I Was Looking At My Reblogs And Just Realized How Much I Changed. Now I Just Stay Silence And If The

I was looking at my reblogs and just realized how much I changed. Now I just stay silence and if the person doesn’t notice or act I, even knowing it shouldn’t be like that, let it happen and though away all off our memories together.

If I'm arguing I care, if I'm silent, I'm done

What am I doing with my life? Can someone please tell me? A can’t handle it anymore specially now that one of me only friends is turning at my back. A fell I want to cry but a just fell numb and nothing else.

Today is the third day of sticking to my Ana diet. I am so happy that my parents already noticed the weight loss. I can’t wait to lose more anda more weight, I’ve been trying so hard for the pasted months and just now being able to fully control myself.

I’ve always been introverted. I’m not the kind of girl that enjoys being notice by everyone and I don’t have many friends, so unfortunately I tend to over focuses on my self, especially on the way I look, since I’m constantly alone and end up looking and spending too much time analyzing me at the mirror. Because I have changed a lot over the year’s, and people never told me about my imperfections, I know I have still many of them for sure many but I haven’t just realized, and also because people don’t want to comment. That bothers me so much because I fell they do that (normally girls) because it make them fell pretira about them selfs. I wish we all were united and always cheering and hoping for each other’s best. Continuing what I was saying, that made me develop a really messed up relationship with food and how I treat my body, and honestly I believe this is a problem many of us, girls, fell.

I am so tired of Mia. My journey stated last year and continue until now. Purging is tiring and hurtful, my thorough is sorrow and my body fells sick. I want Ana so bad.

When I say I have binge eating disorder I mean it. Almost every day I choose a determined moment to eat ( just junk food) for more than 3 hours consecutive until I’m so full my stomach constantly hurts, quadruplicate it’s size and I fell like a bag of shit. Normally I end up eating more than 3000 kcals in just one round, and I always eat during the day so…