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Bad Server Idea:

A server where drama is encouraged. But it has to be fake drama. Like, there's an ooc category, and outside of that, it is against the rules to be ooc. The goal is to spread as much fake drama as possible. Come up with the most outlandish stuff. Obviously there will be rules against certain topics. But other than that, it is free reign. I just think it'd be really funny. Probably hard to moderate tho, unless it's filled with chill people.

Just the wacky possibilites of drama people would make is so.. I want to do this. I want to do this so bad. Oh my stars it'd be so funny!! Just imagine having a chill conversation with someone in the ooc section, and at the same time just screaming at each other in Drama Land about someone who's cousin slept with her boyfriend and that led to an illegal chicken fighting ring where an impromtu wedding was held. Please it'd be so funny!

The more I think about this the more I want to do it, despite the possibly difficult moderation. I'm just giggling at the possibilities of the kinds of drama people would make up.

You know when you do a thing, and then immediately after doing that thing, you have regrets about doing that thing because you might have just made a complete fool of yourself. ... I can't take the thing back and I wanted to do the thing, but I wish I had done it differently. But I can't say that because I don't know! I just can't! It feels like one of those things that's not illegal, but I'm gonna live in shame forever if I admit it.

I've had so many of those today. So sorry to all of the people I have bothered in the past 24 hours with just embarrassing myself and saying stupid stuff. Unfortunately I am just a blob of embarrassment juice, trying to live in a society.

Gender and orientation has always been a wonky thing for me. I've never really understood how I feel or what I want. It's one of those things that's heavily feelings centered and that's been difficult.

I've settled in aroace and agender but doesn't always.. fit.

I struggle with romantic attraction, and especially others having feelings towards me. But I still get lovesick fantasies of Wattpad like stories of falling for someone and having a cheesy romance with them. But I've proven to be uncomfortable with that time and time again!

And gender is its whole other can of worms that I just will not touch because it confuses me far too much.

I know I could just forgo the labels and things will fit better, I could just not care about what I am and who I am or am not attracted to. But there's just something so comforting about having a label that fits, on those days where it does feel right.

When it fits, it feels like my favorite jacket. When it doesn't, it feels like the jacket is soaking wet and also 3 sizes smaller than it used to be. But it's still my favorite jacket.

I hope that makes sense.

So many options of things to do! Shall I do something beneficial or productive to my personal projects, goals, and future.. Or maybe do some cleaning to boost my mood and finish the laundry I started last night.. Or I could work on drawing to get a new pfp for pride.. ... Or I could lay in bed for another 5 hours, scrolling through miscellaneous apps.

... What do you think I'll choose?

Oh look!! It's Lucky!!

Lucky is a 19 year old cat from my little story Ollie and Lucky Against the World!! They use they/them pronouns and is particularly interested in cameras!!

I'll finish drawing them in a moment, but I wanted to share some little fun facts!!

- Elliott is their real name! Lucky was a nickname from their mom! The two families call them Lucky most of the time anyway.

- They will only allow variations to the nickname from Ollie. Things like "Luckster" or "Sir Lucksalot". Silly things like that!!

- They are very "snazzy" (their words) and will wear fancy formal clothes no matter the occasion!

- Lucky is big into plants!! Their bedroom is absolutely filled with them!! Some of the siblings have caught Lucky singing and talking to the plants while they work!

- Lucky was born January 16th!!

- Lucky works at the town's library and two different cafes!! It's a bit tricky to balance all that, but they manage!

I really should draw more, I like it quite a lot, I just never have any ideas for it, haha!! Like, I have a buncha characters, but I'd rather write about them than draw them (*cough* and bad at character design *cough*) And I wanna update my pfp, and learn how to draw bodies and backgrounds. But at the same time.. I could just write. But then I never get to post about my writings!! Well I mean, I probably could, but it feels weird, y'know? But all I end up posting is drawings, shit posts, or rambles (like this one). So I never actually post, because most of my rambles go in my drafts.

I dunno, maybe I'll draw more. Maybe I'll keep going like "oh I wanna draw" and then play Minecraft instead.

I struggle with drawing, I can't seem to visualize what I want to make, and I can never seem to flow with it like other people can.

I still like it!! It's very fun whenever I do draw! I mainly draw my persona, because that's easy for me. My little frog is something that I have quite a lot of fun drawing! I do feel a bit bad I can't seem to get anything else super well, but I also haven't been practicing.

Anyway, this was a very long winded way to say I did a draw!!

I was in the mood to just doodle, but I didn't know what to draw! So I turned to my frog and my interests as of late! I've been wickedly addicted to space for the past few weeks! I downloaded 16 astronaut skins on Minecraft and just gave them all different names and personalities. And I've been staring at my little alien project.

Blah blah space infodump, blah blah deep meaningful drawing meaning, blah blah bedtime. Hehehe!!

Edit with the version I like more:

I've been so excited lately!! For things that I'm currently doing and things that are in the future. Like, I'm excited about being back home!! In my own room with my stuff in my mom's house. I was petsitting for three weeks and really missed home. And I'm excited about getting my learners permit and learning how to ride a motorcycle!! And I'm super excited for the day I decide to shave my hair!! And the day I get a tattoo (A clown, obviously, hehe!!) And I'm excited about sorting my room and Finally being able to start making my silly little puppets!! And I'm excited for the day I decide to try out makeup! And that I'm discovering cool new music!!

I'm just so excited!!

I love it with people ramble!!! It makes me so happy and I get to read it or listen while they talk about the thing that's on their minds and it's so good!! I love it!!

Please ramble!! Tell me about your characters or your theories or your projects!! I might not know anything about it but I will happily listen!! This is my most favorite of favorite past times!!

Don't be afraid to post your thoughts or your rambles!! "But no one's really interested in that" I AM!!! And I know tons of people are!! I am clawing at the walls of my enclosure PLEASE ramble it makes me so happy!! And you're all so cool!!

So my mom has this nightly routine of watching home renovation shows because they keep getting recommended to her and she just does not like searching for something interesting to watch. I think she has them ranked by different moods and the amount of time she has before bed. Anyway, I've been watching them with her at night and thinking about my future home and what it would look like and what being on one of those shows would look like.

Guys(neutral), I cannot go on a home renovation show. I see a character I am mildly interested in and I start making noises like a rabid dog and shaking my arms like I'm trying to fly. I can only imagine how excited I would be to have my dream home done and decorated. They'd think I would need an exorcism!! I'd be all over the internet as that person who tries to be a plane after seeing my dream home!!

Not to mention my fantasy of home decor is a complete u-turn from the ways all the shows decorate!!! I love bright fun colors and funky shapes and wacky furniture and things that look like other things and what can only be described as clutter!!! I believe I would simply perish if I went on one of those shows. I would cease to exist. Burst into flames on live television because I got too excited.

So I had to reset my animal crossing island today due to an extra house being forever stuck on my island. (I made a mistake and trapped myself with it..)

After a totally not tearful goodbye to my villagers, I started up my new island with a MUCH more boring name, for some reason.

I have turned into a fishing fiend. I am typing this to prevent myself from fishing some more. I do not have space for all of this.

On my old island, I spent two whole days fishing and somehow acquired an army of scorpions (which I used as parting gifts(I had so many)). I WISH I got pictures, but I was so excited about showing my mom all of the silly creatures I got, that I forgot..

I also went through my switch images and found some fun pictures and videos of my friends and I hanging out. (I didn't get permission to post them, so I won't, but I'll show the ones of just me.) ((by didn't get permission, I mean I didn't ask))

I believe I had posted that last one before. ... Actually I think I posted all of them before.

I do not remember the clam one, and when I found it, I thought it was the funniest thing ever.

I might post more pictures of my old and new island better, but for now, I am either going to go to sleep or continue fishing!! Goodnight!!

Mackerel is back with more animal crossing posting!! I am very excited about this and I'm making it everyone's problem.

So I gave Blathers a bunch of fish for the museum, immediately replaced that with more fishing, gave Timmy the resources for his shop, and met Zucker at a mystery island. I am without a task now. Oh!! There was also a meteor shower today, but I didn't see Celeste (she's my favorite).

I have so much fish that my island is lagging near my house and where I put the museum and I cannot move fast.

I have also gotten increasingly annoyed by joycon drift messing up my walking and general tasks. I have to wiggle so I can move downwards.

Speaking of drift, Mr Nook looks incredibly annoyed with me and I think it is really funny.

I also grabbed some more pictures of Opalite Sky and Starfall!!

Opalite Sky:

While gathering the scorpion army ^

I thought the lighting was really pretty ^

Starfall:

Haha! It's my name!! ^

While playing, I keep thinking of silly little ideas for things I can do. It's just a fun game to let your mind wander. Like, I thought of a funny "All fish jokes poorly explained" where I explain the fish jokes, but poorly. Like, the Saddled Bichir, I would put a picture of a horse saddle and a cowboy hat on myself and boom, poorly explained joke. (I would include an image but I have reached the image limit.) Or for the Koi, I'd scribble out the name and write "Coy". Bam, poorly explained. That was my favorite thing to think about while fishing. That and creative ways to swear while not using the usual words, when I scare the fish away.

.... I'm not sure what to do now, so I think I'm just gonna go fish more. I really wanna catch an Arapaima.

So.. I was playing animal crossing again. I swear this will not be the only thing I talk about, but I am just very excited and I have a lot of thoughts!

Today, the museum is under construction, the shop is all built, I caught the arapaima I mentioned last night, I went on a wild hunt for a cicada shell after I accidentally threw my last one away (shaking my fist at drift), aaaand I caught a coelacanth!! Really hoping I spelled that right.

This was from last night, I spent like 5 minutes trying to get it right.

Oh!! I also got the three houses set up. I just thought this was funny.

The boy!!

Dramatic rainbow pictures because of course. Hooray for gay! Slay! *wrist flick* hehehehehe!!!

The other boy!! Look how pretty!! I can't wait to see my boys in the museum. Speaking of boys I NEED C.J. to come to Starfall, I cannot go to my house without waiting for so many fish to spawn..

I like to fish. I refuse to sell them without C.J. because I know as soon as I do, he's gonna arrive, and I will have the urge to throw my switch in the nearest ocean. (not serious)

I learned reactions! I can now express joy!!

With Timmy and Tommy in the shop, Mr. Nook looked lonely, so I kinda stood here for an hour and a half while I watched sport with mom.

And that's all I did!! I think!! I am excited to unlock terraforming!! I have attempted it on my very first island, but seeing as I am on my 6th and have not tried it again, it is safe to assume it did not go well. But!! I want to try again with Starfall!!

I wanna ramble about my little stories and characters but that means I have to work on them and I don't have the spoons for that.. sob sob.. (/silly)

If anyone is curious about any of them, I can give a little blurb!! Most are newer ideas and haven't been smoothed out, so I'll probably be making stuff up as I go. But making stuff up is writing!!

I talked a bit about Ollie and Lucky Against the World and No Flash Photography Please here. Those are my oldest stories I think. Against the World (oalatw for short because that's a lot of typing(no I don't know how to pronounce that, haha!!)) is definitely the one I poured most of my heart in. I haven't done anything for it in a bit, and I still need to fix up my characters, but I think about them a lot. A new development is that Jasper really likes collecting bolts and screws and others of that sort. Like, whenever Lucky goes to the hardware store to buy stuff for Marsh's robotics club or the sudden passion projects of Bonnie, Skye, and Ollie or even for their camera repair shop, Jasper will come with. Jasper got them special store time walkie talkies just for when Lucky is running to the hardware store. Cause Lucky and Jasper are the only ones who like going! Ollie disappears down the paint isle never to be seen again. Bonnie stares at the lamps like she's a moth in heaven. Skye just doesn't like going. Marsh sits in the cart the whole time. And Holly is banned from the hardware store. Wren and Wilbur (the parents) stopped going after Lucky took over the trips and just leaves them a little list of the things that they need and some money.

Lucky actually does most of the shopping in the house. The parents are busy with work, Ollie and Bonnie and Skye are all doing in person college, Lucky is "doing college from home" (*cough* dropped out and hasn't told anyone *cough*), and Marsh and Jasper and Holly are all going to their own schools.

Occasionally Colin stops by with some goodies and treats, but he doesn't really do the shopping. Colin is Wren's ex. He's the dad of Bonnie, Ollie, Jasper, and Holly. I could go on about their wacky family past and whatever Colin is going. But I won't because I want to talk more about Lucky's job(s).

So in this world, it's customary for kids to live at home through college or stay with family in a different town, rather than move out or get dorms and stuff. The dorms are only for people who do not have family where the college is, or who NEED to leave. The kids who are doing school from home usually get at least two part time jobs because the only course load is notably lighter than the brick and mortar course load. (Disclaimer, I have not gone to college, I am pulling this out of my ass.) So Lucky used to be in college for mechanics/engineering. That is usually a brick and mortar course, but Lucky started college while they were still in high school, so they were allowed to be online, and just never moved over.

Lucky works for the Snowthorne library, and Cat's Eye Cafe(a silly joke because they are cats and when Wilbur met his wife Elena, she gave him a Tiger's Eye stone), which is their dad's little coffee shop. In addition to this, Lucky runs a little at home repair shop to make a bit more money. So they'll fix things like toasters and game consoles. They specialize in cameras, and they have worked on things like cars and fridges. .. For some reason. For the bigger jobs, Lucky will go to the client's house and do their little repair stuff. So Lucky needs to run to the hardware store quite often.

Oh! And another reason Jasper likes going to the hardware store is because he is trying to learn how to make his own ghost buster equipment. .. it's not going so well, but they're trying!! Marsh and Lucky help him a bit. Marsh doesn't really specialize in that kinda stuff though. He does a lot of bot fighting type stuff. Cause it's cool.

Can you tell I like Lucky? I like Lucky a lot. I have also rambled for FAR too long, very sorry about that. I gotta work on spreading it to smaller thought dumps more frequently. Rather than one massive blurb once every blue moon. Haha!!

I caught the plague (covid), so I'm taking the opportunity to work on Against the World and play animal crossing (cj still isnt here btw). I did a massive change in characters and story, because I realized that I did not like what I had. It is much better now! Hooray! Yippee!

I've also been watching racing and sports with mom, this was probably a bad idea, but oh well.

I would love to do a big ramble on all the changes, but I do not have the brain power to do so. So I am going to either write or take a nap. Goodbye!

Ok so I got bored of writing what I was writing and have started something new and I am going absolutely feral over it and need to talk about it.

I thought of it like less than two hours ago it is not fully developed in ANY way.

Ok, so I'm calling it "Flawless" and that's the funny bit. So a good kind of description of what is going on in my mind is like, therapy gone wrong. You'll see.

So there's a small cast of characters living together and they are the embodiment of a singular person's "worst traits". I'll give an example, don't look too deep into it.

But the whole thing is "What do you see as your worst traits. Characterize it."

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Example time! One little guy could be characterized like:

- Controlling / Bossy

- Anger issues

- Selfish

- Impatient

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Now that is a shortened list of traits I shoved in a character. (I only have the one rn based on myself, it's new.(Don't look too deep into it.))

ANYWAY!!!! Now the therapy!! In the house(?) There are these statues that talk to the puppets. They have to correct them on their actions based on altercations the puppets have with each other. Now they do all have their own room as a "cool down zone" but are frequently pushed out of their rooms by the building itself or some invisible force or something I didn't think of yet.

It's supposed to be weird and abstract and just a little mental experiment for myself.

I am going absolutely feral over Flawless and I want to talk about it so bad and I'm also restraining myself from world building and explaining everything because it's not supposed to have an explanation.

Please ask me about Flawless I am desperate to talk about it. I am clawing at the walls of my enclosure.

Oh!! Inspired by dhmis, my annoyance at going on a walk, and being mad at against the world for not doing what I want it to do (/half joking)

It's been awhile since I updated you on my animal crossing island!!

Flick visited yesterday, but still no CJ. I'm starting to think he hates me or is afraid of coming here because I am still waiting. /silly

I finished the spinosaurus fossil!! That's my favorite dinosaur, actually!!

And today I got all of my house plots filled out and 3 stars!! So we held a party at Harvey's place!! Look at us go, dancing away!

And now something that is not animal crossing! But I've wanted to share for a bit but keep forgetting to save the video!

I was working on my time and shaving it down as much as I could. Because I'm not too good at Mario Kart. And I was so absolutely baffled by this that I needed to show it to someone!!! Look at me go!!! I was gonna look at videos on reducing time and whatnot but the one I looked at talked about stats, and I don't want stats, I was Isabelle on her silly little motorcycle. I was also working in this map only because the game thought that Bowser's Castle was my favorite and it is not.

Mini Flawless ramble!!

I've gotten a lot done these past few days and it has been so very hard to not tell you absolutely everything. I got the central characters started and different scenarios to see how they would interact. I changed about half of what I said when I introduced Flawless. I have started to build a small mystery, and I am keeping on task of the original plan.

This whole project was a mix of two goals I had in mind. 1, make a cast of characters who hate each other more than words can explain. 2, try something new and get out of my comfort zone by making something abstract and weird. And I believe I am still doing that! It is hard to not explain everything. There are things I am not meant to know and things I have written down that you will never know.

Another thing I have noticed is I have a habit of making a bunch of silly little aus for characters. I love aus, they're fantastic and great and cool. And I was thinking of an au for Flawless where the story kind of goes differently. But I had to stop myself because that is not the point of this. The point of this is to make something and let other people fill in the blanks on what they believe it to mean. The point of this is to try something new and encourage other people to do the same.

Even if the story itself has acquired a deeper meaning, the point of this all is to explore a new outlet and direction of writing.

So, starting now, I will not tell you any more about Flawless's story or plans. I will talk about the characters and play around with concepts and scenarios, but the story will not come out until it is time.

I am at a sleepover and we're talking about childhood and playing with lps, so I need to tell you a story that my past best friend and I made. Prepare yourself.

So this spanned over the time of multiple weeks and I am confident that there are plot points that I do not remember.

So I played as I think a dog. My favorite was a cocker spaniel named Butterscotch. So I'm just gonna assume it was her. And my friend played as Ariel because we had those princess dolls. And my brother joined a few times as barbie.

Butterscotch was a spy who worked for a cat lps (I think) and we needed these documents for our spy operation to save all of littlest pet shop planet. (we're aliens btw) So Butterscotch who was the best spy, was sent down to earth to carry out the orders and sneaks into a princess party. She breaks into Ariel's office and demands to know where the documents are. Ariel says no and kills Butterscotch which starts a giant war/alien invasion to honor Butterscotch. Ariel has to sneak away and hide the documents and have a low profile during this whole thing. I remember a jail arc somewhere around here but not completely. And also an Ariel falls in love arc and there was a whole side story with her and Tinkerbell. And something revolving them being lost in the land of mlp. But that was a side story off of the main one. So the war wages on, pets are falling, princesses are falling, we're having to recruit the ponies and fairies to help the princesses, and then the stuffed animals to help the pets. There's also a whole kidnapping and experimentation thing going on too. But eventually Butterscotch gets found and is given a life flower, which revives her. So she's back in action. Then there's a whole other stew of unimportant side plots like Butterscotch going to school and Butterscotch turns into a mermaid and other stuff. She dies again at some point in time but she's back.

So she breaks into Ariel's apartment while her and Tinkerbell are having a date night. And she starts a fight with Ariel, but this time is occupied by Barbie!! Ariel shoves Tinkerbell in our closet to keep her safe because she can't let anyone know she has found love or something. Halfway through the fight Barbie decides that she's done taking orders from Butterscotch and does her own thing, claiming she needs the documents because her dream house needs to eat, I think? That was its own whole thing, my brother and I made up our own stories when I couldn't play with my friend. So then Tinkerbell says she's going to take the documents to her place to keep them safe, and then drops them on her way out. So we all dive for the documents and I don't remember who got them. I just remember writing some stupid message on a piece of paper and Ariel saying that the real documents were stolen. So they had to work together to get them back.

But then I moved away and we never got the end of the story. So... That was that. I know I'm missing so much but it was so many years ago, I just don't remember.

I had to give Butterscotch away a few years later and I still want her back, but oh well!

I am.. an artist. /silly

Have some silly fridge doodles. My marker is dying and I need another.

Image 1: Caine and he is so hard to draw I love him

Image 2: Kinger but I forgot to pull up a ref

Image 3: Kermit

Image 4: The Oncler and the Lorax... trust me on that

Image 5: A silly little skeleton

Image 6: Silly Sonic and Shadow doodles with a very small Bonnie and Chica next to them

Image 7: The Space Colony Arc, but I only remember what it looks like from the moon pissing monologue and did not want to get my phone (I was telling Poppy about Sonic adventure 2)

Image 8: The three of them! Kinda

Image 9: Spider-Man! This time with a ref!!

Image 10: And oc of mine! His name is Deirdre Desdemona and I want to kick him into incoming traffic I love him so much (/silly)