As An Ace Person, I Do Wear A Black Ring On My Right Middle Finger Because It Makes Me Feel Like I Can

As an Ace person, I do wear a black ring on my right middle finger because it makes me feel like I can show off my identity and orientation without excessively shouting it to everyone, while still showing it off. Mainly because I work in a very conservative workplace and it’s easy to pass it off as just a ring.

However

It cracks me up having customers ask how long I’ve been married for and how my partner is. And I get it! I get a lot of people have been resorting to a simple silicon ring, which is what I have, but it’s on the wrong hand.

Again, I know not everyone and their mothers are going to understand what a black ring is going to mean, but these are older people. It’s not just young people as well, but older people. Older people that have been married for years and know that I wear it on the wrong it. But again, they could be making a number of assumptions why I don’t wear it on “the right hand” but it just makes me laugh sometimes.

I originally wanted to do this design with puffy paint, but with how the cover of the sketchbook is it tore right off when it was dry. So I used some papier-mâché to cover up the puffy paint and painted over it:)

I like how this one came out much better lol.

Well, how is he?

Reblogging because I just really like how Ridge turned out:)

My reaper man Ridge!

This was just a quick sketch I did last night. Maybe one day I’ll make it into a bigger piece but I just really liked how he turned out.:)

Today I feel the need to post this somewhere that isn’t my deviantart.

I don’t like to post about my personal life and I am just one of many out there, but today, I want to just lay it down.

I don’t like to talk about my personal life because I have a fear of the repercussions it may lead to and what I might cause to myself and the others around me.

Earlier this year I started going to a therapist and he helped a lot, bless him, but I haven’t gone back since due to some other major life changing events I do not wish to dwell on. My therapist helped me realize that a lot of my anger and anxiety, which the latter of the two being through the roof, was caused by my upbringing. In other words, my inability to contain my emotions and how to deal with a sticky situation was not taught well to me as a child.

Then, on top of that and unfortunately many years of my life later, I came to fully realize that someone very close to me was, in short, a gaslighting narcissist. This person put so much strain on me growing up that I didn’t realize it. When I would sense something wasn’t really right, or my words would get twisted by this person but I was unable to do anything about it, I thought it was normal to feel as I felt.

I grew up walking on eggshells, and still do, and fearing of upsetting them. I can’t even begin to list all the things they do and have done to me nor do I think I feel comfortable doing so. Since going to therapy and realizing all my anger, anxiety, depression, zoning out, on top of many other issues, we’re caused by a lot in my past I feel like I really want to try and push forward.

I say this but I know darn well I probably won’t. However, I do, at this moment, have a sense of at least wanting to move forward. I would like to work on my projects again and really focus on the things that give me a little spark of serotonin. For the past five years I have spent procrastinating and depressed and in slow motion due to my home circumstances. I hate putting the blame all on this person- even if it was mostly them.

I do want to look forward to organizing and encouraging myself to work, but I feel like everything almost does not ever go according to my plans. So I say again, I want to look forward to start a new chapter, but we’ll see how that goes.

Can’t have too much of a good thing, you know?

Fun Fact: I love fruit popping boba.