I Wish I Had A Window Seat With Lots Of Pillows That I Could Sit In And Drink Tea And Read Books In And

i wish i had a window seat with lots of pillows that i could sit in and drink tea and read books in and watch the rain in

Places That I've Seen Several Times in My Dreams

-A creepy old hotel that gives me The Backrooms vibes with a fancy red carpet and dim lighting + I'm always accompanied by a dog for some reason

-A cramped wooden house/cabin with harsh yellow lights and the creepy feeling that you are being watched

-A park where it always seems like it had been raining a few moments ago

-A place that seems like a combination of a dilapidated building and Hogwarts that gives off gothic and dark academia vibes

-My old school during Christmastime

-A dilapidated mall with a working cinema

Just remembered the time when I wrote an entire article on living fossils on Word on the family tablet instead of doing Regular Nine Year Old Train Journey Stuff. The autism was definitely going strong in me back then

Sometimes I wish that people would learn the difference between sex-repulsion and sex-negativity

My thoughts exactly

sometimes i wonder what must it be like

to have a father you can talk to

without your breath getting stuck in your throat

or your heart pounding so hard like it'd burst

i wonder what it's like to have a father

you are not afraid of.

sometimes i wish i had a normal relationship

with the one man I'm supposed to trust in my life

instead, I'm afraid of him as am I

of any other man who comes my way

maybe this is what my life is going to be

always running away from every man I've known.

Me when I see the moon: That's a nice boulder, I like that boulder