You Don't Owe Anyone A Simple Identity. Your Identity Can Look Like 'enchantment Table Language', A '2017

You don't owe anyone a simple identity. Your identity can look like 'enchantment table language', a '2017 roleplay game', or any other dumbass insult people will throw at you. It doesn't matter; at the end of the day, you're just being yourself in the most authentic way, and they're the ones going after a queer person because they don't understand.

how on earth are we still having aspec and mspec and neopronoun discourse it's almost 2024 do you guys understand that we need to embrace all sides of the queer community or the infighting will get us all killed. do you get that. lawmakers want all of us dead whether we're queers with palatable easy to understand identities or cishet alloaro men or he/him lesbians or genderfluid fagdykes with emojiself pronouns. in a world that's trying to erase us all we have is each other Do You Understand That. please be kind to people with identities you might not understand or agree with because they deserve to live freely as much as you do.

pick-me queers fill me with rage. the 'good ones' are actually a poison, they're harming everyone including themselves but either don't care enough to see that or are actually so stupid that they think the queerphobes see them differently than the neurodivergent queer teenager they called cringe. like all trans people are seen as 'attack helicopter' people, not just nonbinary and xenogender ones. You ain't any better than us pal.

There’s nothing in the world that makes me as angry as when a person says “I’m lgbtq and I agree with you” when someone says neopronouns are disgusting or ruining the kids.

Like. Shut the fuck up?? Actually stop talking. I don’t want to hear you’re voice.

'Not being able to vote because of a disability doesn't make you a bad person, but just accepting it and not making every attempt you can to go vote does' or you can, you know, acknowledge that, sometimes, people know their worth and the best accommodation is not kicking yourself over being unable to complete a task. You seem very unaware of how PDA works. Sorry, but I have to save my energy and demand tolerance for everyday life, I cannot force myself to try hard enough to meet standards not made for me, and that doesn't make me a 'bad person' because you think it does. By the way, I've had things like 'oppositional defiant disorder' pinned on me because of my neurodivergence, so I'm used to being painted as a bad person for my best not being sufficient enough for you people. I have to be the voice I didn't have as a kid, and if I'm so horrible for accommodating myself then oh well. But if you have links to resources for help, then please do provide them here in case someone else has it in them to take advantage of those resources.

people with PDA, you are not a horrible person for not voting this year. Voting is important, but it doesn't make you terrible for literally being unable to vote. I'm old enough to register, have been for a year, but haven't been able to bring myself to do it. Why? It's a demand. I don't realize how much my PDA affects me until it does, in which case I find myself wanting to scream and cry at the thought of doing something, especially something so important. This makes me feel like a hypocrite, a failure, a traitor to the multiple communities I'm a part of whose lives are at stake this year. But I'm not any of these fucking things, and neither are you.

I try to urge people who are in the space to vote to do so when I can, because that's something I can do. All that matters for me is that I do what I can, when I'm able. People seem to forget about those of us with PDA when telling those who are old enough to vote, and I'm frankly tired of feeling like I'm personally responsible for the downfall of America because of how my brain works. I'm not, and you're not either.

What resources would help you vote? Telling people with PDA they should allow their condition to take away their voice and right to be heard is fucked. People out there want to help people remove obstacles to voting and can help people with PDA excercise their civic rights instead of being silenced by people like you.

'I don't like the fact that you're acknowledging that some people struggle to vote and shouldn't be forced to' is how this ask reads. 'People like you' yeah? I'm sure a PDA autistic telling other PDA autistics that not voting doesn't determine their morality or character is so horrible to you, but that's not silencing. You sound like the kind of person who thinks ambulatory wheelchair users are 'letting their condition get in the way of walking', because how dare disabled people accomodate themselves in a way that's best for them. Clown.

I know how I feel about voting and made that post in case someone else felt the same way. How dare you come in here and be like 'YOU'RE SILENCING DISABLED PEOPLE' to a DISABLED PERSON who just wants to help other disabled people? Have you ever been called 'defiant' because you just don't want to do something and because it's your mom telling you to do it, you get labeled with 'oppositional defiant disorder' and written off as a bad kid because your brain gets hung up on demands? Have you ever had that happen to you? Even saying 'go use the resources' is a demand that, guess what, my brain decides to get hung up on. I saw your other ask about how there are people willing to help, but guess what? Getting in touch with those people is a demand. It's so irritating that you think you can just waltz on in and tell me what to do and how I'm just silencing disabled voices. How dare you.

Warning: some parts of this may come off as insensitive, dark, and/or concerning on my end. I do not give a fuck about that; I've read through this multiple times, made sure to tweak things, but I'm not going to walk on eggshells anymore for the comfort of someone else right now I am so fucking tired. So if you're offended by something cold or brass that I said, leave me alone about it. Go do your self care routine and take care of yourself, but don't make it my problem. I'm autistic. I likely have ASPD and almost certainly NPD. I am going to say things sometimes that are way more mask off than what you'd expect, because neurotypicals love playing games and hiding what they fucking mean or are too scared to say what they mean in fear of harming someone's feelings. I've developed this, to an extent, because it is necessary to survive. But no, this is my blog, my feelings and thoughts, and I deserve a space to be honest for fuck's sake! Don't like that I'm not playing games? I'd suggest clicking off or scrolling by now. That said:

neurotypicals are so annoying about empathy and compassion. No Sarah, my ability to not be scarred and shaking from a gore video or a distressing audio does not make me an edgelord or a sociopath. I think it's dramatic and theatrical to put so much effort into caring about strangers, it's a weakness. But you know what I don't do? I don't go 'lol you're just soft haha' to their faces (which I've seen other people do) because that's fucking cringe. I know people react to certain things differently even if it seems fake and overemotional to me. But these people go out of their way to whine about an insensitive joke on the INTERNET or someone not being phased by something. Also, you don't know if the people making jokes are really unphased or just coping with humor, you can't just fucking psychoanalyze and armchair diagnose a random person on the internet!

(school shooting, human and animal death mention under the cut):

You don't need to piss your pants every time someone dies in order to register that the death shouldn't have happened. It's like with the latest school shooting, I don't react all that much to school shootings because wow, another one? how many useless deaths happened this time (note: useless as in it could have been easily prevented)? You know how I feel about lack of gun control? I think it's dumb! I think children shouldn't have to go to school with the fear of not coming home due to some fucker with a gun! If that makes me a sociopath to *checks notes* react logically and not emotionally to tragedies, then so be it.

The truth is that I'm just autistic. It's true that I have antisocial traits, but I'm not a 'sociopath' in the sense that people mean it. People think I'm manipulating them when it couldn't be farther from the fuckin truth, and I grew out of hurting living things so I'm not going to kick your dog to death or dismember someone's grandma. By the way, can we stop equating that word with cold blooded killer? I've been told I behave like a serial killer by a counselor for things such as separation anxiety, even compared to JEFFREY DAHMER as a teenager by a stranger online for viewing gore as a beautiful thing (I'm now painfully aware how bizarre that view is to 'normal' people, but it doesn't make me a serial killer to be fascinated by gore in such a way). Joke's on both of those people, I haven't killed anyone yet like they clearly thought I would.

I'm used to 'sociopath' being used as a word to dehumanize and demonize me and people like me. But hell is it annoying for pop psychology girlies to think everyone is sociopathic for not extending their emotions to yet another death. Death happens every day, how are you not used to it? You'd think everyone would be used to it by now, and this does not mean to lack the drive to want to change the world. But of course, the 'empath' phenomenon has done massive damage to the collective human psyche. You know the type of person I'm talking about: the 'narc/antisocial/borderline/histrionic abuse' pedaling, 'hyper empathetic' girlie who makes it their whole personality to be so kind! So caring! So empathetic and compassionate!

I hate these people. They're so all of the above until someone has a cluster B disorder or general lack of empathy. Then suddenly they aren't very caring and kind, nor compassionate with an abundance of empathy! But yes, the autist who doesn't distinguish between a human being and a Gmod NPC unless given reason is the problem, not somebody shitting on an entire group of people with personality disorders (sarcasm).

It's just irritating, and I felt like talking about it.