I Hate How I Can Be Screaming For Someone To Leave, Backing Away From Them And Screeching Sounds Of Torture

I hate how I can be screaming for someone to leave, backing away from them and screeching sounds of torture as they get closer, feeling like they’re burning me alive, and yet feel myself falling to bits as they go, dragging a part of me with them and leaving me feeling so empty and so so cold and numb

if someone told me their pronouns were attack/helicopter I would just use them

having bpd and being self aware is actually crazy like it feels like i'm watching a train wreck unfold and i can't do anything to stop it

nobody :

Not a soul :

Nico di Angelo in The Sun and The Stars:

death.darkness.despair.pain.

WILL SOLACE WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU SO PRETTY.

death.darkness.despair.pain.

WILL SOLACE FUCK YOU AND YOUR STUPIDLY BEAUTIFUL GOLDEN HAIR.

Suicidal ideation and anxiety are back. It’s just so fucking frustrating because I thought we were past this. We haven’t had any thoughts like these for months. We should have never thought we wouldn’t fall right back to the beginning. We always do. Feeling better is only ever temporary.