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Day 11- Fairy lights @hpdestress

Ron huffed as he picked up the last of the grocery bag while Harry took one from his hand to make it more convenient for him. 

“ So how’d your online hot date go last night ?” Ron asked walking out of the store. 

“ Rancid” Harry complained, rolling his eyes “ He went too far with everything. And more so he lied about his age and occupation which really didn’t work well for me but even then I tried to make it work and I was working on it until the end of the night when he suddenly saw his girlfriend and I got pissed, threw glass of champagne at him, who threw the plate of ravioli on me- so i’d say a 10 on 10″ 

Ron started to laugh juggling his bag of grocery into another hand “ Told you “ 

“ What ? You didn’t tell me anything- You actually did the opposite of telling me- you didn’t even listen properly “ Harry shrilled 

“ Well- that’s because I know the whole online dating thing is shit- it never works- “ 

“ Exactly why. I don’t want a serious type of relationship, I’m not a man of commitment “ Harry  retorted 

“ For how long are you going to run away from commitment Harry? If you never try, you’ll never know “ Ron bitterly said, shaking his head. 

“ But I know myself- I cannot do serious relationships-” 

“ Think all you want. I know one day you’ll meet a banger guy and he’s going to break every standards of yours, every misconception that you have of yourself and make you believe in love once again” Ron interjected and wisely professed, which frankly Harry only took seriously for a second then ended up laughing all the way back home. 

“ You’re watching too many romance shows with Hermione” 

Ron rolled his eyes, imitating Harry in a terrible voice. 

He knew that Ron was right no matter how funny it may have sounded. Harry had been afraid of commitment for so long, tying to run away from everything that may bind him that he had stopped thinking that he might actually be capable of maintaining a relationship with someone. Its not like Harry had never been in love, he had been, ages ago and that was the reason why he doesn’t believe in love anymore. Back in those days he would have risked it all for him but he didn’t, nor did the man he loved did and that was what it took for Harry to entirely give up on the idea of love. He didn’t hate the idea of love but just thought he wasn’t the one who’d have his own lovestory and that saddened him many nights more than often. Maybe Ron was right, maybe he’d meet someone again who would make him fall in love once again but who would it be ? 

Harry shook his hand so his hand jingled the bell in order to attract people for the Christmas carolers but apparently it wasn’t working as well as he thought it would. It was more funny for people to see someone wrapped up in fairy lights than listening to someone singing silent night, yet Harry kept going, jingling his bell in his hand. It was all boring and rather unpleasant just standing there while the carolers gossiped away. To heck with good deeds. He wanted to unpack himself and go away until he turned to his side in hopes to scowl and imitate people when his eyes fell upon the man in the black trench coat, not just any man in a black trench coat, a very familiar man in a very familiar trench coat. Harry immediately turned around for his back to face the man but this wasn’t his lucky day because even though he tried to avoid him, the Gods/makers above were sitting with popcorn in hands enjoying the misery Harry was about to face. 

“ Really- I’m not going to eat you alive “ the man chuckled. 

Harry huffed and finally turned to a tall and slender Draco Malfoy he hadn’t seen in a very long time “ Hi “ 

“ Something tells me you’re not so happy to see me” Draco smiled, not just any smile but his famous sly, mischievous smile Harry threw his hearts at ages ago. 

“ Why ? I’m so glad to see you- happier than ever” Harry monotonously replied. 

Draco chuckled shaking his head “ You walked by yesterday night ignoring me after your much failed date” 

“ Well clearly that didn’t keep you away from contacting the man covered in ravioli” Harry mumbled. 

Draco let out a soft laugh “ You’re still the same” 

And for the first time Harry allowed himself to look at Draco more than just cunning looks, he was still the same too. 

“ You look cute wrapped up in fairy lights” 

“ Oh yeah- tease me all about it. Make fun of me if you would do so” Harry rolled his eyes. 

Draco looked at him as if he couldn’t believe the absurdity “ Since when is complimenting someone an insult or teasing if you must say so ”

“ Since it came out of your mouth” Harry replied raising an eyebrow at him. 

Draco slumped down his shoulder, sighing “ You really haven’t changed” 

“ Like you have” Harry dared. 

Draco shook his head “ I have- I really have” 

He really had, Harry thought. 

Draco huffed out a breath then looked at Harry with the same eyes he once used to “ My offer still stands still”

And it seemed as if the hands of the clock tower stopped right there. The offer still stood? 

“ What offer?” Harry lied. 

“ You know what offer “ Draco countered. 

Harry closed his eyes for a moment then finally allowed himself to talk without throwing a quip “ It’ll never work.You and I are very different, we used to be best friends and it’d be very weird, besides you and I belong to very different sides of the society now” 

“ If you know anything about me, You’d know I stopped caring about the society long time ago and you know you’re just trying to make an excuse, again but I didn’t force you then, I won’t force you now- For all I know we could’ve been great together “ Draco smiled lightly “ See you around, Harry” 

And he let him go, again. For the second time in his life he was making the same mistake again, letting him walk away again after making up an excuse that they probably didn’t belong together because that’s the best he could come up with but the truth was Draco was and is the only man he had ever loved, ever learnt to love and there could exist no other no matter what because maybe his life stopped there in the time when he held his hand before departing away, his hand still lingers with his touch like he left a magic right in his hands, It still existed and that magic was perhaps love, not just any love but His love. It still ran in his veins, it still ran to his heart and it still made him insane. If Love was insanity then Harry was happy to be insane but he had always been afraid of loving Draco more than he did because he was always afraid of the possibility of an end. He knew Draco was someone to him that nobody else could ever be, he knew if he let himself love Draco more than he already did then that would be the best thing in his life but he didn’t want to even imagine the end of it. He can’t see a life of loving Draco one day and losing him the next. The probability ran mile high and yet right now for once he wanted to something he might regret. He turned around and shout for Draco. He knew he might regret it one day but if he never tries, he’ll never know and maybe being with Draco even for numbered days wouldn’t be the worst idea in the world. 

“ yeah?” Draco asked back. 

“ Does your offer still stands?” Harry asked. 

Draco smiled and walked back towards Harry “ why ? You want to give it a shot?” 

Harry shook his head smiling “ I’d be damned if I lied. Yeah, I want to give us a shot” 

“ I’m glad you want to, I’ll pick you up tonight” Draco smiled.

Harry nodded and was about to turn back to bell jingling when Draco called him. 

“ Yeah ?” 

“You look cute in fairy lights, like an angel” Draco winked. 

Yeah, he was damned. 

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