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Dangerously Yours
Context: Dangerously Yours as Fem! Chuuya x Fem! Dazai
Chuuya swallowed hard as she finally looked at the woman who betrayed her so drastically, "If I betray you...I betray myself..."
"If I betray him, I betray my country..."
Dazai solemnly stared at her lover whilst Chuuya looked back out the window, dull light shining in; she hated it. There was a pit forming in her throat as tears pricked at the corners of her eyes, "My country's very dear to me..."
"Dearer than I?" Dazai finally spoke, her shaky voice echoed through the room, drawing Chuuya's attention back to her.
"No...no, not dearer than you..." Her hat cast a shadow over her face, desperately avoiding eye contact as if it were a disease that she could catch any minute now.
"Then, will you help me defeat him?" Dazai stepped closer, slowly yet shakily grabbing Chuuya's hand as an act of affection. She wanted her to know that she still loved her...and deeply cherished their bond with eachother.
Chuuya's eyes widened slightly, pulling her hand away and closer to her chest, "Help...you...? Defeat him...?"
"By telling me his plans- that's the only way I could hope to defeat him..." Dazai paused momentarily, staring desperately at Chuuya, "We can't both win, you see, Chuuya..."
Chuuya finally stared into Dazai's eyes, slowly beginning to recognize her but as a stranger. "I'm beginning to see," she wiped the tears that escaped her eyes and exhaled sharply.
"Then you will help me?"
"By giving you any information I may possess concerning our plans?"
"Yes..."
Chuuya looked away, clenching her fists as her breaths became more unstable, "You're very clever, aren't you?"
She looked up at Dazai yet again, expression turned cold and sour. Hatred burning through her eyes as warmth coursed through her body, "Oh, I can read you like a book now..."
Dazai's breath hitched as Chuuya stalked toward her, refusing to touch her in order to not delve into Dazai's cravings, "You thought I was young and easily swayed,"
"That you could make me love you," Her voice started to increasingly raise in pure anger and hatred, "And I would THROW AWAY MY COUNTRY-- my duty...for you..." her throat burned as tears streamed down her face, nails digging into her own skin whilst she unknowingly started drawing blood from her own, gloved, palm.
"That's not the way to look at it, Chuuya," Dazai stated sternly, not wanting to show her true emotions, her heart felt heavy as she stared at Chuuya expectantly; needing that information.
"You weren't so wise after all- because you've lost, do you hear me?! LOST!"
Dazai stepped back, away from Chuuya. She was aware her lover would grow angry, however she did not think Chuuya would refuse to indulge her.
Chuuya snarled, "You guessed WRONG in our little duel of wits. You forgot how close hate is to love!" Her body shook violently as she walked passed Dazai.
"You don't know what you're saying, Chuuya!" Dazai grabbed her hand quickly, hopelessly, searching for the words to say so everything could be fixed.
"YOU NEVER LOVED ME-- you KNEW that I loved you...and YOU USED THAT...!" Chuuya sobbed, aggressively pulling her hand away from Dazai.
"Chuuya, stop talking like a child! We're playing for countries now!" She attempted to grab ahold of Chuuya, however Chuuya rejected her touch and opened the door to leave,
"Yes we are, aren't we?"
As the door slammed behind Chuuya, Dazai stood alone. Alone yet again in a dark, empty room.
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horzai
bc he’s a whore
agreed
dazai osamu has such youngest child energy. i mean, he definitely has the little brother annoyingness, but also the attentiveness that comes from people constantly forgetting he's in the room if he stays quiet long enough, as is the curse of the youngest child. if he was actually birthed and didn't just spawn i bet his parents would always forget he was there.