How Could My Life Be So Good And So Bad At The Same Time? Like Everything's Going Well But Still,,, I'm

How could my life be so good and so bad at the same time? Like everything's going well but still,,, I'm not well...

There's nothing to be upset about, and yet,,, I'm upset...

Why can't I let myself be happy?

I,,, I just,,, this is it. This is glasses.

fucks sake

Me, texting with a girl: *smiling* oh no what if I like her?

Me, texting with a boy: *smiling* oh no what if I like him?

Actually me: *laughing at my own jokes*

I went out of town with my friend to go and eat, and there is this ice cream place she likes near the beach, so we ate, and after we finished we took a bus home.

Now, this was near the beach. On a sunny day. After about a week of rain. And the bus was packed.

Now, we got on at an early station so we had a seat, and it was a bit of a long drive, so all I could do, all of the time I was on the bus, was to stare

At girls

With shorts and tank tops

All giddy and happy from the beach

Trying to hold on so they won't fall but still laughing about it

And just being so pretty

And when I say I melted

I mean I MELTED.

I nearly malfunctioned.

Today there was this pretty tough cop guy at school and he was lecturing us about electric bicycle, and he was like doing the whole frightening thing they do on teens.

He casually mentioned he bought one for his husband and once he found out how dangerous it is he asked him to stop using it.

And let me tell you, it took EVERYTHING I had in me to keep a straight face and not smile at this extremely casual mention of a gay couple.

(I'm pretty sure my friend looked at me too but I was determined to treat it like the most normal thing in the world, like I and everyone should)

I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF FOR DRAWING THIS