Sensory Overwhelm - Tumblr Posts
These were made to be reaction images, but it was taking too long to format them properly, so I figure I’ll just post them like this and post them again if I ever do get them formatted.
I am… quite closely acquainted with some of these.
I had to format all the pictures on my last post like this so I could send them to my phone, so behold: me at the public pool
Nothing has ever felt so right as sitting on the floor behind a table at a bowling for soup show scrolling on Tumblr
Words cannot properly express how much I hate being neurodivergent sometimes.
I HAVE to shower. Every day. If I do not. I am not okay.
Due to pots primarily, I overheat in my sleep. So literally every day I wake up I have got to shower. I can feel every inch of skin every strand of hair covered from sweat residue.
If I cannot wash that off every day. I become overstimulated immediately and extremely unhinged. I cannot think I cannot focus my mood is extremely negative I simply cannot function with that sensory status.
Today was day 3 of not having been able to shower (due to spoons and being a parent) and I snapped. I was shaking and crying and even yelled at inanimate shit in my house because I wanted to rip my hair out and shred my skin.
I finally had enough and I got into the shower.
Stood there a moment. Shaking. Crying. Bitching. Then berating myself for being such an unhinged pos. I got lightheaded and sat down. Cried more.
I have a little shower thing I say that helps. So I repeated it. Calmed down. Then I stfu and did my routine. Continued to improve. Kept saying my little thing every so often. Kept feeling better. Lighter.
Finally I just got out and did my after routine. Got dressed. I'm lying in bed still feeling stupid for the fact that 60% of my unhinged meltdown was washed away in the shower. My body is now all sensory goodness and we can all get on with our day.
I hate being like this. These not so whimsy sides of neurodivergence. I'm exhausted from the meltdown and from the task of showering itself.
Thanks for reading. Vulnerable snippet of my day today. Hope you're all doing better than I.