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It gives me big ick when someone wishes they could feel nothing.
Be glad you can feel your emotions.
no nuance version of a fandom take i hav bc i honestly don't hav the energy 2 explain this in depth rn but if u think Jax is an inherently bad person just bc he's being an asshole in a video game but that gangle who has real person anime figurines of her friends who don't know that she has those is an inherently good person bc she's a shy uwu bean then u actually need 2 shut up, Jax is a guy who very clearly displays multiple ASPD symptoms and is dealing with his chronic boredom by being violent 2 npcs in a video game and also just kinda passively a bit of an asshole verbally Gangle social anxiety-ed her way into being an actual stalker they are not the same
anyway as some1 who has ASPD it rly fucks me up how the fandom has reacted 2 Jax, like when it was the pilot y'all were more than happy 2 fetishise his ASPD symptoms but then as soon as his symptoms r showing slightly more when again, i cannot stress this enough, HE IS LITERALLY IN A VR GAME IN EPISODE 2! then y'all r like "omg he's terrible, what an inherently horrible person, he literally is the worst person here" actually shut up, i hate this fandom so much
STOP TELLING ME TO DO MY RESEARCH, SHERLOCK
SOCIOPATH AND PSYCHOPATH ARE NOT RECOGNIZED TERMINOLOGY TO DESCRIBE ASPD
NEITHER IS THE IDEA OF HIGH FUNCTIONING ASPD FACTUALLY CORRECT
YOU DO YOUR FUCKING RESEARCH, MR. DOESN'T GET KNOW HOW THE SUN WORKS
This doesn't apply to you though, Sherlock, you never made such claims
@lehhoh7822 sent me this video and now i have to post about it because i love talking about about hypersexuality and shame but im too lazy (aka feel too incompetent) to type my thoughts out so i share it with yall
As a system with high empathy… don’t do this. Don’t do this. Try to be civil with people please
People are different
People have different brain chemistry
People have too much they’re villianized for
People are more complex than stereotypes
People, nobody even, is inheritly evil because of their disorder
Maybe take a second and consider your worldview if you think this is all any person with these disorders are
Edit: Saw someone comment on it so sorry for y’all with HPD in the back back you deserve to be listened to as well as anyone else <3
how the world feels about cluster b
bpd: need me a bpd girl ahah mood swings hahaha crazy girls with daddy issues
npd: a narcissist is anyone who is mean to me ever and i sense them with my Empath Eyes
aspd: exclusively serial killers and psychopaths, they are so evil and terrible
hpd: what the fuck is that
I do a lot of research into personality and lately I’ve been wondering what the most diagnosed and under diagnosed personality disorder is. Some say the most diagnosed is either BPD or OCPD (OCPD is the most diagnosed in the USA apparently).
I’d like to know others opinion on this.
Me: *likely has ASPD* I think I will post on the ASPD subreddit!
ASPD mods: *are mean to me and delete my post*
Me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ix8izAJUnHE
Okay, so I KNOWWWW I need to finish the Homelander fic!! I know.... I've just been through a hell of a writer's block. I am re-working some of the plot, since the newest chapter doesn't feel quite right (and I do tend to write filler once I'm stuck and I'm trying not to do that).. please bear with me. I will be editing today!! In the meantime... here is something completely unrelated and a lil dark that I wrote!
"Untitled - Mommy Issues"
Mother (noun): a woman in relation to her child or children. (verb): bring up (a child) with care and affection.
Malicious intent (noun): the intent, without just cause or reason, to commit a wrongful act that will result in harm to another. It is the intent to harm or do some evil purpose.
Sometimes, I have these unsettling fantasies about my mother.
In my darker ones, she's old and in the hospital, and I've driven up to see her in the middle of the night. I give her one last chance to admit what she's done - which she never takes. We argue - I accuse, she lies - and I feel myself growing darker and darker inside, until it happens: I reach my breaking point, and I go completely silent. She notices the change, looks afraid, reaches for her nurse alert button - but I’d already snipped the wires ten minutes ago. Nobody is coming. Nobody is coming.
I am smooth when I descend upon her, like oil spreading across the ocean.
It’s too late in the night for a nurse to come calling - and this hospital is shoddy and negligent, just like her; I’d made sure of that before I checked her in. There was nobody to save me then, all those years ago, and now there will be no-one to save her.
And so, with nothing but the yellow hospital light to bear witness, I take the pillow from behind her head, and hold it over her face, feeling the sharp tip of her nose against my palm.
I brace myself against her desperate jerks and press firm. I do not stop until I see she's lost the fight.
When I remove the pillow, her eyes are glassy, and I wipe a lone tear that rolls down her ruined cheek. Then I pull the hospital sheet over her body, and drive home.
I'm diagnosed aspd/ non npd, autistic, ptsd, c-ptsd with extreme dissociation, dissociative amnesia and dissociative fugue, anxiety disorder, ocd ( chaotic) , mdd, depression inducuced agoraphobia.
I was dx a plethora of other things along the way, but everything else has been taken off the table the last year/ year and a half.
I'm open about everything except my aspd. Few people know about that because of the stigmatization and so many people just clumping it with npd? They are different disorders.
Like most cluster b disorders, they are trauma and environmentally induced. YOU CAN GET TREATMENT FOR THE SYMPTOMS.
- What it's like for me? I'm very emotionally flat. Or I definitely was a lot more before treatment. I didn't understand empathy, compassionate. I had to Google that one. It's very rare that I feel bad or remorseful for anything I do. I don't see the point. I made the choice to do it. It's very hard for me to connect to the emotions of other people. I mostly just do not care, though I've learned that is inappropriate. It's rare that I find interest in friendships, companionship, a partner. I do get bored easily. Becoming I don't understand emotions, I find life to be quite meaningless. Hence the MDD. I do have horrible intrusive thoughts, but again, I'm in treatment. I'm currently going through hormonally treatment to treat the dangerous symptoms that accompany aspd. With all cluster b, it's a reason but it is not an excuse. You have to put in major major work to undo what caused it to begin with.
If you have other questions feel free.
A genuine question for people with ASPD or/and NPD
People with ASPD (antisocial personality disorder) or/and NPD (narcissistic personality disorder), I am genuinely curious about what you believe is the core part of aspd and npd, and how you see the world. How does it feel to have these disorders? How do people treat you? How do you treat people? How can one understand how it must be like for you?
These disorders are VERY stigmatised. Even actual medical journals and sites perpetuate this stigmatisation, and there's this whole thing of "narcissistic abuse" or that all people with antisocial personality disorder are serial killers. I simply refuse to believe this, it's not nuanced enough, and I genuinely seek to understand. And maybe other people may find this thread of posts and also understand.
So people with npd/aspd, add on, explain anything you wish people knew about your disorder.
Coming from a fellow person with a highly stigmatised disorder (schizophrenia) who wishes to understand.
Oof. The boredom. Utter boredom of literally every thing. All the time. Do it for the lore.
ASPD culture is getting bored of your partner because they aren't useful to you anymore and dropping them. When people ask if you feel bad you claim that you do when you really don't.
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WOOOOOOOO ‼️‼️‼️
PLEASE DO THE HEADCANON POSTOF ASPD CAL!!! ive been saying this forerver
ASPD Cal hcs (its real guys...!)
When he isn't acting out of impulse (or when he isn't with andre lmfao), cal suffers from chronic bordem. Nothing entertains him at all. Whenever he gets bored, he goes out and shoplifts (shoplifting cal REAL)
cal likes to mess with rachel. not in a serious manipulating way, more just telling white lies and making up harmless shit and she believes it....most of the time (sometimes he'll say some outrageous shit and rachel will call him out 😭)
although as zero day does get closer, he hints at it and makes jokes (see previous post about the graveyard scene) rachel - who's used to cals jokes and lies and shit, passes it off as cal just being cal. she'll look back on this after zero day
cal is scarily good at lying and manipulating...most of the time. he can make you believe anything, until he gets too into it. He'll start saying some absolutely unbelievable shit that would make anyone turned off
cal SUCKS in social situations (example: the prom limo scene). he tries to make what he thinks are "normal" jokes but they really arent and everyone looks at him weird. when he's alone he thinks about it and gets pissed
related to the previous one, he isnt the best at masking. he tries his best to emulate rachel and other peoples behaviors but he fails most of the time. he finds trying to act normal "boring" and acts more on his own ideas and impulses
when cal was younger, he had an issue with setting things on fire. his parents had to take away all of his own lighters and hide the candle lighters on top of the fridge.
cal was diagnosed with a conduct disorder when he was 12 after being sent away to the psych ward
cal doesn't mask around andre cause he knows andre is as fucked up as him - he feels comfortable enough around him to just be himself, even if it makes andre pissed sometimes (poem scene)
cal gets obsessed with his exceptions,....he's only had one so far though
andre is cals exception. cal can feel a small amount of empathy for him, but its better than nothing.
cal is obsessed with andre. not in a cringe yandere way, but in a "i wanna live in your skin" kinda way. andre fucks with this heavily
i hope this was ok anon.....might make a part 2
sucks when a villain webtoon character is mentally ill coded and the hivemind says they should get cancer and kill themself for not being the protagonist
👏 You do not need empathy to be a good person 👏
👏 You do not need empathy to be a good person 👏
Cuz being good is based on what you do and not on what you feel
👏 You do not need empathy to be a good person 👏
I feel like a lesser known perk of having low/no empathy is that it makes you great at giving advice. All of my friends say that I give great advice, especially when it comes to emotional stuff like relationships because I can think about my friends’ situations with 100% logic and facts, without letting emotions get in the way and cloud my judgement.
I don’t know who needs to hear this, but
👏Narcissist is not a code word for abuser👏
👏 Sociopath is not a code word for abuser👏
👏 Psychopath is not a code word for murderer👏
Not every shitty person is shitty because of a disorder that pop psychology likes to demonise. Slapping a label on every shitty person out there is ableist toward the NPD/ASPD sufferers who are just trying to get by. Stop it.
The more I learn about cluster B disorders, the more I realise that people are only supportive of mental illnesses that they can woobify/fetishise. Anything that doesn’t fit neatly into one of those boxes (Which applies to most cluster B disorders, especially ASPD, and NPD) gets demonised. Ableism is A-ok when it’s against someone who lacks the traits that neurotypicals find desirable.
Anyone who says, “Just be yourself!” to anyone who’s neurodivergent can fucking choke. I hide who I am because I live in a world where being my true self isn’t safe. Being visibly neurodivergent isn’t safe in this world.
Autism 🤝 ASPD = Limited tolerance for being around people