I Failed You - Tumblr Posts

"But yeah if I had to say things before ending this would be that man I loved and still the moments we had and you generally hahaha"

"Me: why dont you wait for a better end then?

Him: I don't want a better end"

"I need someone"

"I feel so much regret because I see now how important you are and that I lost you. But it's okay, everything has to be an end? So do my love and my life. But at least I could feel these last moment where my spirit, more like my soul and my entire life would be integrated into yours. Together... Thank you"

" it is kinda a happy ending for me because i had the things i wanted in my life and i've done all of them. i always wanted a girlfriend, spending time with friends, pass my tests. And here i am enjoying the conclusion"

"Him: it was nice talking to you, I hope the best for both of you and bye? Idk the word to say goodbye forever hahhaa

Me: You won’t come back? Please don’t… I want you to find happiness

Him: "No I won't come back. Sorry"

i lost the bet of the century.......................

Shattered

I dream of him every night, my stomach turned translucent, neoformed hands and face pressed against flesh made of latex

I change his diaper for the first time, an IV lodged in his scalp, the nurses have run out of veins

I stick my finger in his mouth and he bites showing me his first cut tooth

I cradle him in my arms, his breathing labored, matching him lungful for lungful, trying with all my heart to breath for him and

There are first words and first steps and first comprehensions and anger and pride and joy and fear and we are a team, a package deal, until we are not

And I give the ultimatum, and he takes it, ruthlessly, emotionlessly, because any outcome is better than living under my roof, where did I go so very wrong?

I drop him in front of the church. He does not look back as he walks away.