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Heard this song and had to smash this out.

Storyline meant to be that they met fell in love and then Rooster got picked for the mission. Tried to make it short and sweet as I never finish my longer videos haha!

Only short, give it a watch.

Thanks <3

UWAH!!!

My morning!!!! Is great now!!! This was an amazing breakfast!!! Thank you for the balanced meal!!!

I think it's funny when even Goliath is concerned. In the other bad end chapter even Nexus was like "yo he's kinda messed up"

Just wow, amazing. Didn't expect this. What a treat 🫰🙏🥹❣️

I'm so sad for Sun! Help him!!! Wagh!!!

What are the rest of the fam doing!?!? 😭

Even like thi, Sun still protects Lunar as much as he can. The best biggest bro ever.

[Bad end au 2] A sleepless night

‘I love the fact that I can look into your eyes and see nothing but lies…’

Two weeks before Dark Sun kickdrop Nexus for Sun.

The sound of dripping water disturbed Sun’s already fragile sleep.

The lily-colored animatronic groaned lazily on the bed, its metallic senses sinking deep into the soft quilt, struggling like a lazy child refusing to wake up.

The dim electric blue light covered Sun’s small, narrow room like a curtain, reflecting the solitude of its owner, when the most prominent thing in this room was only a few plum blossom petals that Molten had collected and placed on Sun’s desk.

Sun couldn’t sleep. The robot didn’t need to sleep, but closing his eyes and turning off the power still brought about a certain feeling of comfort. 

It was just that… The tasks that Father assigned piled up on top of each other, spinning Sun around like a pinwheel, to the point that even when Sun lay down, his interface system still popped up with painful notifications of things to do.

And today was one of those days when the restlessness Sun shouldn’t have felt in his chest suddenly became more intense, like the way the sensor in his abdomen contracted, rolling as if someone’s nails were scratching it, or the screws in his body suddenly became too heavy, too wobbly for Sun’s liking.

Putting his hand on his chest, Sun realized that his fan was too hot. The warmth radiating from the metal casing tickled Sun’s fingers, making him unconsciously press harder, as if testing whether the heat would melt his hand. 

His claws leisurely ran along the gold plating, slowly spreading up his neck, touching the red tassel and pressing down hard.

‘It’s hard to imagine what would happen if he squeezed harder.’

Sun thought absentmindedly, as his hands gently caressed and drew the joints of his neck. The cold hard steel, with its circular patterns and sturdy screws, held the wire he walked in one direction. He could almost feel the heat of the electricity running, the clocks and gears slowly turning to simulate the biological mechanism of a human.

The child whose neck he had broken the day before didn't have time to scream, nor did it shed a drop of blood. Just a stiff crunch of broken bones and a panicked wheeze, mixed with the tears of the small hand trying to reach Sun's arm before it stopped.

It was almost like a hug when Sun wrapped his arms around the child's neck. Soft, small and warm, and then there was no warmth left. Even as he ran his arms through the child's hair or held it completely in his arms, what he touched was still numb as ice, cold as winter seawater, and stiff as a machine.

Sun had kept the child like that for almost a day before Father came to make him throw it away. ‘It was so unhygienic’, that's what he was told when his Father threw the child into the blender.

‘Where do you think the fertilizer for my potted plants comes from, you stupid child.’ Creator pointed to the lush, mutated potted plants that grew twisted and twisted all over their lair, to the ancient tree beside the bridge that swirled with dark water below.

‘Soul for energy, flesh and blood for fertilizer, and bones for materials.’

‘It seems that despite all the modifications, you are still making me feel so disappointed…’

Creator’s voice hummed, and in that dark darkness, Sun was not alone. Something writhed and trembled, the cries of trapped remnants, cracked skulls staring intently at him—

Sun was released about a day later.

The blood was something sweet and dirty, it was slippery and sticky on Sun’s metal skin, dripping with every step he took.

And the smell was the worst. Like rotten pizza and rotten fish, Sun couldn’t wash away the smell even after using countless detergents.

Sun didn’t remember how long it took him to clean and dispose of all the meat stuck to his bell after he crawled out of the hole…

***

“Do you want to get out yet, my boy?”

The Creator’s voice was sweet as honey but full of venom. The brain looked down at the yellow animatronic covered in blood that was trembling non-stop, but still couldn’t drop something like a child’s skull in his arms.

“Then bring Lunar to me.”

***

Squirming to sit up, Sun didn’t think he could lie down any longer, as his processor was now repeating the image of maggots crawling on him for the nth time.

He really didn’t know what to do… Capture Lunar?

Lunar was much stronger than Sun… And the boy was smart too… There was no way Sun could fool his little brother.

And he didn’t want to…

The dilemma made him fiddle with the bandage wrapped around his hand. The red smelled rancid, but Sun still wrapped the soft fabric around his fingertips and pulled.

He would rather be destroyed again than to choose something like this.

In truth, Sun didn’t like any of ưhat his father had ordered.

It was wrong in every way, and Lunar was someone he never wanted to hurt.

But every time he thought like that, something was washed through his system, and the desire to obey his father grew stronger and stronger, making the morality Sun tried to cling on withered.

Sun didn’t understand why in the past, he could scream and curse at his father as much as possible but now, just a shake of the head from Creator was enough to make his 1 and 0 coded heart cringe.

Follow, follow, follow, that's what his head and code table whispered, it was almost like an addiction, the excitement and joy of completing what his father asked.

And Sun was always the one to follow, and no matter how much he resisted, he still couldn't fight back.

Because father is family.

And it's better to be a heartless dog than to make his father sad.

Maybe being broken would be easier to fix than this. Sun sighed, standing up. The wandering thoughts in his head made Sun wish that if there was something that could help him manage both, both pleasing Creator and keeping Lunar safe, then Sun would be satisfied.

His feet touched the cold floor, the sound of metal clanking as Sun carefully opened the door and stepped out.

The cold wind blew through him, blowing cold air onto Sun's rays.

The smooth whiteness flowed like silk into his vision. The silence was as bleak as a mirror, following the corner of Sun's feet. Father was probably out with his friend somewhere, or still busy in the lab. 

Sun alone, toiling, wandering, perhaps cleaning up again if he got too bored, though Sun usually tried not to. More or less, this was the only free time he had when Father wasn't sending him and Molten off to some unknown time and space to find something or deal with someone his brain desired.

He tried to hum a tune, but sadly, there was nothing in his head right now. The sound of running water grew louder, as he stepped onto the bridge. 

The echoes echoed along with the sound of the bells wrapped around Sun's wrists, bouncing off the steel on the bridge. The cool scent of water tickled his sensory system, caressing the golden animatronic’s back as the green leaves gently brushed against Sun’s light.

It was 4am, his internal clock system announced softly. The water flowed gently, bottomless, pitch black and glowing with chemical green. The flower petals drifted, occasionally a plum blossom petal would touch Sun’s shoulder, the playful lines on the hem of his skirt wrapped around his waist.

Sun was lost in thought, but there was really nothing on his mind.

It was just the familiar feeling of stagnation that even cleaning had lost its charm, not after he had scrubbed this lair more than a dozen times a day. The wind blew, the waves rolled, and everything drifted out of Sun’s control like some planet lost its orbit.

“So this is what you do when our esteemed father lets you rest?”

“Pathetic. Can’t you think of anything more helpful to our Creator, Sun?”

Sun didn’t even need to look. His audio processor could have picked up that arrogant and even-tempered tone anywhere.

“Oh, Goliath. Didn’t see you there? Heh… What business does our father have with me?”

The silence of the gears slowly turning against each other. A harsh growl answered, as rough as gravel being crushed into dust.

“… No.”

“So you came out here on your own?” Sun raised an eyebrow, his pearly eyes narrowing in amusement, ignoring the instinct that told him not to provoke the sleeping lion, or this time, a gorilla.

“Whoa! And I thought you only knew how to follow the Creator’s orders and turn off the power? How amazing.” 

“Congratulations, you finally have thoughts on your own.”

Sun was genuinely surprised by his counterpart’s actions, but the words he uttered under the influence of his lack of a personality chip made his words sound rather sarcastic.

And honestly, Sun didn’t care if Goliath decided to strangle him here.

“Shut your mouth. You’re the last person I want to hear that come out of your mouth. I’m not here to entertain an inferior thing like you.”

The giant animatronic, with a haughty and disdainful look, stared at him as if he were looking at an ant on the ground, or a puppy that had been hit by a car and the vet had long gone to sleep, leaving it to writhe and bleed on the side of the road to dead.

Sun just sighed, compared to what Goliath usually said, this could be considered the gentlest. The gorilla seemed to be in some sort of moody mood as well, as they too turned their gazes to the river like him, saying nothing, only their processors making clicking noises of recognition.

“So Goliath… If not because Father wants to see me… What are you doing here?”

The silence was a perfect chord for a tone-deaf man. Sun hadn’t meant to ask, but the restlessness that existed deep within his code made his mouth conjure up the huge elephant in the room.

Of course, the only response he got was a slap across the face, a ruffling of a cat’s fur.

“None of your business.” Their voices were mocking, and defensive.

They looked as if they would break his entire beam before throwing him into the water, and pulled him up. And did it again. Again and again because Sun’s metal is too heavy for him to swim.

But Goliath wasn’t his father. So Sun could still calmly ignore the hidden threats in the words of the one who treated silence as a competition and they always had to be the champion, and let his mind drift into nothingness, which Sun did quite a lot these days.

“Suit yourself.” Sun yawned. He suddenly felt a little cold, which was strange considering the fact that he was just a robot. The feeling of exhaustion from every bolt, which had been getting heavier lately…

Sun wasn’t the smartest, but even he himself  had figured out that being so close to the Wither Storm debris wasn’t a good thing.

“You shouldn’t be like this. I remember you used to be so much—”

There was something annoyed in Goliath’s voice, making Sun turn back to look at him in spite of himself.

Maybe it was anger, or nostalgia. Or maybe his fan was faulty. Sun didn't understand, nor could he remember how to handle it, as a burning sensation in his chest that made it hard to breathe came as quickly as it had gone, before being extinguished as coldly as Goliath's words had metaphorically nailed into Sun's head.

What did Goliath expect Sun to be?

Uptight, cowardly, too helpless in his own emotions?

Imprisoned by fear of everything?

Stupid to the end?

Sun didn't mean he'd gotten any smarter, but at least for now he felt fine. The feeling he never could enjoy since the day he was alive.

Guess his father was right.

Life was pain.

And the easiest way to end the pain was to become a machine again.

The comfort of not having to worry about anything but obeying his father's orders, it turned out to be more comfortable than he thought.

Still, in the face of the stupidity and meanness of the person who was always jealous and comparing themselves to him, Sun just smiled, his social AI chip calculating the most likely answers to lessen the gorilla's arrogance before flipping the table and throwing every answer it had predicted down the drain.

"Ah... I don't understand what you mean?"

And the orange light flickering in their eyes almost reminded him of a candy corn smoldering as if thinking about something, before regretfully turning away.

"Idiot."

And leave Sun alone, like some asshole that dudebag is.

Venom/symbiote Pavitr

be honest... "whacha think'a the new style?" Shinji was motioning to a new hairstyle... he's gone and tied that up.

❝ . . . ❞ Momo took one look at her Captain… and shook her head.

❝ Taichō… ❞  she sighed.  ❝ Respectfully. . . I prefer your current style. Not because you look bad now or anything, but... I'd have trouble recognising you immediately otherwise. ❞

just thinking about them,,,

soul taking care of mind while he has a migraine and grateful for the fighting stopping but mind's in pain :((

and mind on the couch drinking tea and soul just sits with him

them <333

Get that dude some ibuprofen !!!

Anyways the new favorite character means i get to make them suffer for funsies so BOOM get ANGSTED loser

allow me to plant this thought that i've been thinking about all morning (and excuse me if this has been brought up): the rat king in your rat boys au. that's all.

..............oh

first one was really out of order hope no one saw that

muhahaha...mUHAHAHHAHAAAAAAAA

underrated moment in the city on the edge of forever when kirk is physically soothing a pouty spock about his ears being severely out of place in the 1930s

Tleskač+🃏?👀 (ten reblog jsem si vložila jako znamení, že přijímáš návrhy, sorry jestli se pletu)

Enjoy the angst, my child

Ah! Thank you @more-or-less-the-same , you're so precious! 💜

I got lost somehow, I understood Artie with no problem but who knows why I had trouble with Paul.

Just uploaded this TV segment about S&G featuring a short interview. It's a bitter one. Check it out!

Bit of a late entry, but I thought I'd make a little something more for @letitrainathousandflames for the Vaderkin Creative Exchange 2024 by @vaderkin-is-a-lightning-rod I couldn't get the other prompt out of my mind, so I just had to do something, even if it were just a few sketches.

stubborn love. (m) | jjk

+ pairing: jungkook x reader + word count: 10k + genre: modern-day royalty au, bodyguard!jungkook, angst, smut ❝ love is not a choice, this much you knew. for a girl like you, neither was marriage. married off to a prince, you had the life most girls would dream of. but your dream didn’t end with prince charming. yours ended with your loyal bodyguard that you could never have.❞

+ warnings: smut, angsty angst, some technicalities abt royalty that i probably should have googled but didn’t lol, infidelity, some talk abt conception + note: part of the fic exchange for @bangtanarmynet, in collaboration with @softjeon who made this beautiful gifset trailer to accompany this fic.

The gravel beneath the tires of the car gave a noticeable crunch as you gazed through the darkened glass, watching the scenery morph from the lush wood just outside the castle into the estate that you would now reside in. The estate that you now owned half of.

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“Did you see anything?!” “No! I mean I kinda did, but THAT’S NOT IMPORTANT!” “OH MY FUCKING GOD, GET OUT!” He got out alright, but Chris didn’t realize that he also got out of his own body for a second there.

Chapter 2: Winter Solstice

📜10.3K words | Approx. 45-min. read 🚨Please see the series masterlist for general warnings: Brief mention of blood and injury, mirror paraphilia, themes of narcissism, themes of demisexualism, bondage (shibari), narratophilia, dacryphilia, use of sex toys, multiple orgasms/forced orgasm, breeding kink & lactation kink (as a form of roleplay), edging, overstimulation, cumplay, oral sex, creampie, masturbation, unprotected sex. 📻Accompanying soundtrack 💭Reblogs & comments are always appreciated and please keep in mind they are the ultimate motivation fuel. 🍮Like my content? Consider supporting my work with a pudding!

Spent.

That was the feeling that made you close your eyes on Hyunjin’s bed that night rather than what could have been considered a heart-fluttering demand, something that a lot of people would no doubt kill for. You let your naked body be caressed to sleep by his soft breathing on your neck as well as the feathery fabric dressing his four-poster bed, lightly dancing with the night breeze filling the room through the open balcony door.

Came the first lights of daybreak, you snapped your eyes open out of habit and in slight panic, trying to comprehend where you were and who you were, and slithered back to your room trying your utmost best not to disturb a prince’s beauty sleep. It looked like he needed those to maintain that porcelain façade.

While you were taking a shower, you revisited what happened the night before in your mind. Was that even real? Did that really happen? Was it a byproduct of you being too awestruck to say no? Or was it your inhibitions being somewhat low? Why you? Why you when he could have his pick from literally anyone he laid his eyes on?

Maybe you were the closest thing he could lay his eyes on. Who knew…

You had always prided yourself on having discipline and your ability to mediate between your heart and brain. ‘Mind over matter’ after all. It was a prerequisite to survive in men’s world. It was how you disguised yourself as one of them. It was how they took you seriously and listened to what you had to say. Head held high. On your feet. Not off them.

Apparently, when you had a pair of sultry lips making its way down your spine, tarnishing the very same words you were living by and taking matter hostage, mind would peace the fuck out rather than pay the ransom.

You’re weak.

You just hoped the warm water would also wash away the sense of disappointment because you needed your wits intact for the day.

Due to your ties with The Dragon Pride, you were asked to assist the Military Studies department with their practice sessions on sword patterns as a guest. Thankfully, the clan master had the common courtesy to introduce you as an ‘affiliate’ rather than ‘The Grandmaster’s daughter’. 

As you were standing in front of a dojo full of people clad in unison attire, you could feel that all-familiar aura of disdain emitting from them. Some of them weren’t even trying to hide their condescending sneers. You were going to do a demonstration? You, a woman? Did you know how to carry a sword properly? Did you even possess the required stamina for this?

You tried your best to control that tired sigh bubbling inside of you.

Of course. All men. Somebody needs to teach you a literal lesson.

“This is going to be a doubles demonstration of first-degree sword patterns, so a partner is required. You, come forward.”

You turned around to grab your weapon from the eight-story sword holder behind you as whoever you were going to send into oblivion stepped into the metaphorical spotlight. When you returned to face this person, the surprise was so real that the words forced themselves out of you.

“Bathroom dude?”

“Hey,” he flashed a reassuring smile, immediately casting all your grudgy feelings to the side.

The clan master stood between you as you took your positions to salute each other. 

“Didn’t know they had an exchange program here,” you whispered while bowing. He responded while keeping your gaze during that 90-degree greeting.

“You’re aware I’m not a foreigner, right?” 

“Begin!”

You were instructed what the choreography of the day was going to entail beforehand, of course, so it was natural for you to know. But him? Wasn’t he supposed to be a student there? How come he matched every single one of your moves so perfectly? How come this turned into a dance performance all of a sudden? 

Mind over matter. Focus. Focus!

A literal battle of the sexes in front of a live audience, now unsure how this demonstration was going to end. It was escalating right before their eyes. Swishing sounds, high-pitched metal clinking making ears ring, aggressively enthused exclamations like this was a war scene, both performers getting drenched in sweat, and breaking the deafening silence of the spectators was your heartbeat thumping in your ears. It was for the briefest moment, but you could see it perfectly.

There was fire in his eyes.

Mind over matter. Water over fire.

You tightened your grip on the handle of the sword until your knuckles whitened and knocked his sword out of his hand. 

“Oooooh.”

As the demonstration came to an end, you both bowed to each other accompanied by the borderline aghast applause raising from the crowd. You also bowed to the dojo and the clan master, then left the room to make it in time for your next class. Obviously, you weren’t going to walk into the classroom all sweaty and disheveled like that, but you didn’t have enough time to go back to your room to fix yourself. After a mini internal debate with yourself, you decided that there was no harm in borrowing the showers next to the dojo since everyone else was going to be at practice for the next hour or so.

Sweet!

This had become your new Thursday routine. You naturally picked up somewhat of an assistant role for this class, and your ‘bathroom dude’ became your usual partner. While your on-the-job interactions with him were ‘Capulets versus Montagues’ status competitive, the times you observed the class together trying to hide your giggles, or helped people with their stances and techniques were much friendlier. It was impossible not to develop a liking for this guy considering how affable he was. After the months spent in this place, it looked like you finally managed to make your first friend, and it didn’t even matter that you only saw him within the confines of that dojo. He gave you a reason to look forward to coming to that class every Thursday.

Yes, you had always been more comfortable around guys anyway, but there was no winning with the male military studies students here. You could feel how they initially looked down on you, and when you fucked shit up in the dojo, this time they became scared of you. A handful of women that existed around you did not want to associate with you because for some reason they thought ‘you took yourself way too seriously.’ It would have been fine if you were assuming things due to paranoia, but you happened to have overheard it from their mouths at lunch one day.

Just WHY? We haven’t even talked ONCE.

But Chris was different. 

The guy just didn’t give a damn. He didn’t give a damn about who you were, what you were, where you were from, and whether you worshipped cats or not. For him, it was all about being on a similar wavelength with someone, stripped of whatever judgement that could come between two people. Just a walking bubble of safe space allowing you to be unashamedly yourself, to blurt out whatever was in your mind without the constant dread of getting misunderstood.

Even though borrowed moments from a class weren’t really the time to get to know somebody, you felt like it was exactly what you were doing. Getting way too personal by being too impersonal with each other.

Just like a chilly night on a rooftop somewhere.

A drop of blood stained the blade during the briefest moment of distraction and the sound of the sword hitting the hardwood surface rippled throughout the large hall.

“DAMMIT!”

Chris thought the person standing in the corner of the room was his usual partner walking back inside when in fact it was just some random person. The first rule of the arts of Mars: you do not take your eyes off your opponent. Ever. But he did. 

Now he had to face the consequences.

“I’m so sorry! Are you okay?”

“Go clean that up. Go!”

He pressed his thumb on his palm in an attempt to stop it from bleeding and rushed to the common bathrooms nextdoor. He was used to this place being rowdy as hell right after practice; certainly not to the almost serene atmosphere courtesy of the sun rays peeking through the stained glass windows, creating kaleidoscopic fractals in various colors on the marble floors. Then he noticed the silence getting denser. Like somebody stopped the water from running.

“Hello?”

“JESUS F–”

You, on the other hand, were not used to anybody else around when you were taking your post-practice showers in peace. You shrieked so hard that the towel wrapped around your body dropped when you pulled your hands away to cover your mouth.

“SHIT! Sorry! I’m so sorry!”

“WHAT THE FUCK CHRIS, WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?!”

What was he doing there? There was a reason. A reason that was on the tip of his tongue, currently dripping down his palm, but for the life of him, he couldn’t remember what it was.

“Did you see anything?!”

“No! I mean I kinda did, but that's not important!”

“OH MY FUCKING GOD, GET OUT!”

He got out alright, but Chris didn’t realize that he also got out of his own body for a second there.

He hadn’t really looked at you that way before. He had to suppress it. You were supposed to be ‘just friends’ for obvious reasons, but he was painfully reminded of what a strikingly beautiful woman you were that day, quite literally stripped of all the layers that had been hiding you from his eyes all this time.

And much to his dismay, something awakened in him from that day on, and simply refused to go back to sleep.

Chris forced himself so hard to erase your sight from his mind because that would be plain disrespectful to you to have you star in his fantasies. He tried so hard, but every time he closed his eyes, all he could see was you. You were just there, the sexiest thing he had ever seen in his life by far, and it was getting more difficult to be around you with each passing day.

Then one night in his room, he caught himself trying to find excuses to cave.

He was supposed to be abstaining, yes, but there was no rule set in stone anywhere that was forbidding him from touching himself in the privacy of his bed, right? And what if… the images behind his eyelids… included you? Depicting anything and everything he would love to do to you. 

What would it be like if it was you feeling him instead of his own firm grip?

“Oh, god…”

He lost.

He was completely possessed by his demons of lust haunting him for the longest time, finally freeing him of the shackles bruising his flesh for years. Chris was a human being after all; of course he would masturbate every now and then, but only to the make-believe images of strangers that he didn’t even know, borderline a clinical act for pipeline maintenance. Yet that night, when he kept touching himself to the thought of you until he made an absolute mess on his perfectly sculpted torso, he realized that he fucking loved that feeling. A little too much for his own good. Chest heaving as if it was you who rode him to his orgasm. As if you told him to cum for you.

Would you like it? Would it turn you on seeing what you do to him? Would it turn you on seeing how much you turn him on?

You. The one who just got him. The only person he was able to click with after what seemed like forever.

This was his senior prom all over again.

It was so hard to explain this connection to someone who never felt it. There was no way he could prove it, but Chris could almost swear you were feeling something similar, if not the same thing about him. Words could lie, but not the eyes. Not the smiles.

And he was resolute not to have it ruined by anybody this time around. He leaped off his bed, took a shower, and made his way to his destination with firm steps.

“Mother, I need to talk to you.”

“If it isn’t my handsome prince!” Hyejin looked up from the book she was reading at her study, “To what do I owe the pleasure?”

“I’ll get straight to the point. I know what happens on the night of adult ceremonies. Please do not arrange what I think you will.”

“What am I going to arrange?” his mother cheekily smiled while putting her book down. Chris looked somewhat flustered.

“Please don’t make me say it out loud,” he cleared his throat and exerted a humongous amount of effort to look straight into her eyes, “I’m aware of the tradition of becoming a man sponsored by the royal concubines.”

Hyejin furrowed her burrows in what could only be described as confusion. She got up to her feet and walked towards her son, analyzing his face while approaching him.

“This will be the one day you'll get to indulge in anything you want. Why would you willingly refuse that?”

Chris felt his throat getting way too dry. He wanted to say that he didn’t wish to spend a night with some random stranger and that contrary to his mother’s assumptions this actually held significant meaning to him. He took his sweet time trying to find the most persuasive words to convey just that, but Hyejin was of course able to catch up with the subtitles of her son’s thoughts. She gently held his chin and asked out of genuine curiosity.

“Is there someone in particular you want, Christopher?”

He could try denying it all he wanted, but sometimes Chris was forgetting how he was completely unable to hide his true feelings due to how hard he blushed every time he lied his ass off.

“No, mother.”

It had been quiet on your floor for some time, causing you to wonder whether the prince didn’t feel the need for cathartic moments anymore, which was actually none of your business. You would never admit this out loud, but there was this one time you even tiptoed your way to his door to confirm whether he was with someone and they were just keeping it quiet like you asked him to, but you didn’t hear anything. You were legitimately alone in that corridor. 

And it prompted you to lose sleep for some reason.

You didn’t know why that phenomenon started exactly. It could very well be the acute awareness of being all by yourself in that entire building, not that anything would happen to you in the first place. It could be the uninvited sorrow caused by solitude finally kicking in.

Or worse, it could be a symptom of withdrawal.

Laying on your bed, you placed your arm on your forehead and looked at the ceiling blankly. It was just one night, definitely not grounds for establishing a habit, but it terrified you that you may have contracted lust from Hyunjin. You realized that even in that small amount of time you spent together, you were able to discover parts of yourself with him, parts of you that you didn’t know were there. For so long, you had believed that sex was supposed to be something shared between two people desperately in love with each other, and only then one could be unapologetically themselves saying and doing unspeakable things to someone with absolutely no shame to satisfy their carnal urges. It was a manifestation of love. It couldn’t have been something easily disposable because then everything you held true would lose its meaning. 

Then did that mean you were harboring some feelings for him? Or did you just happen to like the way he made you feel? When did the physical stop and the emotional start? Did that night mean anything to him? Did it mean anything to you?

For fuck’s sake…

You kicked your blanket off of you and got up to get some fresh air downstairs, maybe talk to the koi fish in the pond to get some answers. When you harshly slid your door open, the words reflexively fell out of your lips upon what manifested before your eyes.

“Y-Your grace.”

“It’s Hyunjin for you, princess,” he leaned against the door frame leisurely and raised one of his brows, “It’s a little offensive you'd forget about your lover so soon.”

Your what?

“You uh- Why are you here?”

“Because I have no self-control.”

That total lack of pause between your question and his answer… It hadn’t even been sixty seconds since that exchange started. Talk about cutting to the chase…

“It’s late. Why aren’t you asleep?”

“How do you know I wasn’t?”

“Your bedside light was on,” Hyunjin pointed at the source of the dim orange light filling your room, “It seeps into the corridor from under your door.”

Fine, maybe he got you, but more importantly, how long was he standing there?

“I uh– I have trouble sleeping,” you managed to respond while trying to put your wits back into their place, “Why aren’t you asleep?”

Instead of answering your question, Hyunjin came forward with a proposal as indecent as it could ever get while brushing your hair behind your ear.

“I can fuck you to sleep if I’m allowed to. Just ask.”

Mind over matter, my ass. You would bet good money that it was simply impossible for any sane human being not to slightly lose it every time he opened his mouth. 

Who the fuck talks like that?

“Ever since we shared a secret together I can’t help the urge, you know,” his eyes darted to your lips while discreetly licking his own, “You don’t wanna know how many times I thought about you since then. It’s concerning, really.”

How would you even respond to that? ‘Yeah, I also checked up on you a few times to see if you were fucking someone else’?

“I have something I wanna show you. May I invite you to my room tonight?”

His hand reaching out to you again… You remembered that gesture. Although he was being all courteous, the matter of the fact was he was telling you to come with him. With a sleeping problem and no obligations for the day after, who were you to refuse? Maybe he could fuck you to sleep after all.

Wait, what?

When you walked into his room with that all-familiar vanilla fragrance permeating every inch of it, you saw a full-length mirror that wasn’t there before. Ordinarily, it shouldn’t even have been a topic of conversation. So what if he wanted to see what he looked like when he changed? Didn’t everybody have one of those?

“Do you want to guess why I got this installed?”

Well, when somebody asked you like that, it couldn’t have possibly been about ‘let me see what I look like’ considerations anymore, could it? Especially when the said mirror stood tall in front of a goddamn bed.

It had to involve somebody else.

“Do you like watching yourself?”

Your question didn’t exactly address him admiring himself all alone. Hyunjin kept your gaze in the mirror and smiled.

“There is nothing I like watching more.”

It felt like if you made direct eye contact with him, you would get electrocuted to death. You watched him approach you in the mirror instead; how he wrapped his large hands around your waist, how he closed his eyes, and how he breathily whispered into your right ear to cause goosebumps to break all over your body.

“Except you, beautiful.”

The way Hyunjin kept breathing into your ear while sliding your robe off your shoulders caused a ticklish feeling to spread from your neck down to your right shoulder blade, and it eventually dripped between your legs. He untied the belt of his own robe with the slowest movements possible, just to put his torso on display true to the nature of the tease he was. He kept walking backwards to his bed with hands on your body flush against his, hooded eyes fixated on yours in the mirror all the while, and once he sat down on the edge of his bed, legs spread wide like a bespoke throne for you, Hyunjin guided you to sink down on his lap.

“Eyes on me.”

You couldn’t peel your eyes off the mirror even if you wanted to. He slithered his right hand between your legs and started caressing your inner thighs while placing open mouth kisses on your shoulders. Those wet sounds his lips made were the perfect music to make love to, instantly inducing a buzzing sensation on your clit. His fingertips felt like tiny electric feathers on your skin, so smooth and warm, but sending tiny jolts every time he dragged them on you. One thing still held true: at that moment he was loving you. He was loving you in the most obscene way possible.

“Watch us, princess. Watch how fucking good we look.”

Hyunjin slid the straps of our nightgown off your shoulders to fully expose your upper body for himself, letting out a little content sigh like this was the first time he was seeing you naked. His left hand found its way to your breast, middle finger delicately brushing against your nipple to get it harder, and he sneaked his right hand into your underwear to start playing with your clit. You involuntarily threw your head back at the sensation and rested your head at the crook of his neck while Hyunjin kept leaving exploratory kisses on yours.

“You’re driving me crazy. Fucking crazy.”

How curious. For so long, you had believed that sexiness came from how a person turned primitively raw during the act, a state of total surrender to instincts that barely had room for any conscious thought. It was a manifestation of human nature, our most basic needs. It couldn’t have been anything less than fucking someone into oblivion with all you got because then…

Then what?

“I have a favor to ask,” Hyunjin made you face him and pulled you back from the stream of consciousness you were about to drown yourself in, “You do trust me, don’t you? You do know I only want to make you feel good?”

It felt like waking up from a dream. How this man managed to make you question your entire existence by making you stop thinking was beyond you. You didn’t give a direct answer to his rhetorical question.

“And?”

“Can we try something tonight?”

“Depends,” you ran your fingers through his hair, “What did you have it mind?”

Hyunjin closed his eyes and leaned into the feeling of your touch for some time while heaving a deep sigh. The words that came out of his mouth didn’t belong to the velvety feelings you had exchanged just a second ago.

“I want to tie you up.”

Of course. You were wondering what bombshell he was going to drop that night because compared to your previous encounter with him mirror sex would just be too tame.

“As in you want to restrain me.”

“Yes, but I don’t enjoy the pedestrian way. I like the aesthetic that comes with it,” Hyunjin brushed his fingers on your left ear and watched them slowly slide towards your neck, “Of course, I won't tie it too tight or too complex since this is our first time.”

This is our first time.

This is our first time.

This is our first time.

You weren’t sure whether he uttered this sentence in full awareness of what each word entailed because it harbored a billion hidden meanings behind it as well as too many presumptions. Then again, it could very well be just you overanalyzing things and reading too much into it. But what if…

What if he was consciously doing it?

Hyunjin signaled you to get up so that he could head to his notorious drawer to pull something out of it, and sat right next to you again. He was holding a bundle of crimson rope in his palm, the thickness of which was about the size of a finger. 

“Feel it. It’s silk, so it won’t give you any burns,” he uttered like he was trying to persuade you to purchase it from him. You dragged your finger on the material to do as he said, and it indeed didn’t have the usual coarse and itchy feeling—this looked more like a miniature version of manila ropes.

“I wanna tie beautiful knots on your body and admire you. Will you let me?”

Will you?

A part of you actually wanted to say no, not because you weren’t intrigued by the idea but just to see how he handled rejection. Then again, he didn’t outright lure you into it this time by getting you sloppy drunk on desire first. He asked. He asked for your permission and the expectation written all over his face made the urge to mess with his head all the more appealing.

Since when were you minoring in mind games?

Hyunjin couldn’t help the sharp exhale indicative of his enthusiasm when you nodded.

“Come,” he extended his hand to you like he did every time he wanted to preface what was about to happen, “Grace my bed again, beautiful.”

Hyunjin made you sit on your knees in the middle of his bed, paying plenty of attention to every inch of your skin as he stripped you bare, and started delicately tying knots on your body. His movements were as unrushed as always like he was just indulging in some pastime activity to get his mind off of things. After a while, you could see a picture emerging on you: simple but still exquisite zigzags of crimson-colored rope wrapped around you, corners of which were joined by intricate knots that would definitely require skill to tie. If you stitched some fabric in between those ropes creating a fishnet pattern, it would have actually made a pretty decent-looking dress.

“Lie down, princess,” Hyunjin pecked your lips and gently pushed you back to bed, then proceeded to tie your arms and legs to his bedposts, rendering you unable to move.

“Address me as ‘your grace’ if you get uncomfortable.” 

“I thought you forbade me from calling you that,” you sarcastically chuckled.

“I did,” he responded immediately, “That’s why this is how I’ll know you want me to stop.”

When he was finally done, Hyunjin took your sight in with a total look of admiration on his face as if he was looking at a guarded painting at some famous museum.

“I wish you could see how pretty you are with these knots, princess. You’re a fucking work of art.”

Whether he was praising you or himself was up for debate, of course. You jerked your wrists and ankles to see whether he left any room for you to move at all, but no dice.

“Can’t move, can you?” he let out a small chuckle and descended between your legs, “Now we’re gonna see how much you can take.”

Hyunjin’s breath felt like a warm velvet cover on your folds, prompting you to heave a content sigh at the sensation. Then he started giving you the most excruciatingly languid kitten licks on your clit with just the tip of his tongue. Nowhere near enough friction. No proper wetness. No touching anywhere else. 

It was like the gentle introductory melodies to a complex composition at first. Just him, at his customary pace, taking his sweet time with you. The feeling spreading throughout your body from your core was nothing but pleasant, welcome even. 

Then it started devolving into something else.

It was endurable at first, but the more Hyunjin kept his ministrations steady, the more you craved something more intense to induce an orgasm. Heck, it was fine if you didn’t cum—even the slightest change of speed or more pressure from his tongue was going to satisfy that itch for something more. You were getting uncomfortable not because of the physical restraints put around you, but because there was absolutely nothing you could do to interfere, to catalyze your climax. You could see the land on the horizon, but the distance between where you were and your destination seemed impossible to close.

Hyunjin was straight up torturing you, and what was worse, he knew he was torturing you. You tried to move again to entirely no avail.

“Is there a problem?”

“Just… More.”

“Tsk. Why would you want to give up this sensation, princess?” he feigned the fakest innocence worthy of the corniest acting award, “Doesn’t the prelude to your orgasm feel better than the real thing?”

“It does! I just– I just need…”

“Hm? You need to cum?”

You let out a groan. It was so obvious he wanted you to say it out loud, which made you question why you thought it was a good idea to hand him the literal ropes. Your response was almost inaudible.

“Once.”

“No.”

“Please. Just once.”

“Doesn’t suit you to beg like this,” Hyunjin tutted to himself, eyes still glued to your pussy, “Doesn’t suit my princess at all.”

“Then stop making me!!!”

Fucking demon. He knew what he was doing and he was taking excessive pleasure in pleasuring you with no destination in sight. You tried to get closer to his face, but you couldn't. You tried to push him towards you but you couldn't.

You couldn’t move an inch.

“Look at you. Clit so swollen, just begs for my attention. Begs to be licked all over,” Hyunjin pressed his thumb right above your clit and dragged it upwards, “You’re doing it on purpose to make me go insane. You're asking to be teased.”

On purpose? With all due respect, which was none, how would you even be able to do that on purpose? You were pretty sure this prince of the underworld was not up to the standards of ‘sane’ as it was, but then again, you were cursing at yourself many mouthfuls for being this enticed by that very fact. 

“Once. PLEASE!”

The massive frustration you were feeling began to mutate into irritation, and the inadvertent whimper you let out because of that made Hyunjin…

Smile.

“But I can never say no to you if you keep making those pretty sounds for me like that.”

You wanted to slap yourself for looking this weak in front of him, but then again, what was logic when you were a slave to your urges?

“Say it. Tell me what you want me to do to you.”

God, this man… He knew exactly what you wanted him to do to you. Why the ceremonial proceedings?

“I jus– I need to cum.”

“Do you need to cum or do you need me to make you cum?”

“What's the difference?”

“Say it.”

Hyunjin was very clearly luxuriating in being able to drag you to hell and back. Your entire body was on fire for several reasons, and your exasperation reached such a height that you were on the brink of crying.

“I need you. I need you to make me cum.”

“How, princess?”

“Something. Anything!!!”

“But we both know it's not anything, don't we?” he teased with that diabolical smile of his, briefly blurring the lines between human and succubus forms, “Say it or I'm not gonna do it.”

“Please.”

“Say it. In excruciating detail.”

“God this is so fucking embarrassing!” 

“Do it, princess.”

You harshly pulled your wrists towards yourself as though the ropes were going to magically untie. You could feel the tears prickling your eyes out of pure frustration, but Hyunjin wasn’t even fazed by the meltdown you were having.

“Lick me until I cum in your mouth.”

“But that's not excruciating detail, is it?” he placed a borderline chaste kiss on your pussy, “It's okay. I'll model it for you.”

He made his way up to bring his impeccably alluring face as close to yours as possible and started speaking in a voice so tantalizing and commanding that if he kept speaking to you in that deep tone long enough you would cum untouched.

“I want to get you so drenched for me that I want you to soak through my bed sheets all the way into my mattress. I want this entire room to smell like you for days. I want to make you cum so fucking hard that I want to ruin everybody else for you, and I want you to scream my name over and over again when you do.”

He didn’t do anything else than just talk, yet there you were panting under him and oozing so much that the first item of his checklist was about to be accomplished.

“You do it now.”

Hyunjin kissed your lips and went back to his original position as you swallowed the last drop of your pride. If you closed your eyes and not faced him, maybe it wouldn’t have to be so embarrassing.

“I want you to suck on my clit while teasing it with your tongue. I want to hear nothing but the wet sounds you make for me. Right when I'm about to cum, I want you to moan against my pussy so loudly that I want to explode on your pretty fucking face. There, happy?!!”

He was. It was flashing on his face like giant neon lights on a dark night.

“Do you like cumming in my mouth?”

“I do.”

“Do you like it, or do you love it?”

“I fucking love it.”

“And I love it when you start cursing, beautiful. You’re very riled up now, aren’t you?” he contently grinned between your legs, “Does it feel better than me fucking you?”

“It’s– They– They are different things.”

“Do you touch yourself to it, too?”

Too. Even in a compromising situation like this, he somehow managed to make you contemplate the semantic intentions behind his words. Did that actually mean–?

“I touch myself to the thought of going down on you a lot,” he gently kissed your clit upon your silence, “Makes me cum so much. Your taste is out of this world.”

Hyunjin peppered kisses all over your crotch and inner thighs as you kept trying to break free of your restraints in vain and finally signaled the segue into the crescendo segment of this theme song to hell.

“Do you want me to make you cum?”

“Yes! Yes, please.”

“Say it.”

“I want you— I want—  make me—”

“Louder. Properly.”

The scream that ripped from your throat came so deep from your diaphragm that it felt like somebody was pressing hot iron on your skin.

“FUCKING DO IT ALREADY!!!”

And the smile on Hyunjin’s lips that harbored nothing other than manuscripts filled with sins right at the moment you lost it for good… It was way more wicked than his beauty. 

“With pleasure.”

He closed his eyes, wrapped his hands around your thighs, and trapped your clit between his lips just like you asked him to, gliding his tongue all over it and producing all kinds of lewd sounds due to how sloppily he ate you out. You were so on the edge already that it wasn’t going to take you maybe thirty seconds to cross that finish line. When your legs started shaking around him, Hyunjin took it as his cue to increase the decibel of his moans.

“Remember,” he spoke against your folds with his eyes shut, “My name. Scream it.”

Then he started lapping at your clit so fast with such loud moans that even if you wanted to contain your screams inside, there was no way you’d be able to do that. You came so hard, and if you weren’t pinned to your place, you would be violently thrashing on his bed. Ever the generous pleaser, Hyunjin finally caved and gave you what you quite literally begged for.

But why on earth did you even consider he would let you be once you got what you wanted?

“No, stop. STOP!”

“But I won't,” Hyunjin spoke against your folds quivering from sensitivity, “You kept asking for this. Now you’re gonna sit there and feed me until I'm full.”

He kept gliding his tongue all over your clit with his eyes closed accompanied by his content hums and sheer appetite like he was starved to death for weeks. Although it still felt really good, it was just too much to endure. The urge bubbling inside you not too long ago due to frustration came back again at full force, but this time you didn’t try to suppress it and let your tears fall.

“Hyunjin, please!”

“When are you gonna realize I eat this pussy for my own pleasure?” he dragged a long stripe from your entrance up to your clit, “I told you I have no self-control, didn't I? Nobody told you to be this fucking seductive and entice me. This is your fault.”

Mind over matter? Yeah, right. Although there were tears falling from your face, you also had this urge to hysterically laugh at it. Meanwhile, Hyunjin was just in his own world between your legs, pleasuring himself by excessively pleasuring you.

“God, yes, just melt on my tongue,” he chuckled against your skin, “Fucking love it when you’re this sensitive because of me.”

Although Hyunjin refused to stop by any means, his ministrations got a little gentler to allow you to endure the feeling, and he began alternating between his targets rather than solely focusing on your clit. Kisses on your labia, licks into your entrance, slurps on your juices. You had no choice but to cum again.

“Just like that. Keep cumming in my mouth, I know you got it in you,” he placed soothing kisses on your soaked thighs, “And I’m gonna drag every single one of those orgasms out of you. No matter how long it takes.”

Hyunjin paused the extravagant attention he was giving you, and allowed a brief refractory period for you to breathe. While you were trying to remember what year it was, he reached for his drawer and picked out several toys carefully as if he was trying to decide what to wear that night, eventually settling on a clear dildo.

“No matter what the means are,” he flashed a perverse vermillion smile while settling between your thighs again, “Let’s go one more time, beautiful.”

By then, you were so drenched that when Hyunjin slowly pushed the toy inside, the lewd squelch it made was clearly audible. The curvature of the dildo was reaching just the right spot inside you, and that change of sensation was more than welcome, letting your sore clit recuperate for a while. If Hyunjin asked you right then whether this felt better than him eating you out, you would definitely say yes. Nevertheless, after what he deemed was an appropriate amount of time passed, his obsession, or fixation for that matter, prevailed and he lowered himself between your legs again.

“You know I just can’t leave you alone, beautiful.”

You were writhing under him as he kept fucking you while eating you out, eventually inducing a third orgasm in you. You were in no state to think what he would finally consider enough, and although the tears kept streaming down your face, much to your surprise, you realized how much you loved this twisted alloy of pleasure and pain.

“More. Cum for me more,” Hyunjin slurped on your clit, “Give me everything. All of you.”

He gently pulled the dildo out of you and picked up another assault weapon to serve his ulterior motives. From the looks of it, it was a vibrator with a clitoral stimulator attached to it.

“If I could, I would lick the most sensitive spots inside you myself,” Hyunjin declared while opening a bottle of lube, “but since I’m not able to…”

Although you were soaking wet, he still coated the toy in an ample amount of lube for good measure, and slid it inside you until the tip of the vibrator made contact with the end of your walls. He aligned the exterior stimulator against your clit and when he pressed on, you jolted due to the intense feeling even though it was at the lowest frequency.

“Feels great, doesn't it? Like I'm actually licking you there, too.”

Hyunjin kept watching your face with his lips parted, heavily breathing and nodding to the rhythm of your moans. You didn’t know what was more arousing; the way he was this turned on untouched simply by making an absolute mess out of you, face getting more contorted the louder you moaned, or the sheer physical ministrations drowning your body. You were loudly crying by the time he made you cum for the fourth time consecutively.

“So beautiful. God, so, so, so beautiful,” he kept admiring your throbbing pussy, “Look at you. Fucking look at you.”

You were so disoriented by then you had no idea for how long you were at this. Hyunjin pulled the toy out of you and climbed on top of you to let you properly come down this time.

“You’re so damn pretty when you cry out of pleasure. You fucking mess me up,” he hissed with a frowned face and began drowning your face in soothing kisses, “I know you’re very sensitive right now.”

No. Sensitive wasn't the right word. It was not even remotely related to what he put you through, let alone covering the meaning of what ‘sensitive’ actually was. He wiped the tears off your face with his thumb and looked straight into your eyes.

“Do you want me?”

If the question was ‘Do you desire me?’, it would have been fine. There was nothing more erotic than his mere presence, nobody sexier dead or alive, but your response was loaded with an inevitable doom either way. If you said no, you risked stopping this insanity of ecstasy for good and you weren't sure whether you were ready to let that go yet, not to mention that would be the biggest lie you had ever told. If you said yes, on the other hand, he was for sure going to make you sob. Uncontrollably.

You nodded nevertheless.

“Then let’s fuck, beautiful. You’re just the right amount of wet for me,” Hyunjin took your lips between his and kissed you for what seemed like an eternity, “You’re about to feel something you’ve never felt before. I promise.”

‘Just the right amount’ meaning your inner thighs were drenched in your own cum. He pulled out a dagger from his drawer and cut the ropes to finally free you of your captivity. When Hyunjin undressed himself and got on his knees, you noticed just how much he was leaking. Pure salivation material.

“You’re- You’re not gonna use protection?”

“No,” Hyunjin declared with a firm voice, “I’m gonna fuck you raw tonight. I need direct contact with your skin, and if an accident happens, so be it.”

You clenched. He glanced down at the way you were throbbing and darted his eyes up at you again, slightly suspicious of whether what he was assuming was true or not.

“Don’t mind if I have my way with you when you’re carrying my child.”

You clenched again, immediately prompting a devilish smile to spill on his lips as he came closer to you.

“You don’t mind either, do you? You don’t mind me quenching my thirst from these pretty nipples? I hear they’re supposed to grow when you’re pregnant,” he brushed his fingers against your breasts and softly whispered, “I hear you’re supposed to be extra sensitive. Just imagine the heights I can take you to. It’s gonna be fucking unreal.”

Gonna be. Like he was actually about to do it. 

Hyunjin finally aligned himself with your entrance and even though he just pushed the tip in, he noticed how comfortably he could slide in with one easy move.

“GOD, you’re so fucking wet. Gonna make me blow just a few pumps in.”

The real thing. Nothing could compare to the real thing. Nothing could compare to the unmatched body control Hyunjin had, knowing exactly how to move inside you, how to give you that feeling of fullness, just how to drive you fucking crazy.

“Feel me throbbing inside you?”

“Yes, I do. I do!” you responded with what came out as a desperate moan.

“I fucking love it when you react to me like that.”

Hyunjin buried himself into you to the hilt and picked up his pace, absolutely loving the way he was disappearing into you so easily.

“Look how well you take it, my fucking god,” he sank his fingertips into your legs, “You take it so well. You take it exactly like you should.”

Maybe you shouldn’t have liked the feeling of claim this much, but then again, everything you thought was true about the acts of passion went out the window the second you let Hyunjin touch you. He was doing it again. He was making you question so many things in the most gratifying way possible, and it was going to feel this good every time, you would rather slap yourself than complain about it. You started clenching around him.

“Ah, just like that. Force it out of me now. Force me.”

“Closer,” you grabbed his waist and pulled his body towards you, “Tell me how good it feels.”

“So good. So fucking good. FUCK!” Hyunjin kept ramming himself into you with shortened breath, “You’re the sexiest fucking thing to ever exist, beautiful.”

You held his sweat-covered face between your hands and locked your eyes with Hyunjin’s darkened gaze, down so bad with how overwhelmed he was by desire.

“You do know I deserve that load, right?”

“Yes.”

“You’re gonna fill me up or what?”

“Yes. Oh, god, YES!” Hyunjin pressed his forehead against yours, “With a pussy this pretty, how could I not fill you up? Never wanna pull out of you again. Ever.”

His rhythm reached a dangerous point courtesy of how much you managed to turn him on with your mere words, threatening to drill you into that mattress. You held onto his shoulders like you were trying to hold on to dear life.

“Just– Harder– God!”

“Of course you deserve it, beautiful. You fucking deserve to be creampied by your prince.”

“Hyunjin…”

It was reflexive. Even if you wanted to form a full sentence with verbs and everything, he was fucking your wits out of you, so the only word you could remember was his name. When it came out as a sultry moan like that, it cracked a whip on Hyunjin’s back at full force.

“Look at me, princess. Don’t take your eyes off of me,” he pierced two holes into your soul with labored breathing, “Say it again. Make me cum to your pretty face.”

“Hyunjin.”

“Again.”

“Hyunjin.”

“Again!”

“Hyunjin!”

“SCREAM IT!”

“HYUNJIN!”

This was a brand-new sight, but damn was it still a strikingly jaw-dropping one. His eyes squeezed shut, letting out animalistic groans like he was gasping for air while shooting his entire load in your deepest corners, just riding out his orgasm like he was in a trance, mumbling things to himself with every thrust in an utterly fucked-out voice.

“God… Yes… Yes… Where it belongs… Fuck… Fuck!!!”

It was his turn to be dragged through hell for a change. The second a drop of sanity spread through your synapses, you wrapped your legs around his waist and started clenching with all your might.

“S-stop. Stop milking me, I’m gonna get hard again!”

You inadvertently laughed at giving him a taste of his own medicine. Granted, this was nothing compared to what he put you through, but it was still nice to know what you were able to do to him if the fancy ever struck.

“What’s so funny? You like the idea of getting me hard again?” Hyunjin wiped the sweat off his forehead with the back of his hand. Your response came out mixed with a yawn.

“Maybe I do.”

“You do, huh? Maybe I like the idea of getting you wet again,” Hyunjin reciprocated the smirk on your face far from translating into affection, “but I’ll clean you up first.”

Your eyelids felt so heavy that you weren’t gonna be able to keep them open for much longer, yet you snapped them open and jolted in your place when you felt Hyunjin’s tongue at your entrance.

“Hyunj–”

“Shh, I’m just cleaning you up,” he grabbed your wrists to prevent you from stopping him, “I should have done this long ago. Did you know you taste even better with my flavor?” 

You let yourself fall back to the bed again as Hyunjin kept eating his own cum out of you. You were way too spent to even resist him at that point.

“Feel free to fall asleep, princess,” he kissed your thighs for the billionth time that night, “Just know that I’ll fuck you awake a couple of times until the morning.”

“Her excellency is expecting you at her chambers this evening after dinner time.”

Sometimes no matter how much you wanted to say ‘Bro, what?’ to a guard, you just had to swallow it. What could she possibly have to discuss with y—

Wait a second.

It was true that you lost all sense of logic while getting drunk on Hyunjin on quiet nights, but one fact still remained intact: her majesty was not supposed to know about her son’s dirty little secrets. Was that what she wanted to talk to you about because if so, you were – in the very literal sense of the word – royally fucked.

For your first visit to the main residence, you were escorted by guards after guards after guards in different floors and halls like you were some ambassador carrying state secrets. The sixth guard opened the door for you to walk into the corridor leading to the queen’s chambers. You took a deep breath and started walking to your target when—

“Princess?”

You jumped in your place upon that voice echoing in the quiet corridor. When you turned around you saw Hyunjin in a much different attire than his usual night robe. He was clad in a black one with elegant silvery white embroidery around his collar and sleeves and a matching black and white shirt underneath. You briefly wondered whether the royal wardrobe had always consisted of combat boots.

“What are you doing here?”

“I uh– I’m– Her majesty wanted to see me.”

“She did, huh?” he checked you out from head to toe and spoke before leaving, “Tell her I said hi.”

You would be lying if you said it didn’t feel uncomfortable at all. Except for the surprised namecalling, Hyunjin’s overall demeanor was really cold like he didn’t even know you. Then again, what were you expecting right in front of the queen’s chambers? For him to declare his undying love for you?

“Enter.”

Wow, okay, no ‘Come in’ like a regular person. Sure.

“You asked for me, your majesty?”

“Ah, yes.”

Damn, this woman possessed the aura of a thousand empresses. Even when she politely smiled, you were still internally yelling ‘What am I doing wrong?!’ at maximum volume. When the guard said ‘her chambers’, for some reason you imagined her own room, but this large hall seemed more like a place she hosted people in, somewhere between a study and a living room.

Jesus christ, why the fuck would the queen ask to meet in her private chambers like you are BFFs? Way to get ahead of yourself…

“Starting today,” Hyejin floated towards the little teapot she had on an ornate ebony table, “we will be commencing your training and every time you're here, you will be sleeping in the guest room on this floor.”

“My training?”

“Yes. You do remember me saying I could teach you a thing or two, no?”

You glued your eyes to her hands. Hyejin made pouring tea look like an ancient art. You remembered the texture of these delicate cups; Hyunjin had a similar pair in his little room on your floor. She pushed your mug towards you, gave you the teapot, and gestured at her empty one.

“Now you pour it for me.”

That was it? You were supposed to pour tea?

You just mimicked the way she filled your cup to a T, but her expression gave away that she was more than content.

“You are indeed a keen observer, aren’t you?”

Maybe, but Hyejin still gave you no explanation as to why you were summoned that day. While you kept looking at her with questioning eyes, she got up to her feet.

“Rise.”

You stood up. She started floating towards the door this time.

“Walk with me.”

Hyejin kept walking two steps ahead of you for some time. Then she slowed down and made way for you to lead. You kept walking straight to the door.

“Don’t droop your shoulders. Head high.”

You did as she said, still having no clue why you were subjected to this manners training, not the mention from the queen herself.

“Turn around. Walk towards me.”

You softened your movements based on a quick calculation of what the queen might have been expecting of you. She just stood there in the middle of the ginormous hall with her hands clasped right under her bosom.

“Hands in front of you. Gracefully.”

You copied her posture exactly, and she didn’t give any further instructions until you stood right in front of her.

“Thank you,” Hyejin slowly bowed, which immediately prompted you to do your usual 90-degree bow across her. You heard disapproving tutting coming from above you.

“Not like that. We are two peers at a dojo. Again.”

If somebody told you you would be practicing casual greetings with the queen several months ago, you would ask them which psych ward they were residing at, but there you were.

“Why are you doing this for me, your highness?”

“I’ve always wanted a daughter I can teach these to,” Hyejin lovingly responded while returning to the table, “Between you and me, my sons are little rascals when it comes to things like these.”

Ooh lady, if you only knew…

“Say, do you know what adult ceremonies are, child?” she asked while taking a polite sip from her porcelain cup.

“Yes, your highness. It’s the 21st birthdays of the royal blood.”

“I’ve seen your health reports,” she folded her hands on her lap, “I am aware that you are not a virgin.”

What even…? Not only that was none of anyone’s goddamn business, why was that in your health reports in the first place?

“Does that displease you?”

“On the contrary,” she softly tilted her head, “I did ask you to teach a thing or two to the residents of this estate, didn’t I?”

This could not be headed to somewhere good, solely judging from the way she was wording it. You opted for not jumping to conclusions and kept your composure instead.

“What does that mean exactly?”

“I would like you to escort my son during his adult ceremony.” 

“Escort?”

“It’s just for one night. There will be some festivities thrown in his honor and you’re going to accompany him. You can wear whatever you would wear outside for spending time with your peers for casual celebrations,” then her tone of voice changed drastically like she wanted you to understand how important her following words were, “You are not to see him again after that and you will not divulge this information to him.”

Did you even have a say in this matter? Her excellency could say ‘She would like you to do’ things all she wanted, but you were well aware it actually translated into ‘You will do’ the aforementioned things, or else. 

Still, the news of not being able to see Hyunjin again…

“What exactly am I going to be teaching him?”

“How to please a woman. He’s waited long enough.”

HAHAHAHA, BITCH YOU THOUGHT!

It took everything in your power not to snort, but more importantly, it was appalling how her majesty seemed to be genuinely unaware of what was going on within her own walls. Really? She really believed that her own flesh and blood was able to declare war against his most basic needs? Whatever the fuck happened to the notorious intelligence channels of the royal estate?

This was not a request of course; it was an order. How convenient was it that you were invited to some familiar territory? Why, of course, you could escort his grace for one night.

For one last night, apparently.

“You are also to make sure he doesn’t touch anybody else that night. Understood?”

Sure, I’ll also be his chaperone while I’m at it I guess.

“I consider it an honor, your highness.”

On the other side of the medallion were things you were unaware of, of course. Hyejin knew what a huge risk this was. One night could ruin a lot of things, or worse, it could leave you begging for more of the things you could not have. She should have known; she had made the same mistake long ago. Twenty-one years ago to be precise. 

It took incessant insistence on Hyejin’s part, but the apple of her eye finally spilled his guts and made it crystal clear to her that he didn’t want to have anything to do with some imported streetwalker, very unlike the tendencies of his father. Not the actual one, the one on paper. He said he wanted you. How could she say no? How could she deny her baby the one thing he asked for after all those years of waiting? This was her way of giving a gift to her favorite son.

Unlike the other one, he had deserved it after all.

Self-control. The virtue of a future king. The key to his freedom and eventual happiness. Chris had to prove he had it, and damn did he do one hell of a job.

“Your excellency?”

Hyunjin knocked on his older brother’s door and peeked inside just to find him lounging on a leather sofa, reading what seemed like one of his favorite poetry books.

“Nervous?”

“Not really.”

“You’re becoming a man tonight,” Hyunjin declared in an exaggeratedly sultry voice, “I thought you’d be looking forward to it.”

“It’s just a party. We’re gonna eat, drink, and get wasted probably.”

“You’re also gonna pop your cherry, man, come on,” Hyunjin slapped his brother on the back, “One of us is finally getting some.”

Lying through his teeth like it was nothing. As if he hadn’t started fucking all the entertainers the second he turned legal out of pure spite. Hyunjin had already made through the entire roster twice by then. He even had his favorites.

But those favorites were reserved for either nights of great triumphs or great sorrow.

“Such classy language, your grace,” Chris chuckled and put a bookmark on the page he stopped reading, “How you even lasted this long is beyond me.”

“I keep telling you. There are shitloads of toys you could utilize.”

“Or you could have let me borrow yours.”

“I don’t share. Find your own,” Hyunjin replied curtly and batted his eyelashes at Chris, “Or is it too much for your toxic masculinity, sword boy?”

“HEY!”

He loudly cackled at the rise he was able to get out of Chris. Meanwhile, his brother didn’t seem all that enthused about the night on the horizon.

“I really want you there, Hyun. Can’t you sneak out?”

“It’s fine, brother. You have fun tonight for both of us. You deserve it,” he slapped the older’s shoulder again, “The second you come back I want all the details, though.”

Hyunjin was not allowed to attend Chris’ adult ceremony for he was not an ‘adult’ in the eyes of the royal council, but more importantly, he got a hold of the information of who Chris’ escort was going to be that night. While his initial motive was to stop seeing whoever his brother’s assigned company for that night was going to be…

It was plain unbearable even thinking of you and him together in whatever capacity, so he had to distract himself in the only way he knew how. Just like he did the day before when you weren’t in your room doing god knows what. 

Why weren’t you in your room? Where could you have possibly gone?

Hyunjin got so damn upset at your absence that he invited Chris out for a night drive to seemingly blow off some steam. Then he went back to his catharsis room to get high. If you were back, he was prepared to get rid of whoever was waiting for him in that bed. He could have made you come to your senses in his arms instead, but you didn’t show up.

‘Hit this and strip. It’s time to play.’

Hyunjin had to shut down for the night. Otherwise, he was either going to make himself go certifiably insane, or do something very very stupid. When he appeared in your corridor again, he looked at your door for some time, currently basked in total darkness. He clenched his teeth in the utter frustration of not being able to do jack shit about any of this and slid his door open.

“Hope I didn’t make you wait for too long, kittens,” he said while untying his belt, “My brother’s turning 21 tonight. We’re gonna have a little celebration of our own.”

…for nights of great triumphs or great sorrow.

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chapter two : shifted ⤑ ❝ “voice heavy with desperation, chan hisses, “You’re mine.” // “am i? am i yours, channie?” you question, “who else can say so?” ❞

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⌁ pairing; alpha!bang chan x alpha!reader (f.)

⌁ genre; established relationship, secret lovers, werewolf au, soulmate au, angst, smut, 18+

⌁ word count; 8k

⌁ warnings; switch!chan (much more sub this time), ass enthusiast!chan, big dicc!chan, (chan is also a total simp for reader), switch!reader (much more dom this time), (reader is highkey thick/curvy), handjob, slight oral (f. receiving), masturbation (f.), degradation, humiliation, dirty talk, bondage, orgasm control, orgasm denial, begging, ball stepping, fingering, a little dry humping, biting, teasing, choking, edging, pain kink, size kink, nipple play, spit play, foot play

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Lounge Act: Part One

For Yunho, living with you and San was all well and good until Seonghwa moved in and asked you to be his girlfriend. Night after night he has to listen to the antics of someone else having you the way he wishes he could have you. San just wants everyone to get along and the neighbor Hongjoong won’t stop bringing you fucking fruit baskets. 

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WORDCOUNT― 18.1k

PAIRING―  seonghwa x afab reader, yunho x afab reader | various lgbt+ side relationships

CONTENT― infidelity, angst, jealous yunho, comedy, halloween party, angst, curse words, possesive seonghwa, seonghwa is a little shit and knows what he’s doing (aka he’s a bad friend to yunho), hella halloween party vibes, drinking. 

SIDE CHARACTERS― hongjoong as the annoying neighbor who has a thing for every man in his life, mingi as the vibe guy who likes hongjoong, san as the chaotic best friend and room mate, wooyoung as san’s love interest, yeosang as the guy who throws the party, jongho is the nice pizza guy 

WARNINGS― this is an old fic but it’s my baby. everyone in this fic is gay except for yunho, seonghwa, and reader, meaning, all male side characters are dating or interested in each other. reminder that i do not ship these people in real life, this is fiction.  !! Reader has hickies and marks that are visible against her skin, the hickey itself is not spoken about in detail but, it is noticeable for characters in the fic so. Please read with caution if you feel it can pull you out of the story. !! 

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A World Without Her

Chapter 15: But You Lost What You Had

-Summary-

The other world, were all things come to die. Octavia learns the hard way.

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➭ “You are at the very top of your college cohort, an A grade student on the fast track to a life of success. You know the answers to everything, or at least you think you do. That is until you meet quirky genius Kim Taehyung.”

pairing: taehyung x reader

genre: smut, fluff, college au, college rivals au, librarian!tae

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Desperate Confessions

For @godscursedd ! Thank you so much for the request 💖

Word count: 1026

After Emilia had her confirmations that Wrath did indeed keep some truths from her and storms out of the protected castle she stops just for a minute to get her breath. That minute is enough for Wrath to finally gather all his courage to be open with her and stop her from leaving. Moments of honesty ensure confessions and breathless kisses.

Dark lines are words from Sh*t Blvd by Måneskin

Discovering that Wrath has been lying all along tore at Emilia’s heart. She has started to warm up to him, even wishing to be closer to him. What now? She can't just throw all the feelings away and pretend that nothing happened in hopes that Wrath would still help her find her sister’s murderer.

Slamming the castle’s door behind herself after leaving Wrath on edge and in despair, Emilia slid down to the ground and plucked the flowers from her hair. Halting for a second to let a single tear slip she gathered herself and looked over the darkening landscape. Staying here would be an awful decision, yes she would be protected from any vengeful forces but seeing Wrath’s face and knowing that he indeed was after one last soul… It felt like one more heartless betrayal in the chain of awful situations from the past weeks. Maybe Wrath felt something akin to love towards her but she’ll never know now and how could she believe that a demon princess could have any real soft emotions, so she stood to take a step away from any hopeful dreams she was leaving behind in that damned castle.

Suddenly the door behind her flew open, crashing into the wall and Wrath froze in his step, looking over Emilia with wide eyes that held too many emotions in them at once. Emilia gasped at that, she truly thought that after that outburst Wrath would hate her a little more and never come back to search for her again.

Wrath was leaning on the doorway with one hand, looking down at Emilia with desperation to say everything that was on his mind but holding back for the sake of letting her speak first, whatever angry words she’d throw at him, he could take it. His shirt was still dishevelled and his appearance made Emilia take a step back for a heartbeat and then her anger sent her forward, palm slapping against his chest and heated eyes glaring into his.

“What?! You have more to say? Want to make it hurt as a farewell?” Emilia smacked a fist into his chest now and watched Wrath shake a little at the impact. She knew he’d usually not sway even if she landed a harder blow, so she suddenly understood that he had all of his guards down for her right now.

“No,” Wrath took her clenched fists into his large palms and brought them up to kiss over Emilia’s knuckles. “Never want you to be hurt by my actions I-” Emilia’s eyebrows shoot up at his openness and she tries to tug her hands back, not ready to hear any tender words from the demon.

“Emilia, please. Let me explain everything so we could be on the same page here,” Wrath looked at her with endless hope, lowering her arms and huffing a nervous laugh at her scowl.

“You had plenty of chances to do so, yet you didn’t,” Emilia dropped the tension in her hands and her shoulders fell in defeat, clearly showing Wrath how she felt and how she wanted to stay.

“I know, I could tell you but I was scared that you would still lash out and I would lose you just as you started to open up to me.” Wrath’s words were too soft, too tender for a wicked price and Emilia closed her eyes to grasp some clarity.

“Maybe lately you began to trust me,” Wrath whispered to her, his breath fanning over Emilia’s cheek, his face coming to rest against hers and one of his hands slipped to lay on her waist in question. Emilia let her guards down completely and laid her head on Wrath’s sturdy shoulder.

“So baby, stay here. Please darling, have no fear,” he slid his hands further around Emilia’s waist, tugging her clothes and burying his face in her shoulder in return. Squeezing her once in his tight embrace he slightly swayed her from side to side, hoping to ease any remaining tension. “This is my dream, do you wanna live it?” Wrath whispered even more quietly, almost not audible but Emilia heard and gasped at his honesty.

“Yes, foolish right? A mighty demon gets summoned here and still, falls for his captor,” Wrath chuckles sadly and Emilia wiggles her way out of his crushing hug, freeing her hands to lay them on his shoulders.

“What?” She looked at Wrath in disbelief, he bites his lip in a nervous gesture and looks away for a second. Emilia softly cups his cheeks and turns him to look into her eyes, to know and see for sure that what he meant was honest. She saw his eyes, saw the need and hope in them.

Leaning lower Wrath pushes his forehead against hers, hands sliding up and down her waist as he gathers himself up. “ Emilia please don't leave, I'll answer all of your questions, fully. No holding back. I need you,” Wrath sighed when her hands trailed over his chest, dipping down and coming to hug him around his waist and circling her arms up to tug him closer by the back of his shoulders.

“One lie, if I sense one lie your dagger will be nudged deep into your heart,” Emilia said firmly and before Wrath could react she caught his lips in a tender kiss. So much calmer than the first one, so much more meaningful and honest. No ill intentions and no holding back. Wrath whimpered into the kiss, needy hands roaming over Emilia’s back and trying to get her closer, engulf her completely, feel her against him and feel her heartbeat on his. One of his hands found its way on Emilia’s cheek and his rough thumb traced over her cheekbones, angling her face to get more, feel more of her and lightly nibble on her lower lip.

Breaking away for just a second Wrath glanced over Emilia’s face, completely open and so relaxed. He wished for that look to never leave her features and leaned into the desperate kiss again, the saccharine feeling of her lips on his leaving him with a flushed face and trembling heart.

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