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Thanks @99liners for tagging me

Ancient or modern // bitter or sweet // chocolate or vanilla // coffee or tea // create or destroy // day or night // early bird or night owl // freckles or dimples (I have neither but I them)// gold or silver // Greek mythology or Egyptian mythology // macrons or eclairs // hot or cold (I'm naturally warm blooded) // thunder or lightning // typewritten or handwritten // secret garden or secret library (tough one since I love both) // spicy or mild // dark magic or light magic // virtue or vice // ocean or desert (have a love hate relationship)// mermaids or sirens (blmae the show😂) // known or unknown // rough or smooth // moon or stars // rain or snow

So I guess I have to tag people as well so I guess @atinynctzn @lunnanunna @marshmallow-phd @httpjeon @harry-writings @justmochi and anyone else who sees this I guess 😂😂😂

Do you think I have a type 😂😂😂😂

So like I guess chenle is a few months older. But Haechan and I have the same birthday he was just born a year before me.

Reblog this and write which NCT member’s age is the closest to yours in the tags

The silence of the night, should put me to sleep. Instead it keeps me wide awake, letting me see the demons I kept asleep during the day.

During the day I enjoy how open my bed is. How it's only for me an not another soul. But during the dark abyss of the night, I start to feel the presence of the creature of the night creeping from I hide out to keep me company.

compare.

REBLOG ANYWHERE YOU CAN!!! WTF

WAYFAIR IS SEX/CHILD TRAFFICKING!!

WE CANNOT BE SILENT ABOUT THIS!

IMAGINE HOW MANY OTHER COMPANIES ARE DOING THIS!!

ALSO, WHY WOULD WAYFAIR TAKE DOWN THE CABINETS FROM THEIR WEBSITE INSTEAD OF SHOWING EVIDENCE THAT IT IS NOT TRUE?!

THAT'S SUSPICIOUS AS HELL

BLACK LIVES MATTER

(Avengers End Game Edition)

Am I abnormal??? part 2 of me questioning life.

So the point of the tittle is am I crazy,wrong, or abnormal to think the way I think. Because it's like I know I want to transition from a feminine body to a more masculine body. Because I know that would help me alot I'm my mind and all that but, I feel as tho I shouldn't seeing as I don't really want to have my pronouns to be masculine. It's like my brain is so fucking confused when it comes to what pronouns I want people to call me by because I don't care what people call me. But in my mind I feel like I should care what people call me and the fact that I don't care is bad. Like I'm gonna be judged for not sticking to the he/him pronouns if I want to transition.

There is also the fact that the feelings I have repressed now will truly come out and that scares me. Because I'm so in the middle with a few things right now its just I know things I'm repressing now will truly come out because I feel like I will feel more true to myself. I know transitioning is not going to"fix me" but I feel as tho it will help open up the door I have been trying to keep locked. A few examples are

I will probably actually start truly dating again because I wouldn't feel like I'm scamming someone or lying to them.

I will actually start enjoying doing more"feminine" things (I try not to do a lot lot things I actually find interesting because I feel as tho that would just play into me being biology female)

I might actually start enjoying life and want to make friends again.

I stopped trying to make friends and talk to people when I got out of a really toxic relationship with my ex boyfriend. It was bad for ALOT of reasons and I mean ALOT. But at the time I was seeing him I just was starting to come to terms with who I was and he would use this and my age to his advantage like he would threaten to tell people about it. He woul tell me he would tell my father seeing as I was living with him at the time. He would say shit like he's the only one who would accept me the way I was and things like that. That no one would want a abnormal freak of nature like me and things like that.

Anyways what I wanted to know and ask is am I crazy,wrongs, or abnormal for thinking like this?

Am I abnormal???

Ok so I've known I have always wanted to have a males body like. How do I explain this so it make sense. So whenever I look in the mirror I hate seeing my feminine features, like for one I have D cup boobs so it's alot harder for me to not notice them half the time. And my face structure is a bit more feminine at least to me. My voice is feminine and over all I just hate seeing my female body.

But when it comes to pronouns and things like that. I really don't give two fucks what you call me. You can call me he,him,she,her, it, they,them, that being I don't care. It's also like that's with my name but like a bit different because my name birth name is Iliana, so to make it easier on my younger relatives and siblings I told them to call me Ilias because everyone tends to call me Ili. And to help out my best friend as well seeing as big changes stress her out. But truthfully I have always loved the name Elijah but that's just a me thing. Anyways don't need to get into me choosing a name. Because what someone calls me isn't that big of a deal to me what pronouns you use also isn't that big of a deal. Because in my mind I'm human so that's the only part that matters to me. Yeah I would prefer if people didn't use my birth name as much, but at the end of the day at least to me it's just a name it doesn't truly matter at least in my books.

I'll get more into this topic in a new part because I feel as if I wrote to much already.

Please repost with tags of kpop groups so that it can reach more people

They’re also using the reversed version of the symbol and this one ⍕

I guess he's pretty cute 😂😂

You didn't have to do that to me😂😂

Favorite Quotes from School 2013 (K-Drama, 2013)

A good drama will only be complete if it has beautiful quotes. So does School 2013.

Episode 1

Everything in life is an experiment. The more you experiment with it, the better it gets. What kids hide and parents don’t know, this is a school. – Narrator

The school system is not that poor. – Go Nam Soon

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Fucking mood

Robert Pattinson's commentary in Twilight is hilarious

Does anyone have any ideas

does anyone know how I can make a $40 by tomorrow? I know it seems strange but my mom just told me we are low on rent, she didn't want to stress me out seeing as I've been going through some problems right now. But I ended up finding out, anywaydoes anyone have any ideas.

So like does anyone know how I can make a quick $40 my ma and I are short on rent i need it by Friday and I'm stressing myself out. Anyone have any ideas.

I think I help people a bit to much at times.

So I learned a down fall I have. I help people out alot. I don't have alot to give, but when I do I try and help as much as I can. The thing is I noticed when I need help no one is really there for me,and it sucks because I will always be there for them.

I think I help people a bit to much at times.

So I learned a down fall I have. I help people out alot. I don't have alot to give, but when I do I try and help as much as I can. The thing is I noticed when I need help no one is really there for me,and it sucks because I will always be there for them.

A random thing I wrote who know how long ago

Appreciate what you have and not what you don't have. Appreciate that you can see because while you see bad, you also see good, you can see a child laughing when they are enjoying life, you can see the trees blow when a brezze goes by, you can see a dog look up with admiration in there eyes. Appreciate your scent even though it smells shit, you can smell the freshly bloomed flowers on a warm spring day, you can smell cookies freshly baked on a sunny summers day, you can smell the hot chocolate on a cold winter night. Appreciate your hearing even though it hears bad, you can hear the laughter of everyone around, you can hear the birds as they fly up high, you can hear the water as it goes down stream. Appreciate your life even though you go threw hard ships, you smiled once even if it was brief, you laughed once even if it was small, you felt trusted by someone even if it was your pet, you got to experience a peace even if it was brief, you experienced love even if it wasn't by who you wanted. Over time you have to appreciate what you have you have a friend who loves you dearly, you have a pet who sees you as there protecter, you have a relative who feels safe in your arms, you have a movie you can get lost in when watching, you have a story that you can read on repeat, you have a song that pumps you up. You have two legs that help you walk, you have two arms that help you grab, you have two lungs to help you breath at there best ability, you have a heart that beats for only one person and that one person is you. You only have one body, you only have one soul. You have to stop letting other try and take control. Because at the end of the day you the one in control. Your the one who can choose to let someone in or push someone out. Your the one who can choose if you want to listen to what they say or shut them out and ignore there nonsense. Your the one who choses if you want to let them push you over or if you want to stand up and go again. People only have so much control on you and for a short bit of time because at the end of the day your the one with it all.

Story on how j got my puppy

So have you ever seen a puppy and was like oh I want one? Well about 8 months ago my little sister showed me a picture of a litter of puppies.

(those are the puppies)

And me being me I was like oh I want one, because who wouldn't there puppies. Fast forward a few days, and while I was at my dad's we were all eating out for breakfast when my sister tells her mom. Her mom ask me if I was serious about wanting one so I started to think. I mean I was already looking for a potential service dog so I said yeah just had to check if it was okay with my mom. She said yes (obviously I mean that's why I'm writing this lol) had to wait those long 8 weeks, it was torture the lady who had the puppies wasn't answering us for like a week. This whole time I didn't know the gender of my puppy so I was calling it an it, making me think of the movie it so I came with the conclusion that if it's a girl the name would be Penny if it is a boy it would be kada . Then the day came April 22 2019 I went and got my tiny little puppy.

I finally had my little Penny. She was so small she was smaller then my little sisters teacup Chihuahua and she is small. I could never ask for a better dog she is the craziest,smartest, most dramatic dog I've ever had. I've only had her for 6 months but she fits so we'll into my life that it feels like I've had her forever.

She is a pain at times but I would never choose another dog. This post is random but I just wanted to appreciate my little Penny.

This thing has had my heart since the day I got her. My little Penny.

Help me lol

Can someone send me like 30 dollars threw PayPal lol. Jkjk (but if you can let me know 😂😂😂) nah but I need to get money for my birth certificate a I can get a state ID. So I can get a job.😭😭😭

I need money

Lol I think the title says it all. I really need to find a way to make money. Im currently watching my niece so I can't get a job. I also need to help my mom with our living situation. I'm so stressed 😭😭😭

So lonely lol

I'm the only single person in my whole friend group so when we go out there with their boyfriends and shit and I'm like fuck me then where's my lover I'm lonely someone love me. Lol

I'm a proud hufflepuff and potterhead

One thing I really like about being a millenial is that everyone just kinda like, Knows their Hogwarts house. Casually. Even people who were never that into Harry Potter. 

Reblogging just incase

! IMPORTANT !

…no joke

i think the fic is somehow taking people’s accounts.

no fucking joke.

someone i was just talking to dmed me the link. they were nice. their account had posts.

now its empty, it has no posts, their header is blank.

DO NOT FUCKING CLICK ON THE FIC LINK. ITS SOMETHING THAT GRABS YOUR PASSWORD. I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS.

I REPEAT. DONT FUCKING. CLICK. ON THE FIC.

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