Nothing

Nothing

I can’t understand

how I never amounted to anything

how I was born talentless

and why the fuck no one gives a shit about me.

I am in all honesty

nothing.

- Sequoia Red

I know she has helped me, but we fight. I apologize even if I didn't start it, but I spoke rudely or said too much. I apologize even if she hurt me first and she never says I'm sorry. Because unlike her I have to be afraid she'll leave me.

- Sequoia R.

Be Like Jesus

My mother tells me to be humble to stay it forward. But I’ve been humble for two decades and it’s done nothing but punish me. My mother tells me to be like Jesus. God says the same. And yes, I am God’s daughter, as I yearn great things. But if I keep this way, I’ll be dead inside. I’ll be nothing. I will end up like Jesus, palms forward and wrists pinned. - Sequoia Red

I think of telephone conversations with people I used to admire and yearn to speak to, only to discover they bring me nothing but pain as they only know how to love everyone else, except for me.

Sequoia Red - – taken from I’ve Tried. It Hurts

I've Tried. It Hurts

- Sequoia Red

In the Negative

"I wasn't always like this... I didn't always lash out. I didn't fear pain. I never feared the unknown. I never feared my love for you I never hated you. I didn't feel like I was wronged. But you make me wrong, as if I shouldn't be here. as if I was made incorrectly, with mistakes that are undoubtedly repulsive."

Notes:*..hmmm this is unfinished. But I thought I'd share with you wonderful people. It's going to be lyrics I think. Keep hearing songs in my head these days.