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SKZ Felix hard thoughts

a/n: these are just thoughts— smutty ones

+18 MDNI

you voted for an obsessed!felix and I shall deliver…

obsessed!felix will speak of you to the members at least 6 times in the span of an hour… “oooh someone likes somebodyyyy” chan would tease, and the precious little sunshine will roll his eyes

obsessed!felix who at first tries to hide that he is (very) into you, but his nervous laugh and curious eyes get the best of him when you’re close

obsessed!felix who just needs to see you one more time before touring, so instead of sleeping as instructed, he sneaks out to spend the night with you

obsessed!felix who video calls you late at night when he’s on tour because he can’t sleep without looking at you because “you are so beautiful, everything you do is perfect, my darling”

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obsessed!felix has no idea he is obsessed with you. he just thinks of you day and night, but how couldn’t he when everything you do drives him insane. that teasing smile you gave him earlier? yeah, his cock is still hard from thinking about it.

obsessed!felix has a secret he can’t even bring to reveal to you. your scent makes him go completely mad. it is what keeps him awake at night, when the rest of the members are asleep, he will sneak into privacy and bring out that pair of panties he stole from you and as he fucks his fist he brings it to his nose, picturing you whimpering and cuming for him

obsessed!felix who can’t stop, won’t stop kissing you til you’re both out of breath, lips swollen. “i could kiss you all day, mind if i kiss you here?” he works his way down to your collabone and the valley between your breasts, inhaling your scent. “shit, i’m already hard…”

obsessed!felix loves watching every single reaction you give when he fucks you. how your breathing becomes quicker, your eyes shut, mouth slightly open as your pussy clenches around him. “you like that, darling?” his deep voice making you even wetter as he enters you again and again. he wants to remember everything to replay it later in his mind.

But something about shy felix… 🥵🥵🥵

hard thought

felix, who is usually very open about his preferences and desires, getting shy while baking a cake with you. he was the one suggesting it in the first place, strawberries and vanilla chantilly cream, but you didn't see it coming until he blushes furiously at the sight of you dipping your thumb in the cream to get a taste of it.

"what's up baby?" you ask, the sweet cream and the tangy strawberry working perfectly together.

"can i eat them on you?"

felix's cheeks are soft and pink, and his eyes do nothing to hide his slight embarassment mixed with arousal.

"of course you can angel. come here".

you take a small cup of freshly cut strawberries and another one with the chantilly cream left from the decoration before heading to the couch and sitting on it. you toss your sweats on the floor and felix falls immediately on his kees, between your parted legs.

when he dips two fingers in the cream and spreads it on your pussy, the coldness makes you shiver before he lowers his head to give it a first shy lick.

"good kitten. eat as much as you want".

felix parts your folds with his left fingers and keep them open while he lets another drop of cream fall directly on your clit. as soon as the liquid drips over your entrance, he begins to kiss your pussy all over, smearing the substance on his chin and lips. after feeling your hand on his hair, he starts to properly lick everything off, the sweet chantilly and your slick making a mess on his face.

he keeps adding more cream until there is literally no place for him to put it. then, he looks up to you with glassy eyes.

"can i... also inside? please?"

you coo at his horny and adorable expression, caressing his cheek with your thumb and collecting a bit of cream before bringing it to your mouth and lick it yourself.

"serve yourself angel"

felix dips two fingers in the cup and he slides them into you pussy, arousal already gushing out of it copiously. when he sees your pretty cunt pulsing out some of the cream he put inside, he whines and goes back down, sucking it wetly and moaning against your entrance.

when you cum on his tongue, he keeps licking it and pushing the rest inside of you with his fingers, as he's trying to pump you full of cum.

"we forgot the strawberries" he pouts cutely, looking at the cup, still untouched.

"now it's my turn, baby"

I never recovered from Felix hard thoughts.

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Wanna call me cute again? | Lee Felix | +18 ~ MDNI

a/n: I see Felix wanting to be seen as hot and sexy rather than just cute… thoughts have been thought— also… this is pure ✨fiction✨ enjoy! ;)

“You wanna call me cute again?” his low-pitched voice acting like an aphrodisiac itself as he is buried so deep in you there is no way to think in anything other than him.

Felix’s hand reaches your cheek to lightly tap it. Your eyes finally open to look into his.

His blonde hair sticks to his forehead as he mercilessly pounds into you.

“Mmm— f-f-uck… Felix,” you mutter under your breath as your tits bounce, him fucking you so good you feel you are going to break.

Tears already threatening to roll down your cheeks while his cock drills into you like his life depends on it. He needs you to know how fucked up he is for you. Pleasure coursing through your entire body, his thick length bringing you to the peak of your sexual rapture.

“Wanna call me cute, baby?” his thumb presses on your clit now, fast circles making your heart pound so fast you scream his name again and again.

“Felix… you— youu— so good, so hot, so fucking hot!”

He adoringly smiles at your fucked out state. Yes, he is hot and fucking sexy just for you. All that flirting with the other is to get your attention. Flashing his abs? He just wants you to lick him up and down like a lollipop. Felix could catch on fire, fuelled in desire for you.

“I— cuming…fuck!” your body trembles under him. Legs shaking as he continues fucking you, triggering his own orgasm which hits him like a truck. Eyes rolled back and a high pitched cry.

“Where did my cute Lixxie go?” you ask breathlessly.

Felix pulls you into a kiss.

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Stray Kids when you fall asleep on them:

Bang Chan:

It'll take some time for this oblivious cutie to notice that you dozed off while quietly playing 'Candy Crush' on your phone beside him. You initially came to give your boyfriend some moral support, knowing how hard it is to work on song writing so late at night. But apparently, it was hard for you too, and your boyfriend can't help but laugh with surprise when he hears a soft snore from under him, looking down to meet your peacefully sleeping face, your eyelashes fluttering over your high cheekbones and your pink lips parted slightly as you let out small puffs of warm air. Chris will have a mental breakdown, seeing you with your head on his shoulder, looking so soft and baby-like. He'll resist the urge to scream and jump around, not wanting to wake you up, but he can't keep the smile off his face as he continues to work, looking down every few seconds to stare at you again fondly and make sure you're comfortable, whispering to himself 'how adorable' every now and then. He'll try to finish whatever work he has left as quickly as possible, wanting to take you back home where you can finally sleep like you deserve, but he can't deny that your presence beside him calms him down, making the late-night job seem much more appealing.

"Aww, she fell asleep, how adorable I-"

Lee Know:

It was really late at night when you came to visit your boyfriend at the practice room, so you were already stifling yawns behind your hand by the time Minho finished going through the first choreography. The second your boyfriend takes a break, falling against the squeaky clean mirrors covering the walls tiredly, you're scooching closer to him, leaning your head against his bare, sweaty shoulder carelessly as you let your eyes shut slowly, while Minho scrolls through his phone, looking for a second song to practice. When you shift against him slightly, he turns down to look towards you, ready to throw a snarky comment, only to smile fondly when he is met with the sight of your closed eyes, and steadily moving chest. Minho will shake his head with amusement, mumbling to himself about how he knew this will happen and scolding your sleeping figure, but he doesn't deny that he likes the feeling of you against him, even if his whole body is sore and hot from dancing. He'll snap a few selfies of you for blackmail later on, because he can't be too sweet lmao, and then just spend a few more minutes admiring your calm, almost childish features. Sighing to himself as he stares at the watch against the wall of the practice room, Minho understands he needs to get back to work if he wants to finish before midnight, and he picks you up bridal style, shushing you gently when you stir in his arms, before placing you on the leather sofa at the edge of the room, making sure you can't fall off before going back to practice, thoughts of you filling his mind and giving him new energy.

"Aish, I knew this would happen. This sleepyhead, seriously."

Changbin:

Changbin will low-key be shocked when he asks you a question and you don't answer, only to look down and realize you were sleeping soundly, head on his chest and arms curled tightly around his torso. The two of you were watching a movie that you've been wanting to see for a while, but you got drowsy sooner than expected due to the darkness and your boyfriend's body heat warming you up. Changbin will feel his cheeks heat up when he sees how peacefully you're resting against him, as if you feel utterly protected and cared for in his strong hold, and he'll smile to himself shyly, leaning down to give you a light kiss on your nose, being careful not to wake you up. After that he'll forget the movie completely, instead choosing to lean his head on top of yours carefully, letting his own eyes close as he wraps the thin blanket tighter around the two of you. He'll want to move to the bed, knowing that this position can't possibly be good for your backs, but his heart won't let him wake you up just yet, instead promising to himself that he'll just take a five minute nap. Of course, the two of you wake up the next morning with aching limbs and stiff muscles, but seeing your blushing cheeks and content smile, Changbin can't really get himself to regret anything.

"I shouldn't sleep here... I'll just close my eyes for a second."

Hyunjin:

You're reading a book, your head placed securely in Hyunjin's lap, when you start to feel your eyelids grow heavy, sleepiness overcoming you slowly. You can't really be blamed though, the calming sound of your boyfriend practicing his lines from Stray Kid's newest song under his breath, along with the steady hum of the heater, giving the room the perfect atmosphere for a long nap. It only takes a few seconds for Hyunjin to realize that you fell asleep, thanks to your adorable tendencies to mumble incoherent sentences when sleeping. The blond haired boy freezes in his place, the hand that was slowly carding through your thick locks momentarily stopping its steady movement. Hyunjin breathes slowly through his mouth as he stares at your peaceful face, the sound of his heart beat ringing in his ear as he takes some time to admire you, loving the fact that he can see you like this, in your most natural state. After he overcomes his flustered shock, he reluctantly decides to wake you up, thinking that your health and comfort is (unfortunately) more important than his own enjoyment. He'll gently shake you awake, smiling down at you softly when you open your big eyes to look at him, and help you walk to your bedroom and get into the bed, not hesitating to jump into the space beside you the second you open your arms, motioning him over.

"Jagi, wake up~ Let's take you to bed, sleepyhead."

Han:

Han is playing video games with you sitting in his lap, back to his chest and his arms wrapped tightly around your stomach, holding the remote control, when you shift in his hold, turning so you're chest to chest, and place you head on his shoulder, letting your eyes shut as you absentmindedly listen to Han's quiet yells of victory and defeat. It's only after Han finishes his game, turning to you to boast about his win, that he's met with your closed eyes and slightly open mouth, little snores escaping it every now and then. Han can't help but squeal at the adorable sight, slapping a hand over his mouth to shut himself up when you shift slightly in his arms at the shrill sound, and he smiles widely, leaving a kiss on your forehead. He'll literally be so happy, he won't be able to fall asleep or even look away from your face, instead snuggling even closer to you and interlocking your fingers, deciding to wait until you wake up. He won't be able to stop himself from leaving kisses all over your baby face either, wincing every now and then when you stir a bit from the touch of his lips, and he'll snap a few pictures of you, adding them to his secret album, filled to the brim with pictures he took of you unknowingly, and smile at you fondly, unable to stop the stupidly wide grin pulling at his lips.

"I wish you were awake so I could tell you how cute you are~"

Felix:

You were in the back of the car, taking you back to Stray Kid's dorm after their concert that you attended. All of the members were in the car, either dozing off or on their phones, and the small space was filled with a vast feeling of content exhaustion and wordless happiness after another successful day. Felix and you were at the back of the car, sitting beside each other, your head leaning on your boyfriend's strong shoulder as you stared out the window, watching trees and buildings whir by. Felix was on his phone, scrolling through Twitter and Instagram and watching videos from the concert with a small smile, his face still covered with a thin layer of sweat from preforming. It's when Felix turns down to look at you, wanting to ask you if you were coming to sleep at the dorm, that he sees you're already fast asleep, feeling rather tired after cheering for your boyfriend and friends for the past three hours. Your boyfriend will chuckle lowly, unable to stop the giddiness filling his veins at the sight of your calm features and small pout as you slept, and he'll quickly alert the members, smiling his sunshine smile as he points to you, the other members giggling softly at the sight of your slumbering figure. After that, Felix will make sure to take a load of pictures, wanting to show you how cute you looked tomorrow, and then he'll lean his head on your own, letting his own eyes close as he relaxes in the warmth of your body, falling asleep as well.

"Guys, look how cute Y/N looks!"

Seungmin:

Seungmin was shopping for clothes online when you crawled over to him on the bed, already dressed in your pyjamas, your hair pulled into a messy bun and your eyes dull with sleepiness. Your boyfriend doesn't react much when you wriggle your way into his lap, simply patting your head wordlessly before continuing to scroll though the website, letting you do your thing, shifting a bit in Seungmin's lap before leaning back on his chest, watching with droopy eyes as your boyfriend clicks through different garments, occasionally putting them in his basket as he hums a Day6 song under his breath. Seungmin is about to scold you when your head tips back too much, blocking his eyesight, but he stops abruptly when he understands you're asleep, your eyes shut and face buried in the crook of his neck. Seungmin wouldn't know what to do, choosing to freeze and not move a muscle in fear of waking you up accidentally. He'll stay completely still, his only reaction the steadily growing blush on his cheeks, and will hesitantly brush away the strands of dark hair covering your eyes before retracting his hand quickly. Despite his rather cold reaction, Seungmin's thoughts will be whirling as he starts down at you fondly, and he can't help but think that he's the luckiest guy on the planet.

'How is she so pretty when sleeping?'

I.N.:

It's late at night and you're at the dorm, sitting on the couch with the members of Stray Kids, in your usual spot beside Jeongin, your thighs slightly brushing as the whole group talks animatedly, not minding the time. You're enjoying this time with your friends of course, but you're also really tired after a busy day at school, so you can't help but lean a bit more on your oblivious boyfriend, scooting closer into his side as sleep overcomes you slowly. Jeongin would turn to look at you immediately when he feels your head fall on his shoulder, thinking you got hurt or something, only to be met with your sleeping face. He'll turn red in the face, looking away from you and trying to play it cool in front of the hyungs, but he's freaking out internally, wondering if he should wake you up or not, or if he should hold your hand and leave a kiss on your cheek because you're just looking so squishy wrapped up in his embrace uwu. Before he can decide though, his hyungs quickly notice the situation, and go on to tease their lovable maknae as expected, causing the pretty blush on his cheeks to burn even brighter as he laughs, unable to stop smiling despite knowing the older members will never let this go.

"She must've been really tired..."

Stray Kids when you accidentally curse:

Bang Chan:

I feel like Chan won't be able to stop himself from snorting when he puts a band-aid on the small cut on your ankle, which your clumsy ass got from brushing against a sharp rock, and you suddenly let out a curse at the stinging pain, your quiet 'shit' ringing in your boyfriend's concentrated silence as he patches you up. Chan will freeze for a second, his fingers hovering over your bruised skin before he breaks into a huge grin, managing to stifle the chuckles threatening to rise before clearing his throat and scolding you half-heartedly. But you know he's not really serious when his small smile keeps peeking out every few seconds, along with him repeating the curse you used in a whisper every now and then, followed by a fond giggle and a shake of his head.

"Hey, I know it hurts, babe, but you shouldn't curse."

Minho:

Minho is that asshat boyfriend that will probably be the reason you curse in the first place lmao. When you let out a shriek followed by a 'holy shit!' as Minho pops out from behind the wall of the hallway, his eyes shining and an evil grin lighting up his face, your boyfriend's smile will change into pure shock as his mouth drops open, before he starts cackling uncontrollably, to the point he's literally crouching down and holding his stomach so it won't spill all over the apartment floor. Lee know will literally never let it go, constantly reminding you of the situation and mimicking your high-pitched shout and terrified face until you storm away, only to grab your wrist gently and tug you back to him, kissing your pout away with his own huge grin, and yes, you can't resist his annoying ass.

"Holy shit!! Minnie, you scared me~~" *cue the chipmunk voice*

Changbin:

I don't think Changbin will make a big deal out of you cursing, to be honest. It's just a word after all. He'll probably hear you curse for the first time when the two of you are jamming to some hip-hop songs on the radio, and you suddenly bust out some rap verse with a shit-ton of curses lmao. And then your boyfriend will just be like, damn. He'll probably be more impressed than anything else, just cheering you on the whole time, and he'll find you super cute and squishy even when you say foul words lol. In fact, I think that you cursing will just spure him to curse more as well, because he was always uncomfortable and careful next to you, not wanting to teach you bad words. So let's say it's a win-win situation for both of you haha.

"Wow~~ Y/N, you should debut as a rapper!"

Hyunjin:

I think that Hyunjin won't mind you cursing, as long as there's a good reason for it. When you tell him about the new guy that tried to touch you during work, using an assortment of interesting words to describe him, your boyfriend doesn't even comment on the matter, too busy consoling you and trying to calm down the bubbling anger in his chest at the thought of someone touching you without permission. After you tell Hyunjin how you cussed the man off, warning him you'll report him to the police the next time he gets close to you, your boyfriend is undeniably proud, hugging you close to him and mumbling about how cool you are and how well you handled it. He'll even teach you more curse words to expand your vocabulary in case you ever get into a similar situation lol.

"You're so amazing, jagi, so strong and brave. I'm sorry I wasn't there to protect you."

Han:

Jisung is surprised by the fact that you even know how to pronounce these words lmao, as if he isn't the one prancing around your apartment and cursing ninety nine percent of the time. When your boyfriend comes home to hear you spewing foul words one after another as you try to rescue your phone from where it fell between the sofa cushions, he can't help but find the sight hilarious, to be honest, and Han couldn't help but let out a laugh before coming to help you retrieve the electronic device. Jisung doesn't mind at all that you curse, even if he's constantly shocked that someone so angel-like can say such filthy things lol. But he'll definitely tease you a lot as well, just because he loves seeing you blush cutely uwu, and yes, your duality drives him crazy lmao.

"I need to buy more soap to shove into that dirty mouth of yours smh."

Felix:

Felix is possibly the chilliest out of all the members when it comes to cursing. Like, he's not cheering you on hysterically nor scolding you, but I feel like he's the type to like girls that look angels on the outside but are actually savage and badass when people get in their way. When your boyfriend sees you cussing out JYP and anyone else who has the slightest connection to the company after seeing the line distribution for Stray Kids' latest song, he'll smile slightly and stay quiet, letting you calm down on your own. Although he likes it when you get protective and defensive over him, he really finds you cute more than anything else, but he won't say that, instead choosing to pull you into a tight hug, mumbling encouraging words in your ear.

"Don't worry, bae, you know that I'm living my dream. I can't ask for more than what I already have."

Seungmin:

Seungmin is straight up cackling when you start cursing, especially when you're so excited that you just can't control all the 'fuck' and 'shit' coming out of your mouth. It usually happens in situations where your boyfriend is involved, like when Stray Kids' got their first win, or when they won some other grand prize. Seungmin doesn't seem like the type to curse a lot, but he doesn't mind you doing it, and actually finds it hilarious when he sees you jumping around like a rabbit, eyes sparkling and a huge smile on your lips. Obviously, he can't say anything to that addicting grin on your face. So he'll just smile and shake his head instead, showing his own happiness by pulling you in for a tight hug.

"Oh my god, Y/N." *cue flustered laughter*

I.N.

Okay, so the maknae is not having it lol. When you go backstage to see your boyfriend before his performance, you can't help but tell him how he's 'so fucking handsome', and then you quite literally have to save him from death by choking as I.N. starts coughing loudly, his face turning too red for your liking as he covers his mouth, eyes wide. Your boyfriend will need a few seconds to recover before he'll start investigating you to understand who teaches you these words, since he never curses next to you (it'll probably be Han and Changbin lmao), before he'll scold you gently, telling you that these words aren't nice, but also making sure you know how much he loves you by leaving a soft kiss on your hair and smiling at you fondly.

"You're too beautiful to say ugly words like that, love."

Stray Kids reaction to you back hugging them:

Bang Chan:

Chan loves all types of affection, especially when they come from you, but there was something about backhugs that made them even more precious. It'll probably happen a few weeks before a comeback, when your boyfriend looks constantly stressed and sleep-deprived, his blonde hair a mess and his brown eyes sporting dark circles underneath. The second you'll wrap you arms around his shoulders, leaning your chin on top of his head, he'll sigh happily, his body sinking into the revolving chair, and his hands will come up to grab your wrist, stroking your soft skin absentmindedly, as if to ground himself, and the two of you will spend the next few minutes in peaceful silence.

Minho:

Minho is the type to tease you a lot, especially when it comes to how cuddly and affectionate you are, but it's just his way of showing love, and he absolutely adores how you cling to him and coddle him. Your boyfriend is probably busy downing water in large, desperate gulps after practicing the band's newest song for an hour straight when you come up to him, gingerly wrapping your hands around his slim waist. Minho will jump, his water bottle almost slipping from his hands before he manages to retrieve it, and he'll turn around to look at you, a frown on his face as he scolds you for scaring him, but he'll still wrap his own arms around you, playfully rubbing his sweaty forehead against your neck, until you whine and push him away.

Changbin:

We all know Changbin is the hard outside, soft inside type of guy, always trying to hide just how whipped he is for you, and failing at it completely. Since backhugs are one of your most deadliest moves, you usually use it on your boyfriend when he is mad at you, for instance when you constantly tease him for being small and cute despite his constant attempts to seem manly and tall. Binnie will face away from you on the bed, scrolling through his phone with a frown when he'll feel you press against his back, your pout clearly felt against his neck as you kiss the soft skin as an apology, and he can't help but a crack a smile at your cuteness, eventually turning around to press a sweet, loving kiss to your lips.

Hyunjin:

Hyunjin is more shy and reserved when it comes to physical affection with you, the tips of his ears constantly coloring as well as his cheeks whenever you're attention is focused on him, but he still loves it no matter how red it makes him. The two of you are probably just walking down the street, swinging your interlocked hands like two children, when you suddenly release Hyunjin, making him frown in confusion before you trap him in a tight backhug, his arms held underneath yours. Your boyfriend won't be able to help the chuckles leaving his throat when the two of you waddle down the sidewalk, hardly immobile, and he'll complain lightly about how hard it is to move, but it's hardly convincing with the sweet giggles leaving his lips.

Jisung:

Han is such a sweetheart honestly, always looking for ways to touch you and for you to touch him, whether it's hugging, hand-holding, hair-playing, and also back-hugging a lot, with Jisung usually being the one to initiate it, so when you do it, he always gets excited. Your boyfriend will just be on his phone in the kitchen, leaning against the counter lazily, when you come up behind him on your way to get a cup of water, wrapping your arms around him tightly and pressing your cheek to the expanse of his broad back. Han will immediately smile like a child, his heart beating in his chest as he wraps his own arms around yours, and he won't let you move anywhere for a while, whining whenever you try to move away.

Felix:

Felix is kind of person who naturally thrives off of physical affection from his loved ones, and he considers it a very important aspect in any relationship, especially yours. The two of you are making brownies in the kitchen, the whole area around you looking absolutely disgusting, egg shells and flour coating the floor, and your boyfriend is starting to clean up, tiredly dragging his legs over to the broom by your apartment door when you collapse on him, wrapping your arms around his waist to steady yourself. Felix will let you lean on him, dropping his own head backwards to lay on your lean shoulder, and the two of you will stay like that for a few minutes, trying to restore your energy and also contemplating life at the sight of the chaos you made.

Seungmin:

Seungmin is constantly singing around the house, whether he's practicing or just humming songs he's been hearing recently, and whenever you hear your boyfriend sing you can't help but stop whatever you're doing and admire his angelic voice. Right now for instance, you're standing outside your bedroom door, watching as Seungmin sings to himself softly, brushing his long, auburn hair in front of the mirror. You don't hesitate to walk straight to your lover, wrapping your arms around him and making him stop in the middle of a sentence, a shy smile creeping on his face when you demand him to continue, still holding him tightly as you press a loving kiss to his back, and Seungmin will agree, his cheeks rosy red as he finishes the song.

Jeongin:

Jeongin is in charge of the food in your relationship, always giving a bowl of steaming noodles or a carefully-made sandwich with a fond kiss to your cheek, and that's exactly what he was doing now, making the two of you ramen for dinner, when you come up to him, drawn to the kitchen by the amazing smell slowly filling the house. You'll wrap your arms around your boyfriend, feeling the way I.N tenses under your arms, slightly shocked by the display of affection. He'll try to play it cool, but he'll be so out of focus he'll eventually push you away gently, stuttering about how hot it is in the room and how he can't focus on the food, but the blush covering his fair skin and the lack of eye contact will tell the truth.

Stray Kids when you cry:

Chan:

I feel like Chan is the type of boyfriend to be really observant, always noticing if you're in a bad mood even before you say anything. He'll order you your favorite food, try to make you laugh, and will be even touchier than usual, leaving kisses all over you knuckles, forehead and cheeks. Maybe it is all the care and love you're getting that makes the dam break, and suddenly your boyfriend tastes saltwater on his tongue, seconds after he leaned in to press a kiss to your pouty lips. Chan will panic immediately, lifting you into his lap effortlessly, cupping your cheeks as he asks you what's wrong, his eyes wide and filled with worry. When you'll tell him about how horrible your exam went, he'll simply hug your tighter, rocking the two of you from side to side while whispering encouraging words in your ear.

Minho:

Minho strikes me like someone who won't pry too much when you're in a bad mood, giving you the space you need to calm down while being more attentive than usual, and it works most of the time. But when your boyfriend will enter your apartment only to find you sitting on the couch with a box of tissues and a bowl of runny ice-cream, tears streaming down your cheeks, he'll be quite lost, not really knowing what to do except hug you and press the occasional kiss to your head. Even if he won't say anything, his mind will be running a mile a minute, trying to think of the best way to calm you down and understand what made you so upset. Minho will wait till your breathing evens out before asking you quietly what's wrong, listening in silence when you tell him about the nasty fight you had with your best friend, and he'll be quick to press you into his chest again, promising you that everything will be okay.

Changbin:

Changbin seems to me like a good listener, someone's who's easily capable of making people feel comfortable and safe around him. Usually your boyfriend was very successful at making you feel worthy and beautiful, but sometimes, like today, you're old insecurities come back and you just need to lie in bed day and stare at the ceiling, away from social media and society. When Binnie will come home after practice, wanting nothing more that a good, two-hour cuddle session, he'll immediately notice your small figure hidden in the covers. He'll approach you quietly, sitting beside you and raking a hand through your hair, his heart clenching when he sees the dry tears tracks lining your cheeks, before asking you what's wrong. And when you'll start crying again, he won't tell you to stop, simply wiping the salty drops one after another while they fall.

Hyunjin:

Hyunjin is more on the blunt side, not giving you space or privacy when you're sad, not because he's insensitive, rather because he's just so worried and can't imagine leaving you alone in this state, wanting to help you as much as he can. With all his good will, Hyunjin can't help but feel offended that you don't tell him what's going on, and his questions will almost lead to an argument. But when the first tear drop rolls down your cheek, your boyfriend will literally freeze, his ranting stopping mid-stop as he stares at you with wide eyes, rushing over to grab your cheeks immediately and pull you to his chest, murmuring apologies against your hair. He'll stop everything and do whatever it takes to make you happy, putting on your favorite rom-com and cooking your favorite food, and right before you go to sleep he'll ask you, hesitantly this time, if you want to tell him what's wrong.

Jisung:

Jisung is always prancing into your shared apartment when he comes back from the company, practically throwing his back-pack to the side as he rushes to hug you and press kisses all over your face, and you always respond with bright, happy giggles and equally tight hugs. So when your boyfriend notices the lack of enthusiasm and the way your arms hang limply by your sides when he comes over to greet you. His response will be automatic, a grim expression replacing his wide smile and voice turning soothing as he asks you what's wrong. When you break into heavy sobs, telling him about how you've been missing your family dearly the past few weeks, unable to visit them due to quarantine, Jisung's heart will clench painfully, and he'll feel guilty for not noticing earlier what was going on, promising himself to be more attentive and caring than ever.

Felix:

You are the type to hide your feelings, not wanting to be a burden on anyone, especially not your boyfriend who was such a busy, hard-working person. But Felix was anything but dumb, and he won't miss the way your smile looks fake, or your giggles forced. He'll be more on the quiet side at first, wanting to see if you'll tell him on your own and not wanting to intrude, rather choosing to shower you with as much love and affection as he can. But when he'll find you crying silently in the bathroom he won't be able to ignore the situation anymore, quickly approaching you and tugging you to his chest, trying to be strong and cheerful for you even if he's panicked and so worried inside. He'll listen to you silently when you tell him about how you've been stress-eating lately and you've noticed you gained weight, and he'll be so helpful and empathetic, giving you the best tips to healthy eating but also encouraging you to love yourself.

Seungmin:

Seungmin will probably be the type to be rather quiet, wanting to put you in the center of attention when you're sad. He'll go along with whatever you say, whether it's lying in your bed silently, holding one of your hands in his own, or listening to you rant about how shitty your day was, his gaze attentive and calming. During your period you tend to be rather sensitive, crying over nothing and everything, but Seungmin won't panic like some of the other members, rather learning from previous times how to deal with you, writing down the best ways to cheer you up, whether it's feeding you Mint Chocolate Chip ice-cream or watching with you your favorite, cheap reality show. If you'll want to talk about it he'll listen great, but if you won't he won't push too much, letting you figure things out yourself while being the best support system there is.

Jeongin:

Jeongin is super nervous when it comes to some things in a relationship, and seeing you cry and be sad was definitely on the top of the list. The two of you were hanging out on the sofa, watching a Disney movie, when your boyfriend heard a sniffle coming from where you were tucked in his arms, and his eyes widen when he sees the crystal-clear tears sliding down your soft, plump cheeks. He won't really know what to say, holding your face and asking you what's wrong with a startled expression, and when you'll sob about how sad the movie is, he'll sigh with relief, scolding you slightly about scaring the crap out of him before he'll hug you even closer, asking you if you need anything, and if you want to stop the movie and go do something else. Basically, he'll do anything to stop your crying.

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Thoughts are being thought… Talks are being talked about…

(Based on the 1990’s!)

Your lover, Lee Felix, was practically the baddest boy around. So intentionally, he broke the rules. That what boys like him did. You were pulled into his antics and practically became a little devil with him. Or so he said. While drawing in your notebook, light taps on your window could be heard from outside. Your eyebrows scrunch, you weren’t expecting anyone at this time of night. You open you curtain and there he was, Felix. He was leaning against your window as he smirked. But then, his eyes dropped down looking at you in your pajama attire. Although most girls wore night gowns to bed, your legs would get too hot in the night, so you wore tiny shorts and a two top.

“Felix!” You said quietly. But, Felix didn’t seem fazed. At least not in the way he was supposed to be. His lips slowly opened agape and his eyes kept dropping down to your shorts, making it look like he was closing his eyes. You ended up opening the window, and when you did, “Felix. I’ve mis” He cuts you off and pulls you by your two top to smash his lips on yours. It wasn’t like the usual kisses he gave you. This one was more eager, possessive, and more confident. “You look perfect, sweetheart.” He says once you break the kiss to breathe. You giggle at his antics and pull him inside your bedroom. Once you do, He pushes you onto your bed, crawling on you until he reaches your lips, then kissing you again.

His hair was getting so long, all you needed to do was tug on it and he’d be growling. He pulls you closer to crotch and you both moaned. “Can I?”

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“Felix! Slow down!” You begged but it seemed like he did not care. He tongue moving to fast on your clit for you to even keep up. “Oh my fucking…” You rolled your eyes back, gripping on his hair as he growled again. You couldn’t hold back. Your back arched as you realize you were close to cumming in three… two.. “Ah what the fuck, Felix?” You berate him and he laughs. “What? You already came on my tongue, you thought the second one was going to be there too? No, it’s gonna be on my cock.” He smirks while unbuckling his belt until he stopped. “Can I?”

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You were gripping onto his arms for dear life as he poured you into next week. The dashboard repeatedly hitting the wall over and over again. And depending on how fast or hard Felix would go, it would get louder or quieter. You being under him was a sight to say the least. Vest unbuttoned, nipple shown, his lips parted as sweet yet sinful moans came out, he stomach sweaty and his hand reaching out for your neck- Wait his hand reaching out for your neck?!

He starts to choke you slightly as he fucks your harder. it, it actually feels good. You held onto his wrists and moaned while lifting your leg up a bit. “More Fe! More!” You begged of him and he looked up to see a single tear escape you eye, causing him to move in a pace he did t think was possible. “Fuck, sweetheart. You gonna drive me crazy.” His hand move off your neck and onto your hips. “You good fucking girl!” He slaps your thighs and you moan louder.

You suddenly got tighter around him, he knew you were gonna cum. He immediately moved faster as he felt himself cumming soon as well. “Where do you want it, love?” He asked, fucking you harder. “Inside! Inside!” You screamed and he smirked. “You want to have my babies, baby?” He chuckles devilishly. “Okay, then. As you please.” He immediately fucks you harder and your back arched again until eventually you came all over his cock. Chasing his own release, Felix goes faster and eventually cums inside you. Both of you chuckle when you were done. “You wanna get out of here?” He asked, pulling himself out of you and dressing himself back up. You smile and nod. “I need some clothes though. I’m surprised my sister still isn’t home yet.” You laughed, throwing your hair back into, you heard a banging from the other room. “She is!” Your sister yelled. You and Felix laughed harder. Your grabbed your new clothes and hopped out the window with Felix.

When you guys were driving to you next location and mastic blasting in your ears, your hands moved on Felix thighs, then moved closer to his cock. Felix groans, his hand gripping the steering wheel. You got closer to his ear as he tried to focus on the road but failing miserably.

“Can I?”

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So so sorry I haven’t posted in a while! My adhd will only allow me to do a few things at a time before eventually giving up on everything. I promise to keep a STABLE posting schedule. Thank you so much for reading ❤️❤️❤️

MY KIND OF LOVE - CHANLIX

Felix queria o amor de Changbin, e não ser só mais uma foda casual. ₊˚⊹

Avisos: +18 por motivos óbvios, se não gosta desse tipo de conteúdo NÃO LEIA!

𓂃Felix odiava o jeito que Changbin o tratava, somente lembrava que o mais novo existia quando queria algo, ou melhor dizendo, quando queria foder. Não que o Lee não gostasse desses momentos com o mais velho, ah não, ele amava sentir  Changbin o fodendo com força, como se fosse o quebrar ao meio, realmente torcia para que isso acontecesse, pensando bem, se ele tivesse o mais velho acabando consigo, valia a pena se humilhar dessa forma. O problema é que, ele queria mais do que só uma foda casual, Felix queria ser amado.

Faziam duas semanas desde a última vez que Felix falou com o Seo, não admitiria, mas estava com saudade do mais velho o tocando, como só ele sabia. Como se o universo mandasse um sinal, o celular do loiro acendeu, indicando uma nova notificação, essa que era exatamente de quem torcia para que fosse, Changbin estava o convidando para ir a sua casa tomar um vinho e assistir algo juntos.

–Tsc. É claro que não iremos apenas fazer isso, tudo o que vem dele é com segundas, terceiras e quartas intenções. - pensou.

Felix pensou mais um pouco se aceitaria o convite ou não, será que o Changbin merecia ter-lo em sua cama hoje? logicamente aceitou, logo respondendo o mais velho dizendo que se arrumaria e o esperaria ir lhe buscar, não perderia a oportunidade, afinal, adorava ver-lo dirigir.

…

Felix já havia se arrumado, no momento se encontrava esperando por Seo, este que chegou poucos minutos atrasado por conta do trânsito no caminho. O Lee entrou no carro do mais velho que estava estacionado em frente a sua casa, e lhe cumprimentou com um selinho, fazendo o Seo dar uma risadinha, que na visão do loiro era muito fofa. Changbin repousou sua mão direita na coxa do garoto ao seu lado, que corou quase que instantaneamente ao sentir o contato inesperado.

O caminho foi silencioso, não demorou muito para que eles chegassem a casa do mais velho, que por sinal era muito bonita, Felix sempre se impressionava com a beleza e o tamanho daquele lugar.

Changbin já havia preparado tudo, na mesa de centro da sala tinha muitos aperitivos, além de claro, o vinho caro que ele amava. Eles se acomodaram no sofá, o Seo serviu o vinho nas taças para ambos e assim escolheram o filme, o que demorou uns quinze minutos pois eles nunca concordavam com o que o outro queria assistir, eles se abraçaram enquanto bebericavam o conteúdo da taça e, finalmente, assistiam o filme escolhido. Pouco tempo depois, Changbin teve coragem de fazer o que tinha planejado, claro que não seria apenas uma noite de vinhos e filmes, mas seria completamente diferente do que o garoto ao seu lado pensava que seria. Seo finalmente havia chegado a conclusão de que não queria somente o loiro como seu casinho, queria algo além, queria ele só para si.

Changbin respirou fundo e se virou para o loiro pegando em sua mão.

–Felix, precisamos conversar. - O mais novo o olhou confuso, mas nada disse, apenas o deixou continuar - Eu estava a um tempo tentando compreender meus sentimentos e cheguei a conclusão de que deveríamos tentar algo a mais, é isso o que eu quero, claro que se você não quiser eu vou entender! e-

Foi interrompido por um Felix eufórico.

–Meu Deus Changbin, é claro que eu quero tentar isso com você, quero dizer, poxa não está claro que eu gosto de verdade de ti? Você não tem noção do quanto eu ansiava para você dizer isso!

Changbin, sorriu feliz após a confirmação e confissão do garoto, o puxando para um beijo carregado de paixão, acabaram se separando pela falta de ar, mas logo voltaram a se beijar, dessa vez com mais luxúria e desejo. O mais velho trouxe o loiro para seu colo, segurando fortemente sua cintura, Felix gemeu assim que sentiu as intimidades se chocando através das camadas de panos que as cobriam. Changbin separou os lábios por um breve momento, apenas para retirar a blusa do mais novo e apreciar-ló, estava hipnotizado, como poderia existir alguém tão lindo como o garoto a sua frente?

– Você é tão perfeito Lee Felix. - Changbin disse num sussurro, quase inaudível.

Felix o encarava com os olhos brilhando, totalmente apaixonado, voltando a puxar-lo para outro beijo.

Durante todos esses beijos, as peças de roupa eram retiradas uma por uma, primeiro a blusa de Changbin, depois a calça de Felix e por fim, o short que o mais velho usava, deixando assim, ambos somente com suas peças íntimas.

Felix deitou o outro sobre o sofá, logo subindo acima deste, que gemeu arrastado ao sentir a bunda do loiro rebolando em seu pau ainda coberto. O Seo não aguentava mais, precisava foder-lo, então, inverteu as posições facilmente, graças a sua força, deu um selinho demorado no outrem, logo descendo o beijo para seu pescoço e clavícula, deixando várias marcas e mordidas ali, desceu mais até que encontrou os botõezinhos já erijicados do mais novo, este que gemeu ao sentir o contato da língua quente do homem acima de si. Changbin chupou, lambeu e mordiscou o lugar, fazendo o gemido do loiro se tornar mais alto e manhoso.

O Seo continuou descendo os beijos, agora pela barriga do outro, chegando pertinho de sua cueca, assim, a retirando de uma só vez, deixando o mais novo totalmente exposto exclusivamente para si. Changbin segurou o membro do outro garoto, deslizou sua mão por todo o comprimento dele, e então, finalmente o colocou na boca, sentindo toda a extensão deslizando para dentro de sua cavidade bucal.

Felix gemeu manhosamente ao sentir o estímulo que a língua do outro fazia no seu pau, após mais algumas chupadas, levou suas mãos até o cabelo do mais velho o puxando, fazendo com que Changbin entendesse que seu orgasmo estava muito próximo. O Lee gemeu frustrado quando o mais velho cessou os movimentos antes de gozar, porém a frustração durou pouco, pois viu o mais velho retirar a própria cueca, abrindo a boca quase que automaticamente, nunca se acostumaria com o tamanho daquele membro, sempre se perguntava como aquilo entrava em si.

Changbin colocou uma das pernas de Felix em seu ombro, pincelou seu pau na entrada do mais novo, Felix não precisava de preparação, sempre fazia tudo que era necessário antes de sair de casa, e o Seo sabia muito bem disso.

– Posso? - Perguntou olhando fixamente nos olhos do garoto abaixo de si.

Felix apenas concordou com a cabeça, gemendo alto ao sentir toda a extensão do mais velho entrando em si. Changbin o beijou novamente, começando a se movimentar, o beijo era carinhoso, mas os movimentos dos quadris e a mão na cintura do loiro não havia um pingo de carinho. O Seo metia fundo e forte, a cada investida era possível ouvir o som da pélvis do mais velho batendo contra a bunda do loiro, além dos gemidos que saiam altos e manhosos da boca deste.

Felix e Changbin estavam suando, ambos vermelhos, o membro do Lee, até então esquecido, estava pingando pré gozo quando o Seo o pegou e começou a masturba-lo, não demorando muito até que o mais novo finalmente gozasse na mão dele, sujando sua barriga. Após o orgasmo de Felix, Changbin não parou com os estímulos, mesmo sentindo as paredes internas do garoto o apertando, ele continuava a investir contra o outro. Após algumas estocadas, sentiu seu orgasmo chegando, aumentou o ritmo de seu quadril fazendo Felix gemer loucamente, até que enfim, ele gozou, fazendo Felix gozar novamente por todos os estímulos causados logo após seu orgasmo.

Changbin se retirou de dentro de Lee, se jogando no sofá ao seu lado, Felix o abraçou e o olhou nos olhos pela última vez aquela noite, ambos com os mesmos olhares apaixonados e sorrisos bobos.

O que havia acontecido era totalmente diferente das outras vezes, agora o sentimentos de ambos haviam sido revelados, deixando assim, o desejo e o amor que um sentia pelo outro mais fortes e notáveis.

– Eu te amo, Lee Felix.

Foi a única coisa que o mais novo escutou antes de dormir nos braços de Changbin.

OMG I literally screamed multiple times reading this … so good kinda made me wanna to go back to college😂 I really wish I knew how to give detailed feedbacks but sadly I don’t so I’ll just cry 😭💖

Perfect Distraction | lfl

❝𝐈 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐬𝐚𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮…❞  

↳ Felix is the perfectly untouchable man you can only long for from the back of the college lecture hall; until a chance encounter and offer of distraction brings those yearnings closer than you ever thought was possible.

↳ Felix x female reader

↳ 8.6k

! Strong language, college au, strangers to friends to lovers, mutual pining, angst, slow burn, explicit sexual content, vanilla sex, oral sex (f. and m. rec), body worship, praise, use of pet names, sexual discovery, adult themes throughout !

「suitable for 18+ readers only」  「© July 2020, rewritten April 2023 by jl-micasea-fics」

Felix’s back was a profound thing.

It was where you found your gaze most often lingering when the monotony of lectures led your mind to wander, and perhaps that was natural; it stands to reason that one should firstly see what’s right in front of them. Perhaps the heightened interest with which you examined him day after day was also just as natural.

Or perhaps not.

Still; the extraordinary demanded your undivided attention. And that wasn’t to say it was Felix’s back itself that was extraordinary. By all accounts, it was a perfectly normal back. Rather it was the feelings that cropped up when examining said back with a slow and appreciative eye that it made it so special.

There had been changes since the term started; imperceptible to anyone else, you were sure. The span of his shoulders was broader now, the fit of his shirts a little snugger. The outlining curve of his shoulder blades had strengthened, his hunching over desk or rising into a stretch offered glimpses of the toned muscle beneath the cotton. The days where he ran late and thus rallied to make lectures in time were your favourite, for on those days the silver tresses usually gathered neatly at his nape were damp with the sweat of exertion, the pale skin beneath blushed. Occasionally he might scratch his neck, and you would wonder if he felt the tickle of your gaze burning so bright a hole into him, the prospect equal parts needlessly giddying and mortifying. Thoughts would roll around your mind, and arguably, were best kept there: would he be soft to touch? Perhaps he’d be surprisingly firm. How would his back look in the absence of a shirt?

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Sorry, I Love You ~ Felix

"Felix is your friend with benefits. Your arrangement is perfect since both of you are too busy for anything more. But when the lines start to blur between lust and love, will you be able to navigate your own feelings before one of you gets hurt?"

All In ~ OT8 (university!au) series : Part Two

Pairing: Felix x fem!reader

Word Count: 17k

Genre: 18+ University AU | Fluff | LOTS of angst | SMUT | Established friendship with OT8 | Established friends with benefits with Felix | Friends with benefits to lovers | Possessive/Jealous Felix |

Content Warnings: Mature contents, MINORS DO NOT INTERACT 18+ | Alcohol consumption | Cursing/swearing | Dry Humping/Grinding/Straddling | pet names (use of Darling, Handsome etc) | LOTS of Angst | Detailed makeout scenes | Moaning/groaning | Descriptions of male genitalia | Possessive and Jealous Felix | Mentions of Intercourse | Friends with Benefits arrangement (Felix and Y/N) | Arguments | Mentions of cigarettes (Felix is an avid smoker) | Moments of commitment issues | Moments of vulnerability | Major blue balls for Felix (soz not soz) (Let me know if I missed anything) This part will not make much sense unless the parts before are read, as events and character dynamics shift and overlap in each part. Ensure you're caught up here.

A/N: THANK YOU FOR BEING PATIENT I KNOW IT TOOK FOREVER AND IM SO SORRY!! This is my first time writing anything this smutty so please give me your feedback, but go easy on me 😅 I hope you're all well and are liking the series so far! Chan x Y/N for Part Three!!

It was late into a Sunday night, and you were sat at the dining room table, books and notes scattered across it underneath you. Your dining room table had been perfectly divided down the middle, your notes and books on the side you were sitting at, and your roommate’s belongings scattered across the other. You’d been here for the past few hours studying, trying to wrap your brain around a code sequence you needed for your assignment.

You had always wanted to be a game designer/developer ever since you were a kid, and you missed the naivety of the child version of yourself that thought the process to creating video games was a lot simpler than it really was.

The truth was you were more talented in character design, world creation and the graphics side of video games, coding had never really been your strong suit, but alas it was needed to get the job done.

You hadn’t realised you’d begun to drift to sleep amongst your notes until a knock came from your dorm door snapping you away from your drowsiness.

You scrunched your face and glanced to the clock hanging on the kitchen wall. It read 10:23PM.

You wondered who would be knocking on your dorm door this late, your roommate had texted you only a few moments ago to say she was staying at Jeongin’s dorm, so it couldn’t be her.

Crime was basically non-existent on your campus, so you felt safe enough to answer the door. You stood from your chair at the dining room table and walked across the living room to open the door.

You unlocked the door and swung it open to see Felix smiling at you nervously, his skin illuminating from the hallway lights, his blondish silver looking hair was half up in a manbun and his round glasses were nestled upon his nose and amongst his freckles.

Every time you saw Felix you wondered how he could put barely any effort into his appearance and yet look so handsome every single time. He was wearing baggy grey sweatpants and a simple black t-shirt that hung loosely over his muscular figure, a pair of black canvas styled shoes were on his feet and his backpack was slung over one shoulder.

His sudden arrival meant one thing as per your agreement and your mouth watered at the thought of it.

Felix was your classmate turned friend with benefits. Your situationship as your roommate liked to call it, had started around ten months ago. You had both started studying at this campus a year and a few months ago and you were now a few months into your second year of your four year double majored degree in Game Development and Game Design. Something you had in common with Felix.

You and Felix had bonded over similar interests during the icebreaker introductions during the first few days of classes and became close friends straight away. Four months into your friendship with Felix and in drunken state at a 3Racha dorm party, you had found yourself in bed the next morning with Felix curled up into your side and both of you completely naked.

Neither of you could deny your attraction to one another, but both agreed your study came first and that there was no time for anything more and no need to complicate things more than they needed to be. Therefore, creating the arrangement that led Felix to be standing at your door tonight. Lust and nothing more.

“Hey Lixie.” You smiled mischievously opening the door wider in a welcoming manner, begging him to step into your dorm.

Instead of walking past you and into your dorm like you had offered, Felix gave you a smirk as he took in your flustered appearance by his abrupt arrival and walked up to you, pulling you into his arms for a warm hug.

He wrapped his arms over the tops of your shoulders, nestling his face into the side of your head and into your hair. You felt him breath in your scent and as he exhaled, he breathed out a soft and airy sounding, “hey darling.”

You buried your face into his chest thankful he had decided to show up unannounced. You took this moment to breathe in his scent like he had just done to you, he smelled how he normally did, hints of freshly squeezed lemon and fully bloomed orange blossoms that had been drifting in the sea breeze.

Over his usual scent you smelt the powerful scent of unmistakeable cigarette smoke attached to his clothes, indicating he must have had one on the way over to yours. You should hate the smell, but the scent of cigarette’s added to his charm and the smell had now become of comfort to you.

You loved and hated how much you enjoyed Felix’s sudden presence.

It wasn’t meant to be this way; you had initially agreed to organise days to meet up when needing to release stress or one of you just wanted some fun. As time progressed and you became more comfortable around each other, it turned to hurried text messages letting the other know you were on the way or both of you would just head back to one of your dorms after hanging out with your shared friend group.

You felt him shuffle with you still tightly held in his arms, pulling you further into your dorm and shutting the door behind you both. You tried to wriggle out of his grasp to walk yourself, but he just squeezed you tighter and with his deep voice whispered through your hair near your ear, “no, let me hold you.”

You giggled against his chest, as you stumbled trying to keep in sync with where Felix was trying to maneuverer you both. You heard Felix shrug off his backpack, and he let out a defeated laugh. Felix gave up on his plans to stumble to your bedroom and you felt the world flip as he holstered you up bridal style to carry you the rest of the way.

Felix placed you down onto your back on the bed and climbed over your figure, trapping you in place under him with his arms on either side of your head and his legs either side of your hips. You heard his shoes clatter to the ground, and he paused looking at you for a moment to take off his glasses and place them on the side table next to your bed.

He looked down at you with a smirk, his eyes shining through the dark as the only light in the room was the streaks of the living room light glowing softly into your bedroom.

“So, what brings you here tonight Lix, how can I be of service?” You asked giving him a seductive smile, reaching up to tuck a strand of his fluffy hair out of his eye and behind his ear.

His smile grew fonder at your actions, and he leaned down to press a kiss into the very tip of your nose.

“Honestly, I missed you and I didn’t want you to be alone tonight.” He admitted continuing to press kisses over your face but avoiding your lips.

“Aren’t you a gentleman.” You winked up at him causing him to huff out a small chuckle at your flirtatiousness.

“Someone is eager tonight.” Felix commented moving his position down to rest on his elbows bringing his face closer to yours.

You leaned up from the bed and pressed your lips against Felix’s, too impatient to wait any longer. You kissed him slowly and he responded instantly against you, bringing one of his hands down to your side and pressing his fingers gentling into the skin that was poking out between your pyjama top and shorts.

His lips were soft despite a few cracks here and there and they moved expertly with yours from the months of practice. A warm feeling spread through you, and you felt the familiar feeling of want and lust growing, but before you could get carried away, Felix pulled away breaking the kiss.

Felix pressed another kiss to your nose ignoring your confused gaze as he rolled off you to lay beside you on his back and used his hand on your side to pull you into him for a cuddle.

“Is it okay if we don’t do anything tonight?” Felix asked shyly after a few moments had passed by and you hadn’t spoken or tried to do anything else.

You turned your head and looked up at him, getting comfortable against him by draping an arm over his chest and entangling a leg over his thigh and through his legs.

“Of course,” You quickly clarified with, “Although, you know that’s not really what our arrangement is for.”

“Why not?” Felix asked looking down to meet your gaze, his cheeks were slightly flushed as if the conversation was making him slightly nervous, “We are friends with benefits, aren’t we? These are benefits.”

You giggled at his explanation and if you were being honest, he wasn’t wrong, but he knew why this wasn’t a part of the arrangement.

Neither of you could deny the attraction you had for one another. This was one of the main reasons you had strict rules with the arrangement. You both wanted to make sure that the line between lust and love was clear and no boundaries were being crossed, to not complicate anything.

The rules being: 1. NO CATCHING FEELINGS

This was a big one, it wasn’t just your friendship on the line, you were also classmates and shared the same circle of friends. It was bad enough you had already crossed the line of being intimate with each other the last thing you needed was falling in love with each other too.

2. SEX ONLY

This rule was clearly being broken tonight and if you were honest with yourself, it had been broken A LOT throughout your time with Felix, but you always tried to focus on what your situationship was really for.

3. NO ONE KNOWS

This rule was broken within the first 3 months of your arrangement, Hyunjin might have been a little traumatised when he came back to the dorm earlier than expected one day and it spread like wildfire throughout your friend group.

4. NO SLEEPING WITH OTHER PEOPLE

This was purely for safety reasons, although the idea of Felix being with anyone else did make you uncomfortable and it wouldn’t be a nice position to be put in.

Now that you thought about it, maybe your rules weren’t as strict as they were intended to be…

“You make a valid point, permission to cuddle granted.” You announced playfully snuggling into him closer.

At your words, Felix’s smile lit up his eyes and he pressed a long-wet kiss to your forehead as a thank you.

You both stayed tangled up in each other for a while in a comfortable silence, breathing deeply and slow, and you could feel your eyes growing heavier from the natural warmth Felix’s body was radiating.

“Darling, are you up to anything this Saturday night?” Felix asked suddenly while one of his hands reached up to lazily rake his fingers through your hair.

You thought for a moment, “Not that I can think of, why?”

“I was speaking to Chan tonight and they are having a 3Racha party.” Felix stated his voice was deeper now and you could tell sleep was clawing at him too.

“hmm” You hummed thinking back to previous 3Racha parties, to your first night with Felix, the night you danced on top of 3Racha’s kitchen bench completely wasted with Chan’s girlfriend and to all the other times you enjoyed relaxing, drinking with your closest friends. You smiled at the fond memories.

Felix sensed that you were beginning to drift off by your disconnection from the conversation, so he guided you up and under the covers and pressed another few kisses to your forehead.

Even though you were in and out of awareness, you were very aware of Felix pulling away from you completely and the bed dipping and then rising as he stood from the bed.

You let out a whine at his departure and he responded with a chuckle.

“I’m just making sure everything is locked up and turning the lights off.” He spoke to you warmly and you heard his footsteps exit your bedroom and disappear temporarily into the rest of the house before he re-entered your room that was now in complete darkness.

Felix had been here so many times, he didn’t even need to see to make it back to your side tucked underneath the blankets with you wrapped up in his arms. You felt Felix’s skin under your hand that rested on his chest. His shirt must have been discarded before he climbed back into bed and the warmth that was seeping out of him into your skin was lulling you closer and closer to sleep.

“Sleep well darling.” Felix whispered lowly pressing a kiss to your lips that you wish had lasted longer.

“Night Lixie.” You murmured lightly, eyes closed and completely surrendering to your dreams.

Before you completely fell asleep, you couldn’t help but notice the slight tingle to your lips where Felix’s lips had just been and the warmth that wasn’t only hovering on your skin, but also lighting up your insides and most importantly your heart.

“Y/N…darling…wake up gorgeous.” Felix’s voice sounding like an angel calling from the heavens was whispering to you from beside you.

You slowly fluttered your eyes open waking up to Felix pressing kisses into your face and hair as you blinked the sleep away.

“There she is.” Felix smiled once he noticed you were awake and pressed a soft peck to your lips making you smile back at him sleepily.

“Morning.” You murmured back trying to burry your head into the crook of his neck, refusing to acknowledge reality and the fact you had classes soon.

“I thought I’d lost you to the Sandman for a second there.” Felix joked his fingers teasing the skin exposed between your pyjamas sending a shiver up your spine.

“I was having a good dream.” You mumbled into the skin of his neck as you pressed light kisses there.

“What were you dreaming about?” Felix asked his morning voice deep, grainy and charming, making you want to tell him all about your dream where the two of you were working at the same gaming company together and living out your dream careers.

“Wouldn’t you like to know.” You teased poking his side and raising your head to smirk down at him.

“That would be why I asked.” Felix quick witted back with a smirk of his own.

In response you simply poked out your tongue and pushed yourself away from him to a sitting position so you could stretch out the upper half of your body.

You felt Felix’s arms snake around your waist from behind as he sat up behind you and placed his face on your shoulder with a pout on his lips.

“I don’t want to go to classes today, let’s skip.” Felix suggested squeezing you tightly from behind and leaving a trail of kisses from the corner of your jaw to the top of your shoulders.

One thing you had learned quickly into your arrangement with Felix was how overly affectionate he was. It wasn’t a bad thing by any means, you loved the attention he gave you and it gave an aspect of thrill knowing you were the only one he treated like this, and it only ever occurred behind closed doors. Like it was a secret only you two knew of.

“Because no one will be suspicious if both of us are missing from class...” You trailed off rolling your eyes.

You hadn’t managed to keep the secret of your arrangement from your friend group, but you were thankful no one in your shared classes with Felix seemed to have picked up on the looks you two frequently shared, or the flirtatious comments Felix would often tease you with.

Felix let out a groan and dropped his entire body weight onto your back making you slump forward unprepared.

“Don’t make me goooo.” He pleaded pushing his weight onto you until you had no choice but to fall sideways to relieve the pressure.

You whined pushing him away from you playfully.

“You can do as you please Felix, but I am going to class.” With a final poke to Felix’s nose, you climbed out of bed heading into the shower to get ready for the day ahead.

A few minutes past and you began cleaning your skin, letting the warm water wake you up completely, when Felix poked his head into the bathroom.

“I’m going to head back to my dorm to get ready, if I’m not at the first class, I’ll see you at the second!” Felix shouted to you over the loud rushing of the water.

“See you then!” You yelled back letting the water hit the back of your neck to loosen the tension that had built in your shoulders from the previous night of studying.

“Bye darling!” Felix farewelled leaving you to shower. You could barely hear his footsteps leaving over the water, but you finally heard the apartment door shut announcing Felix’s exit.

For the first time in a while, as you stilled in place under the stream of water, you felt the warm water run cold. It was like you’d run out of warm water, but then it slowly dawned on you, the steam was still building around you in the shower stall. It wasn’t the warmth from the water that had abandoned you, it was the warmth you felt within you when Felix was around.

You got to class just on time, and you were surprised to see Felix was already there with a warm smile spreading across his cheeks as he watched you walk into the computer lab.

Although there was no assigned seating in this class, it didn’t stop everyone from naturally claiming their own spot within the class and Felix was quick to claim the two computers by the window for the two of you, glaring at anyone who tried to take the spot next to him that was unofficially reserved for you.

“I’m surprised to see you here.” You grinned at Felix while unloading your bag with what you needed for the class ahead.

Felix groaned at the sudden realisation class would be starting soon and he was here instead of tucked away in your bedroom, with you wrapped around him like you were the last two people on Earth.

“I need the attendance marks. I’m not worried about our group project, but the assignment we were given for coding is kicking my arse.” Felix complained resting his head onto the hand of his arm that was propped up on the desk.

You rolled forward on your desk chair to get closer to him, reaching out to playfully tousle his hair with your fingers, “At least you won’t fail it alone.”

A smile grew back over his lips, “You? Failing coding? What a shock.” Felix teased knowing full well you weren’t good with coding as the sarcasm dripped from his voice.

“Haha, you’re hilarious.” You rolled your eyes, “I am genuinely shocked you’re struggling too though, you’re normally extremely good with coding?” You questioned him with a raised brow, leaning back into your desk chair getting yourself comfortable by adjusting some of the settings from its previous user.

Felix copied your motions and settled himself into his desk chair and pondered your words before smirking, “Maybe I’m just too distracted these days.”

A laugh erupted out of you, drawing the attention of some of your classmates, bringing your awareness of your surroundings back to you. You covered your laugh with a cough and sent a half serious glare in Felix’s direction, not even bothering to respond to him.

Your professor came to begin the class not long after, asking you to split up into your selected groups for the group project and use this class time to work on it.

You had been put into a group with Felix and two others from your class. One being a very timid, but kind girl with shoulder length black hair and round glasses concealing most of her face.

The other being the class clown, a stocky looking guy who could potentially give Changbin a run for his money in an arm wrestle. You often wondered why he even took this as his major when he spent most of the time making untasteful jokes at the expense of your other classmates.

The four of you were sat around the desks off to the side of the room away from the computers and all of you had your laptops out in front of you.

Your group project was to create a video game idea, including examples of how it would look, the setting, the storyline and some clips of completed animation for the game. Your group would then need to present it to the class and sell it to them. It was worth 50% of your grade so you were all taking it very seriously, well most of you.

Felix was hurriedly typing away on his laptop as he was doing some research for the setting of where your game would take place, gathering inspiration and writing notes on what he had found.

The timid girl in your group named Hana, was drawing on her electric artistry pad that was connected to her laptop, drawing out some character designs and working on some animation.

You were currently researching weaponry and armoury, creating a mood board of things you liked and comparing notes with Felix every now and again to make sure you were on the same track.

But then there was Yunseo the class clown. He was leaned back in his chair, large headset clogging his ears and you were almost certain he wasn’t doing the task he was assigned to, due the smirk plastered on his face.

You tried to ignore him, but when he began snickering you couldn’t hold yourself back any longer. Nothing annoyed you more than someone not pulling their weight in a group project, especially when it was 50% of your grades and he was just hoping to cruise along and put in barely any effort. Not on your watch.

“Something funny about coding?” You asked glaring across the table at Yunseo.

He didn’t even seem phased that you had caught him not doing his part and just casually moved his earphones down slightly, returning your glare with his own, still smirking like he found the situation amusing.

“I actually finished the code a while ago.” He said with confidence leaning back further in his chair and crossing his arms over his chest to symbolise you weren’t intimidating him at all.

You gritted your teeth in annoyance and closed your laptop in front of you to show him you weren’t messing around.

This caught Felix and Hana’s attention, Felix looked between you both taking in your confrontation stances and Hana sunk back in her chair turning up the soft music she was listening to, trying not to get caught up in what was occurring.

“And you didn’t think to let us know? Or do something else more productive with your time?” You questioned annoyance clear in your tone as you copied his posture, crossing your own arms across your chest, showing him you weren’t backing down.

He scoffed and rolled his eyes at you, “Who are you, my mother?”

The lack of respect he had for you and the other members of your group was evident, but if he thought he could get away with treating you all like shit and getting you all to do the work for him, he was wrong.

“If I was, I’d be disappointed to have a son like you.” You effortlessly spat, fixing your glare like you had fire raging in your eyes. You were pissed. You had spent enough time in the gaming industry or even the gaming community to know the underling sexism that radiated out of too many people to count. Yunseo’s attitude toward you was only reminding you of that and igniting a fire within you.

You saw anger rage behind Yunseo’s eyes, and he moved forward slowly, but powerfully as he stared you down, trying to intimidate you into submission with his gaze, but you weren’t budging.

“Who the fuck do you think you are?” He basically growled at you, gripping the table in front of him tightly like he was trying to calm himself down.

You felt Felix stiffen next you and his gaze looked straight ahead not even looking in Yunseo’s direction.

“Watch your fucking tone.” Felix spoke slowly and calmly, but his deep voice was stern and clearly warning Yunseo to back down.

Yunseo for the first time since you started the confrontation broke eye contact with you and changed his glare to Felix.

“Or what?” Yunseo taunted puckering his lips toward Felix.

You saw Felix snap his head in Yunseo’s direction and in a flash, he had risen to his feet to stand up to Yunseo who also stood.

Hana let out a shriek and you jumped up getting in between Felix and Yunseo, facing Felix.

Although Yunseo was a strong looking guy, you weren’t worried about Felix getting injured, he’d done taekwondo for twelve years, he was more than capable of taking care of himself during a fight. It was more the watchful eye that the professor was sending over to your group that was concerning you.

You grabbed onto Felix’s wrist firmly trying to ground him, “Felix, calm down” you tried to speak softly trying not to alert anyone else of what was going on.

You felt Yunseo’s breath hit the back of your neck and you froze with eyes growing wide at how close he was, and you felt Felix react to his closeness, feeling his muscles contract under your grasp. Felix’s eyes were still fixed on the man behind you, and he moved right up into you in a protective way, glaring over you.

“Felix.” You hissed opting to instead drag him out of the room and away from the situation.

Yunseo held his cocky smirk but didn’t say anything further while he held eye contact with Felix as you tugged him away and out of view.

Once you were out of site and around the side of the building you let go of Felix’s wrist and let out a sigh turning to face him, but before you could say anything Felix rushed over to you with a concerned look on his face.

He took your face into his hands and caressed you gently while he scanned over you, “Are you okay? He’s such a jerk.”

Your eyes widened at Felix’s sudden shift in demeanour. He was ready to kill Yunseo inside or at the bare minimum beat the shit out of him, but now he was back to the usual Felix you knew, soft and caring.

“Felix, I’m fine, I’ve dealt with worse.” You reassured him, reaching up and grasping his hands pulling them away from your face.

He frowned at you in response, and you saw his composure come back to him as he relaxed his shoulders.

“That guy is such a dick.” Felix cursed rocking his head side to side in annoyance like he was trying to stretch the muscle there and couldn’t.

You let out another sign and leaned up against the building wall with your back to it.

“Yes, but you didn’t have to go all psycho on him, I was handling it.” You crossed your arms across your chest again but this time it was in a relaxed way.

You weren’t annoyed that Felix had defended you back there, it was actually quite attractive watching Felix’s devotion for you as he defended your honour. The truth was you had always stuck to your independence, not wanting anyone to feel like they needed to protect you, you wanted to be your own knight in shining armour.

Felix arched an eyebrow at you and came over to you placing a hand on the wall either side of you, like he had done the previous night in your room. It made your stomach erupt with butterflies as he ducked his head down low to look deeply into your eyes.

“You’re right, I didn’t have to act like that.” He agreed placing a quick peck to your nose before continuing, “But I wanted to. No one and I mean no one, gets to talk to you like that- especially in front of me.”

You audibly swallowed the saliva that had pooled in your mouth at his words and tried to push away the fluttering within you. What was Felix doing to you? It was as if he had gone rogue on your arrangement, the lines were beginning to blur, and your fight or flight was kicking in.

You ducked under Felix’s right arm, escaping the position he had you in against the wall and put some distance between you.

“For what it’s worth, thank you Lix.” You said eyes looking at the ground as you shifted nervously, “But you know how I feel about our classmates knowing what’s going on, next time I’ve got it, okay?”

You saw Felix’s composure falter for a second, but he covered it almost instantly, leaning himself back against the wall, arms crossed as you had been a moment ago.

Felix nodded before looking away from you and off into the distance.

“Do you mind grabbing my stuff? I can’t be in class with that dickhead right now.” Felix asked scratching the back of his head with a sheepish grin, a habit he had adapted when he felt guilty.

“Sure.” You nodded turning to head back to class.

You paused in place. You felt awkward leaving things like this, and you didn’t want Felix to think you were mad at him, so you turned and skipped over to Felix pressing a kiss into his check whispering in his ear, “It was really hot though.”

With that you left a gobsmacked Felix leant up against the wall as you hurried off to go and collect his things.

When you returned to the computer lab, Yunseo was gone and Hana was sitting alone at the table, head centimetres away from her electronic sketchpad finishing off an animation she was working on.

“Looks great so far Hana!” You complimented as you began to gather Felix’s and your things, deciding you didn’t want to be in class anymore either.

Hana jumped a little, having been too absorbed in her drawing to notice you approach the table at all.

“Thanks.” She mumbled shyly giving you a quick glance before continuing her drawing.

“We’re heading out for the day; Yunseo has ruined our mood. Felix and I will make sure to send you what we worked on today.” You explained to Hana as you swung your bag over your shoulder and held Felix’s in your other hand.

Hana nodded, looking up from her sketchpad to address you, “Yunseo and Professor Choi had an argument and Yunseo stormed off.”

You let out a sigh and used your spare hand to gently squeeze Hana’s shoulder, “Don’t worry about it, I’ll sort Yunseo out another time and get him back on track. Just focus on what you need to do, and Felix and I will deal with the rest.” You gave her a smile trying to reassure her as much as you were trying to reassure yourself.

“Okay.” She replied, “See you.”

You quickly exchanged goodbyes with Hana and headed out of the door with the stuff you had collected, trying not to make Felix wait too long.

Felix seemed surprised as he saw you round the corner with not only his backpack, but your study bag and raised an eyebrow at you. He had sparked up a cigarette since you left him and was breathing out a puff of smoke as you extended his backpack to him.

“Want to get some breakfast and act like this morning hasn’t happened?” You asked him, shrugging casually.

Felix grinned warmly at you and took a long drag of the cigarette between his fingers, before blowing the smoke in your direction teasingly.

Anyone else would be offended by the action, but Felix knew regardless of how much you criticized him for his unhealthy habit, you found it extremely attractive.

You scrunched your nose and pouted as the harsh scent of cigarette smoke slapped your nose.

“Sure darling, my shout.” Felix agreed to your suggestion, throwing the last of his cigarette on the floor and stamping it out with his shoe.

Felix took in your pouty expression from him smoking and reached out pinching your cheeks inward with one hand to push your pout out further to which he pressed his lips against yours briefly.

“I promise I’ll ditch the cigs eventually.” He smirked giving you a wink to which you rolled your eyes and pulled your head away from his grip.

“Whatever, let’s go before I change my mind.” You huffed heading off into the direction of your group’s local coffee shop hangout with Felix falling into step beside you.

The week had flown by quickly and you’d spent most of your time working on the group project or trying to finish your coding assignment.

You had learned that Yunseo was chatted by the professor that day for his poor behaviour and was told if he didn’t fix things and prove he did his part of the assignment to the best of his ability, he risked failing the unit and having to repeat it next term. Ever since that day he had suddenly become more enthusiastic to participate.

It was now Friday night, the night before the 3Racha dorm party and you were currently curled up on your bed with Felix watching a K-Drama he had recommended, on your mini projector for your weekly Netflix and chill night.

Your Netflix and chill nights were never fixed to one certain day, but they had to occur at least once per week, and they were used to relieve your stress from the week through each other.

By the end of whatever you were watching Felix normally had his hands down your pants and his lips pressing scorching kisses into your neck and sometimes you didn’t even make it to the end of what you were watching.

Your roommate was over at Hyunjin’s dorm having a study night for their shared classes, so you took the opportunity of an empty dorm to hold your usual hangout with Felix.

Tonight, felt oddly different. Felix had his arms wrapped around you protectively, one of his hands was caressing the back of your head and was gently stroking your hair. Occasionally he would press a light kiss into your hair, normally when you let out a giggle at something on the screen or when you hummed in content- a reaction to how fuzzy his hand in your hair was making you feel.

You had your arms wrapped around his waist and you were clinging to his side, fingers toying with the band of his black sweatpants, but you had no desire to pull them off, rather you found comfort in moving your fingertips to graze over the skin of his hip, earning another light kiss from Felix every time you did.

“Are you still going to the party tomorrow night?” Felix asked out of the blue as the episode came to an end, displaying the next episode beginning in ten seconds’ screen.

“Yeah, it’ll be good to see everyone, I haven’t seen a lot of the gang in forever.” You exclaimed pulling your head back from his chest to look up at him as you spoke.

“Let me know if it gets too much, I don’t mind coming back here with you and hanging.” Felix informed you, his hand that was stroking your hair moving down to trail his thumb from your temple to your lips.

His finger was surprisingly soft as he traced your bottom lip staring intently at his finger gliding across it.

“You don’t have to leave the party just because of me.” You stated looking up at him with doe eyes, “It’s not your job to make sure I’m comfortable in social settings.”

Felix’s features contorted momentarily, and his thumb’s movement stilled at your words and then dropped from your face to land on your hip.

“Yeah. I guess.” Felix mumbled looking back to the projector screen on the wall of your bedroom as the next episode begun.

Your gaze lingered on Felix. You weren’t oblivious and no matter how much you tried to convince yourself it wasn’t the case; things were shifting in your arrangement. Normally by now Felix would have made a move to initiate what your arrangement was for, but he hadn’t so much as groped you or even at the bare minimum looked at you with lusting eyes.

Was Felix regretting crossing the line from friends to friends with benefits? Had he wished you’d remained just friends? Did he not want to have sex with you anymore?

There was only one way to find out.

You moved your hand down to Felix’s arm that was resting over your stomach- the arm of the hand on your hip and began delicately dragging your fingertips up and down his arm causing goosebumps to appear.

You heard Felix suck in a sharp breath as he became aware of your actions, however his eyes remained trained on the projector screen ahead of you watching the new episode that had begun to play.

When you failed to get Felix’s attention, you let your fingertips glide up his arm, trailing over the bumps of his muscles and veins all the way up to his neck where you drew circles eliciting deep breaths from Felix as he tried his hardest to keep his eyes on the projector.

You narrowed your eyes at him. Why was he trying to resist you? He knew he didn’t have to hold himself back, that on nights like these you were at his beck and call- to have you whenever he wanted. All he had to do was respond or initiate it and you were his.

You leaned up to his ear, ghosting your lips over his cheek before whispering in the most seductive tone you could muster, “I want you, Felix.”

As soon as your words left your lips, Felix sprung up out of your bed and away from your touch like you had just shocked him with an electric current.

“…Y/N…I…” Felix stammered looking around the room but refusing to make eye contact with you as he tried to find the words he wanted to say.

His cheeks were brightly flushed, and now that he was standing in front of you, you could see the strain in his pants where his erection was pleading to be freed. If he wanted you, why was he resisting you?

Your curiosity was gnawing at you, begging you to find out why Felix was acting so differently from how he normally acted. You hated making Felix uncomfortable and you didn’t want to make the situation any worse, but you desperately needed to know what the hell was going on with him.

“Okay, what the hell is going on Felix?” You asked genuinely concerned over his behaviour.

He had been so physically affectionate with you at the start of this week, even going as far to publicly defend you when Yunseo had argued with you and yet now, he was jumping away from you the moment you tried to be intimate. None of it made sense.

“Nothing is going on.” He quickly breathed out, walking over to your dressing cabinet and putting away your folded laundry like it was something that needed to be done in this exact moment.

Your eyes followed him around the room as he moved, “Bullshit, what have I done?” You demanded refusing to believe that nothing was bothering him.

Felix quickly turned himself back to face you, waving his hand dismissively to your remarks, “No, no! You haven’t done anything!” He hurriedly clarified as if the thought of you thinking you had done something wrong was absurd.

You didn’t believe him that you hadn’t done anything, why else would he be acting this way, but you also didn’t want to press him if he wasn’t ready to talk about it.

Felix could tell you didn’t believe what he said, so he let out a breath he didn’t realise he was holding and came back to sit next to you, taking your hand in his, holding onto it ever so gently and rubbing his thumb over the back of your hand soothingly.

“It’s not that I don’t want you, I always want you.” Felix tried to explain still refusing to meet your eyes, “But I also really enjoy just being your friend and hanging out with you.”

There it was all your fears were answered and it was just as you had expected. He was having second thoughts about your arrangement. You felt your stomach fall.

You pulled your hand slowly out of Felix’s touch, suddenly feeling like it no longer belonged in his hand and Felix finally looked at you to see hurt and disappointment on your face.

“Only sometimes.” He tried to further explain, “And this isn’t me calling off our arrangement!” He was searching desperately for the right words as he watched you recoil from his side uncomfortably.

“Then what are you doing? I don’t understand.” You asked bringing your knees up to your chest resting your back on the headboard, so you were physically the farthest away from Felix on the bed.

“I’m saying, I know our rule is only sex, but sometimes I just want to hold you and drift off to sleep or shower you in affection that isn’t sexual.” Felix tried his hardest to make you understand what he was saying, and you finally understood what he meant.

Was Felix that afraid of commitment? He knows what this means surely? He was asking for more out of your arrangement, something that would blur the lines more than they had already been.

“Friends don’t do that sort of stuff Felix.” You muttered over your arms where your chin rested on them above your knees.

“We aren’t just friends though darling; we are friends with benefits. I’m just asking for more benefits.” Felix suggested crawling on the bed to sit right in front of you, giving you nowhere to run.

You looked into his eyes, and you could see the sincerity there, he really wanted you to agree with this, but you weren’t completely satisfied with these upgrades to your arrangement. Felix was basically asking you to do things that a girlfriend would do, without the title girlfriend, without the reassurance a girlfriend has and without the devotion of love.

It was a huge thing for him to ask of you, especially when he knew how adamant you were at the start of your arrangement with this only being about sex. You didn’t want one of you to get hurt, but here you were hurting, because you had just realised you wanted to be Lee Felix’s girlfriend and he just wanted to be your friend with benefits.

You looked away from him as you felt your heart twist upon the realisation of your feelings and blinked away the tears that were beginning to prick behind your eyes.

Felix noticed your shift in demeanour, he always did and placed his hands softly onto the outer parts of your shoulder’s rubbing soothingly like he had done earlier with his thumb on your hand.

“Hey, look at me, darling.” One of his hands left your shoulder to gently tilt your chin in his direction, making you look into his eyes once more. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have brought it up.” Felix apologised and you shook your head, he didn’t need to apologise for his lack of feelings.

“No, it’s okay, I’m okay.” You tried to reassure him by opening your posture to him and letting your knees and arms fall from their closed off stance. You reached out wrapping your hands around the back of his neck and you shifted yourself from your sitting position to climb into his lap and straddle him.

Felix’s hands instinctively fell to your waist holding you against him and he pressed a kiss into your cheek hesitantly like he wasn’t sure if he was allowed to do so anymore.

“We can do that, if that’s what you want.” You finally said voice light and Felix seemed unhappy with your answer.

His hands left your hips and moved upward to cup your face delicately in his hands, so you were forced again to look into his eyes.

“I only want it, if it’s something you want to do.” He said honestly and this time you believed what he told you, “If you want this to just be sex, then we can do that. I just thought that sometimes when one of us isn’t feeling up to it, we can still hang out and be around each other, because the truth is I love spending time with you and just chatting with you.”

You didn’t know how to talk to him about your concerns, about how if you hung out together like you had the other night then you weren’t just friends with benefits and you weren’t just friends either, doing those things meant something to you.

It wasn’t just somebody kissing you or holding you because it felt nice. It was Felix kissing you and holding you and it made you feel something. You no longer wanted to be just his friend or just his friends with benefits, when the benefits were more intimate than just casual sex.

Regardless of what he said about wanting what you wanted, you knew he didn’t have the feelings that you had, and you could see in his eyes he really did want to be able to cuddle you and hang with you even if no sex was involved. You could never say no to him and secretly despite your concerns about getting hurt more than you were already starting to, it also excited you to know you’d be able to spend even more time with Felix.

You leaned into his touch and gently slotted your lips against his, feeling his lips morph into a smile as he kissed you back, using his hands on your cheeks to deepen the kiss and take control of it.

He kissed you so slowly and passionately that you were taken by surprise, almost letting a gasp escape your lips. Felix kissed you as if he was trying to show you how happy it would make him for you to agree to his suggestion and how grateful he would be as a result.

You felt Felix’s tongue glide over where your lips met, but before he could deepen the kiss further you pulled away to look at him. His lips were puffy and swollen from the kiss and his eyes scanned your face trying to decipher your feelings, but you made sure to mask them and appear happy about your new arrangement which you were just about to agree too.

“I want to make sure I have this right.” You spoke up shuffling slightly, so you were sat fully in his lap, ignoring the half hard erection underneath you that you were now sitting on. “You want us to extend our friends with benefits, so that the only benefit isn’t just sex, but also hanging out cuddling and sleeping over?”

Felix nodded and bit the bottom of his lip nervously as he patiently waited for your answer.

You sucked in a deep breath, knowing full well this was only going to hurt you more in the long run, but your fear of Felix finding someone else he could do everything he wanted with, who didn’t care about titles or commitment scared you more than getting hurt did.

“We might need to update our rules then.” You stated with a nervous giggle.

Felix’s deep-toned chuckle caused his body to vibrate under your touch and he looked at you fondly.

“I barely even remember our rules to be honest, I’ve just been going with the flow.” Felix laughed moving his hands back down to your waist and resting them there comfortably.

“Let’s make them easier to remember this time.” You laughed along with him before stating your new rules, “No catching feelings, no sleeping with other people, keep it out of the classroom and only do what we are both comfortable with.”

Felix thought over the rules you had listed, and you almost thought he was going to disagree with you, but he slowly nodded and muttered out a “sounds good to me” before he pulled you into a tight comforting hug.

You melted into his hold and closed your eyes. You didn’t know how you were going to ignore the feelings starting to wrap themselves around your heart, but you were willing to try if that meant keeping Felix and the situationship you had built.

You blinked away the sleep from your eyes and let out a curse as you were met with the blinding flash of sunlight peeking through your bedroom blinds.

You had spent the rest of your Friday night finishing the season of the k-drama Felix and you had started, while cuddling into each other and drifting to sleep in a similar position.

Felix was still sound asleep next to you, your legs tangled up with his and his hand was outstretched towards you, as if he was trying to reach for you in his sleep.

You held back a coo that rose in your throat at the peaceful and adorable pouty face, sleeping Felix was making.

Once you had agreed to being intimate in other ways when sex wasn’t needed, Felix had attached himself to you, even following you into the kitchen to stay near you when you cooked the two of you dinner.

You definitely didn’t hate having Felix with you constantly, in fact you enjoyed it more than you should, but having him around and being so loving toward you, didn’t help your overpowering feelings for him.

You watched, captivated by the slow rise and fall of his chest and the soft whimpers that filtered out from between his pillowy lips.

His nose scrunched up as a strand of his silvery blonde hair tickled the tip of his nose and you reached out to move it out of his face affectionately.

Felix shuffled in his sleep and inched closer to you on the bed, still reaching out in your direction like his sleeping form could sense you there.

It startled you when you heard a faint slurry “Y/N” come from a sleepy Felix and his eyes were now half opened looking at you and still reaching for you.

You reached out in return, capturing his hand in yours and tucked him under the blankets more. He responded by nuzzling into the sheets and your pillow, his eyes fluttering closed once more, and it was hard to tell if he had even properly woken up when he called your name.

“Shh, sleep Lix.” You cooed letting go of his hand tucking it underneath the sheet with the rest of him and leaving a loving kiss to his forehead.

Felix hummed sleepily and once you heard his slow deep breaths return, you carefully removed yourself from the bed, convinced Felix had drifted back to sleep.

You walked into your bathroom, turning the tap on at your sink and begun splashing cool water into your face, trying to wake yourself up further.

Staring at your reflection you wondered how you had gotten yourself here. You were falling for your fuck buddy, you were breaking rule number one and there was nothing you could do about your feelings, beside ignore them and suppress them.

How successful could you really be with ignoring them or suppressing them? You had just spent another night with Felix doing everything intimate besides the one thing you originally agreed on, sex.

You needed to clear your head and focus on something else.

You decided that you hadn’t gone for a morning run in a long time and you hoped that the cool fresh morning air would bring some clarity on what to do in your situation.

Slipping quietly back into your bedroom, you grabbed your exercise leggings, a tank top and your sports bra and tip toed back out into the bathroom to get changed, managing not to disturb the sleeping boy in your bed.

Once you had gotten changed, you threw your hair up into a tight ponytail and went into the living room to put on your socks and your sneakers that were left by the front door.

You jogged your way out of your dorm complex and begun a slow run in the direction of the campus park.

The campus park was beautiful.

The centre of the park was a large, beautiful lake, that was home for ducks, lake fish and sometimes you were lucky enough to see the occasional swan. There was a bridge that went from the east side to the west side of the lake in case you were merely just passing through and needing a faster route, but the campus park wasn’t somewhere you hurried through. 

The lake was surrounded by grassed areas, gardens full of blooming flowers, park benches and even off to the south side was a gazebo, which was famous for on campus proposals of the young and in love.

The campus park otherwise known as Lake Tranquil, was exactly that. Peaceful, breath taking and relaxing. It was the go-to place for majority of students to study and was just genuinely loved by all.

Art majors loved to come here for painting, photography and sketching. Music majors came for inspiration for songs or tracks. Hell, you had even seen some of the law students down here basking in the sunlight by the lake, shaking the stress away from mid-semester exams.

You often came to Lake Tranquil on your runs, as well as most of the students on campus.

Breathing in the fresh lake scented air, standing on the middle of the bridge to appreciate the scenery and picking a flower to put by your bed side- which was definitely not allowed, but no one ever stopped you- were some of your favourite things to do when you passed through.

Suddenly you felt yourself crash into a hard moving object and you clattered to the grass covered ground below you with a yelp. You ripped your ear buds from your ears to hear what the person above you was saying.

“Oh my god! Y/N, are you okay?” Minho’s startled voice asked confirming he was what you had run into.

You looked up at him cupping your hand over your forehead to block away the sun denying your vision. Minho stood bent at the waist, holding a hand outward to you in an offer of helping you back to your feet and a concerned look apparent on his features.

You let out an awkward laugh, embarrassed that you weren’t paying attention to your surroundings and had run straight into one of your and Felix’s close friends.

You placed your hand in his and let him pull you back onto your feet.

“Sorry about that Min! Yeah, I’m okay, you didn’t get hurt, did you?” You asked while brushing off the combination of dirt and grass that had attached to the fabric of your leggings.

Minho shook his head in response to your question and then raised an eyebrow at you, “Where have you been hiding, it’s been far too long since I’ve seen you!” Minho questioned you.

He was observing your face intricately with a smug expression on his features, like he secretly knew what had been keeping you away from the friend group, but wanted to hear you admit it.

“Classes, assignments, homework…you know the usual.” You shrugged avoiding mentioning the main distraction from your friends.

Minho breathed out a chuckle and then bit his lip, like he was trying to physically hold himself back from speaking out what he wanted, but he did it anyway, “Not some guy around this tall, blondish silver hair, ‘I don’t care for relationships, but I’m a simp for Y/N’ type of attitude and conveniently also been missing from the friend group, distracting you from hanging with your friends?”

Minho held his hand up to just below his own height going along with the bit, his smug expression not faltering for a second as your cheeks burned with embarrassment.

You weren’t embarrassed by your arrangement with Felix, you weren’t even embarrassed by Minho talking about you and Felix spending too much time with each other. You were embarrassed by the fact that Minho knew the effect Felix had on you, that you would discard everything just to spend time with Felix.

If he had noticed it, who else had?

“Well…yes I’ve been spending a bit more time with Felix, but that has nothing to do with the friend group, you know I love you guys!” You instinctively defended yourself crossing your arms across your chest in a defensive position and shifted uncomfortably under Minho’s teasing gaze.

“Hmm, if you say so.” Minho hummed in disagreement, “You going to the party tonight?” He asked changing the conversation at the awareness of your sudden demeanour shift.

You relaxed a little at the topic change, “Yeah, Lix invited me earlier in the week, you?”

“Yeah, heading over early to help the boys set up and by boys, I mean Chan because we all know the other two aren’t helping.” Minho chuckled before reaching into his pocket to pull out his phone, checking the notification he had just received. “I got to go, but put some time aside tonight for your friend group, yeah?”

You felt your cheeks-which had only just started losing their rosy-red colour- heat back up again at Minho’s reference to you spending too much time with Felix.

“Yeah, of course!” You responded as he threw a wave over his shoulder, already jogging away from you in the direction he was going before he bumped into you.

You watched Minho jog away into the distance and you couldn’t help a feeling of helplessness wash over you. Minho was always the type of person to speak in secret references or have a deeper meaning hidden amongst his words. Was he trying to tell you, that your feelings for Felix were obvious and if you weren’t ready to reveal them, you needed to do a better job at hiding them?

Did Felix know how you felt and that’s why he stopped wanting to have sex with you? Scared you’d take more out of the act than agreed upon?

You shook your head, expelling yourself from your spiralling thoughts and pushed your earbuds back into your ears, turning up the volume as loud as you could handle and began running again.

You ended up running around the entirety of Lake Tranquil, before you found yourself back in front of your dorm door, typing in the code and entering.

You could hear the distant sound of running water coming from the direction of your bathroom and your roommate’s bedroom door was wide open, with no trace of her return to the dorm, indicating it was still only you and Felix in the dorm.

As you approached the bathroom, you thought over what you were about to do and if it was a good idea or not.

You had showered with Felix plenty of times before, always starting out innocent, but eventually steaming up into some of the best sex you’d ever had as the water cascaded down both of your conjoined figures.

You knew that if you entered the shower with Felix, he would know what it means, but you were sweaty from your run and you were intrigued to find out if he would continue to try and resist you, even in a situation where you both knew sex was inevitable.

You entered the bathroom slowly, making sure not to be too obvious, wanting to sneak in with him. Felix’s figure could be seen through the fogged-up shower glass, standing under the water current with his back to you.

You hurriedly discarded your clothes, eyes not leaving Felix’s body as he began washing his hair and you moved forward to the shower glass.

As if he suddenly sensed your presence Felix turned around, your eyes meeting. His eyes were widened slightly in surprise, but as soon as they widened, they shifted and relaxed with desire filling over his brown orbs as he scanned his eyes down your completely naked figure.

“Good morning, Darling.” He breathed out emphasising on the good while the water slashed harshly at the back of his neck from his stilled position under the stream.

“Morning, Handsome.” You quipped back, sliding open the glass shower door and stepping into the shower in front of Felix.

His hands instantly reached for you, finding their home on your waist and pulling you flush into him as he attached his lips to yours in a heated kiss.

You moaned unexpectedly into his lips which caused a groan to slip out of his own lips as he took your bottom lip in between his teeth biting down gently but hungrily.

You wrapped your hands around to his back where you let your fingernails glide from the tops of his shoulder blades downward, leaving searing red marks in their trail that sent shivers down Felix’s spine.

Felix threw his head back with a gasp disconnecting your lips, an expression of pure ecstasy passing across his features. You smiled triumphantly as you felt his erection hard and big leaning up against where you were pressed into him.

His hands on your waist tightened as he gripped you firmly, pulling you forward and spinning you around until your back hit the shower wall with a soft thud.

As soon as your back hit the wall, Felix was all over you. It was like you had snapped a switch within him as his lips pressed over your collarbone, up your neck and around your earlobes, nibbling into the skin there leaving marks you know wouldn’t be able to be covered by makeup.

His hands travelled painfully slow up from your hips, tracing his fingertips delicately on the skin of your naked sides causing your heart to accelerate, and your breaths to come out as pants that formed into breathy moans.

Your hands moved to hold his biceps trying to ground yourself while the only emotion you could sense was want and desire for Felix, becoming overwhelming as you extended your neck back against the wall, giving Felix more access to it.

“I want you so bad.” Felix groaned, thrusting his hips against you and pushing himself further into your skin, if that was even possible.

His cock was red and angry pressed up against your lower stomach, trapped in between your two bodies. You didn’t need him to tell you that, you could sense in every essence of his being that he wanted you and you wanted him just as badly.

“I’m yours.” You moaned back at him in response, rolling your hips forward against him chasing any type of friction.

Your words seemed to trigger something in Felix as he froze marking your neck and focused on slowing his breathing down.

Felix pulled himself slowly away from you, clearly trying to relax himself as he put some distance between you.

As you looked over his panicked expression, you realised what you had just said. You idiot. It’s not like you hadn’t said the sentence before, but with Felix displaying commitment issues as of late, your choice of words was a huge mistake.

“Felix…I” You swallowed trying to slow your own heart beat down as you moved forward, your hand reaching out for his arm, trying to pull him from his head that he had disappeared into.

The second your hand touched Felix’s arm he retracted from your space and hurried out of the shower, grabbing his towel and making quick efforts to dry himself as quickly as possible.

“I forgot I had to help Chan with something before the party today, I’ve got to go.” Felix spoke almost emotionlessly as he dried himself off and began throwing his clothes on.

You stood stunned in place, fallen against the wall, your head hung low too ashamed to look up at him. You felt dirty, stupid and vulnerable.

Just like the last time you were in the shower with the departure of Felix, you felt the water grow cold and the slight breeze of the room was harshly reminding you of reality setting in.

Before Felix exited the bathroom, he glanced over at your slumped saddened self and frowned. He moved back over to the shower and reached a hand through the stream, avoiding the water getting on his clothes to pick up your hand in his.

He pulled you forward under the stream completely and through it to the other side, where you came face to face with him.

“I’m sorry, I’ll see you later, okay?” His voice was soft now, a hint of sadness to it and concern.

You couldn’t find your voice, so you opted a simple nod, eyes still refusing to leave the tiled floor of the shower.

You felt him squeeze your hand in his and his lips pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead, before he removed himself from your space once more and exited the bathroom without another word.

You crumpled to the tiled floor and let your head hide away into your hands, knees drawn to your chest, and you let out the tears and sobs you had held back while Felix was still here.

All your fears from your run earlier had just been answered.

You were in love with Felix, Felix knew how you felt, but he didn’t love you back.

The rest of the day leading up to the 3Racha dorm party you spent moping around your dorm. Your roommate had arrived back around lunch time, saying they’d crashed at Hyunjin’s overnight and were in need of doing more study for other units before the party tonight.

You had tried to distract yourself with study at some point during the day, but your thoughts would soon spiral into the recent memories with Felix and the feeling of regret and embarrassment would fill you with dread not long after.

There were only a few hours left until the party and you were currently dissociated, staring at the wall of your bedroom.

You were contemplating whether even still going tonight would be a good thing. If you went, there was no way you could escape Felix, you would have to see him eventually and that could make everything worse, but then at the same time, Minho had mentioned your lack of engagement within the friend group and he wasn’t wrong, you had barely spent any time with them in the last month.

If only you hadn’t been so foolish this morning.

Letting out a long-drawn-out sigh you let your body fall to the side in defeat on top of your bed, curling into the fetal position and hiding your head in your hands ashamed.

You felt your phone vibrate from next to you, bringing you out of your sullen emotions and you reached one arm out to feel around the sheets for your phone.

Once in your grasp you held the phone up to eye level and to your surprise you had a few text messages from Felix.

The text messages only confused your feelings more. What was Felix playing at, one minute he’s jumping away from you at the slightest mention of you being his and now he can’t wait to see you tonight?

You groaned throwing your phone to the side and burying your head into your blankets.

As much as you wanted to wrap your blankets around you and spend the night wallowing in self-pity, you couldn’t, you had promised Minho, your roommate and now Felix that you would make it tonight.

Across the hallway into your roommate’s room, you could hear her blow-dryer going, indicating she was finished with her study and getting ready for the party.

You looked down at your comfy home clothes and let out a sigh, dragging yourself out of the welcoming embrace of your bed sheets and began looking through your closet for something to wear.

You opted for a black mini skirt that flared out slightly around your thighs, giving you easy movement if you decided to join the dance floor with some tight black safety shorts underneath just in case. You paired the skirt with an off the shoulder blood red crop top, that flowed with a frill around the top of the shirt and shoulder’s where it draped down, as well as black converse shoes, a wide clunky belt that hugged your waist in the right places and various jewellery to pull the outfit together.  

You left your hair out, letting it flow down your back, but still combed it through styling it to how you preferred.

As you were finishing off your makeup, you phone pinged from next to you, signalling you had another string of incoming texts. Some from Minho demanding you actually show yourself tonight and a few more from Felix asking if you were there and then asking when you were arriving.

You saw the time was 8:04pm and you cursed that you had taken longer to get ready than you had thought.

You raced around your room, grabbing your things and then headed toward your roommate’s room to tell her to hurry up.

You poked your head around the corner and saw your room mate sitting at her dressing table, smiling widely down at her phone as she typed a text message back, to who you could only assume was her best friend Jeongin.

They were inseparable from the moment Hyunjin introduced the two of them and you were grateful to have someone so caring to call your roommate.

You weren’t the closest of roommates, she hadn’t been living with you for too long, but you wouldn’t want anyone else as your roommate.

Everyone could see the looks your roommate and Jeongin shared, and no one believed them when they said they were just friends, this was a prime example of it.

Your roommate turned her head noticing you standing in her doorway and you gave her a friendly affectionate smile.

“You ready to go? Felix is wondering where we are.” You rolled your eyes playfully in a teasing manner.

“Let me just brush my teeth, then I’ll be good to go.” She smiled at you while tying her shoelaces.

You thought over the recent events with Felix, the mixed signals he had been displaying and your overwhelming sense of confusion to who you were to Felix at all. Your roommate was closer with the friend group, due to her hanging around them more and having a deeper connection with more of the members of the group.

Although she wasn’t super close with Felix, it wouldn’t hurt asking her opinion of Felix as you had never bothered to ask before.

“You are friends with the boys more than I am,” You stated entering her room and leaning against the wall next to the door frame, “What do you think of Felix?” you continued and asked in a serious tone.

Your roommate stopped tying her shoelaces and sat up to look at you, seemingly confused, “I would assume you know Felix better than I do?”

You blushed at her words and let out a nervous laugh, “In some ways I guess, but would you say he’s a good person?”

She arched an eyebrow at you, “Yeah? Why? Has something happened between you guys?” She asked appearing like she was lost on what this conversation even meant.

“No! No, nothing than the usual…well…never mind it’s not important.” You suddenly felt like talking about your feelings wasn’t a good idea.

“Look, I don’t know the full extent on what is going on with you two, but you seem to both really enjoy what you have. Felix is a great guy, you’re a great girl. Live in the moment and try not to overthink so much. Overthinking only leads to bad things.” She advised you, standing up from her dressing table and straightening her outfit.

You pondered over her words and then mentally tried to shake the worry out of you.

Your roommate was right. You might have feelings for Felix, but until Felix was willing to have that conversation- and even if he did the result could be terrible- there wasn’t anything you could do.

You just had to live in the moment and be happy that you got to be with Felix in whatever capacity you could.

“You’re right. Brush your teeth and let’s go, I need a drink desperately.” You laughed pushing yourself off the wall behind you and exiting your roommate’s room to wait for her in the living room.

By the time you and your room mate rocked up to the infamous 3Racha dorm, music was blearing loudly, people were scattered absolutely everywhere, and party lights were shining brightly out the front door and any cracks of windows that weren’t covered by curtains.

The living room had been cleared to make a makeshift dance floor and the open plan kitchen counter was turned into a DJ set up, where Chan was perched proudly mixing for the small crowd dancing. His girlfriend was beside him drinking and talking to who you knew was her roommate. The entry way to the back patio had a group of people playing drinking games in a circle on the floor and the back glass double doors were fully open to reveal a beer pong table assembled and a group playing.

You passed Minho and Changbin on your way through the doorway into the living room and Changbin threw his arm around your roommate dragging her away from you and into their conversation.

Minho perked up upon seeing your arrival to the party, happy that you had decided to keep to your promise, and you sent him a wink.

“I’ll see you later, I’m gonna go find Felix!” You shouted over the music to the group of three to which your roommate nodded with a smile.

You left the three of your friends and decided to check outside first, as you had scanned the first floor on entry and couldn’t see Felix anywhere nearby.

Passing the group playing beer pong, you walked further outside. There were significantly less people out here, being too early in the night for people to require air or needing to spread out and relax.

There was a group of smokers sitting around an unlit campfire and you noticed the unmistakeable silvery blonde hair of Felix bobbing as he laughed at something one of the male smokers said to him.

You couldn’t control the smile that forced itself onto your face as you watched his smile crinkle the skin around his eyes, turning them into little crescent moons that outshone the moon that hung in the sky above you.

As if Felix sensed your arrival, his eyes drifted from the man in front of him to look at you standing on the patio near the beer pong table.

His mouth gaped slightly as his eyes raked down your body and then back up to meet your eyes again. He seemed mesmerised just by the sight of you.

Ignoring the man that was still talking to him, Felix stood to his feet and begun walking over to where you were standing on the patio, not breaking eye contact while he did.

“Darling, you look incredible.” He breathed out, not wasting a moment to bring you into his embrace for a longer hug than a typical friendly hug. It wouldn’t be a Felix hug, if he didn’t snuggle his face into your neck and breath in your scent, sending the familiar shiver down your spine that you could somehow never get use to.

You giggled nervously at the compliment, suddenly feeling lightheaded now that he had his arms around you again, even though you had only been in them this morning.

Felix was seeming to ignore what happened this morning and you didn’t want to make things awkward or make the situation worse, so you decided to do the same.

“What no cigarette? Are you feeling okay?” You joked pulling away just enough to give him your trademark smirk.

His eyes lit up at the fact you were willing to look past this morning and he gave your hips a squeeze in a silent agreement to move on and have a good night.

“I knew I was seeing you and thought I’d better hold off.” Felix smiled at you, finally pulling away from you to turn you away from the smoker’s area, slinging one of his arms over your shoulders and he begun guiding you back inside the party.

“It’s never stopped me from kissing you before, you know that right?” You said honestly falling into step beside Felix.

Before Felix could respond, you both were stopped in place by Jisung, Changbin and Minho who had blocked your path at the double doors to inside.

“And where do you think you two are going?” Changbin questioned putting his hands on his hips and furrowing his eyebrows in a serious stance like he was an angry mother whose child had just returned home late past curfew.

“To get drinks, didn’t know it was a crime, father.” Felix quick witted, pulling you into his side tighter as if the presence of your three friends was somehow a threat.

Changbin scoffed in annoyance at the insinuation he was treating Felix like a kid, but his features gave him away that he found this whole situation amusing.

“We have perfectly good drinks for you right here though.” Minho stated extending one of his arms to gesture to the beer pong table that was now cleared of the group that was originally playing on it when you arrived.

“Tempting, but the maths isn’t mathing and it appears we have one too many.” Felix responded going to step around the three boys, attempting to pull you with him, but Jisung linked arms with you and effectively ripped you from Felix’s grasp.

“Not fair! You’ve spent so much time with Y/N the last few weeks, learn how to share!” Jisung complained wrapping his arms around you from your right side and holding you firmly so you could not escape.

Felix was no longer willing to joke around. His jaw had set in place, his cheeks were flushed with red like he had eaten too much spice and he seemed almost ready to explode with anger as his eyes looked at you in Jisung’s arms.

“Stop fighting over her like she’s a toy.” Minho lectured, scolding Jisung with a slap to the back of his head which got Jisung’s arms to fall away from you. “Have you even bothered to ask what Y/N wants to do?”

Minho turned his attention to you with a raised eyebrow.

You could choose to go inside with Felix, get drinks, maybe talk about this morning or dance a little, but Minho’s voice from early in the morning rang through your mind.

‘Put some time aside tonight for your friend group.’

“I am feeling a bit competitive, can you spare me for just one game?” You directed your question to Felix with a pout and matching puppy eyes, trying to soften the blow of you choosing to hang with your friend group over spending time with him.

Even though Felix was annoyed, his eyes softened at your pleading expression, and he let out a sigh.

“Of course, come find me when you’re done, okay?” Felix responded leaning over to press a haste kiss to your cheek after you gave him a nod.

“You aren’t going to stay and watch Jisung and I, kick their butts?” Changbin asked shagging up Jisung’s hair affectionately, earning a groan from the younger boy.

Felix shook his head and bit his lip, still tense from Jisung’s actions with you, “Nah, I’m gonna grab a drink, chat to Chan and maybe have a smoke.”

“Your loss, something tells me this will be over pretty quick though.” Changbin shrugged sending a wink to Minho playfully.

Minho clicked his tongue to the roof of his mouth in disagreement and playfully shoved Changbin away by a hand to his chest.

“Put your money where your mouth is, I bet $150 that Y/N and I stomp you both.” Minho bet moving over to the beer pong table to set up.

One game of beer pong turned into two as a result of Jisung and Changbin’s peer pressure and you were beginning to feel the effects of losing the first game and barely winning the second.

Felix hadn’t resurfaced, so after your second game finished you decided to head back inside the party before you could be talked into another round.

If you thought the party was well under way when you arrived, it was nothing compared to now. Either that or it was the fresh buzzing alcohol in your system.

The music seemed loud enough now that it was thumping in your chest, the small dance floor in front of the kitchen bench where Chan had left his playlist to run through was now covered with people dancing – more like grinding on each other to the beat, and getting around the dorm house was seemingly more difficult than before.

You were scanning the faces of people pushing past you and of anyone you could glance at, but none held the face of the man you were looking for.

Suddenly you felt someone’s hand wrap around your wrist, and you were tugged by someone near the bottom of the staircase out of the crowd you were in.

You stumbled a little on your feet and their hand on your wrist moved to your waist to stabilise you.

“Shit, sorry!” Seungmin apologised ensuring you were stable on your feet before he stood back from you giving your space back to you.

“Hey.” You giggled feeling a lightheaded from being jostled around and the alcohol, “Is everything alright?” You asked once you had composed yourself.

“Can we talk upstairs for a minute? Some stuff just happened.” Seungmin asked you, looking disappointed.

You weren’t as close with Seungmin like you were with some of the others in the group, so you had a feeling it might have something to do with your room mate and your face fell at the thought that something might have happened to her, especially if Seungmin wanted to talk with you.

“Of course, lets go.” You nodded taking the lead and walking up the stairs next to you with Seungmin following behind you.

Upstairs was almost like a different world to the party in full swing downstairs. There were only a few people hanging in the hallway, the bathroom was occupied, but with only a short line of people waiting, and the boys’ bedroom doors were all shut and locked indicating no more people were upstairs.

Seungmin took over the lead slipping past you and walked over to stand in front of the study turned music room door that was shut, but since it was at the end of the hallway, it gave you two a little privacy from the people waiting to use the bathroom.

“Sorry to pull you away, but I thought you should know about a situation that just unfolded.” Seungmin sighed running a hand through his hair in a distressed manner.

“What’s going on Seungmin, what’s this about?” You asked impatiently wanting to know if your roommate was okay, or what Seungmin could possibly be this worried about.

“Your roommate and Jeongin. I think they finally realised they both have feelings for each other. I knew Jeongin had been crushing on her for a while and I had my suspicions she felt the same way, but tonight it’s been made pretty clear it’s mutual.” Seungmin explained leaning his back against the wall like he needed the support to stand.

You let yourself fall back into the wall next to him and let out a ‘woah’ at the information just given to you.

“What happened tonight?” You questioned curiously while thinking through all the signs you’d seen from your roommate that she liked Jeongin.

“They were dancing, or should I call it for what it really was, basically dry humping. They looked like they were about to kiss, I was getting ready to track down Jisung and demand my winnings, but ‘cutie’ just panicked and ran out of the house. Don’t worry though, Hyunjin saw everything, and he’s gone to make sure she’s okay.” Seungmin explained further putting an emphasis on the nickname Jeongin always used in reference to your roommate- you’d even picked up the habit of calling her that every now and again.

 “I mean, can’t say I’m surprised. I had my suspicions as well; they’ve never really acted like only just friends. Friends don’t look at each other like that.” You agreed pondering over the information just given to you and relaxing more against the wall knowing that your roommate had her other best friend to make sure she got home safe.

“Like how you and Felix look at each other?” Seungmin broke the seriousness of the conversation to smirk over at you.

You felt an uncontrollable blush creep across your cheeks. Was it seriously this obvious of your feelings for Felix?

“We’re different and I don’t need to remind you how…” You trailed off rolling your eyes at him trying to distract Seungmin from noticing the flush in your cheeks. You’d blame it on the alcohol even if he did.

“Oh yeah, totally different.” Seungmin said sarcastically as he held back a laugh crossing his arms across his chest and pushing himself off the wall, ready to head back down to the party. “Anyway, I just wanted to fill you in, in case you need to be there for her tonight.”

“Thanks, Seungmin and thank you for always looking out for Jeongin and cutie, it doesn’t go un noticed. You’re a great friend.” You expressed your gratefulness for Seungmin with a soft smile on your face and all the sincerity in your tone to back it up.

Seungmin’s iconic puppy grin took over his features at your words and he beamed with pride. He reached out pulling you into his chest for a brief hug in gratitude for your kind words.

“Y/N!” You all of a sudden heard Felix’s voice boom from the direction of the top of the stairs and you pulled away to see a very annoyed looking Felix marching toward the two of you.

From the way Felix had called over to you, the people waiting by the bathroom’s attention was now on the three of you, curious to see what was going on.

“I’ll catch you later Y/N.” Seungmin excused himself, leaving your side and heading past Felix.

“Sup Lix.” Seungmin greeted Felix as he walked over to him, but Felix just pushed passed him making a b line toward you and muttered a ‘we’ll chat later’ at a confused and stunned Seungmin.

“Hey Lixie, sorry I was coming inside to find-what’re you doing??” You tried to address Felix and explain your detour situation, but Felix just wrapped your wrist like Seungmin had previously done, but Felix had a much stronger grip on your wrist.

Felix tugged you toward Jisung’s door and to your surprise, swung open Jisung’s bedroom door and pulled you into it before slamming it shut behind you.

Before you could even question how Felix knew Jisung’s door was unlocked, Felix pushed you up against Jisung’s closed door and pressed himself flush against you, dipping his head so his face was directly in front of yours.

“What were you and Seungmin doing up here?” Felix questioned you, searching your eyes, prepared to detect any sense of nervousness or deceit.

“He wanted to tell me about Jeongin and my roommate, some stuff happened- wait, why is that important? What’s going on with you?” You demanded furrowing your eyebrows at his strange behaviour.

Felix’s hands left the position on your waist to trap you against the door, by placing one hand on either side of your head on the door like your defiance to his interrogation was a sign you were going to try and leave.

“Why’d he leave when I showed up then?” Felix continued his line of questioning, bringing his face closer to yours, grazing his nose against your cheek and jawline sending tingles wherever it traced.

“To give us a chance to talk? I don’t know, I’m not a mind reader Felix.” You were losing your patience now, Felix was coming across as jealous, which was making no sense to you in the slightest from his behaviour this morning to now.

Felix pulled away from your face to look at you taken a back by your sudden annoyance with him.

“I’m just asking. Why are you so defensive?” He scoffed taking a step away from you and crossing his arms across his chest, but still keeping your eye contact.

“Why are you on the attack? I was just speaking to one of OUR friends.” You argued back, gesturing between the two of you sharing a mutual friend. It’s not like he didn’t know Seungmin would NEVER try anything with you and even if he would, you were definitely not Kim Seungmin’s type.

“I’m not.” Felix stated quite bluntly and even though you were growing increasingly angry with the situation and the mixed signals he was giving off, you could tell Felix was trying to not let this escalate, “I was waiting for you inside like I said and then I see you being dragged upstairs by OUR friend, what am I supposed to think?”

It didn’t matter though, the way Felix had gone about asking these questions were out of line and maybe it was the alcohol in your system or maybe it was your self-respect kicking in, but you weren’t being accused of something that very clearly would never happen.

“Maybe think that it was Kim Seungmin I was with, my friend, your friend? If you don’t trust Seungmin that much, you should at least trust me enough to know I would NEVER do something like that you. Regardless of the fact we are only fuck buddies and you have no say over who I talk with anyway!” You exploded at Felix, pushing off the wall and walking up into his space with a scowl on your face.

Felix’s features fell into an almost pout at your sudden explosion and you saw hurt flash across his face after hearing your words.

Without giving Felix a chance to say anything, you continued, speaking more composed and at normal talking volume this time, “What is going on with you lately Felix?”

Felix froze in place by your question, like you had triggered a touchy topic with him.

When he didn’t respond you continued again, letting the rant that had been building up in you over the past week out.

“Between defending me against Yunseo, asking for more intimacy in our arrangement, rejecting any advances I make involving sex, being suspicious of me talking with Seungmin and this morning- I don’t know what to think Felix. What the fuck are these mixed signals?? You want me to be this laid-back fuck buddy one minute and the next you want me to be your unofficial girlfriend. It’s confusing as fuck. What do you want-”

You didn’t get to finish your sentence when Felix crashed his lips against yours, pushing you with force back up against Jisung’s still closed bedroom door.

His lips were hungry moving against yours, every movement they made was passion filled to the brim like he was trying to convey what all his previous actions of the week meant, but nothing was any clearer to you.

You were taken aback by his advances to begin with, but your lips moved just as hungrily against Felix’s, falling into the familiarity of kissing Felix. Kissing Felix was like a well-rehearsed dance, with months of practice and revisits.

The soft biting, he would apply to your bottom lip to get you to gasp, resulting in your mouth parting slightly to which he would take advantage of and glide his tongue between them, deepening the kiss making you moan out from the new sensation.

His hands roamed up your sides, then down again to rest upon your ass under your skirt where he gave you a strong squeeze, causing you to roughly break away from the kiss to let out a louder than you wanted moan.

Without hesitating Felix dropped his head into the crook of your neck as soon as your lips were removed from his, leaving wet imprints into the skin and adding more markings or replacing ones that were beginning to fade.

You tangled your hands in his silvery blonde locks and tugged earning a grunt from Felix as he rutted forward into you, pressing his hardening erection into you and pushing you further into the door.

You were consumed by his scent. Lemon and orange blossoms that had been drifting in the sea breeze glided on the air around you, sunk into your pores and demanded attention of your senses. Lulling you into giving in to him. You could never say no to the temptation. You breathed Felix, you wanted Felix, you loved Felix.

You loved Felix? There it was again. The overwhelming warmth spreading around and encasing your heart in the devotion to the man that had every opportunity to break it.

You halted your participation and froze against Felix. Felix immediately pulled away from you again, just enough to look into your scared eyes with his lust filled ones.

Felix’s desire for you, drifted out of his eyes as realisation began to fill them instead and he leaned forward so his forehead was resting perfectly against yours.

To your shock Felix let out a soft chuckle that sounded raspy with the hints of lust still remaining in his system.

“It’s okay Darling, I was scared too.” Felix admitted bringing a hand to rest on your cheek and play with a few strands of your hair to get you to look at him, bringing you nose to nose now.

Felix’s words only confused you further.

“Scared?” You repeated back almost dissociated from how hard you were trying to disconnect your emotions for Felix, so your feelings were no longer on display.

“I love you.” Felix whispered into a breath that tickled against your lips.

All lust was gone from his eyes, a new emotion that you had seen before filled his eyes that you were beginning to recognise. Love? Did Felix just say he loved you?

Your eyes widened as your brain registered what he had just said, your brain felt like it short-circuited snapping you back to reality.

Felix’s expression faltered slightly as he began to worry judging by your reaction, your mouth opening and then closing, and then repeating.

Felix cautiously slotted your chin into his thumb and pointer finger and tilted your head slightly to look directly into his eyes.

“I thought I felt it alone, I tried to hide it. It’s why I’ve been so distant and avoiding being too intimate with you, in case it slipped out. Tell me I’m not crazy. I know you feel this too.” Felix pleaded his eyes desperately searching your blown out eyes from shock.

“I-I…oh my god.” Was all you could seem to force out, before you swallowed hard and Felix finally felt like you were truly looking back at him, eyes no longer glazed over and distant.

“Sorry, you don’t have to say anything now. I don’t ever want to rush anything with you, I know that seems hypocritical considering how we started out, but I really do care so much for you Darling and I-” It was your turn to stop Felix from getting lost in his rambles, you pushed off the door behind you, cupping his face in your hands and pressed a soft, slow and love filled kiss to his lips.

Felix eagerly returned the kiss, lips moving slowly and passionately together, before you pulled away to look back into his eyes.

His eyes told you all you needed to know, and you couldn’t believe you didn’t see it before. It had been there the whole time, you were too caught up in your own confusion of feelings, to notice the feelings he’d been wearing on his sleeve the whole time.

“I love you too Felix.” You breathed out like a sigh of relief, feeling a weight lift off your shoulders at the admission.

You physically saw the relief and happiness spread across Felix’s features as he let your words soak in. His smile grew up to his eyes and his hands reached for yours, bringing them up to his smile to press quick loving kisses into the skin of the top of your hands.

You couldn’t help the giggle that left your lips at the tickling sensation that spread where his lips travelled.

“You have no idea, how long I’ve been wanting to tell you that.” Felix spoke with a giddy tone into your hands as he continued prepping kissing there.

Felix piqued your interest, how long was long? “Now I’m intrigued, how long?”

Felix smiled up at you from behind your hands and used them to tug you into his chest, where he wrapped you into his embrace, “It was confusing at the start, trying to figure out what was lust and what was love, but I knew you were special ever since that first night we slept together.”

You raised your eyebrows in surprise, you weren’t expecting him to have had feelings for you for this long.

“That’s why I’ve been avoiding sex, because sex wasn’t just sex for me anymore. I want to make love to you; I want you to feel how much I care for you, and I didn’t want to freak you out if I let it slip that I loved you while balls deep in you.” Felix laughed rubbing your hips to give his hands something to do.

You laughed with him, but you know that you never would have minded if he did. You might have been shocked for a second, but you know in your heart you would have confessed your feelings for him in return, regardless of the situation.

Felix’s words ignited your heart, he wanted you how you wanted him. Your feelings were mutual after all.

“Felix, I want nothing more than for you to make love to me.” You smiled watching the love in Felix’s eyes mixing with lust.

“Then let me love you.” Felix grinned moving his face toward you to bring you into another kiss, but before he could place his lips on yours, Jisung’s bedroom door swung open.

You both jumped at the intrusion and Felix instinctively pulled you completely into him, turning you both to the side so he was positioned slightly in front of you protectively.

Jisung stood in his doorway looking the most confused he’d ever been as he looked between Felix and you, then at you to Felix and he couldn’t bring the words to come out of his mouth.

Jisung shook his head forcing himself to address the awkward situation he had created by his arrival.

“Do I even want to know what’s going on here?” Jisung asked before realising you were both in his bedroom and annoyance appeared on his face, “YA! What are you both doing in here? Get out!” He whined.

Without responding to Jisung, Felix grabbed your hand in his, lacing his fingers through yours and while laughing like a kid that got caught with his hand in the cookie jar, dragged you out of the room behind him past a fuming Jisung.

Felix looked back at you as he raced for the stairs with you in tow behind him.

“Let’s get out of here darling.” He beamed at you before looking forward to pay attention to where his footing was going down the stairs.

As you watched Felix’s silvery blonde locks bouncing against his cheeks with every step he took, every now and again he would turn to look at you, making sure you were real, that you were following him wherever he was taking the two of you.

Every time he looked back, the party lights would dance across his face, reflecting in his eyes and you thought to yourself there was no one as beautiful as Felix, inside and out, and there was no where you would rather be, than hand in hand with the man you loved following him with your entire heart.

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Comfortable With You

➤ summary: it’s hard finding the love of your life on dating apps, which is why recruiting your roommate to help you get out of bad dates seems like a good idea. felix is the perfect candidate—his voice alone causes your dates to run in the opposite direction. with his help, you don’t even have to go through the awkward rejection phase. your plan seems to be working—until you kiss him

➤ pairing: lee felix x reader

➤ genre: roommates-to-lovers, fluff

➤ warnings: cursing, food & eating, alcohol consumption

➤ word count: 10k

➤ a/n: this is my fic for the summer 2 lovers collab hosted by @feliix​ ! everyone please be sure to show the other writers a lot of love for their fics <3

“You’re really neat, but… I don’t know if this is going to go anywhere.” You grimace at your own words, pulling the phone away from your ear to smack your forehead lightly. Neat? Really? That’s how you were going to console a guy after rejecting him?

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Plus One

Pairing: Non Idol!Lee Felix x afab reader

Request: No

Theme: Roommates to Lovers

Contains: Fluffiest fluff, cursing, suggestive themes.

Word Count: 4,798 words

Note: This is a work of fiction and does not portray any of the members irl. I might make a part two to this if y'all are interested!

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When you moved into town you were DESPERATE for a new roommate, you asked everyone and it turns out that a friend of a friend of an old college roommate had someone he knew who was looking for a roommate. It felt like the universe was on your side when you heard the news and you almost cried from happiness, but there was a catch (of course there was) the roommate was a dude.

Now the thing is usually you wouldn't mind rooming with a guy, you've lived with quite a few and other than them leaving messes for you to clean up occasionally they had all been pretty decent. You were worried because you had never met this Felix guy before so you had absolutely no idea what to expect. But everyone who had met the guy swore up and down that he was a great guy, very respectful, and made killer brownies, so you decided to meet up with him in person to judge for yourself.

The day came that you were supposed to meet up with Felix at a local café and get to know him, see if you would get along. You decided that if he was going to live with you it didn't really matter what you looked like, so you popped on your favorite oversized hoodie and a pair of leggings and made your way to the café. When you got there you shot him a text to let him know where you were sitting after grabbing an iced coffee. After what felt like five seconds you heard someone clearing their throat.

"Y/N?"

You looked up to see who the crazy deep voice belonged to and almost jumped out of your seat when your eyes laid on the most gorgeous person you'd ever seen. He looked like a fae creature, his long blonde hair caressing his face, the freckles across his cheeks looked like beautiful constellations, and he was dressed in a button-up layered under a beige sweater-vest and perfectly fitted blue jeans. Your brain did a hard reset and you realized he had asked you a question.

"Oh, shit, sorry, yeah I'm Y/N, you must be Felix?"

He smiled and you swore he looked like a ray of sunshine come down to Earth, you had to stop yourself from staring as he let out a low chuckle.

"Yep that's me! Am I not what you expected? You look... kinda shocked to be honest." he lightly chuckled and ran his hand over the nape of his neck.

"Oh no! Sorry I didn't really have expectations, I just feel like I should've dressed nicer is all." you looked down and cringed at your outfit choice.

"Oh! No worries! I think you look great!" He flashed you a toothy smile and slid into the seat next to you. "So, what do you want to know? I'm pretty much an open book!"

~✨~

That was six months ago. Six very long months of living with the most gorgeous creature to ever walk the Earth. You had to tell yourself at least once a day to get your shit together and stop ogling your roommate whenever he did the smallest thing like stretch his arms up to reveal a sliver of his lower abdomen or bake you brownies when work had you stressed out.

Not to mention his habit of touching and cuddling you.

His friends had warned you when you first met them that Felix loved skinship and he would probably break down your personal bubble like he did to all of them. But NOTHING could have prepared you for the amount of physical affection this man gave you. It started small of course, testing the waters, knees touching on the sofa during your weekly movie nights, holding your hand when you went out so you didn't get separated, things like that. But over time knee touching became full on cuddle sessions on the couch while you watched your favorite movies. Holding your hand at the bar became a hand wrapped around your waist. Eventually Felix had come to you in the middle of the night because his insomnia was acting up and he couldn't sleep and you offered to let him cuddle you. Now you two spent almost every night in your bed together.

It was honestly really nice. You hadn't dated anyone in years and you desperately craved physical affection. Nobody would guess it by looking at you, but secretly, you were just as much of a cuddle bug as Felix was.

The only problem is with every lingering touch, every time he fell asleep in your arms, you fell harder for him.

This became abundantly clear last Tuesday when he came bouncing through the apartment like someone had just given him a puppy.

~✨~

"Y/N~ guess whaaaattttt!!"

"What's up 'Lix?"

"My work is throwing a huge end of year party and I GET TO BRING A PLUSSS OOONNEEEE!!" He looked positively giddy at the idea of bringing a plus one, but you didn't know why. Felix is also going through a romantic dryspell.

"Is that so? Who are you planning on asking? Some cute girl got your eye?" As soon as the words left your mouth you saw the tips of his ears go pink and he looked down at his feet. "Oh. My. God. Does 'Lixxie have a crush on someone?" You teased him, but deep inside you were devastated at the thought of Felix being with someone else.

"No, nothing like that..." Felix trailed off then his eyes met yours and your heart ached at the sight. His cheeks were now a bright pink and he looked so bashful.

"Oh I'm sorry for teasing 'Lixxie you know anyone would be lucky to have you!" You said it sincerely because you really did mean it. Anyone would be lucky to have Felix in their life.

"It's okay, I was actually excited because I wanted to see if you'd come with me..." He looked away and then his eyes met yours again, filled with panic. "I mean not like a date or anything you're justoneofmybestfrie-"

"Felix," you saw his panic and cut him off "no worries, I would love to go with you!" You gave him a big smile. "Plus I would love to meet all the coworkers you've told me about!"

He let out a sigh of relief and smiled back at you. "Okay awesome! Its next Friday at 7pm, the dress is cocktail attire. I know you don't have a ton of clothes like that so I was thinking maybe this weekend we could go shopping? I want to find something to wear as well!" He positively beamed at you. Felix LOVES shopping, but he hates to go alone so you know that he would be really bummed if you said no.

"Of course I'll come with you 'Lix, who else would be able to tell me if my dress looks good or not." You started giggling at the thought of bringing one of the other guys you hung out with dress shopping. "I mean I could always ask Hyunjin but you know how he is." Felix busted out laughing at that, no doubt remembering the time you tore your dress on a fence before going to the bar with the guys and Hyunjin complemented your 'grunge' look before you told him that you had ripped it on the way in.

"Okay so let's hit the mall on Saturday?"

"Sounds good to me!"

~✨~

That is what led to your current situation, going to what felt like 5 billion stores (actually three) and watching your incredibly attractive roommate try on suit after suit.

"Y/N what about this one?"

You looked up to see him clad in a gorgeous blue suit that seemed to fit him just right. You had to stop yourself from literally drooling on the department store floor when he twirled around for you.

"It looks incredible 'Lix, like it was made for you!"

"You've said that about like the last three suits I've tried on." he rolls his eyes and inspects himself in the mirror.

"Well I can't help that all of these fit perfectly on you!" you weren't lying, the last three suits literally looked like they were tailored specifically with him in mind.

"Y/N!" Felix looks over at you and takes your face in his hands, his face is so close you can feel his breath on your nose. "I've just had the most amazing idea."

You tried to hide your blushing face by putting your hands over his and covering more of your face. "What idea?" You ask, trying not to sound too out of breath.

"We should go get you a dress and when we find the perfect one we can come back and I'll get a suit to match you!" He jumps back raising his hands in the air beaming while waiting to hear your response.

The thought of you and Felix matching at this party made your heart flutter a bit, to anyone who didn't know you, you would look like a couple. That thought alone made you feel all sorts of things you should not feel about your roommate. But, despite that, you answered.

"I think that's a great idea 'Lix!"

The look on his face was one of pure joy when you agreed. He runs into the dressing room to switch back into his own clothes leaving behind a VERY flustered roommate.

You looked in the mirror and saw the red tinting your cheeks and hoped that by some miracle Felix didn't notice how flushed you got just from the idea of coordinating outfits (who blushes at that?) you put your cold hands on your cheeks to calm the redness down and waited for Felix to get out of the dressing room so you could go to the dress store next.

~✨~

If there's one thing on this Earth that you hate, it is trying on clothes. It is your personal hell. You hate the way nothing seems to fit, everything is itchy, the dressing rooms are always way too hot and make your face bright red, and the fluorescent lights make everything look that much worse. Your only saving grace today was Felix. Your ray of sunshine, always making sure to complement you but also give you actual feedback.

"No definitely not this one, you'll be way too uncomfortable with the sleeves all night." You smiled at how well he knows you, the sleeves were already bugging you and you knew that you would want to rip them off if you had to spend a whole night in this awful dress.

You had tried on like 50 dresses by now (actually 10) and none of them had the WOW factor, but luck would have it that #51 (11) was in fact the winner. It had a beautiful high neck with a patterned cut down the front to show off your 'assets', it was the perfect length, and it was covered in gorgeous silver glittery designs. This was the one, you were sure of it.

"Hey 'Lix?" you called out from the dressing room.

"What's up gorgeous?" You knew he was getting tired because he tended to call you things like 'beautiful' and 'gorgeous' when he got sleepy, which did not help your situation whatsoever, but it was quite cute.

"I found the dress, but I was thinking, I think it should be a surprise!"

"How are we supposed to match if I don't see the dress?"

"Well I could show you a bit of the fabric? Then you could go off of that?"

"Okay darling that sounds lovely." darling? That was a new one. Thankfully you had time for the massive blush that crept up your cheeks due to the new nickname to dissipate as you changed your clothes. Once you got out your cheeks were just a light pink.

Felix perked up as you walked out holding the dress behind your back and you went over to the checkout. After purchasing the dress you showed Felix a bit of the fabric from the bag and he started giggling. "I like that we are making this a surprise, I think it'll be fun!" And with that you both went to the men's section so Felix could find a matching suit.

Thankfully it didn't take too much time, he found a match almost right away and (of course) it fit him perfectly, or so he told you. He said since your outfit was a surprise, his should be too.

Clothes in hand you drove the two of you back home to get some much needed rest. As soon as you got through the door Felix shot you a devilish look and ran toward your bedroom and flopped down on your bed. You walked in, chuckling lightly, and asked him what he was doing.

"I think it is nap time and naps are always the best with a budddyyyyyy!" He held his arms out and made grabby hands at you. You burst out laughing and headed over to the bed. As soon as you were within his arms reach he pulled you down next to him and started spooning you.

"Y/N, you're my best friend, you know that?" He sleepily whispered to you. You felt your breath hitch at his small confession, but before you could respond you heard his breathing even out and he was asleep. You sighed and pulled the covers up over the two of you and decided that a nap with Felix wasn't the worst thing in the world. So you closed your eyes and drifted off to sleep.

~✨~

All week Felix was so excited about his work party is was basically all he could talk about when the group went out for dinner on Wednesday.

"Y/N and I are matching but we haven't seen each other's outfits and I am soooooo excited to see the dress she picked!" He exclaimed to everyone.

"Dude, we know, it's all you've talked about in the group text since Saturday." Chan chucked at the freckled boy who was positively beaming.

"I'm happy for you guys, it sounds like it will be a really fun time!" Jisung chimed in, smiling back at Felix.

"Anyway, changing the subject. Y/N how's work going?" Seungmin looked over at you with a big smile. You smiled back at him.

"It's going pretty great, I think I'm really getting the hang of things." Everyone seemed to appreciate the change in topics as they all went around the table talking about work and the different things they were now in charge of.

Dinner went by quickly and before you knew it you were heading back home. You and Felix had only had a few glasses of wine with dinner but the buzz was definitely present on the ride home has you both giggled about everything and nothing at all.

When you got through the door Felix pulled you in for a big hug and started playing with your hair. "I really can't wait to see your dress, I'm sure it is going to look amazing." You pulled back a bit so you could see his face and he was still smiling, a light blush was present on his face but you were sure it was just the alcohol in his system.

"I'm so excited to see your outfit too 'Lix! But it is late, we should head to bed."

"Yours or mine?"

It was a harmless question given that you guys stay in each others beds all the time, but usually you go to sleep separately and then Felix will come get in bed with you when he can't sleep. Other than your nap session on Saturday you had never really laid down together ready for bed. Something about the shift in dynamic made your heart wrench a bit, you tried to hide it by smiling back at Felix.

"How about yours tonight?"

When you laid down your mind was racing a million miles per second. You never really slept in Felix's bed, he mostly came to yours. You didn't think about it when you answered him but now you realize that you fucked up. You are surrounded by the smell of Felix, its on his bedsheets, pillows, and, most importantly, on the boy curled up behind you latched on like a baby monkey. Felix's arms are around your whole body, one arm across your chest with his hand on your shoulder, and one across your stomach with his hand on your hip. His leg is even draped over your body so you are surrounded by him.

Looks like you aren't getting much sleep tonight.

~✨~

Sure enough you barley slept the night before and you wake up feeling awful. Normally when you sleep with Felix he wakes up before you and is either in the shower or cooking breakfast, but not this time. This time you woke up to find yourself still surrounded by the boy, but something feels different. You wiggled a little and your face turned bright red when you realized that Felix was not only still fast asleep but sporting a rather large erection that was pressed firmly to your backside.

You needed to remind yourself that with was a natural thing that men's bodies do in the morning and it had nothing to do with the fact that you were pressed against him in the night.

Fuck was it hot in the room or was it just you?

You tried to calm yourself down, but how could you with this beautiful man pressed against you like this? You decided maybe you should get up and act like nothing happened. Before you could get up you heard Felix grumble a bit and pull you in closer to himself.

Well there goes that plan.

You resigned yourself to waiting for Felix to wake up.

~✨~

After what felt like forever Felix finally started to wake up. You decided to save him from embarrassment at his current state you would act like you were asleep until he had released you from his hold. You closed your eyes and waited... and waited... and waited some more. Finally you felt Felix shift a bit and your heart almost stopped when he bent his head down and placed a soft kiss on your cheek before getting out of bed and heading to the shower.

You held your breath until he was out of the room and as soon as you heard the bathroom door shut your hand flew up to the place where he had kissed your cheek and you felt yourself smile at the sweet gesture. You giggled a bit until finally letting yourself get out of Felix's bed and walk into your own room to get ready for the day.

~✨~

It was finally Friday. The day you and Felix had been waiting for. You could barley contain your excitement at work and basically counted the seconds on the clock until it was (finally) time for you to go home. You drove as fast as safely possible and when you flung the door open to your apartment you found Felix waiting for you in the living room with a huge grin on his face.

"It's Friday." Felix simply stated, but you could tell he was as excited for tonight as you were.

"I am SO excited 'Lix! Let's blast some jams and start getting ready!" You beamed back at him and all but ran to your bedroom to get your speaker, Felix close behind you.

The two of you wanted to wait until you were completely ready to show off your outfits so you got ready in your room and he got ready in his with the speaker in the conjoined bathroom between the two of you. It took you both about an hour to get ready and you were shouting back and forth about various different things the whole time.

Finally you were ready. You looked stunning with your half-up hair and all the accessories you bought for the occasion. The dress fit you even better than you remembered. Hands down this was the hottest you'd ever looked in front of you roommate.

"Okay, I'm ready Lix, you ready?" You shouted full of excitement.

"Yeah! On the count of three!"

"One,"

"Two,"

"Three!"

You both opened the doors to your side of the bathroom and stopped, eyes wide on the beauty before you. It took a while for either of you to speak, just taking in the whole fit on the beautiful person in front of you. Finally Felix spoke.

"Wow... you look.... WOW!" He was beaming, completely awe stricken at your ensemble.

"Right back at you handsome." You took in the beautiful silver and black suit he now wore. The suit looked like it was made for Felix, the perfect blend of feminine with its silver floral patterning on the cuffs of the blazer and the ends of the slacks, and handsome with its sharp angles.

Felix held out his hand to you. "My lady, shall we?" You smiled at the gesture and took his hand. He put your entwined hands over your head and twirled you around, leaving you both in a fit of giggles. And with that you left to go to the party.

~✨~

Felix's work Does. Not. Fuck. Around. when it comes to parties. They had rented out a beautiful ballroom and had snacks, an open bar, as well as a rather large dance floor. You and Felix decided to start at the bar. As you were grabbing your drinks a strikingly beautiful woman came up and coldly stared you up and down before placing a hand on Felix's forearm.

"Hey 'Lixxie I'm so glad you made it!" You couldn't tell what Felix was thinking about this woman as he let out a small smile when she addressed him. "This must be the girlfriend you've been telling me about!" She gave you a cold smile devoid of genuine emotion as she spoke.

You felt your heart drop. Felix has a girlfriend? He never mentioned anyone to you. How could he even have time for a girlfriend when he was sleeping in your bed almost every night? What the fuck is going on??

Felix looked shaken at the statement for a brief second and before you could clarify that you were just his roommate he spoke.

"Yes, this is my girlfriend, Y/N."

You stared back at him with wide questioning eyes. What in the actual fuck is going on right now???

The woman looked you up and down again, chuckled to herself, then left muttering something under her breath that sounded like it rhymed with lanky witch.

As soon as she was out of earshot you grabbed Felix's arm and looked him in the eyes. "What the fuck was that?"

Felix shyly looked down and took a deep breath before explaining. "That was Megan, she works in the accounting department and she has been trying to get me to go out with her for months and when she wouldn't stop I panicked and said I had a girlfriend. She seemed to believe me at first but I never brought this girlfriend around and so she started to get suspicious. I'm sorry I brought you into this but it seemed like the perfect cover in the moment, but if it makes you uncomfortable I can call her back over and come clean." He looked back up at you and gave you a half-hearted smile.

Felix wanted to be your fake boyfriend for the night. In what world would you ever pass up that golden opportunity?

"No, It's okay 'Lix, we can fake date for the night to get her off your back. She seems like a royal bitch to me anyway and I wouldn't want to make you talk to her more than you already have to." He let out a sigh of relief and smiled at you, then stood up and wrapped his arms around you in a big hug.

"Thank you Y/N, you're a lifesaver." He pulled back a little and smiled at you as he reached up and pushed a hair out of your face. You looked into his eyes and smiled back.

"What are friends for?"

~✨~

The rest of the party flew by. Felix introduced you to all his coworkers as his girlfriend and they all congratulated you two and told you how cute it was that you two decided to wear matching outfits. You ate, drank, and had great conversations but after a while Felix seemed a bit on edge and you decided to see if he was okay before continuing to enjoy the party. You led him out to the balcony where you could only see one or two people sitting around, seemingly bored with the festivities inside.

"Hey, 'Lix, you seem... anxious? Are you doing alright?" You take his hands in yours and notice his shoulders immediately relax a bit.

"It's nothing love, just getting a bit tired is all." He had been calling you cute nicknames all night in front of his coworkers to keep up the guise of being together, but the fact that he called you love while it was just the two of you made your heart stutter momentarily. You chalked it up to the few drinks he had had throughout the night and decided to blow past it.

"Okay, well how about we dance to one song and then head out? The dance floor is too big and the DJ is too good to pass up one dance." You squeeze his hands softly to comfort him a bit and hopefully put his mind at ease. He looks up and softly smiles at you.

"Lead the way."

When you walk inside you guide Felix to the dance floor and start moving around, letting the beat take over your body. You see Felix smile at you as he begins to do the same. Pretty soon the two of you are jumping around laughing hysterically at how ridiculous you must look just jumping and moving your shoulders to the beat. When the song ends you get ready to head out before Felix takes hold of your hand. The beat changed and a slower melody filled the room.

"One more dance?" He sheepishly smiled at you. You walked toward him, placing your free hand on his waist and smiled back at him. "Anything for you 'Lix."

The two of you started with your hands together, free hands on each others waist. But as the song continued Felix slipped his hand from yours and put both of his hands on either side of your waist. Your arms came up and wrapped around his neck, your bodies now pressed into one another, looking into each others eyes. Felix rested his head on your shoulder and let out a sigh.

"I wish we could stay like this forever." He whispered into your ear.

"Me too." You whispered back.

Once the song was over Felix pulled his head back, hands still placed on your waist and smiled.

"Let's go home."

~✨~

The Uber back was quiet, your heart was beating out of your chest as you thought through the nights events. Felix had a hand on your knee and his head rested on your shoulder as you made your way back home. Once the Uber pulled up you said thank you to the driver and walked up to your apartment hand-in-hand with Felix.

After you stepped through the door Felix turned you to face him and he just looked into your eyes in silence for a moment until he softly spoke, barely a whisper.

"Can I kiss you?"

You were sure you were dreaming. There was no way this beautiful, incredibly kind, amazing man wanted to kiss you right now. As if he could tell what you were thinking he took a step towards you and brought his hand up to caress your cheek.

"You are the most beautiful person I have ever laid my eyes on and I've wanted to kiss you all night, well, I've wanted to kiss you a lot longer than that. So, may I kiss you, Y/N?"

"Yes." You whispered.

And with your consent Felix pulled your face to his and gently placed his lips on yours. It was a beautiful kiss, filled with all the emotions you had both been feeling for quite some time.

You pulled away to catch your breath and smiled at him. You thought back to Wednesday and a thought occurred to you. "It is late, we should head to bed."

"Yours or mine?"

My heart is at peace once more.

Should’ve Known Better II; Lee Felix

Genre: superhero!au, angst, fluff, hurt/comfort

Word count: 3.2K

Warnings: mentions of injuries, mentions of a (minor) character death, kisses

Hi, loves! Guess who’s finally back with a fic :’) I am low-key nervous to post again after going on an unannounced/unintentional hiatus, but I hope you will like this part 2 of Should’ve Known Better! Don’t forget to leave feedback 🫶

Read part one HERE

Drip drop. Drip drop.

The sound of the leaking water pipe in the dark cave was slowly making Felix lose his mind the past two days. With hooded eyes, he scanned the weapons laying scattered on the tables. He wondered if the men had left them there on purpose to taunt Felix. As if to say: “if only you weren't completely beaten up, you would've been able to get the weapons and eliminate us. If only Y/n had not betrayed you and put you in chains that suppressed your powers, maybe then you'd be free now.”

Felix wiped his eye but immediately winced at the pain rushing through his face at the action. The hit he received to his right eye left it bruised.

After you left him in the cave two days ago, the men Felix had been trying to catch for a year, quickly arrived and when they saw on Felix, nasty grins covered their lips. Even though he was supposed to feel scared, and terrified even when the men started running tests on him and didn't hesitate to beat him up some more, the only thing Felix could feel was pain. And not the physical one. The only thought on his mind was you. The pain you caused him. The nonexistent love you made him believe in. With sweet words and soft touches, you led him to his own grave. You backstabbed him in the worst way possible. You broke his heart entirely.

Felix let out a ragged breath as he averted his eyes to the wound on his chest. If he wouldn't get antibiotics soon, it was going to get infected badly. And without any of his healing powers, he wasn't sure if he'd survive that. Although, surviving did not seem like a possibility anyways anymore. Felix just had a hard time accepting that. This couldn't be the end of him, right? What was the city going to do without one of its superheroes? Who was going to protect the people of Miroh against Black Venom once they acquired Felix’s powers?

A tear rolled down Felix's cheek and he closed his eyes. Maybe it was best if he died as soon as possible.  Escaping was not an option anymore and if the men would come back and run more tests on him, they had more chance to get to what they were looking for: how to copy Felix's powers and use them to their own advantage. Felix would rather die than catch sight of the damage they would do once they had the powers he owned.

The muffled sound of a small crack interrupted the silence in the cave and Felix's train of thought. He frowned but his eyes remained shut. Must have been just a rat, he thought.

Another sound entered Felix's ears, this time a louder one, and he opened his fatigued eyes. The sound seemed to have come from above him and he looked up. His eyes fell on the ceiling vent and he gradually frowned when the vent seemed to shake slightly. Felix narrowed his eyes and slowly tried to push himself up to get a closer look at where the sound was coming from.

Complete silence engulfed the cave once again but Felix did not sit back down. He slowly titled his head, his eyes scanning the vent.

All of a sudden a loud bang was heard and Felix jumped back before the vent came crashing down, missing the already injured boy by just a hair or two.

Felix's chest heaved up and down with erratic breathing as he looked at the hole in the ceiling with wide eyes.

Only a second later a person dropped from the hole and gracefully landed on both hands and feet on the cold floor.

Felix shook his head. This couldn't be-

"They should clean that space up someday," you muttered as you looked up at the ceiling you just dropped out off.

You turned to Felix and your throat immediately tightened at the sight. He looked ten times as bad as when you left him here two days ago. Dry blood stuck to the freckled skin of his face and dark blue swelling surrounded his right eye. They had stripped him off his shirt, making the large wound on his chest visible to you.

Your lower lip trembled but you quickly cleared your throat and looked away. "They beat you up well, I see."

Although he was beaten up physically, you felt like the worst damage was done mentally. His eyes seemed to be stolen of life and emotion. He was almost unrecognizable.

"What are you doing here?" Felix growled, looking up at you from the ground.

"Oh, I don't know, watch a movie and chat a little- Of course, I came to get you out of here," you quipped before looking down at him but he just frowned.

"And why on earth would I trust you? You might as well get me out of here to sell me to an even worse gang for more money," Felix retorted and you slightly winced before nodding.

"Okay, I deserved that one. I made a mistake, I know I did. But if you were in my posit-" you quickly caught yourself and swallowed your words before sighing with closed eyes. "I have no valid reason to give you to believe or trust me, but please, Felix, we do not have much time before they come back so I have no other option than to hope you'll believe me so we can get out of here," you almost begged the boy. Felix inspected you as if trying to decide whether trusting you again was the worst decision he could make. "Please," you whispered.

"Free me from these chains," Felix murmured and you froze for a second before quickly nodding.

Not even five seconds later, the locks of the chains were opened, revealing Felix's bruised wrists.

You watched him as he took deep, ragged breaths and you knew his powers were coming back to him. But with the severity of his injuries, you weren't sure his powers were able to heal him quick enough or give him enough strength to be able to fight the gang, at least now.

"You're too weak to fight them now."

Felix's wild eyes shot up at you and without thinking you took a step back. You had brought Felix into this situation, and now that his powers were back, it wouldn't be a surprise if he ended you here and now. You just had not thought about that before coming here. The only thing on your mind was Felix and the need to save him. You were blinded by guilt and by the love you wished you didn't feel for the boy.

Felix noticed the way you balled your fists and let out a bitter chuckle. "I am not going to kill you, Y/n. I am not like you," he hoarsely stated and his words hit you like a punch in the face.

You shook your head and tears pooled in your eyes. "I am not a murdered, Felix."

This made fury flash in Felix's eyes and in a sharp movement, he had you backed up against the wall with the side of his forearm horizontally pressing against your throat.

"Leaving me here to my death comes pretty close to my definition of being a murderer," Felix breathed.

You looked up at the ceiling before squeezing your eyes shut, causing a tear to escape. "You just don't understand, Felix. You never will."

Felix's jaw tightened and he inched closer to you, his nose brushing against yours.

"Try me, Y/n."

He tilted his face, his lips now almost touching yours as his arm pressed harder against your throat.

"Explain to me why you did what you did and let me be the one to decide whether I'll understand you or not," he hissed.

Felix had never scared you before.

But after betraying him the way you did, you wouldn't blame him if he did hurt you. He just told you he wouldn't kill you, but the fire in his eyes was telling you otherwise. And you couldn't be mad at him for it. Maybe you did deserve this.

He had been beaten up, starved, and run tests on. All because of you, someone he trusted, someone he loved. 

"We don't have much time left, Felix. Y-You have to trust me and let me get you out of here."

His dark eyes searched for yours and for a second a thick silence fell over the cave as you and Felix stared at each other. Another tear rolled down your cheek and Felix's eyes flickered from yours to the tear.

Slowly he let go of you and stepped back. But just as he was going to speak up, he stumbled and you quickly stepped forward to catch him. "Felix?!"

"I-I'm fine," he wearily murmured but the blue veins appearing on his face and chest told you otherwise. What was going on with him?

Your eyes flickered to the chains laying on the ground and it was only when you saw the blue liquid dripping from it, you realized Black Venom poisoned the metal.

Your eyes widened. "Oh my God, they poisoned you-"

Before he could respond, the door of the cave opened.

"Felix, get down!" You screamed.

With the last strength left in Felix's body, he ducked and you raised your arm to release a blow from your arm cannon.

The blast aimed at the Black Venom member sent the man flying against the wall behind him. Felix's eyes widened as they flickered from the unconscious man on the floor back to you with shock written all over his face.

"I'm on your side, Felix. Please believe me," you breathed, scared for the rest of the gang to arrive after hearing the combustion. Felix finally nodded.

You released a relieved breath. "Hold onto me."

Felix wrapped his arms around you and just before the rest of Black Venom came crashing into the cave, the two of you disappeared through the hole in the ceiling.

"So you know Black Venom?” Felix murmured as you finished wrapping the wound on his chest with a bandage. He was sitting down on the counter in your bathroom and watched you with dark eyes. You placed the first aid kit beside him on the counter and nodded as you prepared the shot with the antidote, avoiding eye contact with the boy.

"Before I can continue treating your other wounds, you will first need the antidote. The antidote does subdue your healing powers for a while, but without it, you won't survive for longer than a week. Therefore, I will treat your worst injuries and you will have to stay here until you're strong enough to lea-

"How?"

You looked up with a questioning expression on your face.

"How do you know Black Venom?" He asked.

You sighed, wondering if he even heard anything you just explained.

"My dad used to work for them."

Felix frowned as he watched you but stayed silent to allow you to continue.

"Growing up, my family did not have much money. We lived in the slum of Miroh. I saw how my father and mother would go to bed hungry, just so they could feed me and my siblings," you started before looking up at Felix.

"You said you didn't have family," Felix frowned.

You chuckled softly. "Because I did not want anyone to know they existed. It would only expose them to danger." Tears brimmed in your eyes but you quickly cleared your throat and held up the shot.

"This is going to hurt," you murmured.

You took a step closer to the boy, now standing in between his legs so you'd be able to have access to his neck. You immediately noticed the way he held his breath at the close proximity between you two but you tried your best to ignore it.

You placed your left hand on the side of his neck to keep it steady before piercing the needle through the skin on the right side of his neck.

Felix let out a gasp followed by a loud groan and his hands immediately shot to your waist, squeezing it tightly.

"Breathe, Felix, breathe," you whispered and after letting out a whimper, he dropped his forehead on your shoulder, loosening his grip on your waist but keeping his hands there. His chest heaved with heavy breathing and you couldn't help but entangle your left hand in his hair, softly stroking it to calm the boy down.

"Go on. Tell me more about your past. Distract me," he pleaded and you quickly nodded. 

"T-the moment I was old enough to make money, I did everything in my power to do so. When I was eleven I would sell posters, candy, flowers, anything that could give me a little bit of money to give to my parents,” you rambled before taking a deep breath. “But it wasn't enough. And that is when my father got involved with Black Venom."

Felix slightly shifted against your body but stayed silent.

"My father was a good man. He wasn't a criminal. But he needed money to keep his family alive, Felix, and working for Black Venom brought him money," you whispered and it was only when you looked at yourself through the mirror behind Felix, that you noticed the tear rolling down your cheek.

"But even if he wasn't a criminal by heart, being involved with Black Venom meant living in a dangerous underworld of criminals that could cost his life. And it did. The police shot him when I had just turned sixteen."

Felix frowned, feeling tears brim in his eyes. "I'm sorry," he whispered against the skin of your shoulder.

You nodded, more tears falling from your eyes. "My mother was so heartbroken, she couldn't take care of my siblings and me anymore, so I knew I had to do it. I went to look for Black Venom. I hoped that because they knew my father, they could provide me and my family with some money, just enough so we could move away from Miroh and start a new life somewhere else." You scoffed, remembering how they reacted when they saw you. "I begged them on my knees, Felix. And they sent me away. Saying I was not their problem, that my family was not their problem. That my father's death was his own problem."

Felix clenched his jaw, feeling a weight of anger press onto his chest.

"And that's when I made the stupid decision of trying to steal from them. I was only sixteen and desperate, so one night I planned to rob one of their storages."

Felix raised his head to look at you, forgetting about the pain in his body from the antidote. "They caught you,” he mumbled, looking into your eyes.

You nodded. "I have been working for them ever since. They said they'd kill me and my family if I didn't."

"God, Y/n," Felix whispered.

"I'm sorry I made you fall into their trap, I am sorry I lied to you," you croaked before a sob escaped from your lips and Felix shook his head.

Your breath hitched in your throat when the boy wrapped his arms around you and pressed you against his body in a tight hug. Immediately, you buried your face in his neck, and he comfortingly stroked your hair as you cried.

"You did what you had to do to protect your family," he murmured, making you wrap your arms around Felix tightly.

"But you didn't deserve any of tha-"

"You risked your life to come back for me," Felix interrupted you with a soft voice.

Slowly, you looked up at him and searched for his eyes only to find he was already looking at you.

A thick silence engulfed the small bathroom as Felix and you looked each other in the eyes.

"I might've lied a lot to you," you quietly started, your voice hoarse. "But I never lied about my feelings."

Felix's heartbeat sped up and he held his breath.

"All of it was real. All our moments, all our kisses.. it was real, Felix."

Felix swallowed and his hand slowly made its way to cup your face, wiping the tears from your cheek with his thumb. "All of it?" He whispered carefully.

"All of it," you replied and after the three words entered Felix's ears, he closed the gap by pressing his warm lips onto yours.

Your eyes fluttered shut and your heart immediately seemed to grow a size at the familiar feeling you had missed so much. The feeling of his plush lips moving in sync with yours, the feeling of sharing his breath, of being so incredibly close to him.

You carefully placed your hands on his waist and the feeling made Felix's skin burn. His thumb stroked your cheek as he pulled away slightly only to tilt his head and capture your lips with his again.

Although you wished the moment would never end, you pulled away and rested your forehead against his. "Felix," you whispered and he hummed while trying to catch his breath.

"I-I can not stay here."

Felix opened his eyes and his eyebrows furrowed together. "What do you mean?" He breathed as he tried to look for your eyes that were avoiding his.

"Staying in Miroh is too dangerous for my family, Lix. I am planning on taking them and leaving as soon as possible."

Felix's lower lip slightly trembled as he hastily shook his head. “What? No.”

You stepped back before turning around and running a hand through your hair, not knowing what to say to him.

Felix jumped off the counter and stepped closer to you once again. "Y/n, you can't leave."

You turned around and looked at Felix with sadness painted all over your face.

"I can't lose you again," Felix stated with glossy eyes.

“But-"

"I will protect you and your family, Y/n. Now that I know everything, I can protect you. After the two days I've been in their cave, I know what Black Venom wants, I know their weak spots. I know how to fight them now, how to defeat them," Felix rambled as he took your hands in his. "I will protect your family, Y/n, I promise. Hyunjin, Minho, Han, and all the other heroes of Miroh can protect them now we know of their existence. Please trust me.”

You looked into his desperate but determined eyes and even with the fear for your family's safety still existing, you believed Felix was speaking the truth. He would keep you and your family safe. The other heroes of Miroh would help. He would be able to capture Black Venom now and you wouldn’t have to work for or run from them anymore. Things could finally get better.

"Do you promise?" You mumbled as you took a step closer to Felix.

He intertwined your fingers with his and rested his forehead against yours.

"I promise."

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Jealous Felix

-summary- Felix gets jealous and you have to take care of your pouty baby

-word count- 707

-warnings- Felix uses Noona, nicknames, pouty Felix

-a/n- Finally writing something for my bias 😀 Although in this group basically everyone bias wrecks me so yea. Sorry Felix, it's hard to stay loyal 👉👈

You and Felix were having a movie night with the boys. You were having a lot of fun but Felix had been pouting and practically ignoring you the whole time. After the boys left you found Felix sitting on your bed, arms crossed and pouting at the floor. "Felix? What's wrong, you've barely said two words to me the whole night." Felix let out a grunt of annoyance and continued looking at the floor. You walked to the bed and crouched down in front of Felix, looking up at him. "I can't help you if I don't know what's wrong bubs." Felix kept a pout on his face but he looked at you and huffed out a response. "Not fair." You tilted your head up at him, placing a hand on his thigh and moving your thumb across his skin. "What's not fair baby? Did one of the members do something to upset you?" He shook his head. "Noona's mine! But everyone else got to to see her in that pretty dress." A frown slowly formed on your face, you thought you had done something wrong but it was just Felix being jealous. You brought your hand up to rub his arms. "Baby, just because the other members saw me in that dress doesn't mean anything. There's no reason to be jealous." He shrugged your hand off and shook his head. " 'm not jealous!" You let out a sigh, resting your hands in your lap. "Lix, it was just the members okay? They weren't trying to take me away from you. You know them, they would never do something like that."

You got up and sat on the bed, patting the spot next to you. Felix stayed glued to his spot and refused to stop pouting. "Felix, if you don't stop pouting you're not getting any cuddles." You said sternly. Felix's face snapped up to you and you could see him internally trying to decide what to do. After a couple seconds he unfolded his arms and shuffled his way over to you and, with a pout on his face, sat down on your lap. His fingers played with the material of your shirt as he looked down at his lap. You chuckled at him, finding him adorable. He looked up at you and whined, tugging on your shirt. " 's not funny!" You brought your hands up to hold his face and gave him a peck on his pouty lips. He sniffled and you stopped laughing when you saw his teary eyes. You caressed his cheeks with your thumbs, trying to comfort your jealous baby. "Lix, I'm not gonna leave you okay? I'm yours and you're mine, remember that baby. I love you and only you." A tear slipped down his cheek and he brought up his hand, holding out his pinkie. "Promise Noona won't leave me for someone else?" You interlocked your own pinky with his and wiped away a tear with your thumb. "Promise baby, I only want you." He tugged on your shirt again and tried to add onto that promise. "Promise you won't wear anything revealing around anyone else?" You frowned at him. "Felix." The boy whined and squirmed around in your lap. "But Noonaaaa." You gave his butt a light smack, scolding him. "Behave lix." He stuck his bottom lip out and you could see his eyes getting teary again. You sighed and rubbed the spot where you had hit. You kissed the top of his head and tried to cheer up the pouty boy. "Lixie, do you want to take a bath?" His face lit up and he smiled at you for the first time that whole night. "I get to take a bath with Noona?" You smiled at how quickly his face changed. "As long as you behave and stop pouting." He hopped around in excitement and practically shouted. "I promise! Thank you Noona!" He gave you a cute little kiss on the lips before he jumped up to go prepare the bath. You chuckled and got up to go help him.

"You will see yourself just as beautiful as I see you"

Felix x Reader

Genre: fluff, comfort

Warning: mentions of stretch marks, insecurity, body image, slight mentions of smut

Wc: 1.6k

English is not my native language, so if you spot any mistakes, feel free to contact me. 

“You want to do what?” I look at Felix, the disbelief was clear in my face. He is standing in front of me, a big grin on his lips. In one hand he is holding his camera, while the other one is holding a small container with gold glitter pigments. “Just a small photoshoot, to show you how beautiful you are. And to show you that those marks” he points to my thighs, “are nothing to be ashamed about.” I shift from one foot to the other, unsure if I should accept his offer. I have been really insecure about my stretch mark basically my whole life. But the last weeks I had the feeling the insecurity got worse again. It was hot outside in Seoul, but my mind only allows me to go out with pants that at least reach to my knees. I can’t get the thought out of my head that stretch marks are only unacceptable when they are on my body. Felix has been trying for a few days to make me feel more confident; he bought me some beautiful sundresses to wear on dates, he worships my body almost every day, not only by words but also when we have sex. He makes sure that he kisses every inch of my body, especially my thighs, but nothing seems to work right now. Now he has this “phenomenal” idea of doing a photoshoot with me, highlighting my stretch marks with gold glitter he stole from Hyunjin.

Felix notices my hesitation, he steps forward, carefully places his camera down on the small shelf in our hallway, before he gently cups my cheek with his hand. “Hey, if you don’t want to, it’s totally fine. I just thought it could help you.” I lean into his touch, the warmth of his hand radiating to my face. I think for another second before I softly nod. I trust Felix. He won’t judge or make fun of me. Felix grin grows wider, if that’s even possible, and he happily picks up his camera again. “Great, I already prepared something outside. But first, you need to change.” He gently shoves me towards our bedroom, one of the dresses he bought for me is laying on our bed. It was a beautiful white silk dress, with cuts on both sides of my thighs, leaving my outer thighs on full display.

As I walk out into our garden, Felix eyes immediately land on me. He stops what he’s doing and slowly walks over to me, his face in amazement. “Wow…” is the only thing he can mumble. His hands take place on my hips, his eyes staring deeply into mine. His gaze was warm and full of love. Normally, I feel uncomfortable when people hold strong eye contact with me, but with Felix it’s something different. His gaze is always so soft and honest. He just shows how he feels, not leaving anything to ponder and question behind. “You look really beautiful.” He whispers against my lips; his forehead is now leaning against mine. A shiver runs down my spine and I feel my cheeks starting to heat up. His plump lips land on mine and he pulls me closer to his body. I can taste his strawberry lip balm, which he uses almost every day. I slightly hum into the kiss. He always knows how to make me feel flustered and loved. Kissing him always makes me feel at home and he knows this. He gently traces over my hips with his hands, while I try to deepen the kiss with my tongue. “W-We should probably stop here, or else I can’t hold myself back” he whispers as he pulls away from the kiss. “But I would love this way more than the photoshoot.” I whine slightly. “Nah-ah. No objection. We will do this shoot and you will see yourself just as beautiful as I see you. Except you really do feel uncomfortable with this idea, then we can stop immediately” he assures me, walking back to what he prepared this morning. Only then I see a blanket placed on the grass, just in front of our wild flowerbed. It is really the perfect scenery for a shooting like this.  Without saying another word, I follow Felix to the blanket, picking up the glitter from the ground and handing it to him “Will you do me the favor and put it on me”. His beautiful smile finds it’s way back on his lips and he eagerly nods. While he applies the glitter over my stretch marks, I can’t help but admire him in the golden rays of sunshine that fall right on his face. It accentuates his freckles just right and his skin basically glows in this light. Without realizing, I stretch out my hand and softly trace along his cheekbones, feeling his soft and warm skin under my touch. His eyes swiftly look up to me before he concentrates back on my thighs. “Sweetheart, I need to concentrate here.” His soft giggles hit right into my heart, making it swell with nothing but love. I study him more, watching how concentrated he is to not place the glitter wrong. I notice how his tongue is slightly sticking out, only underlining his concentration.

“So, I’m finished” Felix states excited after some minutes pass by. He closes the box of glitter and admires his works with a proud grin. “Okay, I admit…it does not look to bad…” I mumble as I study my thighs. The sunlight only makes the glitter shine even more. He traced along even the smallest stretch marks. And I need to be honest, this glitter kind of makes them look…expensive?

“Not too bad? Baby, you look amazing” He explains slightly shocked. I just giggle at his reactions. “Okay so how do you want me?” Felix thinks for a moment, standing behind his tripod. He quickly comes up with an idea that he likes and guides me into position. I am now kneeing on the blanket, my thighs on full display, due to the cut-outs of my dress. My hands are laying on my thighs and Felix directs me to just stare into the distance. He takes a few shoots, also from different angles, adjusting some hair strand here and there.  He seems really happy with the outcome of the photos, so he decides to switch into some more different poses.

An hour passes and I feel myself getting slightly bored. “Honey, I think it’s unfair.” I say, just as he tries to put me into a different pose. “What do you mean?” he asks, slightly confused and nervous he might have made me uncomfortable. “That I am the only one in front of the camera. You’re also very pretty.” And that’s when a thought hit me. I quickly get up from the blanket, to which I earn a slightly annoyed “Hey” from Felix, because he just got me into another pose, and I grab the glitter from the ground. I walk up to him, and he looks at me confused, then I start to gently apply some glitter over his freckles. Felix eyes watch my fingers, which makes him squint lightly.

“Tada!” I announce my finished work, as I hold up my phone, mirror app opened, to show him the outcome of my work. He studies himself for a few seconds before a familiar smile spreads over his lips. “This is cute. Thank you” he admits calmly. I drag him along, back to the blanket, not before turning on the self-timer on his camera. Golden hour has hit us by now, which makes the glitter stand out even more, but also making our skin glow lightly. I place my hands on his cheeks, careful though, not to cover his golden freckles, while his arms wrap around my waist. We smile at each other, both happy and relieved to have each other. We don’t even realize the camera shooting the picture, both lost in each other’s eyes. “I love you. Thank you for all of this. For always making me feel loved.” I whisper softly against his lips. Felix shakes his head slightly, a shaky laugh escaping his mouth. “Sweetheart, there is nothing to thank me about. It is my pleasure to make you feel that way. It makes me happy to see you happy. That’s all that matters to me. Please understand that you are perfect for me, in every single way. I don’t care about your stretch marks or any other thing you don’t like about yourself. For me, that all belongs to you. And I love you…All of you.” Small tears build up, not only in my eyes, but also in his. His voice is filled with pure honesty and love. Making me start to believe every single thing he says.

“Hey Hyunjin, here’s your glitter back.” Felix says while entering the practice room, handing the small box back to his owner. Hyunjin looks from the glitter to Felix and then back to the glitter before quickly taking it out of his hands. “You stole my glitter?” he shouts a little overdramatic. “Well not really stole it. Just borrowed it” Felix shrugs slightly, but his smile grew wide immediately. “But look at those beautiful pictures” Felix explains excited while almost shoving his phone in Hyunjins face, showing him his lockscreen, which is now the picture of Felix and me, standing in the garden, smiling brightly at each other. Hyunjin just laughs slightly while shaking his head “You are unbelievable.”

Some Felix and Adrien head cannons

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A little angsty

Felix sometimes feels as he is the wrong child because of how similar him and his uncle are. But him and his mom are complete opposites.

Felix sometimes feels as that Adrian were accidentally taken to the wrong home as kids when dressing up as each other and are just caught up in their now lives.

Adrien flexes in the mirror before showering (100%)

Felix's mom loves to do his hair cause it reminds her of when he was younger.

Felix's house 100% has embarrassing pictures around his house that his mom has and he doesn't like them (but secretly does)

Nathalie sees Adrien still as a little boy no matter how old he will be.

Adrien puts the bow ties from his photoshoots in his hair to be funny. (Nathalie caught him once but she didn't bring it up)

Nathalie used to paint Adriens toe nails to spend time with him

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