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Current #TheBlack Track List 🤘🏻💀🤘🏻 1. Let It Sleep 2. The Black 3. I Won't Give In 4. Sometimes It Ends 5. The Lost Souls 6. Just a Slave to Rock 'N Roll 7. Send Me Home 8. We'll Be Okay 9. Here I Am 10. Gone ..................
Pressing replay on a song for the 32nd time to once again imagine an animatic I will never make
Graveside
I am defective in grieving. There is too much analytical practical elemental selfcenteredness in me I suppose.
I stood by her casket looking down at a husk dressed in white, face puffy and distorted from the chemo. The girls whispered how shameful it was her makeup had not been done (her eyebrows had always been on point) while all I could think of was the long curved needle they use to sew the jaw to the palate, it prevents the mouth from falling open you see, and all around was the scent of death, no amount of flowers and candles could cover.
This evening a friend texted me "everything is going to be ok".
Yes, everything is going to be ok, but life is goddamned unfair sometimes.
Shattered
I dream of him every night, my stomach turned translucent, neoformed hands and face pressed against flesh made of latex
I change his diaper for the first time, an IV lodged in his scalp, the nurses have run out of veins
I stick my finger in his mouth and he bites showing me his first cut tooth
I cradle him in my arms, his breathing labored, matching him lungful for lungful, trying with all my heart to breath for him and
There are first words and first steps and first comprehensions and anger and pride and joy and fear and we are a team, a package deal, until we are not
And I give the ultimatum, and he takes it, ruthlessly, emotionlessly, because any outcome is better than living under my roof, where did I go so very wrong?
I drop him in front of the church. He does not look back as he walks away.
There are so many sounds that my heart makes as it breaks skipping beats
God I want to beg you I want to scream I want you to know I'm starving and I want you to be afraid for me I need you I'm so scared to be alone.
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He and my love just left. I can tell my love was unhappy. I wish this night would have played out differently!
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