Do Not Let Others Dictate Your Destiny. Take The Wheel.

Do not let others dictate your destiny. Take the wheel.

-katie, 23:30

I bought a one way ticket

to the other side

of the moon

Watch the ocean rise

as I fall

asleep in the arms

of darkness,

a friend returning

from a short voyage

He cradles my head,

traces the cracked skull

with his fingers

until I sigh

with the thunder roaring

over my weeping sky!

-one way ticket,

katie, 22:00

❤

12 months and counting...

You are the blessing I didn't ask for but were given;

You are the miracle I didn't pray for but happened.

You happened. And my love, I've become my best version. Thank you for calming my storm. Now everything in me is pacific. Thank you for taming my demons. Now they kneel and wear golden halos.

Since you happened, the lips that refused to pray started uttering praises to God who made this blissful encounter possible.

Because you happened, I lift my hands up above, call out in the voice of a Seraphim as I feel my wings growing...

Wings that were severed when I-

I renounced my faith in love.

You happened, so I regained everything I ever lost from fear and doubt and wrath.

You are the gift I didn't ask for but were bestowed;

You are the guardian I didn't pray for but were sent to bring me home...

You were sent TO BE my HOME.

-god sent, katie

7th of March 2020 @23:30

If you look back far enough, you can see…

tears stained on stars

hearts contained in penny jars

words queued on my tongue

trying to roll themselves out

Also there are blisters on the moon

a laceration on its side

scribbles of who we are

decorating the path where I stride

Helpless yet still devoted

to the corpse that you are

Mindless of the pouring

of the gust whispering

"He is gone."

It's time to move forward

but my eyes keep looking backward

to where we have talked

our last few sentences

such a painful farewell

I am trying to get by

If you looked back far enough,

you would have seen

me crawled

picked my pieces scattered

all over the floor

But you stared far ahead

Cold, uncaring heart

turning into a memory,

a scar taking niche

into the skin

that I wear

-katie, 04:00

And she learned

to sleep through the pain

for the night

won't make it go away

-katie, 09:01

If I could speak

to the heart

that is now dead

I would ask it

if it's colder

there, in the grave

If it tells me, yes

then I will stay here

with you

where your arms

wrap me

into a chilly embrace

-katie, 23: 20