Shame On Me - Tumblr Posts

It waits for the day I will let it out. To give it a reason, To give its might. I fear who I am becoming, I feel that I am losing the struggle within. I can no longer restrain it, My strength it is fading, I have to give in. It's the fear Fear of the dark It's growing inside of me, That one day will come to life. Have to save To save my beloved, There is no escape, Because my faith is horror and doom. Hold down your head now, Just let me pass by. Don't feed my fear, If you don't want it out. I fear who I am becoming, I feel that I am losing all beauty within. I can no longer restrain it, My strength is fading. I have to give in...

It’s the Fear by Within Temptation

There is no escape, Because my faith is horror and doom...

I’d took me longer to realise what this is than I’d like to admit. And I am German.

Hey mein Name ist Johann Wolf’gang von Goethe und ich bin 1,69m groß aber auf Denkmälern erreiche ich Schillers Größe und ich trage meine weißen Haare nach hinten gepustet um die Mitte meiner Stirn herum und eine Menge Leute sagen mir ich sehe aus wie der junge Werther (AN: wenn du nicht weißt wer der werther ist lies verfickt nochmal mein buch!). Ich bin nicht verwandt mit einer Gang aus Wölfen (So habe ich meinen Namen bekommen) und ich wünschte ich wäre mit Götz von Berlichingen verwandt denn ich feiere ihn ziemlich hart. Ich bin Verfasser aber meine Fassungen sind nicht verunstaltet und gefasst. Ich habe Hautfarbe die je nach Farbwiederherstellungsprogramm anders aussieht (das kommt davon dass sie so schlechte farbenlehre benutzen die sollen mal mein buch lesen). Ich bin auch ein Stürmer und Dränger, und ich besuche eine Fußballschule genannt Hauslehrergruppe im Vorgänger Deutschlands, dort bin ich einige Zeit gewesen (Ich bin 266). Ich bin ein Göth (Falls du es noch nicht erraten hast) und ich schreibe meistens Zeugs. Heute zum Beispiel schrieb ich einen doktorierten Charakter mit dem Namen einer zum Angriff geballten Hand mit universellem Wissen im Bereich der ach! Philosophie, Juristerei und Medizin und leider auch Theologie und er hat den Erdgeist beschworen und kriegt Besuch vom Teufel weil er es nicht hingekriegt hat den Drudenfuß vor seiner Tür anständig zu malen und er wird verjüngt und macht aber doch alles irgendwie wieder kaputt. Gerade stürmte es und ich drängte mich durch den Wind, worüber ich sehr froh war. Johann Melchior Goeze starrt mich an. Ich zeigte ihm den Mittelfinger

anypony know if theres a 10/10 jaw dropping tear enducing rendition of ebon in the sims 4 im tryna see something

Tolkienverse fandom is wild. I can’t help but remember how much my BeeCurufin fic was BASHED, to the point where I had to close the comments on all my works. Also when my drawing of Narvi, the twink dwarf, ended up on an "Ugly Art" forum just because his proportions didn't match traditional human expectations.

In response, I kept drawing and writing silly stuff XD

I just wanna say that if you ever feel like you don't belong in fandom because your art or writing isn't "up to par," by certain standards, fucking do it anyway. Because it's fandom. There shouldn't be any standards other than to have fun.

Don't talk yourself out of drawing that picture or writing that goofy fic because you're worried it's too much of a crack idea. Don't worry about how it's going to be received. If it makes you happy, do it.

You can play in the sand box however you want. Just don't be a dick.

Dumb, but sometimes I see trans-exclusionary radfem women reblog comics/jokes "about being a girl (or a lesbian)", obviously written by a TIM.

I feel like I'd be intrusive to actually formally bring it up to someone. "this was created by a dude whose idea of being a girl is imaginary. it's an extrapolation of a fetish", like "lol I found it funny, so what?"

IDK, I've spent 15 years enmeshed in internet culture. I've seen the geeky tims before they became tims. the proto-tims' obsessions with little anime girls -- how this obviously influences their current dispositions. if they want to be popularly-accepted in certain factions of tumblr, they can't openly espouse their love for moeshit without seeming weird, so they find some other way to express it. I know trannies. Literally like 2/3rds of my friends growing up were of the tranny mindtype, even if they didn't transition. I know my trannies.

Internet Anthropologist

I'd also say that I think a bunch of these shut-in geeks transitioned because they are weak-willed and they can't stand the idea of someone hating them (for being a dude obsessed with anime girls, or a girl obsessed with yaoi) so they feel like it would be more socially-acceptable to act that way if they were "the opposite gender". (At least, in the "gay" "politically-correct" social circles they want to run around in.) They desire acceptance. Maybe someone in their life was extremely cruel to them. PC culture promises "a safe space for everyone who is just". (except most groups do not actually live up to their own ideals, they turn into Animal Farms.) So, some people have been lured by false promises of "acceptance", so they feel if they make some sacrifices to "fit into" the "just system" of PC culture, then they'll be protected by like-minded people. "The good people". They want to be accepted, and good. They want to feel righteous. They want a banner to fly.

I'm not saying this stuff to be mean. Some of it is mean, but I'm not unsympathetic.

People can adapt so easily.

When someone I don’t like tries to complain to me about something:

It’s 5 am I should be asleep. Instead I’m topping off a large pizza. Again

uhh sorry

I don't relate to you I don't relate to you, no 'Cause I'd never treat me this shitty You made me hate this city And I don't talk shit about you on the internet Never told anyone anything bad 'Cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything And all that you did was make me fuckin' sad So don't waste the time I don't have And don't try to make me feel bad I could talk about every time that you showed up on time But I'd have an empty line 'cause you never did Never paid any mind to my mother or friends So I shut 'em all out for you 'cause I was a kid You ruined everything good Always said you were misunderstood Made all my moments your own Just fuckin' leave me alone

WDYM ROWLPY MAKE ITS OUR BLOG BEFORE ME??

I'M THE MAIN HOST, I SHOULD BE THE FIRST ONE WITH AN ALTER SIDEBLOG

Crying rn, I'm the sideblogs obsessed one and he got its sideblog first... Shame on me