I Felt So Happy And In That Instant Moment My Fingers Itched To Send You A Text About My Achievement

I felt so happy and in that instant moment my fingers itched to send you a text about my achievement to include you in my joy. But I didn't. You hadn't knocked me for a week after that last goodnight I sent you and how could I just text you out of the blue now like I always used to do? I used to do it; I did it a lot. But you see, you never knocked me first or initiated a conversation. It was always me texting you first and sounding needy even when I was telling you about my perfect day. I missed your presence in sadness and in bliss and you, you barely acknowledged mine. So I didn't knock you. And a wall started growing between us until there was just nothing more to say. But I miss you; I still do.

In Between

They chained my limbs to the wall and then asked me why I didn't leave. Oh how I smiled at myself, all amused by the irony.

this hit me somewhere and I can't locate the exact space because it hurts oh so deeply. this people are forever in our memories. I can't imagine a generation growing up without knowing them.

Today Harry James Potter is sitting at his desk, avoiding the date on the calendar as much as he can, each quill he holds breaks because he’s gripping it too tightly. 

Today Ginny Potter runs into work out of breathe because Harry forgot to wake her up and she is so late. She takes a second to situate herself and catch her breathe when the daily prophet lands with a thud on her desk and the date on the page nearly burns into her skin. 

Today Ron Weasley refuses to come into work. He spends the day kissing Rose and Hugo as often as they let him. He visits his Mum and his brother, because even if they say otherwise, he knows they need him.

Today Hermione Weasley-Granger keeps stoic as tiny disputes over land enter the court, it’s only during her lunch break does she go into a stall and sob for those who didn’t get to live to see what constitutes a “real issue” these days. 

Today Neville Longbottom visits his parents with Hannah by his side; he retells the story of what happened 18 years ago to them like he does every year. Alice squeezes his hand through every moment of it. 

Today Draco Malfoy watches Scorpius play outside with one of his dozens of brooms. He watches his child’s face light up as he smiles, racing to catch the snitch that is always just a bit out of reach. The scars on his chest twinge as he swears that he will never allow his son to make the same mistakes he did.

Today Luna Scamander is in the jungles of Brazil accompanied by her husband and two young sons. She watches as pixies jump from branch to branch, and her eyes sparkle with amusement as one of them lands on Lysander who giggles at her touch and tries to grab at the creature with his chubby fists. 

Today Dennis Creevey closes his shop for the day. He apparates to his home and looks at the picture of his brother laughing. Why he grew old and Colin didn’t he will never truly understand. 

Shape

I was trying you give you a definite shape. You are like a thought -all abstract- and yet so volatile causing a profound impact on my wretched being.