Dissociation Vent - Tumblr Posts

MASSIVE CW: VENT, HEAVY DISSOCIATION, MENTIONS OF THE YANDEREDEV AND PUMPKINTHEGENTLEMAN SITUATIONS, PANIC ATTACKS, ANXIETY THEMES, DISTORTED SENSE OF SELF

To YandereDev: this is not intended to be disrespectful towards you or pumpkin in any way, and I apologize if it comes off that way. This was made to simply express my own feelings and thoughts (as a vent usually does). If you want me to make it private, please let me know. Thank you.

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So, i found this screenshot from one of YandereDev's older videos.

What do I decide to do with this new information?

Well, this.

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To explain what the meaning of this vent is.

Outside of the physical reactions that occur, whenever I have a panic attack, my main instinct is to usually dissociate--The freeze response-- And when I dissociate to a certain degree, many negative thoughts can emerge, which can distress me even further, therefore worsening the panic attack.

The amount of online drama an posts about it I've seen lately-- and in particular the YandereDev and PumpkinTheGentleman situations-- have been causing me to have endless panic attacks, and this has been causing me to have a distorted sense of self, making me question if I can even be saved and even questioning my humanity.

The reason why I chose Yanderedev for this vent is that I have discovered that he has had similar feelings as I have when he was my age, only for a different reason, and I find it comforting that someone out there knows how I feel, and that my feelings are valid and real.

He's the only one that makes me feel human.

And that's why I love him so much.

Here is the original incase anyone is curious

EDIT: WHOOPS! wrong tag lmao