I Can't Be Afraid Of Dying

I can't be afraid of dying

I’m not afraid of death

If you died then it’s ok

If you died then I can too

If you died I wanna go with you

My chest magnet is not attracted to your grave anymore

It’s attracted to your soul

It’s going up like fire

To where you are

Wherever that place is

I don’t wanna live forever if it’s without you

So I’m always excited for my death

If you died and dying as well is the only way to go to where you are

Then I can’t wait for my turn

And if it’s just pure nothing, then there’s no grief

He left, but he was once here.

Writing poetry because crying in my mothers’ arms isn’t an option.

This post isn’t even about weight but…

Sometimes I wish I could lose weight and be skinny so people would take my suffering seriously ?

If have a feeling that if i fitted more into beauty standards, people would find me cuter.

And if they found me cuter, it would be easier for them to feel sorry for me. When someone is « ugly » i think people are less likely to feel sorry for them.

It’s like beauty privileges. People are nicer to you if you are prettier. It just is that way !

When I see posts about romanticizing sadness and depression, it always pictures skinny and cute girls.

Maybe it’s because in our minds someone who has more shapes is healthier, too ? So less depressed ?

I don’t know.

But those posts never are about depression making you put on weight.

Yeah random thoughts. I have to be the prettiest at the supermarket so that people will be nicer to me. Can’t face the world otherwise xoxo.

What is love?

Love is when the one who loves you stares at you for a few seconds before saying "I love you".

Love is when you wake up excited to be alive at the same time as the person you love.

Love is recognizing the face of your loved one as the fingerprint of love and eternity.

Love is caring about the interests of your loved one.

Love is not worrying about what you want to say to your loved one, because you know they’ll never judge you.

Love is when at every moment you want to learn more from your loved one.

Love is not measured.

Love is understanding and trying to understand.

Love is unconditional.

Love is fearless.

Love is powerful.

Love is timeless.

Love is unconsciously demonstrated if it is present.

Love is above all things.

Love is giving without expecting anything in return.

Love is crying just for the sake of it

Love is laughing too much.

Love is wanting to be in the good and the bad.

Love is wanting to try what scares you with the person you love.

Love is having been thinking about someone while you were reading this poem.

Just created my instagram account and blocking people from school will always make me cry.

Cry and shake agh

I love you tumblr, I love you much more