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Shattered
I dream of him every night, my stomach turned translucent, neoformed hands and face pressed against flesh made of latex
I change his diaper for the first time, an IV lodged in his scalp, the nurses have run out of veins
I stick my finger in his mouth and he bites showing me his first cut tooth
I cradle him in my arms, his breathing labored, matching him lungful for lungful, trying with all my heart to breath for him and
There are first words and first steps and first comprehensions and anger and pride and joy and fear and we are a team, a package deal, until we are not
And I give the ultimatum, and he takes it, ruthlessly, emotionlessly, because any outcome is better than living under my roof, where did I go so very wrong?
I drop him in front of the church. He does not look back as he walks away.