Today I Had To Answer Some Questions At School

Today i had to answer some questions at school

It was like…

What makes you sad?

Existing

What do you do when you are sad?

Continue existing

Wtffffff math doesn’t make sense anymore

I asked the teacher something and he was like: well… there must be an explanation

Like there must be, somewhere, he doesn’t fucking know, he’s a damn university professor

And no matter how much I think about it, it doesn’t make any sense, the more i think, the less sense it makes

The thing i liked about math is that things always had an answer, always that one and only explanation, now it’s just shit

And the more i think about it, the more ways i find to apply this bs to more things

Aaaaaa send help

Omg i just realized that today was saint valentines day lmao

Im so stupid, I totally forgot that shit existed even though i got chocolates… like how the fuck didn’t I realize that sooner?

Ah… to feel a love so strong that it brings you to tears

The quiet whispers and warmth of each other

To cry out of something other than distress

So strong, yet so gentle and graceful

A love that surpasses every other feeling

Blooming in the middle of a field of loneliness,

To find the meaning of happiness in an embrace

Still, being far from happy

Once you get drunk on that gaze

There’s only tears, my love…

For no other could move my heart like this

I had a weird dream one of these days

So basically my parents, some stranger and i were in a car accident? And then it was like this place between life and death, it was an ocean where each person had like a little paper or something and you had to swim to the shore and bring it, and if it wasn’t damaged, you got a chance to come back to life. Some people had a thinner piece of paper, and some had like cardboard or even some sort of cloth? Idk, and some people had to swim further. Oh, and before you did that, there was like this long af intro where there was text like on the sky explaining things, but i was high as hell on adrenaline and didn’t give a shit about what it said. Anyway, after getting to the shore, there was like a loading screen or something and it had like information on your current state, like if your heart was beating or not idk, and mine and my mom’s were but my dad’s was like loading still and i was so anxious or something bc like apparently his guts were ripped out of his body and shit, and also my skull was like broken and my brain was like half exposed idk about my mom tho i don’t remember.

So anyway why do i dream such things? That was so weird and gory like ahh whyy

At least in the dream i had a will to live? Idek

Today I tried playing the violin… it was weird

I sounded like shit

The position of the violin was kinda annoying

I had a strong urge to just play it like a guitar

Yeah, I think I’ll just play the guitar instead xd