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DEAR READER
Includes:
Sierra Six
Bucky Barnes
Jon Snow
Kayce Dutton
Javier Pena
SIERRA SIX
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
MAYBE Series/ Bucky
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
BLACK AND BLOOD/ Jon
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
A/N
HELPLESS/ Kayce Dutton
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Inserts
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14: Part 1
Chapter 15: Part 2
Chapter 16: Part 3
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
GHOST/ Javier Pena
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Not Part Of The Story
Family
Dimitri Belikov
Shadow
Porcelain Skin
Helpless
Description: She worked as a lawyer in New York until she received a phone call from the man she owes her career to. She knew she would be back and what she was in for but what she didnât know is that her life would change even more than she imagined.
Part 2
Chapter 1
âYou hide your emotions for a living but at this moment you are not doing a great jobâ I directed an eyeroll to him. We were currently sitting at the dinner table, waiting for his children to join us.
âNot really helping John '' I let out a sigh taking in his words. I know he was right. This family has been in my life since I was 17. I had met Beth, who at first wasnât the kindest but somehow we both got along great. In my job you had to be assertive, judgemental,firm, confident and when things got rough, you had to be rude and tough. Not an easy thing to do on a normal basis and I thought to myself I was crazy for not only entering law but to becoming a General Practice Attorney. Somehow when I enter the courtroom or when I am making a deal my eyes dial in to my target and I blackout. I do what is needed to do and my streak of losing none of my cases shows that. But when I am outside the law and I am just me, I lose myself. With Beth, she was that for me. She was the assertive side in me and I was the calming side to her. We got each other and I was thankful for that.
âYou didnât tell me she was joining '' Jamie, sweet Jamie. I get up and give him a hug which he gladly takes. Right out of law school I was taken under his wing. John decided not to tell him how he helped me through law school and how he became a mentor to me since the night we met. Jamie took such pride in seeing me become what I wish he knew I could be. Soon I had to move on since I wasn't a specialist in only one thing. I now only see him if he or John needs help and needs me to work with him on something. We distance ourselves over the past years but nothing feels any different now. âFinallyâ He sighs, moving around the table to take a seat across from me, of course one seat down from John who was at the end of the table.
âDecided we couldnât keep her a secret anymore and now would be a great time to have her hereâ After Leeâs death I was asked to come back to the ranch. I moved to New York as I was working on expanding my knowledge in more than just Law, but when I received John's call I dropped everything. Leeâs death was unfortunate and John mentioned in that phone call that things were just going to get tougher from then, and hell did it. I have been working in the background with Leeâs death and filing it under the table with the help of Jamie. Also helping him with Kayce and Monica. When the drug explosion accident happened and Monicaâs accident at school. With the kidnapping of the girl Kayce found and the trips he took to jail. Not to mention Dan and Beth, and I have a feeling that wonât be it.
âHe didnât want to continue hearing my rants on driving from home all the way to town. Loved the peaceful rides but you know I am not a morning personâ I was staying just outside of Darby. Of course I could stay in town but it wasnât a risk John nor I wanted to take. He has enemies and everybody knows each other, we didnât want to give them anything that could come back and damage the farm.
âThat you are notâ I looked up hearing a familiar voice. âYou remember your finals week?â I shake my head in embarrassment. I had just turned 20 but in Bethâs head I was 21. So she made a trip from Salt Lake City to Connecticut. Of course I told her right but she didnât care. She told me Yale could wait for a couple hours so I could have fun. I was unaware that her couple hours meant a whole night a day. John sent me to study in Yale a couple months after we met. I promised him I wouldnât disappoint and for me, I never make promises so It was like writing it in stone. I took multiple classes and spent nights, days,summer,spring break, holidays studying and advancing as much as possible in my degree. Work paid off when in only four years I graduated when it usually took 7. Anyways I was in my finals and she took me out that morning.
âIn my defense it was 3 in the morning when you showed upâ yeah 3 in the morning, I was walking into my apartment hoping to take a 3 hour nap so I could continue at 6 the next day.
âThat when New york wakes upâ So she shook me off the bed and drove us down an hour and 30 minutes to Manhattan.
âI thankfully took a that ride a power napâ
âIf that is what you want to call it.â She laughs while pouring herself a drink. â I could swear her body felt more energized than ever because she looked like a zombie who hadnât slept in years'' I hadnât slept well in 5 weeks. I knew finals were coming and with everything going on I needed every hour I could get to prepare for it. âWe got to the club and she was going on a mission. I am not going to tell you what she did to get in because it would ruin your image of her '' She meant I seduced and promised the security an amazing morning if he let me in knowing I wasnât 21 yet. That might not seem bad but when your promises are very verglaur and detailed and also loud, well now that I think about it, it was more embarrassing but still. âBut donât worry I didnât let her slip that night. Well maybe just a little.â I cover my eyes and my ears. Dancing on every surface I could find and wired with more alcohol than they had in the club I was having the best time of my life that night. But when we got out and I saw the sun I began cursing at it like it killed and took away everything I loved. I bet there is a video of me out there becoming New Yorkâs crazy woman who hates the sun. After that I went back into the club and refused to come out until the sun was gone. And to be fair that was not what I meant by not being a morning person. I love sunrises and sunsets, I just hate waking up.
âSorry I am late. Leaving Tate wasnât easy todayâ I have only seen Kayce from afar. When I arrived at the farm, Kayce had already had the altercation with John. I soon left and didnât hear about him until I came back. I have been only helping Jamie with his cases but never had the opportunity to speak to him once. I knew he had moved back and became the Ranch Foreman but I avoided the farm as much as possible knowing that was what John and I agreed on. Kayce walked in with his head down seating next to John and Jamie. He only focused on me when John spoke up.
âDonât worry son. We were just catching upâ he stood up at the end of the table looking over at us. âThis is Y/N. She will be living here starting todayâ That is not what we spoke about. I gave him a worried look but he only shook his head. That meant I had to trust him. âBeth and Jamie have known of her for the past years but because of the circumstances of you not being present in the ranchâ A little sadness in both their eyes could be seen. âYou hadnât gotten a chance to meet herâ I sent him a nod with a gentle smile and his response was a cold stare that he quickly moved towards his father.
âWhat do you mean she will be living in the main house?â Not that I mattered more than him but somehow his words caused annoyance in me. You donât even know me and speak like I was not important. John takes the chance to sit down as Gator comes out with the food.
âI want to take this dinner as a chance to not only tell you about herâ he look over to Kayce and then followed his gaze to Jamie and Beth as he continued speaking âand to tell you two along with Kayce how she came to the ranch and why I asked her to come back and stay in the ranchâ That last part he looked over at me and I knew he was asking me to listen and consider his question on staying and living in the ranch for awhile. We began eating but John didnât touch his food as he began speaking. âOne night almost 7 years ago she came to the farm. I know under what circumstance she came to run into our lands but that is up to her if she wants to share it with youâ He looks over at me and I give him a nod thanking him for that. He looks back to his kids and continues. âThat night 3 of our cowboys were out and found her. Thankfully Rip found her before anything bad happened to her.â I look down focusing on my food not really wanting to relive that moment. I guess it showed on my face since I felt Beth take my hand that was settled in my lap. âRip brought her to me and that night I decided to bring her in. She made a good impression on Rip and I so I decided to help her from that day on.â I smile hearing that from John. Rip was a big softy but had a hard time showing that to people. Mainly because this kind of life didnât bring out the best in him. He liked it and as much as I would like him to see the better side of things, I know he is better off that way he is.
âSo what does that mean? Is she?-â Beth chuckles at Kayces words.
âShe is younger than you Kayce! Just 22â Almost 23 I thought. Jamie's words cause a groan from his brother who looks over to John for answers.
âIt means I saw something and helped her become what she wanted in life. She spoke to me about going into law school and to show her gratitude she promised to do everything in her power to make me proud and devote herself to this family and she hasnât failed sinceâ
âShe has helped me keep this family running and keeps you from jail.â Jamie says, taking a bit of his potato.
âShe had been working behind the scenes since I asked her to come back months ago.â John adds finally starting to eat his dinner.
âSo you paid for her school and are now moving her into the house in exchange for her service?â It was a question but to him it was a statement that he made his own answer from. âIt will become a great headlineâ I see the annoyance now in John's face.
âI can assure you that being here will cause no harm in the farm's image. I will assure myself of that personally.â Beth chuckles again but Kayce takes it the wrong way. Getting up and excusing himself from the table.
âYou donât have too, it's not something he has a say aboutâ John grabbed my arm before I could walk past him.
âIf I am going to devote myself to this family like I promised I need him to trust me.â John nods letting go of me as I try to catch up to Kayce. I see a dark shadow walking down the path towards the foremanâs cabin. âKayce!â I donât see him turn around but he does turn right and leans over the fence. Goddamn dramatic Duttons. I shake my head with a mission, yet I donât know what I am going to say when I reach him.
âIâll ask the questions and Iâll tell you if you deserve to be hereâ I only gently smile and give him a nod. It took everything in me not to roll my eyes at him. He spoke those words and it brought annoyance to his character. âWhat was the real reason behind him paying and allowing you to be here?â I shrugged in all honesty John and I never spoke about why he decided to help me out. I want to say it was for the kindness in his heart. We all know he takes prisoners and gives them work, it doesnât sound like much but I can assure you it's a lot. Then there is Rip, a small boy who needed something and John gave him a start, a chance.
âI have no ideaâ I leaned against the fence, directing my gaze to the land before us. It was past 6 and the sun was way down. The crickets are already playing their tunes and the wind, singing along. âI am not one to usually put my take in things but I think it was because of youâ I didnât turn but I felt his gaze turn sharply to me. To be honest I was feeling a little nervous. Beth, Jamie and Lee had asked me the same question but I never told them what I actually thought the reason behind it was, one because I wasnât sure and two because I was no one to put such an idea out there. âI came in around the time you leftâ Under his stare it felt like I was starting to run a fever. Chills went down my spine and I felt like I was burning, thankfully he turned back to the view in front of him. âI always was one to read peopleâs sadness and when I looked into his eyes, that was all I could see. At that moment I didnât know why he was sad until later on when I met Beth. She told me all about it. The couple of weeks I spent in the ranch John was kind to me. Taking me in and treating me not like a worker but-â I cut myself off. It caused a bit of pain even thinking of such feelings. How for John I may be like his own child but I know that wasnât true. Sure he cared for me but if it was between his own blood and me well, there was no question about it. I was pulling on my own heart strings and I needed to cut myself off. âI feel like I was just a right time, right place situation that helped him feel better about letting you goâ
âHow did you end up here?â He was avoiding my statement. The answer to that was something I havenât told anyone except John. John had the right to know, but that wasnât the case with Kayce or his siblings. I needed time. âBy the looks of it I see you fighting yourself on whether you should tell me or notâ I quickly shake my head.
âIt's not a difficult choice. I have the right to not talk about it. Just like I told Beth, John had the right to know but it doesnât mean it was easy. Am still dealing with my past and soon when everything is over, there will be no need to keep it hidden. Until then I ask them to trust me just like I trust the Dutton blindlyâ
âYou ask for trust but we have more to lose with how much trust we put with youâ He was right
âIt might not be a lot but I could lose everything with putting my trust in you all. The Duttons are a full package and I choose to take that on no matter what. What you know of this family and its past since I have been here I have helped, if anything happens that could come back and bite me too. You know better than me that people here come and go just as fast as bullet trainsâ
A/N: I have found my new obsession.â„ïž. I donât know where am going with this but I hope you guys like it. This app doesnât have much of him so I hope that changes.
Thank youâ€ïž.
Helpless
Description: She worked as a lawyer in New York until she received a phone call from the man she owes her career to. She knew she would be back and what she was in for but what she didnât know is that her life would change even more than she imagined.
Part 3
Chapter 2
âI need you to get this whole reporter thing situated. Jamie will still be working but only when I say so. He will stay in the bunkhouse until then working on himselfâ After Jamieâs suicide attempt John told him to rebuild himself, he didnât feel like losing another child of his. âAlso check up on Cassidy and Bethâ I nod getting up. I walk out his office and out the front door. It was only 8 in the morning and I could just fall down and take a long nap. The whole ranch was alive. I look to my left and see the cowboys doing whatever they do with the cattle. I have met some of the cowboys here, such as Ryan, Lloyd, Jimmy, and Colby. Not really a fan of the whole ranch life but seeing them passionate and happy here is a bit liberating. Back home it was a small town and I call it the inbetween. We didnât have large lands with farm animals or cowboys but we also didnât have what cities do. You could go from a quiet neighborhood with a decent amount of land to a 10 minute drive down to city hall where bars and tourists danced around until curfew. The inbetween.
âReady for that horse riding lesson?â My gaze left the cowboys and moved over to rip putting on his gloves.
âGive me another 6 years and iâll let you knowâ He chuckles walking up beside me to give me a side hug but leaving him around my shoulders.
âHave to get rid of the fear if you are going to stay around here, you know horses can feel whatever you are feelingâ I shake my head with a smile
âYouâre horse must have a lot of anger and entitlementâ I hear Lloyd laugh from close by. âHas he been acting better?â Lloyd gives me a hurt look
âI could never talk about the boss like thatâ The laugh that leaves me is only cut short when I catch Kayce in the corner of my eye. He pulls the horse in the secluded section. A little boy stands by watching him as the horse starts bucking but soon enough the horse settles and runs along the ring.
âThat his son, Tateâ I only nod. âAnd that's his soon to be ex wifeâ I look over at the tan, thin, black haired woman walking up to the fence. âHave you been helping with his divorce?â I look up seeing a grin on his face.
âRip Rip Rip.â I shake my head again removing his arm and walking closer to him and whispering since I donât want anyone else to hear.
âI think you should be focused on your love life which needs the most help than anyone else's plus, you know I donât talk about my cases unless John says so '' I wave him goodbye and turn to do the same with the cowboys. I had a long morning ahead of me and I can tell you it will be an even longer afternoon.
I went over to the office and got familiar with everything going with Sarah Nguyen. The report states the cause of death was drowning which was nothing new here. The problem will be if anything shows in her body as signs it wasnât drowning that killed her. There has been a test of what I would do for this family and this was truly the worst. Everybody is shown right from wrong from a young age. I know it's wrong to help cover this up, for god sake I devote myself to tell the truth under oath and if this goes to court rooms I will bend myself over backwards to stand loyal. Now to stop that from happening I need to make sure Jamieâs name is nowhere connected to hers. She hadnât published anything but I can count on her talking to people close to her about what she was writing about. I have to check up on that and the notes she surely has on the interview. The next thing wasnât something I could do alone. Beth was attacked and the men were taken care of. It has been a hassle to shut down anything being said but so far we have done a good job. Not only does the Beck brothers have hands on this but they also found out they had to do with the whole cattle situation. I recently found out about the plane they kept. Now it was up to Kayce and the association to use that and if they need help I will step in. I look at my clock after finally getting something to eat and see it hit 2.
âMiss Reid is waiting to hear from youâ My assistant said, walking through the door holding my phone.
âMake a call down to Duttonâs phone company and get Jamie's phone transfer started. Make a damage/lost claim and tell them I will be by there in an hourâ She nods handing me the phone âMiss Reidâ
âY/L/Nâ I met Cassidy once. When she was trusted as attorney general. âJohn gave me a call this morning to let me know you would be stopping byâ I fake chuckle. Not that I didnât like her but something was off and I had a hard time trusting some people.
âOf course. I wasnât going to go around him but I thought there was really no real reason to bother you since you must be busy with the new job.â
âOh and what hectic can it beâ She laughs
âAm sure, listen we could plan to get drinks because I am sure we will spend some time together soon enough, unless you have something to discuss with me?â
âDrinks sounds great right now but youâre right we have to schedule it for some other time. At this moment everything is handled although I do have something to pick with youâ Ok. âIt has nothing to do with the job or John but it's something personal that we can discuss this Wednesday?â
âIs it a morning drink situation or afternoon?â I pull out a sticky note.
âA late eveningâ I was surprised to hear that from her.
âHowâs 7?
âIâll text you the locationâ
âSee you thenâ We exchange goodbyes and I hang
up the phone. I get up grabbing my things and heading out my office door. âSet this up for wednesday. Do you have the paperwork on Kayce and Monicaâs divorce?â
âThe paperwork hasnât been sent from court.â I I almost faceplant myself on her desk.
âIâll take care of it. What did they say about the phone?â
âThey will have it there waiting in an hourâ I thankher telling her I would be leaving for the day.
âYou can go home earlyâ I say leaving the doors. Now I have to spend the rest of my afternoon in court waiting on papers. It should be fast but what Jennifer didnât listen to when I told her to file the papers was that she was supposed to file them with the reservation. I know I should have checked up on the paperwork sooner but I know they usually take a while so I didnât bother. I waited the process and rushed over to the store to get Jamieâs phone before going back to the office.
âYour assistant wasnât answering her phoneâ I looked over my shoulder to see Beth walking up.
âAnd you couldnât press another two buttons to call me?â She gave me an annoyed look while I unlocked the door for her.
âYou donât seem to pick up your phone eitherâ I look down at it with the time stamp saying 6 and a miss call from Beth.
âWas in a reservation filing paperwork and staying to make the process fasterâ I motion to the file in my hand and throw it to the table.
âHave you eaten?â She asked softly, taking a seat.
âYes momâ
âDonât tempt me with grounding you, I could pass as your motherâ I chuckle, leaning back and closing my eyes. Looking at her wasnât easy, knowing what she went through and I know Beth wasnât weak but what she went through wasnât either. I canât see the bruises she carries and not imagine those men beating her up. Or the way Rip limped this morning because of the bullets he received that night.
âThat would make you 13 when you had meâ I look over at her just staring at me.
âI would have made a hot teen motherâ We laughed but soon enough it died down.
âWhat's in your head?â She gets up making herself a drink offering me one but I deny it. I was working late and I didnât need it to make this night longer.
âMy role in this family is to keep it together for the sake of my dadâ I shake my head agreeing with her. She was doing all of this for him, I knew that. âKayce is majorly helping with this but if anything goes wrong with this divorceâ She was mainly talking about his son. âThan it could not only affect him, the farm but also my dadâ
âI will make it happenâ
âI knowâ She leans back into the chair taking thelast sip of her drink. âWhat I am saying is that if it makes it easier and cuts the time short then I will take care of the dirty work if you need it.â That was not necessary. I know I could do it.
âOf course Bethâ I smile. She sets the cup down and I get up as she heads out the door.
âYou donât need to walk me out. I can take care of myselfâ She leaves with one last smile closing my office door. Of course I wasnât listening to her. I walk out after hearing the main door close. I watch her get in her car and drive away safely. I let out a yawn preparing myself for more research and making sure I had everything set on Kayceâs divorce case. Monica had made it clear she wanted full custody and would only allow Tate to visit under her rules. Kayce wanted to pull the same fight but John suggested otherwise. They agreed to go with shared custody. Once I was done with enough for the day I packed everything up again and drove to the ranch. Getting in a late dinner, warm shower, and straight to my bed seemed like a perfect end to the night.
âGet into the carâ I was walking up the stairs before releasing Kayce was behind me as he grabbed my things and placed them in the back of a truck. I look over to the driver's seat and see John. I didnât ask any question as I got in or while we were heading to our destination.
âI just want you to observe and listenâ I nod, getting out of the truck together. Officers surrounded the victim on the road. The sheriff approaches John as he is examining the body. It was an officer for Rainwater.
âAm not saying it was you but that it looks like youâ It doesnât sit well with John but knowing Donnie, he knows they are on the same page.
âYou can turn around if you wantâ Kayce says next to me
âShhâ I shush him walking closer to the men speaking but not enough to catch their attention.
âNow we know who did itâ Rainwater states looking over to the sheriff
âNo evidence other than the bullet in his headâ
âThat halts constructionâ Rainwater says lastly, leaving Donnie and John talking. I hear their last words and how John says he's not fazed about an attempt from the Beck brothers. He walks over to Kayce and begins talking to him.
âNative?â I shake my head. âMexican?â I look over confused at his words. âAm just curious on the kind of person you areâ
âWhy?â I turn my whole body towards his direction. âBecause I am involved with the Dutton family and I should maybe be involved with other people?â I know who I was and what I stood for. Rainwater chuckles a bit, looks behind me and then at me again.
âIâd like to pick your brain someday, if that's okay with you?â I nod. He extends his hand and I shake it before departing towards the Duttons. Kayce looking at Rainwater walks away and I ignore his stare getting into the car. We arrive and I walk directly to the kitchen.
âDo you want a drink now?â I look up from leaning against the island.
âNoâ I said a little too coldly before taking a cup.
âWhat are you, 8?â I laugh while finishing pouring milk into my cup.
âI wishâ I whisper while walking over to her and we take a seat in the living room.
âWhat do you have in your agenda tomorrow?â
âSitting down with Monica and Kayce and following up on a couple other things but I should be free until 10 and finish around lunch timeâ
âWant to go out tonight?â I havenât gone out in a while. What could happen?
Helpless
Description: She worked as a lawyer in New York until she received a phone call from the man she owes her career to. She knew she would be back and what she was in for but what she didnât know is that her life would change even more than she imagined.
Part 4
Chapter 3
I walked out to the porch taking my morning coffee and enjoying the morning dew. John wasnât kidding when he said this place would keep me busy the first few days but yet again he didnât remember that I was an overachiever. âWhen is it going to be my turn?â I turn at the sound of a little boy. I look over and see Rip training the same horse Kayce was that morning.
âYou have to be patient Tate, this canât be done in one dayâ Rip laughs continuing whatever he was doing. I walk up leaning against the fence and watching Rip.
âHello?â I look over at the brown wide-eyed boy. He looked nothing like his father, everything from his mother.
âGoodmorning Tateâ
âHow do you know my name?â He asked, confused, backing up a little.
âMy name is Y/N, I am a family friendâ I extend my hand and the next second he shakes it confidently.
âGrandpa told me about youâ I furrowed my eyebrows, surprised about that. âI was asking him for a horse and he was speaking about responsibility and such and that's when you came upâ
âI hope it was all good thingsâ I smile
âI guess, donât tell him but I kind of stopped hearing him after he agreed on getting me a horseâ I shake my head but before I said anything else screams were being heard from the barn.
âStay hereâ Rip sternly said, referring to keeping an eye on the small boy.
âWhat's going on?â
âI donât know Tate but I think we should go inside for a whileâ The boy looks back but nods following my motion to get him inside the house. âDid you have breakfast yet?â
âYes! Grandpa let me have pancakes, bacon, chocolate milkâ He stopped walking closer to me and whispering âDonât tell my mom but he also let me have one of the big cookiesâ
âI wonât tell a soulâ
âDo you want one? I know where they keep themâ I couldnât put a word in as he ran off to the pantry. I take a seat at the stool waiting on Tate to be back but it's not long after that that I hear the door open.
âTate?â I watch Kayce look around the kitchen and land his eyes on me. âHave you-â
âDad?â He stops mid run. His hands around his back.
âYou are going to be late for schoolâ I hold in a smile as Kayce stalks over to his son. âWhat's behind you?â Tate slowly pulls out one hand revealing a big cookie
âIts for Y/Nâ he looks over at me with pleas in his eyes
âAnd what about the other one?â Tate pulls out his hand holding another cookie. Tate looks at me again and then defeat covers them.
âI asked him for two.â I stood him walking behind Tate and taking both cookies. âI havenât had breakfastâ I smile innocently towards both boys.
âYeah..â Tate continues.
âGo onâ Kayce smiles at Tate. âYour mother is outside waiting to take you to schoolâ With a last smile Tate grabs his bag, kisses Kayceâs cheek before running out the door. I look over at Kayce but Rip walks through the door first.
âIts Jimmyâ I nod understanding what he means. Since Jimmy has gotten here it was peaceful and I was aware of the situation he was pulled from. Recently before arriving I was asked by Jamie to take on a case for him and it involved Jimmy. He had an altercation with his old pals and needed it to go away. Having camera footage and witnesses become not valid evidence was hard but I made it happen. I am sure this wonât be any different. I looked over to Kayce knowing this was my last chance to talk to him before I got wrapped up into something.
âRemember I set up a meeting for you and Monica at 11.â I walk over to Rip pushing the two cookies in his hands
âWhat are these for?â I quickly shrugged
âI donât like cookiesâ I shut the door behind me walking over to the barn
âHe's deadâ That is the first thing I hear. Jimmy is seated in the kitchen. I go up kneeling down in front of him. In a million ways he reminds me of my own brother. Sweet, caring, when they tell him he is too weak and will never do it, he goes out there no matter if his face ends up in the dirt.
âDid they have anything to do with any of it?âHe looks up from his hands.
âOf course they did! I know it was them. The officer came by and told me he took a beating which caused his death. I paid them and still went and did this!â I nod, grabbing onto his hands.
âOkay. What do you want me to do?â There wonât be much to go from this. No witness. No evidence other than it was an assault but nothing can be proven unless someone comes forward.
âRip said we would take care of it but he also told me you couldâ I could. There was always a way and now I knew why Rip sent me in here.
âThere is. Send him for life. You just let me knowâ He shakes his
head violently.
âI donât think that would be enough. He needs to pay and not live-â I stand up cutting him off. âI donât want to make you do something I know you donât want tooâ He looks up. Red eyes.
âI work for the Duttons Jimmy, you just have to say the wordâ I stayed a bit after that making sure he was okay and then went to find Rip. Of course he said he was going to take care of it. I knew what it meant but never asked for details, I knew better than that.
âWhat did Jimmy decide?â I look up from the awkward air that surrounded my office. Kayce and I were currently waiting on Monica to show up and it has been a long 5 minutes.
âSeems like he is going with Ripâ I let out a sigh looking down at the paperwork. Everything was written and printed. Unless they decide to change something then it is all done. All they had to do was sign. âCan I ask you a question?â I look up, seeing blanks in his eyes. Before I could open my mouth again my phone started ringing. âHello?â
âMeet me down at the bar in main street across from Veronica's Boutiqueâ I hear a dry chuckle âWhat left of itâ
âI thought we agreed on drinks tonight?â
âY/Nâ Even if she was laughing a second ago doesnât take away the pain and even more tiredness from her voice. âMonica is here, tell Kayce to sign it and well, your smart make something upâ another conversation that I donât get to say anything in. I place the phone in my pocket and start packing.
âSign the papers. I have to leave and I will catch up with Monica later to make sure she agrees with everything or if she wants to change anythingâ Kayce looks confused.
âThis is serious Y/N. I know you are busy but we can wait another 5 minutes.â His voice starts to rise. âThis is about my kid, my sonâ
âKayce I understand but I had things come up. I will text Monica-â
âI heard you say drinks! You can take care of those things
another time, Do I have to remind you that you work for us? I apologize if my attitude towards you made this not so important but-â I slam my hand on the desk ready to scream but I took a deep breath and looked up at Kayce who was already standing.
âThis has nothing to do with your attitude towards me. When I decide to take on a divorce case I want nothing else than what is best for the child if involved.â Conveniently a text came through from what I could tell was a drunk Beth. âMonica agreed to meet later on this afternoon since she had something come upâ I grabbed my things and walked to my office door. âAnd for the record I work for John, not youâ I shut the door leaving him in my office. âOnce Mr. Dutton leaves, you can take the rest of the day offâ Jennifer nods. I take the drive down to the bar as a cool down moment. I havenât known Kayce for a long time and I bet he was alright but goddamn did he know how to set me off with just a look.
âLook who's hereâ I didnât even have to look around to find them. Monica gave me a sympathetic look. They were at a booth. âIâll go get us some drinksâ
âBethâ I warned taking a seat across from Monica
âYou two worry so muchâ And there she goes, off to the bar. I look over to Monica whoâs already staring at me. âWhat happened?â
âHad an altercation with Vernoica at her store. She falsely accused me of stealing and got the cops called on me. Before Beth arrived they looked through my belongings and then made me strip down in the dressing room because she insisted I had stolen somethingâ I could see the residue tears still haunting her cheeks. âShe took a look at my skin and decided to judge meâ
âSeems like you need the drinkâ She lightly smiles. âWhat did she do?â I looked over to Beth who was talking to the bartender while having our drinks right infront of her.
âBroke and knocked over somethingsâ Monica wiped off a couple more tears that slid down her face again.
âWhat else?â I know Beth so I knew there was more than just a couple broken items.
âMade her strip down to try out a dress but I stopped it before it got worseâ You could see she regretted and felt bad for Bethâs actions.
âShe did it to protect you, you are part of her familyâ She looks up and then down at the folder I was holding
âSoon I wonât beâ She sighs.
âWe can talk about this some other dayâ She stopped me from moving the papers into my bag.
âNo. I need to do this now.â She pulls the papers towards her.
âHalf and half. Weekends are alternated. Monthly support is accessful for anything Tate may need. Holidays are between the two of you to agree onâ She checks over the paperwork carefully.âPartially custody, but the most important thing is that Tate has both their parents present and involvedâ She signs the papers and slides it to me. I slide it in my bag and look over to Beth again. âLetâs drinkâ I didnât have to take care of anything else important right now so drinks it is. I get up grabbing the cups from Beth.
âHey this idiot-âI didnât let her finish as I pulled her towards the table. I pulled out a twenty and placed it infront of the bartender.
âKeep the drinks coming, this is just an apologyâ He nods apologetic. This is going to be a long night. The drinks kept coming and soon enough the afternoon people left the bar and the night people showed up. It was Tuesday and the bar seemed like the weekend. Maybe the fact that Beth shouted that drinks were on her was the reason it brought people in. See I want to say I have better consiocious than this but in my soul I needed this. I hadnât stopped to think about what I had agreed to. Surely my parents or whoever cared for me deeply wouldnât want me to help with any of this, but am still here.
âWhat did they do to you?â My chin is lifted up and I come face to face with Rip. âI thought you knew better than thisâ A drunken smile stretched across my face as I took his hand in mine.
âDance with me?â I got up from the stool and tried to drag him to the dance floor but not even sober could I move him an inch.
âNot tonight, I have something to do in an hour so let's get you girls homeâ I look over to see Ryan,Jimmy,Lloyd and a couple of other cowboys in the bar handling Beth and Monica out the door. âReady?â He asked it more of a suggestion since he was already dragging me out the door.
âWhat time is it?â He opens the back door and helps me get inside.
â7â We have been in the bar for 6 hours. The sun was already setting by 5 so it was no surprise it was dark already. âWrap that blanket around youâ He ordered pointing to the seat. The door shuts and I look forward and Beth is passed out in the passenger seat. âRyan is taking care of Monica, she will make sure she gets home safeâ I nod resting my head back. Silence took over as he started the car and drove off towards the ranch. âJohn will not like thisâ I didnât feel drunk, I felt tired. Like when you havenât slept for days and your body aches because it hasnât stopped to rest. I donât feel nauseous or disoriented right now. I couldnât walk in a straight line if you asked me but I could count backgrounds from any number and file a lawsuit if need be. âHe had been calling you and Beth like crazy until he finally decided to seen us out to look for both of youâ
âI'm sorryâ I felt bad now. I donât think I did anything wrong but imagining how scared John felt when he didnât hear from Beth for those six hours must have felt horrible. The Beck Brothers wonât stop coming after John until he is ruined and I know for a fact that if he has too he will attack twice in the same place.
âDonât be sorry, I am the one who offered you drinks and it was because of me that you stayed and drank so muchâ Beth was now awake looking straight at Rip but Rip knew better than to look her way right now.
âBeth..â Rip warned taking off his seat belt as we crossed the ranch gates.
âDonât Beth me. She canât get drunk on her own even if her life depended on itâ I felt offended and it pained to hear that for some reason.
âWhat?! Yes I can!â I push myself forward to lean against the armrest.
âY/N Lean back in the seatâ Rip now warned looking at me using the rearview mirror
âDonât scream at herâ Beth hits his arm unbuckling herself as the truck comes to a stop.
âYeah!â I hit him this time. âI can do what I want and what I want is to continue drinkingâ I turned towards the door but I was unable to open it. âRip open the door!â
âDid you put the child safety lock on the door?!â Beth starts arguing again. âSheâs not a baby!â she hits him again
âYeah! Am not a baby!â I go to hit him but he opens the door and escapes. A few seconds later Beth doors open and Rip is on the other side trying to get her out.
âI donât have time for both of them right nowâ Rip, annoyed, tells whoever is outside with him. âIâll grab this one and you take the other oneâ He pulls her out and I hear Beth mutter some words. âI will meet you outside in 30 minutes so we can leave. '' I could hear Beth fight, not wanting anyhelp before the door shuts and mine opens.
âI guess you are mineâ Maybe I am drunk because hearing those words come out of his mouth made me feel something.
âI donât need helpâ I groaned, almost falling face first onto the ground. âI slippedâ Truth is I was feeling a little nervous under his gaze. Nothing to say about that other than that I felt a little embarrassed that he had to do this and knowing I am not his favorite person. I donât even make it to the list of people he can tolerate on a daily basis.
âLet's just get you to bedâ There it is, that irritated voice again. Seems like he saves it just for me. I know he doesnât like me but why? I mean I donât care but like why canât he just be nice enough not to sound so disgusted or annoyed by not only my presence but anything that has to do with me.
âNoâ I huffed, stomping my foot and stopping mid stairs. âWell yeah but not to bed!â I thought about it. I wanted a drink but I had to enter the house to get to it. I pushed open the door and looked around first.I wasnât about to make a fool of myself and give him a hard time in front of anyone else.
âDonât be difficult, I have things to doâ I rolled my eyes, going straight for the liquor. I didnât know much about what was best or what I could pour in a cup and just drink so I stuck with beer. âHey, donât!â He walks over to me but I go around the island avoiding him. âLook I donât have to do this but I choose to because for some reason my dad wants you here and needs your helpâ see that right there makes my blood boil. Yes I know I am here for John and nobody else. I donât accept thank youâs, any form of gratitude or apologise but the fact that he doesnât acknowledge it makes me a little ticked off. âNow can you be-â I walk over to the next room in search of my bag. I drag out the divorce papers and slide it across the island when I walk back to him.
âYou donât have to do anything for me. I choose to get drunk and choose to continue drinking. And youâre right, just because John likes me and needs me here doesnât mean you have to be nice to me but atleast you can show how you really feel about me instead of trying to act nice because someone asked or because that's what you think they want from you! I have to be nice to you but I also have the right to stand up for myself and not be treated like some kind of pest you donât want around!â He shakes his head, taking the drink from my hand and finishing the rest.
âFine!â I take a step back to walk away from I feel the room shake as I am lifted from the ground
âKayce!â I start pounding my fist on his back âPut me down! I can walk on my ownâ The room continues to shake as he walks up the stairs.
âYouâre acting like a child and so I will put you to bed and we will talk about the things you said tomorrow!â He walks down the hall opening the door.
ââYouâre acting like a child! I can take care of myself! I donât need to talk about anything with you if it doesnât have anything to do with workâHe throws me on the bed and I donât have enough strength to get up
âMy divorce will not be the only thing we will be working together on, so best get the formalities over with and figure out how to tolerate eachother without killing ourselves for the sake of the ranchâ
âKayce?â I whisper not wanting to scream or talk loud anymore. I hear a hum. âBe careful out there and whatever you do donât do more than you have too because I donât want too much work when it gets to my deskâ I hear a faint chuckle as I wrap myself in my blanket.
âWe will talk about that tomorrow tooâ
Helpless
Description: She worked as a lawyer in New York until she received a phone call from the man she owes her career to. She knew she would be back and what she was in for but what she didnât know is that her life would change even more than she imagined.
A/N: This chapter is going to be short. I want to focus more of the main character than the plot. In the next chapters thatâs what it will be but here and there it will include the plot because it affects them as well. Thank youâ€ïž.
Part 5
Chapter 4
The next day, or so I hoped it was, feeling how tired and sleep deprived I felt I woke up to my phone ringing. âHello?â
âY/N, This is Donnie. Tell John Jenkins is deadâ I got dressed in a hurry finishing the call with the sheriff and rushing downstairs.
âWhereâs John?â I ask Beth as I see her walking down the hallway
âOfficeâ Beth's eyes seemed to want to tell me something but I ignored it as I walked towards Johnâs office. âWhy didnât you tell me?â I rush in until I notice Jamie and Kayce there too.
âI heard you had a long nightâ He sits in his chair. âWe have matters to discuss so if you can give us a minuteâ He motions to the doors.
âJenkins is deadâ I flat out said. âDonnie doesn't know how long he can keep it a secret but he can get you a dayâ I could feel Kayceâs stare as I walked mid center infront of Johnâs desk. I want to look at him and tell him I was sorry. For what? That wonât help. I didnât have anything to be sorry for but I felt bad, no one should be going through this.
âWe canât worry about it now. We will take care of it. I need to get a warrantâ I nod.
âDonnie agreed to keep his cousins down since when off duty they get extra work as Becks securityâ
âGet me that warrantâ I nod again walking out of the office and to get changed into real clothes this time. I rush over to the office and get everything situated and set over to John.
âHello?â I answer my phone wanting nothing else than to get back to the ranch and help evey way possible.
âHey Y/N. Just wanted to check in to see if we were still on for drinks?â Shit.I forgot it was today.
âCassidyâ I tried not to sound so surprised and chipper. âI am actually in a rush right now. Didnât see it coming, we will have to reschedule. I hope that's not a problem?â
âThat's okay. I know we will have a chance soon enough to have dinner or atleast coffee togetherâ
âThank you for being so understanding. I will call you to rescheduleâ I didnât wait to hear her respond before saying goodbye and ending the phone call. I got to the ranch and felt useless just walking around the living room. Getting news little by little. Like how Kayce was sent out with a warrant to the Becks and got information on a milita that knew where Tate was. It was evening now and John and the rest of the cowboys were out. This was the worst part. Knowing in any second or maybe it was happening now but that Rip was getting sent out as practically bait.
âWhat is going on?â I hear the door open to see a red eyed Monica still with fresh tears in her face. I offer her seat and tell her everything I knew up to this point. We watch the sun start rising as we, including Beth, sit on the couch watching the glass doors.
âDo you want coffee?â I looked over to Monica who was laying her head on Bethâs lap. We havent closed our eyes since the last morning. She tried to speak but her rough voice didnât allow her to. I only nod, getting up to go towards the kitchen. I wait for the coffee to finish and look up towards the window and see John getting out of his truck. I place the coffee in a cup and walk out to see Monica huggin John.
âHe's okay?â she sobbed in his arms. She asked it as a question, doubting until she could finally hold him in his arms again.
âThe sheriff is driving them over at this momentâ Monica whips some tears pulling away from John. I hear the front door open to see Beth walking out and a few seconds later John follows.
âHere. You are going to need some energyâ I handed her the cup and gently made sure she sat back on the couch. I watch as she finishes the coffee and sets it down. How she closes her eyes slowly fighting to keep awake but sleep wins. Finally allowing herself to let most of her worry go away. I donât know how long it was until I saw John walking in with Tate in his arms. He looks over at Monica and then at me.
âGive me a minuteâ I nod, getting up and picking the cup to set it in the sink. I take a deep breath and go back into the living room. Seeing Tate gives me some relief from the past day, but I canât imagine how much Monica is going to feel. I look up seeing Kayce walking down the stairs. âHow long?â I look over to Monica and back at Kayce.
â10 minutes?â I am unsure on how long Monica had closed her eyes. Kayce nods, walking closer to the couch. âIâll be outsideâ I walk out and wrap myself with my arms embracing the cold air of the morning. I walk over and take a seat on the rocking chair and close my eyes. I donât know how long it passed but I didn't open my eyes until I heard the door open again. âHow is he?â I spoke first seeing Kayce looking at the distance.
âHe will be okay,â He whispered, shaking his head. It seemed like he was trying to convince himself of that too. âLook..â I wave my hand stopping him.
âLet's talk tomorrow. You have a lot of things to do and catch up on some sleepâ I smile, giving him a pat on the shoulder before entering the house and going straight to bed. I slept until 1. Got a quick shower done and off to find John I went. I saw him walking past me to his office. Jamie in his suit again.
âGoodmorningâ He smiles walking past me. I guess his cowboying days are over.
âWe need to talkâ John motions for me to sit down. He wears a black suit and tired eyes.
âI am no longer livestock commissionerâ All I have to say is wow. âPeople are going to figure out the person kidnapped is my blood and it will not look good for meâ
âAm guessing Jamie wasnât your first optionâ He shakes his head directing his view outside.
âKayce didnât want any part of itâ He sits up in his chair looking over at me now. âMe and the the rest of the wranglers are going to set camp to make sure the cattle can go back for summerâ
âWhat?Do you need me to keep watch?â I chuckle
âYou have never even touched a horse from the day youâve been here, if you can ride a horse you can be a foremanâ We laugh feeling some relief but of course that always ends quickly. âBut I do need you to keep watch on loose strands here and especially on Jamieâ
âHow long are you going to be out there for?â John shrugs
âUntil it all makes sense againâ I nod. I know he knows what he is doing all of this for. What his purpose of fighting and breathing is for. This is his land and he wants to keep it that way so he can pass it on.
The next day I watched them depart for camp. Monica decided it was best for Tate to go with them since he loved being a cowboy. It included fishing, horse riding, spending time with his grandfather and father but especially not going to school. For the next few days things are going to take a turn. With Jamie in office now and Beck's death. The new company taking over Jenkins land and wanting to stop Rainwaterâs construction. The Duttons are strong but when it comes to getting help with something they think they can take care of, God, they are stubborn.
Helpless
Description: She worked as a lawyer in New York until she received a phone call from the man she owes her career to. She knew she would be back and what she was in for but what she didnât know is that her life would change even more than she imagined.
PART 6
Chapter 5:
I walk down to the kitchen smelling breakfast, but there is no one home except Beth and I but I knew for a fact she was spending her time with Rip. âGood Morningâ My heart stopped worrying thinking someone had broken in. âMonica made breakfast before leaving. Kayce motions at the eggs, bacon, biscuits and coffee in the island table.
âThought you put on an apron and became a housewifeâ I wasnât annoyed by him but it surely came out that way. âArenât you supposed to be out at camp?â I fill a cup of coffee and turn to lean against the island to look at him.
âYou said we needed to talk,â He said calmly, taking a bite of his bacon.
âKayce, it's nothing important to ride all the way up here. This conversation could have waited until you came backâ He nods, going back to eating. âBut since you are here and it seems Monica made food for a whole village I guess we can finish what we can and talkâ I pull out a stool beside him. âSo where do we start?â His whole body turns my direction
âI need to know the truth.â I look over. âIf you are going to stay here and be part of this family like my dad wants, I want to know that I can trust you. I want to know that you are here and on our side, because I donât want anyone else that I love to be put at riskâ I could hear his voice crack a bit and he is no longer staring at me but at a distance.
âOkayâ I whisper, putting my coffee down and turning towards him again. âIf that's what it takes I understand. But all I ask is to hear my side of everything before you judge anythingâ He only nods. âWhen I was 16 I had an argument with my parents, mainly my mother. Maybe it was my fault and maybe there was a fix to things but at that time I was only 16. It sounds stupid to say that it was only because of a rumor that I ended up away from home but for me it was a ball of snow and that day was the pushâ I moved my eyes away knowing I would not be able to say anything by looking into his eyes. â My family thrived on being perfect and better than anyone else. They didnât believe in mistakes and I was the example of everything they stood for. I got good grades, I never missed school, I listened with respect and gave respect even when the person didnât deserve it. I hated it but I did it because I knew it was important to them and for me they were the only thing that mattered. That day I came home and they were waiting for me. Before I could even open my mouth to speak I was met with a slap. My mother screamed at me saying how I was a horrible daughter. How I was a disappointment. They heard from a lady that I had allowed myself to sleep around with a guy. The guy telling everyone around town that I offered myself like some kind of prostitute to him and his friends. I tried to defend myself knowing the fact of the matter was that the rumor was true but I wasnât the girl they were talking about. While she stood there not allowing me to speak she took her time to scream and physically abuse me. I told myself maybe this is it. This is my chance to get away from it all. To not only escape from the image but to break theirs. My father got in the way once I was on the floor limp. I grabbed what I could and rushed out the door. I walked and walked until I could no longer move. Getting here was days of hunger and days of asking for a ride.â I look over to him getting out of my stool to place the coffee cup in the sink. âSince then I havenât been back home. I could have gone back and remedied everything but I wonâtâ
âWhy?â I turn to see him stand next to me. âWhy not go back and prove that it wasnât you? Why go all those years without giving them a chance to change what happenedâ I turn off the water and look over to him again.
âThere is nothing I can change about that now. They made their decision. They could have looked for me all those years but have I heard from them once? No.â
âThen you should be the one to go and talk to themâ I shake my head starting to get frustrated.
âNo. I could but I wonât. I wonât face those people who donât care about me anymoreâ
âYou donât know thatâ He followed close behind as I walked towards the door.
âI donât, and I also donât want to find out.â I got to open the door but I stop once I hear his words
âIs this what you are going to do? You are just going to quit and not fight? You speak about having loyalty to us but the people you loved the most you wonât fight for?â I turn around pushing my finger in his chest.
âYou donât know me. All I asked of you was to listen and not judge. You donât know the full story of everything I went through, that was just the top of the icing. You wanted to know how I got here, I told you! And like I said before, you can either be nice because you truly feel like it or show me who you really are but donât try to be someone you are not with me.âAfter the discussion with Kayce I walked out the door only to realize what I was wearing wasnât appropriate for the cold weather. But being the stupid person I was I just continued to walk down the road.
âYouâre going to get sick!â I turn my head to see Rip leaning against the railing of his porch. âIt's too early for you too, what's wrong?â I walk up sitting on the front steps.
âI told Kayce how I ended up hereâ I looked up waiting for him to say something but he only looked at the distance. âI told him to trust me but the only thing I got from him was judgement.â I feel him sit beside me and offer his cup. âI already had my coffeeâ
âIt's not coffeeâ I smile while taking the cup. âI needed it this morningâ I chuckle while finishing the rest of whatever alcohol was left.
âYou and Beth seem to be geting along betterâ I look over and see a grin not wanting to smile.
âYou can say thatâ I was about to intervene to get more details until I heard a horse come closer. âWhy donât you go inside to warm up? Beth is in thereâ I nod moving my eyes away from Kayce. I walked in grabbing a coat nearby because I was still cold.
âDo you have something to tell me?â I turn around to see Beth in the kitchen with only Rip's shirt on. I furrowed my brows not knowing what she meant. âShowing up to Rip's new home in little clothes?â mI shake my head with a laugh
âShut upâ I walk over setting the cup in the sink. âHad a little argument with your brother, walked out the house without thinkingâ
âAnd too stubborn to go backâ All the Duttons make me roll my eyes, and I notice maybe it's just them? âI heard you and Rip talking. Why did you decide to tell him?â I shrug and take a seat.
âYou know I hate hostility and that was all that he was giving me. People around here donât trust easily and I wanted to get that out the way, instead I feel like I got more hatredâ Beth sits down beside me
âItâs hard for him.Trust me that he has a good heart. A better heart than us Duttonâ She sighs, taking in a deep breath. âHe is too good for this place. I thought when Monica came into his life and he left he would be gone for goodâ
âI thought he liked this place?â She shakes her head.
âThis is like a trap for him. He is only here because for him this is all he can give Tate.â I nod understanding just a little more about Kayce.
âDoesnât mean he has to be an asshole and annoyingâ I whisper until I hear Beth start laughing.
âAll you need to do is spend more time with him. Let him know you and you himâ I look over seeing a grin on her face.
âOh for fuck sake Beth, he just got divorce!â I whisper yell not knowing if he was still outside the door with Rip.
âWhat?! I didnât say anything but what I will mention is that he has not gotten some in a while and I know you haven-â
âOkayâ I stop her. I take out Ripâs coat. âI will leave before anything else is saidâ Beth follows me towards the door as I walk out.
âHe can keep you warm at night!â I walked past Rip and Kayce toward the main house. I only shake my head at Bethâs comment. I would be lying if I said It didnât cause a smile to appear on my face.
Truth is I do find him attractive. He needs to cut his hair but the rugged look he can surely pull off. I grew up in a town where cowboys or farmers werenât a thing, mainly country clothes but they didnt get down and dirty with cattle or horses. Then moving to the city was a drastic change. I switched my converse to heels. I didnât wear jeans anymore but pencil skirts and dresses. I didnât tie my hair up or put on a cap anymore. Around me were suit wearing men all the time. A little wrinkle in your shirt made you unwealthy. Since the day I arrived I have been wearing my same wardrobe but included some leggings. On accusations that I wore pants they were business pants with blouses that werenât considered country attire. So when I saw him in a plain brown jacket and jeans that seemed to be dragged through the dirt I found myself wanting to be closer to him. It was the rough hands and the rough not comb through hair. He looked presentable enough but always showed he was a worker. Canât explain it but just know I didnât mind him, that was until he opened his mouth. That made me wonder what I was thinking. Cowboys are rude and distateful. They can be sweet at times but they are mostly cussing out people or fighting. They have a short temper and have a look of hatred all the time. But when they smile it is like every red flag gets thrown out the window.
PART 6
HELPLESS
Description: She worked as a lawyer in New York until she received a phone call from the man she owes her career to. She knew she would be back and what she was in for but what she didnât know is that her life would change even more than she imagined.
Part 7
Chapter 6:
I avoided doing anything else than what was already on my plate. I didnât stop by to check on Jamie on his first day. I didnât try to instigate anything to do with what happened with Tate. The only things I tried focusing on was the trail back home. âHow are you doing?â
âOkay. My lawyer pulled a restraining order on him and all of his immediate familyâ I have been keeping in contact with my cousin. It took her two years to admit she was the one in those rumors. I knew of it back then but it was up to her to tell everyone not me. I didnât get angry or upset that she didnât defend me when she heard I left or say something when people were bashing my family for the kind of daughter they raised. I was waiting for more but she didnât continue.
âWhat happened?â I heard a slight cry on the other side of the phone. âSofie what happened?â She had filed a restraining order against the guy two years ago and I didnât find out until a couple months ago that she dismissed it 4 months later and were still talking. The case continued and when he found out she wouldnât stop he got aggressive. Didnât know about that either.
âMy lawyer advised me to take the deal. They said if he is put on the list of offenders his lawyer could place me with child endangermentâ At the time of the accident she was with a younger family memeber. No evidence was proved to have affected the young child but anything can randomly appear and touch the jurys heart. âThe deal agree on the restraining order being removed, the payment of his lawyer fees along with emotional damageâ That mother-fucker. âI donât want to let this goâ She whispered. âPleaseâ I knew what she was asking but I only shaked my head, closing my eyes. I canât. âI know you donât want to get involved but I need you here, like old timesâ I canât, I canât go back. âY/N?â I put my attention back on the phone call. âI know I donât owe you anything after all I did but I need you here, just like I know you need it in your soul to come back and put everything behind youâ
âWhen is the next court date?â I donât know what I was pulling
myself in. I didnât only have to face the people who talked and looked my way in a form of disgust but I will also have to face my family. The one I worked so hard to forget and heal from, I could almost see it. I got out of the office early and rushed towards the ranch. âI need a rideâ I scream when I see Rip climbing down from his horse.
âBeth is not going to like thatâ I hit his arm earning a fake groan.
âNot that kind of ride, I need to go see Johnâ Rip laughs
âWell I thought since you never in your life would ask to be on a horseâ He shruggs pulling his horse into the stable. âBut no can do, you will have to wait til tomorrowâ I look over at the direction he was looking and see Beth making her way down the path towards his cabin. âAsk Kayceeâ I looked over to where he was pointing. He was getting out of his truck and going into the house. I turn towards him again. âThose eyes always worked but not against the fire in Bethâsâ I roll my eyes.
âI hope she burns youâ I scream walking out the barn and into the house.
âI didnât expect you to be here for lunch?â I look over to see Monica in the kitchen. âI can cook something real fast for you, without Tate here I am going crazy not doing anything after schoolâ I smile climbing on to the stool.
âNo thank you. I have a long walk ahead of meâ She questions me with her look. âI have to talk with John. I am leaving planning to leave for a couple of daysâ
âWhere?â
âHomeâ I sigh, getting up. âIf I leave soon enough I wonât have time to question whyâ I smile knowing she doesnât need to know anything about what's going on. I grab some water and head towards the door.
âYou canât go dressed like thatâ This time I was wearing sneakers but she was right, the clothes were appropriate. Then again I didnât have anything else. âAm packing since there is no reason for me to stay here so you can borrow some of my clothesâ
âIt's okay, I can just dirty some old clothesâ I watch Monica shake her head, grabbing my arm and pulling towards Tates room where she has been staying.
âI have seen your wardrobe and they are not going to keep you warm enough and comfortable enough to get there and backâ I whisper a thank you as I watch her pull out some clothes for me.
âDo I look funny?â I say walking out the bathroom already changed and with her boots on.
âOther than the hair, you no longer look like a city girlâ My hair was still down and with curls in place.
âThank youâ I look over to the window and see the sun going down. âI need to goâ
âYou wonât take a horse?â
âNo. Am not afraid of them but I am afraid of fallingâ I say walking out the door with her following close behind.
âThat's why you hold on tightâ she smiles as I open the door.
âThat would help if I also knew even the first thing in riding oneâ I wave goodbye before starting my walk down the path. I run miles and walk even more than them so how could this be any different?
Let me tell you. Huge!! Difference. First of all, I am not in a warm facility running in the same spot. I am out in the fields freezing in every inch of my body. Second I am not surrounded by four walls to protect me and in company of people that show to not be harmful. Right now I am currently walking in the middle for everyone to see me. There are creatures here that can tear me to shreds in a second. Why in the hell did I decide to do this while the sun was coming down, down came the temperatures and so did my energy. But I needed to do this today. I was planning to leave in the late morning. I knew this trip was going to take a long time regardless of how I got there.
âAre you crazy!?â I scream, kneeling down to the ground and looking around my surroundings âY/N?â Of course the not long enough grass wasnât covering me.
âKaycee?â The yellow/orange hue of the sun was disappearing so it was hard to see from a distance who it was.
âMonica told me you decide to walk instead of ridingâ I rolled my eyes about to say something âI know you donât know how to ride but you could have asked Rip or another cowboy hereâ I cross my arm as he comes down his horse. âRip or meâ he corrected himself. All the other cowboys were with John. It was nice of him to follow me but when he starts off telling me things I knew I did wrong it reminds me of how mad I am with him. âWhere are you going?â
âTo see Johnâ I had already turned around and walked away.
âLet me give you a ride, that's why I came hereâ so nice of you, but no. Stupid. âStopâ I hear him scream from behind. I get startled by the sound of the horse coming closer to cut me off âI said stop!â I look up annoyed
âJust leave, I will get there eventuallyâ I look down, focusing on the horse itself. How scary. In my life I have never been so close to an animal bigger than me. I donât know what came over me but my hands started reaching out to touch its main. That was until my hands were grabbed and I could no longer feel the ground. âLet me down!â My body was placed over the horse, stomach down.
âYou donât get to pet the horse until you stop being so stubbornâ The horse wasnât going quick but the anxiety in me did.
âKayceeâ I reach over to grab anything not trusting myself to touch the horse in any way that could affect it. The hand he used to hold on to me quickly moved to position me up.
âItâs okayâ I was currently facing forwards with his arms wrapped around me for support.
âYouâre so stupidâ I whisper. I didnât know if I was shiving because I was cold or how afraid I was right now. The horse continued walking now. My eyes stayed shut as I leaned further back.
âYouâre the stupid one. Coming down here alone not even with a horse. You know we have wolves here right?â I nod my head slowly. âThese clothes would keep you warm for a while not for a long walkâ I nod my head again, taking hold of his hand that he was removing from mine. â I need to take hold of the reignsâ
âOkayâ I nod but not noticing I was still holding on to him until he chuckles and stops the horse to get down.
âSlide downâ I look down with panic in my eyes. This time I shake my head no and he rolls his eyes. He quickly grabs hold of my waist and pulls me back trying not to alarm the horse. Before I can argue he gets on and my arms instantly wrap around his waist. âHold on. We need to get there before we freeze out hereâ I wasnât listening to him. I was only holding on tight with my eyes closed and pressed up against him. I was afraid. I was afraid of something I could control. The horse I was on I couldnât control. It could take off and drop us somewhere causing pain. Other things I was afraid of was anything involving me on it or in it that moved on its own. Elevators, cars other people were driving, ferris wheels, hell I was afraid of bridges no matter the length. âI'm sorryâ The wind was a distraction but I still heard him. âI told you I would listen and all I didnât was question you. I had no rightâ
âAm going back homeâ Silence fell. âNot because of what you saidâ
âOf courseâ I could hear the sense of humor in his voice. âWhen do you leave?â
âIn the morning hopefullyâ My voice was no longer shaking. âThey are having trials. They think they can just settle a deal and be done but I wonât let them. Settling falls more on his favor and that I wonât standâ
âDo you know the person who he did it too?â I nod my head.
âBack then I knew too. I didnât have the right to say anythingâ
âBut that couldâve changed everythingâ
âMaybe that's what I wanted. I had a chance to tell them and I was going too until they would let me talk. I thought to myself maybe it's for the best. I wanted to get away for so long. Why not let it run its course?â
âAnd now you are helping them?â
âSheâs family. We might not be a perfect family but we promised that we would be differentâ We promised we wouldnât make the same mistakes as our parents. They are all fighting to keep their appearance and be the best. They talk behind eachothers back and the next second hug and talk about how great each of them are. We told eachother we would never be like that. We protect eachother but most importantly listen and understand. Because we know we are not perfect, it's us against everyone else.
Helpless
Description: She worked as a lawyer in New York until she received a phone call from the man she owes her career to. She knew she would be back and what she was in for but what she didnât know is that her life would change even more than she imagined.
Part 8
Chapter 7:
âDad?!â I open my eyes seeing the fire of the cowboy camp.
âHey bud. What are you doing awake?â Kaycee climbs down giving Tate a hug.
âWe are having fishâ He pointed towards the fire and the rest of the cowboys talking around and laughing.
âWhereâs grandpa?â Tate looks over and points at a tent. Kayce tells him to go back to the fire and wait for him. âCome onâ I move my legs to the same side and jump off.
âDonât do that again '' I told him, walking off. âJohn?â I hear him answer and I walk in. âThis is cute and warmâ Two sleeping bags on the ground and a portable light hanging from above.
âNever would have thought of seeing you in those clothes or out in the woodsâ I roll my eyes hearing his chuckle as he sits on the ground.
âDonât get used to it, I almost died coming hereâ We both laugh this time. âI am leaving tomorrow for a couple of days. Sofie asked me to come back. She doesnât like the settlement they are pushing on her and her stupid lawyer wonât do anything about itâ
âI thought they were settling on only being in the list?â I thought so too until he thought he was smart enough
âWhen I get finished with him he would beg to only be placed on that list. Not only would he be fighting Sofie but I will go on trial on my part. They told me to go back and fight for what was done to me and that's what I am going to do. He started everything and he will pay for the anger I have stored in me.â
âHow's Jamie?â
âI bet he is having fun dealing with what happened, havenât received a call all dayâ I shrug.
âAnd you wonât be receiving one all nightâ I furrowed my brow looking down at my phone. No service.
âI see I will be back at the ranch before youâ
âI like it hereâ I smile. I finish up talking with John before heading outside. I turn my direction towards the fire camp.
âWould you like some or are you too good for fish over the fire?â Ryan laughs, placing a piece of fish on a cold tinfoil.
âThis place change you city girl?â Lloyd said, passing over the fish. I take a seat beside him on the fire as the rest laugh. The laughs die down as I cut open the fish and carefully start eating it with no hesitation
âMy family on my mother's side loved to fish. Most of what was in our freezer were fish and I also spent a good amount of my childhood until I moved in the lakes with themâ I look over to Ryan. âI have no trouble with a little dirt in my hands but I also wonât say no to the finer thingsâ I shrug hearing a small laugh.
âDo you know how to fish?â I looked over to Tate who for a fact was exhausted. I bet he was enjoying himself.
âNoâ I shake my head.
âI do. My grandfather taught me and I have caught plenty of them todayâ He had a big smile on his face as he looked over to Kayce wanting to see his reaction.
âWell thank you for the amazing dinnerâ All our heads turn as we
hear footsteps coming up towards us.
âWe are glad you liked it. Now it's time to clean up and get to bedâ John says but mainly directing it towards Tate. âKayce?â I look over seeing him nod his head towards his father.
âHelp them clean this up and straight to bed you go. I will be there to say goodnight in a bit, okay?â Tate nods as Kayce gives him a kiss in the forehead and heads towards John. I finish disposing of what's left of my fish. I walk over covering the remaining cooked fish.
âThis is a bad look for youâ Lloyd says coming over to me.
âI can make anything workâ I laugh as I continue helping clean up.
âCan you help me get water?â I look down at Tate who is handing me an empty bucket.
âYeahâ I dust off my hands and grab the bucket from him. I head behind him not really wanting to touch freezing waters right now.
âDonât worry, it's totally safeâ he turns to take a quick glance at me with a smile.
âTotallyâ I smiled but behind it I was scared. I know I said I have been around lakes or bodies of water like this one but this one is a rapid moving body of water. Not to mention it was dark and the light of the camp was just a glime when we arrived at the edge.
âJust throw it in but donât let go of the ropeâ Tate tells me as I see him following his directions. I move down a bit and do the same. âThere you go!â He smiled excitedly. âOh lookâ I looked over at him pointing towards something I couldnât see and I really didnât care as his sudden movement caused him to slip.
âShitâ I grabbed onto his arm and pulled him towards the ground but causing me to fall into the water.
âY/N?!â
âAm okayâ I tell him in a hurry seeing him get up and walk towards me. âIt's okayâ I struggled to get up on the edge with it freezing me to the bone and the speed of the water wasnât helping. âLets go before we choose to take a dip in the water againâ
âAm sorryâ Tate looks down as we continue our walk up.
âIt's not your fault. People take cold plunges everytime, it's apparently good for youâ I smile not wanting him to feel bad about it.
âWhy?â he finally says with a hint of a smile on his face.
âWho knows, they are crazy people in my booksâ A small laugh falls from his mouth as we finally arrive. Most of the cowboys were in their tents I guess.
âNot the time to take a dive in the waterâ I motioned for him not to go on further knowing Tate was still feeling a little guilty about what happened.
âLloyd and I will make sure to fire it off, why donât you get to bed?â he nods setting the bucket down
âGoodnightâ I wave him goodbye and watch him go into his tent. I seat down taking in the warmth of the fire.
âHe almost fell into the waterâ Lloyd lets out an oh and takes a seat across from me.
âHeard anything about Jimmyâs problem?â I didnât take my eyes from the fire as I shook my head no.
âI better not hear anything that has to do with Jimmy good or bad in the next couple of days because I wonât be here to take care of itâ We laugh
âThat boy needs more work than I have seen anybody needing but sure does know how to take a beatingâ
âThose are the beating that you canât avoid, they help bring out the better person in himâ
âI thought the older one was supposed to be the wiser oneâ I laugh looking over.
âYou might beat me in age but not in soul.â He throws me something as I avoid it laughing together at the remark. Before he could say anything his eyes looked up and he cleared his thoat.
âTake care of the fire, I am going to get some sleep. Goodnightâ I smile
âGoodnightâ I wave. I turn over hearing footsteps.
âTate told me what happenedâ I look over and nod my head. I see him take a seat down beside me.
âHis only 7, things happenâ I get up not wanting to hear anything else from him. I grab the bucket and throw the water at the fire.
âI set up a tentâ
âThanksâ I grab the other bucket and make a circle around the
already turned off fire.
âThey only had one tent to spareâ I set down the bucket realising what he was saying.
âGreatâ I just wanted to get these wet clothes off and go to sleep.
âAlsoâ Fucking great. I sigh walking in so he could follow. âCowboys arenât the best prepared.â
âI can see thatâ I donât know why I laughed. If it was because of how tired I was and the cold running down my whole body was making it worse or because the circumstance has placed me with a guy who I carred not even a tiny bit to be close to right now. Okay. I say to myself taking off my shoes and socks laying them to dry for tomorrow. I look over and see Kayce taking out his big coat. I turn around and do the same but also take my pants off. The shirt thankfully is long enough to reach my mid thighs.
âOkayâ I hear Kayce clear his throat before moving to the only sleeping bag we had. I was freezing so I didnât take another second to turn off the lights and slip into the bag with him. âYouâre shiveringâ I heard him whisper behind me as I had my back turned towards him.
âMaybe because I was wet and it doesnât help that I get cold easily and that it's almost below zero right nowâ I wrap my arms around myself hoping it would help but it doesnât. Minutes went by but sleep was not coming.
âTurn aroundâ Before I could ask I felt one arm going under my head and unknowingly my body on its own turn to face him. His other arm slips over me and pulls me tighter. I let out a deep breath, getting comfortable. I donât know if I was getting warmer because of his body heat or because being this close to him was too much for me. âThank youâ I smile. I think I was supposed to say that to him but I know why he was saying it. Definitely getting warmer because I was wrapped up in his arms right now. I was right, he didnât smell like what I thought a cowboy would. He smelled nice. He is gentle, soft, not what in daylight I would describe him. Yet that somehow was comfortable for sleep to take over. In my head I tried counting the second but after 1219, I gave up. Frustrated and not only because I couldnât sleep. âIt's been almost 30 minutes and you canât sleep?â
âIt's been 21â I said annoyingly. I wanted to move to be more comfortable but I was currently in a stick position. My legs were straight and so were my arms.
âNo wonder youâre not a morning personâ Moving was the wrong choice. I only wanted to get out of the sleeping bag.
âSorryâ I whimper, pulling my hand up all the way not wanting to rub it against him any longer. I didnât know where to go from there. The awkward tension was overtaking my anxiety and I needed to move.
âWaitâ He whispers, taking hold of my hip with one hand. Second mistake was not moving after that. I closed my eyes trying to not let his touch affect me but that diffenetly didnât help. I could feel even the warmth of his fingertips as they traveled along my back.
âKayceâ It was my last plea. The last piece of strength I had in me to leave. He pulled me even closer and the fire in my stomach ignited even more. I wanted to touch him. How close his face was to my hand.
âTell me to stopâ Those words left me breathless. My hands moved up his chest, cursing at the jacket he still had on. His other hand still under my head moved to push me closer just barely touching his lips. I touch up to his neck until I get to his face. The only thing being heard was the noise of our silent breaths. The shivers in my bones wanting and pulling towards him. When he finally comes closer brushing against my lips with his it wasnât enough. I took hold of his jacket and pulled him to meet. At first it was only one kiss. Then another, and another. Until my fingers were wrapped in his hair gripping, wanting him to catch on to my wants. We explored our mouth what seemed like forever, not that I mind but I wanted more. I start grinning my body and I feel him put some distance with his other hand on my hip. âDo you-â I rolled my eyes. Of couse he tries to be a gentleman right now. I cut him mid sentence as I unzipped the bag but not to leave. No, he did this and now he is going to fix it. I climb on top of him to capture his lips again. Moving my hip trying to control a little of my urges.
âDonât try to be nice right nowâ I say trailing kisses on his jaw and down his neck. âI need this jacket offâ I mumbled frustrated.
âYes maâamâ He grabs my face, kissing me as he pulls us up to a sitting position. What am I doing? The cold wasnât bothering me anymore. As he takes his time taking his jacket off I canât help but stop to think. What the hell am I doing right now? He just got out of a marriage. He has a child he must focus on. Was this just something to pass time? Why did I care? Surely it wouldn't be anything more. I didnâ let him take a look after pulling my shirt off. My lips attach to his as my hand works his belt.
âCan you help a little?â I look up hearing a slight chuckle from him. I lift my hip a little as he slides his pants off. I couldnât focus any longer. Once I lowered myself knowing the only thing that separated us was the bare fabrice of my panties. âGodâ I moaned as he started kissing and sucking on my neck. His hands cared for my back before fiddling with the band. I huffed a little before moving them to the side and gently placing him where I wanted.
âFuckâ I tried. I wrap my arms around his shoulder trying to restrain myself. âHoney,â He whimpers grabbing fistful of my hair. I tried. My breathing was getting heavy as the bottom half of me couldnât relax from squeezing him.
âI can't,â I whisper. He was big. Jesus was he. Where was all the confidence I had before?
âI wonât last longâ He moves over to kiss my cheek. The sweat already forming was making my hair sticky. He moved it out the way to attach his lips to mine gently. âI want to cumâ This was a plea and a whine together and damn did it take me to the peak. He continud to kiss me as his hands moved down to my hips to help me move.
âShit.â I could feel tears swelling my eyes. âJesus fuckâ I didnât know what to hold on to as his pace fasten. Slowly I feel his strength weaken. I follow my own rhythm up and down as fast as I need to.
âHoney..â My eyes roll back along with my head feeling my arousal almost reach its peak.
âKayceâ I moaned. To my surprise he attaches his mouth on one breast. âFuck!âJesus. I know it's wrong. I have spoken his name in tears, he must think I was praying to him hard.
âMm. y/n?â I got out my thoughts looking down at him. My pace slowed down, putting more pressure on reaching my spot. God did he look beautiful. The slight shadow the moon casted I could see his messy hair. His pleaing eyes and swollen lips. Glimming. I grabbed his face to kiss him but he latched himself to my other breast giving it attention. Correcting myself, he looked the most beautiful right now. I kept on looking at him as his eyes never left mine. As the pace never slowed. The pressure is building up. Cumming on only fucusing on his eyes on mine. How the warmth of him and the kindness in his eyes has made me feel. His lips detach himself but not before leaving one last kiss. I hiss as they are sensitive.
âTired?â I roll my eyes tracing my fingers down his shoulders onto my thighs. âI can make those eyes roll back for other reason nowâ
Helpless
Description: She worked as a lawyer in New York until she received a phone call from the man she owes her career to. She knew she would be back and what she was in for but what she didnât know is that her life would change even more than she imagined.
Chapter 9
Chapter 8:
I can tell you one thing, I have never gotten up so early. When I got out the tent almost falling on my face trying to put my boots on I was met with Lloyd. âGoodmorningâ He smiled suprised.
âMorningâ I smile standing up trying to act as normal as possible. I rush along him trying to get as far from the tent as possible. âGot any coffee?â
âRough night?â
âWhat?â I bet my look was horrifying because that's how I felt.
âSleeping on the ground? I bet you are not used to thatâ
âOhâ I nod my head. âYeah rough, and coldâ I zip up my jacket. âThank youâ I grab the cup.
âMilk?â I shake my head. I only put sugar on my coffee. âWell, a long day ahead of us.â I nod knowing what he meant. He needed to be the alarm clock to the other cowboys. One after another got out their tents and rushed over to get their coffee.
âY/n?â I look over seeing John with coffee already in his hand. âI need you to take Beth with youâ I look over to the cowboys around us.
âSureâ I placed my cup down and walked over to where he was on a small upper hill. âWhat needs to happen?â He looks over to the distance. Cattle in the outfield.
âI want her to focus on herself for atleast a couple days. She has been having hard days latelyâ Truly hard days. I hold back the grin. âBut donât take too long,â I nod. âI hope after the trip you leave it all behind youâ A dry chuckle leaves my lips.
âYou know I donât hold grudges for longâ He laughs at my comment.
âGrandpa!â Our heads turn to Tate running up to John and Kayce following close behind. I didnât dare look at his eyes. I couldnât. Fucking hell. My mind was fighting with itself right now. Like how the hell did I think it was a good idea to let feelings control me last night? âCan we go fishing? I want to show my mom how many times I can catchâ Monica is here?â I looked up and surely enough she was there and trailing behind her was Rip and Beth.
âBuddy it's cold out there, I donât think mom will want thatâ and there it was. My heart was melting more and at the same time it was taking a step back. He was sweet and I only saw it when it came to Tate. Then Tate fills my mind as a little kid whose feelings are going to be more of a mess as his parents separate.
âThen can we come back here when it gets warmer?â He looks over to Kayce and then at Monica as she comes close enough to hear. Rip stops beside me and Beth to stand on his other side.
âOf course kidâ she wraps her arm around his shoulder giving him a side hug.
âYay!â he screams happly running away. We all chuckle seeing him run to act like a real cowboy.
âIt's going to be hard getting him back into school mode,âRip says. Of course when my eyes move away from watching Tate they find his eyes. There is not a hint of emotion. I canât tell if his eyes are wanting to talk or listen. They arenât saying that something happened or that he was disappointed or that he even hated me. âY/n you need a ride to the ranch?â I didnât notice they continued the conversation and now it was only Beth, Rip, Kayce, Monica, and me.
âSureâ Before anyone could say anything I grab Beth's wrist and pull her away from their ears to hear. I figit with my fingers as I stand before her now.
âWhat happened?â
âNothing happened. John wants you to come with me back home. It will be a short trip, atmost 2 days.â
âY/nâ She warned looking directly into my eyes.
âNothing happened. Either you are in the house packed in 2 hours or I am leaving youâ I hated how it came out but I wasnât in the mood to talk. What happened wasnât something to giggle about like middle school girls. I walked over to Rip who was hopefully finishing his coffee. âCan we go?â I cross my arms not looking directly at him until he grabs my chin and makes me look up at him
âWhy the pout? Sad to be leaving?â I roll my eyes, snatching my face away.
âI donât pout, let's goâ I demand and make my way over to his horse. I hadnât releazied I was pouting. From my walk from Beth to Rip I was already a little annoyed at her and it wasnât her fault. Then as I reach Rip I notice Kayce talking and laughing with Monica. Why should I care though? Because before the divorce they acted like they hated eachother and the next second they were tolerable but now they are best of friends? Stupid asshole.
âHe doesnât bite,â Rip says, patting me on the shoulder before getting on and helping me up. I instantly wrap my arms around him. âKayce said you were a tight huggerâ I didnât have time to answer as the horse started moving. Fucking hell, I am never mounting a horse again even if its my only way of surviving. He had to forcefully remove my arms like some kind of seatbelt. I tell him thank you and run inside the house. I took a shower and threw Monicaâs clothes in the washer. It was close to 10 and the plane leaves in an hour. I finish up packing and load the dryer. I let my hair air dry only having my towel wrapped around as I knew after taking out the clothes I would spend the rest of the time I had left in my bedroom getting ready. I spent a goodtime washing the boots as I didnât want to leave it messy for Monica. I grabb the boots and rush over to the dryer to get her clothes out and go to her room or where she was staying when Tate was here to fold it. I hurry hearing the door open. I rush out, closing the door and running down the stairs.
âWe have 45 minutes before we have to be at the airport! I sugges-â God dammit. Now I know I wouldnât deal well in a horror movie because apparently I would close my eyes and hide behind my hands. âCouldnât you say something? Or atleast not try to scare me to death?!â I sign, turning the other direction towards the kitchen.
âThis is my house, when did I have to announce when I entered?â I roll my eyes walking around the island.
âSince no one is supposed to be here other than Beth and Iâ
âDoesât change anythingâ I shake my head even more annoyed. I stomp my feet turning to look in his direction.
âWhateverâ Cowboy hat still on. Rusted face with traces of dirt and mud on him. âGot dragged by something or just enjoyed rolling in filth?â I didnât know what I was saying but I did know it was getting on his nerves.
âI could ask the same thing?â His boots made a noise on the wooden floor as he took a step closer until he was 2 inches away from my face. My jaw tightens and my eyes want to close as his smell radiates around me. It was a smell I still didnât mind because it wasnât bad at all. âOr because you are back to reality everything is too much?â It's like my lips were glued shut. I didnât even care what he was saying as long as he came even closer than what he was doing. His breath is now ghosting over my neck. âLast night your outfit surprised me but I prefer your cute tight skirts and heels.â He takes another step forward, not removing his distance from me as my back twists and backs up to the island. A low grunt leaves my lips wanting nothing more than to regain my body back. âI couldnât imagine a nice girl like you going for a dirty, ungentlemanlike, rude cowboy like meâ He kisses one spot and am lost. Where was that nice guy from yesterday? I didnât seem to care as he continued to kiss my neck knowingly leaving marks behind. I grab on to his jacket for support. âSmell so sweet and I bet taste much sweeterâ
âGod Kayce!â I squeal as he lifts me up the island and I wrap my legs around him. He continued to kiss and suck and I needed more. And I know he knew that.
âCan I take charge now? Honeyâ He pulls my head back only to slam his lips to mine.
âMhmâ I nod wrapping and pulling on his shoulder grinning to feel more of him. I hear a groan as I unbucle his belt.
âIt's my wayâ He pulls back just enough to unfold my towel and lets it drop on the counter. I heard his pants fall and no one had to tell me because I knew I was dripping for him already. âCome onâ Kayce grabs ahold of my upper arm and pulls me off the island turning me around to lean over it the next second. âI liked how you feel against meâ He pushes inside me with no warning.
âFuck, Babyâ I whine. One hand goes to my lower pulling me even closer as he continues pounding into me. âKayceâ his other hand moves to cover my mouth as he starts kissing down my neck to my shoulder.
âI love the sounds you makeâ Stupid fucker. I didnât care. His pace was fast and I didnât know how long I could wait. âHoney?â I shake my head and close my eyes. I could see that stupid grin on his face to know what I wanted. âSqueeze me harderâ he whispers, pulling me closer. âLike you did last nightâ Fuck that was it. âCuming together like last night?â I nod my head as the pace quickens. âFuckâ he moans finally covering my mouth with his. I wanted nothing more than to touch him but the pain and pleasure I felt right now was enough. It wasnât the first time I felt him release everything inside me and it wasnât like it has happened 100 times but I knew I would never not be turned on by it. I collapse to the island, whining a little as he pulls out. I couldnât help but smile a little as I felt gentle kisses on my shoulder. His hand caressing my sides. âWe still have another 20 minutes?â he whispers and this time I chuckle, shaking my head.
âKayce,â I warned, standing up straight. Over an hour ago I didnât even want to look at this man. I didnât want him near me much less any of his touch on me. But right now at this moment I wanted everything that had to do with him. I wanted him on me again.
âY/N! Donât be such a brat!â I kneel down as soon as I hear the door open and Beth's voice. I wrap the towel around my body and rush to meet her by the door.
âWhy arenât you dressed? We have 25 minutesâ I give her a quick smile.
âYeah and you better hurryâ I rush up the stairs and slam the door. I could not promise you I wasnât giggling and grinning as I took another quick shower and got dressed. By the time I was out the door it only took me 20 minutes. How I could have spent those minutes doing something else.
âGet in the car!â
Helpless
Description: She worked as a lawyer in New York until she received a phone call from the man she owes her career to. She knew she would be back and what she was in for but what she didnât know is that her life would change even more than she imagined.
Chapter 10
Chapter 9:
The trial took longer than expected. That asshole thought he could get away with threats and lost. Got on the list of sex offenders and after serving 3 years in jail he will have probation. Community service for a year. I avoided my parents and everybody else I didnât have to see for the 2 weeks I was there. Beth went home for the holidays after the 3rd night. I was currently at the entrance of the ranch. âYou can drop me off hereâ The driver nods as I get out of the car and take out my luggage.
âHave a good day miss'' I wave back waiting for him to drive off. I start my walk down the long road. There is no noise even this far away from the house, and that's not a good thing. The cold is freezing my fingertips as they are the only part except my face that is not covered by multiple layers. New years have gone by and it's the 5th day of the month and a new beginning for me. I havenât left it all behind yet but it's a good start. The people in town know what happened now. The idiot got what he deserved but most importanly my parents got to know how wrong they were and even if I didnât get to see their reaction it felt good.
âWant a ride home!?â I look at the distance and see Rip riding up.
âI am never getting on a horse againâ Thankfully I had sneakers on because there was no way I was walking down the long dirt/gravel road with heels. I continued walking as Rip got off his horse and took him by the reign to walk beside me.
âWhy the long face?â I looked over confused but quickly shook it off.
âI had a long couple of daysâ Something about walking in the cold air clears your mind.
âTell me about itâ He huffs. âYou are going to have a list of chores to do when you get back homeâ Oh fuck. âJaime, John, Beth, all the Duttons, even Kayceâ He turns to look at me for a split second. âThey all need family therapyâ I chuckle a bit.
âYou ainât telling me something I ainât already know.â Rip sighs as we get infront of the house. âCan I ask you something?â I turn to him, letting go of my suitcase. He nods so I continue with my question. âAre you and Beth okay?â Before the trip I knew they were spending more time together but knowing Beth this has been an ongoing thing. She tries to make it work but along the way she makes herself take a step back and shield herself again.
âWe are working on it. I waited this long and I will keep on waiting as long as she needsâ I knew Rip was a good guy even with the character everybody thinks of him as.
âWell. Let me go inside before I freeze to death out hereâ I tell him goodbye before heading inside.
âWell look who's backâ It wasnât so early in the morning when I arrived so I was suprised to see John. âHad some family fun time during the holidaysâ I held my dead stare on him.
âBeing funny isnât good for youâ He chuckles a bit, offering me a cup of coffee. âSorry I didnât answer these past few dayâ
âDonât worry about it but now that you are back I have a list for youâ oh I heard. I nod my head taking a sip of the coffee. âI need you to go see the livestock commissionerâ Before the word why could slip out he got a phone call. âBeth left the paperwork on your bedâ He leaves out the door. It feels good to be back. Somehow this kind of work, although it can be stressful, is what I strive for most. I took a long needed shower and got dressed to head out. I grab the paperwork and head down to see the livestock agents. I always laugh when I hear about them. Like I know their jobs are serious and all but come on, livestock AGENT?. It's like Bond being recruited to take care of sheeps.
âWhat did I do to behold such a sight?â I shake my head walking through the doors as Ryan holds the door open.
âNice to see you too Ryanâ I say hello to the rest of the guys in the room before turning to the secretary.
âMr Dutton called and said you were coming.â She gets up and leads me down the hall. âHe just came from the meeting so I didnât get a chance to notify himâ I gave her a sympathetic look.
âDonât worry, Jaime is used to not planning thingsâ quick hot head he is. I smile before opening the door. I stop dead in my tracks. I should have knocked. Knocking so I would have heard who was inside and it would have given me a chance to figure things out before coming in or just bolt out of this place.
âMr Duton, Miss l/Nâ I think her name was Jenny. Thank you Jenny.
âThank youâ Kayce stands up as my legs feel like jello walking over to the chair infront of his desk. The room wasnât warm. It stayed on the cool side but my body felt like it was burning. âHeyâ
âHeyâ I sighed. The air felt thick and my lungs couldnât grasp enough of it. âI need you to sign a couple of thingsâ I pull out the file and slide it towards him.
âDo you want something to drink?â Something to eat sounds better. Coming here with on coffee in the stomach wasnât the best choice.
âNo.â That sounded a little too harsh damn it. âThank youâ I stand up walking closer to the desk to open the file. âEverything you need to sign is marked but on one page you need to place your imprintâ I flip it to make sure he knows which page it is. I remove myself from leaning in as nerves run down my body seeing him from my side view that he got up.
âY/n?â It was a whisper but enough for me to hear. I look up and see him walk around to the desk towards me. Am not nervous because anything that happened between us came to mind but because he somehow makes me feel little. Not in a bad way eitheir, like I donât need to be something am not with him beside me. I take a step back.
âKayce we need to talk but I donât think this is the time or placeâ I put my hand up defincisbly. I donât know what was going on. My body wanted to tremble and for some reason my eyes were feeling up with tears. My cheeks were burning and all I wanted to do was crawl into a corner until I could think again.
âY/n?â
âWhat?â I finally find his eyes again and he is just a couple steps away from me giving me the space I needed.
âAre you okay?â That's when I lost it. All the emotion I was holding in slipped out and rolled down my cheek. First one tear and then a couple more. I bit my lip trying to hold in the sorrows that wanted to leave. ây/n?â I shake my head back away again.
âJust give me a minute. I just need a minuteâ I close my eyes, wrapping myself in my arms trying to hold it together. This happened once when I was 15. I was at a party and all the emotion evaded me. For the remaining of it I locked myself in the bathroom and cried to the tunes of the songs. No one came to check on me and when I finally got out nobody knew why I was crying and I felt like a baggage to them. I locked myself in my room and screamed my lungs out until I didnât have any energy left in me. I promised myself if it ever happened again I wouldnât let it overtake me again. I felt him wrap his arms around me and pull me closer.
âYou need to let it go. You have been holding on to so much and I promise you it gets better when you let goâ He whispers. And I donât know what happened. Everything that was slipping out my mouth
âIt's not fairâ I let out a cry. Gripping on to his jacket. âIt's not fair how they can just continue their lives without me! I saw them before I left, I was going to go up to them and let them see me but I didnât want to give them even that. I always had a little feeling inside that they would come find me one day and apologise and maybe something would go back to normal. Why do they get to pretend to be a happy family when it's not complete? Was I the problem the whole time? When I was with them they couldnât stand eachother, maybe I needed to leave so they could be happy. But why do they get to be happy and I got the worse part out of it? Why donât I have a happy family? Maybe it didnât affect me before because I had someone on the line if they found out the truth and having the feeling of them owing me an apology in the future made it better. Was that too selfish? Am I too selfish to want that? Should I have just told the truth? Maybe I didnât do it because I cared for my cousin so much but because I wanted to embarrass them in the end. Because if I did everything right then why am I the one hurting at the end?â Then everything stopped. The tears, the cries, the tight hold I had on Kayce as he was still holding me. I took a deep breath and pulled away from him.
ây/n?â I look at him wiping away my tears. âI think you deserve a loving family and I know one day you will build that. I donât know the whole thing but I know that she was grateful she didnât have to do it aloneâ
âOkâ I smile, rubbing my hands on my thighs trying to get the nerves out. âThat was enough for todayâ I hear him chuckle. âWhat?â
âNothingâ He shakes his head. He walks closer to me enough to feel his body heat. âI know right now is not the time and place after all of thatâ I roll my eyes at his comment. âHow about dinner?â Is he crazy?
âKayceâ I warned, shaking my head. I wanted nothing more than to leave right now.
âListen. We need to talk about everything that happened, I donât know about you but it wasnât just to let steem outâ He says defensibly.
âOkâ Before walking toward his desk he grabs my upper arm pulling me towards him. His other hand slides up to my cheek making me look at him. âWhat?â The grin I had was there although I was trying to hide it.
âNothing,â He whispers, moving closer.
âMake sure those papers get signed so you can give them to me laterâ He smiles and nods. âAm seriousâ I was getting aggravated due to the fact he had a stupid smile on his face and his stare was making me blush. I hit his chest puting some distance but I was only pushed back in again and into a kiss. I couldnât hold back and I wrapped my arms around his neck. His kiss was slowly and every promise of air was long gone. I didnât mine. I just wanted him. Both hands slide down to my hip holding me steady and close.
â7?â He says as he pulls away. My eyes still closed, I nod my head. He pecks my lips. âAnything specific?â I shake my head still with a stupid smile on my face. âHave a curfew?â That made my eyes roll again.
âNo sir I do notâ I slide my hands down his chest pushing away from him. âDonât be lateâ
âYes maâamâ he smiles as I open the door to leave. I turn around once more.
âDonât forget the paperworkâ
âYes maâamâ I stayed there for a minute watching him take a seat behind his desk. He may not have wanted this job as commissioner but he sure does look doing it.
Helpless
Description: She worked as a lawyer in New York until she received a phone call from the man she owes her career to. She knew she would be back and what she was in for but what she didnât know is that her life would change even more than she imagined.
Chapter 11
Chapter 10:
I was pacing back and forth. Kayce hadnât returned from the office yet and it was almost 7. âCan you sit down? I can give you some pills to calm downâ a death stare was sent Beth's way as I fell back in my bed. âTell me how it happened again?â
âI donât know. I didnât like him. I just thought he was a littel cute.â
âNot at all your type I must sayâ
âDirty boots. Dirty jacket. Dirty handsâ God those hands.
âDirty mouthâ That too. I smile but hide it from her. âNo manners, style, or communication level you are used tooâ
âI donât know Beth. I canât explain it. Every arrow is pointing towards the exit. The only reason I noticed my interest was after sleeping together. He makes me angry and annoyed most of the time we are together!â I scream. âBut when he smiled at me this morning and just held me I remember the way I felt with him even if I couldnât stand him at the time. I felt calm. I felt seen. I felt protectedâ
âYou need to explore it, what could go wrong?â Maybe she was right. Maybe it was something worth giving it a try. âWait, you already slept together?â
âTwiceâ I smile. Before she could say anything there was a knock on the door. âDonât you dare moveâ She gets up running towards the door. âGive us a minuteâ She says to whoever is on the other side of the door and runs back to the bed. âGo onâ
âNoâ I shake my head and laugh.
âWhat? I tell you about my sex lifeâ
âThat's because you have no filter, you would tell it to a priest if you had the chanceâ I got curious on who was at the door so I get up to open it âPlus he is not my brotherâ
âWho's not your brother?â Fuck you Beth.
âRipâ I say trying to hold onto my nerves.
âSheâs acting like a saint not wanting to tell my how good or how bad of a fuck you areâ Beth came around pushing around us and down the hall.
âSorryâ I whisper. He was standing there with a smile holding flowers. Flowers! My inner teen was screaming and jumping. Black jacket that seems nicer and newer than the ones he regularly wears. Of course blue jeans and he couldnât be complete with his cowboy boots and his hat.
âI got you flowersâ I long forgot about Beth now.
âThank youâ I smile while taking hold of the flowers.
âI got stuck with John-â
âIt's okayâ I cut him off. I placed the flowers in a vase I had in my room. âWe still have timeâ I donât usually carry a purse so I grabbed my jacket and phone and walked out the door. Something about walking out the door with Kayce made me feel nervous. I hadnât thought about what John might say. I know it had nothing to do with him but anything could happen, what if he wasnât okay with it? It didnât matter right? He holds the front door open and rushes to open the passenger side of the truck for me. âThank youâ I felt a rush waiting for him to get on the other side. I smiled, noticing the truck was still on and warm.
âLet's go,â He whispered, switching gears. It was a couple of seconds before he spoke again but to be honest it didnât feel uncomfortable. Switching my view of outside to him looking straight at the road. âDid you have a lot of overdue work?â I chuckle, shaking my head.
âNothing I canât handle. I still have to meet with my secretary to see what things I have to catch up onâ I leaned my arm on the arm rest fidgeting with my hands.
âWhat did you do for christmas?â Just the sound of the holidays made me stiff. I havent celebrated christmas or the new years in about 5 years. There wasnât really a reason to do so. I didnât have my family to do so. I didnât want to intrude with the Duttons or friends, so I stayed home.
âNothingâ I could feel his stare but soon it went back to the road. âIt didnât feel special for so long that I just treated it like easter. Never celebrated that ever'' I took a deep breath in. Maybe I shouldnât have said anything, he probably feels sorry for me. His arm meets mine, settling against me as his hand sneaks into both of mine. My shoulders relax and my head leans against his shoulder. âSo where are we going?â We have been on the road for atleast 10 minutes and that almost took us past everything in town.
âBeth told me about a place just outside of townâ I nod just taking in his presence right now. Honestly if we went home right now I would take this as a good night.
âBeth?â He looked over with a confused face.
âYeah?â I chuckle a little and shake my head. âWhat? Is there something wrong?â With Beth? Yeah, but she wonât see a therapist.
âWe will find outâ We spoke for the rest of the car ride to whatever place Beth had told him about. âIt doesnât look badâ I look around feeling nostalgic. On our trip back home we stumbled into a bar one night and reunited with an old friend.
âLook who took my adviceâ The same old friend welcomed me into a hug. âThat night you left in a hurry I thought I ran you offâ I smile trying to not let the uneasyment show.
âI was in town for work and something came up, I apologiseâ I pulled away fully standing beside Kayce. âBut it's nice to see you againâ I look over to Kayce. âThis is Gideon,â I turned to him. âAn old friendâ Gideon extends his hand for Kayce to shake.
âKayce Duttonâ I would be lying if I said I didnât have a grin on my face. Kayce introduced himself with a smile. When I took hold of his hand I could feel tension.
âNice to meet you Kayceâ Gideon returns the smile. âLet's get you a tableâ We walked past the sitting area towards the outdoor doors. âYou get our special tableâ The double doors opened and it was beautiful. It was a balcony area with a single table for four. It was cold being January but we were surrounded by fire heaters. The top was opened with fairy lights hanging from ontop and flowers decorating the post they were on. The overlook was all country, maybe it was an orchard? It was dark, I couldnât see anything past the railings. âI will be back to take your orders personallyâ We say our thank yous and sit down.
âThis is beautifulâ I look around some more and each time I find something that makes it more beautiful. Like the hacienda accent it had along the place. The way it pulled up to a second story somehow so there were stairs on both ends of the balcony.
âYeah very prettyâ I almost burst out laughing seeing his serious face as he looked around only to scruff and focus on the menu. âIâve been to fancy places but you canât even understand what these words meanâ I let a chuckle escape then.
âKayce we can leave if you wantâ I reach over the table to take hold of his hand. He finally looks up and shakes his head.
âNo. You like it, we should stay.âI pull my seat out and walk to the one beside him.
âKayce I donât care how pretty it is, if you donât want to be here we can leaveâ He shakes his head taking my hand in his.
âNo it okayâ
âOkayâ I say with a smile, grabbing the menu.
âPlus we donât want your friend to feel badâ There goes another eye roll. I slam the menu on the table and turn my body towards him.
âYou want to know who he is?â Kayce looked a little taken back due to the volume of my voice. âIâve known him since middle school. He dated one of my friendsâ Well multiple of them but that's a whole different story, and a pretty long one too. âAnd that's how we met and kept in contact even after they broke up until a year before moving hereâ I stopped and sat up hearing the doors open.
âI know you donât like drinking but having you here is something we need to celebrateâ He had glasses and a bottle of wine. He opens the bottle and starts pouring. âI spoke about this dream for so long with you that having you finally see it well, everything feels completeâ
âIt's amazing what you have built here. I am so proud you made it happenâ I raise my cup and cheer with him.
âYou remember what I promised that night?â I nod. He points afar over the balcony. A couple of field lights turn on illuminating the land but not enough to blind everything else. âWhenever you want, it's yoursâ I stood up taking the moment in. I have only dreamed of this. Back home with my grandmother the smell of oranges and apples never left my memories. I have always dreamt of having an orchard full of them. I walked over the edge blocking the two behind me. Maybe there are some rewards in life still left for me.
âAre you okay?â I look up nodding to Kayce. âGideon said he would bring out something we both would likeâ I nod again and look far off to the trees.
âI always had problems with relationshipsâ I looked over to him again. âAny kind of relationship. Family, friends, loversâ I took in a deep breath thinking back to the year before leaving. âI always gave too much of myself to people and even though it might not seem much to them it killed me each time they took it for granted. I thought separating myself from everyone would show me who really cares, now I understand it works both ways. I was a horrible friend to him, not contacting him and even after years he wants to give me all of this?â I didnât relized I was crying until Kayce came forward to wipe a tear. âI should have taken care of those who showed me love instead of protecting myself from them because I thought they would treat me just like the othersâ
âY/N, nobody is perfect. You did it for yourself and that's what you needed and they people who truly love you understandâ
âBut that's selfishâ
âMaybeâ He smiles, grabbing my face in both of his hands. âLike you said, any relationship needs work from both people. And they will love you no matter the flaw, nobody needs to settle for being something they are notâ He continues to wipe the remaining tears as I look at him with a smile
âWho knew you were such a talker?â He shakes his head as his hands slide down my neck, my arm, until they are wrapped around me pulling me close.
âYou bring it out of meâ I roll my eyes. Never was a person for mushy lovey words but I can live with his words.
âWhateverâ I smile. âYou think it will fit in the truck?â Getting lost in his eyes and just feeling his warmth, I didnât want to leave.
âWhat?â
âMy orchardâ I smile, chuckling a bit.
âI can find a spot in the ranch to plant a new oneâ
âWe are on a first date and you already want to build me an orchard?â
âYour friend Gideon who you has no emotional relationship with just gave you oneâ
âIâve known Gideon for over 10 years, thereâs some emotional feeling thereâ
âOf courseâ He rolls his eyes looking away. I grab a hold of his face and pull him closer.
âBut I will let him know that it can stay here.â I place a kiss on his cheek. âBecause my cowboy will become a farmer just so I can have my orchardâ I place another on his jaw. âI will just have to wait a little longer for it but I am okay with thatâ His arms tighten as I finally reach his lips. A groan leaves his lips as I bite his bottom lip. It was supposed to be quick and a romantic kiss but with Kayce it never seems to be.
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Chapter 12
Chapter 11:
I was at my desk working on a case I had just taken when there was a lady and a kidâs voice outside being a little too loud.
âI understand but you just-â
âJennifer?â I say walking out my office only to come across a red face Tate and Jennifer trying to block his way.
âY/N!â
âIt's okay,â I told Jennifer as Tate came running towards me. I send a thank you to Jennifer before walking Tate into my office. âAre you okay?â I give him a bottle of water and sit beside him on the couch I had.
âI was with my mom shopping for winter clothes when she told me I would be going back to live with her and I donât want to!â Tears started to leave his eyes agains. âI ran and I saw your name on the outside of the buildingâ
âTate it wasnât right to run away like that, your mom is probably freaking out right nowâ
âShe is not! She doesnât love me, she wants to take me away from my dad and grandpaâ He wraps his arms around my neck continuing to cry.
âTate she loves you very muchâ I rub his back trying to make him calm down a bit. âDid you ask your mom why she decided to move back?â I feel him shake his head. âTate?â I asked, wanting him to look at me but it didnât seem that the six year old was going to budge. âYou know what I do for workâ
âNoâ I chuckle a bit finally hearing his voice calmer
âI am a type of lawyer. As a lawyer who fights for a client in any case but sometimes it comes to the point where you need to listen to both sides and figure out what the best solution isâ I grab a hold of him and sit him in my lap. âPoint is you need to listen and read every little things because without all the facts making a decision so fast is not rightâ
âSo you argue your way to what they want at the end?â I laugh, wiping away his tears.
âYou can say that. I do what's best with all the facts on the table that favors my clientâ He hears that and gets off my lap to stand right infront of me.
âI would like for you to fight for me to stay at the ranch with my dadâ Oh buddy. âOr talk to my mom and have her say yesâ I stand up and walk over to get my phone knowing Monica is probably way over freaking out and I donât want her to do anything bad.
âBuddy let me call someone first and we can all talk about it okay?â Tate nods, taking a seat again. âHello?â I say as her phone is answered
âY/N?â That wasnât Monicaâs voice
âKayce?â I ignore the fact that he had Monicas phone. She probably called him freaking out. The last time Tate went missing it wasnât pretty. âI have something of yours in my office. He came walking in upsetâ
âOh thank godâ He lets out a sigh. I hear him tell who I am guessing was the other cowboys and Monica. âWe will be right overâ I hung up the phone and soon enough after a couple minutes there was more chaos outside my door. âHe is in my officeâ I tell Monica and Kayce but block them from going in. âBefore you go in and talk to him I want you to know what we spoke aboutâ
âBut is he okay?â
âYesâ I tell Monica. âHe came in upset about the talk you might have had while shopping.â Monica nods understanding what that meant. âI calmed him down but while doing that he got an idea that I could help him get his way and that was certainly not my intention.â
âMaybe you can help usâ I nod, opening the door for them to walk in.
âDadâ Tate runs towards him hugging him.
âBuddy you canât be running off like that, your mom really got scared for you.â He was soft with his words, maybe being careful preventing memories from arising again.
âYou donât understand she wants to keep me away from you!â He cried looking over to Monica. âI want to stay with dad!â
âCan we sit down to talk about it?â Monica says pointing towards the two chairs infront of me. Tate nods allowing Kayce to carry him over. âBaby my intention is not to take you from your dad or your grandpa. I love that you have a home at the ranch but you also have a home with me.â
âBut you are moving all my stuff out of my room. I donât want to leaveâ Monica looks over to me as I could see tears filling her eyes.
âTateâ I say, making him look over to me. âCan we make an agreement?â
âYou are going to be my lawyer?â
âSomething like it, but you have to promise to listen and take in account everythingâ He nods. I take a piece of paper and start a list. I didnât want to mention anything about the divorce and what it meant in custody because I didnât know if they had talked with him yet. Yes he was aware they werenât living together but up to this point Monica spent some nights at the ranch and they spent time as a family too. âTate I know you want to live at the ranch full time but your mom would like to have you at home too since she loves your companyâ
âI can come and visitâ He turns to her.
âBuddy, how about we split the week?â Kayce says âHalf of the days you stay at the ranch and the other with your mom?â
âIf we have time and when if is a good time I can bring you over to spend time at the ranchâ Monica says grabbing hold of his hands
âWhat about my stuff?â Tate says looking over at Kayce
âYou will have your clothes at the ranch and other at your moms same things go with your other belongingsâ
âWhat about my horse?â
âThat would certainly stay at the ranchâ Monica dry laughs and a smile appears on Tateâs face.
âOkayâ He turns over to me with a smile.
âAlright. So have the days with mom and the other with dad. Clothes are to be separate and the horse must stay at the ranchâ I wrote everything on the paper and made three lines. âIf we have an agreement parents can sign here and Mr Tate you can sign hereâ I hand him a pen and they all sign. I placed it in a laminated folder and handed it over to Tate.
âHow about school?â
âWhat about school Bud?â Kayce stopped as we all stood from our chairs.
âCan we agree on me only going half the day?â
âNo,â Monica laughs, taking hold of his hand. âLet's go get you some jackets. '' They said their goodbyes and left the room.
âThat kid,â Kayce laughs, shaking his head. I go over and place both hands on his chest.
âAre you okay?â I search for his eyes but he keeps looking away. âKayce?â
âWhen she called it felt too real againâ his voice broke and I took a second before wrapping my arms around him.
âI'm so sorryâ I whispered as soft cries came from him. âEverything is okayâ I tell him, caressing his back. âHe is okayâ
âI knowâ He pulls away but does not let go of my waist. âAm just hoping it doesnât haunt him anymoreâ
âYou and Monica and everybody who loves him will be by his side if anything happensâ I try to reassure him.
âI knowâ I smile as a smile appears on his face.
âSo who should I bill my time to?â I say hoping to get him in a happier mood.
âI thought it was on the house?â I feel his hands enterwine and pull me closer to him.
âOn what grounds?â I move his hair from his face.
âOn the fact that you live on our grounds and we pay youâ
âCorrection, it's Johnâs grounds and John pays meâ I say, pressing my finger with each word on his chest. âBut I guess I can do an exception for you since youâre kind of cuteâ
âStop youâre making me blushâ He pulls forward giving me a quick kiss. âDoes your door lock?â he says looking over
âYesâ I whisper, pulling him into a quick kiss again.
âReally?â He grins, making me walk backwards towards said door.
âNoâ I shake my head with another kiss I pull away from him. âI got work to do and I bet so do you commissionerâ I open the door.
âYes maâamâ He grabs his hat which he layed down on my desk. âWhat time will you be done?â He walked backwards towards the door.
âNot sure, I can text you?â He nods, stealing another kiss.
âI will pick you upâ before I could deny the offer because one I had my own car here and two because I probably would be getting off sooner than him anyway but I didnât decline.
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Chapter 13
Chapter 12:
I was walking up the stairs from a long night at the office. âYes Jennifer, donât worry about it just enjoy your weekendâ I was in another divorcee case but the soon to be ex wife I was representing wanted more and more. Everytime we finished an agreement she wanted another meeting set up the next day. âYes, donât worry about it, I will be the one calling her tomorrowâ She was currently blowing up Jenniferâs phone because we told her we wouldnât be able to set up a meeting until next thursday and that is an inconvice for her. I soon finish my phone call and walk into the house.
âSeems like you need a drinkâ I place my things on the island as I shake my head.
âThe only thing I need is a vacation or maybe a radar that would tell me when I am accepting a crazy person as a clientâ I knock off my heels and fall onto the couch. My eyes opened as soon as I felt someone overlooking me. âLiquor isnât good for meâ I say, taking the drink from Bethâs hand.
âDonât I know it?â She laughed, moving my feet so she could sit. She normally drinks at any hour but this time her expression told me it had a deeper meaning
âWhat's going on with you?â I sat up a bit, turning over to her.
âWhat?â I raise my eyebrow, turning my whole body in her direction. âOkayâ She set her drink down, turning towards me now. âJohn found out about you and Kayce and the words he used werenât exactly acceptingâ Great. I let a sigh slip, as I fell onto the couch again. We have been seeing each other for almost 2 months now. We didnât keep it a secret exactly but we werenât screaming to the world. We barely see eachother with getting up before the sun and spending late hours at work. We have had a total of 3 dates and one of them was interrupted by his work. He hasnât even asked me to be his girlfriend! âDonât freakâ She says, pushing the drink towards my face finishing it in one go.
âWhat did he say?â I sit up, placing the glass down. She stands up grabbing the said glass and pouring more liquor in. âBeth,â I stood up, taking the drink from her and finishing it. I sure will need it.
âHe said something along the lines of, He doesnât need any distractionâ Distraction?
âWhat else?â I pour more than a shot in the glass walking back to the couch.
ây/nâ She warned as I took a sip.
âYou know what!â I turn towards her. âIt doesnât even matterâ I finish the drink and set it on the side table. âHe doesnât have to worry about me, I never want to be somewhere where I am a bother to someoneâ I start walking up the stairs and hear Bethâs footsteps behind me.
âWhat are you doing? I will talk to him! He didnât-He is just stressedâ I turned over to her.
âYou donât need to talk to him about anything, I will.â I go right into my room and pull out my suitcase. âI never took anything for free. Never. I am grateful for the help he gave me but am not going to be a chess piece he can move when he likesâ I never carried a lot of belongings so it didnât take long for me to finish.
âY/N. You canât just leaveâ
âMy parents thought the sameâ I look at her plainly in her eyes. âYou will see the checks he paid me weren't cashed. Money will be wired for tuition with interest.â I put on a coat and grab hold of my suitcase. âI will call you tomorrowâ I leave her standing in the middle of the room to walk downstairs. My nerves were a wreck right now. My mind was telling me there was a better way to go about this but my heart was taking over me. I got out the door and onto my car. I turn on the car and place it on reverse before I hear my phone ring. âHello?â I glimpse at the caller ID. I didnât want him to worry so I calmed my voice hoping to get him off the phone as soon as possible.
âY/N. Beth told me what happenedâ Fuck you Beth. âI am almost home. Just wait 5 more minutesâ
âI canât Kayce.â I want to do nothing more than not to see him. I back up then change gear to drive off the ranch.
âWe can talk about it. Baby donât leaveâ I pressed the end button before reliezing it. My eyes were getting blurry and my hands were shaking. I didnât know if it was because of the coldness or because I was holding back freaking out. Minutes went by and I had to stop the car to the side, it wasnât smart driving like this. I saw my breath in the air. I move to the passenger side and lean against my car. I look up to the night sky feeling no tears coming out.
âAm so stupidâ I hit my forehead sliding down to the ground. I had my own money and could go anywhere. I have a good background and could be accepted anywhere. Iâve dreamt of living beside a body of water and I could do that. I had no attachment here, so why is it hard to get back in my car? Was I even going to go through with it?. The Duttons were the only family I really felt needed and loved by. I hated to hear John wasnât happy with me. Was it a stretch to think I meant something to him more than what it was? I was only a girl he helped years ago go through college so I could be of use to him later on. Or was I thinking too hard?
âY/N?â I turned to my left and I didnât even notice the headlight shining towards me.
âI have to goâ I stood up walking to the driver side door. I felt a tug on my arm pulling me back.
âIf you wanted to go you would have '' He took hold of my face forcing me to look up at him. âLook at me. Am hereâ Even if my face was right infront of him my eyes were elsewhere. âLook at me damnit'' He tugged my jaw to get my attention. My eyes filled to the brim with tears but I dared not to blink. âAm hereâ He nods and my head unconsciously follows along
âI know,â I whisper, moving my hands up to grab onto his jacket. âI donât know what happenedâ His hands move to hold my cheeks. The cold wind was non existent by then. âI hate feeling like a bother. He has done so much and-â I couldnât hold it. I burst out crying and cling onto him harder. His arms wrap around me pulling me in closer.
âDoesnât make what he said right. He loves you like a family, don't ever forget that. He just gets hot tempered with things and canât think straightâ He pulls away allowing me to look up to him. âYou have done nothing wrong. You have done everything he has asked for, you do not belong to himâ He lays a gentle kiss on my lips. âDonât feel like you owe him something, okay?â I nod. A smile appeared on my face. Some weight has lifted off my shoulders. I still need to talk to John. If he wants me out of the house and fires me as an attorney I will find somewhere to live and get another job. I feel deep down that is what I really need right now. Maybe a break from all the Duttons is best. âCan I take you home?â Maybe not all the Duttons.
âNot tonight. Can we go somewhere else?â he lays another kiss, nodding his head. I grab his hand before he starts walking away. âIt's best if you drive, I had a couple of drinks tonightâ
âLet me call Ripâ I nod, getting into the passenger seat and looking at the rearview mirror. Watching as he gets his things from his truck and walks over to get into the car. âYeah. Tell her sheâs okayâ My eyes widen a bit feeling bad about worrying Beth. âCanât do nothing with her. Sheâs a stubborn oneâ He chuckles a bit earning a hit on the arm. âAnd abusiveâ He grabs my arm before it makes contact with him again. âShe has to put up with so much more, I can handle thisâ I shake my head leaning back waiting for the phone call to finish. âWhere to?â He turns on the car and turns over to me.
âKeep going straight, Iâll give you directions from here. '' He switches gears but does not let go of the break yet. I look over and see him offering his hand. Without a word I enterwine our fingers as they lay gently on the console. âAm okayâ I whisper while looking over. âI just want you, okay?â I lean closer.
âYes maâamâ He smiles, letting go of the break.
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Chapter 14: Part 1
Chapter 13:
âWhen am I going to be a big brother?â My eyes almost popped out of their sockets. I turned over to Tate seeing how he looked at me before both our eyes looked over to Kayce. He was sitting on the other rocking chair as we enjoyed the morning light. âMy friend just got a little brother and my other friend already has twoâ he turned back to me with a wide smile and hope in his eyes. âI want three so I can beat them but I will settle with oneâ I couldnât help but burst out laughing.
âBuddy, Y/N and I need to talk about it first. It's a decision we can only make but am glad you are all for itâ Tate stands up from my lap facing us both.
âListen I understand so let me tell you what's on the tableâ I looked over to Kayce who had a slight grin on his face. âYou know I donât mind sharing and being nice but with a sibling I will learn so much more. I will be more responsible. Protective. I will have a love for teaching because I will be teaching them everything about the world they donât know. As an only child I will be such a mess!â I subdue the laugh I wanted so badly to let out.
âYou know some studies have linked only children with having superior verbal skills. Others have concluded only children are more motivated and better adjusted. And not to mention they get better grades.â I say sipping on my coffee.
âI promise to get better grades! To study day and night and do all my chores on time!â He comes closer to me.
âBud. We expect that of you either way, not the all day and night thing but we will keep that in account when your father and I have the discussion of your siblingâ
âYay. I need to go tell grandpaâ He ran off before I could hold him back.
âYour sibling? As in present tense?â I look over with a smile. I kicked off the blacket and set down my coffee.
âDonât get too excited cowboyâ I move over to sit on his lap. âYou havenât even made me your wifeâ I lift my hand to show him an empty finger.
âI thought you didnât care much about marriageâ he wraps his arms around me pulling me back. I lay my head on his shoulder as he pulls the blanket he had on us.
âI can make an exceptionâ I smile, digging my head into his neck.
âWith the sibling before marriage or marriage?â I pull back looking dead in his eyes.
âBothâ My smile drifted away wanting to see his reaction before getting my hopes up. I know he was smiling and grinning talking to Tate and teasing me but now it was a serious conversation.
âI would love to give Tate a sibling. I just want us to be on the same pageâ His hand moved to my cheek and down my neck pulling me closer so my forehead rested on his. âI donât want this to rush us into something you are not ready for or donât wantâ I know what he meant. Before we started dating we got into an argument like we always did when we talked. I told him I didnât want to be held back by people. People usually disappointed me and I found a way to either disappoint them or kick them out of my life. So as far as that goes I told him I wouldnât think twice about having a kid. It wasnât something I wanted to ruin.
âI know what I said before and that doesnât change the fact that I am still scared.â I move my hands up his chest to rest on the side of his face. âI donât need a ring to know that I want thisâ I give him a quick kiss. âI want you, Tate, and your crazy familyâ I hear him chuckle. âI also want your future kids but maybe not right nowâ I cuddle closer to him resting my head on his shoulder as we both look out the distance. âI want to enjoy you and Tate before we add to the worldâ He lays a kiss on my head wrapping his arms tightly around me.
âIf that is what you wantâ He whispers in my ear.
âYou donât want that?â With a slight humor in my voice but I was worried what he was going to say next.
âI want what you wantâ I pull a little back, turning over to look at him. âWe are a team but when it comes to your body it's your choice. I will do and give anything you are okay withâ I laugh laying back down
âWhereâs my orchard?â I say with sass in my voice. âI want my orchard and you have yet to give me oneâ I smile hearing a huff behind me. âYou know I can always go back to Gideonâ This time it was a groan I heard. I was lifted off the chair and placed to stand on the porch.
âDamn woman, What I got to do to keep you happyâ He shakes his head grabbing onto his hat but I stopped him from putting it on.
âYou still love me right?â I whisper, putting my hand behind my back. He had gone down one step on the stairs so it even out our height a bit.
âThat should never be questioned maâamâ I smile walking closer. âThat is why to show you I will plant you an even bigger orchard than that Gideon guyâ He rolled his eyes looking in another direction. I laugh at his response. I take the hat from behind me and place it on his head. He turns towards me, lifting his head. I plant a kiss on his lips pulling away with a smile.
âOranges and applesâ I whisper still close to him
âYes maâamâ he smiles, pulling me closer by wrapping his arms around me.
âShouldâve gotten a cowboy a long time agoâ
âBut you were too busy messing with those city boysâ I laughed hitting his shoulder. âIf you had just given me a chance years agoâ I laugh a little louder pulling him away
âWhat are you talking about?!â Years ago he was still with Monica. I heard them arguing once but it wasnât like couples donât argue. The only interaction we had together was dinners and maybe the occasional hello, how are you?, and goodbye. We didnât get a chance to continue as Tate was running up to us screaming.
âDad!â With a giant smile he runs up to the porch to stand beside me looking over to Kayce. âGrandpa thought it was a good idea. He said once the baby is born he is going to buy another horse so I could train him!â I hold in my laugh this time not wanting to give hime hope. I watch as Kayce kneels down infront of him. He took a quick glance at me and with a smile and a nod he knew what to say.
âBuddy I know you are excited but y/n and I decided to wait. That doesnât mean you wonât be a big brother, it's just not going to happen right nowâ I can already tell he has a sad look in his face as his shoulders slump down and as he looks up at me my statement is made true.
âThat's okay, I understand. '' I smile gently, getting down aswell.
âI promise youâ I look over at Kayce before moving closer to Tateâs ear. âIt wonât be long. So you better start practicing before thenâ
âYouâre right!â He smiles, pulling away. âI need to learn how to change diapers, oh! And how to wash their bottles.â He continues to mumble to himself as he walks through the house door. I turn over to Kayce looking him dead in the eye.
âWhat?â He smiles
âDonât you have work to do?â I say sternly with my arms crossed
âYes maâamâ He bows his head, turning around.
âI love youâ
âI love you too,â He shouts. I know I donât want a baby right now but he is really making it hard as I see him walk away. I can imagine him with Tate by his side. Both holding one hand of a baby who is learning how to walk. Maybe another baby in Kayces arms as they walk throught the ranch. Laughing and smiling.
âI need to get on birth control soonâ I whisper to myself.
âYou should have gotten on it a long time agoâ I jumped back, turning to see Beth standing behind me. âI mean I know you were never much out there but I know Kayce and you do it like rabbitsâ
âSo you will understand why I need it more than ever. Even more now that Tate has brought an idea that wonât be going away anytime soonâ
âI thinks it's a great ideaâ
âOf course you do Bethâ I smile wrapping my arms around her. âBut you are just going to have a to wait like the othersâ
âNot long right?â She laughs.
âIf I donât get on birth control, noâ We both laugh knowing my words scared me but the humor it cost her eased my nerves.
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Chapter 15:- Part 2
Chapter 14:-Part 1
For the past week it has been the same routine. I get home and lay my things on the couch. Find Kayce if he is home so we could continue to finish up the house. I donât know how I got dragged into this idea. I wanted to find a house close to the ranch, check. I didnât care if it was a fixer upper, check. I wanted to wait until atleast a bathroom and the kitchen was done, not check. Kayce got me to agree to move in right away. I should have known better. The kitchen needed painting. The bathroom didnât have the shower set up yet. And that's only a few things on the list. âKayce!â I screamed as I got into the house. Eachday we tried to knock something out the list. The first few days we got the bedroom ready. Only a bed was occupying the space. I walked to the kitchen noticing the paint had dried. Another thing that was a hassle is agreeing with things. I wanted a simple white color around the house with a mix of black and greys. Kayce called that the city side of me but that nut jobs wanted browns,greens and reds. What is this supposed to be? That would remind me of my grandmother's house, if I knew her. We decided on a sage green and beige and light blue eggshell color. The wooden floor was all his idea but my bathroom had to be tile and that is as far as weâve gone.
âIn the backyard!â I looked out the far window and saw his back but what I could also see was a figure standing infront of him. Who had come over? I come around cautiosioussly. I stood frozen on the doorway. âHey-â
âHoneyâ Last time I heard those words he was using it in a hurtfult way. In the conversation he would call me many other things that werenât appropriate to call your own daughter. âI wanted to see youâ He comes closer but Kayce blocks him from my view.
âWho are you? I thought you were the contractorâ His voice was rising and his posture was stiffer.
âKayceâ I stepped forward gently placing my hand on his arm. He got my message and moved aside âI donât want no lies anymore. I know you are not here to see meâ I hadnât seen him in awhile.His grey hairs were more prominent. Wrinkles probably caused by his companion have worsened. Of course all of this was due because of time other than that he has stayed the same.
âY/nâ He softly spoke. âI am here to see youâ
âAnd?â I raised my eyebrows seeing through his lie.
âAnd to give you something but that can waitâ His shoulders slump down. It might be wrong of me to not even try to hear him out but mistakes back then showed me that people donât deserve a second chance and it will be okay because I can live without them in my life.
âI said, no lies. Tell me what you need to say or give me, I have no heart to hear anything elseâ
âMy-â
âMom!â Our heads turn over to the doorway seeing Tate there with two paint swatches in his hand. âI finally choose the color I wantâ
âMom?â I look over to see the shock expression in his face. âYou had a kid?â His voice was still soft but all I heard was judgment in his tone.
âWho are you?â Thankfully before I could turn to Tate with tears on the brim of my eyes he took him into the house.
âWhat do you want? I am not going to give you another 5 minutesâ I wiped the tears that had not fallen yet.
âI truly wanted to see you but now that I know you have a kid-â
âNoâ I shake my head furiously. âThat will never happen. When you decided to stand there that night and also do nothing when mother screamed at me you also made the decision to have nothing to do with me from that day onâ
âI am his grandfather!â I was not going to correct him. The timeline correlates with Tates age so he should have no doubts he was truly mine and I wasnât about to deny anything. He was the man to forget about wanting to know his grandchild if he knew he didnât share his blood. Call me evil and stupid but I wanted him to leave here knowing he wasnât ever going to cross paths with him again and it was for the best.
âLike I said. You are not his grandfather because if I remember correctly you nodded when she said something along the lines of, you can forget your parents, you are no daughter of mine!â
âYou knew the reason why! But now it's all cleared upâ He took a step forward but I deny him getting closer.
âYet it took you years later after the truth was announced to come see me and not even an apology was offeredâ
âYou have to understand we felt hurt that day and even after, it was still hard on usâ That made me chuckle.
âHard? You know what was hard? Hearing from the people that gave you life that they didnât love you! Kicking you out of their house with nothing in hand! Not checking up on you when they knew they were wrong when all they spoke about how bad pride was and how forgiving you should be! I guess it only works for distant relatives and not your own daughter!â Anger was fueling me to let out things I couldnât control. I didnât know I felt this way until all the words had been said out loud. âBut it's okay. I learned from my mistakes. Like you taught me daddy, you should not trust the one who broke their end of the deal firstâ
âY/N/Nâ
âDonâtâ I shake my head. Hearing that nickname only added fuel to the fire I was trying to control. âYou have another minute to tell me what you are truly doing here before you get kicked outâ I look up to his eyes and see sadness. For the first time I wasnât the one crying. Then I see a big legal orange envelope pulled from behind him.
âYou have been servedâ And just like that he won the game of chess again. Yes he was crying but I was left broken. âAnd there will be a rewrite to the list of demandsâ
âNo,â I say coldly. I know what he meanât. I was the one who walked closer this time. I grabbed the envelope and stared at him in his eyes. âNo matter what is in here and what you want, I will not let you take something of mine, I donât let go of things that easilyâ
âI saw you in your cousinâs case, you are a good lawyer but good is not going to be enoughâ He grabs his coat from the chair and walks to the doorway.
âI am not goodâ He stops his steps turning over and I swear I saw a faint grin. âI am great and if you want a recond you can ask your associate but you can also wait until we are in court ourselvesâ
âI canât wait honeyâ He walks through the doorway allowing me to finally get some air. Closing my eyes I let the faint air caress me and allow it to take away the tension.
âWas it all true?â I turn around frozen at the expression on Kayceâs face. Before I could respond he walked forward wrapping me in his arms. At that time I let out all the frustration in tears. âI'm so sorry. I didnât know who he was, he told me he was a contractorâ I shook my head wanting to tell him not to worry about it but nothing was leaving my mouth. âI thought you called someone about the pool I wantedâ I laughed, hitting his chest.
âYouâre an idiot, you should have known better. I donât want a pool in the backyard.â
âHow stubborn you are, I should haveâ He laughs. His hands moved upwards pulling my face into a kiss. âAm sorryâ He whispers with sad eyes.
âIt's okay. I donât even know why I am crying, I have bigger things to handleâ I left my hand showing the envelope but he pushed my hand down gently.
âDonât shut down your feelings with meâ He kissed me again, pulling closer.
âTrust me when I say I am okay. I guess it was all the emotion of seeing him again. It made me relive that day again.â I look up, wrapping my arms around his neck. âBut I am okay. He and my mother will not cause me any more painâ He nods, moving down to place another kiss on my lips. âNow can we talk about the envelope? He nods again. âI havenât read it but I can tell you he got some ideas by seeing Tate?â His eyebrows furrow. âIf I am correct the content of this envelope is to rip me out of the shares in their company and to a new addition to pay some kind of settlementâ
âOkay. Where does Tate come in?â
âMy mother is vindictive but so am Iâ I smile pulling away. âI donât know exactly what card they will pull for Tate but they are going to use him to get me. I will fight for those shares and the money but trade it under a deal for Tateâ
âWould you have done it either way?â
âYesâ I smiled up at him. âI donât want or need anything that ties me to themâ I move my hand to his chest messing around with his coat. âI promise Tate will not be involved in this more than just his nameâ
âI knowâ He grabs onto my hands and kisses them. âI have a fiance whos the best lawyer here to New york, I bet I can put a good word in to help youâ
âI bet I am better than herâ I grin, feeling his heartbeat. âIn a lot of waysâ I hear a low chuckle.
âI will have to verify thatâ I placed my hand between our lips before he could kiss me.
âYour son has been staring at us for 4 minutes and if I remember correctly that's the same stare you have when you are getting impatientâ I look over to Kayce again and laugh. âYeah just like thatâ He didnât get a chance to speak before there was a bang on the glass. We both looked over, almost bursting out laughing at his expression. The stare. The hand pressed against the glass with the paint swatch he chose and the other pointing at it.
âYou know what he needs?âKayce says as we take our time walking towards the house.
âHmm?â I didnât look back, mouthing to Tate we were going.
âA siblingâ I almost lost my balance. A bit of a blush was surely appearing in my face.
âYou should let your fiance knowâ I turned around letting go of his hand. âMaybe she will agree to start trying tonightâ I smile rushing into the house.
âCome on!â I laugh. Tate doesnât have a bed yet so he is sleeping with us tonight until he goes back with Monica and that is in 3 days. I ran into Tate on the floor spread out.
âAm here buddyâ I smile seeing his annoyed look turn into a smile.
âBuddy you are staying with your grandpa tonightâ Kayce says rushing in behind me.
âNope. We are finishing my room even if it takes all night!â He says standing up rushing to the supplies.
âAll nightâ I tell Kayce with a smile.
â3 Days and then you will need many nights to recoverâ That made two things fall. My smile and my jaw. Now I wanted Tate to go with John
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Chapter 16:- Part 3
Chapter 15:-Part 2
The following morning after spending all night painting Tateâs room, we went straight to bed after getting somthing in our stomachs. I was up before the sun was up and around here it's pretty early. âWhere are you going?â Kayce sits up trying to bother Tate. I was already dressed just getting my phone from beside him. I kneel down to see him eye to eye.
âI need to get to the office and deal with thisâ I nudge at the envelope. âI canât count this over until Jennifer files this awayâ I faintly smile giving him a kiss before standing up.
âWaitâ He quietly shouted. I turn around seeing him rush up towards me. He stalked closer and I walked backward out the room seeing him follow me and close the door. âAre you going to be okay? I mean-âHe walks much closer placing his hands on my hip. âI know you will be okay but Jaime can be there to help if neededâ I smile looking down. I understand where his worry is coming from, but I didnât need anyones help on this. I look up, placing my things down on the island and wrapping my arms around his neck.
âI will take him in accountâ I enterwine my fingers together pushing him head forward.
âPromise?â He whispered leaning into the side still enough to look perfectly into his eyes.
âKayceâ I warned. He knows I hate making promises. If I were to make one it meant there would be a way to disappoint someone. And I didnât want to do that to people I care about.
âThis is the first time you have dealt with your parents so closely after many years. I just want you to know that this family you have now will be beside you when you need them. You have us on the sideline to pick.â I chuckle a little.
âYou have been getting into sports too muchâ His smile gets bigger before nudging at me.
âAm seriousâ
âI know cowboyâ I move in to kiss him but he pulls back. I groan, rolling my eyes. âOkayâ I move in again but he pulls back again!. âKayce!â I groan. I see a faint smile but other than that he continues to stand there not saying another word. âFineâ I stomp my foot slightly. âI promise if it becomes too much I will put someone in the play to helpâ It sounded like a question more than a statement. But I look back at him and I guess he accepted what I was giving him since there was a smile on his face. I pull my hand looking at the time. âI have to goâ I push away grabbing my things
âWhat? What about my kiss?â I smile walking towards the door.
âI gave you a second chance and you know I donât do thatâ Before I could reach the door he was on me. I dropped my things, grabbing onto what I could. My body pressed against the door, his hands entangled in my hair. âKayce!â I groaned wanting to push him back but my hands were pulling on the fabric of his shirt. He groaned, moving his kisses down to my neck.
âWe should christien the guest roomâ He whispers and I only shake my head quickly.
âWhat are you doing to mom!?â We pull apart, frantic to the expression on Tateâs face. He must have heard groans and mistaked it for pain. I was horrified seeing him come rushing inbetween us pushin Kayce away.
âBud I was only kissing her goodbyeâ Kayce whispers kneeling infront of him with a smile.
âNo you werenât!â He turns around wrapping his arms around me into a hug. Thankfully he didnât ask or said anything else. I smile a bit, rubbing his back. âYou canât hurt her! She might have my little sibling in hereâ I smile lifting him up.
âBud, he wasnât hurting meâ I whispered in his ear as he wrapped his arm tightly around my neck. âAnd he definitely would never hurt your little siblingâ I wasnât pregnat. Tate knew that and Kayce knew that. Tate and I had been talking in the present tense of a baby since he asked for one. He understands it wonât be soon but it became a habit, I am just thankful he wonât have anything against one when it decides to show up.
âCan we go back to sleep?â Tate looks over to Kayce and then turns to me.
âCanâtâ I put him down grabbing onto his hand. âI have work but I will be back early today so we can be lazy all afternoonâ I lead him back to the room and tuck him in again.
âCan you bring pizza?â I look over to Kayce and he nods.
âI think that would be a yesâ I turned over to Tate who had a big smile on his face as he turned to the side and cuddled into the mattress. I get up walking out the bedroom door and closing it. I look over to Kayce before walking towards him and wrapping my arms around his neck and kissing him. âI will text you when I am on my way home!â I quietly scream before grabbing my things and walking out the door. When I got to the office it was 10 minutes till 6. I took a moment to sit down peacefully before work began. I open the file and read it word per word. She was asking for my share that was given to me once I turned 18. Legally you cannot take hold of it after and since she waited years to do so she needs my permission. It also states that I should agree to never sue them and that my last name should never be connected to them or I could choose to change it. I canât do anything until I have the right and full legal suit here. My father said there would be some changes and I bet it will be here soon.
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Chapter 17:
Chapter 16: Part 3
I tried to be present for the last weeks but I stood no chance against work. The court date moved on pretty quickly and soon I was standing infront of the judge on the last date. I had Kayce sitting behind me and Tate thankfully wasnât allowed in court because my mother had made it a strong belief that he should be here. âYour honorâ I say approaching her. âIt is clearly stated in the paper that is infront of you and plaintiff they are reasoning behind my son not being presentâ I had not adopted Tate Legal. He still had both parents and I never wanted to over step. We did write a couple papers indicating I am a legal guardian/parent of him and under that paperwork it was written he would not be used or even attend family matters in court. I wanted to protect him and anyone that was born into this family. Kayce has a hard past and so do I, I didnât want anything affecting kids.
âThat cannot be suitable in this case, your honor!â My mother stands and with a rush her lawyer urges her to sit back down.
âIf you are not going to let your lawyer talk and with permission I am going to dismiss this case for a further date until you learn how my courtroom handled itâ She backs up and takes a seat. âNow continue Miss. Y/Nâ The judge looks over to me and nods.
âThank youâ I shifted back to my desk. âThe paper clearly states he will not be allowed at court for any case unless it's life or death.â I picked up his birth certificate. âThis gives it more credibility and the reason the plaintiff does not have any copy or knowledge of it, is because it is not suitableâ I look over to my mother and her lawyer before handing it to the judge. She scans over it and quickly straightens up.
âI will need to see you in my officeâ She says sternly and I nod. âGive us a 5 minute recess and we will be backâ She announces as she starts to walk back to her office.
âEverything okay?â I hear Kayce call out to me but not loud enough for everyone to hear. I nod my head.
âI wanted to have something against her but since the agreement is not enough I needed to tell the whole truth even if it wonât knock the smile out of her faceâ I groaned walking off.
âCouldnât you have started with the birth certificate?â She shakes her head behind her desk. âSaved you and I much timeâ
âI know there is a way around everything so not matter how officially the paper may be she would find a way to get what she wantsâ
âYou know what?â She stands up and walks to her fridge. âI have never seen you this stressedâ I thank her as I grab the water she handed me.
âIt has never involved my kidâ I say sitting up straighter. âI guess I prolonged this so I can see her lose something she really wanted, even if it was to get back at meâ I shrug and get up. âBut I am not going to lose a kid just so I can win this gameâ
âCouldnât agree moreâ She sets her cup down. âI'm glad even after everything you donât changeâ I hate change. I was going to say but I only smiled. âRecess is over let's goâ I nod, getting out of the room and waiting back in the courtroom for her to appear. We all stand as we hear the doors open. âAfter hearing and seeing all the evidence I have come up with a decisionâ The viewers were the only ones to sit down. âWhen it comes down to the shares and every last of the demands such as last name affiliation or change I grant in favor of the Plantiffâ I could see the smile in her face. âWhen it comes to visitation of Tate I grant favor to the defendant. Case is closeâ. I know I won. Bickering days back and forth about the company and the name. We stood facing eachother knowing this might be the last time I get to see my mothers face.
âY/N?â Kayces voice reaped my eyes from following her walking figure. âEverything is done?â I look over before handing the file to Jennifer.
âYes. Everything is doneâ I smile. I pull my hand forward to enterwine with mine. âLet's go home, I need a vacation after thisâ He chuckles walking out of the courtroom. The image I saw was something that made me unable to swallow.
âThink about thisâ I heard Kayce warn me but my feet had already started walking towards them.
âY/Nâ I pull my hands up stopping John from talking.
âWhatever you are saying or trying to do here is not worth it. As stated, I am no longer part of the family so that means you donât belong in mineâ
âNo matter what they said he is my blood and the problem was never with him!â She stepps forwards but I don't move an inch. Tate was currently hiding behind John.
âI donât care!â I took a deep breath not wanting to scare Tate more. âYou will never get a chance to hurt me again. And trust me when I say that if you even try, remember I know everything about you and your nameâ
âYou have always been so sensitiveâ She smiles while fixing her purse.
âYou can think anything you want. If you decided to show up again I will make sure I am not the only thing stripped from your last nameâ I turned around grabbing Tates hand.
âWho was that lady?âI look down, finding a sort of calmness in his eyes.
âSheâs my mother,â I say as I get to the truck. I hear the car unlock and help Tate into the back seat.
âWhy were you screaming at eachother?â His innocent eyes didnât compel what was happening.
âSometimes mothers and daughters fight. Sometimes you need to walk away to give people time to breathâ
âDo mothers and sons fight?â I look over with a grin. He smiles knowing the answer. âI guess I have a good mother. She fights for meâ I ruffle his hair checking that his belt is secure enough. âBut I got really lucky I have twoâ
âYes you are budâ I look over and see Kayce and John finally begin to walk towards us. âHow about some ice cream? I could definitely use oneâ
âYes!â He screams.
âWhat's happening here?â John says come to my side.
âWe decided we need ice cream, will you come with us grandpa?â I turn around leaving them to talk.
âAre you okay?â I look up nodding my head. I move forward wrapping my arms around Kayce. He immediately wraps his arms around me.
âYes. I just need some ice creamâ I smile.
âYes maâamâ He whispers, pulling my face up and leaving a gentle kiss on my lips. âGuess what?â
âHmm?â I tried to catch his lips again but was denied.
âI got the stove set upâ
âOh thank god!â I groan, pulling away. âI think I hate every take out in this townâ He laughs as I move around the truck to get in.
âDonât act like you are a great cook eitherâ If I had something to throw at him I wouldnât think twice.
âShut up. Now I can practice and you will seeâ He laughs again pulling his door open. We both get in and turn around to Tate. âTate, you like the food I make, right?â Tate looked lost. He looked between me and Kayce not knowing what to say.
âBud, you can tell the truthâ I smile nodding my head at Kayces words.
âWellâ He stretches his arms trying to come up with his words. âYou have only made breakfast and dad has done most of the cooking so I canât judgeâ I hear a snicker from Kayce earning him a hit in the arm.
âThank you buddy.â I smile turning to face forward. âLet's go get ice cream and then we are going to the grocery store. There is a recipe I know you will likeâ
âYou know what that means Tate '' Kayce starts up the truck and looks throught the rear view mirror. I didnât have to look back knowing he had a smile on his face just like his father.
âPizza!â At his words I hit Kayce again
âDamn women! I am trying to drive hereâ He laughs
âYou havenât even put it in driveâ I roll my eyes. I feel a presence leaning into me and I turn and see Kayce close. âWhat?â I groan annoyed
âI love youâ I couldnât help but roll my eyes again but soon enough I smile going in for a kiss.
âI love you too!â Kayceâs face is pushed back to replace the kiss I wanted with a kiss on a cheek.
âI love you tooâ I say as he takes his seat back.
âPut your seatbelt back onâ I turn to see Kayce. âHow does staying with grandpa sound?â I laugh moving over to grab Kayceâs hand
âNo. I want to stay with you twoâ Tate say innocently
âRightâ Kayceâs groans. He leans in again and starts whispering. âYou were right not having a baby just yet. If my only child is cockblocking me right now, imagine a littel one? I wouldnât even be able to spend the 10 minutes we get alone in a dayâ I chuckled looking over making sure Tate wasnât paying attention.
âReally?â I say. I move my hand up to rest on his cheek. âI was thinking we were ready for baby #2â
âOh now he is really staying in the ranchâ He groans, straightening himself in the seat before starting to drive. I know my intention was to tease him but there was some truth behind my words. After all of these I know I have Kayce beside me. Always. There wasnât anything that could stop me now. Giving him another baby was my promise to him. I wasnât planning to go anywhere either. I was ready to stay, to stay with him and our family.
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This will be insert of storylines that happens in the future if Yn and Kayce
Chapter 18:
Chapter 17:
Trying to have a baby was difficult if the man you wanted to be the father seemed to be avoiding you at all cost. When Tate was gone with Monica I would come home ready to spend the night with him but he was never home. He would come late and by that time I was already in bed sleeping peacefully. When Tate was here he always wanted him present, which was unusual because when he was over he would send him with John atleast one night. One time I tried going over to his office. A coat robe ready to slip off and available to him but nothing. He had a âMeetingâ to get too. I was becoming frustrated but not because I needed all of the pent up feelings to go away but because he is making it seem like he doesnât want me anymore. âYou are being paranoidâ I shake my head at the liquor being offered by Beth.
âStop. That is what they say to women whoâs husband are cheating on themâ I roll my eyes and start pacing the floor.
âWell it's a good thing he is not your husband thenâ I look over annoyed at her words. âKidding. Well notâ She smiles getting up to take my arm. âKayce loves you and you know how busy this world can get youâ I hated talking about the ranch. Call me crazy but after leaving the ranch and only taking care of it legally, I didnât want to be involved with anything else. I hated Kayce was involved but I understood where he was coming from when he told me he couldnât just leave. We had a huge argument one night when he came beat up so badly it kept him in bed for days. I cried non stop but showed how angry he was with what he was involved with. It took days before I came to terms with it. It took weeks to look at him and finally come up with a solution. He wanted to give up everything so we could be together but I told him it was okay. I knew what I got myself into even before we were together. She pulls me to take a seat.
âIt's hard to believe when he doesnât even kiss me atleast a goodbye!â I stomp my feet seeting back into the couch like a littel girl who is being denied candy.
âHow about we go out tonight?â I close my eyes thinking about it. Tate was with Monica until Tuesday and it was currently Saturday. It was enough time to get blasted, like I am sure Beth will try to get me.
âSureâ I threw my hands up in defeat. I will just have to talk with Kayce before I get to the point where I get my frustration out some other way. âIâll see you at 7?â I get up grabbing my things
â5â I turned over looking at her. We never go out that early. âYou need to relax your mind and I know this wonderful place but it's far. '' I shake my head not caring aslong as my mind is not thinking of Kayce for as long as possible. âI will pick you upâ
âAt the officeâ I say walking out the door. I was going to spend the rest of the day in the office. Being at home with it being still 11 in the morning wasnât wise. I would be pacing around the whole house probably eventually crying until I am balled up on the floor. Trying to unlock my door I hear my phone ring. âHello?â I answer without looking at the caller ID.
âHey are you busy?â I hear Monicaâs voice on the other side of the phone.
âNo. I was going into the office to have somthing to do but it can wait. Do you need something?â I pull out my key setting in my purse and put my attention to the phone call.
âTate has been talking about this restuarant all day when you took him to once. And since it's almost lunch time he was thinking maybe you wanted to join us?â I look over to my office. Being here with only my thoughts might be the same as being stuck at home. Maybe going to lunch with Monica and Tate would be better.
âOf course. I will see you there in 5â We hang up and I go back into my car. I drive up and park waiting for them to show up. âHey buddyâ I smile seeing Tate run up to me and give me a hug.
âHe has not stopped talking about this placeâ She looked up, not really sure about the place.
âIt's great!â He pulls away running inside.
âThey are good. One of my favoritesâ I smile waiting for her to walk in behind Tate.
âWelcomeâ The host smiles as we walk inside. âTable for 3? The gentleman is waiting for youâ We turn as we see Tate talking to the waitress already.
âThank you.â We say walking to the table.
âI will have that in a secondâ The waitress made sure what Tate had ordered was correct before she left.
âGrandpa said I can come over today for a fishing day!â He said excitily. âDo you want to come too?â How can I tell him no? I donât mess with horses more than I did the last time I was near one.
âKid she doesnât know how to ride a horseâ I thank Monica with an uneasy smile.
âBut last time you rode with dad. You can ride with me or grandpa this timeâ
âThanks buddy but I am not dressed up for the occasionâ Yeah a pencil skirt and heels isnât proper for riding a horse or even fishing.
âAunt Beth can let you borrow somethingâ
âOkay but if the horse tries anything I will have to skip the fishing tripâ
âDealâ He smiles. The food came soon after that.
âSo how is the house going?â Monica spoke as we were digging into our food.
âGood. Hard to compermise but it's getting there.â
âDad doesnât like the couchâ I laugh nodding my head. I didnât want a leather couch. My parents always had dark brown leather couches in the house but I always liked the large cloth couches.
âAnd it's a cream color so his fear of keeping it clean is worseâ Monica laughs along. âIt's not like we have 20 people living at homeâ
âAnd what did you have to agree on?â I smile knowing she has been in the same place as me so she knows how annoying it can be to deal with Kayce.
âHaving a bathtubâ I didnât like bathtubs. I preferred showers. I wanted a vanity or something more useful in that corner but I agreed to have my couch.
âI love the bathtub!â Tate says with a mouth full.
âThat's why I donât regret the decision. He doesnât fight taking a bath anymoreâ Monica turns over with a smile.
âSo all it takes is a bathtub to keep you clean?â Tate nods with a big smile. âHave to get one at home because I canât keep him cleanâ We were exaggerating but Tate had a difficult time wanting to take a shower but now we have a difficult time getting him out the tub.
âCan you get one with the jets?â He saw the cataloug where we were picking them out and was angry at the fact we didnât choose one with jets
âI will seeâ We smiled at Tate who had finished his first plate and went on to the next. Once our food was done we met again in the ranch. Thankfully Rip called Tate over to work on his horse and that took most of the day until I looked down and checked the time.
âIt's okay if you have plans, Tate will understandâ I looked over to Monica who was standing next to me with a smile.
âNoâ I shake my head. It was almost 5 and I had texted Beth that I was going to the ranch so she would find me and honestly if she didnât I donât really feel like going anywhere right now. âBeth invited me for drinks tonight but I think it's best if I donât goâ
âWhat?â I look over to her, confused. âI wasnât going to say anything but you have not been in a good mood for a couple of days.â Gee thanks. âI think you need this,â I was about to say something like no I donât and going out with Beth will only get me in a worse mood but she wraps her arms around mine and leads me inside the house. âTo prove it I will be going tooâ I smiled a little allowing her to lead me upstairs and into Beth's room. I was forced, which says nothing since I didnât fight Monica on changing into different clothes. Beth soon came in trying to get ready for the night before she spent getting me ready.
âAlright I think we are ready to go, '' Beth says, looking infront of the mirror before turning to us. âLets goâ We go downstairs and wait in the car so Monica can say goodbye to Tate as she leaves him with Rip until John comes home.
âCome on. We were going to have funâ Monica says from the back seat.
âShe is having troubles with my little brotherâ
âOh so that's why you have been pissy all dayâ I look over annoyed.
âI have not!â I argue. I have not, I didnât even believe myself
âHe has been busy and to make it worse she hasnât gotten some for,? How long has it beenâ She looks over quickly at me with a grin.
âShut upâ I groan slidding down more into the seat. I fold my arms together looking over to the window. âAlmost 2 monthsâ I whisper. I hear them chuckle at my responds.
âI canât go a week without it,I canât imagine 2 monthsâ Beth says laughing.
âI am going to throw myself out the carâ
âDonât be pissy. We are going to make you feel better, you will seeâ Monica said as she laid a gentle hand on my shoulder. I take a deep breath, I donât know what is going to happen but I need to get this tension out before it drives me crazy. We have been driving for about 10 minutes and I am beginning to think they are going to ditch me in some ditch since I have not stopped frowning since we got in the car. There is nothing 10 minutes away from town that is interesting enough to take this ride.
âAlright we are going off road a littleâ Beth says turning into a dirt road. Now I truly believe they are going to kill me off somewhere.
âIf this is your idea of fun and distracting, I donât like itâ I hear a low chuckle from both of them. I sit up leaning forward when I notice a faint light ahead. The sun was going down on the other side of us so it was dark enough to see light coming from torches? âAre we going there?â I pointed and turned to look at Beth who only nodded. âYou know I hate the outside right? If this is supposed to make me feel better than you donât know me at allâ I didnât have time to take a full glance at what was infront of us since it was still feet away but also because I almost went throught the windshield. Always wear your seatbelts kids!. âWhat the hell Beth?â I look over as she puts the car in reverse.
âGet out,â She says dryly. âY/Nâ She unlocks the car and points outside. âGet outâ I roll my eyes a bit. âI need to back up and I donât want to hear anymore of your whiningâ It should have pissed me off but it didnât. Beth was like that. I opened the door and as soon as the door slammed shut she was backing up at a fast pace.
âWhat the fuck Beth?!â They did ditch me. Not in a ditch dead but ditched me non the less. I will probably be dead before the sun hides away. I gave up looking at the direction they went hoping they would show up. I turn around and walk toward the lights. As I came up you could see torches around the set of multiple pillows and blankets. A middle platter with drinks and what I am guessing is covered up food. âI have totally pissed them off when Beth took her time to do all of thisâ I lift my hands up in frustration. I have let Kayceâs absence get to me. Usually I didnât need his attention but lately it was all I was craving. Not sexually but emotionally. I havenât been attached to someone as I have gotten with him. It's not like I needed him every second of the day but lately since I feel like we have spent less and less time together, I have missed him so much.
âShe only did part of thisâ I looked up frightened at the voice until I saw it was Kayce popping up out of nowhere. It was an open field. It was a field of some sort of grain but it was short so it didnât even reach my knees.
âWhat are you doing here?â in the distance you could see a faint building but nothing after that. When did he get here?
âI heard you have been pissy all day?â I see a slight grin on his face as he walks around the pillow and blankets.
âI have notâ I roll my eyes not wanting to look at him right now. How dare he show up right now? If he did all of this, what was it for? For the amount of time he has been neglecting me?
âHey, come back to meâ He uses one hand to grab my chin so I have no choice but to look at him, which I didnât mind. The other wraps around my waist to pull me closer. I guess I was so engulfed in my mind that I didnât notice the faint music playing until he started swaying. âI need you to stay with me until I finish the speech I have preparedâ I furrowed my brow, curious about what he was doing.
âI can do thatâ I smile, moving my hand up to grab a hold of each side of his face to pull him closer.
âI need to get throught the speech before any of this goes onâ I close my eyes, feeling his nose rub against mine before he pulls apart. He puts some space between us holding onto both my hands. âI am not for speeches so donât give me hell for itâ I smile faintly nervous about what is to come. He takes a deep breath before continuing, âYears ago I was so stupid to let you go. I was scared and when I heard about your dreams and goal I knew I couldnât get inbetween that. Well also back then I didnât think I deserve someone like you so I held myself back from trying. But the past is the past and now that I have you I will never be that stupid again. I still think I donât deserve someone like you. So smart and witty. Beautiful and kind to even the ones who donât deserve it. You accepted me with my whole crazy family but most importantly Tate. He loves you and he was actually the one who pushed me to do this, not that I didnât want to do it but was procrastinating at the right time.â I wanted to laugh and hug him but his movement stopped me. I always see these in movies. How the guy gets on one knee then he has a hard time finding the ring but finally he extends his hands and opens the little black box and says, âWill you marry me?â I usualy would roll my eyes and smile because even if it was annoying it was their moment. Their piece of heaven and this one was mine.
âYesâ I nod my head wrapping my arms around him once I fall onto my knees. He was my piece of heaven.
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Chapter 19:
Chapter 18:
That moment was filled with just amazement. Truthfully I never imagined myself with a ring on my finger but maybe it was because I hadnât found the right person yet. And now you have me here. Infront of a man who loves me, all of me. Drinking and laughing. Talking as in the background music plays. It's cheesy but it works. The sun is gone by now and the only light is the torches around.
âIf you ever ignore me like that again I wonât be as forgiving as I was todayâ I say taking a sip of my drink
âI guess I will just have to make you make a wife soon so you wonât have a choice, you wouldnât even be able to run awayâ He shurggs looking elsewhere. I throw a small pillow at him with a laugh.
âAm a lawyer, I can find a wayâ I get up walking towards him. âNot that I would want toâ I smile gently getting on his lap. I feel him set him drink down leaning back on both hands. I move my hands upwards and tug a little on his jacket. âBut I am serious, you made me feel bad these past couple of days and I donât want to feel like that againâ I whispered but it was loud enough for him to hear me.
âAm sorryâ He reaches up to cup my face, laying a gentle kiss on my cheek. âYou wonât ever feel like that again if I can help it. If you do, you can always talk to me and even smack me when I am being irrationalâ
âPromise?â I look up with a slight grin.
âPromise, for as long as you will have meâ I get up slightly moving to straddle him.
âWe are going to be married. And when we walk out that church it's forever cowboyâ
âI like the sound of that missâ I move to wrap my arms around his neck pulling him closer.
âStop. You know I think it's the way you speak that got me wanting to marry youâ Slowly my hips started moving against him. Killing me but I enjoyed how his eyes closed and his hands around me tightened. âBut it was who you are that's gotten me wanting to give you a babyâ Shit that got me going hearing him groan. He pressed his face against my neck holding onto me like I was going to disappear. Slowly getting more speed as his arms helped me move faster. âI love how you are as a daddy of one, how about we make it two?â I whispered, grabbing his face so I could kiss him but I took a moment to watch the sight infront of me. His eyes closed as faint whimpers came out of him. I got down, starting to kiss his neck.
âYou canât do that to meâ He complains as he pushes my face back only to smash his lips on mine. I moan filling the tight knot tigethen. I pull on his jacket wanting to hold on to something.
âBut I want your babyâ I whine, not really knowing what I was saying. But it was true.
âWe will have time for it, let me make you feel good before we get thereâ I groaned, getting a little mad at the fact he was willing to wait. I mean yes I liked to foreplay. Or him going down on me or me on him but I wanted him more. I lift myself up hearing a groan coming from him.
âI want your babyâ I say a little louder, going to unbukle his pants. âI need it.â I donât even take it off, already unbuttoning his pants. âPlease?â I look down at him. With his eyes locked I hurriedly try to push his pants down. I stop my hand movements leaning forward to trace a trail of kisses all over his face. âYou donât want to give me a baby?â I feel him nod desperately. âThatâs another way to secure I wonât ever leave youâ It took him a second to get rid of his pants sliding down and sliding into me.
âWe arenât going to stop until we use all of our time tonightâ Fuck. âI didnât even have to prepare youâ I moaned, holding him close. âSo open and ready, right?â He asked as he lifts me up and sharply pulled me down again. It wasnât the stimulation that has me over the edge but the feeling of him with me. How he is going to my husband and forever be mine. How he wants to have a baby and never leave my side. This is love and he is making me feel it all the way to my toes.
âI love youâ I whisper as our pace is slow feeling every inch he gives me.
âI love youâ He pulls my dress down as I take off his jacket and shirt. Moving against him we look into eachother eyes. âGoing to be such a wonderful mommyâ I nod my head humming at his words. âSo beautifulâ He grabs a hold of both breasts moving forward to take one of them in his mouth.
âFuck, Kayceâ I moaned looking up at the sky full of starts.
âSo caring, you will have time for me right? You wonât forget that I will need you to survive too, right?â I shake my head, clawing him and pulling on his hair. The emotion was too much. The sensitivity of my breast was making it hard for me not to come quick. I move up and down as he goes on to the next boob.
âKayceâ I whine.
âI know, baby. I want you to remember the night you made me the happiest manâ The pace slowed but the friction continued to increase. He wrapped his arms around me pulling me closer and tighter. He was trying to get as far as he could reach. I felt like he was splitting me into two but I didnât care, I wanted more. I didnât want to be able to walk tomorrow morning. âThat is until I get you to say yes or when our little one finally decides to come into the worldâ
âMphm. So prettyâ I moan, pulling him into a kiss. I scratch his back as my stomach tightens. âA sweet baby. Just like youâ I whisper, kissing him again.
âBeautiful like youâ He says as my hand searches for something more steady to grab as my climax hits. âI love youâ I wanted to say it back but the feeling of him cumming in me had been going overboard again.
âMore!â I scream, not stopping at his cries. The over stimulation was rough but the want of him over took that.
âBabyâ He groaned trying to get a hold of my hip but his hands denied him as a second later they were helping me ride him faster. âFucking hellâ He moans. I could feel our mixture slipping past us making a hell of more noise as our bodies collided.
âSo good.â I scream holding onto his shoulder trying to pick up the speed. âKayceâ he looked up at me knowing what I needed. He flips us over and it took him not even a second to pound into me at a faster rate. âFuck babyâ I try to turn but his hands pinned my hips down.
âDonât try to run so soonâ I grabbed onto his wrist, feeling the pleasure increase. âI thought you wanted it fasterâ That cocking motherfucker. My legs widen and wrap firmly around him.
âI want everythingâ Not leting him move as he cums in me again and another climax reaches me. He falls onto me, capturing my lips. The hunger is still apparent in his kiss. âHow long do we have?â I whisper as we pull apart a few inches.
âAll night and as long as you want to stay hereâ I know he was joking. I wanted to stay here forever but that wasnât possible. He still had worked at the ranch and John needed him most of the time. I would go crazy if I didnât have something to do, I would miss my job. Not to mention Tate. He would probably love it here but as a kid he needed to go to school and most importantly be with Monica.
âAll night is enoughâ I smile up at him, caressing his face. âWe have forever right?â
âYes maâamâ I laugh rolling my eyes. And with that ladies and gentlemen we rolled over and continued what we started. I wasnât going to lose another minute without him in me. Even as we held ourselves tighter together inside the little cabin that was a couple feets from us he stayed in me. Surely enough it was going to be uncomfortable in the morning but it was something I was willing to deal with.
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Chapter 20
Chapter 19:
A month has passed since Kayce asked me to marry him and ever since it has been like a new honeymoon phase. Everytime I saw him my heart sped up and I forget how to breath. I blush as every kiss and smile he sends my way like I was 16 years old again. And let me not mention the sex. If people thought we couldnât keep our hands from eachother, I need to ask them what they think of us now. âRemember they need to be at school before lunchâ
âI know Tate. I am on my way to pick them up after thisâ I smile motioning him away. âNow go, you are already lateâ I had to drop off Tate this morning to school and I may be 10,15 minutes late. âLove you!â He waved back with a smile, mouth something before heading inside. I reach for my phone and dial the only number I had on speeddial.
âI just picked them up. I am on my way to the office. In 15 minutes you have the meeting with the Townsendsâ
âThanks. I am heading that way now. Donât forget she was supposed to give you a smaller package tooâ
âGot itâ I thanked Jennifer before hanging up the phone. I rush into the office hoping to get enough time to settle in. âJamie?â I questined surprised to see him standing outside the office.
âGoodmorning, I need your helpâ he says as I come closer to him. His eyes averted to our surroundings every chance he got.
âOkayâ I look around and see no other car other than his and mine. I guess we have a couple minutes before my clients show up. I unlock the doors and walk into my office with Jamie trailing close behind. I heard the door shut so I tooke liberty to start the conversation first. âDoes this involve the Duttons?â
âIn a wayâ I furrow my brow letting out a deep sigh. I take a seat pushing it close to my desk so I can lean against my hands. âI have a babyâ Well that is a surprise
âHow?â I said quickly. And just as quickly I tried to rephrase my question. âI mean I know how but like, how?â I lead back and stare at him. He was fidgeting with his hands as he took a seat infront of me.
âChristine. You remember her right?â
âYeah. She worked with you when you were running against Reidâ I nod now understanding. It was a hard time for Jamie and he departed from her when he went back to the Dutton ranch. But that has been a while back.
âYes, exactly. I know I donât have to explain to you how he came to beâ
âRight. I know how that happensâ I smile hoping to get he awkardness out of the way.
âYeah well months ago she contacted me and told me about our son. She gave me a decision which will affect whether she allowed me to see him or notâ Okay, âShe wanted me to leave everything behind and not be involved with the ranchâ Smart. âIf I didnât make that choice she would move on and not allow me to see my sonâ
âSo what do you need me for? You want to fight for custody?â He shakes his head quickly.
âI want to ensure his future. Beth has made a promise when she found out and I donât want anything happening to himâ
âSo you are thinking of a restraining order?â
âThat would alert her. I need you to be my lawyer, My son and Christine need to be protected. She is not going to get to them if I can help itâ I nod. There's more than a couple of ways to ensure that and he knows it. Being related to them doesnât help so I know why he is asking me. I hear the door ring letting me know someone is in the lobby.
âI will make sure of it. I have clients out there but I will keep in contact to let you know every step of the procedureâ He stands up walking towards the door.
âThank you y/nâ I sent him a smile. âOne last favorâ I nod. âDonât tell Kayce any of this, for nowâ
âDonât worryâ I walk over to send him off. âGoodmorning Mr.Townsendâ I smile leading him into my office. I watched as Jamie got in his car. How the hell am I supposed to keep such a thing from Kayce? I guess if it doesnât come up I technically wouldnât be hiding or lying about it right? I finished with my meeting with enough time to get to Tateâs school with the baked goods.
âYou were lateâ Tate says with his arms folded
âActuallyâ I go down on my heels to meet his eyes. âI am right on the dotâ I showed him my watch that marked 11:30.
âAccording to Jamesâs mom, you are lateâ He points over to the tall women setting up things around the main table.
âWell she was wrong. The flyer said to be here at this time and I was. Canât argue with the facts now can we?â Tate smiles, shaking his head.
âNo go enjoy the partyâ His class was having a party to celebrate Valentine's day. Sweets filled two tables. His classroom is decorated with pink and red hearts. Everything on theme including most momâs outfits. I quickly got Tateâs attention and waved at him as he had fun with his friends.
âSo you are Tateâs mother?â I donât know why Monica and Kayce agreed to change him to this school. I get that education is important and a school where you pay tuition too just has to be the best which it may be but it doesnât mean the same for the parents.
âYes I amâ I stand up straight reaching out my hand to her. âAnd you are Jamesâs mother?â I already knew the answer. Tate and James try to be friends but it has its bumps.
âYes,Amandaâ She gives me a small laugh and she takes her hand back to smooth out her dress. âYou seem very young to be his motherâ
â22â I say looking at her expression in her face made giving her my time worth it. âBut unfortunately I am not the one who birthed that angel. Am just the seconded momâ Now that totally got her. I saw her face, she was trying to find something to say.
âWellâ She huffed out trying to still be nice. âYou seem pretty decent. You can uphold the reputation it takes to be hereâ My eyebrow lifts up trying to acknowledge her words.
âRightâ I fake smile drinking out of the drink Tate got me earlier.
âCanât say the same about other peopleâ I looked over to see what she was referring to. Monica steps up looking around. She is in her usual outfit. âHow is it that they get the good ones?â I wanted to laugh knowing she was now referring to Kayce. âI want to take a rideâ I took that chance to wave over to them.
âHey where is Tate?â Monica asks, still trying to scan the room for the boy.
âI will go look for him but first I would like to introduce you to Amanda, Jamesâs mom.â I give her a slight wink before turning towards Amanda. âAmanda this is Tateâs other momâ She shakes smiles extending her hand to shake Monicaâs.
âOhâ She smiles awkwardly. âI didnât mean anything about my commentâ she tries to whisper but I shake my hand.
âOh donât worry about itâ I fake laugh turning over to Kayce. âThis right here is his father. Got the right sperm wouldnât you agree?â Kayceâs eyes widened a bit. âWould you be in love and find Tate?â A push him on to start walking which he thankfully does.
âSo when you meant you were his other mom, you meant he mainly had two moms?â She steps back unknowingly.
âYes, is that a problem? I thought you meant that it would uphold the reputation of this school?â
âI didnât meanâ She looks around, frightened from the sudden information. âI would need to speak to the principal,â She says holding her head up and walking out the room.
âWhat was that about?â Monica looks over at me.
âJust trying to set some knowledge about acceptanceâ I shruggs. I see Tate and Kayce coming over. âDid you know James keeps stealing Tates things? He says he is borrowing it but always seems to lose them when he tries to give them back?â
âI wouldnât blame the parents but its hard when she acts like thatâ Monica laughs a little as the boys come closer we stop.
âMom!â Tate wraps his arms excitedly, grabbing her hand. âI need to show you somethingâ
âAlright kid, am comingâ She smiles back at us who stay right in the same spot. When we are alone separated from any kid or adult I feel Kayce leaning in to rest his head on my shoulder and his arms around me.
âSo I was the right sperm?â I grin feeling his smile widen.
âWouldnât you think? Look at himâ I point over to Tate. Truly not really focusing on him since Kayceâs warm breath is all I can focus on right now. âWhy do you think I want a kid from you so bad?â
âJust one?â He whispered. It was so hard not to close my eyes and just feel him.
âWe can fill a whole classroom if you allow me tooâ I know it's bad to have the thought I am having right now with kids present so god forgive me but would it be so bad to want him to take me against the wall? Or just lean me against one of these tables? Maybe even just right here. In this spot. He could lift me up with his strong arms and push into me. Over and over and over again. He's a cowboy he can do it standing up, weâve done it before.
âHoney I would allow you to do unspeakable things to me. Anything your little heart desires. If you can take it?â I smile. I come back to my sense noticing we were feeling eachother up. That went unnoticed it seems like so I stopped before someone could notice us.
âI need to get going. I need to be away from you for a bitâ I smile, going up to plant a quick kiss on his lips. âRememeber to meet me at the ranch at 6â I point back to him grabbing my things
âYes maâamâ God why are you making it so hard on me? The only things I had the courage to do was turn around and leave. I didnât trust myself with telling him I love you or giving him a goodbye kiss. God knows I wouldnât have made it. I would have scarred all those kids forever. I just needed to wait 6 more hours.
