body.
you sighed when their fingers quit their tender ministrations on your nipple. hange teased you by slowly grazing their fingers down your stomach, and circling the outer lips of your pussy.
you instinctively bucked your hips forward, your cunt already in desperate need of attention.
“so needy..” hange teased as they finally granted you your wish. using one thumb to work circles on your already swollen clit, while the other hand was being put to work by pumping deep inside you with two fingers.
your whole body sang in pleasure,“ohh.. fuck.”
hange looked down upon your body feeling pleased with themselves as you came undone on their fingers, “yeah?.. feels good huh baby?” you could only nod in response, not being able to form words.
hange changed rhythm, they began to curl their fingers to tap your g-spot in a ‘come here’ motion.
“ah! that’s it, right there!” you screamed as heat pooled in your lower belly.
hange’s voice was full of lust as they spoke, “that’s is baby, want you to cum all over my fingers, ‘kay?” you wailed as your orgasm began to roll through you, causing your cunt to latch onto hange’s fingers tightly.
hange let you ride out your orgasm as they placed a kiss on your forehead.
when you finally caught your breath, hange looked at you playfully, “so should we try getting ice cream again?”
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as always, feedback is appreciated. love y’all x
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perfect
jean x reader
tw & tags: talks of anxiety and body image issues // praise // body worship// established relationship// slight over stimulation // general smutt
18+ MDNI
word count: 800 short n sweet <3
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you always radiate confidence in any room you walk into, no one would ever know that it is false confidence. you secretly felt deeply insecure.
your insecurities surrounded your body mostly, you often felt like your breasts were too small, or your hips too wide, or your stomach too round. you often felt consumed by self deprecating thoughts over the body that you saw in the mirror.
you never wanted jean to find out about the constant battle you were having with your mind and body, so you made sure to never bring it up. you never realized how well jean really knew you, he could see it in your eyes when you passed a mirror, or when your eating habits became inconsistent. jean knew that you struggled with your body image.
jean loved you deeply, but didn’t know how to console you, he knew bringing it up would only make things worse for you.
jean wishes that you could see yourself the way he sees you. there is not a single thing jean would ever want to alter on your body, he hates the fact that you can’t see what he does, that’s why he always takes extra good care of you, especially in vulnerable moments during sex.
in intimate moments like this, jean likes to take his sweet time, placing both hands on your waist as he kisses down your stomach all the way down to your hips and thighs, “mmm.. so perfect, like you were made just for me. so, so perfect…” he loved worshiping your body, nestling his head between your thighs as you rolled your hips forward, forgetting about all of your insecurities when his heavenly lips sucked on your clit.
you suddenly felt your embarrassment rise to the surface once again, when jean reached up to roll one of your nipples between his fingers. you always over-thought moments like this, feeling insecure about the size of your breast and desperately hoping he wouldn’t notice that one was slightly bigger than the other. anxiety began to bloom in your chest, as your breaths became shorter.
jean noticed the distant look in your eyes when he lifted his head from your soaking cunt, “you still with me baby? want me to stop?”
you almost wanted to cry seeing how deeply jean cared, just by the look in his eyes.
“no please don’t stop” you whispered.
you desperately needed to feel his touch, it was the only thing that could ground you back into reality.
jean knew where your mind went, he decided that you needed extra care tonight.
jean mounted himself on top of you, wrapping his arms around your body pulling the two of you together in a deep embrace. your lips interlocked in a slow delicate kiss as your arms wrapped around his neck. the kiss grew more and more passionate as you felt your hips begin to buck against him in search of his cock.
jean broke the kiss, placing his forehead on yours, “do you want me to keep going, pretty girl?”
“god fuck, jean please fuck me” you said breathlessly.
jean didn’t hesitate, instantly sheathing himself into your warm cunt.
you both let out a deep moan when he released you from his embrace.
jean immediately moved his mouth to suck on your nipple, and reached one hand down to work circles on your clit as he pounded your pussy into oblivion.
you screamed from all of the stimulation, all thoughts left your mind. you could only concentrate on the pleasure jean was providing you.
you worked your fingers through his hair as his mouth moved to give your other nipple attention.
you chanted jean’s name over and over like your own personal mantra. “mmm that’s it my pretty girl, you're doing so good” he said, lifting his head to read your face as he tapped your g-spot with his cock, still rubbing circles on your swollen clit.
heat flooded your whole body, while tears began to prick your eyes.
jean knew you were close, “it’s okay, cum on my cock baby.” almost as if your body was waiting for those exact words, your pussy began to pulse tightly around jeans cock. you wailed as jean continued to pump inside your now overstimulated cunt. “ah good girl… good fucking girl” he said as he picked up his pace feeling his own orgasm brimming.
tears finally fell down your cheek as jean filled you with his warm cum.
you both groaned as jean pulled out of you.
jean’s soft gaze met yours, “i wish you knew how perfect you really are, i love you so much.” he said as he wiped the tears from your face, placing a kiss over the spots where the tears had fallen.
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ps if your having body image issues your not alone, i see you. & so does jean hehehe
Could I request a Levi x Reader drabble where reader always overthinks and has anxiety but doesn't tell Levi about it and holds it in because they think that their anxiety and overthinking will make him want to leave them. Then one day the overthinking becomes too much and Levi finds them in tears and doesn't know why. Basically asking for some fluff and comfort c:
safe
levi x reader drabble
tw’s & tags: talks of dealing with anxiety // levi comforts u :) <3
a/n: was gonna do a modern au but this felt really fitting for the canonverse
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you knew levi already had so much to worry about on his own, you never wanted to bother him with your issues. it was always the worst after a mission, it’s like your body doesn’t understand that the fighting is over, and your nervous system just keeps pumping adrenaline throughout your body.
you made a b-line straight for your quarters as soon as the horses were settled, not waiting for a debriefing. you hoped that the solitude of your bed chamber would calm you, but your chest only got tighter, as your hands kept at their persistent shaking.
you sank to the floor, while anxiety consumed your mind. with tears streaming down your face, you buried your face into your lap, forming into a ball of emotions on the floor.
your whole body was shaking when you heard footsteps approaching your door, you knew exactly who those footsteps belonged to. everything about levi was very distinct, including the sounds his boots made against the stone floor.
shit. shit. shit. he can’t see me like this. i can’t be just another burden to him.
he knocked with one knuckle as his voice came through the door, “it’s me, can i come in?” his voice carried a softer tone than usual.
you attempted to even out your voice, “no! i’m not decent!” you cringed when your voice came out thick with emotion.
levi didn’t heed your warning, stepping inside anyway. immediately sinking to his knees in front of you, levi pried your hands off your face, ignoring your resistance. the last thing you wanted was for levi to see you in the state that you were in.
your tear filled eyes finally met his worried gaze, levi felt some relief now that he could see your face, he so desperately wanted to make you feel better no matter what the cause for your distress was.
levi reached for your hand, and brought it to cradle his face while placing his hand on top, in an attempt to ground you back into reality.
you tried to pull your hand away, feeling deeply embarrassed by allowing yourself to be seen in such a vulnerable state. levi’s hand didn’t budge, holding yours in place still cradling his face.
“please just go, i really don’t want you to see me like this.” you said as you clamped your eyes shut, in attempt to withhold your tears.
levi shifted your whole body so that your back could rest on his chest, his arms held you tightly. “shhh.. i’m not going anywhere.” levi placed a kiss atop your head, “i’m here, i’m here” he said as he softly rocked your body in his arms.
finally feeling a sense of safety, you relaxed into his embrace.
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night air
levi x reader
summary: you’ve been seeing Levi for a long time but you’ve grown tired of not knowing how he feels
tags: angst but it’s rewarded
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the night air was crisp on your skin. thankfully you thought to drag the quilt off of Levi’s bed on your way out the window.
this was your favorite spot, the shingled roof right outside of Levi’s chamber window had the best view of the night sky.
he’s probably looking for you right about now but you couldn’t bring yourself to care.
god.
you were just to tired of playing this game with him, never knowing what he is thinking or how he feels. you knew he had his reasons to keep his guard up, but none of his reasons had anything to do with you.
your done. you have officially given up on Levi.
as soon as you concluded that thought a throat clears behind you,
“ahem.. so this is where you’ve been hiding out, i should have known”
you don’t bother turning to face him.
you know exactly who it is, you would recognize that voice anywhere.. that voice you have grown to love so much.
a puzzled look settles on Levi’s face as he climbs out the window to take a seat next to you.
“don’t.”
“don’t what?” he says as he takes a seat next to you.
you finally turn to face him, just seeing that familiar stoic gaze almost makes you falter over your words.
“just… i just don’t want to see you right now” wrapping your arms around your knees bringing them to your chest to feel a sense of security.
“you do know that you broke into my room and stole my quilt right”
“yes well i can’t get this view anywhere else” you say as you lay your chin on top of your knees refusing to meet his hard gaze
“your angry with me” he says flatly trying to decipher the look on your face
“so perceptive” you said already having grown tired of the conversation
“tch. alright” he says as he quickly stands dragging you up with him.
“hey! what the fuck!” you say as he drags you back in through his bedroom window
swiftly bringing you to the bed setting you on the edge and kneeling between your legs.
why does he look so worried? you think.
you’ve never seen his face contort into such a position.
“tell me.”
“what?”
“tell me why you are angry” he says as he places his palms on top of your knees.
you take a quick breath in, not expecting this reaction out of him.
his brows furrow waiting for your response.
“i’m tired Levi, fuck i’m so tired. i can’t keep doing this. i can’t keep going through my days not knowing what we are, or how you even feel about me” you say as the moonlight pours in through the window. you feel tears welling up behind your eyes. you quickly close your eyes trying to prevent them from falling.
a knowing look settles on Levi’s face as he quickly stands gathering your hands in his. you finally look up at him with tear filled vison.
Levi let’s out a strangled breath his next words are going to be difficult to get out.
“im sorry, fuck. i am such an idiot”
your tear filled gaze still on him as he looks down at his hands tangled with yours.
“i’m bad with words, but that’s no excuse. i’m sorry i should have told you a long time ago how i feel.”
he lets out another strangled breath as he runs his thumb over your knuckles.
“i uh.. we’ll i love you”
the words fell over you so quickly you had no time to understand their meaning.
you continue to stare at Levi as your tears finally fall.
“fuck. i love you. i love you.” he says as he releases your hands to cup your face.
you notice a single tear falling onto Levi’s cheek as he quickly gathers you up in his arms.
you finally understand. he loves you too.
both your your lips meet in a desperate attempt to make up for the lost time.
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feedback is appreciated 🤍
art credit: i searched but could not find the artist// pretend that’s you in the pic xx
Promise - Levi x Reader Fluff
This story contains season 4 spoilers!
Love Reveal . Goodbye . LevixReader (no mention of gender)
Summary: The last night before an exhibition always holds some magical tension. This time it got the best of you. Warnings: slight mention of war
It was pitch black. Only the weak lights of the candles surrounding you kept the lurking darkness at bay. It felt like the flames protected you from the ghosts and goblins, hiding in the corners. You knew it was childish, but couldn't help this ancient fear.
For hours you had been stuck in the armory, preparing everything for your captain’s next mission. He and his squad were about to head off with Paradis' biggest enemy, Zeke Yaeger, as soon as dawn arrived. You had to admit that you were beyond hurt when Levi demanded on you to stay here. The raven-haired claimed that Hange needed you for some special experiments and weapon development, but you felt like he simply didn't want you on the mission.
Why? Only Heichou himself would know.
As you prepared the last set of thunder spears you suddenly sensed a presence. The unsettling feeling of being watched tingled down your spine. Was your sleep-driven mind playing jokes on you? "Cadet," a composed voice suddenly called. You spun around, slightly shocked by the sudden noise, and saw no other than your superior bathing in the glimmer of the candles. He looked stern like always.
"Captain," you breathed, mirroring his short salutation. Levi walked steadily until he stood next to your silhouette.
"Are you done, Y/N? It's getting late."
The hint of a smile crept over your lips as he called you by your first name. It was a rarety for Levi to not call you by your soldier title. Even though you became quite close over the years, maybe even being labeled as friends, you always liked to keep things professional. So you continued the captain-cadet-dynamics around others. But when you two shared a seldom moment alone, you were free to act more softly.
"Just finished the thunder spears. I need to check on the ODM-Gear and then you are good to go," you answered confidently. Levi smirked and nodded. You never disappointed him. More mellow than usual he said, "You should get some rest. I will inspect the gear." While he talked he made his way over to your silhouette, closing the space between you. Your brows furrowed slightly at your captain's proposal. "Levi, your mission starts in a few hours. With Zeke on your ass, you need to rest well to gain strength." An untypical chuckle was heard from the stoic man. He admired you for your bluntness. Not many dared to speak like that in front of their superior. "I'm not much of a sleeper anyway," the raven responded. You remembered the time he opened up about his insomnia during a military party when he had one glass of red wine too much. “Me neither,” you lied. “So we can do it together and get this over with.” You didn’t wait for a reaction, sat on a wooden box, and grabbed the first set of metal. Levi grew irritated and blew air out of his nostrils. Couldn’t you lay off your stubbornness for once? But he knew better than to argue with you and just joined the activity. He wanted to spend this precious time with you in serenity and not in a senseless argument after all.
Seconds, minutes, and finally an hour passed. The two of you bathed in each other's presence like it was the most natural thing. You sat there, next to each other, talking about important and not so important topics. In between, you just enjoyed the soothing silence.
“Are you scared?” you suddenly ripped the comforting chatter with your gritty question. Levi eyed you furtively, hiding his slightly widened gaze. “Scared of what?” he asked casually as his fingers danced over the icy surface of a gas tank he held. “Zeke, Marley, the war itself.” Your voice turned into a mere whisper as if those words were forbidden. There was always an unspoken rule between you and Levi, to not talk about your next missions. You provided a safe space where Titans and humanity’s massacres wouldn’t exist.
But this time you couldn’t help yourself but voice your concerns.
As the pause grew longer you forced yourself to look at the captain. He was focusing on the dancing flames in front of him, clearly in his thoughts. “Yes, of course, I am scared,” Levi finally said. His tone didn’t match the message, since it was too calm. You smiled fondly when you grabbed the last set of ODM-Gear and placed it on your lap. “Good, only lunatics fear nothing,” you answered. “That’s what my father always used to tell me.” Heichou huffed in amusement. From the corner of your eye, you saw him turning towards you, slightly leaning over. When Levi spoke, you almost jerked, because suddenly his presence was so close.
“Are you scared, Cadet?” He sounded so raspy when he whispered. The way he said it almost made it seem like something sexual. Your mouth formed a surprised circle and you felt a good amount of blood rush to your head. You must have screwed on the same bolt for a solid minute now, due to your shock. “I just fear one thing.” Finally, you managed to get a grip on yourself, although your voice still sounded wretched. Levi hummed in return and signaled to you that he was interested in what was to follow.
“I am afraid that the person I love won’t come home one day.”
You could feel your captain’s body heat, mingling with yours, but you didn’t dare to shoot him a glance at that point. It was clear to you that this statement was bold or maybe just plain stupid. The energy changed drastically after what you’ve said and it was hard for you to read the situation. Out of nowhere, you felt Levi’s hand touching your thigh. It was a cautious caress. Nothing like you were used from past lovers.
“I will always come back to you.”
Your digits bore into the metallic surface of the gear like they were able to tear it apart. Your ears must have played tricks on you. There was no way that Levi Ackerman, the most feared soldier, just said something so vulnerable. A tiny bead of sweat grew on your temple, due to your nervousness. What were you supposed to do now? Of course, you daydreamed about something like this, but you always labeled it as such – Just a dream.
“You know, this is the part where I imagined us kissing. You kind of ruined it,” Levi said amused. Slowly you titled your head to acknowledge that his face was just a few inches away. Steel eyes bore into e/c ones. Your sanity melted under his gaze. Finally, you stammered some incoherent words that somehow formed into a sentence over time. “You…imagined this?” Levi rolled his eyes. You really were an oblivious little thing. He thought he made it clear that he was very fond of you, by spending time with you, showing off his favorite tea blends, and opening up about his past.
“If you make this any more awkward, I will ask Zeke if he can just kill me right away,” the captain scoffed. Finally, the rush of adrenaline hit your brain and you practically attacked Levi, as you slung your arms around his neck. You pulled the raven-haired in and let your lips fall onto his. Levi placed his hands on your hips in return, while he deepened the kiss. This wasn’t romantic, nor well planned, like you always imagined, but you wouldn’t want it any other way. This imperfect revelation matched your imperfect life after all. Your lips caressed one another and poured the gooey sensation of fresh love over your nerves. You could have stayed in this sweet bubble of pheromones for every, but you knew that time was against you.
As you peeled yourself from him, you reached for his cheek to gently cup it. “Is this a promise? That you’ll always come back to me?” you whispered. Levi also reached for your face, tracing his thumb over your soft skin.
“I promise.”