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i just spent an hour and a half writing out and explaining my reasoning for why almost every song on the album stick season by noah kahan is very jay ferin coded in my eyes and now i don’t know what to do

the mega list of jay and how ive connected her to noah kahan songs (pre warning i wrote all of these while listening to the song so they might be inaccurate but im just going with feels and a lot of head canons

(also these were all written with my friends who don’t watch riptide or listen to noah kahan in mind so)

!!spoilers will be in this for essentially the entire campaign!!

nothern attitude is all about how the environment you're raised in shapes who you become, jay was raised a soldier she struggles to be fully open with her co-captains and crew for months, lying and withholding information because it's what she was trained to do. she was trained and raised as a spy it's not until the metaphorical summertime where she thaws and becomes open that her personality has time to expand and change beyond the attitude she was taught

stick season very heavily gives me the energy of jay before she left with chip, a lot of feelings of loss that she can't fully deal with and it's at a period in her life where neither of her parents are fully there to help her. it's her missing ava and wanting to be able to see her sister again

all my love is such a song that resembles her drunken conversation with lizzie back in episode 58 as well as their dynamic post 101 and how it changed after everything came out between them

she calls me back as jay and kira (this ones more from kiras pov but shshsh) jay just fucking up and left without telling kira her best friend who supports in in everything it would make sense that there's a lot of unresolved feelings between them, how do you stop yourself from doing a daily thing of checking on someone you care about deeply? someone who just disappeared in the night? someone you loved? (ohhh sharpshooter ily)

come over is in my eyes jay talking to chip or gill about growing up and what that was like, how it felt to have essentially the worlds eyes on her since she was a ferin. it's a lot of longing wishing she could have had a more normal childhood while also wishing that her father and extended family actually wanted her more and she wasn't just the back up

guess what new perspectives is about sharpshooter too, about how they slowly drifted and how they gained new perspectives on the world. it's about how jay still struggles to see why kira or ava stayed with the navy for as long as they did/do when it's such a messy system and the constant question she has for kira as to why she thinks she can change things

everywhere everything is a late night conversation between jay and gill, two fucked kids who were forced into roles they didn't want. it's something they can bond over, something they can find comfort in no matter where they end up.

orange juice (my favourite song) this song is may ferin talking to jay on the few occasions she comes home, trying to support and love her daughter even if she doesn't agree with the pirating. it's a song of attempting to love her no matter what even as jay becomes a different person than the daughter she raised a stonger person whos able to find help and deal with her grief finally

strawberry wine is one i struggle with more but i do view it as a sisterly love between her and ava, longing for memories of a bygone time when she was a different person how they just clicked together and knew almost every secret that the other had and how losing ava tore her apart.

growing sideways is another song about her grief and anger that came from avas death and jayson distancing himself from everything. about running on nothing but those deep rooted emotions that won't let you go down and how it warps your personal growth much in the way plants growing that are never cared for or rotated will only grow one way.

anyways halloween. so fun fact this song actually starts off with mentions of sailors and sailing so thats fun. but anywho i can only view this song as her internal monologue surrounding jayson ferin, how he's become a ghost of the father he was in order to cope with ava and how that really fucked her up. and how it wasn't until she was with the riptide pirates and no longer living in his legacy that she was somewhat free even if she was haunted by the ghost of everything he was to her

so homesick is the one song i can't mentally tie any connection to jay because in my mind its the timothy rand song from his jrwi campaign bloon in the bayou

still (i forget this songs on the album a lot) but yeah basically jay struggling and refusing to fully cut herself off from the ferins because that is her family, as much as she hates them they are who raised her and how she'll never fully be able to say goodbye to that

the view between villages aka the night that she went with chip and the rush of emotions that hit her as she realised she was somewhat free from everything that had held her down

your needs, my needs i don't really have full ideas for this one, it's a bunch of scattered ideas of the survivors guilt jay feels towards chip and gill and how it's slowly been eating at her till she spirals and loses herself slightly

paul revere this is another song i've thought about lots and basically it's in my mind about jay leaving and how she changed as a person, reflecting on how far she's come since she fully escaped the navy and became her own person the co-captain of the albatross not just jay ferin while at the same time embracing the fact that the past will always bare that and she can't erase it

no complaints once again the anger that jay grew accustomed to knowing through out her childhood and how it changed her as a person and how shes still learning to live with it

call your mom all i can see is someone comforting and helping jay after a really bad spiral (because that girl is not very stable) and how she's still a human who needs support and help in her life

you're gonna go far this songs from someone elses pov probably may talking about and supporting jay through her growth as a person and essentially telling her daughter she will always have a place to come back to if she needs it, their home will always be welcome to her and she can come and go as she needs

if you for whatever reason chose to read this heres a fic i wrote about orange juice 👍

also listen to noah kahan https://open.spotify.com/album/1pb3je8gXTs5dpRRTKhHRC?si=NhsoMHuDRdmCQc39wolvOw

My walking to school playlist for autumn because I love love LOVE autumn

when noah kahan said “someday I’m gonna be somebody people want”

the people in this planet fitness do not know i am in the midst of a spiritual experience (listening to the view between villages - extended)

I’m obsessed with Stick Season for a lot of reasons, and one of them is that it’s not about getting out. My whole life, I thought I was supposed to get out of my rural small town. And then I did get out, and I hated myself for not feeling the way I was supposed to about my shiny new life.

And at the same time, I am conflicted about the place I call home and whether it has held space for me the way I have held space for it.

And that’s what the whole album is. I just have to pretend he’s not talking about New England.

(But also it’s so important that I, a person from the middle of the South and the edge of Appalachia, can relate to songs about Vermont, because it tells us something about the ways we imagine America and its people. ANYWAY Stick Season fucks and I love it.)

now i know your name, but not who you are

all my love | noah kahan

(i am currently using the scanner in my notes app to upload these, but the quality is starting to disappoint me. on the one hand, it’s a marker doodle on scrap paper, and almost no one sees them. on the other hand, i love making them and really want them to be less fried)

this sucks i’m going to [remembers suicide jokes are not helpful] throw a punch, fall in love, give myself a reason

I just bought Noah Kahan tickets for the livestream on Friday ….. and im crying

I know it’s not the same as a concert .. but still I will be hearing this man live and im going to cry the entire time

this is MY live action Rapunzel 😤😤

the entirety of Stick Season(We’ll all be here forever) by Noah Kahan

I love the vocals, the calming guitar, the sad moments, the happy moments, the angry moments, all of it and it’s enough to zone out to at some spots and sing along for others

love love love it

Reblog and list 2-6 songs that you immediately retreat to and when/why.

Lean On by Major Lazer, DJ Snake, and MØ

Money by Lisa

Game Over! by Harris Cole

Lie by quickly, quickly

I Feel Fantastic by Riovaz

Le Monde - From Talk to Me by Richard Carter

When: While doing schoolwork.

Why: I've listened to them enough to where my brain perfectly zones out, promoting good focus :D

Been thinking a lot about Northern Attitude by Noah Kahan (the hozier version) specifically the line.

“If I get to close

And I’m not how you hoped

Forgive my Northern Attitude

Oh I was raised out in the cold”

And it’s a simple line but it’s sung with so much apology that it immediately stood out to me, combined with having heard Hozier explain the thought behind To Someone from a Warmer Climate, how it’s about the way that the phyical climate of the places we grow up affect the way we showcase and experience love, it proceeded to consume my every waking moment

Cause, interestingly, these two pieces are clashing. As To Someone from a Warmer Climate focuses more on how the cold allows you to hold each other close for warmth and how that builds a relationship but that makes it that when you finally experience the heat you’re uncomfortable in it, you don’t know what to do with it. What is our relationship if we don’t need to keep each other warm?

While Northern Attitude is about how growing up cold has by extension made him cold, personality wise. Like I don’t know how to properly showcase affection because that’s not something you learn when you are just trying to survive the cold. You don’t get to explore the depth of what you mean to each other when the cold is the most pressing enemy and you’ll take any body as long as it’s got heat, doesn’t matter who it’s attached too as long as it can make the house a little warmer.

But both songs are essentially saying the same thing;

I was raised on little light, all my life has taken place in the dark. I don’t know how to love you in the warmth of daylight.

And As someone who grow up on the equator it really got me thinking about how growing up in extreme heat affects the way I showcase my love and how that manifests differently from someone that grew up in the cold.

Cause I don’t like to sleep to close to people because I can feel the heat radiating of them and that’s uncomfortable. I don’t like to sleep in long pants or sweaters because I can feel the warmth seeping into my skin. I don’t like to walk out in the sun cause the heat frustrates me. And now that I have winters I still run the air conditioning all the time because I’m scared of all the memories attached to the heat.

All this to say that as always all roads lead back to Mishanks because whether Mihawk grew up on a cold winter island as his personality suggests or on a burning hot Spanish inspired sun. He has only ever known extreme ways to love.

As compared to someone like Shanks who grew up on the ever changing ocean. Whose never stayed anywhere long enough to be wary of the cold or untrusting of the heat. Who’s never known anything but loving freely untempered by weather. He’s always just been everything.

Noah Kahan’s music touches a deep part of my soul. Not just because it sounds good (because let’s be honest it sounds amazing) but because his lyrics are truly poetry and it makes so many people with so many different backgrounds and experiences feel seen and understood in a way that not many musicians can while also staying truthful to himself. His lyrics are the truth and even through songs where he talks about things he went through, his mistakes, (ex. Dial Drunk) he’s still honest, he doesn’t sugar coat things or try to paint himself in a different light which is one of the reasons why his music is so good. People can relate to something that is human, mistakes and anger and grief and that empty feeling he addresses in so many of his songs, is human. Anyway I’m probably not explaining this well but I love Noah Kahan and if you haven’t heard of him go check him out please he’s awesome :)

a big win for the noah kahan girlies (a big loss for my emotional state for the next three to five business days)

just listened to stick season (we'll all be here forever) moodboard

Me: idk who this Noah Kahan guy is all my mutuals keep talking about but he can't be that worth the hype

Me, 1 hour 23 minutes later:

If I could leave, I would've already left, I would've already left. [x]

Fall this year hit me hard in a lot of ways. I know I’ve talked here about being sad that I would miss out on fall foliage now that I’m back on the coast. My new back yard had other plans. It has made me so happy to have foliage out of my bedroom window and on the path. To make it better it has been mixed in with live oaks. It happens a lot later in the year here, but I’m so happy the earth gifted me with some foliage after my move.

Going into winter again, I never appreciated how the evergreen pine forests, palms, live oaks, and the general coastal surroundings protected me from true seasonal depression. I know last year it was a mixture of experiencing a real “stick season” and being homesick, etc… but it’s comforting knowing that my world here is not going to go gray for a while. The shorter days don’t hurt as hard now that I have friends to see. I have safe places to go. The dark isn’t as scary or lonely here.

Two very different worlds. Two photos taken 24 hours apart from each other. The mountains and the coast. Last year I was excited to experience the more contrasting seasons. I wasn’t ready for what came after fall.

I was use to being under the forests of evergreens along the coast. The loblollys, long leafs, live oaks, and palms. Green all year round. Green has always been my favorite color and I had never lived in a world without it.

I never realized winters could last so long. When I moved last November, the leaves had fallen. It was gray and foggy, and I use to love the fog. That long stretch of gray.

November

December

January

February

March

The the world slowly began to sprout. On the weekends when I would go up in the mountains for fun, the gray lasted even longer in places. By the time spring did roll around and summer, it was too late. Too much happened. The gloom of the world around me fully consumed me in.

Spring was so beautiful. I tried to find solace in it, but I was already so terrified of going through more of what I had been through. We all know it was more than just the environment around me. But it sure didn’t help. I still love the mountains so much. I miss them. But I missed my home so much more.

I always knew I was lucky to live where I do now. It’s a very special place, but even though I was conscious of it, I never felt it. Now I feel it and I love my beautiful world here.