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Walt McDougall in the Boston Post, Massachusetts, August 24, 1902

Gabriela Mistral, tr. by Ursula K. Le Guin, Selected Poems

— Juansen Dizon

Rhododendron in the Rain II

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november haze

by Denny Bitte

I woke up..

I woke up feeling empty today. I was doing just fine, the last few weeks have been JUST FINE! I don't know if ill be okay. I tell myself, this feeling will pass- please please please don't cry! It feels so overwhelming. Like I'm drowning. But its ok, because.. I woke up today. 

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Souls

When two souls fall in love, there is nothing else but the

yearning to be close to the other. The presence that is felt

through a hand held, a voice heard, or a smile seen.

Souls do not have calendars or clocks, nor do they understand

the notion of time or distance. They only know it feels right to

be with one another.

This is the reason why you miss someone so much when they

are not there— even if they are only in the very next room.

Your soul only feels their absence— it doesn’t realize the

separation is temporary.

Lang Leav

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You are where my heart belongs I don’t know what I would do if I were gone Your streets hold so many of my deepest secrets So many times I’ve road them with so many regrets You were there to hear all my cries When I thought I had nobody and wanted to die You calmed me with every curve in your road When I carried all that trauma, it felt like many loads I’ve broke down on my knees, held your dirt in my hands Crumbled to the ground, while wishing you were a real man Spent so many manic nights, rambling illusive things to you I honestly think im crazy, but I guess you already knew So many people wondering your dark streets All desperate and probably as broken like me You wrap us up, letting us know we will be alright You cradle all our problems, as you hold us tight
Luv, Leaxx

“Why did you speak as a deer / when you were really a ghost?”

— Tina Chang, from “Every Grimm,” Hybrida

Glitch

I can tell you the nastiest things

I will Rip you apart at the seams

Then I’ll beg you hold me tight at night

I am telling you, my minds not right

You always give so much more than I do

I know there are times I’ve left you feeling blue

But I promise a change

Though it may not be today

 Tell me that I haven’t hurt you to badly

That you still want to love me, so madly

My lungs will not last a day without you

I know that’s dramatic but, dammit its true

The love I give out; I know it’s not always nice

Can you please stay with me a few more nights

But I promise it’s just a glitch

I’m sorry, my mind is sick

-Lea 

Nikita Gill, from “Great Goddesses: Life Lessons from Myths & Monsters,”

Cocaine

He’s came inside her, leaving a little of him behind

I think the most he’s changed though, is her beautiful mind

 He only comes around, to fill his ego

But when they are together, she must remain incognito

 She is filled with love as he is filled with lust  

He will only see her when she is completely drunk                          

 She promises herself “I won’t call him again”

But she is addicted him, he is her cocaine.

-Lea

My mind is broken, I’m seeing things

I think I’m confused on how to be me

People say I should learn to be one thing

But that has never been easy!

 I speak to the voices inside my head

While I lay alone in my bed

My entire body has been filled with dread

I beg for it all to leave me instead

 Morning comes, I feel “like, totally fine”

Remembering last night, has so many blurred lines.

Convincing myself it’s all in my mind.

Today's a new day, let’s leave it all behind

-Lea 

Polar

She yells and she cries

She tells me I am not right

Then begs me to hold her at night.

She’s all in my head

Won’t leave me alone in my bed

I want to crumble instead.

I’ve felt love, I’ve felt warmth

But never from her

I think she’s misinformed.

I think im addicted, while she’s obsessed

Some days, I truly feel blessed

“it’s so Closter phobic” I express!

She says “breath breath

You’re doing just fine,

Come here, let me help you clear your mind”

-Lea 

i need a badass alien squad

Hold me tight

She holds me tight Do I put up a fight? None of this is right…   She’s forced me open I start praying and hoping Now I guess I’m coping…   She says it’s OK! That I shouldn’t be afraid. She’s saying all this in vain…   I let out a cry and tell her “NO She needs to let me go! Please stop taking off my clothes…”   There’s a knock at the door ‘OH MY GOD, thank you lord!’ She thought I’d lay there like a corpse…   I jump up grab my clothes I’m so fucking frazzled it shows! She says, not one word to me as I walk out her home…   The next day it’s a blur Was this rape? How can I be sure? Will this tension be cured?

It is now ten years later I still fully hate her She is now my perpetrator…   She sends her hellos Whenever she calls home She thinks nobody knows…   I am slowly moving on I’ve been told “she’s done nothing wrong.”... That “You need to stop thinking about it, good god!”…   I guess.. one day I will stop thinking about it

-Lea