That Moment You Realize How Fucked You Really Are.

That moment you realize how fucked you really are.

Sequoia

I know she has helped me, but we fight. I apologize even if I didn't start it, but I spoke rudely or said too much. I apologize even if she hurt me first and she never says I'm sorry. Because unlike her I have to be afraid she'll leave me.

- Sequoia R.

You're not...

Everyone believes that I'll be here forever. Living with them. Never leaving their side, as a weight for them to forever carry. When I moan in pain stating my frustrations my parents say nothing to comfort me. They just tell me what they need from me..fill this out for me, check this, get this.

My sister says they don't treat me like i"m sick because I don't act sick I don't complain. So I tried complaining out loud whenever I felt terrible discomfort, which is difficult.  For my survival I need that brave face. But I tried.

Yet the truth is, they don't hear it. I complained whenever I feel pain so they know it and they still don't comfort me, even when I ask them to. And I don't know why I stayed in a place where I am not even sure if they have eyes that can see me. Part of me wonders if I'd be sick at all if I had just left the moment i knew I was invisible...

- Sequoia R.

Nothing

I can’t understand

how I never amounted to anything

how I was born talentless

and why the fuck no one gives a shit about me.

I am in all honesty

nothing.

- Sequoia Red

I had to tell someone I love more than anything...that I can't stay.

- Sequoia Red

I've Tried. It Hurts

- Sequoia Red